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<h1>EIGHTY YEARS AND MORE</h1>
<h2>REMINISCENCES 1815-1897</h2>
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<h2>ELIZABETH CADY STANTON</h2>
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<p style="font-weight: bold; text-align: center;">"Social science
affirms that woman's place in society marks the
level of civilization."</p>
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<p style="font-weight: bold; text-align: center;">I DEDICATE THIS
VOLUME TO</p>
<p style="font-weight: bold; text-align: center;"><big>SUSAN B. ANTHONY,</big></p>
<p style="font-weight: bold; text-align: center;">MY STEADFAST FRIEND
FOR HALF A CENTURY.</p>
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<h2>CONTENTS.</h2>
<span style="font-weight: bold;">CHAPTER</span><br/>
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<li>I. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_I.">CHILDHOOD</SPAN></li>
<li>II. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_II">SCHOOL DAYS</SPAN></li>
<li>III. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_III">GIRLHOOD</SPAN></li>
<li>IV. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_IV">LIFE AT PETERBORO</SPAN></li>
<li>V. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_V">OUR WEDDING JOURNEY</SPAN></li>
<li>VI. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_VI">HOMEWARD BOUND</SPAN></li>
<li>VII. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_VII">MOTHERHOOD</SPAN></li>
<li>VIII. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_VIII">BOSTON AND CHELSEA</SPAN></li>
<li>IX. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_IX">THE FIRST WOMAN'S RIGHTS CONVENTION</SPAN></li>
<li>X. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_X">SUSAN B. ANTHONY</SPAN></li>
<li>XI. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XII">SUSAN B. ANTHONY (<i>Continued</i>)</SPAN></li>
<li>XII. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XII">MY FIRST SPEECH BEFORE A LEGISLATURE</SPAN></li>
<li>XIII. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XIII">REFORMS AND MOBS</SPAN></li>
<li>XIV. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XIV">VIEWS ON MARRIAGE AND DIVORCE</SPAN></li>
<li>XV. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XV">WOMEN AS PATRIOTS</SPAN></li>
<li>XVI. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XVI">PIONEER LIFE IN KANSAS—OUR NEWSPAPER
"THE REVOLUTION"</SPAN></li>
<li>XVII. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XVII">LYCEUMS AND LECTURERS</SPAN></li>
<li>XVIII. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XVIII">WESTWARD HO!</SPAN></li>
<li>XIX. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XIX">THE SPIRIT OF '76</SPAN></li>
<li>XX. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XX">WRITING "THE HISTORY OF WOMAN SUFFRAGE"</SPAN></li>
<li>XXI. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XXI">IN THE SOUTH OF FRANCE</SPAN></li>
<li>XXII. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XXII">REFORMS AND REFORMERS IN GREAT
BRITAIN</SPAN></li>
<li>XXIII. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XXIII">WOMAN AND THEOLOGY</SPAN></li>
<li>XXIV. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XXIV">ENGLAND AND FRANCE REVISITED</SPAN></li>
<li>XXV. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XXV">THE INTERNATIONAL COUNCIL OF WOMEN</SPAN></li>
<li>XXVI. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XXVI">MY LAST VISIT TO ENGLAND</SPAN></li>
<li>XXVII. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XXVII">SIXTIETH ANNIVERSARY OF THE
CLASS OF 1832—THE WOMAN'S BIBLE</SPAN></li>
<li>XXVIII. <SPAN href="#CHAPTER_XXVIII">MY EIGHTIETH BIRTHDAY</SPAN></li>
<li><SPAN href="#INDEX_OF_NAMES">INDEX OF NAMES</SPAN></li>
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<h2>LIST OF PORTRAITS.</h2>
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<ul style="text-align: center;">
<li><SPAN href="#img001">The Author, <i>Frontispiece</i></SPAN></li>
<li><SPAN href="#img002">Margaret Livingston Cady</SPAN></li>
<li><SPAN href="#img003">Judge Daniel Cady</SPAN></li>
<li><SPAN href="#img004">Henry Brewster Stanton</SPAN></li>
<li><SPAN href="#img005">The Author and Daughter</SPAN></li>
<li><SPAN href="#img006">The Author and Son</SPAN></li>
<li><SPAN href="#img007">Susan B. Anthony</SPAN></li>
<li><SPAN href="#img008">Elizabeth Smith Miller</SPAN></li>
<li><SPAN href="#img009">Children and Grandchildren</SPAN></li>
<li><SPAN href="#img010">The Author, Mrs. Blatch, and Nora</SPAN></li>
<li><SPAN href="#img011">The Author, Mrs. Lawrence, and Robert
Livingston Stanton</SPAN></li>
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<h1>EIGHTY YEARS AND MORE.</h1>
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<h2><SPAN name="CHAPTER_I."></SPAN>CHAPTER I.</h2>
<h2>CHILDHOOD.</h2>
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<p>The psychical growth of a child is not influenced by
days and years, but by the impressions passing events
make on its mind. What may prove a sudden awakening
to one, giving an impulse in a certain direction that
may last for years, may make no impression on another.
People wonder why the children of the same family differ
so widely, though they have had the same domestic
discipline, the same school and church teaching, and
have grown up under the same influences and with the
same environments. As well wonder why lilies and
lilacs in the same latitude are not all alike in color and
equally fragrant. Children differ as widely as these in
the primal elements of their physical and psychical
life.</p>
<p>Who can estimate the power of antenatal influences,
or the child's surroundings in its earliest years, the
effect of some passing word or sight on one, that makes
no impression on another? The unhappiness of one
child under a certain home discipline is not inconsistent
with the content of another under this same discipline.
One, yearning for broader freedom, is in a chronic condition
of rebellion; the other, more easily satisfied,
<SPAN name="Page_2"></SPAN>quietly accepts the situation. Everything is seen
from
a different standpoint; everything takes its color from
the mind of the beholder.</p>
<p>I am moved to recall what I can of my early days,
what I thought and felt, that grown people may have a
better understanding of children and do more for their
happiness and development. I see so much tyranny
exercised over children, even by well-disposed parents,
and in so many varied forms,—a tyranny to which these
parents are themselves insensible,—that I desire to paint
my joys and sorrows in as vivid colors as possible, in the
hope that I may do something to defend the weak from
the strong. People never dream of all that is going
on in the little heads of the young, for few adults are
given to introspection, and those who are incapable of
recalling their own feelings under restraint and disappointment
can have no appreciation of the sufferings
of children who can neither describe nor analyze what
they feel. In defending themselves against injustice
they are as helpless as dumb animals. What is insignificant
to their elders is often to them a source of great
joy or sorrow.</p>
<p>With several generations of vigorous, enterprising
ancestors behind me, I commenced the struggle of life
under favorable circumstances on the 12th day of
November, 1815, the same year that my father, Daniel
Cady, a distinguished lawyer and judge in the State of
New York, was elected to Congress. Perhaps the excitement
of a political campaign, in which my mother
took the deepest interest, may have had an influence on
my prenatal life and given me the strong desire that
I have always felt to participate in the rights and duties
of government.</p>
<p><SPAN name="Page_3"></SPAN>My father was a man of firm character and
unimpeachable
integrity, and yet sensitive and modest to a
painful degree. There were but two places in which he
felt at ease—in the courthouse and at his own fireside.
Though gentle and tender, he had such a dignified repose
and reserve of manner that, as children, we
regarded him with fear rather than affection.</p>
<p>My mother, Margaret Livingston, a tall, queenly
looking woman, was courageous, self-reliant, and at her
ease under all circumstances and in all places. She was
the daughter of Colonel James Livingston, who took
an active part in the War of the Revolution.</p>
<p>Colonel Livingston was stationed at West Point
when Arnold made the attempt to betray that stronghold
into the hands of the enemy. In the absence of
General Washington and his superior officer, he took
the responsibility of firing into the <i>Vulture</i>, a suspicious
looking British vessel that lay at anchor near the
opposite bank of the Hudson River. It was a fatal shot
for André, the British spy, with whom Arnold was then
consummating his treason. Hit between wind and
water, the vessel spread her sails and hastened down the
river, leaving André, with his papers, to be captured
while Arnold made his escape through the lines, before
his treason was suspected.</p>
<p>On General Washington's return to West Point, he
sent for my grandfather and reprimanded him for acting
in so important a matter without orders, thereby
making himself liable to court-martial; but, after fully
impressing the young officer with the danger of such
self-sufficiency on ordinary occasions, he admitted that a
most fortunate shot had been sent into the <i>Vulture</i>,
"for," he said, "we are in no condition just now to de<SPAN name="Page_4"></SPAN>fend
ourselves against the British forces in New York,
and the capture of this spy has saved us."</p>
<p>My mother had the military idea of government, but
her children, like their grandfather, were disposed to
assume the responsibility of their own actions; thus the
ancestral traits in mother and children modified, in a
measure, the dangerous tendencies in each.</p>
<p>Our parents were as kind, indulgent, and considerate
as the Puritan ideas of those days permitted, but fear,
rather than love, of God and parents alike, predominated.
Add to this our timidity in our intercourse with
servants and teachers, our dread of the ever present
devil, and the reader will see that, under such conditions,
nothing but strong self-will and a good share
of hope and mirthfulness could have saved an ordinary
child from becoming a mere nullity.</p>
<p>The first event engraved on my memory was the birth
of a sister when I was four years old. It was a cold
morning in January when the brawny Scotch nurse carried
me to see the little stranger, whose advent was a
matter of intense interest to me for many weeks after.
The large, pleasant room with the white curtains and
bright wood fire on the hearth, where panada, catnip,
and all kinds of little messes which we were allowed to
taste were kept warm, was the center of attraction for
the older children. I heard so many friends remark,
"What a pity it is she's a girl!" that I felt a kind of
compassion for the little baby. True, our family consisted
of five girls and only one boy, but I did not
understand at that time that girls were considered an
inferior order of beings.</p>
<p>To form some idea of my surroundings at this time,
imagine a two-story white frame house with a hall
<SPAN name="Page_5"></SPAN>through the middle, rooms on either side, and a
large
back building with grounds on the side and rear, which
joined the garden of our good Presbyterian minister,
the Rev. Simon Hosack, of whom I shall have more to
say in another chapter. Our favorite resorts in the
house were the garret and cellar. In the former were
barrels of hickory nuts, and, on a long shelf, large cakes
of maple sugar and all kinds of dried herbs and sweet
flag; spinning wheels, a number of small white cotton
bags filled with bundles, marked in ink, "silk," "cotton,"
"flannel," "calico," etc., as well as ancient masculine
and feminine costumes. Here we would crack the
nuts, nibble the sharp edges of the maple sugar, chew
some favorite herb, play ball with the bags, whirl the old
spinning wheels, dress up in our ancestors' clothes, and
take a bird's-eye view of the surrounding country from
an enticing scuttle hole. This was forbidden ground;
but, nevertheless, we often went there on the sly, which
only made the little escapades more enjoyable.</p>
<p>The cellar of our house was filled, in winter, with
barrels of apples, vegetables, salt meats, cider, butter,
pounding barrels, washtubs, etc., offering admirable
nooks for playing hide and seek. Two tallow candles
threw a faint light over the scene on certain occasions.
This cellar was on a level with a large kitchen where we
played blind man's buff and other games when the day's
work was done. These two rooms are the center of
many of the merriest memories of my childhood days.</p>
<p>I can recall three colored men, Abraham, Peter, and
Jacob, who acted as menservants in our youth. In
turn they would sometimes play on the banjo for us to
dance, taking real enjoyment in our games. They are
all at rest now with "Old Uncle Ned in the place where
<SPAN name="Page_6"></SPAN>the good niggers go." Our nurses, Lockey Danford,
Polly Bell, Mary Dunn, and Cornelia Nickeloy—peace
to their ashes—were the only shadows on the gayety
of these winter evenings; for their chief delight was to
hurry us off to bed, that they might receive their beaux
or make short calls in the neighborhood. My memory
of them is mingled with no sentiment of gratitude or
affection. In expressing their opinion of us in after
years, they said we were a very troublesome, obstinate,
disobedient set of children. I have no doubt we were
in constant rebellion against their petty tyranny.
Abraham, Peter, and Jacob viewed us in a different
light, and I have the most pleasant recollections of their
kind services.</p>
<p>In the winter, outside the house, we had the snow
with which to build statues and make forts, and huge
piles of wood covered with ice, which we called the
Alps, so difficult were they of ascent and descent.
There we would climb up and down by the hour, if not
interrupted, which, however, was generally the case. It
always seemed to me that, in the height of our enthusiasm,
we were invariably summoned to some
disagreeable duty, which would appear to show that
thus early I keenly enjoyed outdoor life. Theodore
Tilton has thus described the place where I was born:
"Birthplace is secondary parentage, and transmits
character. Johnstown was more famous half a century
ago than since; for then, though small, it was a marked
intellectual center; and now, though large, it is an unmarked
manufacturing town. Before the birth of
Elizabeth Cady it was the vice-ducal seat of Sir William
Johnson, the famous English negotiator with the
Indians. During her girlhood it was an arena for the
<SPAN name="Page_7"></SPAN>intellectual wrestlings of Kent, Tompkins,
Spencer,
Elisha Williams, and Abraham Van Vechten, who, as
lawyers, were among the chiefest of their time. It is
now devoted mainly to the fabrication of steel springs
and buckskin gloves. So, like Wordsworth's early
star, it has faded into the light of common day. But
Johnstown retains one of its ancient splendors—a glory
still fresh as at the foundation of the world. Standing
on its hills, one looks off upon a country of enameled
meadow lands, that melt away southward toward the
Mohawk, and northward to the base of those grand
mountains which are 'God's monument over the grave
of John Brown.'"</p>
<p>Harold Frederic's novel, "In the Valley," contains
many descriptions of this region that are true to nature,
as I remember the Mohawk Valley, for I first knew it
not so many years after the scenes which he lays there.
Before I was old enough to take in the glory of this
scenery and its classic associations, Johnstown was to
me a gloomy-looking town. The middle of the streets
was paved with large cobblestones, over which the
farmer's wagons rattled from morning till night, while
the sidewalks were paved with very small cobblestones,
over which we carefully picked our way, so that free and
graceful walking was out of the question. The streets
were lined with solemn poplar trees, from which small
yellow worms were continually dangling down. Next
to the Prince of Darkness, I feared these worms. They
were harmless, but the sight of one made me tremble.
So many people shared in this feeling that the poplars
were all cut down and elms planted in their stead. The
Johnstown academy and churches were large square
buildings, painted white, surrounded by these same
<SPAN name="Page_8"></SPAN>sombre poplars, each edifice having a doleful bell
which
seemed to be ever tolling for school, funerals, church,
or prayer meetings. Next to the worms, those clanging
bells filled me with the utmost dread; they seemed
like so many warnings of an eternal future. Visions of
the Inferno were strongly impressed on my childish
imagination. It was thought, in those days, that firm
faith in hell and the devil was the greatest help to virtue.
It certainly made me very unhappy whenever my
mind dwelt on such teachings, and I have always had
my doubts of the virtue that is based on the fear of
punishment.</p>
<p>Perhaps I may be pardoned a word devoted to my
appearance in those days. I have been told that I was
a plump little girl, with very fair skin, rosy cheeks, good
features, dark-brown hair, and laughing blue eyes. A
student in my father's office, the late Henry Bayard of
Delaware (an uncle of our recent Ambassador to the
Court of St. James's, Thomas F. Bayard), told me one
day, after conning my features carefully, that I had one
defect which he could remedy. "Your eyebrows
should be darker and heavier," said he, "and if you will
let me shave them once or twice, you will be much improved."
I consented, and, slight as my eyebrows
were, they seemed to have had some expression, for the
loss of them had a most singular effect on my appearance.
Everybody, including even the operator, laughed
at my odd-looking face, and I was in the depths of
humiliation during the period while my eyebrows
were growing out again. It is scarcely necessary for
me to add that I never allowed the young man
to repeat the experiment, although strongly urged to
do so.</p>
<p><SPAN name="Page_9"></SPAN>I cannot recall how or when I conquered the
alphabet,
words in three letters, the multiplication table, the
points of the compass, the chicken pox, whooping
cough, measles, and scarlet fever. All these unhappy
incidents of childhood left but little impression on my
mind. I have, however, most pleasant memories of the
good spinster, Maria Yost, who patiently taught three
generations of children the rudiments of the English
language, and introduced us to the pictures in "Murray's
Spelling-book," where Old Father Time, with his
scythe, and the farmer stoning the boys in his apple
trees, gave rise in my mind to many serious reflections.
Miss Yost was plump and rosy, with fair hair, and had
a merry twinkle in her blue eyes, and she took us by
very easy stages through the old-fashioned school-books.
The interesting Readers children now have
were unknown sixty years ago. We did not reach the
temple of knowledge by the flowery paths of ease in
which our descendants now walk.</p>
<p>I still have a perfect vision of myself and sisters, as
we stood up in the classes, with our toes at the cracks
in the floor, all dressed alike in bright red flannel, black
alpaca aprons, and, around the neck, a starched ruffle
that, through a lack of skill on the part of either the
laundress or the nurse who sewed them in, proved a constant
source of discomfort to us. I have since seen
full-grown men, under slighter provocation than we
endured, jerk off a collar, tear it in two, and throw it
to the winds, chased by the most soul-harrowing expletives.
But we were sternly rebuked for complaining,
and if we ventured to introduce our little fingers
between the delicate skin and the irritating linen, our
hands were slapped and the ruffle readjusted a degree
<SPAN name="Page_10"></SPAN>closer. Our Sunday dresses were relieved with a
black
sprig and white aprons. We had red cloaks, red hoods,
red mittens, and red stockings. For one's self to be all
in red six months of the year was bad enough, but to
have this costume multiplied by three was indeed monotonous.
I had such an aversion to that color that I
used to rebel regularly at the beginning of each season
when new dresses were purchased, until we finally
passed into an exquisite shade of blue. No words
could do justice to my dislike of those red dresses. My
grandfather's detestation of the British redcoats must
have descended to me. My childhood's antipathy to
wearing red enabled me later to comprehend the feelings
of a little niece, who hated everything pea green,
because she had once heard the saying, "neat but not
gaudy, as the devil said when he painted his tail pea
green." So when a friend brought her a cravat of that
color she threw it on the floor and burst into tears, saying,
"I could not wear that, for it is the color of the
devil's tail." I sympathized with the child and had it
changed for the hue she liked. Although we cannot
always understand the ground for children's preferences,
it is often well to heed them.</p>
<p>I am told that I was pensively looking out of the
nursery window one day, when Mary Dunn, the Scotch
nurse, who was something of a philosopher, and a stern
Presbyterian, said: "Child, what are you thinking
about; are you planning some new form of mischief?"
"No, Mary," I replied, "I was wondering why it was
that everything we like to do is a sin, and that everything
we dislike is commanded by God or someone on
earth. I am so tired of that everlasting no! no! no!
At school, at home, everywhere it is <i>no</i>! Even at
<SPAN name="Page_11"></SPAN>church all the commandments begin 'Thou shalt
not.'
I suppose God will say 'no' to all we like in the next
world, just as you do here." Mary was dreadfully
shocked at my dissatisfaction with the things of time
and prospective eternity, and exhorted me to cultivate
the virtues of obedience and humility.</p>
<p>I well remember the despair I felt in those years, as I
took in the whole situation, over the constant cribbing
and crippling of a child's life. I suppose I found fit
language in which to express my thoughts, for Mary
Dunn told me, years after, how our discussion roused
my sister Margaret, who was an attentive listener. I
must have set forth our wrongs in clear, unmistakable
terms; for Margaret exclaimed one day, "I tell you
what to do. Hereafter let us act as we choose, without
asking." "Then," said I, "we shall be punished."
"Suppose we are," said she, "we shall have had our
fun at any rate, and that is better than to mind the
everlasting 'no' and not have any fun at all." Her
logic seemed unanswerable, so together we gradually
acted on her suggestions. Having less imagination
than I, she took a common-sense view of life and suffered
nothing from anticipation of troubles, while my
sorrows were intensified fourfold by innumerable apprehensions
of possible exigencies.</p>
<p>Our nursery, a large room over a back building, had
three barred windows reaching nearly to the floor.
Two of these opened on a gently slanting roof over a
veranda. In our night robes, on warm summer evenings
we could, by dint of skillful twisting and compressing,
get out between the bars, and there, snugly braced
against the house, we would sit and enjoy the moon
and stars and what sounds might reach us from the
<SPAN name="Page_12"></SPAN>streets, while the nurse, gossiping at the back
door,
imagined we were safely asleep.</p>
<p>I have a confused memory of being often under
punishment for what, in those days, were called "tantrums."
I suppose they were really justifiable acts of
rebellion against the tyranny of those in authority. I
have often listened since, with real satisfaction, to what
some of our friends had to say of the high-handed manner
in which sister Margaret and I defied all the transient
orders and strict rules laid down for our guidance.
If we had observed them we might as well have been
embalmed as mummies, for all the pleasure and freedom
we should have had in our childhood. As very little
was then done for the amusement of children, happy
were those who <i>conscientiously</i> took the liberty of amusing
themselves.</p>
<p>One charming feature of our village was a stream of
water, called the Cayadutta, which ran through the
north end, in which it was our delight to walk on the
broad slate stones when the water was low, in order to
pick up pretty pebbles. These joys were also forbidden,
though indulged in as opportunity afforded, especially
as sister Margaret's philosophy was found to work
successfully and we had finally risen above our infantile
fear of punishment.</p>
<p>Much of my freedom at this time was due to this
sister, who afterward became the wife of Colonel Duncan
McMartin of Iowa. I can see her now, hat in hand,
her long curls flying in the wind, her nose slightly retroussé,
her large dark eyes flashing with glee, and her
small straight mouth so expressive of determination.
Though two years my junior, she was larger and
stronger than I and more fearless and self-reliant. She
<SPAN name="Page_13"></SPAN>was always ready to start when any pleasure
offered,
and, if I hesitated, she would give me a jerk and say,
emphatically: "Oh, come along!" and away we went.</p>
<p>About this time we entered the Johnstown Academy,
where we made the acquaintance of the daughters of
the hotel keeper and the county sheriff. They were a
few years my senior, but, as I was ahead of them in all
my studies, the difference of age was somewhat equalized
and we became fast friends. This acquaintance
opened to us two new sources of enjoyment—the freedom
of the hotel during "court week" (a great event
in village life) and the exploration of the county jail.
Our Scotch nurse had told us so many thrilling tales of
castles, prisons, and dungeons in the Old World that, to
see the great keys and iron doors, the handcuffs and
chains, and the prisoners in their cells seemed like a
veritable visit to Mary's native land. We made frequent
visits to the jail and became deeply concerned
about the fate of the prisoners, who were greatly pleased
with our expressions of sympathy and our gifts of cake
and candy. In time we became interested in the trials
and sentences of prisoners, and would go to the courthouse
and listen to the proceedings. Sometimes we
would slip into the hotel where the judges and lawyers
dined, and help our little friend wait on table. The
rushing of servants to and fro, the calling of guests, the
scolding of servants in the kitchen, the banging of
doors, the general hubbub, the noise and clatter, were
all idealized by me into one of those royal festivals Mary
so often described. To be allowed to carry plates of
bread and butter, pie and cheese I counted a high privilege.
But more especially I enjoyed listening to the
conversations in regard to the probable fate of
<SPAN name="Page_14"></SPAN>our friends the prisoners in the jail. On one
occasion
I projected a few remarks into a conversation
between two lawyers, when one of them turned
abruptly to me and said, "Child, you'd better attend
to your business; bring me a glass of water." I
replied indignantly, "I am not a servant; I am here for
fun."</p>
<p>In all these escapades we were followed by Peter,
black as coal and six feet in height. It seems to me now
that his chief business was to discover our whereabouts,
get us home to dinner, and take us back to school.
Fortunately he was overflowing with curiosity and not
averse to lingering a while where anything of interest
was to be seen or heard, and, as we were deemed perfectly
safe under his care, no questions were asked when
we got to the house, if we had been with him. He had
a long head and, through his diplomacy, we escaped
much disagreeable surveillance. Peter was very fond of
attending court. All the lawyers knew him, and wherever
Peter went, the three little girls in his charge went,
too. Thus, with constant visits to the jail, courthouse,
and my father's office, I gleaned some idea of the danger
of violating the law.</p>
<p>The great events of the year were the Christmas
holidays, the Fourth of July, and "general training,"
as the review of the county militia was then called.
The winter gala days are associated, in my memory,
with hanging up stockings and with turkeys, mince
pies, sweet cider, and sleighrides by moonlight. My
earliest recollections of those happy days, when schools
were closed, books laid aside, and unusual liberties
allowed, center in that large cellar kitchen to which I
have already referred. There we spent many winter
<SPAN name="Page_15"></SPAN>evenings in uninterrupted enjoyment. A large
fireplace
with huge logs shed warmth and cheerfulness
around. In one corner sat Peter sawing his violin,
while our youthful neighbors danced with us and played
blindman's buff almost every evening during the vacation.
The most interesting character in this game was
a black boy called Jacob (Peter's lieutenant), who made
things lively for us by always keeping one eye open—a
wise precaution to guard himself from danger, and to
keep us on the jump. Hickory nuts, sweet cider, and
<i>olie-koeks</i> (a Dutch name for a fried cake with raisins inside)
were our refreshments when there came a lull in
the fun.</p>
<p>As St. Nicholas was supposed to come down the
chimney, our stockings were pinned on a broomstick,
laid across two chairs in front of the fireplace. We
retired on Christmas Eve with the most pleasing anticipations
of what would be in our stockings next morning.
The thermometer in that latitude was often
twenty degrees below zero, yet, bright and early, we
would run downstairs in our bare feet over the cold
floors to carry stockings, broom, etc., to the nursery.
The gorgeous presents that St. Nicholas now distributes
show that he, too, has been growing up with the
country. The boys and girls of 1897 will laugh when
they hear of the contents of our stockings in 1823.
There was a little paper of candy, one of raisins, another,
of nuts, a red apple, an <i>olie-koek</i>, and a bright silver
quarter of a dollar in the toe. If a child had been
guilty of any erratic performances during the year,
which was often my case, a long stick would protrude
from the stocking; if particularly good, an illustrated
catechism or the New Testament would appear, show<SPAN name="Page_16"></SPAN>ing
that the St. Nicholas of that time held decided views
on discipline and ethics.</p>
<p>During the day we would take a drive over the snow-clad
hills and valleys in a long red lumber sleigh. All
the children it could hold made the forests echo with
their songs and laughter. The sleigh bells and Peter's
fine tenor voice added to the chorus seemed to chant,
as we passed, "Merry Christmas" to the farmers'
children and to all we met on the highway.</p>
<p>Returning home, we were allowed, as a great Christmas
treat, to watch all Peter's preparations for dinner.
Attired in a white apron and turban, holding in
his hand a tin candlestick the size of a dinner
plate, containing a tallow candle, with stately step
he marched into the spacious cellar, with Jacob
and three little girls dressed in red flannel at his
heels. As the farmers paid the interest on their mortgages
in barrels of pork, headcheese, poultry, eggs,
and cider, the cellars were well crowded for the
winter, making the master of an establishment quite
indifferent to all questions of finance. We heard
nothing in those days of greenbacks, silver coinage, or
a gold basis. Laden with vegetables, butter, eggs, and
a magnificent turkey, Peter and his followers returned
to the kitchen. There, seated on a big ironing table,
we watched the dressing and roasting of the bird in a
tin oven in front of the fire. Jacob peeled the vegetables,
we all sang, and Peter told us marvelous stories.
For tea he made flapjacks, baked in a pan with a long
handle, which he turned by throwing the cake up and
skillfully catching it descending.</p>
<p>Peter was a devout Episcopalian and took great
pleasure in helping the young people decorate the
<SPAN name="Page_17"></SPAN>church. He would take us with him and show us
how to make evergreen wreaths. Like Mary's lamb,
where'er he went we were sure to go. His love for us
was unbounded and fully returned. He was the only
being, visible or invisible, of whom we had no fear. We
would go to divine service with Peter, Christmas morning
and sit with him by the door, in what was called
"the negro pew." He was the only colored member of
the church and, after all the other communicants had
taken the sacrament, he went alone to the altar.
Dressed in a new suit of blue with gilt buttons, he
looked like a prince, as, with head erect, he walked up
the aisle, the grandest specimen of manhood in the
whole congregation; and yet so strong was prejudice
against color in 1823 that no one would kneel beside
him. On leaving us, on one of these occasions, Peter
told us all to sit still until he returned; but, no sooner
had he started, than the youngest of us slowly followed
after him and seated herself close beside him. As he
came back, holding the child by the hand, what a lesson
it must have been to that prejudiced congregation!
The first time we entered the church together the sexton
opened a white man's pew for us, telling Peter to
leave the Judge's children there. "Oh," he said, "they
will not stay there without me." But, as he could not
enter, we instinctively followed him to the negro pew.</p>
<p>Our next great fête was on the anniversary of the
birthday of our Republic. The festivities were numerous
and protracted, beginning then, as now, at midnight
with bonfires and cannon; while the day was
ushered in with the ringing of bells, tremendous cannonading,
and a continuous popping of fire-crackers and
torpedoes. Then a procession of soldiers and citizens
<SPAN name="Page_18"></SPAN>marched through the town, an oration was
delivered,
the Declaration of Independence read, and a great dinner
given in the open air under the trees in the grounds
of the old courthouse. Each toast was announced with
the booming of cannon. On these occasions Peter
was in his element, and showed us whatever he considered
worth seeing; but I cannot say that I enjoyed
very much either "general training" or the Fourth of
July, for, in addition to my fear of cannon and torpedoes,
my sympathies were deeply touched by the sadness
of our cook, whose drunken father always cut antics
in the streets on gala days, the central figure in all
the sports of the boys, much to the mortification of his
worthy daughter. She wept bitterly over her father's
public exhibition of himself, and told me in what a condition
he would come home to his family at night. I
would gladly have stayed in with her all day, but the fear
of being called a coward compelled me to go through
those trying ordeals. As my nerves were all on the
surface, no words can describe what I suffered with
those explosions, great and small, and my fears lest
King George and his minions should reappear among
us. I thought that, if he had done all the dreadful
things stated in the Declaration of '76, he might come
again, burn our houses, and drive us all into the street.
Sir William Johnson's mansion of solid masonry,
gloomy and threatening, still stood in our neighborhood.
I had seen the marks of the Indian's tomahawk
on the balustrades and heard of the bloody
deeds there enacted. For all the calamities of the
nation I believed King George responsible. At home
and at school we were educated to hate the English.
When we remember that, every Fourth of July, the
Declaration was read with emphasis, and the orator of
<SPAN name="Page_19"></SPAN>the day rounded all his glowing periods with
denunciations
of the mother country, we need not wonder at
the national hatred of everything English. Our patriotism
in those early days was measured by our dislike
of Great Britain.</p>
<p>In September occurred the great event, the review
of the county militia, popularly called "Training Day."
Then everybody went to the race course to see the
troops and buy what the farmers had brought in
their wagons. There was a peculiar kind of gingerbread
and molasses candy to which we were treated on
those occasions, associated in my mind to this day with
military reviews and standing armies.</p>
<p>Other pleasures were, roaming in the forests and sailing
on the mill pond. One day, when there were no
boys at hand and several girls were impatiently waiting
for a sail on a raft, my sister and I volunteered to man
the expedition. We always acted on the assumption
that what we had seen done, we could do. Accordingly
we all jumped on the raft, loosened it from its
moorings, and away we went with the current. Navigation
on that mill pond was performed with long
poles, but, unfortunately, we could not lift the poles,
and we soon saw we were drifting toward the dam.
But we had the presence of mind to sit down and hold
fast to the raft. Fortunately, we went over right side
up and gracefully glided down the stream, until rescued
by the ever watchful Peter. I did not hear the
last of that voyage for a long time. I was called the
captain of the expedition, and one of the boys wrote a
composition, which he read in school, describing the
adventure and emphasizing the ignorance of the laws of
navigation shown by the officers in command. I shed
tears many times over that performance.</p>
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