<h2>CHAPTER XII.</h2>
<p>“That is the place,” said Dain, indicating with the blade
of his paddle a small islet about a mile ahead of the canoe—“that
is the place where Babalatchi promised that a boat from the prau would
come for me when the sun is overhead. We will wait for that boat
there.”</p>
<p>Almayer, who was steering, nodded without speaking, and by a slight
sweep of his paddle laid the head of the canoe in the required direction.</p>
<p>They were just leaving the southern outlet of the Pantai, which lay
behind them in a straight and long vista of water shining between two
walls of thick verdure that ran downwards and towards each other, till
at last they joined and sank together in the far-away distance.
The sun, rising above the calm waters of the Straits, marked its own
path by a streak of light that glided upon the sea and darted up the
wide reach of the river, a hurried messenger of light and life to the
gloomy forests of the coast; and in this radiance of the sun’s
pathway floated the black canoe heading for the islet which lay bathed
in sunshine, the yellow sands of its encircling beach shining like an
inlaid golden disc on the polished steel of the unwrinkled sea.
To the north and south of it rose other islets, joyous in their brilliant
colouring of green and yellow, and on the main coast the sombre line
of mangrove bushes ended to the southward in the reddish cliffs of Tanjong
Mirrah, advancing into the sea, steep and shadowless under the clear,
light of the early morning.</p>
<p>The bottom of the canoe grated upon the sand as the little craft
ran upon the beach. Ali leaped on shore and held on while Dain
stepped out carrying Nina in his arms, exhausted by the events and the
long travelling during the night. Almayer was the last to leave
the boat, and together with Ali ran it higher up on the beach.
Then Ali, tired out by the long paddling, laid down in the shade of
the canoe, and incontinently fell asleep. Almayer sat sideways
on the gunwale, and with his arms crossed on his breast, looked to the
southward upon the sea.</p>
<p>After carefully laying Nina down in the shade of the bushes growing
in the middle of the islet, Dain threw himself beside her and watched
in silent concern the tears that ran down from under her closed eyelids,
and lost themselves in that fine sand upon which they both were lying
face to face. These tears and this sorrow were for him a profound
and disquieting mystery. Now, when the danger was past, why should
she grieve? He doubted her love no more than he would have doubted
the fact of his own existence, but as he lay looking ardently in her
face, watching her tears, her parted lips, her very breath, he was uneasily
conscious of something in her he could not understand. Doubtless
she had the wisdom of perfect beings. He sighed. He felt
something invisible that stood between them, something that would let
him approach her so far, but no farther. No desire, no longing,
no effort of will or length of life could destroy this vague feeling
of their difference. With awe but also with great pride he concluded
that it was her own incomparable perfection. She was his, and
yet she was like a woman from another world. His! His!
He exulted in the glorious thought; nevertheless her tears pained him.</p>
<p>With a wisp of her own hair which he took in his hand with timid
reverence he tried in an access of clumsy tenderness to dry the tears
that trembled on her eyelashes. He had his reward in a fleeting
smile that brightened her face for the short fraction of a second, but
soon the tears fell faster than ever, and he could bear it no more.
He rose and walked towards Almayer, who still sat absorbed in his contemplation
of the sea. It was a very, very long time since he had seen the
sea—that sea that leads everywhere, brings everything, and takes
away so much. He had almost forgotten why he was there, and dreamily
he could see all his past life on the smooth and boundless surface that
glittered before his eyes.</p>
<p>Dain’s hand laid on Almayer’s shoulder recalled him with
a start from some country very far away indeed. He turned round,
but his eyes seemed to look rather at the place where Dain stood than
at the man himself. Dain felt uneasy under the unconscious gaze.</p>
<p>“What?” said Almayer.</p>
<p>“She is crying,” murmured Dain, softly.</p>
<p>“She is crying! Why?” asked Almayer, indifferently.</p>
<p>“I came to ask you. My Ranee smiles when looking at the
man she loves. It is the white woman that is crying now.
You would know.”</p>
<p>Almayer shrugged his shoulders and turned away again towards the
sea.</p>
<p>“Go, Tuan Putih,” urged Dain. “Go to her;
her tears are more terrible to me than the anger of gods.”</p>
<p>“Are they? You will see them more than once. She
told me she could not live without you,” answered Almayer, speaking
without the faintest spark of expression in his face, “so it behoves
you to go to her quick, for fear you may find her dead.”</p>
<p>He burst into a loud and unpleasant laugh which made Dain stare at
him with some apprehension, but got off the gunwale of the boat and
moved slowly towards Nina, glancing up at the sun as he walked.</p>
<p>“And you go when the sun is overhead?” he said.</p>
<p>“Yes, Tuan. Then we go,” answered Dain.</p>
<p>“I have not long to wait,” muttered Almayer. “It
is most important for me to see you go. Both of you. Most
important,” he repeated, stopping short and looking at Dain fixedly.</p>
<p>He went on again towards Nina, and Dain remained behind. Almayer
approached his daughter and stood for a time looking down on her.
She did not open her eyes, but hearing footsteps near her, murmured
in a low sob, “Dain.”</p>
<p>Almayer hesitated for a minute and then sank on the sand by her side.
She, not hearing a responsive word, not feeling a touch, opened her
eyes—saw her father, and sat up suddenly with a movement of terror.</p>
<p>“Oh, father!” she murmured faintly, and in that word
there was expressed regret and fear and dawning hope.</p>
<p>“I shall never forgive you, Nina,” said Almayer, in a
dispassionate voice. “You have torn my heart from me while
I dreamt of your happiness. You have deceived me. Your eyes
that for me were like truth itself lied to me in every glance—for
how long? You know that best. When you were caressing my
cheek you were counting the minutes to the sunset that was the signal
for your meeting with that man—there!”</p>
<p>He ceased, and they both sat silent side by side, not looking at
each other, but gazing at the vast expanse of the sea. Almayer’s
words had dried Nina’s tears, and her look grew hard as she stared
before her into the limitless sheet of blue that shone limpid, unwaving,
and steady like heaven itself. He looked at it also, but his features
had lost all expression, and life in his eyes seemed to have gone out.
The face was a blank, without a sign of emotion, feeling, reason, or
even knowledge of itself. All passion, regret, grief, hope, or
anger—all were gone, erased by the hand of fate, as if after this
last stroke everything was over and there was no need for any record.</p>
<p>Those few who saw Almayer during the short period of his remaining
days were always impressed by the sight of that face that seemed to
know nothing of what went on within: like the blank wall of a prison
enclosing sin, regrets, and pain, and wasted life, in the cold indifference
of mortar and stones.</p>
<p>“What is there to forgive?” asked Nina, not addressing
Almayer directly, but more as if arguing with herself. “Can
I not live my own life as you have lived yours? The path you would
have wished me to follow has been closed to me by no fault of mine.”</p>
<p>“You never told me,” muttered Almayer.</p>
<p>“You never asked me,” she answered, “and I thought
you were like the others and did not care. I bore the memory of
my humiliation alone, and why should I tell you that it came to me because
I am your daughter? I knew you could not avenge me.”</p>
<p>“And yet I was thinking of that only,” interrupted Almayer,
“and I wanted to give you years of happiness for the short day
of your suffering. I only knew of one way.”</p>
<p>“Ah! but it was not my way!” she replied. “Could
you give me happiness without life? Life!” she repeated
with sudden energy that sent the word ringing over the sea. “Life
that means power and love,” she added in a low voice.</p>
<p>“That!” said Almayer, pointing his finger at Dain standing
close by and looking at them in curious wonder.</p>
<p>“Yes, that!” she replied, looking her father full in
the face and noticing for the first time with a slight gasp of fear
the unnatural rigidity of his features.</p>
<p>“I would have rather strangled you with my own hands,”
said Almayer, in an expressionless voice which was such a contrast to
the desperate bitterness of his feelings that it surprised even himself.
He asked himself who spoke, and, after looking slowly round as if expecting
to see somebody, turned again his eyes towards the sea.</p>
<p>“You say that because you do not understand the meaning of
my words,” she said sadly. “Between you and my mother
there never was any love. When I returned to Sambir I found the
place which I thought would be a peaceful refuge for my heart, filled
with weariness and hatred—and mutual contempt. I have listened
to your voice and to her voice. Then I saw that you could not
understand me; for was I not part of that woman? Of her who was
the regret and shame of your life? I had to choose—I hesitated.
Why were you so blind? Did you not see me struggling before your
eyes? But, when he came, all doubt disappeared, and I saw only
the light of the blue and cloudless heaven—”</p>
<p>“I will tell you the rest,” interrupted Almayer:
“when that man came I also saw the blue and the sunshine of the
sky. A thunderbolt has fallen from that sky, and suddenly all
is still and dark around me for ever. I will never forgive you,
Nina; and to-morrow I shall forget you! I shall never forgive
you,” he repeated with mechanical obstinacy while she sat, her
head bowed down as if afraid to look at her father.</p>
<p>To him it seemed of the utmost importance that he should assure her
of his intention of never forgiving. He was convinced that his
faith in her had been the foundation of his hopes, the motive of his
courage, of his determination to live and struggle, and to be victorious
for her sake. And now his faith was gone, destroyed by her own
hands; destroyed cruelly, treacherously, in the dark; in the very moment
of success. In the utter wreck of his affections and of all his
feelings, in the chaotic disorder of his thoughts, above the confused
sensation of physical pain that wrapped him up in a sting as of a whiplash
curling round him from his shoulders down to his feet, only one idea
remained clear and definite—not to forgive her; only one vivid
desire—to forget her. And this must be made clear to her—and
to himself—by frequent repetition. That was his idea of
his duty to himself—to his race—to his respectable connections;
to the whole universe unsettled and shaken by this frightful catastrophe
of his life. He saw it clearly and believed he was a strong man.
He had always prided himself upon his unflinching firmness. And
yet he was afraid. She had been all in all to him. What
if he should let the memory of his love for her weaken the sense of
his dignity? She was a remarkable woman; he could see that; all
the latent greatness of his nature—in which he honestly believed—had
been transfused into that slight, girlish figure. Great things
could be done! What if he should suddenly take her to his heart,
forget his shame, and pain, and anger, and—follow her! What
if he changed his heart if not his skin and made her life easier between
the two loves that would guard her from any mischance! His heart
yearned for her. What if he should say that his love for her was
greater than . . .</p>
<p>“I will never forgive you, Nina!” he shouted, leaping
up madly in the sudden fear of his dream.</p>
<p>This was the last time in his life that he was heard to raise his
voice. Henceforth he spoke always in a monotonous whisper like
an instrument of which all the strings but one are broken in a last
ringing clamour under a heavy blow.</p>
<p>She rose to her feet and looked at him. The very violence of
his cry soothed her in an intuitive conviction of his love, and she
hugged to her breast the lamentable remnants of that affection with
the unscrupulous greediness of women who cling desperately to the very
scraps and rags of love, any kind of love, as a thing that of right
belongs to them and is the very breath of their life. She put
both her hands on Almayer’s shoulders, and looking at him half
tenderly, half playfully, she said—</p>
<p>“You speak so because you love me.”</p>
<p>Almayer shook his head.</p>
<p>“Yes, you do,” she insisted softly; then after a short
pause she added, “and you will never forget me.”</p>
<p>Almayer shivered slightly. She could not have said a more cruel
thing.</p>
<p>“Here is the boat coming now,” said Dain, his arm outstretched
towards a black speck on the water between the coast and the islet.</p>
<p>They all looked at it and remained standing in silence till the little
canoe came gently on the beach and a man landed and walked towards them.
He stopped some distance off and hesitated.</p>
<p>“What news?” asked Dain.</p>
<p>“We have had orders secretly and in the night to take off from
this islet a man and a woman. I see the woman. Which of
you is the man?”</p>
<p>“Come, delight of my eyes,” said Dain to Nina.
“Now we go, and your voice shall be for my ears only. You
have spoken your last words to the Tuan Putih, your father. Come.”</p>
<p>She hesitated for a while, looking at Almayer, who kept his eyes
steadily on the sea, then she touched his forehead in a lingering kiss,
and a tear—one of her tears—fell on his cheek and ran down
his immovable face.</p>
<p>“Goodbye,” she whispered, and remained irresolute till
he pushed her suddenly into Dain’s arms.</p>
<p>“If you have any pity for me,” murmured Almayer, as if
repeating some sentence learned by heart, “take that woman away.”</p>
<p>He stood very straight, his shoulders thrown back, his head held
high, and looked at them as they went down the beach to the canoe, walking
enlaced in each other’s arms. He looked at the line of their
footsteps marked in the sand. He followed their figures moving
in the crude blaze of the vertical sun, in that light violent and vibrating,
like a triumphal flourish of brazen trumpets. He looked at the
man’s brown shoulders, at the red sarong round his waist; at the
tall, slender, dazzling white figure he supported. He looked at
the white dress, at the falling masses of the long black hair.
He looked at them embarking, and at the canoe growing smaller in the
distance, with rage, despair, and regret in his heart, and on his face
a peace as that of a carved image of oblivion. Inwardly he felt
himself torn to pieces, but Ali—who now aroused—stood close
to his master, saw on his features the blank expression of those who
live in that hopeless calm which sightless eyes only can give.</p>
<p>The canoe disappeared, and Almayer stood motionless with his eyes
fixed on its wake. Ali from under the shade of his hand examined
the coast curiously. As the sun declined, the sea-breeze sprang
up from the northward and shivered with its breath the glassy surface
of the water.</p>
<p>“Dapat!” exclaimed Ali, joyously. “Got him,
master! Got prau! Not there! Look more Tanah Mirrah
side. Aha! That way! Master, see? Now plain.
See?”</p>
<p>Almayer followed Ali’s forefinger with his eyes for a long
time in vain. At last he sighted a triangular patch of yellow
light on the red background of the cliffs of Tanjong Mirrah. It
was the sail of the prau that had caught the sunlight and stood out,
distinct with its gay tint, on the dark red of the cape. The yellow
triangle crept slowly from cliff to cliff, till it cleared the last
point of land and shone brilliantly for a fleeting minute on the blue
of the open sea. Then the prau bore up to the southward: the light
went out of the sail, and all at once the vessel itself disappeared,
vanishing in the shadow of the steep headland that looked on, patient
and lonely, watching over the empty sea.</p>
<p>Almayer never moved. Round the little islet the air was full
of the talk of the rippling water. The crested wavelets ran up
the beach audaciously, joyously, with the lightness of young life, and
died quickly, unresistingly, and graciously, in the wide curves of transparent
foam on the yellow sand. Above, the white clouds sailed rapidly
southwards as if intent upon overtaking something. Ali seemed
anxious.</p>
<p>“Master,” he said timidly, “time to get house now.
Long way off to pull. All ready, sir.”</p>
<p>“Wait,” whispered Almayer.</p>
<p>Now she was gone his business was to forget, and he had a strange
notion that it should be done systematically and in order. To
Ali’s great dismay he fell on his hands and knees, and, creeping
along the sand, erased carefully with his hand all traces of Nina’s
footsteps. He piled up small heaps of sand, leaving behind him
a line of miniature graves right down to the water. After burying
the last slight imprint of Nina’s slipper he stood up, and, turning
his face towards the headland where he had last seen the prau, he made
an effort to shout out loud again his firm resolve to never forgive.
Ali watching him uneasily saw only his lips move, but heard no sound.
He brought his foot down with a stamp. He was a firm man—firm
as a rock. Let her go. He never had a daughter. He
would forget. He was forgetting already.</p>
<p>Ali approached him again, insisting on immediate departure, and this
time he consented, and they went together towards their canoe, Almayer
leading. For all his firmness he looked very dejected and feeble
as he dragged his feet slowly through the sand on the beach; and by
his side—invisible to Ali—stalked that particular fiend
whose mission it is to jog the memories of men, lest they should forget
the meaning of life. He whispered into Almayer’s ear a childish
prattle of many years ago. Almayer, his head bent on one side,
seemed to listen to his invisible companion, but his face was like the
face of a man that has died struck from behind—a face from which
all feelings and all expression are suddenly wiped off by the hand of
unexpected death.</p>
<p>* * * * *</p>
<p>They slept on the river that night, mooring their canoe under the
bushes and lying down in the bottom side by side, in the absolute exhaustion
that kills hunger, thirst, all feeling and all thought in the overpowering
desire for that deep sleep which is like the temporary annihilation
of the tired body. Next day they started again and fought doggedly
with the current all the morning, till about midday they reached the
settlement and made fast their little craft to the jetty of Lingard
and Co. Almayer walked straight to the house, and Ali followed,
paddles on shoulder, thinking that he would like to eat something.
As they crossed the front courtyard they noticed the abandoned look
of the place. Ali looked in at the different servants’ houses:
all were empty. In the back courtyard there was the same absence
of sound and life. In the cooking-shed the fire was out and the
black embers were cold. A tall, lean man came stealthily out of
the banana plantation, and went away rapidly across the open space looking
at them with big, frightened eyes over his shoulder. Some vagabond
without a master; there were many such in the settlement, and they looked
upon Almayer as their patron. They prowled about his premises
and picked their living there, sure that nothing worse could befall
them than a shower of curses when they got in the way of the white man,
whom they trusted and liked, and called a fool amongst themselves.
In the house, which Almayer entered through the back verandah, the only
living thing that met his eyes was his small monkey which, hungry and
unnoticed for the last two days, began to cry and complain in monkey
language as soon as it caught sight of the familiar face. Almayer
soothed it with a few words and ordered Ali to bring in some bananas,
then while Ali was gone to get them he stood in the doorway of the front
verandah looking at the chaos of overturned furniture. Finally
he picked up the table and sat on it while the monkey let itself down
from the roof-stick by its chain and perched on his shoulder.
When the bananas came they had their breakfast together; both hungry,
both eating greedily and showering the skins round them recklessly,
in the trusting silence of perfect friendship. Ali went away,
grumbling, to cook some rice himself, for all the women about the house
had disappeared; he did not know where. Almayer did not seem to
care, and, after he finished eating, he sat on the table swinging his
legs and staring at the river as if lost in thought.</p>
<p>After some time he got up and went to the door of a room on the right
of the verandah. That was the office. The office of Lingard
and Co. He very seldom went in there. There was no business
now, and he did not want an office. The door was locked, and he
stood biting his lower lip, trying to think of the place where the key
could be. Suddenly he remembered: in the women’s room hung
upon a nail. He went over to the doorway where the red curtain
hung down in motionless folds, and hesitated for a moment before pushing
it aside with his shoulder as if breaking down some solid obstacle.
A great square of sunshine entering through the window lay on the floor.
On the left he saw Mrs. Almayer’s big wooden chest, the lid thrown
back, empty; near it the brass nails of Nina’s European trunk
shone in the large initials N. A. on the cover. A few of Nina’s
dresses hung on wooden pegs, stiffened in a look of offended dignity
at their abandonment. He remembered making the pegs himself and
noticed that they were very good pegs. Where was the key?
He looked round and saw it near the door where he stood. It was
red with rust. He felt very much annoyed at that, and directly
afterwards wondered at his own feeling. What did it matter?
There soon would be no key—no door—nothing! He paused,
key in hand, and asked himself whether he knew well what he was about.
He went out again on the verandah and stood by the table thinking.
The monkey jumped down, and, snatching a banana skin, absorbed itself
in picking it to shreds industriously.</p>
<p>“Forget!” muttered Almayer, and that word started before
him a sequence of events, a detailed programme of things to do.
He knew perfectly well what was to be done now. First this, then
that, and then forgetfulness would come easy. Very easy.
He had a fixed idea that if he should not forget before he died he would
have to remember to all eternity. Certain things had to be taken
out of his life, stamped out of sight, destroyed, forgotten. For
a long time he stood in deep thought, lost in the alarming possibilities
of unconquerable memory, with the fear of death and eternity before
him. “Eternity!” he said aloud, and the sound of that
word recalled him out of his reverie. The monkey started, dropped
the skin, and grinned up at him amicably.</p>
<p>He went towards the office door and with some difficulty managed
to open it. He entered in a cloud of dust that rose under his
feet.</p>
<p>Books open with torn pages bestrewed the floor; other books lay about
grimy and black, looking as if they had never been opened. Account
books. In those books he had intended to keep day by day a record
of his rising fortunes. Long time ago. A very long time.
For many years there has been no record to keep on the blue and red
ruled pages! In the middle of the room the big office desk, with
one of its legs broken, careened over like the hull of a stranded ship;
most of the drawers had fallen out, disclosing heaps of paper yellow
with age and dirt. The revolving office chair stood in its place,
but he found the pivot set fast when he tried to turn it. No matter.
He desisted, and his eyes wandered slowly from object to object.
All those things had cost a lot of money at the time. The desk,
the paper, the torn books, and the broken shelves, all under a thick
coat of dust. The very dust and bones of a dead and gone business.
He looked at all these things, all that was left after so many years
of work, of strife, of weariness, of discouragement, conquered so many
times. And all for what? He stood thinking mournfully of
his past life till he heard distinctly the clear voice of a child speaking
amongst all this wreck, ruin, and waste. He started with a great
fear in his heart, and feverishly began to rake in the papers scattered
on the floor, broke the chair into bits, splintered the drawers by banging
them against the desk, and made a big heap of all that rubbish in one
corner of the room.</p>
<p>He came out quickly, slammed the door after him, turned the key,
and, taking it out, ran to the front rail of the verandah, and, with
a great swing of his arm, sent the key whizzing into the river.
This done he went back slowly to the table, called the monkey down,
unhooked its chain, and induced it to remain quiet in the breast of
his jacket. Then he sat again on the table and looked fixedly
at the door of the room he had just left. He listened also intently.
He heard a dry sound of rustling; sharp cracks as of dry wood snapping;
a whirr like of a bird’s wings when it rises suddenly, and then
he saw a thin stream of smoke come through the keyhole. The monkey
struggled under his coat. Ali appeared with his eyes starting
out of his head.</p>
<p>“Master! House burn!” he shouted.</p>
<p>Almayer stood up holding by the table. He could hear the yells
of alarm and surprise in the settlement. Ali wrung his hands,
lamenting aloud.</p>
<p>“Stop this noise, fool!” said Almayer, quietly.
“Pick up my hammock and blankets and take them to the other house.
Quick, now!”</p>
<p>The smoke burst through the crevices of the door, and Ali, with the
hammock in his arms, cleared in one bound the steps of the verandah.</p>
<p>“It has caught well,” muttered Almayer to himself.
“Be quiet, Jack,” he added, as the monkey made a frantic
effort to escape from its confinement.</p>
<p>The door split from top to bottom, and a rush of flame and smoke
drove Almayer away from the table to the front rail of the verandah.
He held on there till a great roar overhead assured him that the roof
was ablaze. Then he ran down the steps of the verandah, coughing,
half choked with the smoke that pursued him in bluish wreaths curling
about his head.</p>
<p>On the other side of the ditch, separating Almayer’s courtyard
from the settlement, a crowd of the inhabitants of Sambir looked at
the burning house of the white man. In the calm air the flames
rushed up on high, coloured pale brick-red, with violet gleams in the
strong sunshine. The thin column of smoke ascended straight and
unwavering till it lost itself in the clear blue of the sky, and, in
the great empty space between the two houses the interested spectators
could see the tall figure of the Tuan Putih, with bowed head and dragging
feet, walking slowly away from the fire towards the shelter of “Almayer’s
Folly.”</p>
<p>In that manner did Almayer move into his new house. He took
possession of the new ruin, and in the undying folly of his heart set
himself to wait in anxiety and pain for that forgetfulness which was
so slow to come. He had done all he could. Every vestige
of Nina’s existence had been destroyed; and now with every sunrise
he asked himself whether the longed-for oblivion would come before sunset,
whether it would come before he died? He wanted to live only long
enough to be able to forget, and the tenacity of his memory filled him
with dread and horror of death; for should it come before he could accomplish
the purpose of his life he would have to remember for ever! He
also longed for loneliness. He wanted to be alone. But he
was not. In the dim light of the rooms with their closed shutters,
in the bright sunshine of the verandah, wherever he went, whichever
way he turned, he saw the small figure of a little maiden with pretty
olive face, with long black hair, her little pink robe slipping off
her shoulders, her big eyes looking up at him in the tender trustfulness
of a petted child. Ali did not see anything, but he also was aware
of the presence of a child in the house. In his long talks by
the evening fires of the settlement he used to tell his intimate friends
of Almayer’s strange doings. His master had turned sorcerer
in his old age. Ali said that often when Tuan Putih had retired
for the night he could hear him talking to something in his room.
Ali thought that it was a spirit in the shape of a child. He knew
his master spoke to a child from certain expressions and words his master
used. His master spoke in Malay a little, but mostly in English,
which he, Ali, could understand. Master spoke to the child at
times tenderly, then he would weep over it, laugh at it, scold it, beg
of it to go away; curse it. It was a bad and stubborn spirit.
Ali thought his master had imprudently called it up, and now could not
get rid of it. His master was very brave; he was not afraid to
curse this spirit in the very Presence; and once he fought with it.
Ali had heard a great noise as of running about inside the room and
groans. His master groaned. Spirits do not groan.
His master was brave, but foolish. You cannot hurt a spirit.
Ali expected to find his master dead next morning, but he came out very
early, looking much older than the day before, and had no food all day.</p>
<p>So far Ali to the settlement. To Captain Ford he was much more
communicative, for the good reason that Captain Ford had the purse and
gave orders. On each of Ford’s monthly visits to Sambir
Ali had to go on board with a report about the inhabitant of “Almayer’s
Folly.” On his first visit to Sambir, after Nina’s
departure, Ford had taken charge of Almayer’s affairs. They
were not cumbersome. The shed for the storage of goods was empty,
the boats had disappeared, appropriated—generally in night-time—by
various citizens of Sambir in need of means of transport. During
a great flood the jetty of Lingard and Co. left the bank and floated
down the river, probably in search of more cheerful surroundings; even
the flock of geese—“the only geese on the east coast”—departed
somewhere, preferring the unknown dangers of the bush to the desolation
of their old home. As time went on the grass grew over the black
patch of ground where the old house used to stand, and nothing remained
to mark the place of the dwelling that had sheltered Almayer’s
young hopes, his foolish dream of splendid future, his awakening, and
his despair.</p>
<p>Ford did not often visit Almayer, for visiting Almayer was not a
pleasant task. At first he used to respond listlessly to the old
seaman’s boisterous inquiries about his health; he even made efforts
to talk, asking for news in a voice that made it perfectly clear that
no news from this world had any interest for him. Then gradually
he became more silent—not sulkily—but as if he was forgetting
how to speak. He used also to hide in the darkest rooms of the
house, where Ford had to seek him out guided by the patter of the monkey
galloping before him. The monkey was always there to receive and
introduce Ford. The little animal seemed to have taken complete
charge of its master, and whenever it wished for his presence on the
verandah it would tug perseveringly at his jacket, till Almayer obediently
came out into the sunshine, which he seemed to dislike so much.</p>
<p>One morning Ford found him sitting on the floor of the verandah,
his back against the wall, his legs stretched stiffly out, his arms
hanging by his side. His expressionless face, his eyes open wide
with immobile pupils, and the rigidity of his pose, made him look like
an immense man-doll broken and flung there out of the way. As
Ford came up the steps he turned his head slowly.</p>
<p>“Ford,” he murmured from the floor, “I cannot forget.”</p>
<p>“Can’t you?” said Ford, innocently, with an attempt
at joviality: “I wish I was like you. I am losing my memory—age,
I suppose; only the other day my mate—”</p>
<p>He stopped, for Almayer had got up, stumbled, and steadied himself
on his friend’s arm.</p>
<p>“Hallo! You are better to-day. Soon be all right,”
said Ford, cheerfully, but feeling rather scared.</p>
<p>Almayer let go his arm and stood very straight with his head up and
shoulders thrown back, looking stonily at the multitude of suns shining
in ripples of the river. His jacket and his loose trousers flapped
in the breeze on his thin limbs.</p>
<p>“Let her go!” he whispered in a grating voice.
“Let her go. To-morrow I shall forget. I am a firm
man, . . . firm as a . . . rock, . . . firm . . .”</p>
<p>Ford looked at his face—and fled. The skipper was a tolerably
firm man himself—as those who had sailed with him could testify—but
Almayer’s firmness was altogether too much for his fortitude.</p>
<p>Next time the steamer called in Sambir Ali came on board early with
a grievance. He complained to Ford that Jim-Eng the Chinaman had
invaded Almayer’s house, and actually had lived there for the
last month.</p>
<p>“And they both smoke,” added Ali.</p>
<p>“Phew! Opium, you mean?”</p>
<p>Ali nodded, and Ford remained thoughtful; then he muttered to himself,
“Poor devil! The sooner the better now.” In
the afternoon he walked up to the house.</p>
<p>“What are you doing here?” he asked of Jim-Eng, whom
he found strolling about on the verandah.</p>
<p>Jim-Eng explained in bad Malay, and speaking in that monotonous,
uninterested voice of an opium smoker pretty far gone, that his house
was old, the roof leaked, and the floor was rotten. So, being
an old friend for many, many years, he took his money, his opium, and
two pipes, and came to live in this big house.</p>
<p>“There is plenty of room. He smokes, and I live here.
He will not smoke long,” he concluded.</p>
<p>“Where is he now?” asked Ford.</p>
<p>“Inside. He sleeps,” answered Jim-Eng, wearily.
Ford glanced in through the doorway. In the dim light of the room
he could see Almayer lying on his back on the floor, his head on a wooden
pillow, the long white beard scattered over his breast, the yellow skin
of the face, the half-closed eyelids showing the whites of the eye only.
. . .</p>
<p>He shuddered and turned away. As he was leaving he noticed
a long strip of faded red silk, with some Chinese letters on it, which
Jim-Eng had just fastened to one of the pillars.</p>
<p>“What’s that?” he asked.</p>
<p>“That,” said Jim-Eng, in his colourless voice, “that
is the name of the house. All the same like my house. Very
good name.”</p>
<p>Ford looked at him for awhile and went away. He did not know
what the crazy-looking maze of the Chinese inscription on the red silk
meant. Had he asked Jim-Eng, that patient Chinaman would have
informed him with proper pride that its meaning was: “House of
heavenly delight.”</p>
<p>In the evening of the same day Babalatchi called on Captain Ford.
The captain’s cabin opened on deck, and Babalatchi sat astride
on the high step, while Ford smoked his pipe on the settee inside.
The steamer was leaving next morning, and the old statesman came as
usual for a last chat.</p>
<p>“We had news from Bali last moon,” remarked Babalatchi.
“A grandson is born to the old Rajah, and there is great rejoicing.”</p>
<p>Ford sat up interested.</p>
<p>“Yes,” went on Babalatchi, in answer to Ford’s
look. “I told him. That was before he began to smoke.”</p>
<p>“Well, and what?” asked Ford.</p>
<p>“I escaped with my life,” said Babalatchi, with perfect
gravity, “because the white man is very weak and fell as he rushed
upon me.” Then, after a pause, he added, “She is mad
with joy.”</p>
<p>“Mrs. Almayer, you mean?”</p>
<p>“Yes, she lives in our Rajah’s house. She will
not die soon. Such women live a long time,” said Babalatchi,
with a slight tinge of regret in his voice. “She has dollars,
and she has buried them, but we know where. We had much trouble
with those people. We had to pay a fine and listen to threats
from the white men, and now we have to be careful.” He sighed
and remained silent for a long while. Then with energy:</p>
<p>“There will be fighting. There is a breath of war on
the islands. Shall I live long enough to see? . . . Ah, Tuan!”
he went on, more quietly, “the old times were best. Even
I have sailed with Lanun men, and boarded in the night silent ships
with white sails. That was before an English Rajah ruled in Kuching.
Then we fought amongst ourselves and were happy. Now when we fight
with you we can only die!”</p>
<p>He rose to go. “Tuan,” he said, “you remember
the girl that man Bulangi had? Her that caused all the trouble?”</p>
<p>“Yes,” said Ford. “What of her?”</p>
<p>“She grew thin and could not work. Then Bulangi, who
is a thief and a pig-eater, gave her to me for fifty dollars.
I sent her amongst my women to grow fat. I wanted to hear the
sound of her laughter, but she must have been bewitched, and . . . she
died two days ago. Nay, Tuan. Why do you speak bad words?
I am old—that is true—but why should I not like the sight
of a young face and the sound of a young voice in my house?”
He paused, and then added with a little mournful laugh, “I am
like a white man talking too much of what is not men’s talk when
they speak to one another.”</p>
<p>And he went off looking very sad.</p>
<p>* * * * *</p>
<p>The crowd massed in a semicircle before the steps of “Almayer’s
Folly,” swayed silently backwards and forwards, and opened out
before the group of white-robed and turbaned men advancing through the
grass towards the house. Abdulla walked first, supported by Reshid
and followed by all the Arabs in Sambir. As they entered the lane
made by the respectful throng there was a subdued murmur of voices,
where the word “Mati” was the only one distinctly audible.
Abdulla stopped and looked round slowly.</p>
<p>“Is he dead?” he asked.</p>
<p>“May you live!” answered the crowd in one shout, and
then there succeeded a breathless silence.</p>
<p>Abdulla made a few paces forward and found himself for the last time
face to face with his old enemy. Whatever he might have been once
he was not dangerous now, lying stiff and lifeless in the tender light
of the early day. The only white man on the east coast was dead,
and his soul, delivered from the trammels of his earthly folly, stood
now in the presence of Infinite Wisdom. On the upturned face there
was that serene look which follows the sudden relief from anguish and
pain, and it testified silently before the cloudless heaven that the
man lying there under the gaze of indifferent eyes had been permitted
to forget before he died.</p>
<p>Abdulla looked down sadly at this Infidel he had fought so long and
had bested so many times. Such was the reward of the Faithful!
Yet in the Arab’s old heart there was a feeling of regret for
that thing gone out of his life. He was leaving fast behind him
friendships, and enmities, successes, and disappointments—all
that makes up a life; and before him was only the end. Prayer
would fill up the remainder of the days allotted to the True Believer!
He took in his hand the beads that hung at his waist.</p>
<p>“I found him here, like this, in the morning,” said Ali,
in a low and awed voice.</p>
<p>Abdulla glanced coldly once more at the serene face.</p>
<p>“Let us go,” he said, addressing Reshid.</p>
<p>And as they passed through the crowd that fell back before them,
the beads in Abdulla’s hand clicked, while in a solemn whisper
he breathed out piously the name of Allah! The Merciful!
The Compassionate!</p>
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