<h2><SPAN name="chap75"></SPAN>Chapter VI.<br/> The First Interview With Smerdyakov</h2>
<p>This was the third time that Ivan had been to see Smerdyakov since his return
from Moscow. The first time he had seen him and talked to him was on the first
day of his arrival, then he had visited him once more, a fortnight later. But
his visits had ended with that second one, so that it was now over a month
since he had seen him. And he had scarcely heard anything of him.</p>
<p>Ivan had only returned five days after his father’s death, so that he was
not present at the funeral, which took place the day before he came back. The
cause of his delay was that Alyosha, not knowing his Moscow address, had to
apply to Katerina Ivanovna to telegraph to him, and she, not knowing his
address either, telegraphed to her sister and aunt, reckoning on Ivan’s
going to see them as soon as he arrived in Moscow. But he did not go to them
till four days after his arrival. When he got the telegram, he had, of course,
set off post‐haste to our town. The first to meet him was Alyosha, and Ivan was
greatly surprised to find that, in opposition to the general opinion of the
town, he refused to entertain a suspicion against Mitya, and spoke openly of
Smerdyakov as the murderer. Later on, after seeing the police captain and the
prosecutor, and hearing the details of the charge and the arrest, he was still
more surprised at Alyosha, and ascribed his opinion only to his exaggerated
brotherly feeling and sympathy with Mitya, of whom Alyosha, as Ivan knew, was
very fond.</p>
<p>By the way, let us say a word or two of Ivan’s feeling to his brother
Dmitri. He positively disliked him; at most, felt sometimes a compassion for
him, and even that was mixed with great contempt, almost repugnance.
Mitya’s whole personality, even his appearance, was extremely
unattractive to him. Ivan looked with indignation on Katerina Ivanovna’s
love for his brother. Yet he went to see Mitya on the first day of his arrival,
and that interview, far from shaking Ivan’s belief in his guilt,
positively strengthened it. He found his brother agitated, nervously excited.
Mitya had been talkative, but very absent‐minded and incoherent. He used
violent language, accused Smerdyakov, and was fearfully muddled. He talked
principally about the three thousand roubles, which he said had been
“stolen” from him by his father.</p>
<p>“The money was mine, it was my money,” Mitya kept repeating.
“Even if I had stolen it, I should have had the right.”</p>
<p>He hardly contested the evidence against him, and if he tried to turn a fact to
his advantage, it was in an absurd and incoherent way. He hardly seemed to wish
to defend himself to Ivan or any one else. Quite the contrary, he was angry and
proudly scornful of the charges against him; he was continually firing up and
abusing every one. He only laughed contemptuously at Grigory’s evidence
about the open door, and declared that it was “the devil that opened
it.” But he could not bring forward any coherent explanation of the fact.
He even succeeded in insulting Ivan during their first interview, telling him
sharply that it was not for people who declared that “everything was
lawful,” to suspect and question him. Altogether he was anything but
friendly with Ivan on that occasion. Immediately after that interview with
Mitya, Ivan went for the first time to see Smerdyakov.</p>
<p>In the railway train on his way from Moscow, he kept thinking of Smerdyakov and
of his last conversation with him on the evening before he went away. Many
things seemed to him puzzling and suspicious. But when he gave his evidence to
the investigating lawyer Ivan said nothing, for the time, of that conversation.
He put that off till he had seen Smerdyakov, who was at that time in the
hospital.</p>
<p>Doctor Herzenstube and Varvinsky, the doctor he met in the hospital,
confidently asserted in reply to Ivan’s persistent questions, that
Smerdyakov’s epileptic attack was unmistakably genuine, and were
surprised indeed at Ivan asking whether he might not have been shamming on the
day of the catastrophe. They gave him to understand that the attack was an
exceptional one, the fits persisting and recurring several times, so that the
patient’s life was positively in danger, and it was only now, after they
had applied remedies, that they could assert with confidence that the patient
would survive. “Though it might well be,” added Doctor Herzenstube,
“that his reason would be impaired for a considerable period, if not
permanently.” On Ivan’s asking impatiently whether that meant that
he was now mad, they told him that this was not yet the case, in the full sense
of the word, but that certain abnormalities were perceptible. Ivan decided to
find out for himself what those abnormalities were.</p>
<p>At the hospital he was at once allowed to see the patient. Smerdyakov was lying
on a truckle‐bed in a separate ward. There was only one other bed in the room,
and in it lay a tradesman of the town, swollen with dropsy, who was obviously
almost dying; he could be no hindrance to their conversation. Smerdyakov
grinned uncertainly on seeing Ivan, and for the first instant seemed nervous.
So at least Ivan fancied. But that was only momentary. For the rest of the time
he was struck, on the contrary, by Smerdyakov’s composure. From the first
glance Ivan had no doubt that he was very ill. He was very weak; he spoke
slowly, seeming to move his tongue with difficulty; he was much thinner and
sallower. Throughout the interview, which lasted twenty minutes, he kept
complaining of headache and of pain in all his limbs. His thin emasculate face
seemed to have become so tiny; his hair was ruffled, and his crest of curls in
front stood up in a thin tuft. But in the left eye, which was screwed up and
seemed to be insinuating something, Smerdyakov showed himself unchanged.
“It’s always worth while speaking to a clever man.” Ivan was
reminded of that at once. He sat down on the stool at his feet. Smerdyakov,
with painful effort, shifted his position in bed, but he was not the first to
speak. He remained dumb, and did not even look much interested.</p>
<p>“Can you talk to me?” asked Ivan. “I won’t tire you
much.”</p>
<p>“Certainly I can,” mumbled Smerdyakov, in a faint voice. “Has
your honor been back long?” he added patronizingly, as though encouraging
a nervous visitor.</p>
<p>“I only arrived to‐day.... To see the mess you are in here.”</p>
<p>Smerdyakov sighed.</p>
<p>“Why do you sigh? You knew of it all along,” Ivan blurted out.</p>
<p>Smerdyakov was stolidly silent for a while.</p>
<p>“How could I help knowing? It was clear beforehand. But how could I tell
it would turn out like that?”</p>
<p>“What would turn out? Don’t prevaricate! You’ve foretold
you’d have a fit; on the way down to the cellar, you know. You mentioned
the very spot.”</p>
<p>“Have you said so at the examination yet?” Smerdyakov queried with
composure.</p>
<p>Ivan felt suddenly angry.</p>
<p>“No, I haven’t yet, but I certainly shall. You must explain a great
deal to me, my man; and let me tell you, I am not going to let you play with
me!”</p>
<p>“Why should I play with you, when I put my whole trust in you, as in God
Almighty?” said Smerdyakov, with the same composure, only for a moment
closing his eyes.</p>
<p>“In the first place,” began Ivan, “I know that epileptic fits
can’t be told beforehand. I’ve inquired; don’t try and take
me in. You can’t foretell the day and the hour. How was it you told me
the day and the hour beforehand, and about the cellar, too? How could you tell
that you would fall down the cellar stairs in a fit, if you didn’t sham a
fit on purpose?”</p>
<p>“I had to go to the cellar anyway, several times a day, indeed,”
Smerdyakov drawled deliberately. “I fell from the garret just in the same
way a year ago. It’s quite true you can’t tell the day and hour of
a fit beforehand, but you can always have a presentiment of it.”</p>
<p>“But you did foretell the day and the hour!”</p>
<p>“In regard to my epilepsy, sir, you had much better inquire of the
doctors here. You can ask them whether it was a real fit or a sham; it’s
no use my saying any more about it.”</p>
<p>“And the cellar? How could you know beforehand of the cellar?”</p>
<p>“You don’t seem able to get over that cellar! As I was going down
to the cellar, I was in terrible dread and doubt. What frightened me most was
losing you and being left without defense in all the world. So I went down into
the cellar thinking, ‘Here, it’ll come on directly, it’ll
strike me down directly, shall I fall?’ And it was through this fear that
I suddenly felt the spasm that always comes ... and so I went flying. All that
and all my previous conversation with you at the gate the evening before, when
I told you how frightened I was and spoke of the cellar, I told all that to
Doctor Herzenstube and Nikolay Parfenovitch, the investigating lawyer, and
it’s all been written down in the protocol. And the doctor here, Mr.
Varvinsky, maintained to all of them that it was just the thought of it brought
it on, the apprehension that I might fall. It was just then that the fit seized
me. And so they’ve written it down, that it’s just how it must have
happened, simply from my fear.”</p>
<p>As he finished, Smerdyakov drew a deep breath, as though exhausted.</p>
<p>“Then you have said all that in your evidence?” said Ivan, somewhat
taken aback. He had meant to frighten him with the threat of repeating their
conversation, and it appeared that Smerdyakov had already reported it all
himself.</p>
<p>“What have I to be afraid of? Let them write down the whole truth,”
Smerdyakov pronounced firmly.</p>
<p>“And have you told them every word of our conversation at the
gate?”</p>
<p>“No, not to say every word.”</p>
<p>“And did you tell them that you can sham fits, as you boasted
then?”</p>
<p>“No, I didn’t tell them that either.”</p>
<p>“Tell me now, why did you send me then to Tchermashnya?”</p>
<p>“I was afraid you’d go away to Moscow; Tchermashnya is nearer,
anyway.”</p>
<p>“You are lying; you suggested my going away yourself; you told me to get
out of the way of trouble.”</p>
<p>“That was simply out of affection and my sincere devotion to you,
foreseeing trouble in the house, to spare you. Only I wanted to spare myself
even more. That’s why I told you to get out of harm’s way, that you
might understand that there would be trouble in the house, and would remain at
home to protect your father.”</p>
<p>“You might have said it more directly, you blockhead!” Ivan
suddenly fired up.</p>
<p>“How could I have said it more directly then? It was simply my fear that
made me speak, and you might have been angry, too. I might well have been
apprehensive that Dmitri Fyodorovitch would make a scene and carry away that
money, for he considered it as good as his own; but who could tell that it
would end in a murder like this? I thought that he would only carry off the
three thousand that lay under the master’s mattress in the envelope, and
you see, he’s murdered him. How could you guess it either, sir?”</p>
<p>“But if you say yourself that it couldn’t be guessed, how could I
have guessed and stayed at home? You contradict yourself!” said Ivan,
pondering.</p>
<p>“You might have guessed from my sending you to Tchermashnya and not to
Moscow.”</p>
<p>“How could I guess it from that?”</p>
<p>Smerdyakov seemed much exhausted, and again he was silent for a minute.</p>
<p>“You might have guessed from the fact of my asking you not to go to
Moscow, but to Tchermashnya, that I wanted to have you nearer, for
Moscow’s a long way off, and Dmitri Fyodorovitch, knowing you are not far
off, would not be so bold. And if anything had happened, you might have come to
protect me, too, for I warned you of Grigory Vassilyevitch’s illness, and
that I was afraid of having a fit. And when I explained those knocks to you, by
means of which one could go in to the deceased, and that Dmitri Fyodorovitch
knew them all through me, I thought that you would guess yourself that he would
be sure to do something, and so wouldn’t go to Tchermashnya even, but
would stay.”</p>
<p>“He talks very coherently,” thought Ivan, “though he does
mumble; what’s the derangement of his faculties that Herzenstube talked
of?”</p>
<p>“You are cunning with me, damn you!” he exclaimed, getting angry.</p>
<p>“But I thought at the time that you quite guessed,” Smerdyakov
parried with the simplest air.</p>
<p>“If I’d guessed, I should have stayed,” cried Ivan.</p>
<p>“Why, I thought that it was because you guessed, that you went away in
such a hurry, only to get out of trouble, only to run away and save yourself in
your fright.”</p>
<p>“You think that every one is as great a coward as yourself?”</p>
<p>“Forgive me, I thought you were like me.”</p>
<p>“Of course, I ought to have guessed,” Ivan said in agitation;
“and I did guess there was some mischief brewing on your part ... only
you are lying, you are lying again,” he cried, suddenly recollecting.
“Do you remember how you went up to the carriage and said to me,
‘It’s always worth while speaking to a clever man’? So you
were glad I went away, since you praised me?”</p>
<p>Smerdyakov sighed again and again. A trace of color came into his face.</p>
<p>“If I was pleased,” he articulated rather breathlessly, “it
was simply because you agreed not to go to Moscow, but to Tchermashnya. For it
was nearer, anyway. Only when I said these words to you, it was not by way of
praise, but of reproach. You didn’t understand it.”</p>
<p>“What reproach?”</p>
<p>“Why, that foreseeing such a calamity you deserted your own father, and
would not protect us, for I might have been taken up any time for stealing that
three thousand.”</p>
<p>“Damn you!” Ivan swore again. “Stay, did you tell the
prosecutor and the investigating lawyer about those knocks?”</p>
<p>“I told them everything just as it was.”</p>
<p>Ivan wondered inwardly again.</p>
<p>“If I thought of anything then,” he began again, “it was
solely of some wickedness on your part. Dmitri might kill him, but that he
would steal—I did not believe that then.... But I was prepared for any
wickedness from you. You told me yourself you could sham a fit. What did you
say that for?”</p>
<p>“It was just through my simplicity, and I never have shammed a fit on
purpose in my life. And I only said so then to boast to you. It was just
foolishness. I liked you so much then, and was open‐hearted with you.”</p>
<p>“My brother directly accuses you of the murder and theft.”</p>
<p>“What else is left for him to do?” said Smerdyakov, with a bitter
grin. “And who will believe him with all the proofs against him? Grigory
Vassilyevitch saw the door open. What can he say after that? But never mind
him! He is trembling to save himself.”</p>
<p>He slowly ceased speaking; then suddenly, as though on reflection, added:</p>
<p>“And look here again. He wants to throw it on me and make out that it is
the work of my hands—I’ve heard that already. But as to my being
clever at shamming a fit: should I have told you beforehand that I could sham
one, if I really had had such a design against your father? If I had been
planning such a murder could I have been such a fool as to give such evidence
against myself beforehand? And to his son, too! Upon my word! Is that likely?
As if that could be, such a thing has never happened. No one hears this talk of
ours now, except Providence itself, and if you were to tell of it to the
prosecutor and Nikolay Parfenovitch you might defend me completely by doing so,
for who would be likely to be such a criminal, if he is so open‐hearted
beforehand? Any one can see that.”</p>
<p>“Well,” and Ivan got up to cut short the conversation, struck by
Smerdyakov’s last argument. “I don’t suspect you at all, and
I think it’s absurd, indeed, to suspect you. On the contrary, I am
grateful to you for setting my mind at rest. Now I am going, but I’ll
come again. Meanwhile, good‐by. Get well. Is there anything you want?”</p>
<p>“I am very thankful for everything. Marfa Ignatyevna does not forget me,
and provides me anything I want, according to her kindness. Good people visit
me every day.”</p>
<p>“Good‐by. But I shan’t say anything of your being able to sham a
fit, and I don’t advise you to, either,” something made Ivan say
suddenly.</p>
<p>“I quite understand. And if you don’t speak of that, I shall say
nothing of that conversation of ours at the gate.”</p>
<p>Then it happened that Ivan went out, and only when he had gone a dozen steps
along the corridor, he suddenly felt that there was an insulting significance
in Smerdyakov’s last words. He was almost on the point of turning back,
but it was only a passing impulse, and muttering, “Nonsense!” he
went out of the hospital.</p>
<p>His chief feeling was one of relief at the fact that it was not Smerdyakov, but
Mitya, who had committed the murder, though he might have been expected to feel
the opposite. He did not want to analyze the reason for this feeling, and even
felt a positive repugnance at prying into his sensations. He felt as though he
wanted to make haste to forget something. In the following days he became
convinced of Mitya’s guilt, as he got to know all the weight of evidence
against him. There was evidence of people of no importance, Fenya and her
mother, for instance, but the effect of it was almost overpowering. As to
Perhotin, the people at the tavern, and at Plotnikov’s shop, as well as
the witnesses at Mokroe, their evidence seemed conclusive. It was the details
that were so damning. The secret of the knocks impressed the lawyers almost as
much as Grigory’s evidence as to the open door. Grigory’s wife,
Marfa, in answer to Ivan’s questions, declared that Smerdyakov had been
lying all night the other side of the partition wall. “He was not three
paces from our bed,” and that although she was a sound sleeper she waked
several times and heard him moaning, “He was moaning the whole time,
moaning continually.”</p>
<p>Talking to Herzenstube, and giving it as his opinion that Smerdyakov was not
mad, but only rather weak, Ivan only evoked from the old man a subtle smile.</p>
<p>“Do you know how he spends his time now?” he asked; “learning
lists of French words by heart. He has an exercise‐book under his pillow with
the French words written out in Russian letters for him by some one, he he
he!”</p>
<p>Ivan ended by dismissing all doubts. He could not think of Dmitri without
repulsion. Only one thing was strange, however. Alyosha persisted that Dmitri
was not the murderer, and that “in all probability” Smerdyakov was.
Ivan always felt that Alyosha’s opinion meant a great deal to him, and so
he was astonished at it now. Another thing that was strange was that Alyosha
did not make any attempt to talk about Mitya with Ivan, that he never began on
the subject and only answered his questions. This, too, struck Ivan
particularly.</p>
<p>But he was very much preoccupied at that time with something quite apart from
that. On his return from Moscow, he abandoned himself hopelessly to his mad and
consuming passion for Katerina Ivanovna. This is not the time to begin to speak
of this new passion of Ivan’s, which left its mark on all the rest of his
life: this would furnish the subject for another novel, which I may perhaps
never write. But I cannot omit to mention here that when Ivan, on leaving
Katerina Ivanovna with Alyosha, as I’ve related already, told him,
“I am not keen on her,” it was an absolute lie: he loved her madly,
though at times he hated her so that he might have murdered her. Many causes
helped to bring about this feeling. Shattered by what had happened with Mitya,
she rushed on Ivan’s return to meet him as her one salvation. She was
hurt, insulted and humiliated in her feelings. And here the man had come back
to her, who had loved her so ardently before (oh! she knew that very well), and
whose heart and intellect she considered so superior to her own. But the
sternly virtuous girl did not abandon herself altogether to the man she loved,
in spite of the Karamazov violence of his passions and the great fascination he
had for her. She was continually tormented at the same time by remorse for
having deserted Mitya, and in moments of discord and violent anger (and they
were numerous) she told Ivan so plainly. This was what he had called to Alyosha
“lies upon lies.” There was, of course, much that was false in it,
and that angered Ivan more than anything.... But of all this later.</p>
<p>He did, in fact, for a time almost forget Smerdyakov’s existence, and
yet, a fortnight after his first visit to him, he began to be haunted by the
same strange thoughts as before. It’s enough to say that he was
continually asking himself, why was it that on that last night in Fyodor
Pavlovitch’s house he had crept out on to the stairs like a thief and
listened to hear what his father was doing below? Why had he recalled that
afterwards with repulsion? Why next morning, had he been suddenly so depressed
on the journey? Why, as he reached Moscow, had he said to himself, “I am
a scoundrel”? And now he almost fancied that these tormenting thoughts
would make him even forget Katerina Ivanovna, so completely did they take
possession of him again. It was just after fancying this, that he met Alyosha
in the street. He stopped him at once, and put a question to him:</p>
<p>“Do you remember when Dmitri burst in after dinner and beat father, and
afterwards I told you in the yard that I reserved ‘the right to
desire’?... Tell me, did you think then that I desired father’s
death or not?”</p>
<p>“I did think so,” answered Alyosha, softly.</p>
<p>“It was so, too; it was not a matter of guessing. But didn’t you
fancy then that what I wished was just that ‘one reptile should devour
another’; that is, just that Dmitri should kill father, and as soon as
possible ... and that I myself was even prepared to help to bring that
about?”</p>
<p>Alyosha turned rather pale, and looked silently into his brother’s face.</p>
<p>“Speak!” cried Ivan, “I want above everything to know what
you thought then. I want the truth, the truth!”</p>
<p>He drew a deep breath, looking angrily at Alyosha before his answer came.</p>
<p>“Forgive me, I did think that, too, at the time,” whispered
Alyosha, and he did not add one softening phrase.</p>
<p>“Thanks,” snapped Ivan, and, leaving Alyosha, he went quickly on
his way. From that time Alyosha noticed that Ivan began obviously to avoid him
and seemed even to have taken a dislike to him, so much so that Alyosha gave up
going to see him. Immediately after that meeting with him, Ivan had not gone
home, but went straight to Smerdyakov again.</p>
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