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<p>Of all the enigmas which ever confronted a girl there can have been seldom
one like that which followed Henchard's announcement of himself to
Elizabeth as her father. He had done it in an ardour and an agitation
which had half carried the point of affection with her; yet, behold, from
the next morning onwards his manner was constrained as she had never seen
it before.</p>
<p>The coldness soon broke out into open chiding. One grievous failing of
Elizabeth's was her occasional pretty and picturesque use of dialect words—those
terrible marks of the beast to the truly genteel.</p>
<p>It was dinner-time—they never met except at meals—and she
happened to say when he was rising from table, wishing to show him
something, "If you'll bide where you be a minute, father, I'll get it."</p>
<p>"'Bide where you be,'" he echoed sharply, "Good God, are you only fit to
carry wash to a pig-trough, that ye use such words as those?"</p>
<p>She reddened with shame and sadness.</p>
<p>"I meant 'Stay where you are,' father," she said, in a low, humble voice.
"I ought to have been more careful."</p>
<p>He made no reply, and went out of the room.</p>
<p>The sharp reprimand was not lost upon her, and in time it came to pass
that for "fay" she said "succeed"; that she no longer spoke of
"dumbledores" but of "humble bees"; no longer said of young men and women
that they "walked together," but that they were "engaged"; that she grew
to talk of "greggles" as "wild hyacinths"; that when she had not slept she
did not quaintly tell the servants next morning that she had been
"hag-rid," but that she had "suffered from indigestion."</p>
<p>These improvements, however, are somewhat in advance of the story.
Henchard, being uncultivated himself, was the bitterest critic the fair
girl could possibly have had of her own lapses—really slight now,
for she read omnivorously. A gratuitous ordeal was in store for her in the
matter of her handwriting. She was passing the dining-room door one
evening, and had occasion to go in for something. It was not till she had
opened the door that she knew the Mayor was there in the company of a man
with whom he transacted business.</p>
<p>"Here, Elizabeth-Jane," he said, looking round at her, "just write down
what I tell you—a few words of an agreement for me and this
gentleman to sign. I am a poor tool with a pen."</p>
<p>"Be jowned, and so be I," said the gentleman.</p>
<p>She brought forward blotting-book, paper, and ink, and sat down.</p>
<p>"Now then—'An agreement entered into this sixteenth day of October'—write
that first."</p>
<p>She started the pen in an elephantine march across the sheet. It was a
splendid round, bold hand of her own conception, a style that would have
stamped a woman as Minerva's own in more recent days. But other ideas
reigned then: Henchard's creed was that proper young girls wrote
ladies'-hand—nay, he believed that bristling characters were as
innate and inseparable a part of refined womanhood as sex itself. Hence
when, instead of scribbling, like the Princess Ida,—</p>
<p>"In such a hand as when a field of corn<br/>
Bows all its ears before the roaring East,"<br/></p>
<p>Elizabeth-Jane produced a line of chain-shot and sand-bags, he reddened in
angry shame for her, and, peremptorily saying, "Never mind—I'll
finish it," dismissed her there and then.</p>
<p>Her considerate disposition became a pitfall to her now. She was, it must
be admitted, sometimes provokingly and unnecessarily willing to saddle
herself with manual labours. She would go to the kitchen instead of
ringing, "Not to make Phoebe come up twice." She went down on her knees,
shovel in hand, when the cat overturned the coal-scuttle; moreover, she
would persistently thank the parlour-maid for everything, till one day, as
soon as the girl was gone from the room, Henchard broke out with, "Good
God, why dostn't leave off thanking that girl as if she were a
goddess-born! Don't I pay her a dozen pound a year to do things for 'ee?"
Elizabeth shrank so visibly at the exclamation that he became sorry a few
minutes after, and said that he did not mean to be rough.</p>
<p>These domestic exhibitions were the small protruding needlerocks which
suggested rather than revealed what was underneath. But his passion had
less terror for her than his coldness. The increasing frequency of the
latter mood told her the sad news that he disliked her with a growing
dislike. The more interesting that her appearance and manners became under
the softening influences which she could now command, and in her wisdom
did command, the more she seemed to estrange him. Sometimes she caught him
looking at her with a louring invidiousness that she could hardly bear.
Not knowing his secret it was cruel mockery that she should for the first
time excite his animosity when she had taken his surname.</p>
<p>But the most terrible ordeal was to come. Elizabeth had latterly been
accustomed of an afternoon to present a cup of cider or ale and
bread-and-cheese to Nance Mockridge, who worked in the yard wimbling
hay-bonds. Nance accepted this offering thankfully at first; afterwards as
a matter of course. On a day when Henchard was on the premises he saw his
step-daughter enter the hay-barn on this errand; and, as there was no
clear spot on which to deposit the provisions, she at once set to work
arranging two trusses of hay as a table, Mockridge meanwhile standing with
her hands on her hips, easefully looking at the preparations on her
behalf.</p>
<p>"Elizabeth, come here!" said Henchard; and she obeyed.</p>
<p>"Why do you lower yourself so confoundedly?" he said with suppressed
passion. "Haven't I told you o't fifty times? Hey? Making yourself a
drudge for a common workwoman of such a character as hers! Why, ye'll
disgrace me to the dust!"</p>
<p>Now these words were uttered loud enough to reach Nance inside the barn
door, who fired up immediately at the slur upon her personal character.
Coming to the door she cried regardless of consequences, "Come to that,
Mr. Henchard, I can let 'ee know she've waited on worse!"</p>
<p>"Then she must have had more charity than sense," said Henchard.</p>
<p>"O no, she hadn't. 'Twere not for charity but for hire; and at a
public-house in this town!"</p>
<p>"It is not true!" cried Henchard indignantly.</p>
<p>"Just ask her," said Nance, folding her naked arms in such a manner that
she could comfortably scratch her elbows.</p>
<p>Henchard glanced at Elizabeth-Jane, whose complexion, now pink and white
from confinement, lost nearly all of the former colour. "What does this
mean?" he said to her. "Anything or nothing?"</p>
<p>"It is true," said Elizabeth-Jane. "But it was only—"</p>
<p>"Did you do it, or didn't you? Where was it?"</p>
<p>"At the Three Mariners; one evening for a little while, when we were
staying there."</p>
<p>Nance glanced triumphantly at Henchard, and sailed into the barn; for
assuming that she was to be discharged on the instant she had resolved to
make the most of her victory. Henchard, however, said nothing about
discharging her. Unduly sensitive on such points by reason of his own
past, he had the look of one completely ground down to the last indignity.
Elizabeth followed him to the house like a culprit; but when she got
inside she could not see him. Nor did she see him again that day.</p>
<p>Convinced of the scathing damage to his local repute and position that
must have been caused by such a fact, though it had never before reached
his own ears, Henchard showed a positive distaste for the presence of this
girl not his own, whenever he encountered her. He mostly dined with the
farmers at the market-room of one of the two chief hotels, leaving her in
utter solitude. Could he have seen how she made use of those silent hours
he might have found reason to reserve his judgment on her quality. She
read and took notes incessantly, mastering facts with painful
laboriousness, but never flinching from her self-imposed task. She began
the study of Latin, incited by the Roman characteristics of the town she
lived in. "If I am not well-informed it shall be by no fault of my own,"
she would say to herself through the tears that would occasionally glide
down her peachy cheeks when she was fairly baffled by the portentous
obscurity of many of these educational works.</p>
<p>Thus she lived on, a dumb, deep-feeling, great-eyed creature, construed by
not a single contiguous being; quenching with patient fortitude her
incipient interest in Farfrae, because it seemed to be one-sided,
unmaidenly, and unwise. True, that for reasons best known to herself, she
had, since Farfrae's dismissal, shifted her quarters from the back room
affording a view of the yard (which she had occupied with such zest) to a
front chamber overlooking the street; but as for the young man, whenever
he passed the house he seldom or never turned his head.</p>
<p>Winter had almost come, and unsettled weather made her still more
dependent upon indoor resources. But there were certain early winter days
in Casterbridge—days of firmamental exhaustion which followed angry
south-westerly tempests—when, if the sun shone, the air was like
velvet. She seized on these days for her periodical visits to the spot
where her mother lay buried—the still-used burial-ground of the old
Roman-British city, whose curious feature was this, its continuity as a
place of sepulture. Mrs. Henchard's dust mingled with the dust of women
who lay ornamented with glass hair-pins and amber necklaces, and men who
held in their mouths coins of Hadrian, Posthumus, and the Constantines.</p>
<p>Half-past ten in the morning was about her hour for seeking this spot—a
time when the town avenues were deserted as the avenues of Karnac.
Business had long since passed down them into its daily cells, and Leisure
had not arrived there. So Elizabeth-Jane walked and read, or looked over
the edge of the book to think, and thus reached the churchyard.</p>
<p>There, approaching her mother's grave she saw a solitary dark figure in
the middle of the gravel-walk. This figure, too, was reading; but not from
a book: the words which engrossed it being the inscription on Mrs.
Henchard's tombstone. The personage was in mourning like herself, was
about her age and size, and might have been her wraith or double, but for
the fact that it was a lady much more beautifully dressed than she.
Indeed, comparatively indifferent as Elizabeth-Jane was to dress, unless
for some temporary whim or purpose, her eyes were arrested by the artistic
perfection of the lady's appearance. Her gait, too, had a flexuousness
about it, which seemed to avoid angularity. It was a revelation to
Elizabeth that human beings could reach this stage of external development—she
had never suspected it. She felt all the freshness and grace to be stolen
from herself on the instant by the neighbourhood of such a stranger. And
this was in face of the fact that Elizabeth could now have been writ
handsome, while the young lady was simply pretty.</p>
<p>Had she been envious she might have hated the woman; but she did not do
that—she allowed herself the pleasure of feeling fascinated. She
wondered where the lady had come from. The stumpy and practical walk of
honest homeliness which mostly prevailed there, the two styles of dress
thereabout, the simple and the mistaken, equally avouched that this figure
was no Casterbridge woman's, even if a book in her hand resembling a
guide-book had not also suggested it.</p>
<p>The stranger presently moved from the tombstone of Mrs. Henchard, and
vanished behind the corner of the wall. Elizabeth went to the tomb
herself; beside it were two footprints distinct in the soil, signifying
that the lady had stood there a long time. She returned homeward, musing
on what she had seen, as she might have mused on a rainbow or the Northern
Lights, a rare butterfly or a cameo.</p>
<p>Interesting as things had been out of doors, at home it turned out to be
one of her bad days. Henchard, whose two years' mayoralty was ending, had
been made aware that he was not to be chosen to fill a vacancy in the list
of aldermen; and that Farfrae was likely to become one of the Council.
This caused the unfortunate discovery that she had played the waiting-maid
in the town of which he was Mayor to rankle in his mind yet more
poisonously. He had learnt by personal inquiry at the time that it was to
Donald Farfrae—that treacherous upstart—that she had thus
humiliated herself. And though Mrs. Stannidge seemed to attach no great
importance to the incident—the cheerful souls at the Three Mariners
having exhausted its aspects long ago—such was Henchard's haughty
spirit that the simple thrifty deed was regarded as little less than a
social catastrophe by him.</p>
<p>Ever since the evening of his wife's arrival with her daughter there had
been something in the air which had changed his luck. That dinner at the
King's Arms with his friends had been Henchard's Austerlitz: he had had
his successes since, but his course had not been upward. He was not to be
numbered among the aldermen—that Peerage of burghers—as he had
expected to be, and the consciousness of this soured him to-day.</p>
<p>"Well, where have you been?" he said to her with offhand laconism.</p>
<p>"I've been strolling in the Walks and churchyard, father, till I feel
quite leery." She clapped her hand to her mouth, but too late.</p>
<p>This was just enough to incense Henchard after the other crosses of the
day. "I WON'T have you talk like that!" he thundered. "'Leery,' indeed.
One would think you worked upon a farm! One day I learn that you lend a
hand in public-houses. Then I hear you talk like a clodhopper. I'm burned,
if it goes on, this house can't hold us two."</p>
<p>The only way of getting a single pleasant thought to go to sleep upon
after this was by recalling the lady she had seen that day, and hoping she
might see her again.</p>
<p>Meanwhile Henchard was sitting up, thinking over his jealous folly in
forbidding Farfrae to pay his addresses to this girl who did not belong to
him, when if he had allowed them to go on he might not have been
encumbered with her. At last he said to himself with satisfaction as he
jumped up and went to the writing-table: "Ah! he'll think it means peace,
and a marriage portion—not that I don't want my house to be troubled
with her, and no portion at all!" He wrote as follows:—</p>
<p>Sir,—On consideration, I don't wish to interfere with your courtship
of Elizabeth-Jane, if you care for her. I therefore withdraw my objection;
excepting in this—that the business be not carried on in my house.—</p>
<p>Yours, M. HENCHARD Mr. Farfrae.</p>
<p>The morrow, being fairly fine, found Elizabeth-Jane again in the
churchyard, but while looking for the lady she was startled by the
apparition of Farfrae, who passed outside the gate. He glanced up for a
moment from a pocket-book in which he appeared to be making figures as he
went; whether or not he saw her he took no notice, and disappeared.</p>
<p>Unduly depressed by a sense of her own superfluity she thought he probably
scorned her; and quite broken in spirit sat down on a bench. She fell into
painful thought on her position, which ended with her saying quite loud,
"O, I wish I was dead with dear mother!"</p>
<p>Behind the bench was a little promenade under the wall where people
sometimes walked instead of on the gravel. The bench seemed to be touched
by something, she looked round, and a face was bending over her, veiled,
but still distinct, the face of the young woman she had seen yesterday.</p>
<p>Elizabeth-Jane looked confounded for a moment, knowing she had been
overheard, though there was pleasure in her confusion. "Yes, I heard you,"
said the lady, in a vivacious voice, answering her look. "What can have
happened?"</p>
<p>"I don't—I can't tell you," said Elizabeth, putting her hand to her
face to hide a quick flush that had come.</p>
<p>There was no movement or word for a few seconds; then the girl felt that
the young lady was sitting down beside her.</p>
<p>"I guess how it is with you," said the latter. "That was your mother." She
waved her hand towards the tombstone. Elizabeth looked up at her as if
inquiring of herself whether there should be confidence. The lady's manner
was so desirous, so anxious, that the girl decided there should be
confidence. "It was my mother," she said, "my only friend."</p>
<p>"But your father, Mr. Henchard. He is living?"</p>
<p>"Yes, he is living," said Elizabeth-Jane.</p>
<p>"Is he not kind to you?"</p>
<p>"I've no wish to complain of him."</p>
<p>"There has been a disagreement?"</p>
<p>"A little."</p>
<p>"Perhaps you were to blame," suggested the stranger.</p>
<p>"I was—in many ways," sighed the meek Elizabeth. "I swept up the
coals when the servants ought to have done it; and I said I was leery;—and
he was angry with me."</p>
<p>The lady seemed to warm towards her for that reply. "Do you know the
impression your words give me?" she said ingenuously. "That he is a
hot-tempered man—a little proud—perhaps ambitious; but not a
bad man." Her anxiety not to condemn Henchard while siding with Elizabeth
was curious.</p>
<p>"O no; certainly not BAD," agreed the honest girl. "And he has not even
been unkind to me till lately—since mother died. But it has been
very much to bear while it has lasted. All is owing to my defects, I
daresay; and my defects are owing to my history."</p>
<p>"What is your history?"</p>
<p>Elizabeth-Jane looked wistfully at her questioner. She found that her
questioner was looking at her, turned her eyes down; and then seemed
compelled to look back again. "My history is not gay or attractive," she
said. "And yet I can tell it, if you really want to know."</p>
<p>The lady assured her that she did want to know; whereupon Elizabeth-Jane
told the tale of her life as she understood it, which was in general the
true one, except that the sale at the fair had no part therein.</p>
<p>Contrary to the girl's expectation her new friend was not shocked. This
cheered her; and it was not till she thought of returning to that home in
which she had been treated so roughly of late that her spirits fell.</p>
<p>"I don't know how to return," she murmured. "I think of going away. But
what can I do? Where can I go?"</p>
<p>"Perhaps it will be better soon," said her friend gently. "So I would not
go far. Now what do you think of this: I shall soon want somebody to live
in my house, partly as housekeeper, partly as companion; would you mind
coming to me? But perhaps—"</p>
<p>"O yes," cried Elizabeth, with tears in her eyes. "I would, indeed—I
would do anything to be independent; for then perhaps my father might get
to love me. But, ah!"</p>
<p>"What?"</p>
<p>"I am no accomplished person. And a companion to you must be that."</p>
<p>"O, not necessarily."</p>
<p>"Not? But I can't help using rural words sometimes, when I don't mean to."</p>
<p>"Never mind, I shall like to know them."</p>
<p>"And—O, I know I shan't do!"—she cried with a distressful
laugh. "I accidentally learned to write round hand instead of
ladies'-hand. And, of course, you want some one who can write that?"</p>
<p>"Well, no."</p>
<p>"What, not necessary to write ladies'-hand?" cried the joyous Elizabeth.</p>
<p>"Not at all."</p>
<p>"But where do you live?"</p>
<p>"In Casterbridge, or rather I shall be living here after twelve o'clock
to-day."</p>
<p>Elizabeth expressed her astonishment.</p>
<p>"I have been staying at Budmouth for a few days while my house was getting
ready. The house I am going into is that one they call High-Place Hall—the
old stone one looking down the lane to the market. Two or three rooms are
fit for occupation, though not all: I sleep there to-night for the first
time. Now will you think over my proposal, and meet me here the first fine
day next week, and say if you are still in the same mind?"</p>
<p>Elizabeth, her eyes shining at this prospect of a change from an
unbearable position, joyfully assented; and the two parted at the gate of
the churchyard.</p>
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