<h3 align="center">Chapter XIII</h3>
<p>In all growth there is emulation and striving for precedence
between the spiritual and the physical, and this very emulation may
determine the rate of progression of the whole. Sometimes the one,
sometimes the other, may be in advance, but all the time the tendency
is towards the distant goal. Sometimes the two keep abreast, and then
there is the greatest harmony in speed. In Ellen Brewster at twelve
and fifteen the spiritual outstripped the physical, as is often the
case. Her eyes grew intense and hollow with reflection under knitting
brows, her thin shoulders stooped like those of a sage bent with
study and contemplation. She was slender to emaciation; her clothes
hung loosely over her form, which seemed as sexless as a lily-stem;
indeed, her body seemed only made for the head, which was flower-like
and charming, but almost painful in its delicacy, and with such
weight of innocent pondering upon the unknown conditions of things in
which she found herself. At times, of course, there were ebullitions
of youthful spirit, and the child was as inconsequent as a kitten. At
those times she was neither child nor woman; she was an anomalous
thing made up not so much of actualities as of instincts. She romped
with her mates as unseen and uncomprehended of herself as any young
animal, but the flame of her striving spirit made everything full of
unread meaning.</p>
<p>Ellen was accounted a most remarkable scholar. She had left Miss
Mitchell's school, and was in one of a higher grade. At fifteen she
entered the high-school and had a master.</p>
<p>Andrew was growing old fast in those days, though not so old as to
years. Though he was far from old, his hair was gray, his back bent.
He moved with a weary shuffle. The men in the shop began to eye him
furtively. “Andrew Brewster will get fired next,” they
said. “The boss 'ain't no use for men with the first snap
gone.” Indeed, Andrew was constantly given jobs of lower
grades, which did not pay so well. Whenever the force was reduced on
account of dulness in trade, Andrew was one of the first to be laid
aside on waiting orders in the regular army of toil. On one of these
occasions, in the spring after Ellen was fifteen, his first fit of
recklessness seized him. One night, after loafing a week, he came
home with fever spots in his cheeks and a curiously bright, strained
look in his eyes. Fanny gazed sharply at him across the supper-table.
Finally she laid down her knife and fork, rested her elbows on the
table, and fixed her eyes commandingly upon him. “Andrew
Brewster, what is the matter?” said she. Ellen turned her
flower-like face towards her father, who took a swallow of tea
without saying a word, though he shuffled his feet uneasily.
“Andrew, you answer me,” repeated Fanny.</p>
<p>“There ain't anything the matter,” answered Andrew,
with a strange sullenness for him.</p>
<p>“There is, too. Now, Andrew Brewster, I ain't goin' to be
put off. I know you're on the shelf on account of hard times, so it
ain't that. It's something new. Now I want to know what it
is.”</p>
<p>“It ain't anything.”</p>
<p>“Yes, it is. Andrew, you ought to tell me. You know I ain't
afraid to bear anything that you have to bear, and Ellen is getting
old enough now, so she can understand, and she can't always be
spared. She'd better get a little knowledge of hardships while she
has us to help her bear 'em.”</p>
<p>“This ain't a hardship, and there ain't anything to spare,
Ellen,” said Andrew; and he laughed with a hilarity totally
unlike him.</p>
<p>That was all Fanny could get out of him, but she was half
reassured. She told Eva that she didn't believe but he had been
buying some Christmas present that he knew was extravagant for Ellen,
and was afraid to tell her because he knew she would scold. But
Andrew had not been buying Christmas presents, but speculating in
mining stocks. He had resisted the temptation long. Year in and year
out he had heard the talk right and left in the shop, on the street,
and at the store of an evening. “I'll give you a point,”
he had heard one say to another during a discussion as to prices and
dividends. He had heard it all described as a short cross-cut over
the fields of hard labor to wealth and comfort, and he had kept his
face straight ahead in his narrow track of caution and hereditary
instincts until then. “The savings bank is good enough for
me,” he used to say; “that's where my father kept his
money. I don't know anything about your stocks. I'd rather have a
little and have it safe.” The men could not reason him out of
his position, not even when Billy Monroe made fifteen hundred dollars
on a Colorado mine which had cost him fifteen cents per share, and
left the shop, and drove a fast horse in a Goddard buggy.</p>
<p>It was even reported that fifteen hundred was fifteen thousand,
but Andrew was proof against this brilliant loadstar of success,
though many of his mates followed it afar, just before the shares
dropped below par.</p>
<p>Jim Tenny went with the rest. “Tell you what 'tis, Andrew,
old man,” he said, clapping Andrew on the shoulder as they were
going out of the shop one night, “you'd better go in
too.”</p>
<p>“The savings-bank is good enough for me,” said Andrew,
with his gentle doggedness.</p>
<p>“You can buy a trotter,” urged Jim.</p>
<p>“I never was much on trotters,” replied Andrew.</p>
<p>“I ain't going to walk home many times more, you bet,”
Jim said to Eva when he got home, and then he bent back her tensely
set face and kissed it. Eva was crocheting hoods for fifteen cents
apiece for a neighboring woman who was a padrone on a small scale,
having taken a large order from a dealer for which she realized
twenty cents apiece, and employed all the women in the neighborhood
to do the work.</p>
<p>“Why not?” said she.</p>
<p>“Oh,” said Jim, gayly, “I've bought some of that
‘Golden Hope’ mining stock. Billy Monroe has just made
fifteen thousand on it, and I'll make as much in a week or
two.”</p>
<p>“Oh, Jim, you 'ain't taken all the money out of the
bank?”</p>
<p>“Don't you worry, old girl,” replied Jim. “I
guess you'll find I can take care of you yet.”</p>
<p>But the stock went down, and Jim's little venture with it.</p>
<p>“Guess you were about right, old man,” he said to
Andrew.</p>
<p>Andrew was rather looked up to for his superior caution and
sagacity. He was continually congratulated upon it.
“Savings-banks are good enough for me,” he kept
repeating. But that was four years ago, and now his turn had come;
the contagion of speculation had struck him at last. That was the way
with Lloyd's failing employés.</p>
<p>Andrew kept his stock certificate in a little, tin, trunk-shaped
box which had belonged to his father. It had a key and a tiny
padlock, and he had always stored in it the deed of his house, his
savings-bank book, and his insurance policy. He carried the key in
his pocket. Fanny never opened the box, or had any curiosity about
it, believing that she was acquainted with its contents; but now
when, on coming unexpectedly into the bedroom—the box was
always kept at the head of the bed—she heard a rattle of
papers, and caught Andrew locking the box with a confused air, she
began to suspect something. She began to look hard at the box, to
take it up and shake it when her husband was away. Fanny was
crocheting hoods as well as Eva. Ellen wished to learn, but her
mother would not allow that. “You've got enough to do to study
your lessons,” she said. Andrew watched his wife crochet with
ill-concealed impatience.</p>
<p>“I ain't goin' to have you do that long,” he
said—“workin' at that rate for no more money. That Mrs.
William Pendergrass that lets out these hoods is as bad as any
factory boss in the country.”</p>
<p>“Well, she got the chance,” said Fanny, “and
they won't let out the work except that way; they can get it done so
much cheaper.”</p>
<p>“Well, you sha'n't have it, anyhow,” said Andrew,
smiling mysteriously.</p>
<p>“Why, you ain't goin' to work again, be you,
Andrew?”</p>
<p>“You wait.”</p>
<p>“Well, don't you talk the way poor Jim did. Eva wasn't going
to crochet any more hoods, and now Jim's out of work again. Eva told
me yesterday that she didn't know where the money was comin' from.
Jim's mother owns the place, and it ain't worth much, anyhow, and
they can't take it from her in her lifetime, even if she was willing
to let it go. Eva said she was goin' to try again for work herself in
the shop. She thought maybe there might be some kind of a job she
could get. Don't you talk like Jim did about his good-for-nothin'
mining stock. I've been glad enough that you had sense enough to keep
what little we had where 'twas safe.”</p>
<p>“Ain't it most time for Ellen to be comin' home?”
asked Andrew, to turn the conversation, as he felt somewhat guilty
and uncomfortable, though his eyes were jubilant. He had very little
doubt about the success of his venture. As it is with a man who
yields to love for the first time in his life, it was with Andrew in
his tardy subjection to the hazards of fortune. He was a much more
devoted slave than those who had long wooed her. He had always taken
nothing but the principal newspaper published in Rowe, but now he
subscribed to a Boston paper, the one which had the fullest financial
column, though Fanny exclaimed at his extravagance.</p>
<p>Along in midsummer, in the midst of Ellen's vacation, the mining
stock dropped fast a point or more a day. Andrew's heart began to
sink, though he was far from losing hope. He used to talk it over
with the men who advised him to buy, and come home fortified.</p>
<p>All he had to do was to be patient; the fall meant nothing wrong
with the mine, only the wrangle of speculators. “It's like a
football, first on one side, and then on the other,” said the
man, “but the football's there all the same, and if it's that
you want, you're all right.”</p>
<p>One night when Nahum Beals and Atkins and John Sargent were in,
Andrew repeated this wisdom, concealing the fact of its personal
application. He was anxious to have some confirmation.</p>
<p>“I suppose it's about so,” he said.</p>
<p>Then John Sargent spoke up. “No, it is not so,” he
said—“that is, not in many cases. There isn't any
football—that's the trouble. There's nothing but the money; a
lot of fools have paid for it when it never existed out of their
imagination.”</p>
<p>“About so,” said Nahum Beals. Andrew and Atkins
exchanged glances. Atkins was at once sympathizing and
triumphant.</p>
<p>“Lots of those things appear to be doing well, and to be all
right,” said Andrew, uneasily. “The directors keep saying
that they are in a prosperous condition, even if the stock
drops.” He almost betrayed himself.</p>
<p>John Sargent laughed that curious, inflexible laugh of his.
“Lord, I know all about that,” said he. “I had some
once. First one thing and then another came up to hinder the working
of the mine and the payments of dividends. First there wasn't any
water, an unprecedented dry season in those parts, oldest inhabitants
for evidence. Then there was too much water, no way to mine except
they employed professional divers, everything under water. Then the
transportation was to pay; then, when that was remedied, the ore
didn't come out in shape to transport in the rough and had to be
worked up on the premises, and new mills had to be built and new
machinery put in, and a few little Irish dividends were collected for
that. Then when they got the mills up and the machinery in, they
struck another kind of ore that ought to be transported; then there
came a landslide and carried half the road into a cañon. So it
went on, one thing and another. If ever that darned mine had got into
working order, right kind of ore, water enough and not too much,
roads and machinery all right, and everything swimming, the Day of
Judgment would have come.”</p>
<p>“Did you ever get anything out of it?” inquired
Andrew.</p>
<p>“Anything out of it?” repeated the other. “Yes,
I got enough worldly wisdom never to buy any more mining stock, after
I had paid assessments on it for two years and the whole thing went
to pieces.”</p>
<p>“It may come up yet,” said Andrew.</p>
<p>“There's nothing to come up,” said John Sargent. He
had been away from Rowe a year, but had just returned, and was again
boarding with Atkins, and all the family lived on his board money.
Andrew and Nahum Beals were smoking pipes. Andrew gently, like a
philosopher, who smokes that he may dream; Nahum with furious jets
and frequent removals of his pipe for scowling speeches. John Sargent
did not smoke at all. He had left off cigars first, then even his
pipe. He gave the money which he saved thereby to Mrs. Atkins as a
bonus on his board money.</p>
<p>The lamp burned dimly in the blue fog of tobacco smoke, and the
windows where the curtains were not drawn were blanks of silvery
moonlight. Ellen sat on the doorstep outside and heard the talk. She
did not understand it, nor take much interest in it. Their minds were
fixed upon the way of living, and hers upon life itself. She could
bring her simplicity to bear upon the world-old question of riches
and poverty and labor, but this temporal adjunct of stocks and
markets was as yet beyond her. Her mother had gone to her aunt Eva's
and she sat alone out in the wide mystery of the summer night,
watching the lovely shift of radiance and shadows, as she might have
watched the play of a kaleidoscope, seeing the beauty of the new
combinations, and seeing without comprehending the unit which
governed them all. The night was full of cries of insistent life and
growth, of birds and insects, of calls of children, and now and then
the far-away roar of railroad trains. It was nearly midsummer. The
year was almost at its height, but had not passed it. Growth and
bloom was still in the ascendant, and had not yet attained that
maturity of perfection beyond which is the slope of death.</p>
<p>Everywhere about her were the revolutions of those unseen wheels
of nature whose immortal trend is towards the completion of time, and
whose momentum can overlap the grave; and the child was within them
and swept onward with the perfecting flowers, and the ripening fruit,
and the insects which were feeling their wings; and all
unconsciously, in a moment as it were, she unfolded a little farther
towards her own heyday of bloom. Suddenly from those heights of the
primitive and the eternal upon which a child starts and where she
still lingered she saw her future before her, shining with new
lights, and a wonderful conviction of bliss to come was over her. It
was that conviction which comes at times to all unconquered souls,
and which has the very essence of truth in it, since it overleaps the
darkness of life that lies between them and that bliss. Suddenly
Ellen felt that she was born to great happiness, and all that was to
come was towards that end. Her heart beat loud in her ears. There was
a whippoorwill calling in some trees to the left; the moon was dim
under a golden dapple of clouds. She could not feel her hands or her
feet; she seemed to feel nothing except her soul.</p>
<p>Then she heard, loud and sweet and clear, a boy's whistle, one of
the popular tunes of the day. It came nearer and nearer, and it was
in the same key with the child's thoughts and dreams. Then she saw a
slender figure dark against the moonlight stop at a fence, and she
jumped up and ran towards it with no hesitation through the dewy
grass; and it was the boy, Granville Joy. He stood looking at her. He
had a handsome, eager face, and Ellen looked at him, her lips parted,
her face like a lily in the white light.</p>
<p>“Hulloo,” said the boy.</p>
<p>“Hulloo,” Ellen responded, faintly.</p>
<p>Granville extended one rough, brown, boyish hand over the fence,
and Ellen laid her little, soft hand in it. He pulled her gently
close, then Ellen lifted her face, and the boy bent his, and the two
kissed each other over the fence. Then the boy went on down the
street, but he did not whistle, and Ellen went back to the doorstep,
and, looking about to be sure that none of the men in the
sitting-room saw, pulled off one little shoe and drew forth a sprig
of southernwood, or boy's-love, which was crushed under her foot.</p>
<p>That day Floretta Vining had told her that if she would put a
sprig of boy's-love in her shoe, the very first boy she met would be
the one she was going to marry; and Ellen, who was passing from one
grade of school to another, had tried it.</p>
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