<h2> <SPAN name="XL"> </SPAN> CHAPTER XL. <br/><br/> <span class="small"> LET ME OUT. </span> </h2>
<p>At about the same hour of that Sunday afternoon, Miss Patch sat alone
in her little cottage, stubbornly reasoning with herself. She was
growing rather weary of her task, which had been a long and heavy one;
a great deal longer, and a great deal heavier, than she ever could
have dreamed at the outset. It was for the sake of the kingdom of
heaven that she had laid her hand to this plough; and now it seemed
likely to be a "plough," in the sense in which that word is lightly
used by undergraduates.</p>
<p>For public opinion Miss Patch cared nothing. Her view of the world was
purely and precisely "Scriptural," according to her own
interpretation. Any line of action was especially recommended to her
by the certainty that "the world" would condemn it. She had led a life
of misery with her father, the gambling captain, the man of fashion,
who made slaves of his children; and being already of a narrow gauge
of mind, she laid herself out for theology; not true religion, but
enough to please her, and make her sure that she was always right.</p>
<p>Grace, being truly of a docile nature, and most unsuspicious (as her
father was before her), had implicit faith in the truth and honour of
her good Aunt Patch. She looked upon her as so devoutly pious and
grandly upright, that any idea of fraud on her part seemed almost
profanity. She believed the good lady to be acting wholly under the
guidance of her own father, and as his representative; in which there
seemed nothing either strained or strange, especially as the Squire
had once placed his daughter in the charge of Miss Patch, for a course
of Scriptural and historical reading. And the first misgiving in the
poor girl's mind arose from what Christopher Sharp had told her. Of
pining and lonely weariness, weeks and weeks she had endured, under
the firm belief that her father was compelled to have it so, and in
the hope of the glorious time when he should come to take her home.
For all that she could see good reason—according to what she had been
told—but she could see no reason whatever why Miss Patch should have
told her falsehoods as to the place in which they lived. Having been
challenged upon this subject by her indignant niece, the elderly lady
now sat thinking. She was as firmly convinced as ever, that in all she
had done, she had acted strictly and purely for the glory of the Lord.
Grace, a great heiress, and a silly girl, was at the point of being
snapped up by the papists, and made one of them; whereupon both an
immortal soul and £150,000 would be devoted to perdition. Of this Miss
Patch had been thoroughly assured before she would give her help at
all. It was well known that Russel Overshute loved and would win Grace
Oglander, and that Russel's dearest friend was Hardenow of Brasenose,
and that Hardenow was the deepest Jesuit ever admitted to holy orders
in the Church of England; therefore, at heart, Russel Overshute must
be a papist of the deepest dye; and anybody with half an eye could see
through that conspiracy. To defeat such a scheme, Miss Patch would
have promised to spend six months in a hollow tree; but promise and
performance are a "very different pair of shoes;" and the lady (though
fed, like a woodpecker, on the choicest of all sylvan food) even now,
in four months' time, was tiring of her martyrdom.</p>
<p>Her cottage in a wood had long been growing loathsome to her. The
deeds of the Lord she admired greatly, when they were homicidal; but
of His large and kindly works she had no congenial liking. The
fluttering spread of leaves, that hang like tips of empty gloves one
day, and after one kind night lift forth (like the hand of a baby with
his mind made up), and the change of colour all under the trees,
whether the ground be grassed or naked; also the delicate sliding of
the light in and out the peeling wands of brush-wood, and flat upon
the lichened stones, and even in the coarsest hour of the day—which
generally is from 1 to 2 p.m., when all mankind are dining—the quiet
spread and receptive width of growth that has to catch its light—for
none of these pretty little scenes did Miss Patch care so much as half
a patch. And she was sure that they gave her the rheumatism.</p>
<p>She was longing to be in London now, to sit beneath the noble
eloquence of preachers and orators most divine, who spend the prime of
the year in reviling their friends and extolling the negro. Whereas
for weeks and weeks, in this ungodly forest, she had no chance of
receiving any spiritual ministration; save once, when Tickuss, on a
Sunday morning, had driven her in his pig-cart to a little Wesleyan
chapel some three miles off at the end of a hamlet. Here people stared
at her so, and asked such questions, that she durst not go again; and,
indeed, the pleasure was not worth the risk, for the shoemaker who
preached was a thoroughly quiet, ungifted man, without an evil word
for anybody.</p>
<p>Not only these large regrets and yearnings were thronging upon this
lady now, but also a small although feminine feeling of desire for
support and guidance. Strong-minded as she was, and conscious of her
lofty mission, from time to time she grew faint-hearted in that dreary
solitude, without the encouragement of the cool male will. This for
some days she had not received, and she knew not why it had failed
her.</p>
<p>Though the afternoon was so bright with temptation, the wood so rich
with wonders, Miss Patch preferred to nurse her knee by the little
fire in her parlour. She had always hated to be out of doors, and to
see too much of things which did not bear out her opinions, and to
lose that clear knowledge of the will of the Lord which is lost by
those who study Him. She loved to discern in everything that happened
to her liking "the grand and infinite potentiality of an all-wise
Providence;" and, if a little thing went amiss, she laid all the blame
to the badly principled interference of the devil.</p>
<p>While she was deeply pondering thus, and warming her little teapot, in
ran the beautiful and lively girl, who had long been growing too much
for her. It was not only the brighter spring of young life in this
Gracie, and her pretty ways, and nice surprises, and pleasure in
pleasing others, and graceful turns of cookery, but also her pure
fount of loving-kindness which (having no other way out) was obliged
to steal around Miss Patch herself. Although she had been ill-content
with the only explanation she could get about her dwelling-place—to
wit, that in these roadless parts distance was very much a matter of
conjecture—Grace had no suspicion yet of any plot or conspiracy. All
things had been planned so deeply, and carried out so cleverly, that
any such suspicion would have been contrary to her nature. She had
lost, by some unaccountable carelessness, both the note from her
father, which she had received at her Aunt Joan's, and also his more
important letter delivered to her, when she met the chaise, by her
kind and pious "Aunty Patch." In the first note (delivered by a little
boy) she had simply been called forth to meet her father in the lane,
and to walk home with him, as he wished to speak with her by herself.
She was not to wait to pack any of her clothes, as they would be sent
for afterwards; and he hoped her Aunt Joan would excuse his deferring
their little dinner for the present.</p>
<p>But when, instead of meeting him, she found the chaise with Miss Patch
inside it, and was invited to step in, a real letter was handed to
her, the whole of which in the waning light—the day being very brown
and gloomy—she could not easily make out. But she learned enough to
see that she was to place herself under the care of Miss Patch, and
not expect to see her dear father for at least some weeks to come. Her
hair, for the reason therein given, was to be cut off at once, and not
even kept in the carriage; and the poor girl submitted, with a few low
sobs, to the loss of her beautiful bright tresses. But what were they?
How small and selfish of her to think twice of them in the presence of
the heavy trouble threatening her dear father, and the anguish of
losing him for so long, without even so much as a kiss of farewell!
For, after his first brief scrawl, he had found that, by starting at
once, he could catch at Falmouth the packet for Demerara, and thus
save a fortnight in getting to his estates, which were threatened with
ruin. If these should be lost to him, Gracie knew (as he had no
secrets from her) that half his income would go at one sweep—which,
for his own sake, would matter little; but, for the sake of his
darling, must, if possible, be prevented.</p>
<p>He had no time now for another word, except that he had left his house
at Beckley, just as it stood, to be let by his agent, to cover the
expenses of this long voyage, and to get him out of two difficulties.
He could not have left his dear child there alone; and, if he could,
he would not have done so, for a most virulent fever had long been
hanging about, and had now broken out hard by; and Dr. Splinters had
strictly ordered, the moment he heard of it, that the dear child's
hair should be cropped to her head, and burned or cast away, for
nothing harboured infection as hair did. With a few words of blessing,
and comfort, and love, and a promise to write from Demerara, and a
fatherly hope that for his sake she would submit to Miss Patch in all
things, and make the most of this opportunity for completing her
course of Scriptural and historical reading, the dear old father had
signed himself her "loving papa, W. O."</p>
<p>Grace would have been a very different girl from her own frank self,
if she had even dreamed of suspecting the genuineness of this letter.
It was in her father's crabbed, and upright, and queerly-jointed hand,
from the first line to the last. For a moment, indeed, she had been
surprised that he called himself her "papa," because he did not like
the word, and thought it a piece of the foreign stuff which had better
continue to be foreign. But there stood the word; and in his hurry how
could he stop to such trifles? This letter had been lost; poor Grace
could not imagine how, because she had taken such great care of it,
and had slept with it under her pillow always. Nevertheless, it had
disappeared, leaving tears of self-reproach in her downcast eyes, as
she searched the wood for it. And this made her careful tenfold of the
two letters she had received from George-town.</p>
<p>But now, as she came with her Sunday hat on, and her pretty Woodstock
gloves, and her neat brown skirt looped up (for challenge of briers,
and furze, and dog-rose), and, best of all, with the bloom on her
cheeks, and the sparkle in her clear soft eyes, and the May sun making
glory in her rolling clouds of new-grown hair—and, better than best,
that smile of the heart filling the whole young face with light—she
really looked as if it would be impossible to say "no" to her.</p>
<p>"Aunty," she began, "it is quite an age since you have let me have a
walk at all. One would think that I wanted to run away with that very
smart young gentleman, who possesses and exhibits that extremely
lustrous riding-whip. If he has only got a horse to match it—what is
the name, dear Aunty, of that inestimable historical jewel that
somebody stole out of somebody's eye?"</p>
<p>"Grace, will you never remember anything? It is now called the Orloff,
or Schaffras gem, and is set in the Russian sceptre."</p>
<p>"Then that must be the name of this gentleman's horse, to enable it to
go with such a whip. Dear Aunty now, even that whip will not tempt me
or move me to run away from you. Only do please to allow me forth.
This horrid little garden is so shaded and sour, that even a daisy
cannot live. But in the wood I find all things lovely. May I have a
run for only half an hour?"</p>
<p>"Upon one condition," replied Miss Patch; "that if you see any one,
you shall come back at once, and let me know."</p>
<p>"What, even the fat man with the flapped hat and the smock on? I never
go out without seeing him, though he never seems to see me at all. He
must be very short-sighted."</p>
<p>"Oh no, my dear; never mind that poor man; he looks after the cattle
or something. What I mean is, any young gentleman, who ought to be at
home on the Sabbath day. And wrestle with your natural frivolity, my
dear, that no worldly thoughts may assault and hurt the soul upon this
holy day."</p>
<p>"I will do my best, Aunty. But how can I help thinking of the things I
see?"</p>
<p>Miss Patch having less than any faith in unregenerate human nature,
feared that she might have been wrong in allowing even this limited
freedom to Grace. The truth of it was that, without fresh guidance
from a mind far deeper than her own, she could not see the right thing
to do in the new complication arising. The interviews between Kit
Sharp and Grace were the very thing desired, and surely must have led
to something good, which ought to be carefully followed up. And yet,
if she met him again, she would be quite sure to go on with her
questions; and Kit, being purely outside of the plot, would reply with
the most inconvenient truth. Miss Patch had written, as promptly as
could be, to ask what she ought to do in this crisis. But no answer
had come through the trusty Tickuss, nor any well-provided visit. The
Christian-minded lady could not tell at all what to make of it. Then,
calling to mind the sacredness of the day, she dismissed the subject;
and sternly rebuked deaf Margery Daw for not keeping the kettle
boiling.</p>
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