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<h2>THE<br/> <br/> DIAL</h2>
<h4>VOLUME LXXVI</h4>
<h5><i>January to June, 1924</i></h5>
<h4>THE DIAL PUBLISHING COMPANY</h4>
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<h4>MARCH 1924</h4>
<h2>DEATH IN VENICE</h2>
<h3>BY THOMAS MANN</h3>
<h4><i>Translated From the German by Kenneth Burke</i></h4>
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<h4>CONTENTS</h4>
<p class="nind">CHAPTER <SPAN href="#I">I</SPAN><br/>
CHAPTER <SPAN href="#II">II</SPAN><br/>
CHAPTER <SPAN href="#III">III</SPAN><br/>
CHAPTER <SPAN href="#IV">IV</SPAN><br/>
CHAPTER <SPAN href="#V">V</SPAN></p>
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<h4><SPAN name="I">I</SPAN></h4>
<p>On a spring afternoon of the year 19—, when our continent lay
under such threatening weather for whole months, Gustav Aschenbach, or
von Aschenbach as his name read officially after his fiftieth birthday,
had left his apartment on the Prinzregentenstrasse in Munich and had
gone for a long walk. Overwrought by the trying and precarious work of
the forenoon—which had demanded a maximum wariness, prudence,
penetration, and rigour of the will—the writer had not been able
even after the noon meal to break the impetus of the productive
mechanism within him, that <i>motus animi continuus</i> which
constitutes, according to Cicero, the foundation of eloquence; and he
had not attained the healing sleep which—what with the increasing
exhaustion of his strength—he needed in the middle of each day. So
he had gone outdoors soon after tea, in the hopes that air and movement
would restore him and prepare him for a profitable evening.</p>
<p>It was the beginning of May, and after cold, damp weeks a false
midsummer had set in. The English Gardens, although the foliage was
still fresh and sparse, were as pungent as in August, and in the parts
nearer the city had been full of conveyances and promenaders. At the
Aumeister, which he had reached by quieter and quieter paths, Aschenbach
had surveyed for a short time the Wirtsgarten with its lively crowds and
its border of cabs and carriages. From here, as the sun was sinking, he
had started home, outside the park, across the open fields; and since he
felt tired and a storm was threatening from the direction of Föhring,
he waited at the North Cemetery for the tram which would take him
directly back to the city.</p>
<p>It happened that he found no one in the station or its vicinity. There
was not a vehicle to be seen, either on the paved Ungererstrasse, with
its solitary glistening rails stretching out towards Schwabing, or on
the Föhringer Chaussee. Behind the fences of the stone-masons'
establishments, where the crosses, memorial tablets, and monuments
standing for sale formed a second, uninhabited burial ground, there was
no sign of life; and opposite him the Byzantine structure of the Funeral
Hall lay silent in the reflection of the departing day; its façade,
ornamented in luminous colours with Greek crosses and hieratic
paintings, above which were displayed inscriptions symmetrically
arranged in gold letters, and texts chosen to bear on the life beyond;
such as, "They enter into the dwelling of the Lord," or, "The light of
eternity shall shine upon them." And for some time as he stood waiting
he found a grave diversion in spelling out the formulas and letting his
mind's eye lose itself in their transparent mysticism, when, returning
from his reveries, he noticed in the portico, above the two apocalyptic
animals guarding the steps, a man whose somewhat unusual appearance gave
his thoughts an entirely new direction.</p>
<p>Whether he had just now come out from the inside through the bronze
door, or had approached and mounted from the outside unobserved,
remained uncertain. Aschenbach, without applying himself especially to
the matter, was inclined to believe the former. Of medium height, thin,
smooth-shaven, and noticeably pug-nosed, the man belonged to the
red-haired type and possessed the appropriate fresh milky complexion.
Obviously, he was not of Bavarian extraction, since at least the white
and straight-brimmed straw hat that covered his head gave his appearance
the stamp of a foreigner, of someone who had come from a long distance.
To be sure, he was wearing the customary knapsack strapped across his
shoulders, and a belted suit of rough yellow wool; his left arm was
resting on his thigh, and his grey storm cape was thrown across it. In
his right hand he held a cane with an iron ferrule, which he had stuck
diagonally into the ground, and, with his feet crossed, was leaning his
hip against the crook. His head was raised so that the Adam's-apple
protruded hard and bare on a scrawny neck emerging from a loose
sport-shirt. And he was staring sharply off into the distance, with
colourless, red-lidded eyes between which stood two strong, vertical
wrinkles peculiarly suited to his short, turned-up nose. Thus—and
perhaps his elevated position helped to give the impression—his
bearing had something majestic and commanding about it, something bold, or
even savage. For whether he was grimacing because he was blinded by the
setting sun, or whether it was a case of a permanent distortion of the
physiognomy, his lips seemed too short, they were so completely pulled
back from his teeth that these were exposed even to the gums, and stood
out white and long.</p>
<p>It is quite possible that Aschenbach, in his half-distracted,
half-inquisitive examination of the stranger, had been somewhat
inconsiderate, for he suddenly became aware that his look was being
answered, and indeed so militantly, so straight in the eye, so plainly
with the intention of driving the thing through to the very end and
compelling him to capitulate, that he turned away uncomfortably and
began walking along by the fences, deciding casually that he would pay
no further attention to the man. The next minute he had forgotten him.
But perhaps the exotic element in the stranger's appearance had worked
on his imagination; or a new physical or spiritual influence of some
sort had come into play. He was quite astonished to note a peculiar
inner expansion, a kind of roving unrest, a youthful longing after
far-off places: a feeling so vivid, so new, or so long dormant and
neglected, that, with his hands behind his back and his eyes on the
ground, he came to a sudden stop, and examined into the nature and
purport of this emotion.</p>
<p>It was the desire for travel, nothing more; although, to be sure, it had
attacked him violently, and was heightened to a passion, even to the
point of an hallucination. His yearnings crystallized; his imagination,
still in ferment from his hours of work, actually pictured all the
marvels and terrors of a manifold world which it was suddenly struggling
to conceive. He saw a landscape, a tropical swampland under a heavy,
murky sky, damp, luxuriant, and enormous, a kind of prehistoric
wilderness of islands, bogs, and arms of water, sluggish with mud; he
saw, near him and in the distance, the hairy shafts of palms rising out
of a rank lecherous thicket, out of places where the plant-life was fat,
swollen, and blossoming exorbitantly; he saw strangely misshapen trees
sending their roots into the ground, into stagnant pools with greenish
reflections; and here, between floating flowers which were milk-white
and large as dishes, birds of a strange nature, high-shouldered, with
crooked bills, were standing in the muck, and looking motionlessly to
one side; between dense, knotted stalks of bamboo he saw the glint from
the eyes of a crouching tiger—and he felt his heart knocking with
fear and with puzzling desires. Then the image disappeared; and with a
shake of his head Aschenbach resumed his walk along past the fences of the
stone-masons' establishments.</p>
<p>Since the time, at least, when he could command the means to enjoy the
advantages of moving about the world as he pleased, he had considered
travelling simply as an hygienic precaution which must be complied with
now and then despite one's feelings and one's preferences. Too busy with
the tasks arranged for him by his interest in his own ego and in the
problems of Europe, too burdened with the onus of production, too little
prone to diversion, and in no sense an amateur of the varied amusements
of the great world, he had been thoroughly satisfied with such knowledge
of the earth's surface as any one can get without moving far out of his
own circle; and he had never even been tempted to leave Europe.
Especially now that his life was slowly on the decline, and that the
artist's fear of not having finished—this uneasiness lest the
clock run down before he had done his part and given himself
completely—could no longer be waived aside as a mere whim, he had
confined his outer existence almost exclusively to the beautiful city
which had become his home and to the rough country house which he had
built in the mountains and where he spent the rainy summers.</p>
<p>Further, this thing which had laid hold of him so belatedly, but with
such suddenness, was very readily moderated and adjusted by the force of
his reason and of a discipline which he had practised since youth. He
had intended carrying his life work forward to a certain point before
removing to the country. And the thought of knocking about the world for
months and neglecting his work during this time, seemed much too lax and
contrary to his plans; it really could not be considered seriously. Yet
he knew only too well what the reasons were for this unexpected
temptation. It was the urge to escape—he admitted to
himself—this yearning for the new and the remote, this appetite
for freedom, for unburdening, for forgetfulness; it was a pressure away
from his work, from the steady drudgery of a coldly passionate service.
To be sure, he loved this work and almost loved the enervating battle
that was fought daily between a proud tenacious will—so often
tested—and this growing weariness which no one was to suspect and
which must not betray itself in his productions by any sign of weakness
or negligence. But it seemed wise not to draw the bow overtightly, and
not to strangle by sheer obstinacy so strongly persistent an appetite.
He thought of his work, thought of the place at which yesterday and now
again to-day he had been forced to leave off, and which, it seemed,
would yield neither to patience and coaxing nor to a definite attack. He
examined it again, trying to break through or to circumvent the
deadlock, but he gave up with a shudder of repugnance. There was no
unusual difficulty here; what balked him were the scruples of aversion,
which took the form of a fastidious insatiability. Even as a young man
this insatiability had meant to him the very nature, the fullest
essence, of talent; and for that reason he had restrained and chilled
his emotions, since he was aware that they incline to content themselves
with a happy approximation, a state of semi-completion. Were these
enslaved emotions now taking their vengeance on him, by leaving him in
the lurch, by refusing to forward and lubricate his art; and were they
bearing off with them every enjoyment, every live interest in form and
expression?</p>
<p>Not that he was producing anything bad; his years gave him at least this
advantage, that he felt himself at all times in full and easy possession
of his craftsmanship. But while the nation honoured him for this, he
himself was not content; and it seemed to him that his work lacked the
marks of that fiery and fluctuating emotionalism which is an enormous
thing in one's favour, and which, while it argues an enjoyment on the
part of the author, also constitutes, more than any depth of content,
the enjoyment of the amateur. He feared the summer in the country, alone
in the little house with the maid who prepared his meals, and the
servant who brought them to him. He feared the familiar view of the
mountain peaks and the slopes which would stand about him in his boredom
and his discontent. Consequently there was need of a break in some new
direction. If the summer was to be endurable and productive, he must
attempt something out of his usual orbit; he must relax, get a change of
air, bring an element of freshness into the blood. To travel,
then—that much was settled. Not far, not all the way to the
tigers. But one night on the sleeper, and a rest of three or four weeks
at some pleasant popular resort in the South. . . .</p>
<p>He thought this out while the noise of the electric tram came nearer
along the Ungererstrasse; and as he boarded it he decided to devote the
evening to the study of maps and time-tables. On the platform it
occurred to him to look around for the man in the straw hat, his
companion during that most significant time spent waiting at the
station. But his whereabouts remained uncertain, as he was not to be
seen either at the place where he was formerly standing, or anywhere
else in the vicinity of the station, or on the car itself.</p>
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<h4><SPAN name="II">II</SPAN></h4>
<p>The author of that lucid and powerful prose epic built around the life
of Frederick of Prussia; the tenacious artist who, after long
application, wove rich, varied strands of human destiny together under
one single predominating theme in the fictional tapestry known as Maya;
the creator of that stark tale which is called The Wretch and which
pointed out for an entire oncoming generation the possibility of some
moral certainty beyond pure knowledge; finally, the writer (and this
sums up briefly the works of his mature period) of the impassioned
treatise on Art and the Spirit, whose capacity for mustering facts, and,
further, whose fluency in their presentation, led cautious judges to
place this treatise alongside Schiller's conclusions on naïve and
sentimental poetry—Gustav Aschenbach, then, was the son of a
higher law official, and was born in L——, a leading city in
the Province of Silesia. His forbears had been officers, magistrates,
government functionaries, men who had led severe, steady lives serving
their king, their state. A deeper strain of spirituality had been
manifest in them once, in the person of a preacher; the preceding
generation had brought a brisker, more sensuous blood into the family
through the author's mother, daughter of a Bohemian band-master. The
traces of foreignness in his features came from her. A marriage of sober
painstaking conscientiousness with impulses of a darker, more fiery
nature had had an artist as its result, and this particular artist.</p>
<p>Since his whole nature was centred around acquiring a reputation, he
showed himself, if not exactly precocious, at least (thanks to the
firmness and pithiness of his personality, his accent) ripened and
adjusted to the public at an early age. Almost as a schoolboy he had
made a name for himself. Within ten years he had learned to face the
world through the medium of his writing-table, to discharge the
obligations of his fame in a correspondence which (since many claims are
pressed on the successful, the trustworthy) had to be brief as well as
pleasant and to the point. At forty, wearied by the vicissitudes and the
exertion of his own work, he had to manage a daily mail which bore the
postmarks of countries in all parts of the world.</p>
<p>Equally removed from the banal and the eccentric, his talents were so
constituted as to gain both the confidence of the general public and the
stable admiration and sympathy of the critical. Thus even as a young man
continually devoted to the pursuit of craftsmanship—and that of no
ordinary kind—he had never known the careless freedom of youth. When,
around thirty-five years of age, he had been taken ill in Vienna, one
sharp observer said of him in company, "You see, Aschenbach has always
lived like this," and the speaker contracted the fingers of his left
hand into a fist; "never like this," and he let his open hand droop
comfortably from the arm of his chair. That hit the mark; and the
heroic, the ethical about it all was that he was not of a strong
constitution, and though he was pledged by his nature to these steady
efforts, he was not really born to them.</p>
<p>Considerations of ill-health had kept him from attending school as a
boy, and had compelled him to receive instruction at home. He had grown
up alone, without comrades—and he was forced to realize soon enough
that he belonged to a race which often lacked, not talent, but that
physical substructure which talent relies on for its fullest fruition: a
race accustomed to giving its best early, and seldom extending its
faculties over the years. But his favourite phrase was "carrying
through"; in his novel on Frederick he saw the pure apotheosis of this
command, which struck him as the essential concept of the virtuous in
action and passion. Also, he wished earnestly to grow old, since he had
always maintained that the only artistry which can be called truly
great, comprehensive, yes even truly admirable, is that which is
permitted to bear fruits characteristic of each stage in human
development.</p>
<p>Since he must carry the responsibilities of his talent on frail
shoulders, and wanted to go a long way, the primary requirement was
discipline—and fortunately discipline was his direct inheritance from
his father's side. By forty, fifty, or at an earlier age when others are
still slashing about with enthusiasm, and are contentedly putting off to
some later date the execution of plans on a large scale, he would start
the day early, dashing cold water over his chest and back, and then with
a couple of tall wax candles in silver candlesticks at the head of his
manuscript, he would pay out to his art, in two or three eager,
scrupulous morning hours, the strength which he had accumulated in
sleep. It was pardonable, indeed it was a direct tribute to the
effectiveness of his moral scheme, that the uninitiated took his Maya
world, and the massive epic machinery upon which the life of the hero
Frederick was unrolled, as evidence of long breath and sustaining power.
While actually they had been built up layer by layer, in small daily
allotments, through hundreds and hundreds of single inspirations. And if
they were so excellent in both composition and texture, it was solely
because their creator had held out for years under the strain of one
single work, with a steadiness of will and a tenacity comparable to that
which conquered his native province; and because, finally, he had turned
over his most vital and valuable hours to the problem of minute
revision.</p>
<p>In order that a significant work of the mind may exert immediately some
broad and deep effect, a secret relationship, or even conformity, must
exist between the personal destiny of the author and the common destiny
of his contemporaries. People do not know why they raise a work of art
to fame. Far from being connoisseurs, they believe that they see in it
hundreds of virtues which justify so much interest; but the true reason
for their applause is an unconscious sympathy. Aschenbach had once
stated quite plainly in some remote place that nearly everything great
which comes into being does so in spite of something—in spite of
sorrow or suffering, poverty, destitution, physical weakness, depravity,
passion, or a thousand other handicaps. But that was not merely an
observation; it was a discovery, the formula of his life and reputation,
the key to his work. And what wonder then that it was also the
distinguishing moral trait, the dominating gesture, of his most
characteristic figures?</p>
<p>Years before, one shrewd analyst had written of the new hero-type to
which this author gave preference, and which kept turning up in
variations of one sort or another: he called it the conception of "an
intellectual and youthful masculinity" which "stands motionless,
haughty, ashamed, with jaw set, while swords and spear-points beset the
body." That was beautiful and ingenious; and it was exact, although it
may have seemed to suggest too much passivity. For to be poised against
fatality, to meet adverse conditions gracefully, is more than simple
endurance; it is an act of aggression, a positive triumph—and the
figure of Sebastian is the most beautiful figure, if not of art as a
whole, at least of the art of literature. Looking into this fictional
world, one saw: a delicate self-mastery by which any inner
deterioration, any biological decay was kept concealed from the eyes of
the world; a crude, vicious sensuality capable of fanning its rising
passions into pure flame, yes, even of mounting to dominance in the
realm of beauty; a pallid weakness which draws from the glowing depths
of the soul the strength to bow whole arrogant peoples before the foot
of the cross, or before the feet of weakness itself; a charming manner
maintained in his cold, strict service to form; a false, precarious mode
of living, and the keenly enervating melancholy and artifice of the born
deceiver—to observe such trials as this was enough to make one
question whether there really was any heroism other than weakness. And in
any case, what heroism could be more in keeping with the times? Gustav
Aschenbach was the one poet among the many workers on the verge of
exhaustion: all those over-burdened, used-up, tenacious moralists of
production who, delicately built and destitute of means, can rely for a
time at least on will-power and the shrewd husbandry of their resources
to secure the effects of greatness. There are many such: they are the
heroes of the period. And they all found themselves in his works; here
they were indeed, upheld, intensified, applauded; they were grateful to
him, they acclaimed him.</p>
<p>In his time he had been young and raw; and misled by his age he had
blundered in public. He had stumbled, had exposed himself; both in
writing and in talk he had offended against caution and tact. But he had
acquired the dignity which, as he insisted, is the innate goad and
craving of every great talent; in fact, it could be said that his entire
development had been a conscious undeviating progression away from the
embarrassments of scepticism and irony, and towards dignity.</p>
<p>The general masses are satisfied by vigour and tangibility of treatment
rather than by any close intellectual processes; but youth, with its
passion for the absolute, can be arrested only by the problematical. And
Aschenbach had been absolute, problematical, as only a youth could be.
He had been a slave to the intellect, had played havoc with knowledge,
had ground up his seed crops, had divulged secrets, had discredited
talent, had betrayed art—yes, while his modellings were entertaining
the faithful votaries, filling them with enthusiasm, making their lives
more keen, this youthful artist was taking the breath away from the
generation then in its twenties by his cynicisms on the questionable
nature of art, and of artistry itself.</p>
<p>But it seems that nothing blunts the edge of a noble, robust mind more
quickly and more thoroughly than the sharp and bitter corrosion of
knowledge; and certainly the moody radicalism of the youth, no matter
how conscientious, was shallow in comparison with his firm determination
as an older man and a master to deny knowledge, to reject it, to pass it
with raised head, in so far as it is capable of crippling, discouraging,
or degrading to the slightest degree, our will, acts, feelings, or even
passions. How else could the famous story of The Wretch be understood
than as an outburst of repugnance against the disreputable psychologism
of the times: embodied in the figure of that soft and stupid half-clown
who pilfers a destiny for himself by guiding his wife (from
powerlessness, from lasciviousness, from ethical frailty) into the arms
of an adolescent, and believes that he may through profundity commit
vileness? The verbal pressure with which he here cast out the outcast
announced the return from every moral scepticism, from all
fellow-feeling with the engulfed: it was the counter-move to the laxity
of the sympathetic principle that to understand all is to forgive
all—and the thing that was here well begun, even nearly completed,
was that "miracle of reborn ingenuousness" which was taken up a little
later in one of the author's dialogues expressly and not without a
certain discreet emphasis. Strange coincidences! Was it as a result of
this rebirth, this new dignity and sternness, that his feeling for
beauty—a discriminating purity, simplicity, and evenness of attack
which henceforth gave his productions such an obvious, even such a
deliberate stamp of mastery and classicism—showed an almost
excessive strengthening about this time? But ethical resoluteness
in the exclusion of science, of emancipatory and restrictive
knowledge—does this not in turn signify a simplification, a
reduction morally of the world to too limited terms, and thus also a
strengthened capacity for the forbidden, the evil, the morally
impossible? And does not form have two aspects? Is it not moral and
unmoral at once—moral in that it is the result and expression of
discipline, but unmoral, and even immoral, in that by nature it contains
an indifference to morality, is calculated, in fact, to make morality
bend beneath its proud and unencumbered sceptre?</p>
<p>Be that as it may. An evolution is a destiny; and why should his
evolution, which had been upheld by the general confidence of a vast
public, not run through a different course from one accomplished outside
the lustre and the entanglements of fame? Only chronic vagabondage will
find it tedious and be inclined to scoff when a great talent outgrows
the libertine chrysalis-stage, learns to seize upon and express the
dignity of the mind, and superimposes a formal etiquette upon a solitude
which had been filled with unchastened and rigidly isolated sufferings
and struggles and had brought all this to a point of power and honour
among men. Further, how much sport, defiance, indulgence there is in the
self-formation of a talent! Gradually something official, didactic crept
into Gustav Aschenbach's productions, his style in later life fought shy
of any abruptness and boldness, any subtle and unexpected contrasts; he
inclined towards the fixed and standardized, the conventionally elegant,
the conservative, the formal, the formulated, nearly. And, as is
traditionally said of Louis XIV, with the advancing years he came to
omit every common word from his vocabulary. At about this time it
happened that the educational authorities included selected pages by him
in their prescribed school readers. This was deeply sympathetic to his
nature, and he did not decline when a German prince who had just mounted
to the throne raised the author of the Frederick to nobility on the
occasion of his fiftieth birthday. After a few years of unrest, a few
tentative stopping-places here and there, he soon chose Munich as his
permanent home, and lived there in a state of middle-class
respectability such as fits in with the life of the mind in certain
individual instances. The marriage which, when still young, he had
contracted with a girl of an educated family came to an end with her
death after a short period of happiness. He was left with a daughter,
now married. He had never had a son.</p>
<p>Gustav von Aschenbach was somewhat below average height, dark, and
smooth-shaven. His head seemed a bit too large in comparison with his
almost dapper figure. His hair was brushed straight back, thinning out
towards the crown, but very full about the temples, and strongly marked
with grey; it framed a high, ridged forehead. Gold spectacles with
rimless lenses cut into the bridge of his bold, heavy nose. The mouth
was big, sometimes drooping, sometimes suddenly pinched and firm. His
cheeks were thin and wrinkled, his well-formed chin had a slight cleft.
This head, usually bent patiently to one side, seemed to have gone
through momentous experiences, and yet it was his art which had produced
those effects in his face, effects which are elsewhere the result of
hard and agitated living. Behind this brow the brilliant repartee of the
dialogue on war between Voltaire and the king had been born; these eyes,
peering steadily and wearily from behind their glasses, had seen the
bloody inferno of the lazaret in the Seven Years' War. Even as it
applies to the individual, art is a heightened mode of existence. It
gives deeper pleasures, it consumes more quickly. It carves into its
servants' faces the marks of imaginary and spiritual adventures, and
though their external activities may be as quiet as a cloister, it
produces a lasting voluptuousness, over-refinement, fatigue, and
curiosity of the nerves such as can barely result from a life filled
with illicit passions and enjoyments.</p>
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<h4><SPAN name="III">III</SPAN></h4>
<p>Various matters of a literary and social nature delayed his departure
until about two weeks after that walk in Munich. Finally he gave orders
to have his country house ready for occupancy within a month; and one
day between the middle and the end of May he took the night train for
Trieste, where he made a stop-over of only twenty-four hours, and
embarked the following morning for Pola.</p>
<p>What he was hunting was something foreign and unrelated to himself which
would at the same time be quickly within reach; and so he stopped at an
island in the Adriatic which had become well-known in recent years. It
lay not far off the Istrian coast, with beautifully rugged cliffs
fronting the open sea, and natives who dressed in variegated tatters and
made strange sounds when they spoke. But rain and a heavy atmosphere, a
provincial and exclusively Austrian patronage at the hotel, and the lack
of that restfully intimate association with the sea which can be gotten
only by a soft, sandy beach, irritated him, and prevented him from
feeling that he had found the place he was looking for. Something within
was disturbing him, and drawing him he was not sure where. He studied
sailing dates, he looked about him questioningly, and of a sudden, as a
thing both astounding and self-evident, his goal was before him. If you
wanted to reach over night the unique, the fabulously different, where
did you go? But that was plain. What was he doing here? He had lost the
trail. He had wanted to go there. He did not delay in giving notice of
his mistake in stopping here. In the early morning mist, a week and a
half after his arrival on the island, a fast motorboat was carrying him
and his luggage back over the water to the naval port, and he landed
there just long enough to cross the gangplank to the damp deck of a ship
which was lying under steam ready for the voyage to Venice.</p>
<p>It was an old hulk flying the Italian flag, decrepit, sooty, and
mournful. In a cave-like, artificially lighted inside cabin where
Aschenbach, immediately upon boarding the ship, was conducted by a dirty
hunchbacked sailor who smirked politely, there was sitting behind a
table, his hat cocked over his forehead and a cigarette stump in the
corner of his mouth, a man with a goatee, and with the face of an
old-style circus director, who was taking down the particulars of the
passengers with professional grimaces and distributing the tickets. "To
Venice!" he repeated Aschenbach's request, as he extended his arm and
plunged his pen into the pasty dregs of a precariously tilted inkwell.
"To Venice, first class! At your service, sir." And he wrote a generous
scrawl, sprinkled it with blue sand out of a box, let the sand run off
into a clay bowl, folded the paper with sallow, bony fingers, and began
writing again. "A happily chosen destination!" he chatted on. "Ah,
Venice! A splendid city! A city of irresistible attractiveness for the
educated on account of its history as well as its present-day charms!"
The smooth rapidity of his movements and the empty words accompanying
them had something anaesthetic and reassuring about them, much as though
he feared lest the traveller might still be vacillating in his decision
to go to Venice. He handled the cash briskly, and let the change fall on
the spotted table-cover with the skill of a croupier. "A pleasant
journey, sir!" he said with a theatrical bow. "Gentlemen, I have the
honour of serving you!" he called out immediately after, with his arm
upraised, and he acted as if business were in full swing, although no
one else was there to require his attention. Aschenbach returned to the
deck.</p>
<p>With one arm on the railing, he watched the passengers on board and the
idlers who loitered around the dock waiting for the ship to sail. The
second class passengers, men and women, were huddled together on the
foredeck, using boxes and bundles as seats. A group of young people made
up the travellers on the first deck, clerks from Pola, it seemed, who
had gathered in the greatest excitement for an excursion to Italy. They
made a considerable fuss about themselves and their enterprise,
chattered, laughed, enjoyed their own antics self-contentedly, and,
leaning over the hand-rails, shouted flippantly and mockingly at their
comrades who, with portfolios under their arms, were going up and down
the waterfront on business and kept threatening the picnickers with
their canes. One, in a bright yellow summer suit of ultra-fashionable
cut, with a red necktie, and a rakishly tilted panama, surpassed all the
others in his crowing good humour. But as soon as Aschenbach looked at
him a bit more carefully, he discovered with a kind of horror that the
youth was a cheat. He was old, that was unquestionable. There were
wrinkles around his eyes and mouth. The faint crimson of the cheeks was
paint, the hair under his brilliantly decorated straw hat was a wig; his
neck was hollow and stringy, his turned-up moustache and the imperial on
his chin were dyed; the full set of yellow teeth which he displayed when
he laughed, a cheap artificial plate; and his hands, with signet rings
on both index fingers, were those of an old man. Fascinated with
loathing, Aschenbach watched him in his intercourse with his friends.
Did they not know, did they not observe that he was old, that he was not
entitled to wear their bright, foppish clothing, that he was not
entitled to play at being one of them? Unquestioningly, and as quite the
usual thing, it seemed, they allowed him among them, treating him as one
of their own kind and returning his jovial nudges in the ribs without
repugnance. How could that be? Aschenbach laid his hand on his forehead
and closed his eyes; they were hot, since he had had too little sleep.
He felt as though everything were not quite the same as usual, as though
some dream-like estrangement, some peculiar distortion of the world,
were beginning to take possession of him, and perhaps this could be
stopped if he hid his face for a time and then looked around him again.
Yet at this moment he felt as though he were swimming; and looking up
with an unreasoned fear, he discovered that the heavy, lugubrious body
of the ship was separating slowly from the walled bank. Inch by inch,
with the driving and reversing of the engine, the strip of dirty
glistening water widened between the dock and the side of the ship; and
after cumbersome manoeuvring, the steamer finally turned its nose
towards the open sea. Aschenbach crossed to the starboard side, where
the hunchback had set up a deck-chair for him, and a steward in a
spotted dress-coat asked after his wants.</p>
<p>The sky was grey, the wind damp. Harbour and islands had been left
behind, and soon all land was lost in the haze. Flakes of coal dust,
bloated with moisture, fell over the washed deck, which would not dry.
After the first hour an awning was spread, since it had begun to rain.</p>
<p>Bundled up in his coat, a book in his lap, the traveller rested, and the
hours passed unnoticed. It stopped raining; the canvas awning was
removed. The horizon was unbroken. The sea, empty, like an enormous
disk, lay stretched under the curve of the sky. But in empty
inarticulate space our senses lose also the dimensions of time, and we
slip into the incommensurate. As he rested, strange shadowy figures, the
old dandy, the goatee from the inside cabin, passed through his mind,
with vague gestures, muddled dream-words—and he was asleep.</p>
<p>About noon he was called to a meal down in the corridor-like dining-hall
into which the doors opened from the sleeping-cabins; he ate near the
head of a long table, at the other end of which the clerks including the
old man had been drinking with the boisterous captain since ten o'clock.
The food was poor, and he finished rapidly. He felt driven outside to
look at the sky, to see if it showed signs of being brighter above
Venice.</p>
<p>He had kept thinking that this had to occur, since the city had always
received him in full blaze. But sky and sea remained dreary and leaden,
at times a misty rain fell, and here he was reaching by water a
different Venice than he had ever found when approaching on land. He
stood by the forestays, looking in the distance, waiting for land. He
thought of the heavy-hearted, enthusiastic poet for whom the domes and
bell towers of his dreams had once risen out of these waters; he relived
in silence some of that reverence, happiness, and sorrow which had been
turned then into cautious song; and easily susceptible to sensations
already moulded, he asked himself wearily and earnestly whether some new
enchantment and distraction, some belated adventure of the emotions,
might still be held in store for this idle traveller.</p>
<p>Then the flat coast emerged on the right; the sea was alive with fishing
smacks; the bathers' island appeared; it dropped behind to the left, the
steamer slowly entered the narrow port which is named after it; and on
the lagoon, facing gay ramshackle houses, it stopped completely, since
it had to wait for the barque of the health department.</p>
<p>An hour passed before it appeared. He had arrived, and yet he had not;
no one was in any hurry, no one was driven by impatience. The young men
from Pola, patriotically attracted by the military bugle calls which
rang over the water from the vicinity of the public gardens, had come on
deck, and warmed by their Asti, they burst out with cheers for the
drilling <i>bersagliere.</i> But it was repulsive to see what a state the
primped-up old man had been brought to by his comradeship with youth.
His old head was not able to resist its wine like the young and robust:
he was painfully drunk. With glazed eyes, a cigarette between his
trembling fingers, he stood in one place, swaying backwards and forwards
from giddiness, and balancing himself laboriously. Since he would have
fallen at the first step, he did not trust himself from the spot—yet
he showed a deplorable insolence, buttonholed everyone who came near him,
stammered, winked, and tittered, lifted his wrinkled, ornamented index
finger in a stupid attempt at bantering, while he licked the corers of
his mouth with his tongue in the most abominably suggestive manner.
Aschenbach observed him darkly, and a feeling of numbness came over him
again, as though the world were displaying a faint but irresistible
tendency to distort itself into the peculiar and the grotesque: a
feeling which circumstances prevented him from surrendering himself to
completely, for just then the pounding activity of the engines commenced
again, and the ship, resuming a voyage which had been interrupted so
near its completion, passed through the San Marco canal.</p>
<p>So he saw it again, the most remarkable of landing places, that blinding
composition of fantastic buildings which the Republic lays out before
the eyes of approaching seafarers: the soft splendour of the palace, the
Bridge of Sighs, on the bank the columns with lion and saint, the
advancing, showy flank of the enchanted temple, the glimpse through to
the archway, and the huge giant clock. And as he looked on he thought
that to reach Venice by land, on the rail-road, was like entering a
palace from the rear, and that the most unreal of cities should not be
approached except as he was now doing, by ship, over the high seas.</p>
<p>The engine stopped, gondolas pressed in, the gangway was let down,
customs officials climbed on board and discharged their duties
perfunctorily; the disembarking could begin. Aschenbach made it
understood that he wanted a gondola to take him and his luggage to the
dock of those little steamers which ply between the city and the Lido,
since he intended to locate near the sea. His plans were complied with,
his wants were shouted down to the water, where the gondoliers were
wrangling with one another in dialect. He was still hindered from
descending; he was hindered by his trunk, which was being pulled and
dragged with difficulty down the ladder-like steps. So that for some
minutes he was not able to avoid the importunities of the atrocious old
man, whose drunkenness gave him a sinister desire to do the foreigner
parting honours. "We wish you a very agreeable visit," he bleated as he
made an awkward bow. "We leave with pleasant recollections! <i>Au revoir,
excusez</i>, and <i>bon jour</i>, your excellency!" His mouth watered, he
pressed his eyes shut, he licked the corners of his mouth, and the dyed
imperial turned up about his senile lips. "Our compliments," he mumbled,
with two fingertips on his mouth, "our compliments to our sweetheart,
the dearest prettiest sweetheart . . ." And suddenly his false upper
teeth fell down on his lower lip. Aschenbach was able to escape. "To our
sweetheart, our handsome sweetheart," he heard the cooing, hollow,
stuttering voice behind him, while supporting himself against the
handrail, he went down the gang-way.</p>
<p>Who would not have to suppress a fleeting shudder, a vague timidity and
uneasiness, if it were a matter of boarding a Venetian gondola for the
first time or after several years? The strange craft, an entirely
unaltered survival from the times of balladry, with that peculiar blackness
which is found elsewhere only in coffins—it suggests silent,
criminal adventures in the rippling night, it suggests even more
strongly death itself, the bier and the mournful funeral, and the last
silent journey. And has it been observed that the seat of such a barque,
this arm-chair of coffin-black veneer and dull black upholstery, is the
softest, most luxuriant, most lulling seat in the world? Aschenbach
noted this when he had relaxed at the feet of the gondolier, opposite
his luggage, which lay neatly assembled on the prow. The rowers were
still wrangling, harshly, incomprehensibly, with threatening gestures.
But the strange silence of this canal city seemed to soften their
voices, to disembody them, and dissipate them over the water. It was
warm here in the harbour. Touched faintly by the warm breeze of the
sirocco, leaning back against the limber portions of the cushions, the
traveller closed his eyes in the enjoyment of a lassitude which was as
unusual with him as it was sweet. The trip would be short, he thought;
if only it went on for ever! He felt himself glide with a gentle motion
away from the crowd and the confusion of voices.</p>
<p>It became quieter and quieter around him! There was nothing to be heard
but the splashing of the oar, the hollow slapping of the waves against
the prow of the boat as it stood above the water black and bold and
armed with its halberd-like tip, and a third sound, of speaking, of
whispering—the whispering of the gondolier, who was talking to
himself between his teeth, fitfully, in words that were pressed out by the
exertion of his arms. Aschenbach looked up, and was slightly astonished
to discover that the lagoon was widening, and he was headed for the open
sea. This seemed to indicate that he ought not to rest too much, but
should see to it that his wishes were carried out.</p>
<p>"To the steamer dock!" he repeated, turning around completely and
looking into the face of the gondolier who stood behind on a raised
platform and towered up between him and the dun-coloured sky. He was a
man of unpleasant, even brutal, appearance, dressed in sailor blue, with
a yellow sash; a formless straw hat, its weave partially unravelled, was
tilted insolently on his head. The set of his face, the blond curly
moustache beneath a curtly turned-up nose, undoubtedly meant that he was
not Italian. Although of somewhat frail build, so that one would not
have thought him especially well suited to his trade, he handled the oar
with great energy, throwing his entire body into each stroke.
Occasionally, he drew back his lips from the exertion, and disclosed his
white teeth. Wrinkling his reddish brows, he gazed on past his
passenger, as he answered deliberately, almost gruffly: "You are going
to the Lido." Aschenbach replied: "Of course. But I have just taken the
gondola to get me across to San Marco. I want to use the
<i>vaporetto.</i>"</p>
<p>"You cannot use the <i>vaporetto</i>, sir."</p>
<p>"And why not?"</p>
<p>"Because the <i>vaporetto</i> will not haul luggage."</p>
<p>That was so; Aschenbach remembered. He was silent. But the fellow's
harsh, presumptuous manner, so unusual towards a foreigner here, seemed
unbearable. He said: "That is my affair. Perhaps I want to put my things
in storage. You will turn back." There was silence. The oar splashed,
the water thudded against the bow. And the talking and whispering began
again. The gondolier was talking to himself between his teeth.</p>
<p>What was to be done? This man was strangely insolent, and had an uncanny
decisiveness; the traveller, alone with him on the water, saw no way of
getting what he wanted. And besides, how softly he could rest, if only
he did not become excited! Hadn't he wanted the trip to go on and on for
ever? It was wisest to let things take their course, and the main thing
was that he was comfortable. The poison of inertia seemed to be issuing
from the seat, from this low, black-upholstered arm-chair, so gently
cradled by the oar strokes of the imperious gondolier behind him. The
notion that he had fallen into the hands of a criminal passed dreamily
across Aschenbach's mind—without the ability to summon his thoughts
to an active defence. The possibility that it was all simply a plan for
cheating him seemed more abhorrent. A feeling of duty or pride, a kind
of recollection that one should prevent such things, gave him the
strength to arouse himself once more. He asked: "What are you asking for
the trip?"</p>
<p>Looking down upon him, the gondolier answered: "You will pay."</p>
<p>It was plain how this should be answered. Aschenbach said mechanically:
"I shall pay nothing, absolutely nothing, if you don't take me where I
want to go."</p>
<p>"You want to go to the Lido."</p>
<p>"But not with you."</p>
<p>"I am rowing you well."</p>
<p>That is so, Aschenbach thought, and relaxed. That is so; you are rowing
me well. Even if you do have designs on my cash, and send me down to
Pluto with a blow of your oar from behind, you will have rowed me well.</p>
<p>But nothing like that happened. They were even joined by others: a
boatload of musical brigands, men and women, who sang to guitar and
mandolin, riding persistently side by side with the gondola and filling
the silence over the water with their covetous foreign poetry. A hat was
held out, and Aschenbach threw in money. Then they stopped singing, and
rowed away. And again the muttering of the gondolier could be heard as
he talked fitfully and jerkily to himself.</p>
<p>So they arrived, tossed in the wake of a steamer plying towards the
city. Two municipal officers, their hands behind their backs, their
faces turned in the direction of the lagoon, were walking back and forth
on the bank. Aschenbach left the gondola at the dock, supported by that
old man who is stationed with his grappling hook at each one of Venice's
landing-places. And since he had no small money, he crossed over to the
hotel by the steamer wharf to get change and pay the rower what was due
him. He got what he wanted in the lobby, he returned and found his
travelling bags in a cart on the dock, and gondola and gondolier had
vanished.</p>
<p>"He got out in a hurry," said the old man with the grappling hook. "A
bad man, a man without a license, sir. He is the only gondolier who
doesn't have a license. The others telephoned here."</p>
<p>Aschenbach shrugged his shoulders.</p>
<p>"The gentleman rode for nothing," the old man said, and held out his
hat. Aschenbach tossed in a coin. He gave instructions to have his
luggage taken to the beach hotel, and followed the cart through the
avenue, the white-blossomed avenue which, lined on both sides with
taverns, shops, and boarding houses, runs across the island to the
shore.</p>
<p>He entered the spacious hotel from the rear, by the terraced garden, and
passed through the vestibule and the lobby until he reached the desk.
Since he had been announced, he was received with obliging promptness. A
manager, a small frail flatteringly polite man with a black moustache
and a French style frock coat, accompanied him to the third floor in the
lift, and showed him his room, an agreeable place furnished in cherry
wood. It was decorated with strong-smelling flowers, and its high
windows afforded a view out across the open sea. He stepped up to one of
them after the employee had left; and while his luggage was being
brought up and placed in the room behind him, he looked down on the
beach (it was comparatively deserted in the afternoon) and on the
sunless ocean which was at flood tide and was sending long low waves
against the bank in a calm regular rhythm.</p>
<p>The experiences of a man who lives alone and in silence are both vaguer
and more penetrating than those of people in society; his thoughts are
heavier, more odd, and touched always with melancholy. Images and
observations which could easily be disposed of by a glance, a smile, an
exchange of opinion, will occupy him unbearably, sink deep into the
silence, become full of meaning, become life, adventure, emotion.
Loneliness ripens the eccentric, the daringly and estrangingly
beautiful, the poetic. But loneliness also ripens the perverse, the
disproportionate, the absurd, and the illicit.—So, the things he had
met with on the trip, the ugly old fop with his twaddle about
sweethearts, the lawbreaking gondolier who was cheated of his pay, still
left the traveller uneasy. Without really providing any resistance to
the mind, without offering any solid stuff to think over, they were
nevertheless profoundly strange, as it seemed to him, and disturbing
precisely because of this contradiction. In the meanwhile, he greeted
the sea with his eyes, and felt pleasure at the knowledge that Venice
was so conveniently near. Finally he turned away, bathed his face, left
orders to the chambermaid for a few things he still needed done to make
his comfort complete, and let himself be taken to the ground floor by
the green-uniformed Swiss who operated the lift.</p>
<p>He took his tea on the terrace facing the ocean, then descended and
followed the boardwalk for quite a way in the direction of the Hotel
Excelsior. When he returned it seemed time to dress for dinner. He did
this with his usual care and slowness, since he was accustomed to
working over his toilette. And yet he came down a little early to the
lobby where he found a great many of the hotel guests assembled, mixing
distantly and with a show of mutual indifference to one another, but all
waiting for meal time. He took a paper from the table, dropped into a
leather chair, and observed the company; they differed agreeably from
the guests where he had first stopped.</p>
<p>A wide and tolerantly inclusive horizon was spread out before him.
Sounds of all the principal languages formed a subdued murmur. The
accepted evening dress, a uniform of good manners, brought all human
varieties into a fitting unity. There were Americans with their long wry
features, large Russian families, English ladies, German children with
French nurses. The Slavic element seemed to predominate. Polish was
being spoken nearby.</p>
<p>It was a group of children gathered around a little wicker table, under
the protection of a teacher or governess: three young girls, apparently
fifteen to seventeen, and a long-haired boy about fourteen years old.
With astonishment Aschenbach noted that the boy was absolutely
beautiful. His face, pale and reserved, framed with honey-coloured hair,
the straight sloping nose, the lovely mouth, the expression of sweet and
godlike seriousness, recalled Greek sculpture of the noblest period;
and the complete purity of the forms was accompanied by such a rare
personal charm that, as he watched, he felt that he had never met with
anything equally felicitous in nature or the plastic arts. He was
further struck by the obviously intentional contrast with the principles
of upbringing which showed in the sisters' attire and bearing. The three
girls, the eldest of whom could be considered grown up, were dressed
with a chasteness and severity bordering on disfigurement. Uniformly
cloister-like costumes, of medium length, slate-coloured, sober, and
deliberately unbecoming in cut, with white turned-down collars as the
only relief, suppressed every possible appeal of shapeliness. Their
hair, brushed down flat and tight against the head, gave their faces a
nunlike emptiness and lack of character. Surely this was a mother's
influence, and it had not even occurred to her to apply the pedagogical
strictness to the boy which she seemed to find necessary for her girls.
It was clear that in his existence the first factors were gentleness and
tenderness. The shears had been resolutely kept from his beautiful hair;
like a Prince Charming's, it fell in curls over his forehead, his ears,
and still deeper, across his neck. The English sailor suit, with its
braids, stitchings, and embroideries, its puffy sleeves narrowing at the
ends and fitting snugly about the fine wrists of his still childish but
slender hands, gave the delicate figure something rich and luxurious. He
was sitting, half profile to the observer, one foot in its black
patent-leather shoe placed before the other, an elbow resting on the arm
of his wicker chair, a cheek pressed against his fist, in a position of
negligent good manners, entirely free of the almost subservient
stiffness to which his sisters seemed accustomed. Did he have some
illness? For his skin stood out as white as ivory against the golden
darkness of the surrounding curls. Or was he simply a pampered favourite
child, made this way by a doting and moody love? Aschenbach inclined to
believe the latter. Almost every artist is born with a rich and
treacherous tendency to recognize injustices which have created beauty,
and to meet aristocratic distinction with sympathy and reverence.</p>
<p>A waiter passed through and announced in English that the meal was
ready. Gradually the guests disappeared through the glass door into the
dining hall. Stragglers crossed, coming from the entrance, or the lifts.
Inside, they had already begun serving, but the young Poles were still
waiting around the little wicker table; and Aschenbach, comfortably
propped in his deep chair, and with this beauty before his eyes, stayed
with them.</p>
<p>The governess, a small corpulent middle-class woman with a red face,
finally gave the sign to rise. With lifted brows, she pushed back her
chair and bowed, as a large woman dressed in grey and richly jewelled
with pearls entered the lobby. This woman was advancing with coolness
and precision; her lightly powdered hair and the lines of her dress were
arranged with the simplicity which always signifies taste in those
quarters where devoutness is taken as one element of dignity. She might
have been the wife of some high German official. Except that her
jewellery added something fantastically lavish to her appearance;
indeed, it was almost priceless, and consisted of ear pendants and a
very long triple chain of softly glowing pearls, as large as cherries.</p>
<p>The children had risen promptly. They bent over to kiss the hand of
their mother who, with a distant smile on her well preserved though
somewhat tired and peaked features, looked over their heads and directed
a few words to the governess in French. Then she walked to the glass
door. The children followed her: the girls in the order of their age,
after them the governess, the boy last. For some reason or other he
turned around before crossing the sill, and since no one else was in the
lobby his strange dusky eyes met those of Aschenbach who, his newspaper
on his knees, lost in thought, was gazing after the group.</p>
<p>What he saw had not been unusual in the slightest detail. They had not
preceded the mother to the table; they had waited, greeted her with
respect, and observed the customary forms on entering the room. But it
had taken place so pointedly, with such an accent of training, duty, and
self-respect, that Aschenbach felt peculiarly touched by it all. He
delayed for a few moments, then he too crossed into the dining-room, and
was assigned to his table, which, as he noted with a brief touch of
regret, was very far removed from that of the Polish family.</p>
<p>Weary, and yet intellectually active, he entertained himself during the
lengthy meal with abstract, or even transcendental things; he thought
over the secret union which the lawful must enter upon with the
individual for human beauty to result, from this he passed into general
problems of form and art, and at the end he found that his thoughts and
discoveries were like the seemingly felicitous promptings of a dream
which, when the mind is sobered, are seen to be completely empty and
unfit. After the meal, smoking, sitting, taking an occasional turn in
the park with its smell of nightfall, he went to bed early and spent the
night in a sleep deep and unbroken, but often enlivened with the
apparitions of dreams.</p>
<p><br/><br/><br/></p>
<h4>III (continued)</h4>
<p>The weather did not improve any the following day. A land breeze was
blowing. Under a cloudy ashen sky, the sea lay in dull peacefulness; it
seemed shrivelled up, with a close dreary horizon, and it had retreated
from the beach, baring the long ribs of several sandbanks. As Aschenbach
opened his window he thought that he could detect the foul smell of the
lagoon.</p>
<p>He felt depressed. He thought already of leaving. Once, years ago, after
several weeks of spring here, this same weather had afflicted him, and
impaired his health so seriously that he had to abandon Venice like a
fugitive. Was not this old feverish unrest again setting in, the
pressure in the temples, the heaviness of the eyelids? It would be
annoying to change his residence still another time; but if the wind did
not turn, he could not stay here. To be safe, he did not unpack
completely. He breakfasted at nine in the buffet-room provided for this
purpose between the lobby and the dining-room.</p>
<p>That formal silence reigned here which is the ambition of large hotels.
The waiters who were serving walked about on soft soles. Nothing was
audible but the tinkling of the tea-things, a word half-whispered. In
one corner, obliquely across from the door, and two tables removed from
his own, Aschenbach observed the Polish girls with their governess.
Erect and red-eyed, their ash-blond hair freshly smoothed down, dressed
in stiff blue linen with little white cuffs and turned-down
collars—they were sitting there, handing around a glass of
marmalade. They had almost finished their breakfast. The boy was missing.</p>
<p>Aschenbach smiled. "Well, little Phaeacian!" he thought. "You seem to be
enjoying the pleasant privilege of having your sleep out." And suddenly
exhilarated, he recited to himself the line: "A frequent change of
dress; warm baths, and rest."</p>
<p>He breakfasted without haste. From the porter, who entered the hall
holding his braided cap in his hand, he received some forwarded mail;
and while he smoked a cigarette he opened a few letters. In this way it
happened that he was present at the entrance of the late sleeper who was
being waited for over yonder.</p>
<p>He came through the glass door and crossed the room in silence to his
sisters' table. His approach—the way he held the upper part of his
body, and bent his knees, the movement of his white-shod feet—had an
extraordinary charm; he walked very lightly, at once timid and proud,
and this became still more lovely through the childish embarrassment
with which, twice as he proceeded, he turned his face towards the centre
of the room, raising and lowering his eyes. Smiling, with something
half-muttered in his soft vague tongue, he took his place; and now, as
he turned his full profile to the observer, Aschenbach was again
astonished, terrified even, by the really godlike beauty of this human
child. To-day the boy was wearing a light blouse of blue and white
striped cotton goods, with a red silk tie in front, and closed at the
neck by a plain white high collar. This collar lacked the
distinctiveness of the blouse, but above it the flowering head was
poised with an incomparable seductiveness—the head of an Eros, in
blended yellows of Parian marble, with fine serious brows, the temples
and ears covered softly by the abrupt encroachment of his curls.</p>
<p>"Good, good!" Aschenbach thought, with that deliberate expert appraisal
which artists sometimes employ as a subterfuge when they have been
carried away with delight before a masterwork. And he thought further:
"Really, if the sea and the beach weren't waiting for me, I should stay
here as long as you stayed!" But he went then, passed through the lobby
under the inspection of the servants, down the wide terrace, and
straight across the boardwalk to the section of the beach reserved for
the hotel guests. The barefoot old man in dungarees and straw hat who
was functioning here as bathing master assigned him to the bath house he
had rented; a table and a seat were placed on the sandy board platform,
and he made himself comfortable in the lounge chair which he had drawn
closer to the sea, out into the waxen yellow sand.</p>
<p>More than ever before he was entertained and amused by the sights on the
beach, this spectacle of carefree, civilized people getting sensuous
enjoyment at the very edge of the elements. The grey flat sea was
already alive with wading children, swimmers, a motley of figures lying
on the sandbanks with arms bent behind their heads. Others were rowing
about in little red and blue striped boats without keels; they were
continually upsetting, amid laughter. Before the long stretches of
bathing houses, where people were sitting on the platforms as though on
small verandahs, there was a play of movement against the line of rest
and inertness behind—visits and chatter, fastidious morning elegance
alongside the nakedness which, boldly at ease, was enjoying the freedom
which the place afforded. Further in front, on the damp firm sand,
people were parading about in white bathing cloaks, in ample,
brilliantly coloured wrappers. An elaborate sand pile to the right,
erected by children, had flags in the colours of all nations planted
around it. Venders of shells, cakes, and fruit spread out their wares,
kneeling. To the left, before one of the bathing houses which stood at
right angles to the others and to the sea, a Russian family was
encamped: men with beards and large teeth, slow delicate women, a Baltic
girl sitting by an easel and painting the sea amidst exclamations of
despair, two ugly good-natured children, an old maid-servant who wore a
kerchief on her head and had the alert scraping manners of a slave.
Delighted and appreciative, they were living there, patiently calling
the names of the two rowdy disobedient children, using their scanty
Italian to joke with the humorous old man from whom they were buying
candy, kissing one another on the cheek, and not in the least concerned
with any one who might be observing their community.</p>
<p>"Yes, I shall stay," Aschenbach thought. "Where would things be better?"
And his hands folded in his lap, he let his eyes lose themselves in the
expanses of the sea, his gaze gliding, swimming, and failing in the
monotone mist of the wilderness of space. He loved the ocean for
deep-seated reasons: because of that yearning for rest, when the
hard-pressed artist hungers to shut out the exacting multiplicities of
experience and hide himself on the breast of the simple, the vast; and
because of a forbidden hankering—seductive, by virtue of its being
directly opposed to his obligations—after the incommunicable, the
incommensurate, the eternal, the non-existent. To be at rest in the face
of perfection is the hunger of everyone who is aiming at excellence; and
what is the non-existent but a form of perfection? But now, just as his
dreams were so far out in vacancy, suddenly the horizontal fringe of the
sea was broken by a human figure; and as he brought his eyes back from
the unbounded, and focussed them, it was the lovely boy who was there,
coming from the left and passing him on the sand. He was barefooted,
ready for wading, his slender legs exposed above the knees; he walked
slowly, but as lightly and proudly as though it were the customary thing
for him to move about without shoes; and he was looking around him
towards the line of bathing houses opposite. But as soon as he had
noticed the Russian family, occupied with their own harmony and
contentment, a cloud of scorn and detestation passed over his face. His
brow darkened, his mouth was compressed, he gave his lips an embittered
twist to one side so that the cheek was distorted, and the forehead
became so heavily furrowed that the eyes seemed sunken beneath its
pressure: malicious and glowering, they spoke the language of hate. He
looked down, looked back once more threateningly, then with his shoulder
made an abrupt gesture of disdain and dismissal, and left the enemy
behind him.</p>
<p>A kind of pudency or confusion, something like respect and shyness,
caused Aschenbach to turn away as though he had seen nothing. For the
earnest-minded who have been casual observers of some passion, struggle
against making use, even to themselves, of what they have seen. But he
was both cheered and unstrung—which is to say, he was happy. This
childish fanaticism, directed against the most good-natured possible
aspect of life—it brought the divinely arbitrary into human
relationships; it made a delightful natural picture which had appealed
only to the eye now seem worthy of a deeper sympathy; and it gave the
figure of this half-grown boy, who had already been important enough by
his sheer beauty, something to offset him still further, and to make one
take him more seriously than his years justified. Still looking away,
Aschenbach could hear the boy's voice, the shrill, somewhat weak voice
with which, in the distance now, he was trying to call hello to his
playfellows busied around the sand pile. They answered him, shouting
back his name, or some affectionate nickname; and Aschenbach listened
with a certain curiosity, without being able to catch anything more
definite than two melodic syllables like "Adgio," or still more
frequently "Adgiu," with a ringing u-sound prolonged at the end. He was
pleased with the resonance of this; he found it adequate to the subject.
He repeated it silently and, satisfied, turned to his letters and
manuscripts.</p>
<p>His small portable writing-desk on his knees he began writing with his
fountain pen an answer to this or that bit of correspondence. But after
the first fifteen minutes he found it a pity to abandon the
situation—the most enjoyable he could think of—in this manner
and waste it in activities which did not interest him. He tossed the
writing materials to one side, and he faced the ocean again; soon
afterwards, diverted by the childish voices around the sand heap, he
revolved his head comfortably along the back of the chair towards the
right, to discover where that excellent little Adgio might be and what he
was doing.</p>
<p>He was found at a glance; the red tie on his breast was not to be
overlooked. Busied with the others in laying an old plank across the
damp moat of the sand castle, he was nodding, and shouting instructions
for this work. There were about ten companions with him, boys and girls
of his age, and a few younger ones who were chattering with one another
in Polish, French, and in several Balkan tongues. But it was his name
which rang out most often. He was openly in demand, sought after,
admired. One boy especially, like him a Pole, a stocky fellow who was
called something like "Jaschu," with sleek black hair and a belted linen
coat, seemed to be his closest vassal and friend. When the work on the
sand structure was finished for the time being, they walked aim in arm
along the beach, and the boy who was called "Jaschu" kissed the beauty.</p>
<p>Aschenbach was half minded to raise a warning finger. "I advise you,
Cristobulus," he thought, smiling, "to travel for a year! For you need
that much time at least to get over it." And then he breakfasted on
large ripe strawberries which he got from a peddler. It had become very
warm, although the sun could no longer penetrate the blanket of mist in
the sky. Laziness clogged his brain, even while his senses delighted in
the numbing, drugging distractions of the ocean's stillness. To guess,
to puzzle out just what name it was that sounded something like "Adgio,"
seemed to the sober man an appropriate ambition, a thoroughly
comprehensive pursuit. And with the aid of a few scrappy recollections
of Polish he decided that they must mean Tadzio, the shortened form of
Tadeusz, and sounding like Tadziu when it is called.</p>
<p>Tadzio was bathing. Aschenbach, who had lost sight of him, spied his
head and the arm with which he was propelling himself, far out in the
water; for the sea must have been smooth for a long distance out. But
already people seemed worried about him; women's voices were calling
after him from the bathing houses, uttering this name again and again.
It almost dominated the beach like a battle-cry, and with its soft
consonants, its long drawn u-note at the end, it had something at once
sweet and wild about it: "Tadziu! Tadziu!" He turned back; beating the
resistent water into a foam with his legs he hurried, his head bent down
over the waves. And to see how this living figure, graceful and
clean-cut in its advance, with dripping curls, and lovely as some frail
god, came up out of the depths of sky and sea, rose and separated from the
elements—this spectacle aroused a sense of myth, it was like some
poet's recovery of time at its beginning, of the origin of forms and the
birth of gods. Aschenbach listened with closed eyes to this song ringing
within him, and he thought again that it was pleasant here, and that he
would like to remain.</p>
<p>Later Tadzio was resting from his bath; he lay in the sand, wrapped in
his white robe, which was drawn under the right shoulder, his head
supported on his bare arm. And even when Aschenbach was not observing
him, but was reading a few pages in his book, he hardly ever forgot that
this boy was lying there and that it would cost him only a slight turn
of his head to the right to behold the mystery. It seemed that he was
sitting here just to keep watch over his repose—busied with his own
concerns, and yet constantly aware of this noble picture at his right,
not far in the distance. And he was stirred by a paternal affection, the
profound leaning which those who have devoted their thoughts to the
creation of beauty feel towards those who possess beauty itself.</p>
<p>A little past noon he left the beach, returned to the hotel, and was
taken up to his room. He stayed there for some time in front of the
mirror, looking at his grey hair, his tired sharp features. At this
moment he thought of his reputation, and of the fact that he was often
recognized on the streets and observed with respect, thanks to the sure
aim and the appealing finish of his words. He called up all the exterior
successes of his talent which he could think of, remembering also his
elevation to the knighthood. Then he went down to the dining-hall for
lunch, and ate at his little table. As he was riding up in the lift,
after the meal was ended, a group of young people just coming from
breakfast pressed into the swaying cage after him, and Tadzio entered
too. He stood quite near to Aschenbach, for the first time so near that
Aschenbach could see him, not with the aloofness of a picture, but in
minute detail, in all his human particularities. The boy was addressed
by someone or other, and as he was answering with an indescribably
agreeable smile he stepped out again, on the second floor, walking
backwards, and with his eyes lowered. "Beauty makes modest," Aschenbach
thought, and he tried insistently to explain why this was so. But he had
noticed that Tadzio's teeth were not all they should be; they were
somewhat jagged and pale. The enamel did not look healthy; it had a
peculiar brittleness and transparency, as is often the case with
anaemics. "He is very frail, he is sickly," Aschenbach thought. "In all
probability he will not grow old." And he refused to reckon with the
feeling of gratification or reassurance which accompanied this notion.</p>
<p>He spent two hours in his room, and in the afternoon he rode in the
<i>vaporetto</i> across the foul-smelling lagoon to Venice. He got off at
San Marco, took tea on the Piazza, and then, in accord with his schedule
for the day, he went for a walk through the streets. Yet it was this walk
which produced a complete reversal in his attitudes and his plans.</p>
<p>An offensive sultriness lay over the streets. The air was so heavy that
the smells pouring out of homes, stores, and eating houses became mixed
with oil, vapours, clouds of perfume, and still other odours—and
these would not blow away, but hung in layers. Cigarette smoke remained
suspended, disappearing very slowly. The crush of people along the
narrow streets irritated rather than entertained the walker. The farther
he went, the more he was depressed by the repulsive condition resulting
from the combination of sea air and sirocco, which was at the same time
both stimulating and enervating. He broke into an uncomfortable sweat.
His eyes failed him, his chest became tight, he had a fever, the blood
was pounding in his head. He fled from the crowded business streets
across a bridge into the walks of the poor. On a quiet square, one of
those forgotten and enchanting places which lie in the interior of
Venice, he rested at the brink of a well, dried his forehead, and
realized that he would have to leave here.</p>
<p>For the second and last time it had been demonstrated that this city in
this kind of weather was decidedly unhealthy for him. It seemed foolish
to attempt a stubborn resistance, while the prospects for a change of
wind were completely uncertain. A quick decision was called for. It was
not possible to go home this soon. Neither summer nor winter quarters
were prepared to receive him. But this was not the only place where
there were sea and beach; and elsewhere these could be found without the
lagoon and its malarial mists. He remembered a little watering place not
far from Trieste which had been praised to him. Why not there? And
without delay, so that this new change of location would still have time
to do him some good. He pronounced this as good as settled, and stood
up. At the next gondola station he took a boat back to San Marco, and
was led through the dreary labyrinth of canals, under fancy marble
balconies flanked with lions, around the corners of smooth walls, past
the sorrowing façades of palaces which mirrored large dilapidated
business-signs in the pulsing water. He had trouble arriving there, for
the gondolier, who was in league with lace-makers and glass-blowers, was
always trying to land him for inspections and purchases; and just as the
bizarre trip through Venice would begin to cast its spell, the greedy
business sense of the sunken Queen did all it could to destroy the
illusion.</p>
<p>When he had returned to the hotel he announced at the office before
dinner that unforeseen developments necessitated his departure the
following morning. He was assured of their regrets. He settled his
accounts. He dined, and spent the warm evening reading the newspapers in
a rocking-chair on the rear terrace. Before going to bed he got his
luggage all ready for departure.</p>
<p>He did not sleep so well as he might, since the impending break-up made
him restless. When he opened the window in the morning the sky was as
overcast as ever, but the air seemed fresher, and he was already
beginning to repent. Hadn't his decision been somewhat hasty and
uncalled for, the result of a passing diffidence and indisposition? If
he had delayed a little, if, instead of surrendering so easily, he had
made some attempt to adjust himself to the air of Venice or to wait for
an improvement in the weather, he would not be so rushed and
inconvenienced, but could anticipate another forenoon on the beach like
yesterday's. Too late. Now he would have to go on wanting what he had
wanted yesterday. He dressed, and at about eight o'clock rode down to
the ground floor for breakfast.</p>
<p>As he entered, the buffet-room was still empty of guests. A few came in
while he sat waiting for his order. With his tea cup to his lips, he saw
the Polish girls and their governess appear: rigid, with morning
freshness, their eyes still red, they walked across to their table in
the corner by the window. Immediately afterwards, the porter approached
him, cap in hand, and warned him that it was time to go. The automobile
is ready to take him and the other passengers to the Hotel Excelsior,
and from here the motorboat will bring the ladies and gentlemen
to the station through the company's private canal. Time is
pressing.—Aschenbach found that it was doing nothing of the sort. It
was still over an hour before his train left. He was irritated by this
hotel custom of hustling departing guests out of the house, and
indicated to the porter that he wished to finish his breakfast in peace.
The man retired hesitatingly, to appear again five minutes later. It is
impossible for the car to wait any longer. Then he would take a cab, and
carry his trunk with him, Aschenbach replied in anger. He would use the
public steamboat at the proper time, and he requested that it be left to
him personally to worry about his departure. The employee bowed himself
away. Pleased with the way he had warded off these importunate warnings,
Aschenbach finished his meal at leisure; in fact, he even let the waiter
bring him a newspaper. The time had become quite short when he finally
arose. It was fitting that at the same moment Tadzio should come through
the glass door.</p>
<p>On the way to his table he walked in the opposite direction to
Aschenbach, lowering his eyes modestly before the man with the grey hair
and high forehead, only to raise them again, in his delicious manner,
soft and full upon him—and he had passed. "Good-bye, Tadzio!"
Aschenbach thought. "I did not see much of you." He did what was unusual
with him, really formed the words on his lips and spoke them to himself;
then he added, "God bless you!"—After this he left, distributed
tips, was ushered out by the small gentle manager in the French frock
coat, and made off from the hotel on foot, as he had come, going along the
white blossoming avenue which crossed the island to the steamer bridge,
accompanied by the house servant carrying his hand luggage. He arrived,
took his place—and then followed a painful journey through all the
depths of regret.</p>
<p>It was the familiar trip across the lagoon, past San Marco, up the Grand
Canal. Aschenbach sat on the circular bench at the bow, his arm
supported against the railing, shading his eyes with his hand. The
public gardens were left behind, the Piazzetta opened up once more in
princely splendour and was gone, then came the great flock of palaces,
and as the channel made a turn the magnificently slung marble arch of
the Rialto came into view. The traveller was watching; his emotions were
in conflict. The atmosphere of the city, this slightly foul smell of sea
and swamp which he had been so anxious to avoid—he breathed it now in
deep, exquisitely painful draughts. Was it possible that he had not
known, had not considered, just how much he was attached to all this?
What had been a partial misgiving this morning, a faint doubt as to the
advisability of his move, now became a distress, a positive misery, a
spiritual hunger, and so bitter that it frequently brought tears to his
eyes, while he told himself that he could not possibly have foreseen it.
Hardest of all to bear, at times completely insufferable, was the
thought that he would never see Venice again, that this was a
leave-taking for ever. Since it had been shown for the second time that
the city affected his health, since he was compelled for the second time
to get away in all haste, from now on he would have to consider it a
place impossible and forbidden to him, a place which he was not equal
to, and which it would be foolish for him to visit again. Yes, he felt
that if he left now, he would be shamefaced and defiant enough never to
see again the beloved city which had twice caused him a physical
break-down. And of a sudden this struggle between his desires and his
physical strength seemed to the aging man so grave and important, his
physical defeat seemed so dishonourable, so much a challenge to hold out
at any cost, that he could not understand the ready submissiveness of
the day before, when he had decided to give in without attempting any
serious resistance.</p>
<p>Meanwhile the steamboat was nearing the station; pain and perplexity
increased, he became distracted. In his affliction, he felt that it was
impossible to leave, and just as impossible to turn back. The conflict
was intense as he entered the station. It was very late; there was not a
moment to lose if he was to catch the train. He wanted to, and he did
not want to. But time was pressing; it drove him on. He hurried to get
his ticket, and looked about in the tumult of the hall for the officer
on duty here from the hotel. The man appeared and announced that the
large trunk had been transferred. Transferred already? Yes, thank
you—to Como. To Como? And in the midst of hasty running back and
forth, angry questions and confused answers, it came to light that the
trunk had already been sent with other foreign baggage from the express
office of the Hotel Excelsior in a completely wrong direction.</p>
<p>Aschenbach had difficulty in preserving the expression which was
required under these circumstances. He was almost convulsed with an
adventurous delight, an unbelievable hilarity. The employee rushed off
to see if it were still possible to stop the trunk, and as was to be
expected he returned with nothing accomplished. Aschenbach declared that
he did not want to travel without his trunk, but had decided to go back
and wait at the beach hotel for its return. Was the company's motorboat
still at the station? The man assured him that it was lying at the door.
With Italian volubility he persuaded the clerk at the ticket window to
redeem the cancelled ticket, he swore that they would act speedily, that
no time or money would be spared in recovering the trunk promptly,
and—so the strange thing happened that, twenty minutes after his
arrival at the station, the traveller found himself again on the Grand
Canal, returning to the Lido.</p>
<p>Here was an adventure, wonderful, abashing, and comically dreamlike
beyond belief: places which he had just bid farewell to for ever in the
most abject misery—yet he had been turned and driven back by fate,
and was seeing them again in the same hour! The spray from the bow,
washing between gondolas and steamers with an absurd agility, shot the
speedy little craft ahead to its goal, while the one passenger was
hiding the nervousness and ebullience of a truant boy under the mask of
resigned anger. From time to time he shook with laughter at this mishap
which, as he told himself, could not have turned out better for a child
of destiny. There were explanations to be given, expressions of
astonishment to be faced—and then, he told himself, everything
would be all right; then a misfortune would be avoided, a grave error
rectified. And all that he had thought he was leaving behind him would
be open to him again, there at his disposal. . . . And to cap it all,
was the rapidity of the ride deceiving him, or was the wind really
coming from the sea?</p>
<p>The waves beat against the walls of the narrow canal which runs through
the island to the Hotel Excelsior. An automobile omnibus was awaiting
his return there, and took him above the rippling sea straight to the
beach hotel. The little manager with moustache and long-tailed frock
coat came down the stairs to meet him.</p>
<p>He ingratiatingly regretted the episode, spoke of it as highly painful
to him and the establishment, but firmly approved of Aschenbach's
decision to wait here for the baggage. Of course his room had been given
up, but there was another one, just as good, which he could occupy
immediately. "<i>Pas de chance, Monsieur</i>," the Swiss elevator boy
smiled as they were ascending. And so the fugitive was established again,
in a room almost identical to the other in its location and furnishings.</p>
<p>Tired out by the confusion of this strange forenoon, he distributed the
contents of his hand-bag about the room and dropped into an arm-chair by
the open window. The sea had become a pale green, the air seemed thinner
and purer; the beach, with its cabins and boats, seemed to have colour,
although the sky was still grey. Aschenbach looked out, his hands folded
in his lap; he was content to be back, but shook his head disapprovingly
at his irresolution, his failure to know his own mind. He sat here for
the better part of an hour, resting and dreaming vaguely. About noon he
saw Tadzio in a striped linen suit with a red tie, coming back from the
sea across the private beach and along the boardwalk to the hotel.
Aschenbach recognized him from this altitude before he had actually set
eyes on him; he was about to think some such words as "Well, Tadzio,
there you are again!" but at the same moment he felt this careless
greeting go dumb before the truth in his heart. He felt the exhilaration
of his blood, a conflict of pain and pleasure, and he realized that it
was Tadzio who had made it so difficult for him to leave.</p>
<p>He sat very still, entirely unobserved from this height, and looked
within himself. His features were alert, his eyebrows raised, and an
attentive, keenly inquisitive smile distended his mouth. Then he raised
his head; lifted both hands, which had hung relaxed over the arms of the
chair, and in a slow twisting movement turned the palms downward—as
though to suggest an opening and spreading outward of his arms. It was a
spontaneous act of welcome, of calm acceptance.</p>
<p><br/><br/><br/></p>
<h4><SPAN name="IV">IV</SPAN></h4>
<p>Day after day now the naked god with the hot cheeks drove his
fire-breathing quadriga across the expanses of the sky, and his yellow
locks fluttered in the assault of the east wind. A white silk sheen
stretched over the slowly simmering Ponto. The sand glowed. Beneath the
quaking silver blue of the ether rust-coloured canvasses were spread in
front of the beach bathing houses, and the afternoons were spent in the
sharply demarcated spots of shade which they cast. But it was also
delightful in the evening, when the vegetation in the park had the smell
of balsam, and the stars were working through their courses above, and
the soft persistent murmur of the sea came up enchantingly through the
night. Such evenings contained the cheering promise that more sunny days
of casual idleness would follow, dotted with countless closely
interspersed possibilities of well-timed accidents.</p>
<p>The guest who was detained here by such an accommodating mishap did not
consider the return of his property as sufficient grounds for another
departure. He suffered some inconvenience for two days, and had to
appear for meals in the large dining-room in his travelling clothes.
When the strayed luggage was finally deposited in his room again, he
unpacked completely and filled the closet and drawers with his
belongings; he had decided to remain here indefinitely, content now that
he could pass the hours on the beach in a silk suit and appear for
dinner at his little table again in appropriate evening dress.</p>
<p>The comfortable rhythm of this life had already cast its spell over him;
he was soon enticed by the ease, the mild splendour, of his programme.
Indeed, what a place to be in, when the usual allurement of living in
watering places on southern shores was coupled with the immediate
nearness of the most wonderful of all cities! Aschenbach was not a lover
of pleasure. Whenever that was some call for him to take a holiday, to
indulge himself, to have a good time—and this was especially true at
an earlier age—restlessness and repugnance soon drove him back to his
rigorous toil, the faithful sober efforts of his daily routine. Except
that this place was bewitching him, relaxing his will, making him happy.
In the mornings, under the shelter of his bathing house, letting his
eyes roam dreamily in the blue of the southern sea; or on a warm night
as he leaned back against the cushions of the gondola carrying him under
the broad starry sky home to the Lido from the Piazza di San Marco after
long hours of idleness—and the brilliant lights, the melting notes of
the serenade were being left behind—he often recalled his place in
the mountains, the scene of his battles in the summer, where the clouds
blew low across his garden, and terrifying storms put out the lamps at
night, and the crows which he fed were swinging in the tops of the pine
trees. Then everything seemed just right to him, as though he were lifted
into the Elysian fields, on the borders of the earth, where man enjoys the
easiest life, where there is no snow or winter, nor storms and pouring
rains, but where Oceanus continually sends forth gentle cooling breezes,
and the days pass in a blessed inactivity, without work, without effort,
devoted wholly to the sun and to the feast days of the sun.</p>
<p>Aschenbach saw the boy Tadzio frequently, almost constantly. Owing to
the limited range of territory and the regularity of their lives, the
beauty was near him at short intervals throughout the day. He saw him,
met him, everywhere: in the lower rooms of the hotel, on the cooling
water trips to the city and back, in the arcades of the square, and at
times when he was especially lucky ran across him on the streets. But
principally, and with the most gratifying regularity, the forenoon on
the beach allowed him to admire and study this rare spectacle at his
leisure. Yes, it was this guaranty of happiness, this daily recurrence
of good fortune, which made his stay here so precious, and gave him such
pleasure in the constant procession of sunny days.</p>
<p>He was up as early as he used to be when under the driving pressure of
work, and was on the beach before most people, when the sun was still
mild and the sea lay blinding white in the dreaminess of morning. He
spoke amiably to the guard of the private beach, and also spoke
familiarly to the barefoot, white-bearded old man who had prepared his
place for him, stretching the brown canopy and bringing the furniture of
the cabin out on the platform. Then he took his seat. There would now be
three or four hours in which the sun mounted and gained terrific
strength, the sea a deeper and deeper blue, and he might look at Tadzio.</p>
<p>He saw him approaching from the left, along the edge of the sea; he saw
him as he stepped out backwards from among the cabins; or he would
suddenly find, with a shock of pleasure, that he had missed his coming,
that he was already here in the blue and white bathing suit which was
his only garment now while on the beach, that he had already commenced
his usual activities in the sun and the sand—a pleasantly trifling,
idle, and unstable manner of living, a mixture of rest and play. Tadzio
would saunter about, wade, dig, catch things, lie down, go for a swim,
all the while being kept under surveillance by the women on the platform
who made his name ring out in their falsetto voices: "Tadziu! Tadziu!"
Then he would come running to them with a look of eagerness, to tell
them what he had seen, what he had experienced, or to show them what he
had found or caught: mussels, sea-horses, jelly-fish, and crabs that ran
sideways. Aschenbach did not understand a word he said, and though it
might have been the most ordinary thing in the world, it was a vague
harmony in his ear. So the foreignness of the boy's speech turned it
into music, a wanton sun poured its prodigal splendour down over him,
and his figure was always set off against the background of an intense
sea-blue.</p>
<p>This piquant body was so freely exhibited that his eyes soon knew every
line and posture. He was continually rediscovering with new pleasure all
this familiar beauty, and his astonishment at its delicate appeal to his
senses was unending. The boy was called to greet a guest who was paying
his respects to the ladies at the bathing house. He came running,
running wet perhaps out of the water, tossed back his curls, and as he
held out his hand, resting on one leg and raising his other foot on the
toes, the set of his body was delightful; it had a charming expectancy
about it, a well-meaning shyness, a winsomeness which showed his
aristocratic training. . . . He lay stretched full length, his bath
towel slung across his shoulders, his delicately chiselled arm supported
in the sand, his chin in his palm; the boy called Jaschu was squatting
near him and making up to him—and nothing could be more enchanting
than the smile of his eyes and lips when the leader glanced up at his
inferior, his servant. . . . He stood on the edge of the sea, alone, apart
from his people, quite near to Aschenbach—erect, his hands locked
across the back of his neck, he swayed slowly on the balls of his feet,
looked dreamily into the blueness of sea and sky, while tiny waves
rolled up and bathed his feet. His honey-coloured hair clung in rings
about his neck and temples. The sun made the down on his back glitter;
the fine etching of the ribs, the symmetry of the chest, were emphasized
by the tightness of the suit across the buttocks. His arm-pits were
still as smooth as those of a statue; the hollows of his knees
glistened, and their bluish veins made his body seem built of some
clearer stuff. What rigour, what precision of thought, were expressed in
this erect, youthfully perfect body! Yet the pure and strenuous will
which, darkly at work, could bring such godlike sculpture to the
light—was not he, the artist, familiar with this? Did it not operate
in him too when he, under the press of frugal passions, would free from the
marble mass of speech some slender form which he had seen in the mind
and which he put before his fellows as a statue and a mirror of
intellectual beauty?</p>
<p>Statue and mirror! His eyes took in the noble form there bordered with
blue; and with a rush of enthusiasm he felt that in this spectacle he
was catching the beautiful itself, form as the thought of God, the one
pure perfection which lives in the mind, and which, in this symbol and
likeness, had been placed here quietly and simply as an object of
devotion. That was drunkenness; and eagerly, without thinking, the aging
artist welcomed it. His mind was in travail; all that he had learned,
dropped back into flux; his understanding threw up age-old thoughts
which he had inherited with youth though they had never before lived
with their own fire. Is it not written that the sun diverts our
attention from intellectual to sensual things? Reason and understanding,
it is said, become so numbed and enchanted that the soul forgets
everything out of delight with its immediate circumstances, and in
astonishment becomes attached to the most beautiful object shined on by
the sun; indeed, only with the aid of a body is it capable then of
raising itself to higher considerations. To be sure, Amor did as the
instructors of mathematics who show backward children tangible
representations of the pure forms—similarly the god, in order to make
the spiritual visible for us, readily utilized the form and colour of
man's youth, and as a reminder he adorned these with the reflected
splendour of beauty which, when we behold it, makes us flare up in pain
and hope.</p>
<p>His enthusiasm suggested these things, put him in the mood for them. And
from the noise of the sea and the lustre of the sun he wove himself a
charming picture. Here was the old plane-tree, not far from the walls of
Athens—a holy, shadowy place filled with the smell of <i>agnus
castus</i> blossoms and decorated with ornaments and images sacred to
Achelous and the Nymphs. Clear and pure, the brook at the foot of the
spreading tree fell across the smooth pebbles; the cicadas were
fiddling. But on the grass, which was like a pillow gently sloping to
the head, two people were stretched out, in hiding from the heat of the
day: an older man and a youth, one ugly and one beautiful, wisdom next
to loveliness. And amid gallantries and skilfully engaging banter,
Socrates was instructing Phaedrus in matters of desire and virtue. He
spoke to him of the hot terror which the initiate suffer when their eyes
light on an image of the eternal beauty; spoke of the greed of the
impious and the wicked who cannot think beauty when they see its
likeness, and who are incapable of reverence; spoke of the holy distress
which befalls the noble-minded when a godlike countenance, a perfect
body, appears before them; they tremble and grow distracted, and hardly
dare to raise their eyes, and they honour the man who possesses this
beauty, yes, if they were not afraid of being thought downright madmen
they would sacrifice to the beloved as to the image of a god. For
beauty, my Phaedrus, beauty alone is both lovely and visible at once; it
is, mark me, the only form of the spiritual which we can receive through
the senses. Else what would become of us if the divine, if reason and
virtue and truth, should appear to us through the senses? Should we not
perish and be consumed with love, as Semele once was with Zeus? Thus,
beauty is the sensitive man's access to the spirit—but only a
road, a means simply, little Phaedrus. . . . And then this crafty suitor
made the neatest remark of all; it was this, that the lover is more
divine than the beloved, since the god is in the one, but not in the
other—perhaps the most delicate, the most derisive thought which
has ever been framed, and the one from which spring all the cunning and
the profoundest pleasures of desire.</p>
<p>Writers are happiest with an idea which can become all emotion, and an
emotion all idea. Just such a pulsating idea, such a precise emotion,
belonged to the lonely man at this moment, was at his call. Nature, it
ran, shivers with ecstasy when the spirit bows in homage before beauty.
Suddenly he wanted to write. Eros loves idleness, they say, and he is
suited only to idleness. But at this point in the crisis the affliction
became a stimulus towards productivity. The incentive hardly mattered. A
request, an agitation for an open statement on a certain large burning
issue of culture and taste, was going about the intellectual world, and
had finally caught up with the traveller here. He was familiar with the
subject, it had touched his own experience; and suddenly he felt an
irresistible desire to display it in the light of his own version. And
he even went so far as to prefer working in Tadzio's presence, taking
the scope of the boy as a standard for his writing, making his style
follow the lines of this body which seemed godlike to him, and carrying
his beauty over into the spiritual just as the eagle once carried the
Trojan stag up into the ether. Never had his joy in words been more
sweet. He had never been so aware that Eros is in the word as during
those perilously precious hours when, at his crude table under the
canopy, facing the idol and listening to the music of his voice, he
followed Tadzio's beauty in the forming of his little tract, a page and
a half of choice prose which was soon to excite the admiration of many
through its clarity, its poise, and the vigorous curve of its emotion.
Certainly it is better for people to know only the beautiful product as
finished, and not in its conception, its conditions of origin. For
knowledge of the sources from which the artist derives his inspiration
would often confuse and alienate, and in this way detract from the
effects of his mastery. Strange hours! Strangely enervating efforts!
Rare creative intercourse between the spirit and a body! When Aschenbach
put away his work and started back from the beach be felt exhausted, or
in dispersion even; and it was as though his conscience were complaining
after some transgression.</p>
<p>The following morning, as he was about to leave the hotel, he looked off
from the steps and noticed that Tadzio, who was alone and was already on
his way towards the sea, was just approaching the private beach. He was
half tempted by the simple notion of seizing this opportunity to strike
up a casual friendly acquaintanceship with the boy who had been the
unconscious source of so much agitation and upheaval; he wanted to
address him, and enjoy the answering look in his eyes. The boy was
sauntering along, he could be overtaken; and Aschenbach quickened his
pace. He reached him on the boardwalk behind the bathing houses; was
about to lay a hand on his head and shoulders; and some word or other,
an amiable phrase in French, was on the tip of his tongue. But he felt
that his heart, due also perhaps to his rapid stride, was beating like a
hammer; and he was so short of breath that his voice would have been
tight and trembling. He hesitated, he tried to get himself under
control. Suddenly he became afraid that he had been walking too long so
close behind the boy. He was afraid of arousing curiosity and causing
him to look back questioningly. He made one more spurt, failed,
surrendered, and passed with bowed head.</p>
<p>"Too late!" he thought immediately. Too late! Yet was it too late? This
step which he had just been on the verge of taking would very possibly
have put things on a sound, free and easy basis, and would have restored
him to wholesome soberness. But the fact was that Aschenbach did not
want soberness: his intoxication was too precious. Who can explain the
stamp and the nature of the artist! Who can understand this deep
instinctive welding of discipline and licence? For to be unable to want
wholesome soberness, is licence. Aschenbach was no longer given to
self-criticism. His tastes, the mental caliber of his years, his
self-respect, ripeness, and a belated simplicity made him unwilling to
dismember his motives and to debate whether his impulses were the result
of conscientiousness or of dissolution and weakness. He was embarrassed,
as he feared that someone or other, if only the guard on the beach, must
have observed his pursuit and defeat. He was very much afraid of the
ridiculous. Further, he joked with himself about his comically pious
distress. "Downed," he thought, "downed like a rooster, with his wings
hanging miserably in the battle. It really is a god who can, at one
sight of his loveliness, break our courage this way and force down our
pride so thoroughly. . . ." He toyed and skirmished with his emotions,
and was far too haughty to be afraid of them.</p>
<p>He had already ceased thinking about the time when the vacation period
which he had fixed for himself would expire; the thought of going home
never even suggested itself. He had sent for an ample supply of money.
His only concern was with the possible departure of the Polish family;
by a casual questioning of the hotel barber he had contrived to learn
that these people had come here only a short time before his own
arrival. The sun browned his face and hands, the invigorating salt
breezes made him feel fresher. Once he had been in the habit of
expending on his work every bit of nourishment which food, sleep, or
nature could provide him; and similarly now he was generous and
uneconomical, letting pass off as elation and emotion all the daily
strengthening derived from sun, idleness, and sea air.</p>
<p>His sleep was fitful; the preciously uniform days were separated by
short nights of happy unrest. He did retire early, for at nine o'clock,
when Tadzio had disappeared from the scene, the day seemed over. But at
the first grey of dawn he was awakened by a gently insistent shock; he
suddenly remembered his adventure, he could no longer remain in bed; he
arose, and clad lightly against the chill of morning, he sat down by the
open window to await the rising of the sun. Revived by his sleep, he
watched this miraculous event with reverence. Sky, earth, and sea still
lay in glassy, ghost-like twilight; a dying star still floated in the
emptiness of space But a breeze started up, a winged message from
habitations beyond reach, telling that Eros was rising from beside her
husband. And that first sweet reddening in the farthest stretches of sky
and sea took place by which the sentiency of creation is announced. The
goddess was approaching, the seductress of youth who stole Cleitus and
Cephalus, and despite the envy of all the Olympians enjoyed the love of
handsome Orion. A strewing of roses began there on the edge of the
world, an unutterably pure glowing and blooming. Childish clouds,
lighted and shined through, floated like busy little Cupids in the rosy,
bluish mist. Purple fell upon the sea, which seemed to be simmering, and
washing the colour towards him. Golden spears shot up into the sky from
behind. The splendour caught fire, silently, and with godlike power an
intense flame of licking tongues broke out—and with rattling hoofs
the brother's sacred chargers mounted the horizon. Lighted by the god's
brilliance, he sat there, keeping watch alone. He closed his eyes,
letting this glory play against the lids. Past emotions, precious early
afflictions and yearnings which had been stifled by his rigorous
programme of living, were now returning in such strange new forms. With
an embarrassed, astonished smile, he recognized them. He was thinking,
dreaming; slowly his lips formed a name. And still smiling, with his
face turned upwards, hands folded in his lap, he fell asleep again in
his chair.</p>
<p>But the day which began with such fiery solemnity underwent a strange
mythical transformation. Where did the breeze originate which suddenly
began playing so gently and insinuatingly, like some whispered
suggestion, about his ears and temples? Little white choppy clouds stood
in the sky in scattered clumps, like the pasturing herds of the gods. A
stronger wind arose, and the steeds of Poseidon came prancing up, and
along with them the steers which belonged to the blue-locked god,
bellowing and lowering their horns as they ran. Yet among the detritus
of the more distant beach waves were hopping forward like agile goats.
He was caught in the enchantment of a sacredly distorted world full of
Panic life—and he dreamed delicate legends. Often, when the sun was
sinking behind Venice, he would sit on a bench in the park observing
Tadzio who was dressed in a white suit with a coloured sash and was
playing ball on the smooth gravel—and it was Hyacinth that he seemed
to be watching. Hyacinth who was to die because two gods loved him. Yes, he
felt Zephyr's aching jealousy of the rival who forgot the oracle, the
bow, and the lyre, in order to play for ever with this beauty. He saw
the discus, guided by a pitiless envy, strike the lovely head; he too,
growing pale, caught the drooping body—and the flower, sprung from
this sweet blood, bore the inscription of his unending grief.</p>
<p>Nothing is more unusual and strained than the relationship between
people who know each other only with their eyes, who meet daily, even
hourly, and yet are compelled, by force of custom or their own caprices,
to say no word or make no move of acknowledgement, but to maintain the
appearance of an aloof unconcern. There is a restlessness and a
surcharged curiosity existing between them, the hysteria of an
unsatisfied, unnaturally repressed desire for acquaintanceship and
intercourse; and especially there is a kind of tense respect. For one
person loves and honours another so long as he cannot judge him, and
desire is an evidence of incomplete knowledge.</p>
<p>Some kind of familiarity had necessarily to form itself between
Aschenbach and young Tadzio; and it gave the elderly man keen pleasure
to see that his sympathies and interests were not left completely
unanswered. For example, when the boy appeared on the beach in the
morning and was going towards his family's bathing house, what had
induced him never to use the boardwalk on the far side of it any more,
but to stroll along the front path, through the sand, past Aschenbach's
habitual place, and often unnecessarily close to him, almost touching
his table, or his chair even? Did the attraction, the fascination of an
overpowering emotion have such an effect upon the frail unthinking
object of it? Aschenbach watched daily for Tadzio to approach; and
sometimes he acted as though he were occupied when this event was taking
place, and he let the boy pass unobserved. But at other times he would
look up, and their glances met. They were both in deep earnest when this
occurred. Nothing in the elderly man's cultivated and dignified
expression betrayed any inner movement; but there was a searching look
in Tadzio's eyes, a thoughtful questioning—he began to falter, looked
down, then looked up again charmingly, and when he had passed something
in his bearing seemed to indicate that it was only his breeding which
kept him from turning around.</p>
<p>Once, however, one evening, things turned out differently. The Polish
children and their governess had been missing at dinner in the large
hall; Aschenbach had noted this uneasily. After the meal, disturbed by
their absence, Aschenbach was walking in evening dress and straw hat in
front of the hotel at the foot of the terrace, when suddenly he saw the
nunlike sisters appear in the light of the arc-lamp, accompanied by
their governess and with Tadzio a few steps behind. Evidently they were
coming from the steamer pier after having dined for some reason in the
city. It must have been cool on the water; Tadzio was wearing a dark
blue sailor overcoat with gold buttons, and on his head he had a cap to
match. The sun and sea air had not browned him; his skin still had the
same yellow marble colour as at first. It even seemed paler to-day than
usual, whether from the coolness or from the blanching moonlight of the
lamps. His regular eyebrows showed up more sharply, the darkness of his
eyes was deeper. It is hard to say how beautiful he was; and Aschenbach
was distressed, as he had often been before, by the thought that words
can only evaluate sensuous beauty, but not re-give it.</p>
<p>He had not been prepared for this rich spectacle; it came unhoped for.
He had no time to entrench himself behind an expression of repose and
dignity. Pleasure, surprise, admiration must have shown on his face as
his eyes met those of the boy—and at this moment it happened that
Tadzio smiled, smiled to him, eloquently, familiarly, charmingly,
without concealment; and during the smile his lips slowly opened. It was
the smile of Narcissus bent over the reflecting water, that deep,
fascinated, magnetic smile with which he stretches out his arms to the
image of his own beauty—a smile distorted ever so little, distorted
at the hopelessness of his efforts to kiss the pure lips of the shadow. It
was coquettish, inquisitive, and slightly tortured. It was infatuated,
and infatuating.</p>
<p>He had received this smile, and he hurried away as though he carried a
fatal gift. He was so broken up that he was compelled to escape the
light of the terrace and the front garden; he hastily hunted out the
darkness of the park in the rear. Strangely indignant and tender
admonitions wrung themselves out of him: "You dare not smile like that!
Listen, no one dare smile like that to another!" He threw himself down
on a bench; in a frenzy he breathed the night smell of the vegetation.
And leaning back, his arms loose, overwhelmed, with frequent
chills running through him, he whispered the fixed formula of
desire—impossible in this case, absurd, abject, ridiculous, and yet
holy, even in this case venerable: "I love you!"</p>
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<h4><SPAN name="V">V</SPAN></h4>
<p>During his fourth week at the Lido Gustav von Aschenbach made several
sinister observations touching on the world about him. First, it seemed
to him that as the season progressed the number of guests at the hotel
was diminishing rather than increasing; and German especially seemed to
be dropping away, so that finally he heard nothing but foreign sounds at
table and on the beach. Then one day in conversation with the barber,
whom he visited often, he caught a word which startled him. The man had
mentioned a German family that left soon after their arrival; he added
glibly and flatteringly, "But you are staying, sir. You have no fear of
the plague." Aschenbach looked at him. "The plague?" he repeated. The
gossiper was silent, made out as though busy with other things, ignored
the question. When it was put more insistently, he declared that he knew
nothing, and with embarrassing volubility he tried to change the
subject.</p>
<p>That was about noon. In the afternoon there was a calm, and Aschenbach
rode to Venice under an intense sun. For he was driven by a mania to
follow the Polish children whom he had seen with their governess taking
the road to the steamer pier. He did not find the idol at San Marco. But
while sitting over his tea at his little round iron table on the shady
side of the square, he suddenly detected a peculiar odour in the air
which, it seemed to him now, he had noticed for days without being
consciously aware of it. The smell was sweetish and drug-like,
suggesting sickness, and wounds, and a suspicious cleanliness. He tested
and examined it thoughtfully, finished his luncheon, and left the square
on the side opposite the church. The smell was stronger where the street
narrowed. On the corners printed posters were hung, giving municipal
warnings against certain diseases of the gastric system liable to occur
at this season, against the eating of oysters and clams, and also
against the water of the canals. The euphemistic nature of the
announcement was palpable. Groups of people had collected in silence on
the bridges and squares; and the foreigner stood among them, scenting
and investigating.</p>
<p>At a little shop he inquired about the fatal smell, asking the
proprietor, who was leaning against his door surrounded by coral chains
and imitation amethyst jewellery. The man measured him with heavy eyes,
and brightened up hastily. "A matter of precaution, sir!" he answered
with a gesture. "A regulation of the police which must be taken for what
it is worth. This weather is oppressive, the sirocco is not good for the
health. In short, you understand—an exaggerated prudence perhaps."
Aschenbach thanked him and went on. Also on the steamer back to the Lido
he caught the smell of the disinfectant.</p>
<p>Returning to the hotel, he went immediately to the periodical stand in
the lobby and ran through the papers. He found nothing in the foreign
language press. The domestic press spoke of rumours, produced hazy
statistics, repeated official denials and questioned their truthfulness.
This explained the departure of the German and Austrian guests.
Obviously, the subjects of the other nations knew nothing, suspected
nothing, were not yet uneasy. "To keep it quiet!" Aschenbach thought
angrily, as he threw the papers back on the table. "To keep that quiet!"
But at the same moment he was filled with satisfaction over the
adventure that was to befall the world about him. For passion, like
crime, is not suited to the secure daily rounds of order and well-being;
and every slackening in the bourgeois structure, every disorder and
affliction of the world, must be held welcome, since they bring with
them a vague promise of advantage. So Aschenbach felt a dark contentment
with what was taking place, under cover of the authorities, in the dirty
alleys of Venice. This wicked secret of the city was welded with his own
secret, and he too was involved in keeping it hidden. For in his
infatuation he cared about nothing but the possibility of Tadzio's
leaving, and he realized with something like terror that he would not
know how to go on living if this occurred.</p>
<p>Lately he had not been relying simply on good luck and the daily routine
for his chances to be near the boy and look at him. He pursued him,
stalked him. On Sundays, for instance, the Poles never appeared on the
beach. He guessed that they must be attending mass at San Marco. He
hurried there; and stepping from the heat of the square into the golden
twilight of the church, he found the boy he was hunting, bowed over a
<i>prie-dieu</i>, praying. Then he stood in the background, on the cracked
mosaic floor, with people on all sides kneeling, murmuring, and making
the sign of the cross. And the compact grandeur of this oriental temple
weighed heavily on his senses. In front, the richly ornamented priest
was conducting the office, moving about and singing; incense poured
forth, clouding the weak little flame of the candle on the altar—and
with the sweet, stuffy sacrificial odour another seemed to commingle
faintly: the smell of the infested city. But through the smoke and the
sparkle Aschenbach saw how the boy there in front turned his head,
hunted him out, and looked at him.</p>
<p>When the crowd was streaming out through the opened portals into the
brilliant square with its swarms of pigeons, the lover hid in the
vestibule; he kept trader cover, he lay in wait. He saw the Poles quit
the church, saw how the children took ceremonious leave of their mother,
and how she turned towards the Piazzetta on her way home. He made sure
that the boy, the nunlike sisters, and the governess took the road to
the right through the gateway of the dock tower and into the Merceria.
And after giving them a slight start, he followed, followed them
furtively on their walk through Venice. He had to stand still when they
stopped, had to take flight in shops and courts to let them pass when
they turned back. He lost them; hot and exhausted, he hunted them over
bridges and down dirty blind-alleys—and he underwent minutes of
deadly agony when suddenly he saw them coming towards him in a narrow
passage where escape was impossible. Yet it could not be said that he
suffered. He was drunk, and his steps followed the promptings of the demon
who delights in treading human reason and dignity under foot.</p>
<p>In one place Tadzio and his companions took a gondola; and shortly after
they had pushed off from the shore, Aschenbach, who had hidden behind
some structure, a well, while they were climbing in, now did the same.
He spoke in a hurried undertone as he directed the rower, with the
promise of a generous tip, to follow unnoticed and at a distance that
gondola which was just rounding the corner. And he thrilled when the
man, with the roguish willingness of an accomplice, assured him in the
same tone that his wishes would be carried out, carried out faithfully.</p>
<p>Leaning back against the soft black cushions, he rocked and glided
towards the other black-beaked craft where his passion was drawing him.
At times it escaped; then he felt worried and uneasy. But his pilot, as
though skilled in such commissions, was always able through sly
manoeuvres, speedy diagonals and shortcuts, to bring the quest into view
again. The air was quiet and smelly, the sun burned down strong through
the slate-coloured mist. Water slapped against the wood and stone. The
call of the gondolier, half warning, half greeting, was answered with a
strange obedience far away in the silence of the labyrinth. White and
purple umbels with the scent of almonds hung down from little elevated
gardens over crumbling walls. Arabian window-casings were outlined
through the murkiness. The marble steps of a church descended into the
water; a beggar squatted there, protesting his misery, holding out his
hat, and showing the whites of his eyes as though he were blind. An
antiquarian in front of his den fawned on the passer-by and invited him
to stop in the hopes of swindling him. That was Venice, the flatteringly
and suspiciously beautiful—this city, half legend, half snare for
strangers; in its foul air art once flourished gluttonously, and had
suggested to its musicians seductive notes which cradle and lull. The
adventurer felt as though his eyes were taking in this same luxury, as
though his ears were being won by just such melodies. He recalled too
that the city was diseased and was concealing this through greed—and
he peered more eagerly after the retreating gondola.</p>
<p>Thus, in his infatuation, he wanted simply to pursue uninterrupted the
object that aroused him, to dream of it when it was not there, and,
after the fashion of lovers, to speak softly to its mere outline.
Loneliness, strangeness, and the joy of a deep belated intoxication
encouraged him and prompted him to accept even the remotest things
without reserve or shame—with the result that as he returned late in
the evening from Venice, he stopped on the second floor of the hotel
before the door of the boy's room, laid his head in utter drunkenness
against the hinge of the door, and for a long time could not drag
himself away despite the danger of being caught and embarrassed in such
a mad situation.</p>
<p>Yet there were still moments of relief when he came partly to his
senses. "Where to!" he would think, alarmed. "Where to!" Like every man
whose natural abilities stimulate an aristocratic interest in his
ancestry, he was accustomed to think of his forbears in connexion with
the accomplishments and successes of his life, to assure himself of
their approval, their satisfaction, their undeniable respect. He thought
of them now, entangled as he was in such an illicit experience, caught
in such exotic transgressions. He thought of their characteristic
rigidity of principle, their scrupulous masculinity—and he smiled
dejectedly. What would they say? But then, what would they have said to
his whole life, which was almost degenerate in its departure from theirs,
this life under the bane of art—a life against which he himself
had once issued such youthful mockeries out of loyalty to his fathers,
but which at bottom had been so much like theirs! He too had served, he
too had been a soldier and a warrior like many of them—for art was a
war, a destructive battle, and one was not equal to it for long these
days. A life of self-conquest and of in-spite-offs, a rigid, sober, and
unyielding life which he had formed into the symbol of a delicate and
timely heroism. He might well call it masculine, or brave; and it almost
seemed as though the Eros mastering him were somehow peculiarly adapted
and inclined to such a life. Had not this Eros stood in high repute
among the bravest of peoples; was it not true that precisely through
bravery he had flourished in their cities? Numerous war heroes of
antiquity had willingly borne his yoke, for nothing was deemed a
disgrace which the god imposed; and acts which would Have been
rebuked as the sign of cowardice if they had been done for other
purposes—prostrations, oaths, entreaties, abjectness—such
things did not bring shame upon the lover, but rather he reaped praise
for them.</p>
<p>In this way his infatuation determined the course of his thoughts, in
this way he tried to uphold himself, to preserve his respect. But at the
same time, selfish and calculating, he turned his attention to the
unclean transactions here in Venice, this adventure of the outer world
which conspired darkly with his own and which fed his passion with vague
lawless hopes.</p>
<p>Bent on getting reliable news of the condition and progress of the
pestilence, he ransacked the local papers in the city cafés, as they
had been missing from the reading table of the hotel lobby for several
days now. Statements alternated with disavowals. The number of the sick
and dead was supposed to reach twenty, forty, or even a hundred and
more—and immediately afterwards every instance of the plague would be
either flatly denied or attributed to completely isolated cases which
had crept in from the outside. There were scattered admonitions,
protests against the dangerous conduct of foreign authorities. Certainty
was impossible. Nevertheless the lone man felt especially entitled to
participate in the secret; and although he was excluded, he derived a
grotesque satisfaction from putting embarrassing questions to those who
did know, and as they were pledged to silence, forcing them into
deliberate lies. One day at breakfast in the large dining-hall he
entered into a conversation with the manager, that softly-treading
little man in the French frock coat who was moving amiably and
solicitously about among the diners and had stopped at Aschenbach's
table for a few passing words. Just why, the guest asked negligently and
casually, had disinfectants become so prevalent in Venice recently? "It
has to do," was the evasive answer, "with a police regulation, and is
intended to prevent any inconveniences or disturbances to the public
health which might result from the exceptionally warm and threatening
weather." . . . "The police are to be congratulated," Aschenbach
answered; and after the exchange of a few remarks on the weather, the
manager left.</p>
<p>Yet that same day, in the evening, after dinner, it happened that a
little band of strolling singers from the city gave a performance in the
front garden of the hotel. Two men and two women, they stood by the iron
post of an arc-lamp and turned their whitened faces up towards the large
terrace where the guests were enjoying this folk-recital over their
coffee and cooling drinks. The hotel personnel, bell boys, waiters, and
clerks from the office, could be seen listening by the doors of the
vestibule. The Russian family, eager and precise in their amusements,
had had wicker chairs placed in the garden in order to be nearer the
performers; and they were sitting here in an appreciative semi-circle.
Behind the ladies and gentlemen, in her turban-like kerchief, stood the
old slave.</p>
<p>Mandolin, guitar, harmonica, and a squeaky violin were responding to the
touch of the virtuoso beggars. Instrumental numbers alternated with
songs, as when the younger of the women, with a sharp trembling voice,
joined with the sweetly falsetto tenor in a languishing love duet. But
the real talent and leader of the group was undoubtedly the other of the
two men, the one with the guitar. He was a kind of <i>buffo</i> baritone,
with not much of a voice, although he did have a gift for pantomime, and
a remarkable comic energy. Often, with his large instrument under his
arm, he would leave the rest of the group and, still acting, would
intrude on the platform, where his antics were rewarded with encouraging
laughter. Especially the Russians in their seats down front seemed to be
enchanted with so much southern mobility, and their applause incited him
to let himself out more and more boldly and assertively.</p>
<p>Aschenbach sat on the balustrade, cooling his lips now and then with a
mixture of pomegranate juice and soda which glowed ruby red in his glass
in front of him. His nerves took in the miserable notes, the vulgar
crooning melodies; for passion lames the sense of discrimination, and
surrenders in all seriousness to appeals which, in sober moments, are
either humorously allowed for or rejected with annoyance. At the clown's
antics his features bad twisted into a set painful smile. He sat there
relaxed, although inwardly he was intensely awake; for six paces from
him Tadzio was leaning against the stone hand-rail.</p>
<p>In the white belted coat which he often wore at meal times, he was
standing in a position of spontaneous and inborn gracefulness, his left
forearm on the railing, feet crossed, the right hand on a supporting
hip; and he looked down at the street-singers with an expression which
was hardly a smile, but only an aloof curiosity, a polite amiability.
Often he would stand erect and, expanding his chest, would draw the
white smock down under his leather belt with a beautiful gesture. And
then too, the aging man observed with a tumult of fright and triumph how
he would often turn his head over the left shoulder in the direction of
his admirer, carefully and hesitatingly, or even with abruptness as
though to attack by surprise. He did not meet Aschenbach's eyes, for a
mean precaution compelled the transgressor to keep from staring at him:
in the background of the terrace the women who guarded Tadzio were
sitting, and things had reached a point where the lover had to fear that
he might be noticed and suspected. Yes, he had often observed with a
kind of numbness how, when Tadzio was near him, on the beach, in the
hotel lobby, in the Piazza San Marco, they called him back, they were
set on keeping him at a distance—and this wounded him frightfully,
causing his pride unknown tortures which his conscience would not permit
him to evade.</p>
<p>Meanwhile the guitar-player had begun a solo to his own accompaniment,
a street-ballad popular throughout Italy. It had several strophes, and
the entire company joined each time in the refrain, all singing and
playing, while he managed to give a plastic and dramatic twist to the
performance. Of slight build, with thin and impoverished features, he
stood on the gravel, apart from his companions, in an attitude of
insolent bravado, his shabby felt hat on the back of his head so that a
bunch of his red hair jutted out from under the brim. And to the
thrumming of the strings he flung his jokes up at the terrace in a
penetrating recitative; while the veins were swelling on his forehead
from the exertion of his performance. He did not seem of Venetian stock,
but rather of the race of Neapolitan comedians, half pimp, half
entertainer, brutal and audacious, dangerous and amusing. His song was
stupid enough so far as the words went; but in his mouth, by his
gestures, the movements of his body, his way of blinking significantly
and letting the tongue play across his lips, it acquired something
ambiguous, something vaguely repulsive. In addition to the customary
civilian dress, he was wearing a sport shirt; and his skinny neck
protruded above the soft collar, baring a noticeably large and active
Adam's-apple. He was pale and snub-nosed. It was hard to fix an age to
his beardless features, which seemed furrowed with grimaces and
depravity; and the two wrinkles standing arrogantly, harshly, almost
savagely between his reddish eyebrows were strangely suited to the smirk
on his mobile lips. Yet what really prompted the lonely man to pay him
keen attention was the observation that the questionable figure seemed
also to provide its own questionable atmosphere. For each time they came
to the refrain the singer, amid buffoonery and familiar handshakes,
began a grotesque circular march which brought him immediately beneath
Aschenbach's place; and each time this happened there blew up to the
terrace from his clothes and body a strong carbolic smell.</p>
<p>After the song was ended, he began collecting money. He started with the
Russians, who were evidently willing to spend, and then came up the
stairs. Up here he showed himself just as humble as he had been bold
during the performance. Cringing and bowing, he stole about among the
tables, and a smile of obsequious cunning exposed his strong teeth,
while the two wrinkles still stood ominously between his red eyebrows. This
singular character collecting money to live on—they eyed him with
a curiosity and a kind of repugnance, they tossed coins into his felt
hat with the tips of their fingers, and were careful not to touch him.
The elimination of the physical distance between the comedian and the
audience, no matter how great the enjoyment may have been, always causes
a certain uneasiness. He felt it, and tried to excuse it by grovelling.
He came up to Aschenbach, and along with him the smell, which no one
else seemed concerned about.</p>
<p>"Listen!" the recluse said in an undertone, almost mechanically. "They
are disinfecting Venice. Why?" The jester answered hoarsely, "On account
of the police. That is a precaution, sir, with such heat, and the
sirocco. The sirocco is oppressive. It is not good for the health." He
spoke as though astonished that any one could ask such things, and
demonstrated with his open hand how oppressive the sirocco was. "Then
there is no plague in Venice?" Aschenbach asked quietly, between his
teeth. The clown's muscular features fell into a grimace of comical
embarrassment. "A plague? What kind of plague? Perhaps our police are a
plague? You like to joke! A plague! Of all things! A precautionary
measure, you understand! A police regulation against the effects of the
oppressive weather." He gesticulated. "Very well," Aschenbach said
several times curtly and quietly; and he quickly dropped an unduly large
coin into the hat. Then with his eyes he signalled the man to leave. He
obeyed, smirking and bowing. But he had not reached the stairs before
two hotel employees threw themselves upon him, and with their faces
close to his began a whispered cross-examination. He shrugged his
shoulders; he gave assurances, he swore that he had kept quiet—that
was evident. He was released, and he returned to the garden; then after a
short conference with his companions, he stepped out once more for a
final song of thanks and leave-taking.</p>
<p>It was a rousing song which the recluse never recalled having heard
before, a "big number" in incomprehensible dialect, with a laugh refrain
in which the troupe joined regularly at the tops of their voices. At
this point both the words and the accompaniment of the instruments
stopped, with nothing left but a laugh which was somehow arranged
rhythmically although very naturally done—and the soloist especially
showed great talent in giving it a most deceptive vitality. At the
renewal of his professional distance from the audience he had recovered
all his boldness again, and the artificial laugh that he directed up
towards the terrace was derisive. Even before the end of the articulate
portion of the strophe, he seemed to struggle against an irresistible
tickling. He gulped, his voice trembled, he pressed his hand over his
mouth, he contorted his shoulders; and at the proper moment the
ungovernable laugh broke out of him, burst into such real cackles that
it was infectious and communicated itself to the audience, so that on
the terrace also an unfounded hilarity, living off itself alone, started
up. But this seemed to double the singer's exuberance. He bent his
knees, he slapped his thighs, he nearly split himself; he no longer
laughed, he shrieked. He pointed up with his finger, as though nothing
were more comic than the laughing guests there, and finally everyone in
the garden and on the verandah was laughing, even to the waiters, bell
boys, and house-servants in the doorways.</p>
<p>Aschenbach was no longer resting in his chair; he sat upright, as if
attempting to defend himself, or to escape. But the laughter, the whiffs
of the hospital smell, and the boy's nearness combined to put him into a
trance that held his mind and his senses hopelessly captive. In the
general movement and distraction he ventured to glance across at Tadzio,
and as he did so he dared observe that the boy, in reply to his glance,
was equally serious, much as though he had modelled his conduct and
expression after those of one man, and the prevalent mood had no effect
on him since this one man was not part of it. This portentous childish
obedience had something so disarming and overpowering about it that the
grey-haired man could hardly restrain himself from burying his face in
his hands. It had also seemed to him that Tadzio's occasional stretching
and quick breathing indicated a complaint, a congestion, of the lungs.
"He is sickly, he will probably not grow old," he thought repeatedly
with that positiveness which is often a peculiar relief to desire and
passion. And along with pure solitude he had a feeling of rakish
gratification.</p>
<p>Meanwhile the Venetians had ended and were leaving. Applause accompanied
them, and their leader did not miss the opportunity to cover his retreat
with further jests. His bows, the kisses he blew, were laughed at—and
so he doubled them. When his companions were already gone, he acted as
though he had hurt himself by backing into a lamp-post, and he crept
through the gate seemingly crippled with pain. Then he suddenly threw
off the mask of comic hard luck, stood upright, hurried away jauntily,
stuck out his tongue insolently at the guests on the terrace, and
slipped into the darkness. The company was breaking up; Tadzio had been
missing from the balustrade for some time. But, to the displeasure of
the waiters, the lonely man sat for a long while over the remains of his
pomegranate drink. Night advanced. Time was crumbling. In the house of
his parents many years back there had been an hour glass—of a sudden
he saw the fragile and expressive instrument again, as though it were
standing in front of him. Fine and noiseless the rust-red sand was
running through the glass neck; and since it was getting low in the
upper half, a speedy little vortex had been formed there.</p>
<p>As early as the following day, in the afternoon, he had made new
progress in his obstinate baiting of the people he met—and this time
he had all possible success. He walked from the Piazza of St. Mark's into
the English travelling bureau located there; and after changing some
money at the cash desk, he put on the expression of a distrustful
foreigner and launched his fatal question at the attendant clerk. He was
a Britisher; he wore a woollen suit, and was still young, with close-set
eyes, and had that characteristic stolid reliability which is so
peculiarly and strikingly appealing in the tricky, nimble-witted South.
He began, "No reason for alarm, sir. A regulation without any serious
significance. Such measures are often taken to anticipate the unhealthy
effects of the heat and the sirocco . . ." But as he raised his blue
eyes, he met the stare of the foreigner, a tired and somewhat unhappy
stare focussed on his lips with a touch of scorn. Then the Englishman
blushed. "At least," he continued in an emotional undertone, "that is
the official explanation which people here are content to accept. I will
admit that there is something more behind it." And then in his frank and
leisurely manner he told the truth.</p>
<p>For several years now Indian cholera had shown a heightened tendency to
spread and migrate. Hatched in the warm swamps of the Ganges delta,
rising with the noxious breath of that luxuriant, unfit primitive world
and island wilderness which is shunned by humans and where the tiger
crouches in the bamboo thickets, the plague had raged continuously and
with unusual strength in Hindustan, had reached eastwards to China,
westwards to Afghanistan and Persia, and following the chief caravan
routes, had carried its terrors to Astrachan, and even to Moscow. But
while Europe was trembling lest the spectre continue its advance from
there across the country, it had been transported over the sea by Syrian
merchantmen, and had turned up almost simultaneously in several
Mediterranean ports, had raised its head in Toulon and Malaga, had
showed its mask several times in Palermo and Naples, and seemed
permanently entrenched through Calabria and Apulia. The north of the
peninsula had been spared. Yet in the middle of this May in Venice the
frightful vibrions were found on one and the same day in the blackish
wasted bodies of a cabin boy and a woman who sold greengroceries. The
cases were kept secret. But within a week there were ten, twenty, thirty
more, and in various sections. A man from the Austrian provinces who had
made a pleasure trip to Venice for a few days, returned to his home town
and died with unmistakable symptoms—and that is how the first reports
of the pestilence in the lagoon city got into the German newspapers. The
Venetian authorities answered that the city's health conditions had
never been better, and took the most necessary preventive measures. But
probably the food supply had been infected. Denied and glossed over,
death was eating its way along the narrow streets, and its dissemination
was especially favoured by the premature summer heat which made the
water of the canals lukewarm. Yes, it seemed as though the plague had
got renewed strength, as though the tenacity and fruitfulness of its
stimuli had doubled. Cases of recovery were rare. Out of a hundred
attacks, eighty were fatal, and in the most horrible manner. For the
plague moved with utter savagery, and often showed that most dangerous
form, which is called "the drying." Water from the blood vessels
collected in pockets, and the blood was unable to carry this off. Within
a few hours the victim was parched, his blood became as thick as glue,
and he stifled amid cramps and hoarse groans. Lucky for him if, as
sometimes happened, the attack took the form of a light discomfiture
followed by a profound coma from which he seldom or never awakened. At
the beginning of June the pesthouse of the Ospedale Civico had quietly
filled; there was not much room left in the two orphan asylums, and a
frightfully active commerce was kept up between the wharf of the
Fondamenta Nuove and San Michele, the burial island. But there was the
fear of a general drop in prosperity. The recently opened art exhibit in
the public gardens was to be considered, along with the heavy losses
which in case of panic or unfavourable rumours, would threaten business,
the hotels, the entire elaborate system for exploiting foreigners—and
as these considerations evidently carried more weight than love of truth
or respect for international agreements, the city authorities upheld
obstinately their policy of silence and denial. The chief health officer
had resigned from his post in indignation, and been promptly replaced by
a more tractable personality. The people knew this; and the corruption
of their superiors, together with the predominating insecurity, the
exceptional condition into which the prevalence of death had plunged the
city, induced a certain demoralization of the lower classes, encouraging
shady and anti-social impulses which manifested themselves in licence,
profligacy, and a rising crime wave. Contrary to custom, many drunkards
were seen in the evenings; it was said that at night nasty mobs made the
streets unsafe. Burglaries and even murders became frequent, for it had
already been proved on two occasions that persons who had presumably
fallen victim to the plague had in reality been dispatched with poison
by their own relatives. And professional debauchery assumed abnormal and
obtrusive proportions such as had never been known here before, and to
an extent which is usually found only in the southern parts of the
country and in the Orient.</p>
<p>The Englishman pronounced the final verdict on these facts. "You would
do well," he concluded, "to leave to-day rather than to-morrow. It
cannot be much more than a couple of days before a quarantine zone is
declared." "Thank you," Aschenbach said, and left the office.</p>
<p>The square lay sunless and stifling. Unsuspecting foreigners sat in
front of the cafés, or stood among the pigeons in front of the church
and watched the swarms of birds flapping their wings, crowding one
another, and pecking at grains of corn offered them in open palms. The
recluse was feverishly excited, triumphant in his possession of the
truth. But it had left him with a bad taste in his mouth, and a weird
horror in his heart. As he walked up and down the flagstones of the
gorgeous court he was weighing an action which would meet the situation
and would absolve him. This evening after dinner he could approach the
woman with the pearls and make her a speech; he had figured it out word
for word: "Permit a foreigner, madam, to give you some useful advice, a
warning, which is being withheld from you through self-interest. Leave
immediately with Tadzio and your daughters! Venice is full of the
plague." Then he could lay a farewell hand on the head of this tool of a
mocking divinity, turn away, and flee this morass. But he felt at the
same time that he was very far from seriously desiring such a move. He
would retract it, would disengage himself from it. . . . But when we are
distracted we loathe most the thought of retracing our steps. He
recalled a white building, ornamented with inscriptions which glistened
in the evening and in whose transparent mysticism his mind's eye had
lost itself—and then that strange wanderer's form which had awakened
in the aging man the roving hankerings of youth after the foreign and the
remote. And the thought of return, the thought of prudence and
soberness, effort, mastery, disgusted him to such an extent that his
face was distorted with an expression of physical nausea. "It must be
kept silent!" he whispered heavily. And: "I will keep silent!" The
consciousness of his share in the facts and the guilt intoxicated him,
much as a little wine intoxicates a tired brain. The picture of the
diseased and neglected city hovering desolately before him aroused vague
hopes beyond the bounds of reason, but with an egregious sweetness. What
was the scant happiness he had dreamed of a moment ago, compared with
these expectations? What were art and virtue worth to him, over against
the advantages of chaos? He kept silent, and remained in Venice.</p>
<p>This same night he had a frightful dream, if one can designate as a
dream a bodily and mental experience which occurred to him in the
deepest sleep, completely independent of him, and with a physical
realness, although he never saw himself present or moving about among
the incidents; but their stage rather was his soul itself, and they
broke in from without, trampling down his resistance—a profound and
spiritual resistance—by sheer force; and when they had passed
through, they left his substance, the culture of his lifetime, crushed and
annihilated behind them.</p>
<p>It began with anguish, anguish and desire, and a frightened curiosity as
to what was coming. It was night, and his senses were on the watch. From
far off a grumble, an uproar, was approaching, a jumble of noises.
Clanking, blaring, and dull thunder, with shrill shouts and a definite
whine in a long drawn out u-sound—all this was sweetly, ominously
interspersed and dominated by the deep cooing of wickedly persistent
flutes which charmed the bowels in a shamelessly penetrative manner. But
he knew one word; it was veiled, and yet would name what was
approaching: "The foreign god!" Vaporous fire began to glow; then he
recognized mountains like those about his summer house. And in the
scattered light, from high up in the woods, among tree trunks and
crumbling moss-grown rocks—people, beasts, a throng, a raging mob
plunged twisting and whirling downwards, and made the hill swarm with
bodies, flames, tumult, and a riotous round dance. Women, tripped by
over-long fur draperies which hung from their waists, were holding up
tambourines and beating on them, their groaning heads flung back. Others
swung sparking firebrands and bare daggers, or wore hissing snakes about
the middle of their bodies, or shrieking held their breasts in their two
hands. Men with horns on their foreheads, shaggy-haired, girded with
hides, bent back their necks and raised their arms and thighs, clashed
brass cymbals and beat furiously at kettledrums, while smooth boys
prodded he-goats with wreathed sticks, climbing on their horns and
falling off with shouts when they bounded. And the bacchantes wailed the
word with the soft consonants and the drawn out u-sound, at once sweet
and savage, like nothing ever heard before. In one place it rang out as
though piped into the air by stags, and it was echoed in another by many
voices, in wild triumph—with it they incited one another to dance and
to fling out their arms and legs, and it was never silent. But
everything was pierced and dominated by the deep coaxing flute. He who
was fighting against this experience—did it not coax him too with its
shameless penetration, into the feast and the excesses of the extreme
sacrifice? His repugnance, his fear, were keen—he was honourably set
on defending himself to the very last against the barbarian, the foe to
intellectual poise and dignity. But the noise, the howling, multiplied
by the resonant walls of the hills, grew, took the upper hand, swelled
to a fury of rapture. Odours oppressed the senses, the pungent smell of
the bucks, the scent of moist bodies, and a waft of stagnant water, with
another smell, something familiar, the smell of wounds and prevalent
disease. At the beating of the drum his heart fluttered, his head was
spinning, he was caught in a frenzy, in a blinding deafening
lewdness—and he yearned to join the ranks of the god. The obscene
symbol, huge, wooden, was uncovered and raised up; then they howled the
magic word with more abandon. Foaming at the mouth, they raged, teased
one another with ruttish gestures and caressing hands; laughing and
groaning, they stuck the goads into one another's flesh and licked the
blood from their limbs. But the dreamer now was with them, in them, and
he belonged to the foreign god. Yes, they were he himself, as they
hurled themselves biting and tearing upon the animals, got entangled in
steaming rags, and fell in promiscuous unions on the torn moss, in
sacrifice to their god. And his soul tasted the unchastity and fury of
decay.</p>
<p>When he awakened from the affliction of this dream he was unnerved,
shattered, and hopelessly under the power of the demon. He no longer
avoided the inquisitive glances of other people; he did not care if he
was exciting their suspicions. And as a matter of fact they were
fleeing, travelling elsewhere. Numerous bathing houses stood empty, the
occupants of the dining-hall became more and more scattered, and in the
city now one rarely saw a foreigner. The truth seemed to have leaked
out; the panic, despite the reticence of those whose interests were
involved, seemed no longer avoidable. But the woman with the pearls
remained with her family, either because the rumours had not yet reached
her, or because she was too proud and fearless to heed them. Tadzio
remained. And to Aschenbach, in his infatuation, it seemed at times as
though flight and death might remove all the disturbing elements of life
around them, and he stay here alone with the boy. Yes, by the sea in the
forenoon when his eyes rested heavily, irresponsibly, unwaveringly on
the thing he coveted, or when, as the day was ending, he followed
shamelessly after him through streets where the hideous death lurked in
secret—at such times the atrocious seemed to him rich in
possibilities, and laws of morality had dropped away.</p>
<p>Like any lover, he wanted to please; and he felt a bitter anguish lest
it might not be possible. He added bright youthful details to his dress,
he put on jewels, and used perfumes. During the day he often spent much
time over his toilet, and came to the table strikingly dressed, excited,
and in suspense. In the light of the sweet youthfulness which had done
this to him, he detested his aging body. The sight of his grey hair, his
sharp features, plunged him into shame and hopelessness. It induced him
to attempt rejuvenating his body and appearance. He often visited the
hotel barber.</p>
<p>Beneath the barber's apron, leaning back in the chair under the
gossiper's expert hands, he winced to observe his reflection in the
mirror.</p>
<p>"Grey," he said, making a wry face.</p>
<p>"A little," the man answered. "Due entirely to a slight neglect, an
indifference to outward things, which is conceivable in people of
importance, but it is not exactly praiseworthy. And all the less so
since such persons are above prejudice in matters of nature or art. If
the moral objections of certain people to the art of cosmetics were to
be logically extended to the care of the teeth, they would give no
slight offence. And after all, we are just as old as we feel, and under
some circumstances grey hair would actually stand for more of an untruth
than the despised correction. In your case, sir, you are entitled to the
natural colour of your hair. Will you permit me simply to return what
belongs to you?"</p>
<p>"How is that?" Aschenbach asked.</p>
<p>Then the orator washed his client's hair with two kinds of water, one
clear and one dark, and it was as black as in youth. Following this, he
curled it with irons into soft waves, stepped back, and eyed his work.</p>
<p>"All that is left now," he said, "would be to freshen up the skin a
little."</p>
<p>And like someone who cannot finish, cannot satisfy himself, he passed
with quickening energy from one manipulation to another. Aschenbach
rested comfortably, incapable of resistance, or rather his hopes aroused
by what was taking place. In the glass he saw his brows arch more evenly
and decisively. His eyes became longer; their brilliance was heightened
by a light touching-up of the lids. A little lower, where the skin had
been a leatherish brown, he saw a delicate crimson tint grow beneath a
deft application of colour. His lips, bloodless a little while past,
became full, and as red as raspberries. The furrows in the cheeks and
about the mouth, the wrinkles of the eyes, disappeared beneath lotions
and cream. With a knocking heart he beheld a blossoming youth. Finally
the beauty specialist declared himself content, after the manner of such
people, by obsequiously thanking the man he had been serving. "A
trifling assistance," he said, as he applied one parting touch. "Now the
gentleman can fall in love unhesitatingly." He walked away, fascinated;
he was happy as in a dream, timid and bewildered. His necktie was red,
his broad-brimmed straw hat was trimmed with a variegated band.</p>
<p>A tepid storm wind had risen. It was raining sparsely and at intervals,
but the air was damp, thick, and filled with the smell of things
rotting. All around him he heard a fluttering, pattering, and swishing;
and under the fever of his cosmetics it seemed to him as though evil
wind-spirits were haunting the place, impure sea birds which rooted and
gnawed at the food of the condemned and befouled it with their
droppings. For the sultriness destroyed his appetite, and the fancy
suggested itself that the foods were poisoned with contaminating
substances. Tracking the boy one afternoon, Aschenbach had plunged deep
into the tangled centre of the diseased city. He was becoming uncertain
of where he was, since the alleys, waterways, bridges, and little
squares of the labyrinth were all so much alike, and he was no longer
even sure of directions. He was absorbed with the problem of keeping the
pursued figure in sight. And, driven to disgraceful subterfuges,
flattening himself against walls, hiding behind the backs of other
people, for a long time he did not notice the weariness, the exhaustion,
with which emotion and the continual suspense had taxed his mind and his
body. Tadzio walked behind his companions. He always allowed the
governess and the nunlike sisters to precede him in the narrow places;
and loitering behind alone, he would turn his head occasionally to look
over his shoulder and make sure by a glance of his peculiarly dark-grey
eyes that his admirer was following. He saw him, and did not betray him.
Drunk with the knowledge of this, lured forward by those eyes, led
meekly by his passion, the lover stole after his unseemly hope—but
finally he was cheated and lost sight of him. The Poles had crossed a
short arching bridge; the height of the curve hid them from the pursuer,
and when he himself had arrived there he no longer saw them. He hunted
for them vainly in three directions, straight ahead and to either side
along the narrow dirty wharf. In the end he was so tired and unnerved
that he had to give up the search.</p>
<p>His head was on fire, his body was covered with a sticky sweat, his
knees trembled. He could no longer endure the thirst that was torturing
him, and he looked around for some immediate relief. From a little
vegetable store he bought some fruit—strawberries, soft and overly
ripe—and he ate them as he walked. A very charming, forsaken little
square opened up before him. He recognized it; here he had made his
frustrated plans for flight weeks ago. He let himself sink down on the
steps of the cistern in the middle of the square, and laid his head
against the stone cylinder. It was quiet; grass was growing up through
the pavement; refuse was scattered about. Among the weather-beaten,
unusually tall houses surrounding him there was one like a palace, with
little lion-covered balconies, and Gothic windows with blank emptiness
behind them. On the ground floor of another house was a drug store. Warm
gusts of wind occasionally carried the smell of carbolic acid.</p>
<p>He sat there, he, the master, the artist of dignity, the author of The
Wretch, a work which had, in such accurate symbols, renounced
vagabondage and the depths of misery, had denied all sympathy with the
engulfed, and had cast out the outcast; the man who had arrived and,
victor over his own knowledge, had outgrown all irony and acclimatized
himself to the obligations of public confidence; whose reputation was
official, whose name had been knighted, and on whose style boys were
urged to pattern themselves—he sat there. His eyelids were shut; only
now and then a mocking uneasy side-glance slipped out from beneath them.
And his loose lips, set off by the cosmetics, formed isolated words of
the strange dream-logic created by his half-slumbering brain.</p>
<p>"For beauty, Phaedrus, mark me, beauty alone is both divine and visible
at once; and thus it is the road of the sensuous; it is, little
Phaedrus, the road of the artist to the spiritual. But do you now
believe, my dear, that they can ever attain wisdom and true human
dignity for whom the road to the spiritual leads through the senses? Or
do you believe rather (I leave the choice to you) that this is a
pleasant but perilous road, a really wrong and sinful road, which
necessarily leads astray? For you must know that we poets cannot take
the road of beauty without having Eros join us and set himself up as our
leader. Indeed, we may even be heroes after our fashion, and hardened
warriors, though we be like women, for passion is our exaltation, and our
desire must remain love—that is our pleasure and our disgrace. You
now see, do you not, that we poets cannot be wise and dignified? That we
necessarily go astray, necessarily remain lascivious, and adventurers in
emotion? The mastery of our style is all lies and foolishness, our
renown and honour are a farce, the confidence of the masses in us is
highly ridiculous, and the training of the public and of youth through
art is a precarious undertaking which should be forbidden. For how
indeed could he be a fit instructor who is born with a natural leaning
towards the precipice? We might well disavow it and reach after dignity,
but wherever we turn it attracts us. Let us, say, renounce the
dissolvent of knowledge, since knowledge, Phaedrus, has no dignity or
strength. It is aware, it understands and pardons, but without reserve
and form. It feels sympathy with the precipice, it is the precipice.
This then we abandon with firmness, and from now on our efforts matter
only by their yield of beauty, or in other words, simplicity, greatness,
and new rigour, form, and a second type of openness. But form and
openness, Phaedrus, lead to intoxication and to desire, lead the noble
perhaps into sinister revels of emotion which his own beautiful rigour
rejects as infamous, lead to the precipice, yes they too lead to the
precipice. They lead us poets there, I say, since we cannot force
ourselves, since we can merely let ourselves out And now I am going,
Phaedrus. You stay here; and when you no longer see me, then you go
too."</p>
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<p>A few days later, as Gustav von Aschenbach was not feeling well, he left
the beach hotel at a later hour in the morning than usual. He had to
fight against certain attacks of vertigo which were only partially
physical and were accompanied by a pronounced malaise, a feeling of
bafflement and hopelessness—while he was not certain whether this had
to do with conditions outside him or with his own nature. In the lobby
he noticed a large pile of luggage ready for shipment; he asked the
door-keeper who it was that was leaving, and heard in answer the Polish
title which he had learned secretly. He accepted this without any
alteration of his sunken features, with that curt elevation of the head
by which one acknowledges something he does not need to know. Then he
asked, "When?" The answer was, "After lunch." He nodded, and went to the
beach.</p>
<p>It was not very inviting. Rippling patches of rain retreated across the
wide flat water separating the beach from the first long sand-bank. An
air of autumn, of things past their prime, seemed to lie over the
pleasure spot which had once been so alive with colour and was now
almost abandoned. The sand was no longer kept clean. A camera, seemingly
without an owner, stood on its tripod by the edge of the sea; and a
black cloth thrown over it was flapping noisily in the wind.</p>
<p>Tadzio, with the three or four companions still left, was moving about
to the right in front of his family's cabin. And midway between the sea
and the row of bathing houses, lying back in his chair with a robe over
his knees, Aschenbach looked at him once more. The game, which was not
being supervised since the women were probably occupied with
preparations for the journey, seemed to have no rules, and it was
degenerating. The stocky boy with the sleek black hair who was called
Jaschu had been angered and blinded by sand flung in his face. He forced
Tadzio into a wrestling match which quickly ended in the fall of the
beauty, who was weaker. But as though in the hour of parting the servile
feelings of the inferior had turned to merciless brutality and were
trying to get vengeance for a long period of slavery, the victor did not
let go of the boy underneath, but knelt on his back and pressed his face
so persistently into the sand that Tadzio, already breathless from the
struggle, was in danger of strangling. His attempts to shake off the
weight were fitful; for moments they stopped entirely and were resumed
again as mere twitchings. Enraged, Aschenbach was about to spring to the
rescue, when the torturer finally released his victim. Tadzio, very
pale, raised himself halfway and sat motionless for several minutes,
resting on one arm, with rumpled hair and glowering eyes. Then he stood
up completely, and moved slowly away. They called him, cheerfully at
first, then anxiously and imploringly; he did not listen. The swarthy
boy, who seemed to regret his excesses immediately afterwards, caught up
with him and tried to placate him. A movement of the shoulder put him at
his distance. Tadzio went down obliquely to the water. He was barefoot,
and wore his striped linen suit with the red bow.</p>
<p>He lingered on the edge of the water with his head down, drawing figures
in the wet sand with one toe; then he went into the shallows, which did
not cover his knees in the deepest place, crossed them leisurely, and
arrived at the sand-bank. He stood there a moment, his face turned to
the open sea; soon after, he began stepping slowly to the left along the
narrow stretch of exposed ground. Separated from the mainland by the
expanse of water, separated from his companions by a proud moodiness, he
moved along, a strongly isolated and unrelated figure with fluttering
hair—placed out there in the sea, the wind, against the vague mists.
He stopped once more to look around. And suddenly, as though at some
recollection, some impulse, with one hand on his hip he turned the upper
part of his body in a beautiful twist which began from the base—and
he looked over his shoulder towards the shore. The watcher sat there, as he
had sat once before when for the first time these twilight-grey eyes had
turned at the doorway and met his own. His head, against the back of the
chair, had slowly followed the movements of the boy walking yonder. Now,
simultaneously with this glance it rose and sank on his breast, so that
his eyes looked out from underneath, while his face took on the loose,
inwardly relaxed expression of deep sleep. But it seemed to him as
though the pale and lovely lure out there were smiling to him, nodding
to him; as though, removing his hand from his hip, he were signalling to
come out, were vaguely guiding towards egregious promises. And, as often
before, he stood up to follow him.</p>
<p>Some minutes passed before any one hurried to the aid of the man who had
collapsed into one corner of his chair. He was brought to his room. And
on the same day a respectfully shocked world received the news of his
death.</p>
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