<h2><SPAN name="CHAPTER_VI"></SPAN>CHAPTER VI</h2>
<br/>
<p>September's glory of gold and red and purple began to fade with
the autumnal equinox. It rained enough to soak the frost-bitten
leaves, and then the mountain winds sent them flying and fluttering
and scurrying to carpet the dells and spot the pools in the brooks
and color the trails. When the weather cleared and the sun rose
bright again many of the aspen thickets were leafless and bare, and
the willows showed stark against the gray sage hills, and the vines
had lost their fire. Hills and valleys had sobered with subtle
change that left them none the less beautiful.</p>
<p>A mile or more down the road from White Slides, in a protected
nook, nestled two cabins belonging to a cattleman named Andrews,
who had formerly worked for Belllounds and had recently gone into
the stock business for himself. He had a rather young wife, and
several children, and a brother who rode for him. These people were
the only neighbors of Belllounds for some ten miles on the road
toward Kremmling.</p>
<p>Columbine liked Mrs. Andrews and often rode or walked down there
for a little visit and a chat with her friend and a romp with the
children.</p>
<p>Toward the end of September Columbine found herself combating a
strong desire to go down to the Andrews ranch and try to learn some
news about Wilson Moore. If anything had been heard at White Slides
it certainly had not been told her. Jack Belllounds had ridden to
Kremmling and back in one day, but Columbine would have endured
much before asking him for information.</p>
<p>She did, however, inquire of the freighter who hauled
Belllounds's supplies, and the answer she got was awkwardly
evasive. That nettled Columbine. Also it raised a suspicion which
she strove to subdue. Finally it seemed apparent that Wilson
Moore's name was not to be mentioned to her.</p>
<p>First, in her growing resentment, she had an impulse to go to
her new friend, the hunter Wade, and confide in him not only her
longing to learn about Wilson, but also other matters that were
growing daily more burdensome. How strange for her to feel that in
some way Jack Belllounds had come between her and the old man she
loved and called father! Columbine had not divined that until
lately. She felt it now in the fact that she no longer sought the
rancher as she used to, and he had apparently avoided her. But
then, Columbine reflected, she might be entirely wrong, for when
Belllounds did meet her at meal-times, or anywhere, he seemed just
as affectionate as of old. Still he was not the same man. A chill,
an atmosphere of shadow, had pervaded the once wholesome ranch. And
so, feeling not yet well enough acquainted with Wade to confide so
intimately in him, she stifled her impulses and resolved to make
some effort herself to find out what she wanted to know.</p>
<p>As luck would have it, when she started out to walk down to the
Andrews ranch she encountered Jack Belllounds.</p>
<p>"Where are you going?" he inquired, inquisitively.</p>
<p>"I'm going to see Mrs. Andrews," she replied.</p>
<p>"No, you're not!" he declared, quickly, with a flash.</p>
<p>Columbine felt a queer sensation deep within her, a hot little
gathering that seemed foreign to her physical being, and ready to
burst out. Of late it had stirred in her at words or acts of Jack
Belllounds. She gazed steadily at him, and he returned her look
with interest. What he was thinking she had no idea of, but for
herself it was a recurrence and an emphasis of the fact that she
seemed growing farther away from this young man she had to marry.
The weeks since his arrival had been the most worrisome she could
remember.</p>
<p>"I <i>am</i> going," she replied, slowly.</p>
<p>"No!" he replied, violently. "I won't have you running off down
there to--to gossip with that Andrews woman."</p>
<p>"Oh, <i>you</i> won't?" inquired Columbine, very quietly. How
little he understood her!</p>
<p>"That's what I said."</p>
<p>"You're not my boss yet, Mister Jack Belllounds," she flashed,
her spirit rising. He could irritate her as no one else.</p>
<p>"I soon will be. And what's a matter of a week or a month?" he
went on, calming down a little.</p>
<p>"I've promised, yes," she said, feeling her face blanch, "and I
keep my promises.... But I didn't say when. If you talk like that
to me it might be a good many weeks--or--or months before I name
the day."</p>
<p>"<i>Columbine!</i>" he cried, as she turned away. There was
genuine distress in his voice. Columbine felt again an assurance
that had troubled her. No matter how she was reacting to this new
relation, it seemed a fearful truth that Jack was really falling in
love with her. This time she did not soften.</p>
<p>"I'll call dad to <i>make</i> you stay home," he burst out
again, his temper rising.</p>
<p>Columbine wheeled as on a pivot.</p>
<p>"If you do you've got less sense than I thought."</p>
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<b>"I know why you're going. It's to see that club-footed cowboy
Moore!...<br/>
Don't let me catch you with him."</b></p>
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<p>Passion claimed him then.</p>
<p>"I know why you're going. It's to see that club-footed cowboy
Moore!... Don't let me catch you with him!"</p>
<p>Columbine turned her back upon Belllounds and swung away, every
pulse in her throbbing and smarting. She hurried on into the road.
She wanted to run, not to get out of sight or hearing, but to fly
from something, she knew not what.</p>
<p>"Oh! it's more than his temper!" she cried, hot tears in her
eyes. "He's mean--<i>mean</i>--MEAN! What's the use of me denying
that--any more--just because I love dad?... My life will be
wretched.... It <i>is</i> wretched!"</p>
<p>Her anger did not last long, nor did her resentment. She
reproached herself for the tart replies that had inflamed Jack.
Never again would she forget herself!</p>
<p>"But he--he makes me furious," she cried, in sudden excuse for
herself. "What did he say? 'That club-footed cowboy Moore'!... Oh,
that was vile. He's heard, then, that poor Wilson has a bad foot,
perhaps permanently crippled.... If it's true.... But why should he
yell that he knew I wanted to see Wilson?... I did <i>not!</i> I
<i>do</i> not.... Oh, but I do, I do!"</p>
<p>And then Columbine was to learn straightway that she would
forget herself again, that she had forgotten, and that a sadder,
stranger truth was dawning upon her--she was discovering another
Columbine within herself, a wilful, passionate, different creature
who would no longer be denied.</p>
<p>Almost before Columbine realized that she had started upon the
visit she was within sight of the Andrews ranch. So swiftly had she
walked! It behooved her to hide such excitement as had dominated
her. And to that end she slowed her pace, trying to put her mind on
other matters.</p>
<p>The children saw her first and rushed upon her, so that when she
reached the cabin door she could not well have been otherwise than
rosy and smiling. Mrs. Andrews, ruddy and strong, looked the
pioneer rancher's hard-working wife. Her face brightened at the
advent of Columbine, and showed a little surprise and curiosity as
well.</p>
<p>"Laws, but it's good to see you, Columbine," was her greeting.
"You 'ain't been here for a long spell."</p>
<p>"I've been coming, but just put it off," replied Columbine.</p>
<p>And so, after the manner of women neighbors, they began to talk
of the fall round-up, and the near approach of winter with its
loneliness, and the children, all of which naturally led to more
personal and interesting topics.</p>
<p>"An' is it so, Columbine, that you're to marry Jack Belllounds?"
asked Mrs. Andrews, presently.</p>
<p>"Yes, I guess it is," replied Columbine, smiling.</p>
<p>"Humph! I'm no relative of yours or even a particular, close
friend, but I'd like to say--"</p>
<p>"Please don't," interposed Columbine.</p>
<p>"All right, my girl. I guess it's better I don't say anythin'.
It's a pity, though, onless you love this Buster Jack. An' you
never used to do that, I'll swan."</p>
<p>"No, I don't love Jack--yet--as I ought to love a husband. But
I'll try, and if--if I--I never do--still, it's my duty to marry
him."</p>
<p>"Some woman ought to talk to Bill Belllounds," declared Mrs.
Andrews with a grimness that boded ill for the old rancher.</p>
<p>"Did you know we had a new man up at the ranch?" asked
Columbine, changing the subject.</p>
<p>"You mean the hunter, Hell-Bent Wade?"</p>
<p>"Yes. But I hate that ridiculous name," said Columbine.</p>
<p>"It's queer, like lots of names men get in these parts. An'
it'll stick. Wade's been here twice; once as he was passin' with
the hounds, an' the other night. I like him, Columbine. He's
true-blue, for all his strange name. My men-folks took to him like
ducks to water."</p>
<p>"I'm glad. I took to him almost like that," rejoined Columbine.
"He has the saddest face I ever saw."</p>
<p>"Sad? Wal, yes. That man has seen a good deal of what they
tacked on to his name. I laughed when I seen him first. Little lame
fellar, crooked-legged an' ragged, with thet awful homely face! But
I forgot how he looked next time he came."</p>
<p>"That's just it. He's not much to look at, but you forget his
homeliness right off," replied Columbine, warmly. "You feel
something behind all his--his looks."</p>
<p>"Wal, you an' me are women, an' we feel different," replied Mrs.
Andrews. "Now my men-folks take much store on what Wade can
<i>do</i>. He fixed up Tom's gun, that's been out of whack for a
year. He made our clock run ag'in, an' run better than ever. Then
he saved our cow from that poison-weed. An' Tom gave her up to
die."</p>
<p>"The boys up home were telling me Mr. Wade had saved some of our
cattle. Dad was delighted. You know he's lost a good many head of
stock from this poison-weed. I saw so many dead steers on my last
ride up the mountain. It's too bad our new man didn't get here
sooner to save them. I asked him how he did it, and he said he was
a doctor."</p>
<p>"A cow-doctor," laughed Mrs. Andrews. "Wal, that's a new one on
me. Accordin' to Tom, this here Wade, when he seen our sick cow,
said she'd eat poison-weed--larkspur, I think he called it--an'
then when she drank water it formed a gas in her stomach an' she
swelled up turrible. Wade jest stuck his knife in her side a little
an' let the gas out, and she got well."</p>
<p>"Ughh!... What cruel doctoring! But if it saves the cattle, then
it's good."</p>
<p>"It'll save them if they can be got to right off," replied Mrs.
Andrews.</p>
<p>"Speaking of doctors," went on Columbine, striving to make her
query casual, "do you know whether or not Wilson Moore had his foot
treated by a doctor at Kremmling?"</p>
<p>"He did not," answered Mrs. Andrews. "Wasn't no doctor there.
They'd had to send to Denver, an', as Wils couldn't take that trip
or wait so long, why, Mrs. Plummer fixed up his foot. She made a
good job of it, too, as I can testify."</p>
<p>"Oh, I'm--very thankful!" murmured Columbine. "He'll not be
crippled or--or club-footed, then?"</p>
<p>"I reckon not. You can see for yourself. For Wils's here. He was
drove up night before last an' is stayin' with my
brother-in-law--in the other cabin there."</p>
<p>Mrs. Andrews launched all this swiftly, with evident pleasure,
but with more of woman's subtle motive. Her eyes were bent with
shrewd kindness upon the younger woman.</p>
<p>"Here!" exclaimed Columbine, with a start, and for an instant
she was at the mercy of conflicting surprise and joy and alarm.
Alternately she flushed and paled.</p>
<p>"Sure he's here," replied Mrs. Andrews, now looking out of the
door. "He ought to be in sight somewheres. He's walkin' with a
crutch."</p>
<p>"Crutch!" cried Columbine, in dismay.</p>
<p>"Yes, crutch, an' he made it himself.... I don't see him
nowheres. Mebbe he went in when he see you comin'. For he's
powerful sensitive about that crutch."</p>
<p>"Then--if he's so--so sensitive, perhaps I'd better go," said
Columbine, struggling with embarrassment and discomfiture. What if
she happened to meet him! Would he imagine her purpose in coming
there? Her heart began to beat unwontedly.</p>
<p>"Suit yourself, lass," replied Mrs. Andrews, kindly. "I know you
and Wils quarreled, for he told me. An' it's a pity.... Wal, if you
must go, I hope you'll come again before the snow flies.
Good-by."</p>
<p>Columbine bade her a hurried good-by and ventured forth with
misgivings. And almost around the corner of the second cabin, which
she had to pass, and before she had time to recover her composure,
she saw Wilson Moore, hobbling along on a crutch, holding a
bandaged foot off the ground. He had seen her; he was hurrying to
avoid a meeting, or to get behind the corrals there before she
observed him.</p>
<p>"Wilson!" she called, involuntarily. The instant the name left
her lips she regretted it. But too late! The cowboy halted, slowly
turned.</p>
<p>Then Columbine walked swiftly up to him, suddenly as brave as
she had been fearful. Sight of him had changed her.</p>
<p>"Wilson Moore, you meant to avoid me," she said, with
reproach.</p>
<p>"Howdy, Columbine!" he drawled, ignoring her words.</p>
<p>"Oh, I was so sorry you were hurt!" she burst out. "And now I'm
so glad--you're--you're ... Wilson, you're thin and pale--you've
suffered!"</p>
<p>"It pulled me down a bit," he replied.</p>
<p>Columbine had never before seen his face anything except bronzed
and lean and healthy, but now it bore testimony to pain and strain
and patient endurance. He looked older. Something in the fine,
dark, hazel eyes hurt her deeply.</p>
<p>"You never sent me word," she went on, reproachfully. "No one
would tell me anything. The boys said they didn't know. Dad was
angry when I asked him. I'd never have asked Jack. And the
freighter who drove up--he lied to me. So I came down here to-day
purposely to ask news of you, but I never dreamed you were here....
Now I'm glad I came."</p>
<p>What a singular, darkly kind, yet strange glance he gave
her!</p>
<p>"That was like you, Columbine," he said. "I knew you'd feel
badly about my accident. But how could I send word to you?"</p>
<p>"You saved--Pronto," she returned, with a strong tremor in her
voice. "I can't thank you enough."</p>
<p>"That was a funny thing. Pronto went out of his head. I hope
he's all right."</p>
<p>"He's almost well. It took some time to pick all the splinters
out of him. He'll be all right soon--none the worse for that--that
cowboy trick of Mister Jack Belllounds."</p>
<p>Columbine finished bitterly. Moore turned his thoughtful gaze
away from her.</p>
<p>"I hope Old Bill is well," he remarked, lamely.</p>
<p>"Have you told your folks of your accident?" asked Columbine,
ignoring his remark.</p>
<p>"No."</p>
<p>"Oh, Wilson, you ought to have sent for them, or have written at
least."</p>
<p>"Me? To go crying for them when I got in trouble? I couldn't see
it that way."</p>
<p>"Wilson, you'll be going--home--soon--to Denver--won't you?" she
faltered.</p>
<p>"No," he replied, shortly.</p>
<p>"But what will you do? Surely you can't work--not so soon?"</p>
<p>"Columbine, I'll never--be able to ride again--like I used to,"
he said, tragically. "I'll ride, yes, but never the old way."</p>
<p>"Oh!" Columbine's tone, and the exquisite softness and
tenderness with which she placed a hand on the rude crutch would
have been enlightening to any one but these two absorbed in
themselves. "I can't bear to believe that."</p>
<p>"I'm afraid it's true. Bad smash, Columbine! I just missed being
club-footed."</p>
<p>"You should have care. You should have.... Wilson, do you intend
to stay here with the Andrews?"</p>
<p>"Not much. They have troubles of their own. Columbine, I'm going
to homestead one hundred and sixty acres."</p>
<p>"Homestead!" she exclaimed, in amaze. "Where?"</p>
<p>"Up there under Old White Slides. I've long intended to. You
know that pretty little valley under the red bluff. There's a fine
spring. You've been there with me. There by the old cabin built by
prospectors?"</p>
<p>"Yes, I know. It's a pretty place--fine valley, but Wils, you
can't <i>live</i> there," she expostulated.</p>
<p>"Why not, I'd like to know?"</p>
<p>"That little cubby-hole! It's only a tiny one-room cabin, roof
all gone, chinks open, chimney crumbling.... Wilson, you don't mean
to tell me you want to live there alone?"</p>
<p>"Sure. What 'd you think?" he replied, with sarcasm.</p>
<p>"Expect me to <i>marry</i> some girl? Well, I wouldn't, even if
any one would have a cripple."</p>
<p>"Who--who will take care of you?" she asked, blushing
furiously.</p>
<p>"I'll take care of myself," he declared. "Good Lord! Columbine,
I'm not an invalid yet. I've got a few friends who'll help me fix
up the cabin. And that reminds me. There's a lot of my stuff up in
the bunk-house at White Slides. I'm going to drive up soon to haul
it away."</p>
<p>"Wilson Moore, do you mean it?" she asked, with grave wonder.
"Are you going to homestead near White Slides Ranch--and
<i>live</i> there--when--"</p>
<p>She could not finish. An overwhelming disaster, for which she
had no name, seemed to be impending.</p>
<p>"Yes, I am," he replied. "Funny how things turn out, isn't
it?"</p>
<p>"It's very--very funny," she said, dazedly, and she turned
slowly away without another word.</p>
<p>"Good-by, Columbine," he called out after her, with farewell,
indeed, in his voice.</p>
<p>All the way home Columbine was occupied with feelings that
swayed her to the exclusion of rational consideration of the
increasing perplexity of her situation. And to make matters worse,
when she arrived at the ranch it was to meet Jack Belllounds with a
face as black as a thunder-cloud.</p>
<p>"The old man wants to see you," he announced, with an accent
that recalled his threat of a few hours back.</p>
<p>"Does he?" queried Columbine, loftily. "From the courteous way
you speak I imagine it's important."</p>
<p>Belllounds did not deign to reply to this. He sat on the porch,
where evidently he had awaited her return, and he looked anything
but happy.</p>
<p>"Where is dad?" continued Columbine.</p>
<p>Jack motioned toward the second door, beyond which he sat, the
one that opened into the room the rancher used as a kind of office
and storeroom. As Columbine walked by Jack he grasped her
skirt.</p>
<p>"Columbine! you're angry?" he said, appealingly.</p>
<p>"I reckon I am," replied Columbine.</p>
<p>"Don't go in to dad when you're that way," implored Jack. "He's
angry, too--and--and--it'll only make matters worse."</p>
<p>From long experience Columbine could divine when Jack had done
something in the interest of self and then had awakened to possible
consequences. She pulled away from him without replying, and
knocked on the office door.</p>
<p>"Come in," called the rancher.</p>
<p>Columbine went in. "Hello, dad! Do you want me?"</p>
<p>Belllounds sat at an old table, bending over a soiled ledger,
with a stubby pencil in his huge hand. When he looked up Columbine
gave a little start.</p>
<p>"Where've you been?" he asked, gruffly.</p>
<p>"I've been calling on Mrs. Andrews," replied Columbine.</p>
<p>"Did you go thar to see her?"</p>
<p>"Why--certainly!" answered Columbine, with a slow break in her
speech.</p>
<p>"You didn't go to meet Wilson Moore?"</p>
<p>"No."</p>
<p>"An' I reckon you'll say you hadn't heerd he was there?"</p>
<p>"I had not," flashed Columbine.</p>
<p>"Wal, <i>did</i> you see him?"</p>
<p>"Yes, sir, I did, but quite by accident."</p>
<p>"Ahuh! Columbine, are you lyin' to me?"</p>
<p>The hot blood flooded to Columbine's cheeks, as if she had been
struck a blow.</p>
<p>"<i>Dad</i>!" she cried, in hurt amaze.</p>
<p>Belllounds seemed thick, imponderable, as if something had
forced a crisis in him and his brain was deeply involved. The
habitual, cool, easy, bold, and frank attitude in the meeting of
all situations seemed to have been encroached upon by a break, a
bewilderment, a lessening of confidence.</p>
<p>"Wal, are you lyin'?" he repeated, either blind to or unaware of
her distress.</p>
<p>"I could not--lie to you," she faltered, "even--if--I wanted
to."</p>
<p>The heavy, shadowed gaze of his big eyes was bent upon her as if
she had become a new and perplexing problem.</p>
<p>"But you seen Moore?"</p>
<p>"Yes--sir." Columbine's spirit rose.</p>
<p>"An' talked with him?"</p>
<p>"Of course."</p>
<p>"Lass, I ain't likin' thet, an' I ain't likin' the way you look
an' speak."</p>
<p>"I am sorry. I can't help either."</p>
<p>"What'd this cowboy say to you?"</p>
<p>"We talked mostly about his injured foot."</p>
<p>"An' what else?" went on Belllounds, his voice rising.</p>
<p>"About--what he meant to do now."</p>
<p>"Ahuh! An' thet's homesteadin' the Sage Creek Valley?"</p>
<p>"Yes, sir."</p>
<p>"Did you want him to do thet?"</p>
<p>"I! Indeed I didn't."</p>
<p>"Columbine, not so long ago you told me this fellar wasn't sweet
on you. An' do you still say that to me--are you still insistin' he
ain't in love with you?"</p>
<p>"He never said so--I never believed it ... and now I'm sure--he
isn't!"</p>
<p>"Ahuh! Wal, thet same day you was jest as sure you didn't care
anythin' particular fer him. Are you thet sure now?"</p>
<p>"No!" whispered Columbine, very low. She trembled with a
suggestion of unknown forces. Not to save a new and growing pride
would she evade any question from this man upon whom she had no
claim, to whom she owed her life and her bringing up. But something
cold formed in her.</p>
<p>Belllounds, self-centered and serious as he strangely was,
seemed to check his probing, either from fear of hearing more from
her or from an awakening of former kindness. But her reply was a
shock to him, and, throwing down his pencil with the gesture of a
man upon whom decision was forced, he rose to tower over her.</p>
<p>"You've been like a daughter to me. I've done all I knowed how
fer you. I've lived up to the best of my lights. An' I've loved
you," he said, sonorously and pathetically. "You know what my hopes
are--fer the boy--an' fer you.... We needn't waste any more talk.
From this minnit you're free to do as you like. Whatever you do
won't make any change in my carin' fer you.... But you gotta
decide. Will you marry Jack or not?"</p>
<p>"I promised you--I would. I'll keep my word," replied Columbine,
steadily.</p>
<p>"So far so good," went on the rancher. "I'm respectin' you fer
what you say.... An' now, <i>when</i> will you marry him?"</p>
<p>The little room drifted around in Columbine's vague, blank
sight. All seemed to be drifting. She had no solid anchor.</p>
<p>"Any--day you say--the sooner the--better," she whispered.</p>
<p>"Wal, lass, I'm thankin' you," he replied, with voice that
sounded afar to her. "An' I swear, if I didn't believe it's best
fer Jack an' you, why I'd never let you marry.... So we'll set the
day. October first! Thet's the day you was fetched to me a
baby--more'n seventeen years ago."</p>
<p>"October--first--then, dad," she said, brokenly, and she kissed
him as if in token of what she knew she owed him. Then she went
out, closing the door behind her.</p>
<p>Jack, upon seeing her, hastily got up, with more than concern in
his pale face.</p>
<p>"Columbine!" he cried, hoarsely. "How you look!... Tell me. What
happened? Girl, don't tell me you've--you've--"</p>
<p>"Jack Belllounds," interrupted Columbine, in tragic amaze at
this truth about to issue from her lips, "I've promised to marry
you--on October first."</p>
<p>He let out a shout of boyish exultation and suddenly clasped her
in his arms. But there was nothing boyish in the way he handled
her, in the almost savage evidence of possession. "Collie, I'm mad
about you," he began, ardently. "You never let me tell you. And
I've grown worse and worse. To-day I--when I saw you going down
there--where that Wilson Moore is--I got terribly jealous. I was
sick. I'd been glad to kill him!... It made me see how I loved you.
Oh, I didn't know. But now ... Oh, I'm mad for you!" He crushed her
to him, unmindful of her struggles; his face and neck were red; his
eyes on fire. And he began trying to kiss her mouth, but failed, as
she struggled desperately. His kisses fell upon cheek and ear and
hair.</p>
<p>"Let me--go!" panted Columbine. "You've no--no--Oh, you might
have waited." Breaking from him, she fled, and got inside her room
with the door almost closed, when his foot intercepted it.</p>
<p>Belllounds was half laughing his exultation, half furious at her
escape, and altogether beside himself.</p>
<p>"No," she replied, so violently that it appeared to awake him to
the fact that there was some one besides himself to consider.</p>
<p>"Aw!" He heaved a deep sigh. "All right. I won't try to get in.
Only listen.... Collie, don't mind my--my way of showing you how I
felt. Fact is, I went plumb off my head. Is that any wonder,
you--you darling--when I've been so scared you'd never have me?
Collie, I've felt that you were the one thing in the world I wanted
most and would never get. But now.... October first! Listen. I
promise you I'll not drink any more--nor gamble--nor nag dad for
money. I don't like his way of running the ranch, but I'll do it,
as long as he lives. I'll even try to tolerate that club-footed
cowboy's brass in homesteading a ranch right under my nose.
I'll--I'll do anything you ask of me."</p>
<p>"Then--please--go away!" cried Columbine, with a sob.</p>
<p>When he was gone Columbine barred the door and threw herself
upon her bed to shut out the light and to give vent to her
surcharged emotions. She wept like a girl whose youth was ending;
and after the paroxysm had passed, leaving her weak and strangely
changed, she tried to reason out what had happened to her. Over and
over again she named the appeal of the rancher, the sense of her
duty, the decision she had reached, and the disgust and terror
inspired in her by Jack Belllounds's reception of her promise.
These were facts of the day and they had made of her a palpitating,
unhappy creature, who nevertheless had been brave to face the
rancher and confess that which she had scarce confessed to herself.
But now she trembled and cringed on the verge of a catastrophe that
withheld its whole truth.</p>
<p>"I begin to see now," she whispered, after the thought had come
and gone and returned to change again. "If Wilson had--cared for me
I--I might have--cared, too.... But I do--care--something. I
couldn't lie to dad. Only I'm not sure--how much. I never dreamed
of--of <i>loving</i> him, or any one. It's so strange. All at once
I feel old. And I can't understand these--these feelings that shake
me."</p>
<p>So Columbine brooded over the trouble that had come to her,
never regretting her promise to the old rancher, but growing keener
in the realization of a complexity in her nature that sooner or
later would separate the life of her duty from the life of her
desire. She seemed all alone, and when this feeling possessed her a
strange reminder of the hunter Wade flashed up. She stifled another
impulse to confide in him. Wade had the softness of a woman, and
his face was a record of the trials and travails through which he
had come unhardened, unembittered. Yet how could she tell her
troubles to him? A stranger, a rough man of the wilds, whose name
had preceded him, notorious and deadly, with that vital tang of the
West in its meaning! Nevertheless, Wade drew her, and she thought
of him until the recurring memory of Jack Belllounds's rude clasp
again crept over her with an augmenting disgust and fear. Must she
submit to that? Had she promised that? And then Columbine felt the
dawning of realities.</p>
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