<h2><SPAN name="chap01"></SPAN>I.<br/> IN THE DINGEY OF THE “LADY VAIN.”</h2>
<p>I do not propose to add anything to what has already been written concerning
the loss of the <i>Lady Vain</i>. As everyone knows, she collided with a
derelict when ten days out from Callao. The longboat, with seven of the crew,
was picked up eighteen days after by H. M. gunboat <i>Myrtle</i>, and the story
of their terrible privations has become quite as well known as the far more
horrible <i>Medusa</i> case. But I have to add to the published story of the
<i>Lady Vain</i> another, possibly as horrible and far stranger. It has
hitherto been supposed that the four men who were in the dingey perished, but
this is incorrect. I have the best of evidence for this assertion: I was one of
the four men.</p>
<p>But in the first place I must state that there never were <i>four</i> men in
the dingey,—the number was three. Constans, who was “seen by the
captain to jump into the gig,”<SPAN href="#fn1" name="fnref1"><sup>[1]</sup></SPAN>
luckily for us and unluckily for himself did not reach us. He came down out of
the tangle of ropes under the stays of the smashed bowsprit, some small rope
caught his heel as he let go, and he hung for a moment head downward, and then
fell and struck a block or spar floating in the water. We pulled towards him,
but he never came up.</p>
<p class="footnote">
<SPAN name="fn1"></SPAN> <SPAN href="#fnref1">[1]</SPAN>
<i>Daily News</i>, March 17, 1887.</p>
<p>I say luckily for us he did not reach us, and I might almost say luckily for
himself; for we had only a small beaker of water and some soddened ship’s
biscuits with us, so sudden had been the alarm, so unprepared the ship for any
disaster. We thought the people on the launch would be better provisioned
(though it seems they were not), and we tried to hail them. They could not have
heard us, and the next morning when the drizzle cleared,—which was not
until past midday,—we could see nothing of them. We could not stand up to
look about us, because of the pitching of the boat. The two other men who had
escaped so far with me were a man named Helmar, a passenger like myself, and a
seaman whose name I don’t know,—a short sturdy man, with a stammer.</p>
<p>We drifted famishing, and, after our water had come to an end, tormented by an
intolerable thirst, for eight days altogether. After the second day the sea
subsided slowly to a glassy calm. It is quite impossible for the ordinary
reader to imagine those eight days. He has not, luckily for himself, anything
in his memory to imagine with. After the first day we said little to one
another, and lay in our places in the boat and stared at the horizon, or
watched, with eyes that grew larger and more haggard every day, the misery and
weakness gaining upon our companions. The sun became pitiless. The water ended
on the fourth day, and we were already thinking strange things and saying them
with our eyes; but it was, I think, the sixth before Helmar gave voice to the
thing we had all been thinking. I remember our voices were dry and thin, so
that we bent towards one another and spared our words. I stood out against it
with all my might, was rather for scuttling the boat and perishing together
among the sharks that followed us; but when Helmar said that if his proposal
was accepted we should have drink, the sailor came round to him.</p>
<p>I would not draw lots however, and in the night the sailor whispered to Helmar
again and again, and I sat in the bows with my clasp-knife in my hand, though I
doubt if I had the stuff in me to fight; and in the morning I agreed to
Helmar’s proposal, and we handed halfpence to find the odd man. The lot
fell upon the sailor; but he was the strongest of us and would not abide by it,
and attacked Helmar with his hands. They grappled together and almost stood up.
I crawled along the boat to them, intending to help Helmar by grasping the
sailor’s leg; but the sailor stumbled with the swaying of the boat, and
the two fell upon the gunwale and rolled overboard together. They sank like
stones. I remember laughing at that, and wondering why I laughed. The laugh
caught me suddenly like a thing from without.</p>
<p>I lay across one of the thwarts for I know not how long, thinking that if I had
the strength I would drink sea-water and madden myself to die quickly. And even
as I lay there I saw, with no more interest than if it had been a picture, a
sail come up towards me over the sky-line. My mind must have been wandering,
and yet I remember all that happened, quite distinctly. I remember how my head
swayed with the seas, and the horizon with the sail above it danced up and
down; but I also remember as distinctly that I had a persuasion that I was
dead, and that I thought what a jest it was that they should come too late by
such a little to catch me in my body.</p>
<p>For an endless period, as it seemed to me, I lay with my head on the thwart
watching the schooner (she was a little ship, schooner-rigged fore and aft)
come up out of the sea. She kept tacking to and fro in a widening compass, for
she was sailing dead into the wind. It never entered my head to attempt to
attract attention, and I do not remember anything distinctly after the sight of
her side until I found myself in a little cabin aft. There’s a dim
half-memory of being lifted up to the gangway, and of a big round countenance
covered with freckles and surrounded with red hair staring at me over the
bulwarks. I also had a disconnected impression of a dark face, with
extraordinary eyes, close to mine; but that I thought was a nightmare, until I
met it again. I fancy I recollect some stuff being poured in between my teeth;
and that is all.</p>
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