<h2><SPAN name="page23"></SPAN><span class="pagenum"></span>WHAT CHRISTMAS IS AS WE GROW OLDER.<br/> [1851]</h2>
<p><span class="smcap">Time</span> was, with most of us, when
Christmas Day encircling all our limited world like a magic ring,
left nothing out for us to miss or seek; bound together all our
home enjoyments, affections, and hopes; grouped everything and
every one around the Christmas fire; and made the little picture
shining in our bright young eyes, complete.</p>
<p>Time came, perhaps, all so soon, when our thoughts over-leaped
that narrow boundary; when there was some one (very dear, we
thought then, very beautiful, and absolutely perfect) wanting to
the fulness of our happiness; when we were wanting too (or we
thought so, which did just as well) at the Christmas hearth by
which that some one sat; and when we intertwined with every
wreath and garland of our life that some one’s name.</p>
<p>That was the time for the bright visionary Christmases which
have long arisen from us to show faintly, after summer rain, in
the palest edges of the rainbow! That was the time for the
beatified enjoyment of the things that were to be, and never
were, and yet the things that were so real in our resolute hope
that it would be hard to say, now, what realities achieved since,
have been stronger!</p>
<p>What! Did that Christmas never really come when we and
the priceless pearl who was our young choice were received, after
the happiest of totally impossible marriages, by the two united
families previously at daggers—drawn on our account?
When brothers and sisters-in-law who had always been rather cool
to us before our relationship was effected, perfectly doted on
us, and when fathers and mothers overwhelmed us with unlimited
incomes? Was that Christmas dinner never really eaten,
after which we arose, and generously and eloquently rendered
honour to our late rival, present in the company, then and there
exchanging friendship and forgiveness, and founding an
attachment, not to be surpassed in Greek or Roman story, which
subsisted until death? Has that same rival long ceased to
care for that same priceless pearl, and married for money, and
become usurious? Above all, do we really know, now, that we
should probably have been miserable if we had won and worn the
pearl, and that we are better without her?</p>
<p>That Christmas when we had recently achieved so much fame;
when we had been carried in triumph somewhere, for doing
something great and good; when we had won an honoured and
ennobled name, and arrived and were received at home in a shower
of tears of joy; is it possible that <i>that</i> Christmas has
not come yet?</p>
<p>And is our life here, at the best, so constituted that,
pausing as we advance at such a noticeable mile-stone in the
track as this great birthday, we look back on the things that
never were, as naturally and full as gravely as on the things
that have been and are gone, or have been and still are? If
it be so, and so it seems to be, must we come to the conclusion
that life is little better than a dream, and little worth the
loves and strivings that we crowd into it?</p>
<p>No! Far be such miscalled philosophy from us, dear
Reader, on Christmas Day! Nearer and closer to our hearts
be the Christmas spirit, which is the spirit of active
usefulness, perseverance, cheerful discharge of duty, kindness
and forbearance! It is in the last virtues especially, that
we are, or should be, strengthened by the unaccomplished visions
of our youth; for, who shall say that they are not our teachers
to deal gently even with the impalpable nothings of the
earth!</p>
<p>Therefore, as we grow older, let us be more thankful that the
circle of our Christmas associations and of the lessons that they
bring, expands! Let us welcome every one of them, and
summon them to take their places by the Christmas hearth.</p>
<p>Welcome, old aspirations, glittering creatures of an ardent
fancy, to your shelter underneath the holly! We know you,
and have not outlived you yet. Welcome, old projects and
old loves, however fleeting, to your nooks among the steadier
lights that burn around us. Welcome, all that was ever real
to our hearts; and for the earnestness that made you real, thanks
to Heaven! Do we build no Christmas castles in the clouds
now? Let our thoughts, fluttering like butterflies among
these flowers of children, bear witness! Before this boy,
there stretches out a Future, brighter than we ever looked on in
our old romantic time, but bright with honour and with
truth. Around this little head on which the sunny curls lie
heaped, the graces sport, as prettily, as airily, as when there
was no scythe within the reach of Time to shear away the curls of
our first-love. Upon another girl’s face near
it—placider but smiling bright—a quiet and contented
little face, we see Home fairly written. Shining from the
word, as rays shine from a star, we see how, when our graves are
old, other hopes than ours are young, other hearts than ours are
moved; how other ways are smoothed; how other happiness blooms,
ripens, and decays—no, not decays, for other homes and
other bands of children, not yet in being nor for ages yet to be,
arise, and bloom and ripen to the end of all!</p>
<p>Welcome, everything! Welcome, alike what has been, and
what never was, and what we hope may be, to your shelter
underneath the holly, to your places round the Christmas fire,
where what is sits open-hearted! In yonder shadow, do we
see obtruding furtively upon the blaze, an enemy’s
face? By Christmas Day we do forgive him! If the
injury he has done us may admit of such companionship, let him
come here and take his place. If otherwise, unhappily, let
him go hence, assured that we will never injure nor accuse
him.</p>
<p>On this day we shut out Nothing!</p>
<p>“Pause,” says a low voice.
“Nothing? Think!”</p>
<p>“On Christmas Day, we will shut out from our fireside,
Nothing.”</p>
<p>“Not the shadow of a vast City where the withered leaves
are lying deep?” the voice replies. “Not the
shadow that darkens the whole globe? Not the shadow of the
City of the Dead?”</p>
<p>Not even that. Of all days in the year, we will turn our
faces towards that City upon Christmas Day, and from its silent
hosts bring those we loved, among us. City of the Dead, in
the blessed name wherein we are gathered together at this time,
and in the Presence that is here among us according to the
promise, we will receive, and not dismiss, thy people who are
dear to us!</p>
<p>Yes. We can look upon these children angels that alight,
so solemnly, so beautifully among the living children by the
fire, and can bear to think how they departed from us.
Entertaining angels unawares, as the Patriarchs did, the playful
children are unconscious of their guests; but we can see
them—can see a radiant arm around one favourite neck, as if
there were a tempting of that child away. Among the
celestial figures there is one, a poor misshapen boy on earth, of
a glorious beauty now, of whom his dying mother said it grieved
her much to leave him here, alone, for so many years as it was
likely would elapse before he came to her—being such a
little child. But he went quickly, and was laid upon her
breast, and in her hand she leads him.</p>
<p>There was a gallant boy, who fell, far away, upon a burning
sand beneath a burning sun, and said, “Tell them at home,
with my last love, how much I could have wished to kiss them
once, but that I died contented and had done my
duty!” Or there was another, over whom they read the
words, “Therefore we commit his body to the deep,”
and so consigned him to the lonely ocean and sailed on. Or
there was another, who lay down to his rest in the dark shadow of
great forests, and, on earth, awoke no more. O shall they
not, from sand and sea and forest, be brought home at such a
time!</p>
<p>There was a dear girl—almost a woman—never to be
one—who made a mourning Christmas in a house of joy, and
went her trackless way to the silent City. Do we recollect
her, worn out, faintly whispering what could not be heard, and
falling into that last sleep for weariness? O look upon her
now! O look upon her beauty, her serenity, her changeless
youth, her happiness! The daughter of Jairus was recalled
to life, to die; but she, more blest, has heard the same voice,
saying unto her, “Arise for ever!”</p>
<p>We had a friend who was our friend from early days, with whom
we often pictured the changes that were to come upon our lives,
and merrily imagined how we would speak, and walk, and think, and
talk, when we came to be old. His destined habitation in
the City of the Dead received him in his prime. Shall he be
shut out from our Christmas remembrance? Would his love
have so excluded us? Lost friend, lost child, lost parent,
sister, brother, husband, wife, we will not so discard you!
You shall hold your cherished places in our Christmas hearts, and
by our Christmas fires; and in the season of immortal hope, and
on the birthday of immortal mercy, we will shut out Nothing!</p>
<p>The winter sun goes down over town and village; on the sea it
makes a rosy path, as if the Sacred tread were fresh upon the
water. A few more moments, and it sinks, and night comes
on, and lights begin to sparkle in the prospect. On the
hill-side beyond the shapelessly-diffused town, and in the quiet
keeping of the trees that gird the village-steeple, remembrances
are cut in stone, planted in common flowers, growing in grass,
entwined with lowly brambles around many a mound of earth.
In town and village, there are doors and windows closed against
the weather, there are flaming logs heaped high, there are joyful
faces, there is healthy music of voices. Be all
ungentleness and harm excluded from the temples of the Household
Gods, but be those remembrances admitted with tender
encouragement! They are of the time and all its comforting
and peaceful reassurances; and of the history that re-united even
upon earth the living and the dead; and of the broad beneficence
and goodness that too many men have tried to tear to narrow
shreds.</p>
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