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<p>Next day, when Kells called Joan out into the other cabin, she verified
her hope and belief, not so much in the almost indefinable aging and
sadness of the man, as in the strong intuitive sense that her attraction
had magnified for him and had uplifted him.</p>
<p>“You mustn't stay shut up in there any longer,” he said. “You've lost
weight and you're pale. Go out in the air and sun. You might as well get
used to the gang. Bate Wood came to me this morning and said he thought
you were the ghost of Dandy Dale. That name will stick to you. I don't
care how you treat my men. But if you're friendly you'll fare better.
Don't go far from the cabin. And if any man says or does a thing you don't
like—flash your gun. Don't yell for me. You can bluff this gang to a
standstill.”</p>
<p>That was a trial for Joan, when she walked out into the light in Dandy
Dale's clothes. She did not step very straight, and she could feel the
cold prick of her face under the mask. It was not shame, but fear that
gripped her. She would rather die than have Jim Cleve recognize her in
that bold disguise. A line of dusty saddled horses stood heads and bridles
down before the cabin, and a number of lounging men ceased talking when
she appeared. It was a crowd that smelled of dust and horses and leather
and whisky and tobacco. Joan did not recognize any one there, which fact
aided her in a quick recovery of her composure. Then she found amusement
in the absolute sensation she made upon these loungers. They stared,
open-mouthed and motionless. One old fellow dropped his pipe from bearded
lips and did not seem to note the loss. A dark young man, dissipated and
wild-looking, with years of lawlessness stamped upon his face, was the
first to move; and he, with awkward gallantry, but with amiable
disposition. Joan wanted to run, yet she forced herself to stand there,
apparently unconcerned before this battery of bold and curious eyes. That,
once done, made the rest easier. She was grateful for the mask. And with
her first low, almost incoherent, words in reply Joan entered upon the
second phase of her experience with these bandits. Naturalness did not
come soon, but it did come, and with it her wit and courage.</p>
<p>Used as she had become to the villainous countenances of the border
ruffians, she yet upon closer study discovered wilder and more abandoned
ones. Yet despite that, and a brazen, unconcealed admiration, there was
not lacking kindliness and sympathy and good nature. Presently Joan
sauntered away, and she went among the tired, shaggy horses and made
friends with them. An occasional rider swung up the trail to dismount
before Kells's cabin, and once two riders rode in, both staring—all
eyes—at her. The meaning of her intent alertness dawned upon her
then. Always, whatever she was doing or thinking or saying, behind it all
hid the driving watchfulness for Jim Cleve. And the consciousness of this
fixed her mind upon him. Where was he? What was he doing? Was he drunk or
gambling or fighting or sleeping? Was he still honest? When she did meet
him what would happen? How could she make herself and circumstances known
to him before he killed somebody? A new fear had birth and grew—Cleve
would recognize her in that disguise, mask and all.</p>
<p>She walked up and down for a while, absorbed with this new idea. Then an
unusual commotion among the loungers drew her attention to a group of men
on foot surrounding and evidently escorting several horsemen. Joan
recognized Red Pearce and Frenchy, and then, with a start, Jim Cleve. They
were riding up the trail. Joan's heart began to pound. She could not meet
Jim; she dared not trust this disguise; all her plans were as if they had
never been. She forgot Kells. She even forgot her fear of what Cleve might
do. The meeting—the inevitable recognition—the pain Jim Cleve
must suffer when the fact and apparent significance of her presence there
burst upon him, these drove all else from Joan's mind. Mask or no mask,
she could not face his piercing eyes, and like a little coward she turned
to enter the cabin.</p>
<p>Before she got in, however, it was forced upon her that something unusual
had roused the loungers. They had arisen and were interested in the
approaching group. Loud talk dinned in Joan's ears. Then she went in the
door as Kells stalked by, eyes agleam, without even noticing her. Once
inside her cabin, with the curtain drawn, Joan's fear gave place to
anxiety and curiosity.</p>
<p>There was no one in the large cabin. Through the outer door she caught
sight of a part of the crowd, close together, heads up, all noisy. Then
she heard Kells's authoritative voice, but she could understand nothing.
The babel of hoarse voices grew louder. Kells appeared, entering the door
with Pearce. Jim Cleve came next, and, once the three were inside, the
crowd spilled itself after them like angry bees. Kells was talking, Pearce
was talking, but their voices were lost. Suddenly Kells vented his temper.</p>
<p>“Shut up—the lot of you!” he yelled, and his power and position
might have been measured by the menace he showed.</p>
<p>The gang became suddenly quiet.</p>
<p>“Now—what's up?” demanded Kells.</p>
<p>“Keep your shirt on, boss,” replied Pearce, with good humor. “There ain't
much wrong.... Cleve, here, throwed a gun on Gulden, that's all.”</p>
<p>Kells gave a slight start, barely perceptible, but the intensity of it,
and a fleeting tigerish gleam across his face, impressed Joan with the
idea that he felt a fiendish joy. Her own heart clamped in a cold amaze.</p>
<p>“Gulden!” Kells's exclamation was likewise a passionate query.</p>
<p>“No, he ain't cashed,” replied Pearce. “You can't kill that bull so easy.
But he's shot up some. He's layin' over at Beard's. Reckon you'd better go
over an' dress them shots.”</p>
<p>“He can rot before I doctor him,” replied Kells. “Where's Bate Wood?...
Bate, you can take my kit and go fix Gulden up. And now, Red, what was all
the roar about?”</p>
<p>“Reckon that was Gulden's particular pards tryin' to mix it with Cleve an'
Cleve tryin' to mix it with them—an' ME in between!... I'm here to
say, boss, that I had a time stavin' off a scrap.”</p>
<p>During this rapid exchange between Kells and his lieutenant, Jim Cleve sat
on the edge of the table, one dusty boot swinging so that his spur
jangled, a wisp of a cigarette in his lips. His face was white except
where there seemed to be bruises under his eyes. Joan had never seen him
look like this. She guessed that he had been drunk—perhaps was still
drunk. That utterly abandoned face Joan was so keen to read made her bite
her tongue to keep from crying out. Yes, Jim was lost.</p>
<p>“What'd they fight about?” queried Kells.</p>
<p>“Ask Cleve,” replied Pearce. “Reckon I'd just as lief not talk any more
about him.”</p>
<p>Then Kells turned to Cleve and stepped before him. Somehow these two men
face to face thrilled Joan to her depths. They presented such contrasts.
Kells was keen, imperious, vital, strong, and complex, with an
unmistakable friendly regard for this young outcast. Cleve seemed aloof,
detached, indifferent to everything, with a white, weary, reckless scorn.
Both men were far above the gaping ruffians around them.</p>
<p>“Cleve, why'd you draw on Gulden?” asked Kells, sharply.</p>
<p>“That's my business,” replied Cleve, slowly, and with his piercing eyes on
Kells he blew a long, thin, blue stream of smoke upward.</p>
<p>“Sure.... But I remember what you asked me the other day—about
Gulden. Was that why?”</p>
<p>“Nope,” replied Cleve. “This was my affair.”</p>
<p>“All right. But I'd like to know. Pearce says you're in bad with Gulden's
friends. If I can't make peace between you I'll have to take sides.”</p>
<p>“Kells, I don't need any one on my side,” said Cleve, and he flung the
cigarette away.</p>
<p>“Yes, you do,” replied Kells, persuasively. “Every man on this border
needs that. And he's lucky when he gets it.”</p>
<p>“Well, I don't ask for it; I don't want it.”</p>
<p>“That's your own business, too. I'm not insisting or advising.”</p>
<p>Kells's force and ability to control men manifested itself in his speech
and attitude. Nothing could have been easier than to rouse the antagonism
of Jim Cleve, abnormally responding as he was to the wild conditions of
this border environment.</p>
<p>“Then you're not calling my hand?” queried Cleve, with his dark, piercing
glance on Kells.</p>
<p>“I pass, Jim,” replied the bandit, easily.</p>
<p>Cleve began to roll another cigarette. Joan saw his strong, brown hands
tremble, and she realized that this came from his nervous condition, not
from agitation. Her heart ached for him. What a white, somber face, so
terribly expressive of the overthrow of his soul! He had fled to the
border in reckless fury at her—at himself. There in its wildness he
had, perhaps, lost thought of himself and memory of her. He had plunged
into the unrestrained border life. Its changing, raw, and fateful
excitement might have made him forget, but behind all was the terrible
seeking to destroy and be destroyed. Joan shuddered when she remembered
how she had mocked this boy's wounded vanity—how scathingly she had
said he did not possess manhood and nerve enough even to be bad.</p>
<p>“See here, Red,” said Kells to Pearce, “tell me what happened—what
you saw. Jim can't object to that.”</p>
<p>“Sure,” replied Pearce, thus admonished. “We was all over at Beard's an'
several games was on. Gulden rode into camp last night. He's always sore,
but last night it seemed more'n usual. But he didn't say much an' nothin'
happened. We all reckoned his trip fell through. Today he was restless. He
walked an' walked just like a cougar in a pen. You know how Gulden has to
be on the move. Well, we let him alone, you can bet. But suddenlike he
comes up to our table—me an' Cleve an' Beard an' Texas was playin'
cards—an' he nearly kicks the table over. I grabbed the gold an'
Cleve he saved the whisky. We'd been drinkin' an' Cleve most of all. Beard
was white at the gills with rage an' Texas was soffocatin'. But we all was
afraid of Gulden, except Cleve, as it turned out. But he didn't move or
look mean. An' Gulden pounded on the table an' addressed himself to Cleve.</p>
<p>“'I've a job you'll like. Come on.'</p>
<p>“'Job? Say, man, you couldn't have a job I'd like,' replied Cleve, slow
an' cool.</p>
<p>“You know how Gulden gets when them spells come over him. It's just plain
cussedness. I've seen gunfighters lookin' for trouble—for someone to
kill. But Gulden was worse than that. You all take my hunch—he's got
a screw loose in his nut.</p>
<p>“'Cleve,' he said, 'I located the Brander gold-diggin's—an' the girl
was there.'</p>
<p>“Some kind of a white flash went over Cleve. An' we all, rememberin' Luce,
began to bend low, ready to duck. Gulden didn't look no different from
usual. You can't see any change in him. But I for one felt all hell
burnin' in him.</p>
<p>“'Oho! You have,' said Cleve, quick, like he was pleased. 'An' did you get
her?'</p>
<p>“'Not yet. Just looked over the ground. I'm pickin' you to go with me.
We'll split on the gold, an' I'll take the girl.'</p>
<p>“Cleve swung the whisky-bottle an' it smashed on Gulden's mug, knockin'
him flat. Cleve was up, like a cat, gun burnin' red. The other fellers
were dodgin' low. An' as I ducked I seen Gulden, flat on his back,
draggin' at his gun. He stopped short an' his hand flopped. The side of
his face went all bloody. I made sure he'd cashed, so I leaped up an'
grabbed Cleve.</p>
<p>“It'd been all right if Gulden had only cashed. But he hadn't. He came to
an' bellered fer his gun an' fer his pards. Why, you could have heard him
for a mile.... Then, as I told you, I had trouble in holdin' back a
general mix-up. An' while he was hollerin' about it I led them all over to
you. Gulden is layin' back there with his ear shot off. An' that's all.”</p>
<p>Kells, with thoughtful mien, turned from Pearce to the group of dark-faced
men. “This fight settles one thing,” he said to them. “We've got to have
organization. If you're not all a lot of fools you'll see that. You need a
head. Most of you swear by me, but some of you are for Gulden. Just
because he's a bloody devil. These times are the wildest the West ever
knew, and they're growing wilder. Gulden is a great machine for execution.
He has no sense of fear. He's a giant. He loves to fight—to kill.
But Gulden's all but crazy. This last deal proves that. I leave it to your
common sense. He rides around hunting for some lone camp to rob. Or some
girl to make off with. He does not plan with me or the men whose judgment
I have confidence in. He's always without gold. And so are most of his
followers. I don't know who they are. And I don't care. But here we split—unless
they and Gulden take advice and orders from me. I'm not so much siding
with Cleve. Any of you ought to admit that Gulden's kind of work will
disorganize a gang. He's been with us for long. And he approaches Cleve
with a job. Cleve is a stranger. He may belong here, but he's not yet one
of us. Gulden oughtn't have approached him. It was no straight deal. We
can't figure what Gulden meant exactly, but it isn't likely he wanted
Cleve to go. It was a bluff. He got called.... You men think this over—whether
you'll stick to Gulden or to me. Clear out now.”</p>
<p>His strong, direct talk evidently impressed them, and in silence they
crowded out of the cabin, leaving Pearce and Cleve behind.</p>
<p>“Jim, are you just hell-bent on fighting or do you mean to make yourself
the champion of every poor girl in these wilds?”</p>
<p>Cleve puffed a cloud of smoke that enveloped his head “I don't pick
quarrels,” he replied.</p>
<p>“Then you get red-headed at the very mention of a girl.”</p>
<p>A savage gesture of Cleve's suggested that Kells was right.</p>
<p>“Here, don't get red-headed at me,” called Kells, with piercing sharpness.
“I'll be your friend if you let me.... But declare yourself like a man—if
you want me for a friend!”</p>
<p>“Kells, I'm much obliged,” replied Cleve, with a semblance of earnestness.
“I'm no good or I wouldn't be out here... But I can't stand for these—these
deals with girls.”</p>
<p>“You'll change,” rejoined Kells, bitterly. “Wait till you live a few
lonely years out here! You don't understand the border. You're young. I've
seen the gold-fields of California and Nevada. Men go crazy with the gold
fever. It's gold that makes men wild. If you don't get killed you'll
change. If you live you'll see life on this border. War debases the moral
force of a man, but nothing like what you'll experience here the next few
years. Men with their wives and daughters are pouring into this range.
They're all over. They're finding gold. They've tasted blood. Wait till
the great gold strike comes! Then you'll see men and women go back ten
thousand years... And then what'll one girl more or less matter?”</p>
<p>“Well, you see, Kells, I was loved so devotedly by one and made such a
hero of—that I just can't bear to see any girl mistreated.”</p>
<p>He almost drawled the words, and he was suave and cool, and his face was
inscrutable, but a bitterness in his tone gave the lie to all he said and
looked.</p>
<p>Pearce caught the broader inference and laughed as if at a great joke.
Kells shook his head doubtfully, as if Cleve's transparent speech only
added to the complexity. And Cleve turned away, as if in an instant he had
forgotten his comrades.</p>
<p>Afterward, in the silence and darkness of night, Joan Randle lay upon her
bed sleepless, haunted by Jim's white face, amazed at the magnificent
madness of him, thrilled to her soul by the meaning of his attack on
Gulden, and tortured by a love that had grown immeasurably full of the
strength of these hours of suspense and the passion of this wild border.</p>
<p>Even in her dreams Joan seemed to be bending all her will toward that
inevitable and fateful moment when she must stand before Jim Cleve. It had
to be. Therefore she would absolutely compel herself to meet it,
regardless of the tumult that must rise within her. When all had been
said, her experience so far among the bandits, in spite of the shocks and
suspense that had made her a different girl, had been infinitely more
fortunate than might have been expected. She prayed for this luck to
continue and forced herself into a belief that it would.</p>
<p>That night she had slept in Dandy Dale's clothes, except for the boots;
and sometimes while turning in restless slumber she had been awakened by
rolling on the heavy gun, which she had not removed from the belt. And at
such moments, she had to ponder in the darkness, to realize that she, Joan
Randle, lay a captive in a bandit's camp, dressed in a dead bandit's garb,
and packing his gun—even while she slept. It was such an improbable,
impossible thing. Yet the cold feel of the polished gun sent a thrill of
certainty through her.</p>
<p>In the morning she at least did not have to suffer the shame of getting
into Dandy Dale's clothes, for she was already in them. She found a grain
of comfort even in that. When she had put on the mask and sombrero she
studied the effect in her little mirror. And she again decided that no
one, not even Jim Cleve, could recognize her in that disguise. Likewise
she gathered courage from the fact that even her best girl friend would
have found her figure unfamiliar and striking where once it had been
merely tall and slender and strong, ordinarily dressed. Then how would Jim
Cleve ever recognize her? She remembered her voice that had been called a
contralto, low and deep; and how she used to sing the simple songs she
knew. She could not disguise that voice. But she need not let Jim hear it.
Then there was a return of the idea that he would instinctively recognize
her—that no disguise could be proof to a lover who had ruined
himself for her. Suddenly she realized how futile all her worry and shame.
Sooner or later she must reveal her identity to Jim Cleve. Out of all this
complexity of emotion Joan divined that what she yearned most for was to
spare Cleve the shame consequent upon recognition of her and then the
agony he must suffer at a false conception of her presence there. It was a
weakness in her. When death menaced her lover and the most inconceivably
horrible situation yawned for her, still she could only think of her
passionate yearning to have him know, all in a flash, that she loved him,
that she had followed him in remorse, that she was true to him and would
die before being anything else.</p>
<p>And when she left her cabin she was in a mood to force an issue.</p>
<p>Kells was sitting at the table and being served by Bate Wood.</p>
<p>“Hello, Dandy!” he greeted her, in surprise and pleasure. “This's early
for you.”</p>
<p>Joan returned his greeting and said that she could not sleep all the time.</p>
<p>“You're coming round. I'll bet you hold up a stage before a month is out.”</p>
<p>“Hold up a stage?” echoed Joan.</p>
<p>“Sure. It'll be great fun,” replied Kells, with a laugh. “Here—sit
down and eat with me.... Bate, come along lively with breakfast.... It's
fine to see you there. That mask changes you, though. No one can see how
pretty you are.... Joan, your admirer, Gulden, has been incapacitated for
the present.”</p>
<p>Then in evident satisfaction Kells repeated the story that Joan had heard
Red Pearce tell the night before; and in the telling Kells enlarged
somewhat upon Jim Cleve.</p>
<p>“I've taken a liking to Cleve,” said Kells. “He's a strange youngster. But
he's more man than boy. I think he's broken-hearted over some rotten girl
who's been faithless or something. Most women are no good, Joan. A while
ago I'd have said ALL women were that, but since I've known you I think—I
know different. Still, one girl out of a million doesn't change a world.”</p>
<p>“What will this J—jim C—cleve do—when he sees—me?”
asked Joan, and she choked over the name.</p>
<p>“Don't eat so fast, girl,” said Kells. “You're only seventeen years old
and you've plenty of time.... Well, I've thought some about Cleve. He's
not crazy like Gulden, but he's just as dangerous. He's dangerous because
he doesn't know what he's doing—has absolutely no fear of death—and
then he's swift with a gun. That's a bad combination. Cleve will kill a
man presently. He's shot three already, and in Gulden's case he meant to
kill. If once he kills a man—that'll make him a gun-fighter. I've
worried a little about his seeing you. But I can manage him, I guess. He
can't be scared or driven. But he may be led. I've had Red Pearce tell him
you are my wife. I hope he believes it, for none of the other fellows
believe it. Anyway, you'll meet this Cleve soon, maybe to-day, and I want
you to be friendly. If I can steady him—stop his drinking—he'll
be the best man for me on this border.”</p>
<p>“I'm to help persuade him to join your band?” asked Joan, and she could
not yet control her voice.</p>
<p>“Is that so black a thing?” queried Kells, evidently nettled, and he
glared at her.</p>
<p>“I—I don't know,” faltered Joan. “Is this—this boy a criminal
yet?”</p>
<p>“No. He's only a fine, decent young chap gone wild—gone bad for some
girl. I told you that. You don't seem to grasp the point. If I can control
him he'll be of value to me—he'll be a bold and clever and dangerous
man—he'll last out here. If I can't win him, why, he won't last a
week longer. He'll be shot or knifed in a brawl. Without my control
Cleve'll go straight to the hell he's headed for.”</p>
<p>Joan pushed back her plate and, looking up, steadily eyed the bandit.</p>
<p>“Kells, I'd rather he ended his—his career quick—and went to—to—than
live to be a bandit and murderer at your command.”</p>
<p>Kells laughed mockingly, yet the savage action with which he threw his cup
against the wall attested to the fact that Joan had strange power to hurt
him.</p>
<p>“That's your sympathy, because I told you some girl drove him out here,”
said the bandit. “He's done for. You'll know that the moment you see him.
I really think he or any man out here would be the better for my interest.
Now, I want to know if you'll stand by me—put in a word to help
influence this wild boy.”</p>
<p>“I'll—I'll have to see him first,” replied Joan.</p>
<p>“Well, you take it sort of hard,” growled Kells. Then presently he
brightened. “I seem always to forget that you're only a kid. Listen! Now
you do as you like. But I want to warn you that you've got to get back the
same kind of nerve”—here he lowered his voice and glanced at Bate
Wood—“that you showed when you shot me. You're going to see some
sights.... A great gold strike! Men grown gold-mad! Woman of no more
account than a puff of cottonseed!... Hunger, toil, pain, disease,
starvation, robbery, blood, murder, hanging, death—all nothing,
nothing! There will be only gold. Sleepless nights—days of hell—rush
and rush—all strangers with greedy eyes! The things that made life
will be forgotten and life itself will be cheap. There will be only that
yellow stuff—gold—over which men go mad and women sell their
souls!”</p>
<p>After breakfast Kells had Joan's horse brought out of the corral and
saddled.</p>
<p>“You must ride some every day. You must keep in condition,” he said.
“Pretty soon we may have a chase, and I don't want it to tear you to
pieces.”</p>
<p>“Where shall I ride?” asked Joan.</p>
<p>“Anywhere you like up and down the gulch.”</p>
<p>“Are you going to have me watched?”</p>
<p>“Not if you say you won't run off.”</p>
<p>“You trust me?”</p>
<p>“Yes.”</p>
<p>“All right. I promise. And if I change my mind I'll tell you.”</p>
<p>“Lord! don't do it, Joan. I—I—Well, you've come to mean a good
deal to me. I don't know what I'd do if I lost you.” As she mounted the
horse Kells added, “Don't stand any raw talk from any of the gang.”</p>
<p>Joan rode away, pondering in mind the strange fact that though she hated
this bandit, yet she had softened toward him. His eyes lit when he saw
her; his voice mellowed; his manner changed. He had meant to tell her
again that he loved her, yet he controlled it. Was he ashamed? Had he seen
into the depths of himself and despised what he had imagined love? There
were antagonistic forces at war within him.</p>
<p>It was early morning and a rosy light tinged the fresh green. She let the
eager horse break into a canter and then a gallop; and she rode up the
gulch till the trail started into rough ground. Then turning, she went
back, down under the pines and by the cabins, to where the gulch narrowed
its outlet into the wide valley. Here she met several dusty horsemen
driving a pack-train. One, a jovial ruffian, threw up his hands in mock
surrender.</p>
<p>“Hands up, pards!” he exclaimed. “Reckon we've run agin' Dandy Dale come
to life.”</p>
<p>His companions made haste to comply and then the three regarded her with
bold and roguish eyes. Joan had run square into them round a corner of
slope and, as there was no room to pass, she had halted.</p>
<p>“Shore it's the Dandy Dale we heerd of,” vouchsafed another.</p>
<p>“Thet's Dandy's outfit with a girl inside,” added the third.</p>
<p>Joan wheeled her horse and rode back up the trail. The glances of these
ruffians seemed to scorch her with the reality of her appearance. She wore
a disguise, but her womanhood was more manifest in it than in her feminine
garb. It attracted the bold glances of these men. If there were any
possible decency among them, this outrageous bandit costume rendered it
null. How could she ever continue to wear it? Would not something good and
sacred within her be sullied by a constant exposure to the effect she had
upon these vile border men? She did not think it could while she loved Jim
Cleve; and with thought of him came a mighty throb of her heart to assure
her that nothing mattered if only she could save him.</p>
<p>Upon the return trip up the gulch Joan found men in sight leading horses,
chopping wood, stretching arms in cabin doors. Joan avoided riding near
them, yet even at a distance she was aware of their gaze. One rowdy, half
hidden by a window, curved hands round his mouth and called, softly,
“Hullo, sweetheart!”</p>
<p>Joan was ashamed that she could feel insulted. She was amazed at the
temper which seemed roused in her. This border had caused her feelings she
had never dreamed possible to her. Avoiding the trail, she headed for the
other side of the gulch. There were clumps of willows along the brook
through which she threaded a way, looking for a good place to cross. The
horse snorted for water. Apparently she was not going to find any better
crossing, so she turned the horse into a narrow lane through the willows
and, dismounting on a mossy bank, she slipped the bridle so the horse
could drink.</p>
<p>Suddenly she became aware that she was not alone. But she saw no one in
front of her or on the other side of her horse. Then she turned. Jim Cleve
was in the act of rising from his knees. He had a towel in his hand. His
face was wet. He stood no more than ten steps from her.</p>
<p>Joan could not have repressed a little cry to save her life. The surprise
was tremendous. She could not move a finger. She expected to hear him call
her name.</p>
<p>Cleve stared at her. His face, in the morning light, was as drawn and
white as that of a corpse. Only his eyes seemed alive and they were
flames. A lightning flash of scorn leaped to them. He only recognized in
her a woman, and his scorn was for the creature that bandit garb
proclaimed her to be. A sad and bitter smile crossed his face; and then it
was followed by an expression that was a lash upon Joan's bleeding spirit.
He looked at her shapely person with something of the brazen and evil
glance that had been so revolting to her in the eyes of those ruffians.
That was the unexpected—the impossible—in connection with Jim
Cleve. How could she stand there under it—and live?</p>
<p>She jerked at the bridle, and, wading blindly across the brook, she
mounted somehow, and rode with blurred sight back to the cabin. Kells
appeared busy with men outside and did not accost her. She fled to her
cabin and barricaded the door.</p>
<p>Then she hid her face on her bed, covered herself to shut out the light,
and lay there, broken-hearted. What had been that other thing she had
imagined was shame—that shrinking and burning she had suffered
through Kells and his men? What was that compared to this awful thing? A
brand of red-hot pitch, blacker and bitterer than death, had been struck
brutally across her soul. By the man she loved—whom she would have
died to save! Jim Cleve had seen in her only an abandoned creature of the
camps. His sad and bitter smile had been for the thought that he could
have loved anything of her sex. His scorn had been for the betrayed youth
and womanhood suggested by her appearance. And then the thing that struck
into Joan's heart was the fact that her grace and charm of person,
revealed by this costume forced upon her, had aroused Jim Cleve's first
response to the evil surrounding him, the first call to that baseness he
must be assimilating from these border ruffians. That he could look at her
so! The girl he had loved! Joan's agony lay not in the circumstance of his
being as mistaken in her character as he had been in her identity, but
that she, of all women, had to be the one who made him answer, like Kells
and Gulden and all those ruffians, to the instincts of a beast.</p>
<p>“Oh, he'd been drunk—he was drunk!” whispered Joan. “He isn't to be
blamed. He's not my old Jim. He's suffering—he's changed—he
doesn't care. What could I expect—standing there like a hussy before
him—in this—this indecent rig?... I must see him. I must tell
him. If he recognized me now—and I had no chance to tell him why I'm
here—why I look like this—that I love him—am still good—and
true to him—if I couldn't tell him I'd—I'd shoot myself!”</p>
<p>Joan sobbed out the final words and then broke down. And when the spell
had exercised its sway, leaving her limp and shaken and weak, she was the
better for it. Slowly calmness returned so that she could look at her wild
and furious rush from the spot where she had faced Jim Cleve, at the storm
of shame ending in her collapse. She realized that if she had met Jim
Cleve here in the dress in which she had left home there would have been
the same shock of surprise and fear and love. She owed part of that
breakdown to the suspense she had been under and then the suddenness of
the meeting. Looking back at her agitation, she felt that it had been
natural—that if she could only tell the truth to Jim Cleve the
situation was not impossible. But the meeting, and all following it, bore
tremendous revelation of how through all this wild experience she had
learned to love Jim Cleve. But for his reckless flight and her blind
pursuit, and then the anxiety, fear, pain, toil, and despair, she would
never have known her woman's heart and its capacity for love.</p>
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