<h2>XXXIII. A DISCOVERY TURNS THE SCALE</h2>
<p>In four-and-twenty hours Bob had recovered. But though
physically himself again, he was not at all sure of his position
as a patriot. He had that practical knowledge of seamanship
of which the country stood much in need, and it was humiliating
to find that impressment seemed to be necessary to teach him to
use it for her advantage. Many neighbouring young men, less
fortunate than himself, had been pressed and taken; and their
absence seemed a reproach to him. He went away by himself
into the mill-roof, and, surrounded by the corn-heaps, gave vent
to self-condemnation.</p>
<p>‘Certainly, I am no man to lie here so long for the
pleasure of sighting that young girl forty times a day, and
letting her sight me—bless her eyes!—till I must
needs want a press-gang to teach me what I’ve forgot.
And is it then all over with me as a British sailor?
We’ll see.’</p>
<p>When he was thrown under the influence of Anne’s eyes
again, which were more tantalizingly beautiful than ever just now
(so it seemed to him), his intention of offering his services to
the Government would wax weaker, and he would put off his final
decision till the next day. Anne saw these fluctuations of
his mind between love and patriotism, and being terrified by what
she had heard of sea-fights, used the utmost art of which she was
capable to seduce him from his forming purpose. She came to
him in the mill, wearing the very prettiest of her morning
jackets—the one that only just passed the waist, and was
laced so tastefully round the collar and bosom. Then she
would appear in her new hat, with a bouquet of primroses on one
side; and on the following Sunday she walked before him in
lemon-coloured boots, so that her feet looked like a pair of
yellow-hammers flitting under her dress.</p>
<p>But dress was the least of the means she adopted for chaining
him down. She talked more tenderly than ever; asked him to
begin small undertakings in the garden on her account; she sang
about the house, that the place might seem cheerful when he came
in. This singing for a purpose required great effort on her
part, leaving her afterwards very sad. When Bob asked her
what was the matter, she would say, ‘Nothing; only I am
thinking how you will grieve your father, and cross his purposes,
if you carry out your unkind notion of going to sea, and
forsaking your place in the mill.’</p>
<p>‘Yes,’ Bob would say uneasily. ‘It
will trouble him, I know.’</p>
<p>Being also quite aware how it would trouble her, he would
again postpone, and thus another week passed away.</p>
<p>All this time John had not come once to the mill. It
appeared as if Miss Johnson absorbed all his time and
thoughts. Bob was often seen chuckling over the
circumstance. ‘A sly rascal!’ he said.
‘Pretending on the day she came to be married that she was
not good enough for me, when it was only that he wanted her for
himself. How he could have persuaded her to go away is
beyond me to say!’</p>
<p>Anne could not contest this belief of her lover’s, and
remained silent; but there had more than once occurred to her
mind a doubt of its probability. Yet she had only abandoned
her opinion that John had schemed for Matilda, to embrace the
opposite error; that, finding he had wronged the young lady, he
had pitied and grown to love her.</p>
<p>‘And yet Jack, when he was a boy, was the simplest
fellow alive,’ resumed Bob. ‘By George, though,
I should have been hot against him for such a trick, if in losing
her I hadn’t found a better! But she’ll never
come down to him in the world: she has high notions now. I
am afraid he’s doomed to sigh in vain!’</p>
<p>Though Bob regretted this possibility, the feeling was not
reciprocated by Anne. It was true that she knew nothing of
Matilda’s temporary treachery, and that she disbelieved the
story of her lack of virtue; but she did not like the
woman. ‘Perhaps it will not matter if he is doomed to
sigh in vain,’ she said. ‘But I owe him no
ill-will. I have profited by his doings, incomprehensible
as they are.’ And she bent her fair eyes on Bob and
smiled.</p>
<p>Bob looked dubious. ‘He thinks he has affronted
me, now I have seen through him, and that I shall be against
meeting him. But, of course, I am not so touchy. I
can stand a practical joke, as can any man who has been
afloat. I’ll call and see him, and tell him
so.’</p>
<p>Before he started, Bob bethought him of something which would
still further prove to the misapprehending John that he was
entirely forgiven. He went to his room, and took from his
chest a packet containing a lock of Miss Johnson’s hair,
which she had given him during their brief acquaintance, and
which till now he had quite forgotten. When, at starting,
he wished Anne goodbye, it was accompanied by such a beaming
face, that she knew he was full of an idea, and asked what it
might be that pleased him so.</p>
<p>‘Why, this,’ he said, smacking his
breast-pocket. ‘A lock of hair that Matilda gave
me.’</p>
<p>Anne sank back with parted lips.</p>
<p>‘I am going to give it to Jack—he’ll jump
for joy to get it! And it will show him how willing I am to
give her up to him, fine piece as she is.’</p>
<p>‘Will you see her to-day, Bob?’ Anne asked with an
uncertain smile.</p>
<p>‘O no—unless it is by accident.’</p>
<p>On reaching the outskirts of the town he went straight to the
barracks, and was lucky enough to find John in his room, at the
left-hand corner of the quadrangle. John was glad to see
him; but to Bob’s surprise he showed no immediate
contrition, and thus afforded no room for the brotherly speech of
forgiveness which Bob had been going to deliver. As the
trumpet-major did not open the subject, Bob felt it desirable to
begin himself.</p>
<p>‘I have brought ye something that you will value,
Jack,’ he said, as they sat at the window, overlooking the
large square barrack-yard. ‘I have got no further use
for it, and you should have had it before if it had entered my
head.’</p>
<p>‘Thank you, Bob; what is it?’ said John, looking
absently at an awkward squad of young men who were drilling in
the enclosure.</p>
<p>‘’Tis a young woman’s lock of
hair.’</p>
<p>‘Ah!’ said John, quite recovering from his
abstraction, and slightly flushing. Could Bob and Anne have
quarrelled? Bob drew the paper from his pocket, and opened
it.</p>
<p>‘Black!’ said John.</p>
<p>‘Yes—black enough.’</p>
<p>‘Whose?’</p>
<p>‘Why, Matilda’s.’</p>
<p>‘O, Matilda’s!’</p>
<p>‘Whose did you think then?’</p>
<p>Instead of replying, the trumpet-major’s face became as
red as sunset, and he turned to the window to hide his
confusion.</p>
<p>Bob was silent, and then he, too, looked into the court.
At length he arose, walked to his brother, and laid his hand upon
his shoulder. ‘Jack,’ he said, in an altered
voice, ‘you are a good fellow. Now I see it
all.’</p>
<p>‘O no—that’s nothing,’ said John
hastily.</p>
<p>‘You’ve been pretending that you care for this
woman that I mightn’t blame myself for heaving you out from
the other—which is what I’ve done without knowing
it.’</p>
<p>‘What does it matter?’</p>
<p>‘But it does matter! I’ve been making you
unhappy all these weeks and weeks through my
thoughtlessness. They seemed to think at home, you know,
John, that you had grown not to care for her; or I wouldn’t
have done it for all the world!’</p>
<p>‘You stick to her, Bob, and never mind me. She
belongs to you. She loves you. I have no claim upon
her, and she thinks nothing about me.’</p>
<p>‘She likes you, John, thoroughly well; so does
everybody; and if I hadn’t come home, putting my foot in
it— That coming home of mine has been a regular
blight upon the family! I ought never to have stayed.
The sea is my home, and why couldn’t I bide
there?’</p>
<p>The trumpet-major drew Bob’s discourse off the subject
as soon as he could, and Bob, after some unconsidered replies and
remarks, seemed willing to avoid it for the present. He did
not ask John to accompany him home, as he had intended; and on
leaving the barracks turned southward and entered the town to
wander about till he could decide what to do.</p>
<p>It was the 3rd of September, but the King’s
watering-place still retained its summer aspect. The royal
bathing-machine had been drawn out just as Bob reached Gloucester
Buildings, and he waited a minute, in the lack of other
distraction, to look on. Immediately that the King’s
machine had entered the water a group of florid men with fiddles,
violoncellos, a trombone, and a drum, came forward, packed
themselves into another machine that was in waiting, and were
drawn out into the waves in the King’s rear. All that
was to be heard for a few minutes were the slow pulsations of the
sea; and then a deafening noise burst from the interior of the
second machine with power enough to split the boards asunder; it
was the condensed mass of musicians inside, striking up the
strains of ‘God save the King,’ as his
Majesty’s head rose from the water. Bob took off his
hat and waited till the end of the performance, which, intended
as a pleasant surprise to George III. by the loyal burghers, was
possibly in the watery circumstances tolerated rather than
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<p>Loveday then passed on to the harbour, where he remained
awhile, looking at the busy scene of loading and unloading craft
and swabbing the decks of yachts; at the boats and barges rubbing
against the quay wall, and at the houses of the merchants, some
ancient structures of solid stone, others green-shuttered with
heavy wooden bow-windows which appeared as if about to drop into
the harbour by their own weight. All these things he gazed
upon, and thought of one thing—that he had caused great
misery to his brother John.</p>
<p>The town clock struck, and Bob retraced his steps till he
again approached the Esplanade and Gloucester Lodge, where the
morning sun blazed in upon the house fronts, and not a spot of
shade seemed to be attainable. A huzzaing attracted his
attention, and he observed that a number of people had gathered
before the King’s residence, where a brown curricle had
stopped, out of which stepped a hale man in the prime of life,
wearing a blue uniform, gilt epaulettes, cocked hat, and sword,
who crossed the pavement and went in. Bob went up and
joined the group. ‘What’s going on?’ he
said.</p>
<p>‘Captain Hardy,’ replied a bystander.</p>
<p>‘What of him?’</p>
<p>‘Just gone in—waiting to see the King.’</p>
<p>‘But the captain is in the West Indies?’</p>
<p>‘No. The fleet is come home; they can’t find
the French anywhere.’</p>
<p>‘Will they go and look for them again?’ asked
Bob.</p>
<p>‘O yes. Nelson is determined to find
’em. As soon as he’s refitted he’ll put
to sea again. Ah, here’s the King coming
in.’</p>
<p>Bob was so interested in what he had just heard that he
scarcely noticed the arrival of the King, and a body of attendant
gentlemen. He went on thinking of his new knowledge;
Captain Hardy was come. He was doubtless staying with his
family at their small manor-house at Pos’ham, a few miles
from Overcombe, where he usually spent the intervals between his
different cruises.</p>
<p>Loveday returned to the mill without further delay; and
shortly explaining that John was very well, and would come soon,
went on to talk of the arrival of Nelson’s captain.</p>
<p>‘And is he come at last?’ said the miller,
throwing his thoughts years backward. ‘Well can I
mind when he first left home to go on board the Helena as
midshipman!’</p>
<p>‘That’s not much to remember. I can remember
it too,’ said Mrs. Loveday.</p>
<p>‘’Tis more than twenty years ago anyhow. And
more than that, I can mind when he was born; I was a lad, serving
my ‘prenticeship at the time. He has been in this
house often and often when ‘a was young. When he came
home after his first voyage he stayed about here a long time, and
used to look in at the mill whenever he went past.
“What will you be next, sir?” said mother to him one
day as he stood with his back to the doorpost. “A
lieutenant, Dame Loveday,” says he. “And what
next?” says she. “A commander.”
“And next?” “Next,
post-captain.” “And then?”
“Then it will be almost time to die.” I’d
warrant that he’d mind it to this very day if you were to
ask him.’</p>
<p>Bob heard all this with a manner of preoccupation, and soon
retired to the mill. Thence he went to his room by the back
passage, and taking his old seafaring garments from a dark closet
in the wall conveyed them to the loft at the top of the mill,
where he occupied the remaining spare moments of the day in
brushing the mildew from their folds, and hanging each article by
the window to get aired. In the evening he returned to the
loft, and dressing himself in the old salt suit, went out of the
house unobserved by anybody, and ascended the road towards
Captain Hardy’s native village and present temporary
home.</p>
<p>The shadeless downs were now brown with the droughts of the
passing summer, and few living things met his view, the natural
rotundity of the elevation being only occasionally disturbed by
the presence of a barrow, a thorn-bush, or a piece of dry wall
which remained from some attempted enclosure. By the time
that he reached the village it was dark, and the larger stars had
begun to shine when he walked up to the door of the old-fashioned
house which was the family residence of this branch of the
South-Wessex Hardys.</p>
<p>‘Will the captain allow me to wait on him
to-night?’ inquired Loveday, explaining who and what he
was.</p>
<p>The servant went away for a few minutes, and then told Bob
that he might see the captain in the morning.</p>
<p>‘If that’s the case, I’ll come again,’
replied Bob, quite cheerful that failure was not absolute.</p>
<p>He had left the door but a few steps when he was called back
and asked if he had walked all the way from Overcombe Mill on
purpose.</p>
<p>Loveday replied modestly that he had done so.</p>
<p>‘Then will you come in?’ He followed the
speaker into a small study or office, and in a minute or two
Captain Hardy entered.</p>
<p>The captain at this time was a bachelor of thirty-five, rather
stout in build, with light eyes, bushy eyebrows, a square broad
face, plenty of chin, and a mouth whose corners played between
humour and grimness. He surveyed Loveday from top to
toe.</p>
<p>‘Robert Loveday, sir, son of the miller at
Overcombe,’ said Bob, making a low bow.</p>
<p>‘Ah! I remember your father, Loveday,’ the
gallant seaman replied. ‘Well, what do you want to
say to me?’ Seeing that Bob found it rather difficult
to begin, he leant leisurely against the mantelpiece, and went
on, ‘Is your father well and hearty? I have not seen
him for many, many years.’</p>
<p>‘Quite well, thank ’ee.’</p>
<p>‘You used to have a brother in the army, I think?
What was his name—John? A very fine fellow, if I
recollect.’</p>
<p>‘Yes, cap’n; he’s there still.’</p>
<p>‘And you are in the merchant-service?’</p>
<p>‘Late first mate of the brig Pewit.’</p>
<p>‘How is it you’re not on board a
man-of-war?’</p>
<p>‘Ay, sir, that’s the thing I’ve come
about,’ said Bob, recovering confidence. ‘I
should have been, but ’tis womankind has hampered me.
I’ve waited and waited on at home because of a young
woman—lady, I might have said, for she’s sprung from
a higher class of society than I. Her father was a
landscape painter—maybe you’ve heard of him,
sir? The name is Garland.’</p>
<p>‘He painted that view of our village here,’ said
Captain Hardy, looking towards a dark little picture in the
corner of the room.</p>
<p>Bob looked, and went on, as if to the picture, ‘Well,
sir, I have found that— However, the press-gang came
a week or two ago, and didn’t get hold of me. I
didn’t care to go aboard as a pressed man.’</p>
<p>‘There has been a severe impressment. It is of
course a disagreeable necessity, but it can’t be
helped.’</p>
<p>‘Since then, sir, something has happened that makes me
wish they had found me, and I have come to-night to ask if I
could enter on board your ship the Victory.’</p>
<p>The captain shook his head severely, and presently observed:
‘I am glad to find that you think of entering the service,
Loveday; smart men are badly wanted. But it will not be in
your power to choose your ship.’</p>
<p>‘Well, well, sir; then I must take my chance
elsewhere,’ said Bob, his face indicating the
disappointment he would not fully express.
‘’Twas only that I felt I would much rather serve
under you than anybody else, my father and all of us being known
to ye, Captain Hardy, and our families belonging to the same
parts.’</p>
<p>Captain Hardy took Bob’s altitude more carefully.
‘Are you a good practical seaman?’ he asked
musingly.</p>
<p>‘Ay, sir; I believe I am.’</p>
<p>‘Active? Fond of skylarking?’</p>
<p>‘Well, I don’t know about the last. I think
I can say I am active enough. I could walk the yard-arm, if
required, cross from mast to mast by the stays, and do what most
fellows do who call themselves spry.’</p>
<p>The captain then put some questions about the details of
navigation, which Loveday, having luckily been used to square
rigs, answered satisfactorily. ‘As to reefing
topsails,’ he added, ‘if I don’t do it like a
flash of lightning, I can do it so that they will stand blowing
weather. The Pewit was not a dull vessel, and when we were
convoyed home from Lisbon, she could keep well in sight of the
frigate scudding at a distance, by putting on full sail. We
had enough hands aboard to reef topsails man-o’-war
fashion, which is a rare thing in these days, sir, now that able
seamen are so scarce on trading craft. And I hear that men
from square-rigged vessels are liked much the best in the navy,
as being more ready for use? So that I shouldn’t be
altogether so raw,’ said Bob earnestly, ‘if I could
enter on your ship, sir. Still, if I can’t, I
can’t.’</p>
<p>‘I might ask for you, Loveday,’ said the captain
thoughtfully, ‘and so get you there that way. In
short, I think I may say I will ask for you. So consider it
settled.’</p>
<p>‘My thanks to you, sir,’ said Loveday.</p>
<p>‘You are aware that the Victory is a smart ship, and
that cleanliness and order are, of necessity, more strictly
insisted upon there than in some others?’</p>
<p>‘Sir, I quite see it.’</p>
<p>‘Well, I hope you will do your duty as well on a
line-of-battle ship as you did when mate of the brig, for it is a
duty that may be serious.’</p>
<p>Bob replied that it should be his one endeavour; and receiving
a few instructions for getting on board the guard-ship, and being
conveyed to Portsmouth, he turned to go away.</p>
<p>‘You’ll have a stiff walk before you fetch
Overcombe Mill this dark night, Loveday,’ concluded the
captain, peering out of the window. ‘I’ll send
you in a glass of grog to help ’ee on your way.’</p>
<p>The captain then left Bob to himself, and when he had drunk
the grog that was brought in he started homeward, with a heart
not exactly light, but large with a patriotic cheerfulness, which
had not diminished when, after walking so fast in his excitement
as to be beaded with perspiration, he entered his father’s
door.</p>
<p>They were all sitting up for him, and at his approach
anxiously raised their sleepy eyes, for it was nearly eleven
o’clock.</p>
<p>‘There; I knew he’d not be much longer!’
cried Anne, jumping up and laughing, in her relief.
‘They have been thinking you were very strange and silent
to-day, Bob; you were not, were you?’</p>
<p>‘What’s the matter, Bob?’ said the miller;
for Bob’s countenance was sublimed by his recent interview,
like that of a priest just come from the penetralia of the
temple.</p>
<p>‘He’s in his mate’s clothes, just as when he
came home!’ observed Mrs. Loveday.</p>
<p>They all saw now that he had something to tell. ‘I
am going away,’ he said when he had sat down.
‘I am going to enter on board a man-of-war, and perhaps it
will be the Victory.’</p>
<p>‘Going?’ said Anne faintly.</p>
<p>‘Now, don’t you mind it, there’s a
dear,’ he went on solemnly, taking her hand in his
own. ‘And you, father, don’t you begin to take
it to heart’ (the miller was looking grave).
‘The press-gang has been here, and though I showed them
that I was a free man, I am going to show everybody that I can do
my duty.’</p>
<p>Neither of the other three answered, Anne and the miller
having their eyes bent upon the ground, and the former trying to
repress her tears.</p>
<p>‘Now don’t you grieve, either of you,’ he
continued; ‘nor vex yourselves that this has
happened. Please not to be angry with me, father, for
deserting you and the mill, where you want me, for I <i>must
go</i>. For these three years we and the rest of the
country have been in fear of the enemy; trade has been hindered;
poor folk made hungry; and many rich folk made poor. There
must be a deliverance, and it must be done by sea. I have
seen Captain Hardy, and I shall serve under him if so be I
can.’</p>
<p>‘Captain Hardy?’</p>
<p>‘Yes. I have been to his house at Pos’ham,
where he’s staying with his sisters; walked there and back,
and I wouldn’t have missed it for fifty guineas. I
hardly thought he would see me; but he did see me. And he
hasn’t forgot you.’</p>
<p>Bob then opened his tale in order, relating graphically the
conversation to which he had been a party, and they listened with
breathless attention.</p>
<p>‘Well, if you must go, you must,’ said the miller
with emotion; ‘but I think it somewhat hard that, of my two
sons, neither one of ’em can be got to stay and help me in
my business as I get old.’</p>
<p>‘Don’t trouble and vex about it,’ said Mrs.
Loveday soothingly. ‘They are both instruments in the
hands of Providence, chosen to chastise that Corsican ogre, and
do what they can for the country in these trying
years.’</p>
<p>‘That’s just the shape of it, Mrs. Loveday,’
said Bob.</p>
<p>‘And he’ll come back soon,’ she continued,
turning to Anne. ‘And then he’ll tell us all he
has seen, and the glory that he’s won, and how he has
helped to sweep that scourge Buonaparty off the earth.’</p>
<p>‘When be you going, Bob?’ his father inquired.</p>
<p>‘To-morrow, if I can. I shall call at the barracks
and tell John as I go by. When I get to
Portsmouth—’</p>
<p>A burst of sobs in quick succession interrupted his words;
they came from Anne, who till that moment had been sitting as
before with her hand in that of Bob, and apparently quite
calm. Mrs. Loveday jumped up, but before she could say
anything to soothe the agitated girl she had calmed herself with
the same singular suddenness that had marked her giving
way. ‘I don’t mind Bob’s going,’
she said. ‘I think he ought to go. Don’t
suppose, Bob, that I want you to stay!’</p>
<p>After this she left the apartment, and went into the little
side room where she and her mother usually worked. In a few
moments Bob followed her. When he came back he was in a
very sad and emotional mood. Anybody could see that there
had been a parting of profound anguish to both.</p>
<p>‘She is not coming back to-night,’ he said.</p>
<p>‘You will see her to-morrow before you go?’ said
her mother.</p>
<p>‘I may or I may not,’ he replied.
‘Father and Mrs. Loveday, do you go to bed now. I
have got to look over my things and get ready; and it will take
me some little time. If you should hear noises you will
know it is only myself moving about.’</p>
<p>When Bob was left alone he suddenly became brisk, and set
himself to overhaul his clothes and other possessions in a
business-like manner. By the time that his chest was
packed, such things as he meant to leave at home folded into
cupboards, and what was useless destroyed, it was past two
o’clock. Then he went to bed, so softly that only the
creak of one weak stair revealed his passage upward. At the
moment that he passed Anne’s chamber-door her mother was
bending over her as she lay in bed, and saying to her,
‘Won’t you see him in the morning?’</p>
<p>‘No, no,’ said Anne. ‘I would rather
not see him! I have said that I may. But I shall
not. I cannot see him again!’</p>
<p>When the family got up next day Bob had vanished. It was
his way to disappear like this, to avoid affecting scenes at
parting. By the time that they had sat down to a gloomy
breakfast, Bob was in the boat of a Budmouth waterman, who pulled
him alongside the guardship in the roads, where he laid hold of
the man-rope, mounted, and disappeared from external view.
In the course of the day the ship moved off, set her royals, and
made sail for Portsmouth, with five hundred new hands for the
service on board, consisting partly of pressed men and partly of
volunteers, among the latter being Robert Loveday.</p>
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