<h2 id='ch04' class='c007'>CHAPTER IV</h2>
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<div><i>Chelsea Buns</i></div>
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VIOLET seemed afraid (and
yet why should she be?) to
come near me, after <i>Mark’s</i>
Communication; and, as
my dear Mother could ill
spare me, I kept close House. We now
felt the Blessing of having a discreet and
godly Minister for our Inmate; for Master
<i>Blower</i> read and prayed much with my
Mother, and comforted her greatly by
his Discoursings. I likewise derived Benefit
from the good Seed he scattered, which
fell, as it were, into Ground much softened
by heavy Rain.</p>
<p class='c013'>When I was able and inclined to step
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_57'>57</span>across to <i>Violet</i>, I found only Master
<i>Armytage</i> in the Shop; who said to me
with some Shortness, “You will find my
Daughters within,—I wish your Father
would find Something more profitable
for your Cousin to do, than to be
always in our Parlour, a-hindering of
Business.”</p>
<p class='c013'>I knew <i>Mark</i> was not there just then,
at any Rate, having left him at Home;
and, stepping into Master <i>Armytage’s</i>
Back-room, I only found there a pale,
gentle-looking Girl, with large, brown
Eyes, diligently putting Shop-marks to
a Box of new Ribbons. I knew her
for <i>Kitty</i>, though her return Home was
News to me; and, having not much to
say to a Stranger, I asked her how she
liked the <i>Bridge</i>. She said, “Not at all;
I have been used to look upon Trees
and Fields, and miss the Green; the
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_58'>58</span>Noises make my Head ache, and my
Mother keeps me so close to my Work,
that I pine for fresh Air.” I said, “Sure
there is enough of it blowing through
that open Window from the River!”</p>
<p class='c013'>“Do you call it fresh?” said she, rather
contemptuously. “I do not, I can tell
you! Instead of being scented with
Cows’ Breath and new-mown Hay, it
comes from Tan-yards and Butchers’
Shops.”</p>
<p class='c013'>When <i>Violet</i> came in, she blushed very
red, but we only spoke of indifferent Subjects:
and, strange as it was of two such
close Intimates, we never, from that Time
forward, had any closer Communication.
Perhaps it was her Fault, perhaps it was
mine: or perhaps, no Fault of either, but
a just and becoming Sense of what was
best for two modest Girls in our new
Relation. For, though it needed not to
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_59'>59</span>be supposed that she knew Anything of
what was passing in my Mind, I am
persuaded that she did.</p>
<p class='c013'>And thus the Families fell apart; and
<i>Mark</i> never renewed his Confidences to
me after that first Evening; and, if he had
Moments of keen Pleasure now and then,
I am persuaded he had Hours of Pain he
had never known before. For <i>Violet</i> was
capricious and coquettish, and sometimes
would vex him by being unreasonable and
hard to please: at other Times, by laying
herself out to please others, as Master
<i>Braidfoot</i>, and their Lodger Master <i>Clarke</i>.
And though she gave out to <i>Mark</i> that
this was only for a Feint, to draw off
the Attention of her Father and Mother
from himself, yet sometimes it was certainly
with no other Purpose than to
plague him, and at other Times, I fear,
with no better Purpose than to please
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_60'>60</span>herself; and I know it cost him many
a Tear.</p>
<p class='c013'>Poor <i>Mark</i>! how my Heart ached for
him, and swelled against her, when I
found him one Evening with his Arms
on the Table, and his Head on his Arms,
and saw, when he looked up, that he had
been crying. He rose, and looked out of
Window, and said, “Has it done raining
yet? I think I have been asleep!”
But I knew he had not.</p>
<p class='c013'>All his Money now went in fine Clothes
for himself, and Presents for her; so that
if he needed a little Purse against his
Marriage Day, he was not going the Way
to fill it.</p>
<p class='c013'>There was great Talk among the young
People, about this Time, of an Excursion
up the River, to eat Buns and drink Whey
at <i>Chelsea</i>. I was invited to join them,
but declined, on account of my Mother:
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_61'>61</span>but <i>Mark</i> was to go, and could think of
Nothing else. I washed and starched his
Collar and Bands myself, and sewed a new
Lace on his Hat. He wore a plain silver-grey
Cloth Suit, which was sober, but
very becoming, for he never affected strong
Contrasts, like my Father. Knowing he
was fond of a Flower in his Button-hole,
but was pressed for Time to get one, I
gave a little Girl a Penny to run down
to the Market for the best Moss-rose she
could buy, and gave it him myself. He
thanked me most pleasantly for it, and
looked so comely and cheerful, that when
he went forth, I could not help standing
just behind the Window-blind, to look
after him, and to see the gay Party set
out from Master <i>Armytage’s</i>. First, a Boy
was sent forward, with a great Basket full
of Veal-pies and other Dainties; then
came out Master <i>Armytage</i>, with Mistress
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_62'>62</span><i>Glossop</i>, who had condescended to join the
Party, and wore a peach-blossom Silk,
with pea-green Ribbons. Then Mistress
<i>Armytage</i>, with a little Basket covered up,
no Doubt containing Something very precious;
and <i>Hugh Braidfoot</i> by himself,
with his Hands in his Pockets, as if he
expected to be asked to carry it, and did
not mean to offer, walking a little in
Advance of her; then <i>Violet</i>, looking
sweet! between <i>Mark</i> and Master <i>Clarke</i>—(I
know she liked having two better
than one, whatever might be her Value
for either;) and then <i>Kitty</i>, who by Rights
should have had one or other of them,
slowly following with Master and Mistress
<i>Benskin</i>. I observed her to be a very
little lame, but Nothing to speak of.</p>
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<p class='c013'>Well! the Day was fine, the Water
looked lovely, there was Nothing to prevent
their having a most charming Party
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_63'>63</span>of Pleasure, unless it were their own
Fault. I thought of them many Times,
as I sat quietly weaving Hair at my
Mother’s Bedside; and fancied them floating
on the River, landing under tall Trees,
rambling among Meadows, sitting on the
Grass, eating and drinking in the Shade,
and scattering in small Parties. I fancied
what I should do and feel if I were <i>Violet</i>,
and how <i>Mark</i> would comport himself,
and what he would say: but, when I
looked on my Mother’s pain-worn Face,
I did not wish to change Places.</p>
<p class='c013'>They did not come Home till very
late; much too late. I had persuaded my
Father to go to Bed, and let me sit up for
<i>Mark</i>, for Fear of disturbing my Mother.
He said <i>Dolly</i> might as well sit up too;
however, she proved heavy to sleep, so I
sent her to Bed.</p>
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<p class='c013'>Then I sat at my Window, which was
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_64'>64</span>over Master <i>Blower’s</i> Sitting-room, and
looked out on the <i>Bridge</i>. The Harvest-moon,
brightly shining, made our Side
of the Way as light as Day, but Master
<i>Armytage’s</i> Side was in deep Shade. I
heard <i>St. Magnus’s</i> Clock, and <i>St. Paul’s</i>,
and <i>St. Mary Overy’s</i>, strike Eleven.
Then I saw some dark Figures coming
along in the Shade, and stop at Master
<i>Armytage’s</i> Door, and knock up the Maid,
who, after long Delay, came sleepily to
the Door with a Candle. Then the others,
who had been talking, but not much, like
People who were very tired after too long
a Day’s Pleasure, said “Good-night;”
and I saw <i>Hugh Braidfoot</i> shake Hands
with the Girl on his Arm, and step across
to his own Door in the broad Moonshine.
Master and Mistress <i>Benskin</i> had gone
Home before, and let themselves in with
the House-key. I counted those that
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_65'>65</span>entered Master <i>Armytage’s</i>, and only made
out his own Family. <i>Mark</i> had doubtless
seen Mistress <i>Glossop</i> to her own Door,
as was right and fitting. For him, then,
I must expect to wait a good While
longer: and I <i>did</i> wait a good While;
till all the Clocks struck Twelve. Just
as they had done striking, I heard and
knew his Step, and opened the Door
without his knocking.</p>
<p class='c013'>“Have you had a pleasant Day?”
said I.</p>
<p class='c013'>I looked at him as I spoke, and shall
never forget his Face!</p>
<p class='c013'>—“Good-night,” said he shortly;
“we’ll talk it over to-morrow,”—</p>
<p class='c013'>And impatiently took from my Hands
his Candle, which I was trying to light
for him at mine. But it had been snuffed
too short, and would not light as readily
as he wished; which made him curse it
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_66'>66</span>in a low, deep Voice. I had never heard
him swear before.</p>
<p class='c013'>“<i>Mark</i>,” said I, looking anxiously at
him, “you are ill.”</p>
<p class='c013'>“No, I’m not,” said he abruptly; “Good-night.
Thank you for sitting up for me.”</p>
<p class='c013'>“I’m not at all tired,” said I, “and
there’s some Supper for you in the
Kitchen. Let us go there, and have a
little Chat over the Pleasures of the
Day—you don’t look sleepy.”</p>
<p class='c013'>From white he turned to deep red.</p>
<p class='c013'>“The Day has not been so pleasant as
you suppose,” said he huskily; “you
have been better and happier at your
Mother’s Bedside. I wish there were
more such as you in the World. Good-night,
dear, good <i>Cherry</i>!”</p>
<p class='c013'>—And sprang up Stairs without another
Word, taking two Steps at a Time. I
went to Bed, but not to sleep; I could
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_67'>67</span>not get his strange Look and Manner out
of my Head.</p>
<p class='c013'>The next Morning, at Breakfast-time,
<i>Mark</i> did not appear. <i>Dolly</i> said he had
gone out early. My Father was angry,
and sent across the Way for him, knowing
he was but too often at Master <i>Armytage’s</i>.
But <i>Dolly</i> brought back Word they had
seen Nothing of him. Then we concluded
he had gone for an early Walk, as
was often his Custom, and had outstayed
his Time. However, we breakfasted
without him at length, and still he did
not come back.</p>
<p class='c013'>“Confound that Boy,” said my patient
Father at last—(thus, the Fault of one
Party provoked the Sin of another,)—“it’s
plaguy tiresome of him to be playing
Truant this Morning, of all Days
in the Year, for I have pressing Business
in <i>Eastcheap</i>.”</p>
<p class='c013'><span class="pagenum" id='Page_68'>68</span>“Leave me in Charge of the Shop,
<i>Father</i>,” said I,—“my Mother’s Cough
is quiet, now she is dozing; and I shall
hear her Bell.”</p>
<p class='c013'>“Well, I suppose I must,” said he very
reluctantly; “but I shall trounce Master
<i>Mark</i> well for his Conduct when I see
him next, he may rely upon it!”</p>
<p class='c013'>So he left me in Charge; and my
loved Mother being in a Kind of lethargic
Slumber, which often lasted many
Hours, I left the Doors open between
us, and sat in the Shop. As Fate would
have it, not a single Customer looked in
the whole Time my Father was away;
which was lucky, though we did not feel
very thankful, in usual, for this Falling-off
in Business. Before he returned, <i>Mark</i> came
in, and beckoned me into the Parlour.</p>
<p class='c013'>“What is the Matter?” said I, with
a violently beating Heart.</p>
<p class='c013'><span class="pagenum" id='Page_69'>69</span>“I’ve done it!” said he breathlessly.</p>
<p class='c013'>“Done what?” said I.</p>
<p class='c013'>“Married!” said he: and hid his Face
in his Hands.</p>
<p class='c013'>“Dear <i>Mark</i>, how imprudent!” I exclaimed
affectionately; “what <i>will</i> the
<i>Armytages</i> say?”</p>
<p class='c013'>“What will they, <i>indeed</i>!” repeated
he, “<i>Violet</i> especially! She drove me
to it!”</p>
<p class='c013'>“<i>Violet?</i> <i>Drove</i> you to marry her?”
I cried.—It sounded so strange!</p>
<p class='c013'>“Oh, <i>Cherry</i>! what <i>will</i> you say? It
makes me shudder to tell you!” he
rapidly said; “Nothing but that Girl’s
incorrigible Coquetry could have made
me break with her as I did; and then
Reproaches led to Taunts, and Taunts
to Threatenings, till bad led to worse,
and she twitted me with my Poverty,
and I told her I could be a richer Man
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_70'>70</span>in twenty-four Hours than her Father,
and look down upon them all, and she
dared me to it, and said a better Man
than me was waiting for her, and so—Temptation
to be revenged on her came
in my Way, and—I’ve married Mistress
<i>Glossop</i>!”</p>
<p class='c013'>“Oh, <i>Mark</i>!”</p>
<p class='c013'>—“Nay, <i>Cherry</i>, don’t give way so,”
said he, beginning to shed Tears himself
when he saw me weeping bitterly,—“Love
is not a Man’s whole Life, and
what I’ve tasted of it hasn’t made me
very happy. I’ve stepped into a famous
Business, and I shall have a quiet Fireside,
and a capital Table, and kind
Looks if not pretty ones, and—a done
Thing can’t be undone: so there’s an
End on’t!”</p>
<p class='c013'>Then, fancying he heard my Father’s
Step, though ’twas only Master <i>Blower’s</i>,
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_71'>71</span>he hastily exclaimed, “You must tell
my Uncle—Good-bye, <i>Cherry</i>!” and
hurried out of the House.</p>
<p class='c013'>When he was gone, I sat in a Kind of
Stupor.... <i>Married?</i> and to such a
Wife!—How <i>could</i> he?—how could <i>she</i>?
... and this increased my Amazement,
for he had been beside himself with Anger
and Jealousy, and hardly knew what he
was doing,—but that she, cool, collected,
and at her Time of Life, could have closed
with his Proposals without the Delay of a
single Day!—how disgusting!—Ah, she
was afraid of losing him!</p>
<p class='c013'>—Immersed in these sad Thoughts,
with my Hands clasped on my Lap, I
was unaware of my Father’s Return till
he stood before me. I started.</p>
<p class='c013'>“Has <i>Mark</i> returned?” cried he.</p>
<p class='c013'>“He came back, and is again gone,”
said I.</p>
<p class='c013'><span class="pagenum" id='Page_72'>72</span>“The young Rascal!” exclaimed my
Father very passionately; “what does he
mean by this outrageous Conduct? I’ve
a great Mind to lock the Door against
him when he comes back!”</p>
<p class='c013'>“<i>Father</i>, he will never come back!—He
is married! ... married to Mistress
<i>Glossop</i>.”</p>
<p class='c013'>And, trying to speak composedly, all
would not do; the Tears rained from my
Eyes.</p>
<p class='c013'>My Father remained perfectly mute.
I could understand his Amazement, his
Vexation, by my own; accompanied, as
I knew it must be in his Case, by great
Anger. I expected every Moment to
hear some violent Expression of Indignation:
he had been so unusually displeased
with him already for what was comparatively
a Trifle.</p>
<p class='c013'>All at once, I found myself folded in
<span class="pagenum" id='Page_73'>73</span>his Arms. He did not say a Word; but
the longer he held me, the more and more
I felt that his Hopes for me had been
ruined as well as mine, that his Schemes
and Visions of the Future were all dispersed
and overclouded, that he knew
Something of what was passing within
me, and felt Sympathy without having
the Power of expressing it.</p>
<p class='c013'>“Well,—” said he, releasing me at last,—and
I saw that his Eyes were wet,—“Man
proposes, but <span class='sc'>God</span> disposes. We’ve
had an Escape from this young Man.
Ungrateful young Fellow! And blind
to his own Interest, too, for I could
have done better for him, <i>Cherry</i>, than
he knows of. But—he deserves his
Fate. A miserable one it will be!
He’ll never prosper!”</p>
<p class='c013'>“Oh, <i>Father!</i> don’t prophesy against
him! We need not wish him ill.”</p>
<p class='c013'><span class="pagenum" id='Page_74'>74</span>“I don’t wish him ill,” returned he,
“but he’ll come to no Good. He has
done for himself in this Marriage. And
so, <i>Cherry</i>, you’ll see!”</p>
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