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<h3>CHAPTER XXXVIII.</h3>
<h4>DOCTOR CROFTS IS CALLED IN.<br/> </h4>
<p>Mrs. Dale had not sat long in her drawing-room before tidings were
brought to her which for a while drew her mind away from that
question of her removal. "Mamma," said Bell, entering the room, "I
really do believe that Jane has got scarlatina." Jane, the
parlour-maid, had been ailing for the last two days, but nothing
serious had hitherto been suspected.</p>
<p>Mrs. Dale instantly jumped up. "Who is with her?" she asked.</p>
<p>It appeared from Bell's answer that both she and Lily had been with
the girl, and that Lily was still in the room. Whereupon Mrs. Dale
ran upstairs, and there was on the sudden a commotion in the house.
In an hour or so the village doctor was there, and he expressed an
opinion that the girl's ailment was certainly scarlatina. Mrs. Dale,
not satisfied with this, sent off a boy to Guestwick for Dr. Crofts,
having herself maintained an opposition of many years' standing
against the medical reputation of the apothecary, and gave a positive
order to the two girls not to visit poor Jane again. She herself had
had scarlatina, and might do as she pleased. Then, too, a nurse was
hired.</p>
<p>All this changed for a few hours the current of Mrs. Dale's thoughts:
but in the evening she went back to the subject of her morning
conversation, and before the three ladies went to bed, they held
together an open council of war upon the subject. Dr. Crofts had been
found to be away from Guestwick, and word had been sent on his behalf
that he would be over at Allington early on the following morning.
Mrs. Dale had almost made up her mind that the malady of her
favourite maid was not scarlatina, but had not on that account
relaxed her order as to the absence of her daughters from the maid's
bedside.</p>
<p>"Let us go at once," said Bell, who was even more opposed to any
domination on the part of her uncle than was her mother. In the
discussion which had been taking place between them the whole matter
of Bernard's courtship had come upon the carpet. Bell had kept her
cousin's offer to herself as long as she had been able to do so; but
since her uncle had pressed the subject upon Mrs. Dale, it was
impossible for Bell to remain silent any longer. "You do not want me
to marry him, mamma; do you?" she had said, when her mother had
spoken with some show of kindness towards Bernard. In answer to this,
Mrs. Dale had protested vehemently that she had no such wish, and
Lily, who still held to her belief in Dr. Crofts, was almost equally
animated. To them all, the idea that their uncle should in any way
interfere in their own views of life, on the strength of the
pecuniary assistance which they had received from him, was peculiarly
distasteful. But it was especially distasteful that he should presume
to have even an opinion as to their disposition in marriage. They
declared to each other that their uncle could have no right to object
to any marriage which either of them might contemplate as long as
their mother should approve of it. The poor old squire had been right
in saying that he was regarded with suspicion. He was so regarded.
The fault had certainly been his own, in having endeavoured to win
the daughters without thinking it worth his while to win the mother.
The girls had unconsciously felt that the attempt was made, and had
vigorously rebelled against it. It had not been their fault that they
had been brought to live in their uncle's house, and made to ride on
his ponies, and to eat partially of his bread. They had so eaten, and
so lived, and declared themselves to be grateful. The squire was good
in his way, and they recognized his goodness; but not on that account
would they transfer to him one jot of the allegiance which as
children they owed to their mother. When she told them her tale,
explaining to them the words which their uncle had spoken that
morning, they expressed their regret that he should be so grieved;
but they were strong in assurances to their mother that she had been
sinned against, and was not sinning.</p>
<p>"Let us go at once," said Bell.</p>
<p>"It is much easier said than done, my dear."</p>
<p>"Of course it is, mamma; else we shouldn't be here now. What I mean
is this,—let us take some necessary first step at once. It is clear
that my uncle thinks that our remaining here should give him some
right over us. I do not say that he is wrong to think so. Perhaps it
is natural. Perhaps, in accepting his kindness, we ought to submit
ourselves to him. If that be so, it is a conclusive reason for our
going."</p>
<p>"Could we not pay him rent for the house," said Lily, "as Mrs. Hearn
does? You would like to remain here, mamma, if you could do that?"</p>
<p>"But we could not do that, Lily. We must choose for ourselves a
smaller house than this, and one that is not burdened with the
expense of a garden. Even if we paid but a moderate rent for this
place, we should not have the means of living here."</p>
<p>"Not if we lived on toast and tea?" said Lily, laughing.</p>
<p>"But I should hardly wish you to live upon toast and tea; and indeed
I fancy that I should get tired of such a diet myself."</p>
<p>"Never, mamma," said Lily. "As for me, I confess to a longing after
mutton chops; but I don't think you would ever want such vulgar
things."</p>
<p>"At any rate, it would be impossible to remain here," said Bell.
"Uncle Christopher would not take rent from mamma; and even if he
did, we should not know how to go on with our other arrangements
after such a change. No; we must give up the dear old Small House."</p>
<p>"It is a dear old house," said Lily, thinking, as she spoke, more of
those late scenes in the garden, when Crosbie had been with them in
the autumn months, than of any of the former joys of her childhood.</p>
<p>"After all, I do not know that I should be right to move," said Mrs.
Dale, doubtingly.</p>
<p>"Yes, yes," said both the girls at once. "Of course you will be
right, mamma; there cannot be a doubt about it, mamma. If we can get
any cottage, or even lodgings, that would be better than remaining
here, now that we know what uncle Christopher thinks of it."</p>
<p>"It will make him very unhappy," said Mrs. Dale.</p>
<p>But even this argument did not in the least move the girls. They were
very sorry that their uncle should be unhappy. They would endeavour
to show him by some increased show of affection that their feelings
towards him were not unkind. Should he speak to them they would
endeavour to explain to him that their thoughts towards him were
altogether affectionate. But they could not remain at Allington
increasing their load of gratitude, seeing that he expected a certain
payment which they did not feel themselves able to render.</p>
<p>"We should be robbing him, if we stayed here," Bell
declared;—"wilfully robbing him of what he believes to be his just
share of the bargain."</p>
<p>So it was settled among them that notice should be given to their
uncle of their intention to quit the Small House of Allington.</p>
<p>And then came the question as to their new home. Mrs. Dale was aware
that her income was at any rate better than that possessed by Mrs.
Eames, and therefore she had fair ground for presuming that she could
afford to keep a house at Guestwick. "If we do go away, that is what
we must do," she said.</p>
<p>"And we shall have to walk out with Mary Eames, instead of Susan
Boyce," said Lily. "It won't make so much difference after all."</p>
<p>"In that respect we shall gain as much as we lose," said Bell.</p>
<p>"And then it will be so nice to have the shops," said Lily,
ironically.</p>
<p>"Only we shall never have any money to buy anything," said Bell.</p>
<p>"But we shall see more of the world," said Lily. "Lady Julia's
carriage comes into town twice a week, and the Miss Gruffens drive
about in great style. Upon the whole, we shall gain a great deal;
only for the poor old garden. Mamma, I do think I shall break my
heart at parting with Hopkins; and as to him, I shall be disappointed
in mankind if he ever holds his head up again after I am gone."</p>
<p>But in truth there was very much of sadness in their resolution, and
to Mrs. Dale it seemed as though she were managing matters badly for
her daughters, and allowing poverty and misfortune to come upon them
through her own fault. She well knew how great a load of sorrow was
lying on Lily's heart, hidden beneath those little attempts at
pleasantry which she made. When she spoke of being disappointed in
mankind, Mrs. Dale could hardly repress an outward shudder that would
betray her thoughts. And now she was consenting to take them forth
from their comfortable home, from the luxury of their lawns and
gardens, and to bring them to some small dingy corner of a provincial
town,—because she had failed to make herself happy with her
brother-in-law. Could she be right to give up all the advantages
which they enjoyed at Allington,—advantages which had come to them
from so legitimate a source,—because her own feelings had been
wounded? In all their future want of comfort, in the comfortless
dowdiness of the new home to which she would remove them, would she
not always blame herself for having brought them to that by her own
false pride? And yet it seemed to her that she now had no
alternative. She could not now teach her daughters to obey their
uncle's wishes in all things. She could not make Bell understand that
it would be well that she should marry Bernard because the squire had
set his heart on such a marriage. She had gone so far that she could
not now go back.</p>
<p>"I suppose we must move at Lady-day?" said Bell, who was in favour of
instant action. "If so, had you not better let uncle Christopher know
at once?"</p>
<p>"I don't think that we can find a house by that time."</p>
<p>"We can get in somewhere," continued Bell. "There are plenty of
lodgings in Guestwick, you know." But the sound of the word lodgings
was uncomfortable in Mrs. Dale's ears.</p>
<p>"If we are to go, let us go at once," said Lily. "We need not stand
much upon the order of our going."</p>
<p>"Your uncle will be very much shocked," said Mrs. Dale.</p>
<p>"He cannot say that it is your fault," said Bell.</p>
<p>It was thus agreed between them that the necessary information should
be at once given to the squire, and that the old, well-loved house
should be left for ever. It would be a great fall in a worldly point
of view,—from the Allington Small House to an abode in some little
street of Guestwick. At Allington they had been county
people,—raised to a level with their own squire and other squires by
the circumstance of their residence; but at Guestwick they would be
small even among the people of the town. They would be on an equality
with the Eameses, and much looked down upon by the Gruffens. They
would hardly dare to call any more at Guestwick Manor, seeing that
they certainly could not expect Lady Julia to call upon them at
Guestwick. Mrs. Boyce no doubt would patronize them, and they could
already anticipate the condolence which would be offered to them by
Mrs. Hearn. Indeed such a movement on their part would be tantamount
to a confession of failure in the full hearing of so much of the
world as was known to them.</p>
<p>I must not allow my readers to suppose that these considerations were
a matter of indifference to any of the ladies at the Small House. To
some women of strong mind, of highly-strung philosophic tendencies,
such considerations might have been indifferent. But Mrs. Dale was
not of this nature, nor were her daughters. The good things of the
world were good in their eyes, and they valued the privilege of a
pleasant social footing among their friends. They were by no means
capable of a wise contempt of the advantages which chance had
hitherto given to them. They could not go forth rejoicing in the
comparative poverty of their altered condition. But then, neither
could they purchase those luxuries which they were about to abandon
at the price which was asked for them.</p>
<p>"Had you not better write to my uncle?" said one of the girls. But to
this Mrs. Dale objected that she could not make a letter on such a
subject clearly intelligible, and that therefore she would see the
squire on the following morning. "It will be very dreadful," she
said, "but it will soon be over. It is not what he will say at the
moment that I fear so much, as the bitter reproaches of his face when
I shall meet him afterwards." So, on the following morning, she again
made her way, and now without invitation, to the squire's study.</p>
<p>"Mr. Dale," she began, starting upon her work with some confusion in
her manner, and hurry in her speech, "I have been thinking over what
we were saying together yesterday, and I have come to a resolution
which I know I ought to make known to you without a moment's delay."</p>
<p>The squire also had thought of what had passed between them, and had
suffered much as he had done so; but he had thought of it without
acerbity or anger. His thoughts were ever gentler than his words, and
his heart softer than any exponent of his heart that he was able to
put forth. He wished to love his brother's children, and to be loved
by them; but even failing that, he wished to do good to them. It had
not occurred to him to be angry with Mrs. Dale after that interview
was over. The conversation had not gone pleasantly with him; but then
he hardly expected that things would go pleasantly. No idea had
occurred to him that evil could come upon any of the Dale ladies from
the words which had then been spoken. He regarded the Small House as
their abode and home as surely as the Great House was his own. In
giving him his due, it must be declared that any allusion to their
holding these as a benefit done to them by him had been very far from
his thoughts. Mrs. Hearn, who held her cottage at half its real
value, grumbled almost daily at him as her landlord; but it never
occurred to him that therefore he should raise her rent, or that in
not doing so he was acting with special munificence. It had ever been
to him a grumbling, cross-grained, unpleasant world; and he did not
expect from Mrs. Hearn, or from his sister-in-law, anything better
than that to which he had ever been used.</p>
<p>"It will make me very happy," said he, "if it has any bearing on
Bell's marriage with her cousin."</p>
<p>"Mr. Dale, that is out of the question. I would not vex you by saying
so if I were not certain of it; but I know my child so well!"</p>
<p>"Then we must leave it to time, Mary."</p>
<p>"Yes, of course; but no time will suffice to make Bell change her
mind. We will, however, leave the subject. And now, Mr. Dale, I have
to tell you of something else;—we have resolved to leave the Small
House."</p>
<p>"Resolved on what?" said the squire, turning his eyes full upon her.</p>
<p>"We have resolved to leave the Small House."</p>
<p>"Leave the Small House!" he said, repeating her words; "and where on
earth do you mean to go?"</p>
<p>"We think we shall go into Guestwick."</p>
<p>"And why?"</p>
<p>"Ah, that is so hard to explain. If you would only accept the fact as
I tell it to you, and not ask for the reasons which have guided me!"</p>
<p>"But that is out of the question, Mary. In such a matter as that I
must ask your reasons; and I must tell you also that, in my opinion,
you will not be doing your duty to your daughters in carrying out
such an intention, unless your reasons are very strong indeed."</p>
<p>"But they are very strong," said Mrs. Dale; and then she paused.</p>
<p>"I cannot understand it," said the squire. "I cannot bring myself to
believe that you are really in earnest. Are you not comfortable
there?"</p>
<p>"More comfortable than we have any right to be with our means."</p>
<p>"But I thought you always did very nicely with your money. You never
get into debt."</p>
<p>"No; I never get into debt. It is not that, exactly. The fact is, Mr.
Dale, we have no right to live there without paying rent; but we
could not afford to live there if we did pay rent."</p>
<p>"Who has talked about rent?" he said, jumping up from his chair.
"Some one has been speaking falsehoods of me behind my back." No
gleam of the real truth had yet come to him. No idea had reached his
mind that his relatives thought it necessary to leave his house in
consequence of any word that he himself had spoken. He had never
considered himself to have been in any special way generous to them,
and would not have thought it reasonable that they should abandon the
house in which they had been living, even if his anger against them
had been strong and hot. "Mary," he said, "I must insist upon getting
to the bottom of this. As for your leaving the house, it is out of
the question. Where can you be better off, or so well? As to going
into Guestwick, what sort of life would there be for the girls? I put
all that aside as out of the question; but I must know what has
induced you to make such a proposition. Tell me honestly,—has any
one spoken evil of me behind my back?"</p>
<p>Mrs. Dale had been prepared for opposition and for reproach; but
there was a decision about the squire's words, and an air of
masterdom in his manner, which made her recognize more fully than she
had yet done the difficulty of her position. She almost began to fear
that she would lack power to carry out her purpose.</p>
<p>"Indeed, it is not so, Mr. Dale."</p>
<p>"Then what is it?"</p>
<p>"I know that if I attempt to tell you, you will be vexed, and will
contradict me."</p>
<p>"Vexed I shall be, probably."</p>
<p>"And yet I cannot help it. Indeed, I am endeavouring to do what is
right by you and by the children."</p>
<p>"Never mind me; your duty is to think of them."</p>
<p>"Of course it is; and in doing this they most cordially agree with
me."</p>
<p>In using such argument as that, Mrs. Dale showed her weakness, and
the squire was not slow to take advantage of it. "Your duty is to
them," he said; "but I do not mean by that that your duty is to let
them act in any way that may best please them for the moment. I can
understand that they should be run away with by some romantic
nonsense, but I cannot understand it of you."</p>
<p>"The truth is this, Mr. Dale. You think that my children owe to you
that sort of obedience which is due to a parent, and as long as they
remain here, accepting from your hands so large a part of their daily
support, it is perhaps natural that you should think so. In this
unhappy affair about <span class="nowrap">Bell—"</span></p>
<p>"I have never said anything of the kind," said the squire,
interrupting her.</p>
<p>"No; you have not said so. And I do not wish you to think that I make
any complaint. But I feel that it is so, and they feel it. And,
therefore, we have made up our minds to go away."</p>
<p>Mrs. Dale, as she finished, was aware that she had not told her story
well, but she had acknowledged to herself that it was quite out of
her power to tell it as it should be told. Her main object was to
make her brother-in-law understand that she certainly would leave his
house, and to make him understand this with as little pain to himself
as possible. She did not in the least mind his thinking her foolish,
if only she could so carry her point as to be able to tell her
daughters on her return that the matter was settled. But the squire,
from his words and manners, seemed indisposed to give her this
privilege.</p>
<p>"Of all the propositions which I ever heard," said he, "it is the
most unreasonable. It amounts to this, that you are too proud to live
rent-free in a house which belongs to your husband's brother, and
therefore you intend to subject yourself and your children to the
great discomfort of a very straitened income. If you yourself only
were concerned I should have no right to say anything; but I think
myself bound to tell you that, as regards the girls, everybody that
knows you will think you to have been very wrong. It is in the
natural course of things that they should live in that house. The
place has never been let. As far as I know, no rent has ever been
paid for the house since it was built. It has always been given to
some member of the family, who has been considered as having the best
right to it. I have considered your footing there as firm as my own
here. A quarrel between me and your children would be to me a great
calamity, though, perhaps, they might be indifferent to it. But if
there were such a quarrel it would afford no reason for their leaving
that house. Let me beg you to think over the matter again."</p>
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<p>The squire could assume an air of authority on certain occasions, and
he had done so now. Mrs. Dale found that she could only answer him by
a simple repetition of her own intention; and, indeed, failed in
making him any serviceable answer whatsoever.</p>
<p>"I know that you are very good to my girls," she said.</p>
<p>"I will say nothing about that," he answered; not thinking at that
moment of the Small House, but of the full possession which he had
desired to give to the elder of all the privileges which should
belong to the mistress of Allington,—thinking also of the means by
which he was hoping to repair poor Lily's shattered fortunes. What
words were further said had no great significance, and Mrs. Dale got
herself away, feeling that she had failed. As soon as she was gone
the squire arose, and putting on his great-coat, went forth with his
hat and stick to the front of the house. He went out in order that
his thoughts might be more free, and that he might indulge in that
solace which an injured man finds in contemplating his injury. He
declared to himself that he was very hardly used,—so hardly used,
that he almost began to doubt himself and his own motives. Why was it
that the people around him disliked him so strongly,—avoided him and
thwarted him in the efforts which he made for their welfare? He
offered to his nephew all the privileges of a son,—much more indeed
than the privileges of a son,—merely asking in return that he would
consent to live permanently in the house which was to be his own. But
his nephew refused. "He cannot bear to live with me," said the old
man to himself sorely. He was prepared to treat his nieces with more
generosity than the daughters of the House of Allington had usually
received from their fathers; and they repelled his kindness, running
away from him, and telling him openly that they would not be beholden
to him. He walked slowly up and down the terrace, thinking of this
very bitterly. He did not find in the contemplation of his grievance
all that solace which a grievance usually gives, because he accused
himself in his thoughts rather than others. He declared to himself
that he was made to be hated, and protested to himself that it would
be well that he should die and be buried out of memory, so that the
remaining Dales might have a better chance of living happily; and
then as he thus discussed all this within his own bosom, his thoughts
were very tender, and though he was aggrieved, he was most
affectionate to those who had most injured him. But it was absolutely
beyond his power to reproduce outwardly, with words and outward
signs, such thoughts and feelings.</p>
<p>It was now very nearly the end of the year, but the weather was still
soft and open. The air was damp rather than cold, and the lawns and
fields still retained the green tints of new vegetation. As the
squire was walking on the terrace Hopkins came up to him, and
touching his hat, remarked that they should have frost in a day or
two.</p>
<p>"I suppose we shall," said the squire.</p>
<p>"We must have the mason to the flues of that little grape-house, sir,
before I can do any good with a fire there."</p>
<p>"Which grape-house?" said the squire, crossly.</p>
<p>"Why, the grape-house in the other garden, sir. It ought to have been
done last year by rights." This Hopkins said to punish his master for
being cross to him. On that matter of the flues of Mrs. Dale's
grape-house he had, with much consideration, spared his master during
the last winter, and he felt that this ought to be remembered now. "I
can't put any fire in it, not to do any real good, till something's
done. That's sure."</p>
<p>"Then don't put any fire in it," said the squire.</p>
<p>Now the grapes in question were supposed to be peculiarly fine, and
were the glory of the garden of the Small House. They were always
forced, though not forced so early as those at the Great House, and
Hopkins was in a state of great confusion.</p>
<p>"They'll never ripen, sir; not the whole year through."</p>
<p>"Then let them be unripe," said the squire, walking about.</p>
<p>Hopkins did not at all understand it. The squire in his natural
course was very unwilling to neglect any such matter as this, but
would be specially unwilling to neglect anything touching the Small
House. So Hopkins stood on the terrace, raising his hat and
scratching his head. "There's something wrong amongst them," said he
to himself, sorrowfully.</p>
<p>But when the squire had walked to the end of the terrace and had
turned upon the path which led round the side of the house, he
stopped and called to Hopkins.</p>
<p>"Have what is needful done to the flue," he said.</p>
<p>"Yes, sir; very well, sir. It'll only be re-setting the bricks.
Nothing more ain't needful, just this winter."</p>
<p>"Have the place put in perfect order while you're about it," said the
squire, and then he walked away.</p>
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