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<h3> XXIII </h3>
<h3> THE HILL DIFFICULTY </h3>
<p>The first happy year at Wareham, with its widened sky-line, its larger
vision, its greater opportunity, was over and gone. Rebecca had studied
during the summer vacation, and had passed, on her return in the
autumn, certain examinations which would enable her, if she carried out
the same programme the next season, to complete the course in three
instead of four years. She came off with no flying colors,—that would
have been impossible in consideration of her inadequate training; but
she did wonderfully well in some of the required subjects, and so
brilliantly in others that the average was respectable. She would never
have been a remarkable scholar under any circumstances, perhaps, and
she was easily out-stripped in mathematics and the natural sciences by
a dozen girls, but in some inexplicable way she became, as the months
went on, the foremost figure in the school. When she had entirely
forgotten the facts which would enable her to answer a question fully
and conclusively, she commonly had some original theory to expound; it
was not always correct, but it was generally unique and sometimes
amusing. She was only fair in Latin or French grammar, but when it came
to translation, her freedom, her choice of words, and her sympathetic
understanding of the spirit of the text made her the delight of her
teachers and the despair of her rivals.</p>
<p>"She can be perfectly ignorant of a subject," said Miss Maxwell to Adam
Ladd, "but entirely intelligent the moment she has a clue. Most of the
other girls are full of information and as stupid as sheep."</p>
<p>Rebecca's gifts had not been discovered save by the few, during the
first year, when she was adjusting herself quietly to the situation.
She was distinctly one of the poorer girls; she had no fine dresses to
attract attention, no visitors, no friends in the town. She had more
study hours, and less time, therefore, for the companionship of other
girls, gladly as she would have welcomed the gayety of that side of
school life. Still, water will find its own level in some way, and by
the spring of the second year she had naturally settled into the same
sort of leadership which had been hers in the smaller community of
Riverboro. She was unanimously elected assistant editor of the Wareham
School Pilot, being the first girl to assume that enviable, though
somewhat arduous and thankless position, and when her maiden number
went to the Cobbs, uncle Jerry and aunt Sarah could hardly eat or sleep
for pride.</p>
<p>"She'll always get votes," said Huldah Meserve, when discussing the
election, "for whether she knows anything or not, she looks as if she
did, and whether she's capable of filling an office or not, she looks
as if she was. I only wish I was tall and dark and had the gift of
making people believe I was great things, like Rebecca Randall. There's
one thing: though the boys call her handsome, you notice they don't
trouble her with much attention."</p>
<p>It was a fact that Rebecca's attitude towards the opposite sex was
still somewhat indifferent and oblivious, even for fifteen and a half!
No one could look at her and doubt that she had potentialities of
attraction latent within her somewhere, but that side of her nature was
happily biding its time. A human being is capable only of a certain
amount of activity at a given moment, and it will inevitably satisfy
first its most pressing needs, its most ardent desires, its chief
ambitions. Rebecca was full of small anxieties and fears, for matters
were not going well at the brick house and were anything but hopeful at
the home farm. She was overbusy and overtaxed, and her thoughts were
naturally drawn towards the difficult problems of daily living.</p>
<p>It had seemed to her during the autumn and winter of that year as if
her aunt Miranda had never been, save at the very first, so censorious
and so fault-finding. One Saturday Rebecca ran upstairs and, bursting
into a flood of tears, exclaimed, "Aunt Jane, it seems as if I never
could stand her continual scoldings. Nothing I can do suits aunt
Miranda; she's just said it will take me my whole life to get the
Randall out of me, and I'm not convinced that I want it all out, so
there we are!"</p>
<p>Aunt Jane, never demonstrative, cried with Rebecca as she attempted to
soothe her.</p>
<p>"You must be patient," she said, wiping first her own eyes and then
Rebecca's. "I haven't told you, for it isn't fair you should be
troubled when you're studying so hard, but your aunt Miranda isn't
well. One Monday morning about a month ago, she had a kind of faint
spell; it wasn't bad, but the doctor is afraid it was a shock, and if
so, it's the beginning of the end. Seems to me she's failing right
along, and that's what makes her so fretful and easy vexed. She has
other troubles too, that you don't know anything about, and if you're
not kind to your aunt Miranda now, child, you'll be dreadful sorry some
time."</p>
<p>All the temper faded from Rebecca's face, and she stopped crying to say
penitently, "Oh! the poor dear thing! I won't mind a bit what she says
now. She's just asked me for some milk toast and I was dreading to take
it to her, but this will make everything different. Don't worry yet,
aunt Jane, for perhaps it won't be as bad as you think."</p>
<p>So when she carried the toast to her aunt a little later, it was in the
best gilt-edged china bowl, with a fringed napkin on the tray and a
sprig of geranium lying across the salt cellar.</p>
<p>"Now, aunt Miranda," she said cheerily, "I expect you to smack your
lips and say this is good; it's not Randall, but Sawyer milk toast."</p>
<p>"You've tried all kinds on me, one time an' another," Miranda answered.
"This tastes real kind o' good; but I wish you hadn't wasted that nice
geranium."</p>
<p>"You can't tell what's wasted," said Rebecca philosophically; "perhaps
that geranium has been hoping this long time it could brighten
somebody's supper, so don't disappoint it by making believe you don't
like it. I've seen geraniums cry,—in the very early morning!"</p>
<p>The mysterious trouble to which Jane had alluded was a very real one,
but it was held in profound secrecy. Twenty-five hundred dollars of the
small Sawyer property had been invested in the business of a friend of
their father's, and had returned them a regular annual income of a
hundred dollars. The family friend had been dead for some five years,
but his son had succeeded to his interests and all went on as formerly.
Suddenly there came a letter saying that the firm had gone into
bankruptcy, that the business had been completely wrecked, and that the
Sawyer money had been swept away with everything else.</p>
<p>The loss of one hundred dollars a year is a very trifling matter, but
it made all the difference between comfort and self-denial to the two
old spinsters Their manner of life had been so rigid and careful that
it was difficult to economize any further, and the blow had fallen just
when it was most inconvenient, for Rebecca's school and boarding
expenses, small as they were, had to be paid promptly and in cash.</p>
<p>"Can we possibly go on doing it? Shan't we have to give up and tell her
why?" asked Jane tearfully of the elder sister.</p>
<p>"We have put our hand to the plough, and we can't turn back," answered
Miranda in her grimmest tone; "we've taken her away from her mother and
offered her an education, and we've got to keep our word. She's
Aurelia's only hope for years to come, to my way o' thinkin'. Hannah's
beau takes all her time 'n' thought, and when she gits a husband her
mother'll be out o' sight and out o' mind. John, instead of farmin',
thinks he must be a doctor,—as if folks wasn't gettin' unhealthy
enough these days, without turnin' out more young doctors to help 'em
into their graves. No, Jane; we'll skimp 'n' do without, 'n' plan to
git along on our interest money somehow, but we won't break into our
principal, whatever happens."</p>
<p>"Breaking into the principal" was, in the minds of most thrifty New
England women, a sin only second to arson, theft, or murder; and,
though the rule was occasionally carried too far for common sense,—as
in this case, where two elderly women of sixty might reasonably have
drawn something from their little hoard in time of special need,—it
doubtless wrought more of good than evil in the community.</p>
<p>Rebecca, who knew nothing of their business affairs, merely saw her
aunts grow more and more saving, pinching here and there, cutting off
this and that relentlessly. Less meat and fish were bought; the woman
who had lately been coming two days a week for washing, ironing, and
scrubbing was dismissed; the old bonnets of the season before were
brushed up and retrimmed; there were no drives to Moderation or trips
to Portland. Economy was carried to its very extreme; but though
Miranda was well-nigh as gloomy and uncompromising in her manner and
conversation as a woman could well be, she at least never twitted her
niece of being a burden; so Rebecca's share of the Sawyers' misfortunes
consisted only in wearing her old dresses, hats, and jackets, without
any apparent hope of a change.</p>
<p>There was, however, no concealing the state of things at Sunnybrook,
where chapters of accidents had unfolded themselves in a sort of serial
story that had run through the year. The potato crop had failed; there
were no apples to speak of; the hay had been poor; Aurelia had turns of
dizziness in her head; Mark had broken his ankle. As this was his
fourth offense, Miranda inquired how many bones there were in the human
body, "so 't they'd know when Mark got through breakin' 'em." The time
for paying the interest on the mortgage, that incubus that had crushed
all the joy out of the Randall household, had come and gone, and there
was no possibility, for the first time in fourteen years, of paying the
required forty-eight dollars. The only bright spot in the horizon was
Hannah's engagement to Will Melville,—a young farmer whose land joined
Sunnybrook, who had a good house, was alone in the world, and his own
master. Hannah was so satisfied with her own unexpectedly radiant
prospects that she hardly realized her mother's anxieties; for there
are natures which flourish, in adversity, and deteriorate when exposed
to sudden prosperity. She had made a visit of a week at the brick
house; and Miranda's impression, conveyed in privacy to Jane, was that
Hannah was close as the bark of a tree, and consid'able selfish too;
that when she'd clim' as fur as she could in the world, she'd kick the
ladder out from under her, everlastin' quick; that, on being sounded as
to her ability to be of use to the younger children in the future, she
said she guessed she'd done her share a'ready, and she wan't goin' to
burden Will with her poor relations. "She's Susan Randall through and
through!" ejaculated Miranda. "I was glad to see her face turned
towards Temperance. If that mortgage is ever cleared from the farm, 't
won't be Hannah that'll do it; it'll be Rebecca or me!"</p>
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