<h2><SPAN name="chap15"></SPAN>CHAPTER XV.</h2>
<p>That evening, at eight-thirty, exquisitely dressed and wearing a large
button-hole of Parma violets, Dorian Gray was ushered into Lady
Narborough’s drawing-room by bowing servants. His forehead was throbbing
with maddened nerves, and he felt wildly excited, but his manner as he bent
over his hostess’s hand was as easy and graceful as ever. Perhaps one
never seems so much at one’s ease as when one has to play a part.
Certainly no one looking at Dorian Gray that night could have believed that he
had passed through a tragedy as horrible as any tragedy of our age. Those
finely shaped fingers could never have clutched a knife for sin, nor those
smiling lips have cried out on God and goodness. He himself could not help
wondering at the calm of his demeanour, and for a moment felt keenly the
terrible pleasure of a double life.</p>
<p>It was a small party, got up rather in a hurry by Lady Narborough, who was a
very clever woman with what Lord Henry used to describe as the remains of
really remarkable ugliness. She had proved an excellent wife to one of our most
tedious ambassadors, and having buried her husband properly in a marble
mausoleum, which she had herself designed, and married off her daughters to
some rich, rather elderly men, she devoted herself now to the pleasures of
French fiction, French cookery, and French <i>esprit</i> when she could get it.</p>
<p>Dorian was one of her especial favourites, and she always told him that she was
extremely glad she had not met him in early life. “I know, my dear, I
should have fallen madly in love with you,” she used to say, “and
thrown my bonnet right over the mills for your sake. It is most fortunate that
you were not thought of at the time. As it was, our bonnets were so unbecoming,
and the mills were so occupied in trying to raise the wind, that I never had
even a flirtation with anybody. However, that was all Narborough’s fault.
He was dreadfully short-sighted, and there is no pleasure in taking in a
husband who never sees anything.”</p>
<p>Her guests this evening were rather tedious. The fact was, as she explained to
Dorian, behind a very shabby fan, one of her married daughters had come up
quite suddenly to stay with her, and, to make matters worse, had actually
brought her husband with her. “I think it is most unkind of her, my
dear,” she whispered. “Of course I go and stay with them every
summer after I come from Homburg, but then an old woman like me must have fresh
air sometimes, and besides, I really wake them up. You don’t know what an
existence they lead down there. It is pure unadulterated country life. They get
up early, because they have so much to do, and go to bed early, because they
have so little to think about. There has not been a scandal in the
neighbourhood since the time of Queen Elizabeth, and consequently they all fall
asleep after dinner. You shan’t sit next either of them. You shall sit by
me and amuse me.”</p>
<p>Dorian murmured a graceful compliment and looked round the room. Yes: it was
certainly a tedious party. Two of the people he had never seen before, and the
others consisted of Ernest Harrowden, one of those middle-aged mediocrities so
common in London clubs who have no enemies, but are thoroughly disliked by
their friends; Lady Ruxton, an overdressed woman of forty-seven, with a hooked
nose, who was always trying to get herself compromised, but was so peculiarly
plain that to her great disappointment no one would ever believe anything
against her; Mrs. Erlynne, a pushing nobody, with a delightful lisp and
Venetian-red hair; Lady Alice Chapman, his hostess’s daughter, a dowdy
dull girl, with one of those characteristic British faces that, once seen, are
never remembered; and her husband, a red-cheeked, white-whiskered creature who,
like so many of his class, was under the impression that inordinate joviality
can atone for an entire lack of ideas.</p>
<p>He was rather sorry he had come, till Lady Narborough, looking at the great
ormolu gilt clock that sprawled in gaudy curves on the mauve-draped
mantelshelf, exclaimed: “How horrid of Henry Wotton to be so late! I sent
round to him this morning on chance and he promised faithfully not to
disappoint me.”</p>
<p>It was some consolation that Harry was to be there, and when the door opened
and he heard his slow musical voice lending charm to some insincere apology, he
ceased to feel bored.</p>
<p>But at dinner he could not eat anything. Plate after plate went away untasted.
Lady Narborough kept scolding him for what she called “an insult to poor
Adolphe, who invented the <i>menu</i> specially for you,” and now and
then Lord Henry looked across at him, wondering at his silence and abstracted
manner. From time to time the butler filled his glass with champagne. He drank
eagerly, and his thirst seemed to increase.</p>
<p>“Dorian,” said Lord Henry at last, as the <i>chaud-froid</i> was
being handed round, “what is the matter with you to-night? You are quite
out of sorts.”</p>
<p>“I believe he is in love,” cried Lady Narborough, “and that
he is afraid to tell me for fear I should be jealous. He is quite right. I
certainly should.”</p>
<p>“Dear Lady Narborough,” murmured Dorian, smiling, “I have not
been in love for a whole week—not, in fact, since Madame de Ferrol left
town.”</p>
<p>“How you men can fall in love with that woman!” exclaimed the old
lady. “I really cannot understand it.”</p>
<p>“It is simply because she remembers you when you were a little girl, Lady
Narborough,” said Lord Henry. “She is the one link between us and
your short frocks.”</p>
<p>“She does not remember my short frocks at all, Lord Henry. But I remember
her very well at Vienna thirty years ago, and how <i>décolletée</i> she was
then.”</p>
<p>“She is still <i>décolletée</i>,” he answered, taking an olive in
his long fingers; “and when she is in a very smart gown she looks like an
<i>édition de luxe</i> of a bad French novel. She is really wonderful, and full
of surprises. Her capacity for family affection is extraordinary. When her
third husband died, her hair turned quite gold from grief.”</p>
<p>“How can you, Harry!” cried Dorian.</p>
<p>“It is a most romantic explanation,” laughed the hostess.
“But her third husband, Lord Henry! You don’t mean to say Ferrol is
the fourth?”</p>
<p>“Certainly, Lady Narborough.”</p>
<p>“I don’t believe a word of it.”</p>
<p>“Well, ask Mr. Gray. He is one of her most intimate friends.”</p>
<p>“Is it true, Mr. Gray?”</p>
<p>“She assures me so, Lady Narborough,” said Dorian. “I asked
her whether, like Marguerite de Navarre, she had their hearts embalmed and hung
at her girdle. She told me she didn’t, because none of them had had any
hearts at all.”</p>
<p>“Four husbands! Upon my word that is <i>trop de zêle</i>.”</p>
<p>“<i>Trop d’audace</i>, I tell her,” said Dorian.</p>
<p>“Oh! she is audacious enough for anything, my dear. And what is Ferrol
like? I don’t know him.”</p>
<p>“The husbands of very beautiful women belong to the criminal
classes,” said Lord Henry, sipping his wine.</p>
<p>Lady Narborough hit him with her fan. “Lord Henry, I am not at all
surprised that the world says that you are extremely wicked.”</p>
<p>“But what world says that?” asked Lord Henry, elevating his
eyebrows. “It can only be the next world. This world and I are on
excellent terms.”</p>
<p>“Everybody I know says you are very wicked,” cried the old lady,
shaking her head.</p>
<p>Lord Henry looked serious for some moments. “It is perfectly
monstrous,” he said, at last, “the way people go about nowadays
saying things against one behind one’s back that are absolutely and
entirely true.”</p>
<p>“Isn’t he incorrigible?” cried Dorian, leaning forward in his
chair.</p>
<p>“I hope so,” said his hostess, laughing. “But really, if you
all worship Madame de Ferrol in this ridiculous way, I shall have to marry
again so as to be in the fashion.”</p>
<p>“You will never marry again, Lady Narborough,” broke in Lord Henry.
“You were far too happy. When a woman marries again, it is because she
detested her first husband. When a man marries again, it is because he adored
his first wife. Women try their luck; men risk theirs.”</p>
<p>“Narborough wasn’t perfect,” cried the old lady.</p>
<p>“If he had been, you would not have loved him, my dear lady,” was
the rejoinder. “Women love us for our defects. If we have enough of them,
they will forgive us everything, even our intellects. You will never ask me to
dinner again after saying this, I am afraid, Lady Narborough, but it is quite
true.”</p>
<p>“Of course it is true, Lord Henry. If we women did not love you for your
defects, where would you all be? Not one of you would ever be married. You
would be a set of unfortunate bachelors. Not, however, that that would alter
you much. Nowadays all the married men live like bachelors, and all the
bachelors like married men.”</p>
<p>“<i>Fin de siêcle</i>,” murmured Lord Henry.</p>
<p>“<i>Fin du globe</i>,” answered his hostess.</p>
<p>“I wish it were <i>fin du globe</i>,” said Dorian with a sigh.
“Life is a great disappointment.”</p>
<p>“Ah, my dear,” cried Lady Narborough, putting on her gloves,
“don’t tell me that you have exhausted life. When a man says that
one knows that life has exhausted him. Lord Henry is very wicked, and I
sometimes wish that I had been; but you are made to be good—you look so
good. I must find you a nice wife. Lord Henry, don’t you think that Mr.
Gray should get married?”</p>
<p>“I am always telling him so, Lady Narborough,” said Lord Henry with
a bow.</p>
<p>“Well, we must look out for a suitable match for him. I shall go through
Debrett carefully to-night and draw out a list of all the eligible young
ladies.”</p>
<p>“With their ages, Lady Narborough?” asked Dorian.</p>
<p>“Of course, with their ages, slightly edited. But nothing must be done in
a hurry. I want it to be what <i>The Morning Post</i> calls a suitable
alliance, and I want you both to be happy.”</p>
<p>“What nonsense people talk about happy marriages!” exclaimed Lord
Henry. “A man can be happy with any woman, as long as he does not love
her.”</p>
<p>“Ah! what a cynic you are!” cried the old lady, pushing back her
chair and nodding to Lady Ruxton. “You must come and dine with me soon
again. You are really an admirable tonic, much better than what Sir Andrew
prescribes for me. You must tell me what people you would like to meet, though.
I want it to be a delightful gathering.”</p>
<p>“I like men who have a future and women who have a past,” he
answered. “Or do you think that would make it a petticoat party?”</p>
<p>“I fear so,” she said, laughing, as she stood up. “A thousand
pardons, my dear Lady Ruxton,” she added, “I didn’t see you
hadn’t finished your cigarette.”</p>
<p>“Never mind, Lady Narborough. I smoke a great deal too much. I am going
to limit myself, for the future.”</p>
<p>“Pray don’t, Lady Ruxton,” said Lord Henry. “Moderation
is a fatal thing. Enough is as bad as a meal. More than enough is as good as a
feast.”</p>
<p>Lady Ruxton glanced at him curiously. “You must come and explain that to
me some afternoon, Lord Henry. It sounds a fascinating theory,” she
murmured, as she swept out of the room.</p>
<p>“Now, mind you don’t stay too long over your politics and
scandal,” cried Lady Narborough from the door. “If you do, we are
sure to squabble upstairs.”</p>
<p>The men laughed, and Mr. Chapman got up solemnly from the foot of the table and
came up to the top. Dorian Gray changed his seat and went and sat by Lord
Henry. Mr. Chapman began to talk in a loud voice about the situation in the
House of Commons. He guffawed at his adversaries. The word
<i>doctrinaire</i>—word full of terror to the British
mind—reappeared from time to time between his explosions. An alliterative
prefix served as an ornament of oratory. He hoisted the Union Jack on the
pinnacles of thought. The inherited stupidity of the race—sound English
common sense he jovially termed it—was shown to be the proper bulwark for
society.</p>
<p>A smile curved Lord Henry’s lips, and he turned round and looked at
Dorian.</p>
<p>“Are you better, my dear fellow?” he asked. “You seemed
rather out of sorts at dinner.”</p>
<p>“I am quite well, Harry. I am tired. That is all.”</p>
<p>“You were charming last night. The little duchess is quite devoted to
you. She tells me she is going down to Selby.”</p>
<p>“She has promised to come on the twentieth.”</p>
<p>“Is Monmouth to be there, too?”</p>
<p>“Oh, yes, Harry.”</p>
<p>“He bores me dreadfully, almost as much as he bores her. She is very
clever, too clever for a woman. She lacks the indefinable charm of weakness. It
is the feet of clay that make the gold of the image precious. Her feet are very
pretty, but they are not feet of clay. White porcelain feet, if you like. They
have been through the fire, and what fire does not destroy, it hardens. She has
had experiences.”</p>
<p>“How long has she been married?” asked Dorian.</p>
<p>“An eternity, she tells me. I believe, according to the peerage, it is
ten years, but ten years with Monmouth must have been like eternity, with time
thrown in. Who else is coming?”</p>
<p>“Oh, the Willoughbys, Lord Rugby and his wife, our hostess, Geoffrey
Clouston, the usual set. I have asked Lord Grotrian.”</p>
<p>“I like him,” said Lord Henry. “A great many people
don’t, but I find him charming. He atones for being occasionally somewhat
overdressed by being always absolutely over-educated. He is a very modern
type.”</p>
<p>“I don’t know if he will be able to come, Harry. He may have to go
to Monte Carlo with his father.”</p>
<p>“Ah! what a nuisance people’s people are! Try and make him come. By
the way, Dorian, you ran off very early last night. You left before eleven.
What did you do afterwards? Did you go straight home?”</p>
<p>Dorian glanced at him hurriedly and frowned.</p>
<p>“No, Harry,” he said at last, “I did not get home till nearly
three.”</p>
<p>“Did you go to the club?”</p>
<p>“Yes,” he answered. Then he bit his lip. “No, I don’t
mean that. I didn’t go to the club. I walked about. I forget what I
did.... How inquisitive you are, Harry! You always want to know what one has
been doing. I always want to forget what I have been doing. I came in at
half-past two, if you wish to know the exact time. I had left my latch-key at
home, and my servant had to let me in. If you want any corroborative evidence
on the subject, you can ask him.”</p>
<p>Lord Henry shrugged his shoulders. “My dear fellow, as if I cared! Let us
go up to the drawing-room. No sherry, thank you, Mr. Chapman. Something has
happened to you, Dorian. Tell me what it is. You are not yourself
to-night.”</p>
<p>“Don’t mind me, Harry. I am irritable, and out of temper. I shall
come round and see you to-morrow, or next day. Make my excuses to Lady
Narborough. I shan’t go upstairs. I shall go home. I must go home.”</p>
<p>“All right, Dorian. I dare say I shall see you to-morrow at tea-time. The
duchess is coming.”</p>
<p>“I will try to be there, Harry,” he said, leaving the room. As he
drove back to his own house, he was conscious that the sense of terror he
thought he had strangled had come back to him. Lord Henry’s casual
questioning had made him lose his nerve for the moment, and he wanted his nerve
still. Things that were dangerous had to be destroyed. He winced. He hated the
idea of even touching them.</p>
<p>Yet it had to be done. He realized that, and when he had locked the door of his
library, he opened the secret press into which he had thrust Basil
Hallward’s coat and bag. A huge fire was blazing. He piled another log on
it. The smell of the singeing clothes and burning leather was horrible. It took
him three-quarters of an hour to consume everything. At the end he felt faint
and sick, and having lit some Algerian pastilles in a pierced copper brazier,
he bathed his hands and forehead with a cool musk-scented vinegar.</p>
<p>Suddenly he started. His eyes grew strangely bright, and he gnawed nervously at
his underlip. Between two of the windows stood a large Florentine cabinet, made
out of ebony and inlaid with ivory and blue lapis. He watched it as though it
were a thing that could fascinate and make afraid, as though it held something
that he longed for and yet almost loathed. His breath quickened. A mad craving
came over him. He lit a cigarette and then threw it away. His eyelids drooped
till the long fringed lashes almost touched his cheek. But he still watched the
cabinet. At last he got up from the sofa on which he had been lying, went over
to it, and having unlocked it, touched some hidden spring. A triangular drawer
passed slowly out. His fingers moved instinctively towards it, dipped in, and
closed on something. It was a small Chinese box of black and gold-dust lacquer,
elaborately wrought, the sides patterned with curved waves, and the silken
cords hung with round crystals and tasselled in plaited metal threads. He
opened it. Inside was a green paste, waxy in lustre, the odour curiously heavy
and persistent.</p>
<p>He hesitated for some moments, with a strangely immobile smile upon his face.
Then shivering, though the atmosphere of the room was terribly hot, he drew
himself up and glanced at the clock. It was twenty minutes to twelve. He put
the box back, shutting the cabinet doors as he did so, and went into his
bedroom.</p>
<p>As midnight was striking bronze blows upon the dusky air, Dorian Gray, dressed
commonly, and with a muffler wrapped round his throat, crept quietly out of his
house. In Bond Street he found a hansom with a good horse. He hailed it and in
a low voice gave the driver an address.</p>
<p>The man shook his head. “It is too far for me,” he muttered.</p>
<p>“Here is a sovereign for you,” said Dorian. “You shall have
another if you drive fast.”</p>
<p>“All right, sir,” answered the man, “you will be there in an
hour,” and after his fare had got in he turned his horse round and drove
rapidly towards the river.</p>
<h2><SPAN name="chap16"></SPAN>CHAPTER XVI.</h2>
<p>A cold rain began to fall, and the blurred street-lamps looked ghastly in the
dripping mist. The public-houses were just closing, and dim men and women were
clustering in broken groups round their doors. From some of the bars came the
sound of horrible laughter. In others, drunkards brawled and screamed.</p>
<p>Lying back in the hansom, with his hat pulled over his forehead, Dorian Gray
watched with listless eyes the sordid shame of the great city, and now and then
he repeated to himself the words that Lord Henry had said to him on the first
day they had met, “To cure the soul by means of the senses, and the
senses by means of the soul.” Yes, that was the secret. He had often
tried it, and would try it again now. There were opium dens where one could buy
oblivion, dens of horror where the memory of old sins could be destroyed by the
madness of sins that were new.</p>
<p>The moon hung low in the sky like a yellow skull. From time to time a huge
misshapen cloud stretched a long arm across and hid it. The gas-lamps grew
fewer, and the streets more narrow and gloomy. Once the man lost his way and
had to drive back half a mile. A steam rose from the horse as it splashed up
the puddles. The sidewindows of the hansom were clogged with a grey-flannel
mist.</p>
<p>“To cure the soul by means of the senses, and the senses by means of the
soul!” How the words rang in his ears! His soul, certainly, was sick to
death. Was it true that the senses could cure it? Innocent blood had been
spilled. What could atone for that? Ah! for that there was no atonement; but
though forgiveness was impossible, forgetfulness was possible still, and he was
determined to forget, to stamp the thing out, to crush it as one would crush
the adder that had stung one. Indeed, what right had Basil to have spoken to
him as he had done? Who had made him a judge over others? He had said things
that were dreadful, horrible, not to be endured.</p>
<p>On and on plodded the hansom, going slower, it seemed to him, at each step. He
thrust up the trap and called to the man to drive faster. The hideous hunger
for opium began to gnaw at him. His throat burned and his delicate hands
twitched nervously together. He struck at the horse madly with his stick. The
driver laughed and whipped up. He laughed in answer, and the man was silent.</p>
<p>The way seemed interminable, and the streets like the black web of some
sprawling spider. The monotony became unbearable, and as the mist thickened, he
felt afraid.</p>
<p>Then they passed by lonely brickfields. The fog was lighter here, and he could
see the strange, bottle-shaped kilns with their orange, fanlike tongues of
fire. A dog barked as they went by, and far away in the darkness some wandering
sea-gull screamed. The horse stumbled in a rut, then swerved aside and broke
into a gallop.</p>
<p>After some time they left the clay road and rattled again over rough-paven
streets. Most of the windows were dark, but now and then fantastic shadows were
silhouetted against some lamplit blind. He watched them curiously. They moved
like monstrous marionettes and made gestures like live things. He hated them. A
dull rage was in his heart. As they turned a corner, a woman yelled something
at them from an open door, and two men ran after the hansom for about a hundred
yards. The driver beat at them with his whip.</p>
<p>It is said that passion makes one think in a circle. Certainly with hideous
iteration the bitten lips of Dorian Gray shaped and reshaped those subtle words
that dealt with soul and sense, till he had found in them the full expression,
as it were, of his mood, and justified, by intellectual approval, passions that
without such justification would still have dominated his temper. From cell to
cell of his brain crept the one thought; and the wild desire to live, most
terrible of all man’s appetites, quickened into force each trembling
nerve and fibre. Ugliness that had once been hateful to him because it made
things real, became dear to him now for that very reason. Ugliness was the one
reality. The coarse brawl, the loathsome den, the crude violence of disordered
life, the very vileness of thief and outcast, were more vivid, in their intense
actuality of impression, than all the gracious shapes of art, the dreamy
shadows of song. They were what he needed for forgetfulness. In three days he
would be free.</p>
<p>Suddenly the man drew up with a jerk at the top of a dark lane. Over the low
roofs and jagged chimney-stacks of the houses rose the black masts of ships.
Wreaths of white mist clung like ghostly sails to the yards.</p>
<p>“Somewhere about here, sir, ain’t it?” he asked huskily
through the trap.</p>
<p>Dorian started and peered round. “This will do,” he answered, and
having got out hastily and given the driver the extra fare he had promised him,
he walked quickly in the direction of the quay. Here and there a lantern
gleamed at the stern of some huge merchantman. The light shook and splintered
in the puddles. A red glare came from an outward-bound steamer that was
coaling. The slimy pavement looked like a wet mackintosh.</p>
<p>He hurried on towards the left, glancing back now and then to see if he was
being followed. In about seven or eight minutes he reached a small shabby house
that was wedged in between two gaunt factories. In one of the top-windows stood
a lamp. He stopped and gave a peculiar knock.</p>
<p>After a little time he heard steps in the passage and the chain being unhooked.
The door opened quietly, and he went in without saying a word to the squat
misshapen figure that flattened itself into the shadow as he passed. At the end
of the hall hung a tattered green curtain that swayed and shook in the gusty
wind which had followed him in from the street. He dragged it aside and entered
a long low room which looked as if it had once been a third-rate
dancing-saloon. Shrill flaring gas-jets, dulled and distorted in the fly-blown
mirrors that faced them, were ranged round the walls. Greasy reflectors of
ribbed tin backed them, making quivering disks of light. The floor was covered
with ochre-coloured sawdust, trampled here and there into mud, and stained with
dark rings of spilled liquor. Some Malays were crouching by a little charcoal
stove, playing with bone counters and showing their white teeth as they
chattered. In one corner, with his head buried in his arms, a sailor sprawled
over a table, and by the tawdrily painted bar that ran across one complete side
stood two haggard women, mocking an old man who was brushing the sleeves of his
coat with an expression of disgust. “He thinks he’s got red ants on
him,” laughed one of them, as Dorian passed by. The man looked at her in
terror and began to whimper.</p>
<p>At the end of the room there was a little staircase, leading to a darkened
chamber. As Dorian hurried up its three rickety steps, the heavy odour of opium
met him. He heaved a deep breath, and his nostrils quivered with pleasure. When
he entered, a young man with smooth yellow hair, who was bending over a lamp
lighting a long thin pipe, looked up at him and nodded in a hesitating manner.</p>
<p>“You here, Adrian?” muttered Dorian.</p>
<p>“Where else should I be?” he answered, listlessly. “None of
the chaps will speak to me now.”</p>
<p>“I thought you had left England.”</p>
<p>“Darlington is not going to do anything. My brother paid the bill at
last. George doesn’t speak to me either.... I don’t care,” he
added with a sigh. “As long as one has this stuff, one doesn’t want
friends. I think I have had too many friends.”</p>
<p>Dorian winced and looked round at the grotesque things that lay in such
fantastic postures on the ragged mattresses. The twisted limbs, the gaping
mouths, the staring lustreless eyes, fascinated him. He knew in what strange
heavens they were suffering, and what dull hells were teaching them the secret
of some new joy. They were better off than he was. He was prisoned in thought.
Memory, like a horrible malady, was eating his soul away. From time to time he
seemed to see the eyes of Basil Hallward looking at him. Yet he felt he could
not stay. The presence of Adrian Singleton troubled him. He wanted to be where
no one would know who he was. He wanted to escape from himself.</p>
<p>“I am going on to the other place,” he said after a pause.</p>
<p>“On the wharf?”</p>
<p>“Yes.”</p>
<p>“That mad-cat is sure to be there. They won’t have her in this
place now.”</p>
<p>Dorian shrugged his shoulders. “I am sick of women who love one. Women
who hate one are much more interesting. Besides, the stuff is better.”</p>
<p>“Much the same.”</p>
<p>“I like it better. Come and have something to drink. I must have
something.”</p>
<p>“I don’t want anything,” murmured the young man.</p>
<p>“Never mind.”</p>
<p>Adrian Singleton rose up wearily and followed Dorian to the bar. A half-caste,
in a ragged turban and a shabby ulster, grinned a hideous greeting as he thrust
a bottle of brandy and two tumblers in front of them. The women sidled up and
began to chatter. Dorian turned his back on them and said something in a low
voice to Adrian Singleton.</p>
<p>A crooked smile, like a Malay crease, writhed across the face of one of the
women. “We are very proud to-night,” she sneered.</p>
<p>“For God’s sake don’t talk to me,” cried Dorian,
stamping his foot on the ground. “What do you want? Money? Here it is.
Don’t ever talk to me again.”</p>
<p>Two red sparks flashed for a moment in the woman’s sodden eyes, then
flickered out and left them dull and glazed. She tossed her head and raked the
coins off the counter with greedy fingers. Her companion watched her enviously.</p>
<p>“It’s no use,” sighed Adrian Singleton. “I don’t
care to go back. What does it matter? I am quite happy here.”</p>
<p>“You will write to me if you want anything, won’t you?” said
Dorian, after a pause.</p>
<p>“Perhaps.”</p>
<p>“Good night, then.”</p>
<p>“Good night,” answered the young man, passing up the steps and
wiping his parched mouth with a handkerchief.</p>
<p>Dorian walked to the door with a look of pain in his face. As he drew the
curtain aside, a hideous laugh broke from the painted lips of the woman who had
taken his money. “There goes the devil’s bargain!” she
hiccoughed, in a hoarse voice.</p>
<p>“Curse you!” he answered, “don’t call me that.”</p>
<p>She snapped her fingers. “Prince Charming is what you like to be called,
ain’t it?” she yelled after him.</p>
<p>The drowsy sailor leaped to his feet as she spoke, and looked wildly round. The
sound of the shutting of the hall door fell on his ear. He rushed out as if in
pursuit.</p>
<p>Dorian Gray hurried along the quay through the drizzling rain. His meeting with
Adrian Singleton had strangely moved him, and he wondered if the ruin of that
young life was really to be laid at his door, as Basil Hallward had said to him
with such infamy of insult. He bit his lip, and for a few seconds his eyes grew
sad. Yet, after all, what did it matter to him? One’s days were too brief
to take the burden of another’s errors on one’s shoulders. Each man
lived his own life and paid his own price for living it. The only pity was one
had to pay so often for a single fault. One had to pay over and over again,
indeed. In her dealings with man, destiny never closed her accounts.</p>
<p>There are moments, psychologists tell us, when the passion for sin, or for what
the world calls sin, so dominates a nature that every fibre of the body, as
every cell of the brain, seems to be instinct with fearful impulses. Men and
women at such moments lose the freedom of their will. They move to their
terrible end as automatons move. Choice is taken from them, and conscience is
either killed, or, if it lives at all, lives but to give rebellion its
fascination and disobedience its charm. For all sins, as theologians weary not
of reminding us, are sins of disobedience. When that high spirit, that morning
star of evil, fell from heaven, it was as a rebel that he fell.</p>
<p>Callous, concentrated on evil, with stained mind, and soul hungry for
rebellion, Dorian Gray hastened on, quickening his step as he went, but as he
darted aside into a dim archway, that had served him often as a short cut to
the ill-famed place where he was going, he felt himself suddenly seized from
behind, and before he had time to defend himself, he was thrust back against
the wall, with a brutal hand round his throat.</p>
<p>He struggled madly for life, and by a terrible effort wrenched the tightening
fingers away. In a second he heard the click of a revolver, and saw the gleam
of a polished barrel, pointing straight at his head, and the dusky form of a
short, thick-set man facing him.</p>
<p>“What do you want?” he gasped.</p>
<p>“Keep quiet,” said the man. “If you stir, I shoot you.”</p>
<p>“You are mad. What have I done to you?”</p>
<p>“You wrecked the life of Sibyl Vane,” was the answer, “and
Sibyl Vane was my sister. She killed herself. I know it. Her death is at your
door. I swore I would kill you in return. For years I have sought you. I had no
clue, no trace. The two people who could have described you were dead. I knew
nothing of you but the pet name she used to call you. I heard it to-night by
chance. Make your peace with God, for to-night you are going to die.”</p>
<p>Dorian Gray grew sick with fear. “I never knew her,” he stammered.
“I never heard of her. You are mad.”</p>
<p>“You had better confess your sin, for as sure as I am James Vane, you are
going to die.” There was a horrible moment. Dorian did not know what to
say or do. “Down on your knees!” growled the man. “I give you
one minute to make your peace—no more. I go on board to-night for India,
and I must do my job first. One minute. That’s all.”</p>
<p>Dorian’s arms fell to his side. Paralysed with terror, he did not know
what to do. Suddenly a wild hope flashed across his brain. “Stop,”
he cried. “How long ago is it since your sister died? Quick, tell
me!”</p>
<p>“Eighteen years,” said the man. “Why do you ask me? What do
years matter?”</p>
<p>“Eighteen years,” laughed Dorian Gray, with a touch of triumph in
his voice. “Eighteen years! Set me under the lamp and look at my
face!”</p>
<p>James Vane hesitated for a moment, not understanding what was meant. Then he
seized Dorian Gray and dragged him from the archway.</p>
<p>Dim and wavering as was the wind-blown light, yet it served to show him the
hideous error, as it seemed, into which he had fallen, for the face of the man
he had sought to kill had all the bloom of boyhood, all the unstained purity of
youth. He seemed little more than a lad of twenty summers, hardly older, if
older indeed at all, than his sister had been when they had parted so many
years ago. It was obvious that this was not the man who had destroyed her life.</p>
<p>He loosened his hold and reeled back. “My God! my God!” he cried,
“and I would have murdered you!”</p>
<p>Dorian Gray drew a long breath. “You have been on the brink of committing
a terrible crime, my man,” he said, looking at him sternly. “Let
this be a warning to you not to take vengeance into your own hands.”</p>
<p>“Forgive me, sir,” muttered James Vane. “I was deceived. A
chance word I heard in that damned den set me on the wrong track.”</p>
<p>“You had better go home and put that pistol away, or you may get into
trouble,” said Dorian, turning on his heel and going slowly down the
street.</p>
<p>James Vane stood on the pavement in horror. He was trembling from head to foot.
After a little while, a black shadow that had been creeping along the dripping
wall moved out into the light and came close to him with stealthy footsteps. He
felt a hand laid on his arm and looked round with a start. It was one of the
women who had been drinking at the bar.</p>
<p>“Why didn’t you kill him?” she hissed out, putting haggard
face quite close to his. “I knew you were following him when you rushed
out from Daly’s. You fool! You should have killed him. He has lots of
money, and he’s as bad as bad.”</p>
<p>“He is not the man I am looking for,” he answered, “and I
want no man’s money. I want a man’s life. The man whose life I want
must be nearly forty now. This one is little more than a boy. Thank God, I have
not got his blood upon my hands.”</p>
<p>The woman gave a bitter laugh. “Little more than a boy!” she
sneered. “Why, man, it’s nigh on eighteen years since Prince
Charming made me what I am.”</p>
<p>“You lie!” cried James Vane.</p>
<p>She raised her hand up to heaven. “Before God I am telling the
truth,” she cried.</p>
<p>“Before God?”</p>
<p>“Strike me dumb if it ain’t so. He is the worst one that comes
here. They say he has sold himself to the devil for a pretty face. It’s
nigh on eighteen years since I met him. He hasn’t changed much since
then. I have, though,” she added, with a sickly leer.</p>
<p>“You swear this?”</p>
<p>“I swear it,” came in hoarse echo from her flat mouth. “But
don’t give me away to him,” she whined; “I am afraid of him.
Let me have some money for my night’s lodging.”</p>
<p>He broke from her with an oath and rushed to the corner of the street, but
Dorian Gray had disappeared. When he looked back, the woman had vanished also.</p>
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