<h2>CHAPTER IX</h2>
<div class='chaptertitle'>MR. ADAMS ABROAD</div>
<div class='cap'>IN August, 1779, Mr. Adams returned, and
all was joy; but again the joy was short-lived.
There seemed really no end to the trials of these
two loving hearts. In November, Mr. Adams was
again ordered to France on public service, and sailed
in November. This time he took not only John
but little Charles with him, and Abigail's heart was
doubly desolate.</div>
<div class='blockquot'><p>"<span class="smcap">Dearest of Friends</span>,—My habitation, how
desolate it looks! my table, I sit down to it, but
cannot swallow my food! Oh, why was I born
with so much sensibility, and why, possessing it,
have I so often been called to struggle with it? I
wish to see you again. Were I sure you would not
be gone, I could not withstand the temptation of
coming to town, though my heart would suffer
over again the cruel torture of separation.</p>
<p>"What a cordial to my dejected spirits were the
few lines last night received! And does your heart<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_182" id="Page_182">[182]</SPAN></span>
forebode that we shall again be happy? My hopes
and fears rise alternately. I cannot resign more
than I do, unless life itself were called for. My
dear sons, I cannot think of them without a tear.
Little do they know the feelings of a mother's heart.
May they be good and useful as their father! Then
they will in some measure reward the anxiety of a
mother. My tenderest love to them. Remember
me also to Mr. Thaxter, whose civilities and kindness
I shall miss.</p>
<p>"God Almighty bless and protect my dearest
friend, and, in his own time, restore him to the affectionate
bosom of</p>
<div class='sig'>
"<span class="smcap">Portia</span>."<br/></div>
</div>
<p>It was all the more lonely for Mrs. Adams that
the winter was a severe one: "the sublimest winter"
she ever saw. In December and January there fell
the highest snow known in forty years; all through
January and February, the Bay was frozen over, so
that no vessel could pass through for a month.
"We had neither snow, rain, nor the least thaw. It
has been remarkably healthy, and we have lived
along very comfortably, though many people have
suffered greatly for food."</p>
<p>In the long winter days, how eagerly Mrs. Adams<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_183" id="Page_183">[183]</SPAN></span>
must have watched for the incoming mails! I do
not know what were the postal arrangements of
Braintree; very likely there were none. In Boston,
the Post Office was opened every Monday morning
from the middle of March to the middle of September,
"at 7 of the clock, to deliver out all letters
that do come by the post till twelve o'clock; from
twelve to two o'clock, being dinner-time, no office
kept; and from two o'clock in the afternoon to six
o'clock the office will be open to take in all letters
to go by the Southern and Western post."</p>
<p>A single letter cost one shilling to send; this rate
held to the middle of the nineteenth century. Beside
letters, the faithful Portia sent to her John all
the papers and news-letters she could lay hands on.</p>
<p>Boston by this time had several newspapers. The
first of these, appearing as early as 1704, was the
<cite>Boston News-Letter</cite>, "Published by Authority."
For some time this little sheet held the field alone;
but in 1721 appeared the <cite>Boston Gazette</cite>, and the
<cite>New England Courant</cite>. In both these, James
Franklin, Benjamin's elder brother, had a hand;
indeed, the <cite>Courant</cite> was his own paper, started
when he was discharged from the staff of the
<cite>Gazette</cite>. He seems to have been a quarrelsome
fellow, was twice arraigned for contempt, and once<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_184" id="Page_184">[184]</SPAN></span>
imprisoned. Benjamin, then a boy of sixteen, astute
from his cradle, contributed by stealth to the
<cite>Courant</cite> more or less; but slipped away to Philadelphia
without getting into trouble.</p>
<p>These papers, doubtless, Portia sent regularly to
her John, who received them as often as Fate or
the enemy allowed.</p>
<p>Now and then Mrs. Adams took her chaise and
went into town to make some visits in Boston or
Cambridge.</p>
<p>"Present my compliments to Mr. Dana," she
writes. "Tell him I have called upon his lady, and
we enjoyed an afternoon of sweet communion. I
find she would not be averse to taking a voyage,
should he be continued abroad. She groans most
bitterly, and is irreconcilable to his absence. I am
a mere philosopher to her. I am <em>inured</em>, but not
hardened, to the painful portion. Shall I live to
see it otherwise?"</p>
<p>This was written in July, 1780. We may fancy
Madam Abigail setting out on this expedition,
stately and demure in hoop petticoat and high-heeled
shoes. We cannot be sure whether she wore a Leghorn
hat or a calash. Here I pause for a moment;
I remember a calash, in my childhood. It
was made of thin green silk, shirred on pieces of<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_185" id="Page_185">[185]</SPAN></span>
rattan or whalebone, placed two or three inches
apart. These were drawn together at the back by
a cape, and thus, bent into hoop-shape, could be
drawn so far over the face as to cover it entirely.
The "bashful bonnet," the thing was called; certainly,
no headdress ever was uglier, but it must
have been "matchless for the complexion," as
Madam Patti says of a certain well-known soap.</p>
<p>On the whole, knowing what the calash looked
like, I should prefer to think that Madam Abigail
wore a Leghorn hat over her fine dark hair. Leghorns
were costly. I have heard of their costing
twenty-five or even fifty dollars: but they lasted
for years and years. It was not till some years
after this that American women began to make
their own bonnet straw. It became the rage, both
here and in England, and women vied with each
other in the amount and quality of their "straw-work."
Hats and bonnets were not enough; women
wore "straw-coats" or <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">paillasses</i>; these were made
of "sarcenet, calico, or linen, and ornamented profusely
with straw." A writer in the <cite>European
Magazine</cite> exclaims:</p>
<p>"Straw! straw! everything is ornamented in
straw, from the cap to the shoe-buckles; Ceres is
the favorite, not only of the female but the male<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_186" id="Page_186">[186]</SPAN></span>
part of the fashionable world, for the gentlemen's
waistcoats are ribbed with straw."</p>
<p>Here is a long digression; let us hope that Mrs.
Dana gave Mrs. Adams a good dish of tea and
that she went home refreshed.</p>
<p>There are but few letters of 1780: probably many
were lost. In October Mrs. Adams again quotes
the current prices, for which her husband frequently
asks.</p>
<p>"You tell me to send you prices current. I will
aim at it. Corn is now thirty pounds, rye twenty-seven,
per bushel. Flour from a hundred and forty
to a hundred and thirty per hundred. Beef, eight
dollars per pound; mutton, nine; lamb, six, seven,
and eight. Butter, twelve dollars per pound; cheese,
ten. Sheep's wool, thirty dollars per pound; flax,
twenty. West India articles: sugar, from a hundred
and seventy to two hundred pounds per hundred;
molasses, forty-eight dollars per gallon; tea,
ninety; coffee, twelve; cotton-wool, thirty per pound.
Exchange from seventy to seventy-five for hard
money. Bills at fifty. Money scarce; plenty of
goods; <em>enormous</em> taxes."</p>
<p>And what were young John and Charles doing,
far from home and mother? They were studying,
and improving themselves in every proper way. In<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_187" id="Page_187">[187]</SPAN></span>
December, 1780, they were sent to Leyden, which
Mr. Adams thinks "perhaps as learned a University
as any in Europe." He notes in his diary of January,
1781, "John is transcribing a Greek Grammar
. . . of his master's composition, and Charles
a Latin one; John is also transcribing a treatise
on Roman antiquities. . . . After dinner they went
to the Rector Magnificus to be matriculated into
the University; Charles was found to be too young,
none under twelve years of age being admitted;
John was admitted after making a declaration that
he would do nothing against the laws of the university,
city, or land."</p>
<p>I have to exercise stern self-control to keep from
quoting too much from Mr. Adams' diary: after
all, it is his wife's story that I am trying to tell.
Yet—surely never were husband and wife more
entirely one—I must indulge myself, and my readers,
with his account of the Royal Family of France
at supper. He did not admire Queen Marie Antoinette
as much as Edmund Burke did, and does not
scruple to say so.</p>
<p>"She was an object too sublime and beautiful for
my dull pen to describe. I leave this enterprise to
Mr. Burke. But, in his description, there is more
of the orator than of the philosopher. Her dress<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_188" id="Page_188">[188]</SPAN></span>
was every thing that art and wealth could make it.
One of the maids of honor told me she had diamonds
upon her person to the value of eighteen
millions of livres; and I always thought her majesty
much beholden to her dress. Mr. Burke saw
her probably but once. I have seen her fifty times
perhaps, and in all the varieties of her dresses. She
had a fine complexion, indicating perfect health,
and was a handsome woman in her face and figure.
But I have seen beauties much superior, both in
countenance and form, in France, England, and
America."</p>
<div class="figcenter"> <ANTIMG src="images/illus03.jpg" width-obs="454" height-obs="600" alt="Black and white painting of John Adams" /> <span class="caption"><span class="smcap">John Adams</span><br/>Painted by Gilbert Stuart</span></div>
<p>He goes on to describe the spectacle of the <i lang="fr" xml:lang="fr">grand
couvert</i>:</p>
<p>"I was selected, and summoned indeed, from
all my company, and ordered to a seat close beside
the royal family. The seats on both sides of the
hall, arranged like the seats in a theatre, were all
full of ladies of the first rank and fashion in the
kingdom, and there was no room or place for me
but in the midst of them. It was not easy to make
room, for one more person. However, room was
made, and I was situated between two ladies, with
rows and ranks of ladies above and below me, and
on the right hand and on the left, and ladies only.
My dress was a decent French dress, becoming the
station I held, but not to be compared with the
gold, and diamonds, and embroidery, about me.
I could neither speak, nor understand the language
in a manner to support a conversation, but I had
soon the satisfaction to find it was a silent meeting,
and that nobody spoke a word, but the royal family,
to each other, and they said very little. The eyes
of all the assembly were turned upon me, and I
felt sufficiently humble and mortified, for I was not
a proper object for the criticisms of such a company.
I found myself gazed at, as we in America
used to gaze at the sachems who came to make
speeches to us in Congress, but I thought it very
hard if I could not command as much power of
face as one of the chiefs of the Six Nations, and,
therefore, determined that I would assume a cheerful
countenance, enjoy the scene around me, and
observe it as coolly as an astronomer contemplates
the stars. . . . The king was the royal carver for
himself and all his family. His majesty ate like a
king, and made a royal supper of solid beef, and
other things in proportion. The queen took a large
spoonful of soup, and displayed her fine person and
graceful manners, in alternately looking at the company
in various parts of the hall, and ordering several
kinds of seasoning to be brought to her, by<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_189" id="Page_189">[189]</SPAN><br/><SPAN name="Page_190" id="Page_190">[190]</SPAN></span>
which she fitted her supper to her taste. When this
was accomplished, her majesty exhibited to the admiring
spectators, the magnificent spectacle of a
great queen swallowing her royal supper in a single
spoonful all at once. This was all performed like
perfect clock work; not a feature of her face, nor
a motion of any part of her person, especially her
arm and her hand, could be criticized as out of order.
A little, and but a little, conversation seemed
to pass among the royal personages of both sexes,
but in so low a voice, that nothing could be understood
by any of the audience.</p>
<p>"The officers about the king's person brought him
many letters and papers, from time to time, while
he was at table. He looked at these. Some of them
he read, or seemed to read, and returned them to
the same officers who brought them, or some others.</p>
<p>"These ceremonies and shows may be condemned
by philosophy and ridiculed by comedy, with great
reason. Yet the common sense of mankind has
never adopted the rigid decrees of the former, nor
ever sincerely laughed with the latter. Nor has
the religion of nations, in any age, approved of
the dogmas or the satires. On the contrary, it has
always overborne them all, and carried its inventions
of such exhibitions to a degree of sublimity<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_191" id="Page_191">[191]</SPAN></span>
and pathos, which has frequently transported the
greatest infidels out of themselves. Something of
the kind every government and every religion has,
and must have; and the business and duty of lawgivers
and philosophers is to endeavor to prevent
them from being carried too far."</p>
<p>Mr. Adams is full of anxieties:</p>
<p>"I am sorry to learn you have a sum of paper.
How could you be so imprudent? You must be
frugal, I assure you. Your children will be poorly
off. I can but barely live in the manner that is <ins title="Transcriber's Note: original reads 'indipensably'">indispensably</ins>
demanded of me by everybody. Living
is dear indeed here. My children will not be so
well left by their father as he was by his. They
will be infected with the examples and habits and
tastes for expensive living without the means. He
was not. My children shall never have the smallest
soil of dishonor or disgrace brought upon them
by their father, no, not to please ministers, kings, or
nations. At the expense of a little of this, my children
might perhaps ride at their ease through life,
but dearly as I love them, they shall live in the service
of their country, in her navy, her army, or even
out of either in the extremest degree of poverty,
before I will depart in the smallest iota from my
sentiments of honor and delicacy; for I, even I,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_192" id="Page_192">[192]</SPAN></span>
have sentiments of delicacy as exquisite as the
proudest minister that ever served a monarch. They
may not be exactly like those of some ministers. . . .</p>
<p>"General Washington has done me great honor
and much public service by sending me authentic
accounts of his own and General Greene's last great
actions. They are in the way to negotiate peace.
It lies wholly with them. No other ministers but
they and their colleagues in the army can accomplish
the great event.</p>
<p>"I am keeping house, but I want a housekeeper.
What a fine affair it would be, if we could flit
across the Atlantic as they say the angels do from
planet to planet! I would dart to Penn's Hill and
bring you over on my wings; but, alas, we must
keep house separately for some time. But one thing
I am determined on. If God should please to restore
me once more to your fireside, I will never
again leave it without your ladyship's company—no,
not even to go to Congress to Philadelphia, and
there I am determined to go, if I can make interest
enough to get chosen, whenever I return. I would
give a million sterling that you were here; and I
could afford it as well as Great Britain can the
thirty millions she must spend, the ensuing year, to
complete her own ruin. Farewell, farewell."</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_193" id="Page_193">[193]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>I like to picture John Adams as he wrote those
words: sitting erect at his desk, his chin up, his eyes
flashing. So, I fancy, he may have looked, in his
"decent French dress" in the crowd of court ladies,
that evening at Versailles.</p>
<p>More and more as time went on, did the two
friends long for each other. I say "friends," because
it is their own word; most of the letters begin
with it. Abigail writes:</p>
<p>"<span class="smcap">My dearest Friend</span>,—The family are all retired
to rest; the busy scenes of the day are over;
a day which I wished to have devoted in a particular
manner to my dearest friend; but company falling
in prevented it, nor could I claim a moment until
this silent watch of the night.</p>
<p>"Look (is there a dearer name than <em>friend?</em>
Think of it for me), look to the date of this letter,
and tell me what are the thoughts which arise in
your mind. Do you not recollect that eighteen years
have run their circuit since we pledged our mutual
faith to each other, and the hymeneal torch was
lighted at the altar of Love? Yet, yet it burns with
unabating fervor. Old Ocean has not quenched it,
nor old Time smothered it in this bosom. It cheers
me in the lonely hour; it comforts me even in the
gloom which sometimes possesses my mind."</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_194" id="Page_194">[194]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>She begs to be allowed to join him in Europe.</p>
<p>"I have repeatedly expressed my desire to make
a part of your family. But 'Will you come and
see me?' cannot be taken in that serious light I
should choose to consider an invitation from those
I love. I do not doubt but that you would be glad
to see me, but I know you are apprehensive of dangers
and fatigues. I know your situation may be
unsettled, and it may be more permanent than I
wish it. Only think how the words, 'three, four,
and five years' absence,' sound! They sink into my
heart with a weight I cannot express. Do you look
like the miniature you sent? I cannot think so.
But you have a better likeness, I am told. Is that
designed for me? Gracious Heavens! restore to
me the original, and I care not who has the
shadow."</p>
<p>John was fully convinced that Portia would not
like Paris, and that it would not agree with her
or the children. "It would be most for the happiness
of my family," he says, "and most for the
honor of our country, that I should come home.
I have, therefore, this day written to Congress a
resignation of all my employments, and as soon as
I shall receive their acceptance of it, I will embark
for America, which will be in the spring or<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_195" id="Page_195">[195]</SPAN></span>
beginning of summer. Our son is now on his journey
from Petersburg, through Sweden, Denmark,
and Germany, and if it please God he come safe,
he shall come with me, and I pray we may all meet
once more, you and I never to separate again."</p>
<p>It was about this time that "a person" asked Mrs.
Adams, "If you had known that Mr. Adams should
have remained so long abroad, would you have consented
that he should have gone?"</p>
<p>"I recollected myself a moment," says Portia,
"and then spoke the real dictates of my heart: 'If
I had known, sir, that Mr. Adams could have effected
what he has done, I would not only have
submitted to the absence I have endured, painful as
it has been, but I would not have opposed it, even
though three years more should be added to the
number (which Heaven avert!). I feel a pleasure
in being able to sacrifice my selfish passions to the
general good, and in imitating the example which
has taught me to consider myself and family but as
the small dust of the balance, when compared with
the great community."</p>
<p>And now the long separation was to end. In December,
1782, Mr. Adams writes:</p>
<p>"Whether there should be peace or war, I shall
come home in the summer. As soon as I shall receive<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_196" id="Page_196">[196]</SPAN></span>
from Congress their acceptance of the resignation
of all my employments, which I have transmitted
many ways, I shall embark, and you may depend
upon a good domestic husband for the remainder
of my life, if it is the will of Heaven that
I should once more meet you. My promises are not
lightly made with anybody. I have never broken
one made to you, and I will not begin at this time
of life.</p>
<p>"My children, I hope, will once at length discover
that they have a father who is not unmindful of
their welfare. They have had too much reason
to think themselves forgotten, although I know that
an anxiety for their happiness has corroded me
every day of my life.</p>
<p>"With a tenderness which words cannot express,
I am theirs and yours forever."</p>
<p>The war was over; the child Independence had
grown to full stature, and the Republic took her
place among the nations. On the 21st of January,
1783, articles of peace were drawn up between
Great Britain, France, and the United States.</p>
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