<h2>CHAPTER IX.</h2>
<h3>THE ANTIETAM EPISODE.—LINCOLN'S LOVE OF SONG.</h3>
<p>In the autumn of 1862 I chanced to be associated with
Mr. Lincoln in a transaction which, though innocent
and commonplace in itself, was blown by rumor and
surmise into a revolting and deplorable scandal. A conjectural
lie, although mean, misshapen, and very small
at its birth, grew at length into a tempest of defamation,
whose last echoes were not heard until its noble victim
had yielded his life to a form of assassination only a
trifle more deadly.</p>
<p>Mr. Lincoln was painted as the prime mover in a
scene of fiendish levity more atrocious than the world
had ever witnessed since human nature was shamed and
degraded by the capers of Nero and Commodus. I
refer to what is known as the Antietam song-singing;
and I propose to show that the popular construction
put upon that incident was wholly destitute of truth.</p>
<p>Mr. Lincoln persistently declined to read the harsh
comments of the newspaper press and the fierce mouthings
of platform orators; and under his advice I as
persistently refused to make any public statement concerning
that ill-judged affair. He believed with Sir
Walter Scott, that, if a cause of action is good, it needs<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_145" id="Page_145">[145]</SPAN></span>
no vindication from the actor's motives; if bad, it can
derive none. When I suggested to him that the slander
ought to be refuted,—that a word from him would
silence his defamers,—Mr. Lincoln replied with great
earnestness: "No, Hill; there has already been too
much said about this falsehood. Let the thing alone.
If I have not established character enough to give the
lie to this charge, I can only say that I am mistaken in
my own estimate of myself. In politics, every man
must skin his own skunk. These fellows are welcome
to the hide of this one. Its body has already given
forth its unsavory odor."</p>
<p>The newspapers and the stump-speakers went on
"stuffing the ears of men with false reports" until the
fall of 1864, when I showed to Mr. Lincoln a letter, of
which the following is a copy. It is a fair sample of
hundreds of letters received by me about that time,
the Antietam incident being then discussed with increased
virulence and new accessions of false coloring.</p>
<blockquote><p class="signature">
<span class="smcap">Philadelphia</span>, Sept. 10, 1864.</p>
<p><span class="smcap">Ward H. Lamon</span>:</p>
<p><i>Dear Sir</i>, — Enclosed is an extract from the New York
"World" of Sept. 9, 1864:—</p>
<p>"<span class="smcap">One of Mr. Lincoln's Jokes.</span>—The second verse of
our campaign song published on this page was probably
suggested by an incident which occurred on the battle-field of
Antietam a few days after the fight. While the President
was driving over the field in an ambulance, accompanied by
Marshal Lamon, General McClellan, and another officer,
heavy details of men were engaged in the task of burying<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_146" id="Page_146">[146]</SPAN></span>
the dead. The ambulance had just reached the neighborhood
of the old stone bridge, where the dead were piled
highest, when Mr. Lincoln, suddenly slapping Marshal Lamon
on the knee, exclaimed: 'Come, Lamon, give us that song
about Picayune Butler; McClellan has never heard it.'
'Not now, if you please,' said General McClellan, with a
shudder; 'I would prefer to hear it some other place and
time.'"</p>
<p>This story has been repeated in the New York "World"
almost daily for the last three months. Until now it would
have been useless to demand its authority. By this article
it limits the inquiry to three persons as its authority,—Marshal
Lamon, another officer, and General McClellan.
That it is a damaging story, if believed, cannot be disputed.
That it is believed by some, or that they pretend to believe
it, is evident by the accompanying verse from the doggerel,
in which allusion is made to it:—</p>
<div class="poem">
<span class="i0">"Abe may crack his jolly jokes</span><br/>
<span class="i0">O'er bloody fields of stricken battle,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">While yet the ebbing life-tide smokes</span><br/>
<span class="i0">From men that die like butchered cattle;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">He, ere yet the guns grow cold,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">To pimps and pets may crack his stories," etc.</span></div>
<p>I wish to ask you, sir, in behalf of others as well as
myself, whether any such occurrence took place; or if it did
not take place, please to state who that "other officer" was,
if there was any such, in the ambulance in which the President
"was driving over the field [of Antietam] whilst
details of men were engaged in the task of burying the
dead." You will confer a great favor by an immediate reply.</p>
<p class="signature">
Most respectfully your obedient servant,<br/>
<span class="smcap">A. J. Perkins</span>.</p>
</blockquote>
<p>Along with the above I submitted to Mr. Lincoln
my own draft of what I conceived to be a suitable<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_147" id="Page_147">[147]</SPAN></span>
reply. The brutal directness and falsity of the "World's"
charge, and the still more brutal and insulting character
of the doggerel with which it was garnished, impelled
me to season my reply to Mr. Perkins's letter with a
large infusion of "vinegar and gall." After carefully
reading both letters, Mr. Lincoln shook his head. "No,
Lamon," said he, "I would not publish this reply; it
is too belligerent in tone for so grave a matter. There is
a heap of 'cussedness' mixed up with your usual amiability,
and you are at times too fond of a fight. If I
were you, I would simply state the facts as they were.
I would give the statement as you have here, without the
pepper and salt. Let me try my hand at it." He then
took up a pen and wrote the following. It was to be
copied by me and forwarded to Mr. Perkins as my refutation
of the slander.</p>
<blockquote><p>"The President has known me intimately for nearly twenty
years, and has often heard me sing little ditties. The battle
of Antietam was fought on the 17th day of September, 1862.
On the first day of October, just two weeks after the battle,
the President, with some others including myself, started from
Washington to visit the Army, reaching Harper's Ferry at
noon of that day. In a short while General McClellan came
from his headquarters near the battle-ground, joined the
President, and with him reviewed the troops at Bolivar
Heights that afternoon, and at night returned to his headquarters,
leaving the President at Harper's Ferry. On the
morning of the second the President, with General Sumner,
reviewed the troops respectively at Loudon Heights and
Maryland Heights, and at about noon started to General
McClellan's headquarters, reaching there only in time to see<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_148" id="Page_148">[148]</SPAN></span>
very little before night. On the morning of the third all
started on a review of the third corps and the cavalry, in
the vicinity of the Antietam battle-ground. After getting
through with General Burnside's corps, at the suggestion of
General McClellan he and the President left their horses to
be led, and went into an ambulance or ambulances to go to
General Fitz John Porter's corps, which was two or three
miles distant. I am not sure whether the President and
General McClellan were in the same ambulance, or in different
ones; but myself and some others were in the same with
the President. On the way, and on no part of the battle-ground,
and on what suggestions I do not remember, the
President asked me to sing the little sad song that follows,
which he had often heard me sing, and had always seemed
to like very much. I sang it. After it was over, some
one of the party (I do not think it was the President) asked
me to sing something else; and I sang two or three little
comic things, of which 'Picayune Butler' was one. Porter's
corps was reached and reviewed; then the battle-ground was
passed over, and the most noted parts examined; then, in
succession, the cavalry and Franklin's corps were reviewed,
and the President and party returned to General McClellan's
headquarters at the end of a very hard, hot, and dusty day's
work. Next day, the 4th, the President and General McClellan
visited such of the wounded as still remained in the
vicinity, including the now lamented General Richardson;
then proceeded to and examined the South-Mountain battle-ground,
at which point they parted,—General McClellan
returning to his camp, and the President returning to Washington,
seeing, on the way, General Hartsoff, who lay
wounded at Frederick Town.</p>
<p>"This is the whole story of the singing and its surroundings.
Neither General McClellan nor any one else made
any objections to the singing; the place was not on the battle-field;
the time was sixteen days after the battle; no dead<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_149" id="Page_149">[149]</SPAN></span>
body was seen during the whole time the President was absent
from Washington, nor even a grave that had not been
rained on since it was made."</p>
</blockquote>
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<p>This perfectly truthful statement was written by Mr.
Lincoln about the 12th of September, 1864, less than
two years after the occurrence of the events therein
described. It was done slowly, and with great deliberation
and care. The statement, however, was never
made public. Mr. Lincoln said to me: "You know,
Hill, that this is the truth and the whole truth about that
affair; but I dislike to appear as an apologist for an act
of my own which I know was right. Keep this paper,
and we will see about it." The momentous and all-engrossing
events of the war caused the Antietam episode
to be forgotten by the President for a time; the statement
was not given to the press, but has remained in
my possession until this day.</p>
<p>Mark how simple the explanation is! Mr. Lincoln
did not ask me to sing "Picayune Butler." No song
was sung on the battle-field. The singing occurred on
the way from Burnside's corps to Fitz John Porter's
corps, some distance from the battle-ground, and sixteen
days after the battle. Moreover, Mr. Lincoln had
said to me, "Lamon, sing one of your little sad songs,"—and
thereby hangs a tale which is well worth the telling,
as it illustrates a striking phase of Mr. Lincoln's
character which has never been fully revealed.</p>
<p>I knew well what Mr. Lincoln meant by "the little
sad songs." The sentiment that prompted him to call<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_150" id="Page_150">[150]</SPAN></span>
for such a song had its history, and one of deep and
touching interest to me. One "little sad song"—a
simple ballad entitled "Twenty Years Ago"—was,
above all others, his favorite. He had no special fondness
for operatic music; he loved simple ballads and
ditties, such as the common people sing, whether of the
comic or pathetic kind; but no one in the list touched
his great heart as did the song of "Twenty Years Ago."
Many a time, in the old days of our familiar friendship
on the Illinois circuit, and often at the White House
when he and I were alone, have I seen him in tears
while I was rendering, in my poor way, that homely
melody. The late Judge David Davis, the Hon. Leonard
Swett, and Judge Corydon Beckwith were equally partial
to the same ballad. Often have I seen those great men
overcome by the peculiar charm they seemed to find in
the sentiment and melody of that simple song. The
following verses seemed to affect Mr. Lincoln more
deeply than any of the others:—</p>
<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"I've wandered to the village, Tom; I've sat beneath the tree</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Upon the schoolhouse play-ground, that sheltered you and me:</span><br/>
<span class="i0">But none were left to greet me, Tom, and few were left to know</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Who played with us upon the green, some twenty years ago.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"Near by the spring, upon the elm you know I cut your name,—</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Your sweetheart's just beneath it, Tom; and you did mine the same.</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Some heartless wretch has peeled the bark,—'twas dying sure but slow,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Just as <i>she</i> died whose name you cut, some twenty years ago.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"My lids have long been dry, Tom, but tears came to my eyes;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">I thought of her I loved so well, those early broken ties:</span><br/>
<span class="i0">I visited the old churchyard, and took some flowers to strew</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Upon the graves of these we loved, some twenty years ago."</span></div>
</div>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_151" id="Page_151">[151]</SPAN></span>
This is the song Mr. Lincoln called for, and the one I
sang to him in the vicinity of Antietam. He was at the
time weary and sad. As I well knew it would, the song
only deepened his sadness. I then did what I had done
many times before: I startled him from his melancholy
by striking up a comic air, singing also a snatch from
"Picayune Butler," which broke the spell of "the little
sad song," and restored somewhat his accustomed easy
humor. It was not the first time I had pushed hilarity—simulated
though it was—to an extreme for his sake.
I had often recalled him from a pit of melancholy into
which he was prone to descend, by a jest, a comic song,
or a provoking sally of a startling kind; and Mr. Lincoln
always thanked me afterward for my well-timed rudeness
"of kind intent."</p>
<p>This reminds me of one or two little rhythmic shots I
often fired at him in his melancholy moods, and it was a
kind of nonsense that he always keenly relished. One
was a parody on "Life on the Ocean Wave."</p>
<p>Mr. Lincoln would always laugh immoderately when I
sang this jingling nonsense to him. It reminded him of
the rude and often witty ballads that had amused him in
his boyhood days. He was fond of negro melodies, and
"The Blue-Tailed Fly" was a favorite. He often called
for that buzzing ballad when we were alone, and he wanted
to throw off the weight of public and private cares.</p>
<p>A comic song in the theatre always restored Mr.
Lincoln's cheerful good-humor. But while he had a
great fondness for witty and mirth-provoking ballads,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_152" id="Page_152">[152]</SPAN></span>
our grand old patriotic airs and songs of the tender and
sentimental kind afforded him the deepest pleasure.
"Ben Bolt" was one of his favorite ballads; so was
"The Sword of Bunker Hill;" and he was always deeply
moved by "The Lament of the Irish Emigrant," especially
the following touching lines:—</p>
<div class="poem">
<span class="i0">"I'm very lonely now, Mary,</span><br/>
<span class="i1">For the poor make no new friends;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">But, oh, they love the better still</span><br/>
<span class="i1">The few our Father sends!</span><br/>
<span class="i0">And you were all I had, Mary,</span><br/>
<span class="i1">My blessing and my pride;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">There's nothing left to care for now,</span><br/>
<span class="i1">Since my poor Mary died."</span></div>
<p>Many examples can be given illustrative of this phase
of Mr. Lincoln's character,—the blending of the mirthful
and the melancholy in his singular love of music and
verse. When he was seventeen years old, his sister was
married. The festivities of the occasion were made
memorable by a song entitled "Adam and Eve's Wedding
Song," which many believed was composed by Mr.
Lincoln himself. The conceits embodied in the verses
were old before Mr. Lincoln was born; but there is some
intrinsic as well as extrinsic evidence to show that the
doggerel itself was his.</p>
<p>ADAM AND EVE'S WEDDING SONG.</p>
<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">When Adam was created, he dwelt in Eden's shade,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">As Moses has recorded; and soon an Eve was made.</span><br/>
<span class="i4">Ten thousand times ten thousand</span><br/>
<span class="i4">Of creatures swarmed around</span><br/>
<span class="i4">Before a bride was formed,</span><br/>
<span class="i4">And yet no mate was found.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_153" id="Page_153">[153]</SPAN></span><span class="i4">The Lord then was not willing</span><br/>
<span class="i4">The man should be alone,</span><br/>
<span class="i4">But caused a sleep upon him,</span><br/>
<span class="i4">And took from him a bone.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i4">And closed the flesh in that place of;</span><br/>
<span class="i4">And then he took the same,</span><br/>
<span class="i4">And of it made a woman,</span><br/>
<span class="i4">And brought her to the man.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i4">Then Adam he rejoiced</span><br/>
<span class="i4">To see his loving bride,—</span><br/>
<span class="i4">A part of his own body,</span><br/>
<span class="i4">The product of his side.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i4">This woman was not taken</span><br/>
<span class="i4">From Adam's feet, we see;</span><br/>
<span class="i4">So he must not abuse her,</span><br/>
<span class="i4">The meaning seems to be.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i4">This woman was not taken</span><br/>
<span class="i4">From Adam's head, we know;</span><br/>
<span class="i4">To show she must not rule him,</span><br/>
<span class="i4">'Tis evidently so.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i4">This woman she was taken</span><br/>
<span class="i4">From under Adam's arm;</span><br/>
<span class="i4">So she must be protected</span><br/>
<span class="i4">From injuries and harm.</span><br/></div>
</div>
<p>But the lines which Mr. Lincoln liked best of all, and
which were repeated by him more often than any other,
were—</p>
<div class="poem">
<span class="i0">"Oh, why should the spirit of mortal be proud?"</span></div>
<p>Mr. Carpenter in his "Six Months at the White House"
gives them in full as follows:—</p>
<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"Oh, why should the spirit of mortal be proud?</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Like a swift-fleeting meteor, a fast-flying cloud,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">A flash of the lightning, a break of the wave,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">He passeth from life to his rest in the grave.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_154" id="Page_154">[154]</SPAN></span><span class="i0">"The leaves of the oak and the willow shall fade,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Be scattered around, and together be laid;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">And the young and the old, and the low and the high,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Shall moulder to dust, and together shall lie.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"The infant a mother attended and loved;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">The mother that infant's affection who proved;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">The husband that mother and infant who blest,—</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Each, all, are away to their dwellings of rest.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"The maid on whose cheek, on whose brow, in whose eye,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Shone beauty and pleasure, her triumphs are by;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">And the memory of those who loved her and praised,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Are alike from the minds of the living erased.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"The hand of the king that the sceptre hath borne,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">The brow of the priest that the mitre hath worn,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">The eye of the sage, and the heart of the brave,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Are hidden and lost in the depths of the grave.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"The peasant whose lot was to sow and to reap,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">The herdsman who climbed with his goats up the steep,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">The beggar who wandered in search of his bread,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Have faded away like the grass that we tread.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"The saint who enjoyed the communion of Heaven,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">The sinner who dared to remain unforgiven,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">The wise and the foolish, the guilty and just,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Have quietly mingled their bones in the dust.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"So the multitude goes, like the flower or the weed,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">That withers away to let others succeed;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">So the multitude comes, even those we behold,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">To repeat every tale that has often been told.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"For we are the same our fathers have been;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">We see the same sights our fathers have seen;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">We drink the same stream, we view the same sun,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">And run the same course our fathers have run.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"The thoughts we are thinking our fathers would think;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">From the death we are shrinking our fathers would shrink;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">To the life we are clinging they also would cling,</span>
<span class="i0">But it speeds from us all like a bird on the wing.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_155" id="Page_155">[155]</SPAN></span><span class="i0">"They loved, but the story we cannot unfold;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">They scorned, but the heart of the haughty is cold;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">They grieved, but no wail from their slumber will come;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">They joyed, but the tongue of their gladness is dumb.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"They died,—ay, they died: we things that are now,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">That walk on the turf that lies over their brow,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">And make in their dwellings a transient abode,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Meet the things that they met on their pilgrimage road.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"Yea, hope and despondency, pleasure and pain,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Are mingled together in sunshine and rain;</span><br/>
<span class="i0">And the smile and the tear, the song and the dirge,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Still follow each other like surge upon surge.</span></div>
<div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"'Tis the wink of an eye, 'tis the draught of a breath,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">From the blossom of health to the paleness of death,</span><br/>
<span class="i0">From the gilded saloon to the bier and the shroud,—</span><br/>
<span class="i0">Oh, why should the spirit of mortal be proud?"<br/></span></div>
</div>
<p>These curiously sad lines were chosen by Mr. Lincoln
when he was a very young man to commemorate a grief
which lay with continual heaviness on his heart, but to
which he could not otherwise allude,—the death of
Ann Rutledge, in whose grave Mr. Lincoln said that his
heart lay buried. He muttered these verses as he
rambled through the woods; he was heard to murmur
them as he slipped into the village at nightfall; they
came unbidden to his lips in all places, and very often
in his later life. In the year of his nomination, he
repeated them to some friends. When he had finished
them, he said "they sounded to him as much like true
poetry as anything that he had ever heard." The
poem is now his; it is imperishably associated with his
memory and interwoven with the history of his greatest
sorrow. Mr. Lincoln's adoption of it has saved it from<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_156" id="Page_156">[156]</SPAN></span>
oblivion, and translated it from the "poet's corner" of
the country newspaper to a place in the story of his
own life.</p>
<p>But enough has been given to show that Mr. Lincoln
was as incapable of insulting the dead, in the manner
credited to him in the Antietam episode, as he was of
committing mean and unmanly outrages upon the living.
If hypercritical and self-appointed judges are still disposed
to award blame for anything that happened on
that occasion, let their censure fall upon me, and not
upon the memory of the illustrious dead, who was guiltless
of wrong and without the shadow of blame for the
part he bore in that misjudged affair. My own part in
the incident, in the light of the facts here given, needs
no apology.</p>
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