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<p>Henchard and Elizabeth sat conversing by the fire. It was three weeks
after Mrs. Henchard's funeral, the candles were not lighted, and a
restless, acrobatic flame, poised on a coal, called from the shady walls
the smiles of all shapes that could respond—the old pier-glass, with
gilt columns and huge entablature, the picture-frames, sundry knobs and
handles, and the brass rosette at the bottom of each riband bell-pull on
either side of the chimney-piece.</p>
<p>"Elizabeth, do you think much of old times?" said Henchard.</p>
<p>"Yes, sir; often," she said.</p>
<p>"Who do you put in your pictures of 'em?"</p>
<p>"Mother and father—nobody else hardly."</p>
<p>Henchard always looked like one bent on resisting pain when Elizabeth-Jane
spoke of Richard Newson as "father." "Ah! I am out of all that, am I not?"
he said.... "Was Newson a kind father?"</p>
<p>"Yes, sir; very."</p>
<p>Henchard's face settled into an expression of stolid loneliness which
gradually modulated into something softer. "Suppose I had been your real
father?" he said. "Would you have cared for me as much as you cared for
Richard Newson?"</p>
<p>"I can't think it," she said quickly. "I can think of no other as my
father, except my father."</p>
<p>Henchard's wife was dissevered from him by death; his friend and helper
Farfrae by estrangement; Elizabeth-Jane by ignorance. It seemed to him
that only one of them could possibly be recalled, and that was the girl.
His mind began vibrating between the wish to reveal himself to her and the
policy of leaving well alone, till he could no longer sit still. He walked
up and down, and then he came and stood behind her chair, looking down
upon the top of her head. He could no longer restrain his impulse. "What
did your mother tell you about me—my history?" he asked.</p>
<p>"That you were related by marriage."</p>
<p>"She should have told more—before you knew me! Then my task would
not have been such a hard one....Elizabeth, it is I who am your father,
and not Richard Newson. Shame alone prevented your wretched parents from
owning this to you while both of 'em were alive."</p>
<p>The back of Elizabeth's head remained still, and her shoulders did not
denote even the movements of breathing. Henchard went on: "I'd rather have
your scorn, your fear, anything than your ignorance; 'tis that I hate!
Your mother and I were man and wife when we were young. What you saw was
our second marriage. Your mother was too honest. We had thought each other
dead—and—Newson became her husband."</p>
<p>This was the nearest approach Henchard could make to the full truth. As
far as he personally was concerned he would have screened nothing; but he
showed a respect for the young girl's sex and years worthy of a better
man.</p>
<p>When he had gone on to give details which a whole series of slight and
unregarded incidents in her past life strangely corroborated; when, in
short, she believed his story to be true, she became greatly agitated, and
turning round to the table flung her face upon it weeping.</p>
<p>"Don't cry—don't cry!" said Henchard, with vehement pathos, "I can't
bear it, I won't bear it. I am your father; why should you cry? Am I so
dreadful, so hateful to 'ee? Don't take against me, Elizabeth-Jane!" he
cried, grasping her wet hand. "Don't take against me—though I was a
drinking man once, and used your mother roughly—I'll be kinder to
you than HE was! I'll do anything, if you will only look upon me as your
father!"</p>
<p>She tried to stand up and comfort him trustfully; but she could not; she
was troubled at his presence, like the brethren at the avowal of Joseph.</p>
<p>"I don't want you to come to me all of a sudden," said Henchard in jerks,
and moving like a great tree in a wind. "No, Elizabeth, I don't. I'll go
away and not see you till to-morrow, or when you like, and then I'll show
'ee papers to prove my words. There, I am gone, and won't disturb you any
more....'Twas I that chose your name, my daughter; your mother wanted it
Susan. There, don't forget 'twas I gave you your name!" He went out at the
door and shut her softly in, and she heard him go away into the garden.
But he had not done. Before she had moved, or in any way recovered from
the effect of his disclosure, he reappeared.</p>
<p>"One word more, Elizabeth," he said. "You'll take my surname now—hey?
Your mother was against it, but it will be much more pleasant to me. 'Tis
legally yours, you know. But nobody need know that. You shall take it as
if by choice. I'll talk to my lawyer—I don't know the law of it
exactly; but will you do this—let me put a few lines into the
newspaper that such is to be your name?"</p>
<p>"If it is my name I must have it, mustn't I?" she asked.</p>
<p>"Well, well; usage is everything in these matters."</p>
<p>"I wonder why mother didn't wish it?"</p>
<p>"Oh, some whim of the poor soul's. Now get a bit of paper and draw up a
paragraph as I shall tell you. But let's have a light."</p>
<p>"I can see by the firelight," she answered. "Yes—I'd rather."</p>
<p>"Very well."</p>
<p>She got a piece of paper, and bending over the fender wrote at his
dictation words which he had evidently got by heart from some
advertisement or other—words to the effect that she, the writer,
hitherto known as Elizabeth-Jane Newson, was going to call herself
Elizabeth-Jane Henchard forthwith. It was done, and fastened up, and
directed to the office of the Casterbridge Chronicle.</p>
<p>"Now," said Henchard, with the blaze of satisfaction that he always
emitted when he had carried his point—though tenderness softened it
this time—"I'll go upstairs and hunt for some documents that will
prove it all to you. But I won't trouble you with them till to-morrow.
Good-night, my Elizabeth-Jane!"</p>
<p>He was gone before the bewildered girl could realize what it all meant, or
adjust her filial sense to the new center of gravity. She was thankful
that he had left her to herself for the evening, and sat down over the
fire. Here she remained in silence, and wept—not for her mother now,
but for the genial sailor Richard Newson, to whom she seemed doing a
wrong.</p>
<p>Henchard in the meantime had gone upstairs. Papers of a domestic nature he
kept in a drawer in his bedroom, and this he unlocked. Before turning them
over he leant back and indulged in reposeful thought. Elizabeth was his at
last and she was a girl of such good sense and kind heart that she would
be sure to like him. He was the kind of man to whom some human object for
pouring out his heart upon—were it emotive or were it choleric—was
almost a necessity. The craving for his heart for the re-establishment of
this tenderest human tie had been great during his wife's lifetime, and
now he had submitted to its mastery without reluctance and without fear.
He bent over the drawer again, and proceeded in his search.</p>
<p>Among the other papers had been placed the contents of his wife's little
desk, the keys of which had been handed to him at her request. Here was
the letter addressed to him with the restriction, "NOT TO BE OPENED TILL
ELIZABETH-JANE'S WEDDING-DAY."</p>
<p>Mrs. Henchard, though more patient than her husband, had been no practical
hand at anything. In sealing up the sheet, which was folded and tucked in
without an envelope, in the old-fashioned way, she had overlaid the
junction with a large mass of wax without the requisite under-touch of the
same. The seal had cracked, and the letter was open. Henchard had no
reason to suppose the restriction one of serious weight, and his feeling
for his late wife had not been of the nature of deep respect. "Some
trifling fancy or other of poor Susan's, I suppose," he said; and without
curiosity he allowed his eyes to scan the letter:—</p>
<p>MY DEAR MICHAEL,—For the good of all three of us I have kept one
thing a secret from you till now. I hope you will understand why; I think
you will; though perhaps you may not forgive me. But, dear Michael, I have
done it for the best. I shall be in my grave when you read this, and
Elizabeth-Jane will have a home. Don't curse me Mike—think of how I
was situated. I can hardly write it, but here it is. Elizabeth-Jane is not
your Elizabeth-Jane—the child who was in my arms when you sold me.
No; she died three months after that, and this living one is my other
husband's. I christened her by the same name we had given to the first,
and she filled up the ache I felt at the other's loss. Michael, I am
dying, and I might have held my tongue; but I could not. Tell her husband
of this or not, as you may judge; and forgive, if you can, a woman you
once deeply wronged, as she forgives you.</p>
<p>SUSAN HENCHARD</p>
<p>Her husband regarded the paper as if it were a window-pane through which
he saw for miles. His lips twitched, and he seemed to compress his frame,
as if to bear better. His usual habit was not to consider whether destiny
were hard upon him or not—the shape of his ideals in cases of
affliction being simply a moody "I am to suffer, I perceive." "This much
scourging, then, it is for me." But now through his passionate head there
stormed this thought—that the blasting disclosure was what he had
deserved.</p>
<p>His wife's extreme reluctance to have the girl's name altered from Newson
to Henchard was now accounted for fully. It furnished another illustration
of that honesty in dishonesty which had characterized her in other things.</p>
<p>He remained unnerved and purposeless for near a couple of hours; till he
suddenly said, "Ah—I wonder if it is true!"</p>
<p>He jumped up in an impulse, kicked off his slippers, and went with a
candle to the door of Elizabeth-Jane's room, where he put his ear to the
keyhole and listened. She was breathing profoundly. Henchard softly turned
the handle, entered, and shading the light, approached the bedside.
Gradually bringing the light from behind a screening curtain he held it in
such a manner that it fell slantwise on her face without shining on her
eyes. He steadfastly regarded her features.</p>
<p>They were fair: his were dark. But this was an unimportant preliminary. In
sleep there come to the surface buried genealogical facts, ancestral
curves, dead men's traits, which the mobility of daytime animation screens
and overwhelms. In the present statuesque repose of the young girl's
countenance Richard Newson's was unmistakably reflected. He could not
endure the sight of her, and hastened away.</p>
<p>Misery taught him nothing more than defiant endurance of it. His wife was
dead, and the first impulse for revenge died with the thought that she was
beyond him. He looked out at the night as at a fiend. Henchard, like all
his kind, was superstitious, and he could not help thinking that the
concatenation of events this evening had produced was the scheme of some
sinister intelligence bent on punishing him. Yet they had developed
naturally. If he had not revealed his past history to Elizabeth he would
not have searched the drawer for papers, and so on. The mockery was, that
he should have no sooner taught a girl to claim the shelter of his
paternity than he discovered her to have no kinship with him.</p>
<p>This ironical sequence of things angered him like an impish trick from a
fellow-creature. Like Prester John's, his table had been spread, and
infernal harpies had snatched up the food. He went out of the house, and
moved sullenly onward down the pavement till he came to the bridge at the
bottom of the High Street. Here he turned in upon a bypath on the river
bank, skirting the north-eastern limits of the town.</p>
<p>These precincts embodied the mournful phases of Casterbridge life, as the
south avenues embodied its cheerful moods. The whole way along here was
sunless, even in summer time; in spring, white frosts lingered here when
other places were steaming with warmth; while in winter it was the
seed-field of all the aches, rheumatisms, and torturing cramps of the
year. The Casterbridge doctors must have pined away for want of sufficient
nourishment but for the configuration of the landscape on the
north-eastern side.</p>
<p>The river—slow, noiseless, and dark—the Schwarzwasser of
Casterbridge—ran beneath a low cliff, the two together forming a
defence which had rendered walls and artificial earthworks on this side
unnecessary. Here were ruins of a Franciscan priory, and a mill attached
to the same, the water of which roared down a back-hatch like the voice of
desolation. Above the cliff, and behind the river, rose a pile of
buildings, and in the front of the pile a square mass cut into the sky. It
was like a pedestal lacking its statue. This missing feature, without
which the design remained incomplete, was, in truth, the corpse of a man,
for the square mass formed the base of the gallows, the extensive
buildings at the back being the county gaol. In the meadow where Henchard
now walked the mob were wont to gather whenever an execution took place,
and there to the tune of the roaring weir they stood and watched the
spectacle.</p>
<p>The exaggeration which darkness imparted to the glooms of this region
impressed Henchard more than he had expected. The lugubrious harmony of
the spot with his domestic situation was too perfect for him, impatient of
effects scenes, and adumbrations. It reduced his heartburning to
melancholy, and he exclaimed, "Why the deuce did I come here!" He went on
past the cottage in which the old local hangman had lived and died, in
times before that calling was monopolized over all England by a single
gentleman; and climbed up by a steep back lane into the town.</p>
<p>For the sufferings of that night, engendered by his bitter disappointment,
he might well have been pitied. He was like one who had half fainted, and
could neither recover nor complete the swoon. In words he could blame his
wife, but not in his heart; and had he obeyed the wise directions outside
her letter this pain would have been spared him for long—possibly
for ever, Elizabeth-Jane seeming to show no ambition to quit her safe and
secluded maiden courses for the speculative path of matrimony.</p>
<p>The morning came after this night of unrest, and with it the necessity for
a plan. He was far too self-willed to recede from a position, especially
as it would involve humiliation. His daughter he had asserted her to be,
and his daughter she should always think herself, no matter what
hyprocrisy it involved.</p>
<p>But he was ill-prepared for the first step in this new situation. The
moment he came into the breakfast-room Elizabeth advanced with open
confidence to him and took him by the arm.</p>
<p>"I have thought and thought all night of it," she said frankly. "And I see
that everything must be as you say. And I am going to look upon you as the
father that you are, and not to call you Mr. Henchard any more. It is so
plain to me now. Indeed, father, it is. For, of course, you would not have
done half the things you have done for me, and let me have my own way so
entirely, and bought me presents, if I had only been your step-daughter!
He—Mr. Newson—whom my poor mother married by such a strange
mistake" (Henchard was glad that he had disguised matters here), "was very
kind—O so kind!" (she spoke with tears in her eyes); "but that is
not the same thing as being one's real father after all. Now, father,
breakfast is ready!" she said cheerfully.</p>
<p>Henchard bent and kissed her cheek. The moment and the act he had
prefigured for weeks with a thrill of pleasure; yet it was no less than a
miserable insipidity to him now that it had come. His reinstation of her
mother had been chiefly for the girl's sake, and the fruition of the whole
scheme was such dust and ashes as this.</p>
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