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<h1>Peter Pan</h1>
<h2 class="no-break">by J. M. Barrie [James Matthew Barrie]</h2>
<h2><SPAN name="chap01"></SPAN>Chapter I.<br/> PETER BREAKS THROUGH</h2>
<p>All children, except one, grow up. They soon know that they will grow up, and
the way Wendy knew was this. One day when she was two years old she was playing
in a garden, and she plucked another flower and ran with it to her mother. I
suppose she must have looked rather delightful, for Mrs. Darling put her hand
to her heart and cried, “Oh, why can’t you remain like this for
ever!” This was all that passed between them on the subject, but
henceforth Wendy knew that she must grow up. You always know after you are two.
Two is the beginning of the end.</p>
<p>Of course they lived at 14, and until Wendy came her mother was the chief one.
She was a lovely lady, with a romantic mind and such a sweet mocking mouth. Her
romantic mind was like the tiny boxes, one within the other, that come from the
puzzling East, however many you discover there is always one more; and her
sweet mocking mouth had one kiss on it that Wendy could never get, though there
it was, perfectly conspicuous in the right-hand corner.</p>
<p>The way Mr. Darling won her was this: the many gentlemen who had been boys when
she was a girl discovered simultaneously that they loved her, and they all ran
to her house to propose to her except Mr. Darling, who took a cab and nipped in
first, and so he got her. He got all of her, except the innermost box and the
kiss. He never knew about the box, and in time he gave up trying for the kiss.
Wendy thought Napoleon could have got it, but I can picture him trying, and
then going off in a passion, slamming the door.</p>
<p>Mr. Darling used to boast to Wendy that her mother not only loved him but
respected him. He was one of those deep ones who know about stocks and shares.
Of course no one really knows, but he quite seemed to know, and he often said
stocks were up and shares were down in a way that would have made any woman
respect him.</p>
<p>Mrs. Darling was married in white, and at first she kept the books perfectly,
almost gleefully, as if it were a game, not so much as a Brussels sprout was
missing; but by and by whole cauliflowers dropped out, and instead of them
there were pictures of babies without faces. She drew them when she should have
been totting up. They were Mrs. Darling’s guesses.</p>
<p>Wendy came first, then John, then Michael.</p>
<p>For a week or two after Wendy came it was doubtful whether they would be able
to keep her, as she was another mouth to feed. Mr. Darling was frightfully
proud of her, but he was very honourable, and he sat on the edge of Mrs.
Darling’s bed, holding her hand and calculating expenses, while she
looked at him imploringly. She wanted to risk it, come what might, but that was
not his way; his way was with a pencil and a piece of paper, and if she
confused him with suggestions he had to begin at the beginning again.</p>
<p>“Now don’t interrupt,” he would beg of her.</p>
<p>“I have one pound seventeen here, and two and six at the office; I can
cut off my coffee at the office, say ten shillings, making two nine and six,
with your eighteen and three makes three nine seven, with five naught naught in
my cheque-book makes eight nine seven—who is that moving?—eight
nine seven, dot and carry seven—don’t speak, my own—and the
pound you lent to that man who came to the door—quiet, child—dot
and carry child—there, you’ve done it!—did I say nine nine
seven? yes, I said nine nine seven; the question is, can we try it for a year
on nine nine seven?”</p>
<p>“Of course we can, George,” she cried. But she was prejudiced in
Wendy’s favour, and he was really the grander character of the two.</p>
<p>“Remember mumps,” he warned her almost threateningly, and off he
went again. “Mumps one pound, that is what I have put down, but I daresay
it will be more like thirty shillings—don’t speak—measles one
five, German measles half a guinea, makes two fifteen six—don’t
waggle your finger—whooping-cough, say fifteen shillings”—and
so on it went, and it added up differently each time; but at last Wendy just
got through, with mumps reduced to twelve six, and the two kinds of measles
treated as one.</p>
<p>There was the same excitement over John, and Michael had even a narrower
squeak; but both were kept, and soon, you might have seen the three of them
going in a row to Miss Fulsom’s Kindergarten school, accompanied by their
nurse.</p>
<p>Mrs. Darling loved to have everything just so, and Mr. Darling had a passion
for being exactly like his neighbours; so, of course, they had a nurse. As they
were poor, owing to the amount of milk the children drank, this nurse was a
prim Newfoundland dog, called Nana, who had belonged to no one in particular
until the Darlings engaged her. She had always thought children important,
however, and the Darlings had become acquainted with her in Kensington Gardens,
where she spent most of her spare time peeping into perambulators, and was much
hated by careless nursemaids, whom she followed to their homes and complained
of to their mistresses. She proved to be quite a treasure of a nurse. How
thorough she was at bath-time, and up at any moment of the night if one of her
charges made the slightest cry. Of course her kennel was in the nursery. She
had a genius for knowing when a cough is a thing to have no patience with and
when it needs stocking around your throat. She believed to her last day in
old-fashioned remedies like rhubarb leaf, and made sounds of contempt over all
this new-fangled talk about germs, and so on. It was a lesson in propriety to
see her escorting the children to school, walking sedately by their side when
they were well behaved, and butting them back into line if they strayed. On
John’s footer days she never once forgot his sweater, and she usually
carried an umbrella in her mouth in case of rain. There is a room in the
basement of Miss Fulsom’s school where the nurses wait. They sat on
forms, while Nana lay on the floor, but that was the only difference. They
affected to ignore her as of an inferior social status to themselves, and she
despised their light talk. She resented visits to the nursery from Mrs.
Darling’s friends, but if they did come she first whipped off
Michael’s pinafore and put him into the one with blue braiding, and
smoothed out Wendy and made a dash at John’s hair.</p>
<p>No nursery could possibly have been conducted more correctly, and Mr. Darling
knew it, yet he sometimes wondered uneasily whether the neighbours talked.</p>
<p>He had his position in the city to consider.</p>
<p>Nana also troubled him in another way. He had sometimes a feeling that she did
not admire him. “I know she admires you tremendously, George,” Mrs.
Darling would assure him, and then she would sign to the children to be
specially nice to father. Lovely dances followed, in which the only other
servant, Liza, was sometimes allowed to join. Such a midget she looked in her
long skirt and maid’s cap, though she had sworn, when engaged, that she
would never see ten again. The gaiety of those romps! And gayest of all was
Mrs. Darling, who would pirouette so wildly that all you could see of her was
the kiss, and then if you had dashed at her you might have got it. There never
was a simpler happier family until the coming of Peter Pan.</p>
<p>Mrs. Darling first heard of Peter when she was tidying up her children’s
minds. It is the nightly custom of every good mother after her children are
asleep to rummage in their minds and put things straight for next morning,
repacking into their proper places the many articles that have wandered during
the day. If you could keep awake (but of course you can’t) you would see
your own mother doing this, and you would find it very interesting to watch
her. It is quite like tidying up drawers. You would see her on her knees, I
expect, lingering humorously over some of your contents, wondering where on
earth you had picked this thing up, making discoveries sweet and not so sweet,
pressing this to her cheek as if it were as nice as a kitten, and hurriedly
stowing that out of sight. When you wake in the morning, the naughtiness and
evil passions with which you went to bed have been folded up small and placed
at the bottom of your mind and on the top, beautifully aired, are spread out
your prettier thoughts, ready for you to put on.</p>
<p>I don’t know whether you have ever seen a map of a person’s mind.
Doctors sometimes draw maps of other parts of you, and your own map can become
intensely interesting, but catch them trying to draw a map of a child’s
mind, which is not only confused, but keeps going round all the time. There are
zigzag lines on it, just like your temperature on a card, and these are
probably roads in the island, for the Neverland is always more or less an
island, with astonishing splashes of colour here and there, and coral reefs and
rakish-looking craft in the offing, and savages and lonely lairs, and gnomes
who are mostly tailors, and caves through which a river runs, and princes with
six elder brothers, and a hut fast going to decay, and one very small old lady
with a hooked nose. It would be an easy map if that were all, but there is also
first day at school, religion, fathers, the round pond, needle-work, murders,
hangings, verbs that take the dative, chocolate pudding day, getting into
braces, say ninety-nine, three-pence for pulling out your tooth yourself, and
so on, and either these are part of the island or they are another map showing
through, and it is all rather confusing, especially as nothing will stand
still.</p>
<p>Of course the Neverlands vary a good deal. John’s, for instance, had a
lagoon with flamingoes flying over it at which John was shooting, while
Michael, who was very small, had a flamingo with lagoons flying over it. John
lived in a boat turned upside down on the sands, Michael in a wigwam, Wendy in
a house of leaves deftly sewn together. John had no friends, Michael had
friends at night, Wendy had a pet wolf forsaken by its parents, but on the
whole the Neverlands have a family resemblance, and if they stood still in a
row you could say of them that they have each other’s nose, and so forth.
On these magic shores children at play are for ever beaching their coracles. We
too have been there; we can still hear the sound of the surf, though we shall
land no more.</p>
<p>Of all delectable islands the Neverland is the snuggest and most compact, not
large and sprawly, you know, with tedious distances between one adventure and
another, but nicely crammed. When you play at it by day with the chairs and
table-cloth, it is not in the least alarming, but in the two minutes before you
go to sleep it becomes very real. That is why there are night-lights.</p>
<p>Occasionally in her travels through her children’s minds Mrs. Darling
found things she could not understand, and of these quite the most perplexing
was the word Peter. She knew of no Peter, and yet he was here and there in John
and Michael’s minds, while Wendy’s began to be scrawled all over
with him. The name stood out in bolder letters than any of the other words, and
as Mrs. Darling gazed she felt that it had an oddly cocky appearance.</p>
<p>“Yes, he is rather cocky,” Wendy admitted with regret. Her mother
had been questioning her.</p>
<p>“But who is he, my pet?”</p>
<p>“He is Peter Pan, you know, mother.”</p>
<p>At first Mrs. Darling did not know, but after thinking back into her childhood
she just remembered a Peter Pan who was said to live with the fairies. There
were odd stories about him, as that when children died he went part of the way
with them, so that they should not be frightened. She had believed in him at
the time, but now that she was married and full of sense she quite doubted
whether there was any such person.</p>
<p>“Besides,” she said to Wendy, “he would be grown up by this
time.”</p>
<p>“Oh no, he isn’t grown up,” Wendy assured her confidently,
“and he is just my size.” She meant that he was her size in both
mind and body; she didn’t know how she knew, she just knew it.</p>
<p>Mrs. Darling consulted Mr. Darling, but he smiled pooh-pooh. “Mark my
words,” he said, “it is some nonsense Nana has been putting into
their heads; just the sort of idea a dog would have. Leave it alone, and it
will blow over.”</p>
<p>But it would not blow over and soon the troublesome boy gave Mrs. Darling quite
a shock.</p>
<p>Children have the strangest adventures without being troubled by them. For
instance, they may remember to mention, a week after the event happened, that
when they were in the wood they had met their dead father and had a game with
him. It was in this casual way that Wendy one morning made a disquieting
revelation. Some leaves of a tree had been found on the nursery floor, which
certainly were not there when the children went to bed, and Mrs. Darling was
puzzling over them when Wendy said with a tolerant smile:</p>
<p>“I do believe it is that Peter again!”</p>
<p>“Whatever do you mean, Wendy?”</p>
<p>“It is so naughty of him not to wipe his feet,” Wendy said,
sighing. She was a tidy child.</p>
<p>She explained in quite a matter-of-fact way that she thought Peter sometimes
came to the nursery in the night and sat on the foot of her bed and played on
his pipes to her. Unfortunately she never woke, so she didn’t know how
she knew, she just knew.</p>
<p>“What nonsense you talk, precious. No one can get into the house without
knocking.”</p>
<p>“I think he comes in by the window,” she said.</p>
<p>“My love, it is three floors up.”</p>
<p>“Were not the leaves at the foot of the window, mother?”</p>
<p>It was quite true; the leaves had been found very near the window.</p>
<p>Mrs. Darling did not know what to think, for it all seemed so natural to Wendy
that you could not dismiss it by saying she had been dreaming.</p>
<p>“My child,” the mother cried, “why did you not tell me of
this before?”</p>
<p>“I forgot,” said Wendy lightly. She was in a hurry to get her
breakfast.</p>
<p>Oh, surely she must have been dreaming.</p>
<p>But, on the other hand, there were the leaves. Mrs. Darling examined them very
carefully; they were skeleton leaves, but she was sure they did not come from
any tree that grew in England. She crawled about the floor, peering at it with
a candle for marks of a strange foot. She rattled the poker up the chimney and
tapped the walls. She let down a tape from the window to the pavement, and it
was a sheer drop of thirty feet, without so much as a spout to climb up by.</p>
<p>Certainly Wendy had been dreaming.</p>
<p>But Wendy had not been dreaming, as the very next night showed, the night on
which the extraordinary adventures of these children may be said to have begun.</p>
<p>On the night we speak of all the children were once more in bed. It happened to
be Nana’s evening off, and Mrs. Darling had bathed them and sung to them
till one by one they had let go her hand and slid away into the land of sleep.</p>
<p>All were looking so safe and cosy that she smiled at her fears now and sat down
tranquilly by the fire to sew.</p>
<p>It was something for Michael, who on his birthday was getting into shirts. The
fire was warm, however, and the nursery dimly lit by three night-lights, and
presently the sewing lay on Mrs. Darling’s lap. Then her head nodded, oh,
so gracefully. She was asleep. Look at the four of them, Wendy and Michael over
there, John here, and Mrs. Darling by the fire. There should have been a fourth
night-light.</p>
<p>While she slept she had a dream. She dreamt that the Neverland had come too
near and that a strange boy had broken through from it. He did not alarm her,
for she thought she had seen him before in the faces of many women who have no
children. Perhaps he is to be found in the faces of some mothers also. But in
her dream he had rent the film that obscures the Neverland, and she saw Wendy
and John and Michael peeping through the gap.</p>
<p>The dream by itself would have been a trifle, but while she was dreaming the
window of the nursery blew open, and a boy did drop on the floor. He was
accompanied by a strange light, no bigger than your fist, which darted about
the room like a living thing and I think it must have been this light that
wakened Mrs. Darling.</p>
<p>She started up with a cry, and saw the boy, and somehow she knew at once that
he was Peter Pan. If you or I or Wendy had been there we should have seen that
he was very like Mrs. Darling’s kiss. He was a lovely boy, clad in
skeleton leaves and the juices that ooze out of trees but the most entrancing
thing about him was that he had all his first teeth. When he saw she was a
grown-up, he gnashed the little pearls at her.</p>
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