<h2>CHAPTER VIII.</h2>
<h3>WHICH SHALL PROSPER, THIS OR THAT?</h3>
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<div class='unindent'><br/><big>HE</big> Rev. John Birge stood before the
window in his cosy little study, and drummed
disconsolately and dismally on the
pane. Without there was a genuine carnival
among the elements, a mingling of snow and
rain, which became ice almost as it fell, and
about which a regular northeast wind was blustering.
The Rev. John looked, and drummed,
and knitted his brows, and finally turned abruptly
to little Mrs. John, who sat in the smallest
rocking-chair, toasting her feet on the hearth.</div>
<p>"Now, Emma, isn't it strange that of all the
evenings in the week Thursday should be the
one so constantly stormy? This is the third
one in succession that has been so unpleasant
that very few could get out."</p>
<p>This sentence was delivered in a half-impatient,
half-desponding tone; and Mrs. John took
time to consider before she answered, soothingly:<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_78" id="Page_78">[78]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>"Well, you will have the satisfaction of feeling
that those who come out this evening love
the prayer-meeting enough to brave even such
a storm as this, and of remembering that there
are many others who would brave it if they
dared."</p>
<p>But the minister was not to be beguiled into
comfort; he gave an impatient kick to an envelope
that lay at his feet, and continued his
story.</p>
<p>"I haven't a <i>thing</i> prepared suitable for such
an evening as this. My intention was to have
a short, practical, personal talk, addressed almost
entirely to the unconverted; and I shall have
Deacon Toles and Deacon Fanning, and a few
other gray-haired saints, who don't need a word
of it, to listen to me. I had in mind just the
persons that I hoped to reach by this evening's
service, and that makes it all the more discouraging
to feel almost absolutely certain that not
one of them will be out to-night. I certainly
do not see why it is that the one evening of the
week, which as Christians we try to give to
God, should be so often given up to storm."</p>
<p>Mrs. John could not see her husband's face
this time, it had been turned again to the window
pane; but there was that in the tone of his
voice which made her change her tactics.</p>
<p>"It <i>is</i> a pity and a shame," she said, in de<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_79" id="Page_79">[79]</SPAN></span>mure
gravity, "that Thursday evening of all
others should prove stormy. Do you think it
can be possible that our Heavenly Father knows
that so many of his people have made it an
evening of prayer? Or if he does, can't he
possibly send some poor little sinner to meeting,
if it be his will to do so, as well as those
saints you spoke of?"</p>
<p>The minister did not reply for a little. Presently
he turned slowly from the window and
met his wife's gaze; then he laughed, a low,
half-amused, half-ashamed laugh. He could afford
to do so, for be it known this was a new
order of things in the minister's household.
Truth to tell, it was the little wife who became
out of sorts with the weather, with the walking,
with the people, and had to be reasoned, or
coaxed, or petted into calm by the grave, earnest,
faithful, patient minister; and his rebellious
spirit had been slain to-night by the use of
some of his own weapons, hurled at him indeed
in a pretty, graceful, feminine way, but he recognized
them at once, and could afford to laugh.
Afterward when he had buckled his overshoes
and buttoned his overcoat, and prepared to
brave the storm in answer to the tolling bell,
he came over to the little rocking-chair.</p>
<p>"My dear," he said, "we will kneel down and
have a word of prayer, that our Father will<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_80" id="Page_80">[80]</SPAN></span>
have this meeting in his care, and bring good
out of seeming ill."</p>
<p>And as they knelt together they had changed
places again, and the minister's wife looked up
with a kind of wistful reverence to the calm,
earnest face of her husband.</p>
<p>"It storms like the mischief," Mr. Roberts
said on this same evening, as he closed the door
with a bang, and a shrug of his shoulders.
"Very few people will venture out this evening.
Tode, if you want an hour or two for a frolic,
now is your time to take it. After you have
been up with the mail you can go where you
like until the train is due."</p>
<p>Here was fun for Tode. This would give him
two full hours, and he had at least two dozen
schemes for filling up the time; but it chanced
that wind and sleet and cold were too much
even for him.</p>
<p>"Jolly!" he said. "What a regular old stunner
<i>that</i> was," as a gust of wind nearly blew
him away; and he clapped both hands to his
head to see if his cap had withstood the shock.</p>
<p>"This ain't just the charmingest kind of an
evening that ever I was out. I'd tramp back to
our hotel quicker, only a fellow don't like to
spend his evening just exactly where he does all
the others when it's a holiday. I wonder what's
in here? They're singing like fun, whatever<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_81" id="Page_81">[81]</SPAN></span>
'tis. I mean to peek in—might <i>go</i> in; no harm
done in taking a look. 'Tain't anyways likely
that it blows in there as it does out here. Tode
and me will just take a look, we will."</p>
<p>And he pushed open the door and slipped
into the nearest seat by the fire just as the singing
was concluded, and the Rev. John Birge
began to read; and the words he read were
about that strange old story of the great company
and the lack of food, and the lad with the
five barley loaves and two small fishes, and the
multitude that were fed, and the twelve baskets
of fragments that remained—story familiar in
all its details to every Sabbath-school scholar in
the land, but utterly new to Tode, falling on his
ear for the first time, bearing all the charm of
a fairy tale to him. There was just one thing
that struck this ignorant boy as very strange,
that a company of men and women, some of
them gray-headed, should spend their time in
coming together that stormy evening, and reading
over and talking about so utterly improbable
a tale. He listened eagerly to see what might
be the clew to this mystery.</p>
<p>"We are wont to say," began Mr. Birge,
"that the age of miracles is past; yet if we
knew in just what mysterious, unknown paths
God leads the children of this day to himself,
I think some of their experiences would seem<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_82" id="Page_82">[82]</SPAN></span>
to us no less miraculous than is this story
which we are considering to-night."</p>
<p>No clew here to the mystery; only a number
of words which Tode did not understand, and
something about God, which he could not see
had anything to do with the fairy story. I
wonder if we Christian people ever fully realize
how utterly ignorant the neglected poor are of
Bible truth. One more ignorant in the matter
than was Tode can hardly be imagined. He
knew, to be sure, that there was a day called
Sunday, and that stores and shops as a general
rule were closed on that day, just why he would
have found very difficult to explain. He knew
that there were such buildings as churches, and
that these were opened on these same Sundays,
and that well-dressed people went into them,
but they had nothing whatever to do with <i>him</i>.
Oh no, neither had Sunday nor churches. He
knew in a vague general way that there was a
Being called God, who created all things, and
that the aforesaid well-dressed people were in
some way connected with him; but it chanced,
oh, bitter chance, that there had never come to
him the slightest intimation that God in Christ
was busy looking up the homeless, the friendless,
the forsaken ones of earth, and bidding
them find home and friend and joy in him.
The meeting continued with but one other in<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_83" id="Page_83">[83]</SPAN></span>terruption.
Midway in the services the door
opened somewhat noisily, and with many a
rustle and flutter Mrs. Hastings and Miss Dora
made their way from out the storm and found
shelter in the quiet chapel. This was just as
Deacon Fanning asked a question.</p>
<p>"Mr. Birge, don't you think this little story
is to teach us, among other things, that God
can take the very few, weak, almost worthless
materials that we bring him, and do great things
with them?"</p>
<p>"I think we may learn that precious truth
from the story," answered Mr. Birge. "And I
never feel saddened and discouraged with the
thought that I have nothing with which to feed
the multitudes, that this story does not bring
me comfort. God doesn't need even our five
barley loaves, but stoops to use them that we
may feel ourselves workers together with him."</p>
<p>What queer talk it was! Tode had never
heard anything like it in his life.</p>
<p>Then Deacon Toles had something to say.</p>
<p>"Andrew, Simon Peter's brother, just expresses
our feelings, I think, sometimes. 'There is
a lad here which hath five barley loaves, and
two small fishes; but what are they among so
many?' Andrew was gloomy and troubled
even while talking face to face with Jesus. Not
disposed to think that the Master could do any<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_84" id="Page_84">[84]</SPAN></span>thing
with so little food as that, it's just the
way I feel every now and then. 'Lord, here
we are, a handful of people, and we have fragments
of the bread of life in our hearts: but
what are we among so many?'"</p>
<p>"Yet the Lord fed the five thousand despite
Andrew's doubts," chimed in the pastor. "May
we not hope and pray that he will deal thus
graciously with us?"</p>
<p>Tode could make nothing of it all, and was
half inclined to slip out and go on his way; but
the same dear Savior who had so long ago fed
the five thousand had his All-seeing Eye bent
on this one poor boy, and had prepared a crumb
for him.</p>
<p>There arose from the seat near the door an
old gray-haired man. His dress was very plain
and poor, his manner was uncultured, his language
was ungrammatical. There were those
who were disposed to think that so illiterate a
man as old Mr. Snyder ought not to take up
the valuable time. However old Mr. Snyder
prayed, and Tode listened.</p>
<p>"O, dear Jesus," he said, "the same who was
on the earth so many years ago, and fed the
hungry people, feed us to-night. We are poor,
we want to be rich; take us for thy children;
help us to come to thee just as the people used
to do when thou didst walk this very earth, and<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_85" id="Page_85">[85]</SPAN></span>
ask for what we want. We need a friend just
like Jesus for our own—a friend who will love
us always, who will take care of us always, who
will give us everything we need, and heaven by
and by. We know none are too poor or too
bad for thee to take and wash in thy blood, and
feed with thy love which lasts forever. Give us
faith to trust thee always, to work for thee here,
and to keep looking ahead to that home in
heaven, which thou hast got all ready for us
when we die. Amen."</p>
<p>There were those present who did not quite
see the connection of this prayer with the topic
of the evening. There were those who thought
it very commonplace and rather childish in language.
But how can we tell what strange, bewildering
thoughts it raised in the heart of our
poor Tode?</p>
<p>Was there really such a somebody somewhere
as that man talked about, who would
make people rich, or anyhow give them all they
needed; who would take care of them, no matter
how poor or how bad; who would even
take care of them in that awful time when they
had to die, and all this just for the asking? If
there were any truth in it why didn't folks ask,
and have it all? But then if there wasn't, what
did these folks all mean?</p>
<p>"They don't look like fools; now that's a<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_86" id="Page_86">[86]</SPAN></span>
fact," said Tode, meditatively, and was in great
bewilderment.</p>
<p>The meeting closed. Mrs. Hastings rustled
up to the minister.</p>
<p>"So sorry to have intruded upon you, Mr.
Birge, but the gale was so unusually severe.
Dora and I were making our way to the carriage,
which was but a very short distance
away, and just as we reached your door there
came a fearful gust of wind and we were obliged
to desist."</p>
<p>While Mr. Birge was explaining that to come
to prayer-meeting was not considered an intrusion,
Dora turned to Tode. Now Tode had in
mind all day a burning desire to tell Dora that
he had made all the twenty-six letters of the
alphabet, just twenty-six times on twenty-six
old envelopes that he had gathered together
from various waste-baskets, and could "make
every one of 'em to a dot." But instead of all
this he said:</p>
<p>"Say, do you believe all this queer talk?"</p>
<p>"What do you mean, Tode?"</p>
<p>"Why this about the youngster, and his
fishes and bread, and such lots of folks eating
'em, and more left when they got done
than there was when they begun. Likely story,
ain't it?"</p>
<p>Dora's eyes were large and grave.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_87" id="Page_87">[87]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>"Why, Tode, it's in the Bible," she said, reverently.</p>
<p>Tode knew nothing about reverence, and next
to nothing about the Bible.</p>
<p>"What of that?" he said, defiantly. "It's
queer stuff all the same; and what did that old
man mean about his friend, and taking care of
folks, everybody, good or bad, and feeding 'em,
and all that?"</p>
<p>"It's about Jesus, Tode. Don't you know;
he died, you see, for us, and if we love him he'll
take care of us, and take us to heaven. Sometimes
do you think that you'll belong to him,
Tode? I do once in a while."</p>
<p>"I don't know anything what you're talking
about," was Tode's answer, more truthful than
grammatical.</p>
<p>"Why, give your heart to him, you know,
and love him, and pray, and all that. But,
Tode, won't you run around to Martyn's and
order the carriage for us? John was to wait
there until we came, and I guess he'll think we
are never coming."</p>
<p>Mrs. Hastings repeated the direction, and
Tode vanished, brushing by in his exit the very
man who had prayed at his dying mother's
bedside years before, and who had intended to
keep an eye on him. As he slid along the icy
pavements the boy ruminated on what he had<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_88" id="Page_88">[88]</SPAN></span>
heard, and especially on that last explanation,
"Why, give your heart to him, you know, and
love him, and pray, and all that." To whom,
and how, and where, and when? What a perfectly
bewildering confusion it all was to Tode.</p>
<p>"I'll be hanged if I can make head or tail to
any of it," he said aloud.</p>
<p>Then he whistled, but after a moment his
whistle broke off into a great heavy sigh.
Someway there was in Tode's heart a dull ache,
a longing aroused that night, and which nothing
but the All-seeing, All-pitying Love could ever
soothe.</p>
<p>"There were fourteen people in prayer-meeting,"
the Rev. John informed his wife. "The
two deacons of whom I spoke, and several other
good men. I couldn't make use of my lecture
at all, for there were none present but professing
Christians, save and except Mrs. Pliny
Hastings, who apologized for <i>intruding!</i>"</p>
<p>And then the husband and wife laughed, a
half-amused, half-sorrowful laugh.</p>
<p>After a moment Mr. Birge added:</p>
<p>"There <i>was</i> a rather rough-looking boy there;
strayed in from the storm, I presume. I meant
to speak with him, but Mrs. Hastings annoyed
me so much that it escaped my mind until he
brushed past me and vanished."</p>
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