<h2><SPAN name="chap09"></SPAN>CHAPTER NINE<br/> MEG GOES TO VANITY FAIR</h2>
<p>“I do think it was the most fortunate thing in the world that those
children should have the measles just now,” said Meg, one April day, as
she stood packing the ‘go abroady’ trunk in her room, surrounded by
her sisters.</p>
<p>“And so nice of Annie Moffat not to forget her promise. A whole fortnight
of fun will be regularly splendid,” replied Jo, looking like a windmill
as she folded skirts with her long arms.</p>
<p>“And such lovely weather, I’m so glad of that,” added Beth,
tidily sorting neck and hair ribbons in her best box, lent for the great
occasion.</p>
<p>“I wish I was going to have a fine time and wear all these nice
things,” said Amy with her mouth full of pins, as she artistically
replenished her sister’s cushion.</p>
<p>“I wish you were all going, but as you can’t, I shall keep my
adventures to tell you when I come back. I’m sure it’s the least I
can do when you have been so kind, lending me things and helping me get
ready,” said Meg, glancing round the room at the very simple outfit,
which seemed nearly perfect in their eyes.</p>
<p>“What did Mother give you out of the treasure box?” asked Amy, who
had not been present at the opening of a certain cedar chest in which Mrs.
March kept a few relics of past splendor, as gifts for her girls when the
proper time came.</p>
<p>“A pair of silk stockings, that pretty carved fan, and a lovely blue
sash. I wanted the violet silk, but there isn’t time to make it over, so
I must be contented with my old tarlaton.”</p>
<p>“It will look nice over my new muslin skirt, and the sash will set it off
beautifully. I wish I hadn’t smashed my coral bracelet, for you might
have had it,” said Jo, who loved to give and lend, but whose possessions
were usually too dilapidated to be of much use.</p>
<p>“There is a lovely old-fashioned pearl set in the treasure chest, but
Mother said real flowers were the prettiest ornament for a young girl, and
Laurie promised to send me all I want,” replied Meg. “Now, let me
see, there’s my new gray walking suit, just curl up the feather in my
hat, Beth, then my poplin for Sunday and the small party, it looks heavy for
spring, doesn’t it? The violet silk would be so nice. Oh, dear!”</p>
<p>“Never mind, you’ve got the tarlaton for the big party, and you
always look like an angel in white,” said Amy, brooding over the little
store of finery in which her soul delighted.</p>
<p>“It isn’t low-necked, and it doesn’t sweep enough, but it
will have to do. My blue housedress looks so well, turned and freshly trimmed,
that I feel as if I’d got a new one. My silk sacque isn’t a bit the
fashion, and my bonnet doesn’t look like Sallie’s. I didn’t
like to say anything, but I was sadly disappointed in my umbrella. I told
Mother black with a white handle, but she forgot and bought a green one with a
yellowish handle. It’s strong and neat, so I ought not to complain, but I
know I shall feel ashamed of it beside Annie’s silk one with a gold
top,” sighed Meg, surveying the little umbrella with great disfavor.</p>
<p>“Change it,” advised Jo.</p>
<p>“I won’t be so silly, or hurt Marmee’s feelings, when she
took so much pains to get my things. It’s a nonsensical notion of mine,
and I’m not going to give up to it. My silk stockings and two pairs of
new gloves are my comfort. You are a dear to lend me yours, Jo. I feel so rich
and sort of elegant, with two new pairs, and the old ones cleaned up for
common.” And Meg took a refreshing peep at her glove box.</p>
<p>“Annie Moffat has blue and pink bows on her nightcaps. Would you put some
on mine?” she asked, as Beth brought up a pile of snowy muslins, fresh
from Hannah’s hands.</p>
<p>“No, I wouldn’t, for the smart caps won’t match the plain
gowns without any trimming on them. Poor folks shouldn’t rig,” said
Jo decidedly.</p>
<p>“I wonder if I shall ever be happy enough to have real lace on my clothes
and bows on my caps?” said Meg impatiently.</p>
<p>“You said the other day that you’d be perfectly happy if you could
only go to Annie Moffat’s,” observed Beth in her quiet way.</p>
<p>“So I did! Well, I am happy, and I won’t fret, but it does seem as
if the more one gets the more one wants, doesn’t it? There now, the trays
are ready, and everything in but my ball dress, which I shall leave for Mother
to pack,” said Meg, cheering up, as she glanced from the half-filled
trunk to the many times pressed and mended white tarlaton, which she called her
‘ball dress’ with an important air.</p>
<p>The next day was fine, and Meg departed in style for a fortnight of novelty and
pleasure. Mrs. March had consented to the visit rather reluctantly, fearing
that Margaret would come back more discontented than she went. But she begged
so hard, and Sallie had promised to take good care of her, and a little
pleasure seemed so delightful after a winter of irksome work that the mother
yielded, and the daughter went to take her first taste of fashionable life.</p>
<p>The Moffats were very fashionable, and simple Meg was rather daunted, at first,
by the splendor of the house and the elegance of its occupants. But they were
kindly people, in spite of the frivolous life they led, and soon put their
guest at her ease. Perhaps Meg felt, without understanding why, that they were
not particularly cultivated or intelligent people, and that all their gilding
could not quite conceal the ordinary material of which they were made. It
certainly was agreeable to fare sumptuously, drive in a fine carriage, wear her
best frock every day, and do nothing but enjoy herself. It suited her exactly,
and soon she began to imitate the manners and conversation of those about her,
to put on little airs and graces, use French phrases, crimp her hair, take in
her dresses, and talk about the fashions as well as she could. The more she saw
of Annie Moffat’s pretty things, the more she envied her and sighed to be
rich. Home now looked bare and dismal as she thought of it, work grew harder
than ever, and she felt that she was a very destitute and much-injured girl, in
spite of the new gloves and silk stockings.</p>
<p>She had not much time for repining, however, for the three young girls were
busily employed in ‘having a good time’. They shopped, walked,
rode, and called all day, went to theaters and operas or frolicked at home in
the evening, for Annie had many friends and knew how to entertain them. Her
older sisters were very fine young ladies, and one was engaged, which was
extremely interesting and romantic, Meg thought. Mr. Moffat was a fat, jolly
old gentleman, who knew her father, and Mrs. Moffat, a fat, jolly old lady, who
took as great a fancy to Meg as her daughter had done. Everyone petted her, and
‘Daisey’, as they called her, was in a fair way to have her head
turned.</p>
<p>When the evening for the small party came, she found that the poplin
wouldn’t do at all, for the other girls were putting on thin dresses and
making themselves very fine indeed. So out came the tarlatan, looking older,
limper, and shabbier than ever beside Sallie’s crisp new one. Meg saw the
girls glance at it and then at one another, and her cheeks began to burn, for
with all her gentleness she was very proud. No one said a word about it, but
Sallie offered to dress her hair, and Annie to tie her sash, and Belle, the
engaged sister, praised her white arms. But in their kindness Meg saw only pity
for her poverty, and her heart felt very heavy as she stood by herself, while
the others laughed, chattered, and flew about like gauzy butterflies. The hard,
bitter feeling was getting pretty bad, when the maid brought in a box of
flowers. Before she could speak, Annie had the cover off, and all were
exclaiming at the lovely roses, heath, and fern within.</p>
<p>“It’s for Belle, of course, George always sends her some, but these
are altogether ravishing,” cried Annie, with a great sniff.</p>
<p>“They are for Miss March, the man said. And here’s a note,”
put in the maid, holding it to Meg.</p>
<p>“What fun! Who are they from? Didn’t know you had a lover,”
cried the girls, fluttering about Meg in a high state of curiosity and
surprise.</p>
<p>“The note is from Mother, and the flowers from Laurie,” said Meg
simply, yet much gratified that he had not forgotten her.</p>
<p>“Oh, indeed!” said Annie with a funny look, as Meg slipped the note
into her pocket as a sort of talisman against envy, vanity, and false pride,
for the few loving words had done her good, and the flowers cheered her up by
their beauty.</p>
<p>Feeling almost happy again, she laid by a few ferns and roses for herself, and
quickly made up the rest in dainty bouquets for the breasts, hair, or skirts of
her friends, offering them so prettily that Clara, the elder sister, told her
she was ‘the sweetest little thing she ever saw’, and they looked
quite charmed with her small attention. Somehow the kind act finished her
despondency, and when all the rest went to show themselves to Mrs. Moffat, she
saw a happy, bright-eyed face in the mirror, as she laid her ferns against her
rippling hair and fastened the roses in the dress that didn’t strike her
as so very shabby now.</p>
<p>She enjoyed herself very much that evening, for she danced to her heart’s
content. Everyone was very kind, and she had three compliments. Annie made her
sing, and some one said she had a remarkably fine voice. Major Lincoln asked
who ‘the fresh little girl with the beautiful eyes’ was, and Mr.
Moffat insisted on dancing with her because she ‘didn’t dawdle, but
had some spring in her’, as he gracefully expressed it. So altogether she
had a very nice time, till she overheard a bit of conversation, which disturbed
her extremely. She was sitting just inside the conservatory, waiting for her
partner to bring her an ice, when she heard a voice ask on the other side of
the flowery wall...</p>
<p>“How old is he?”</p>
<p>“Sixteen or seventeen, I should say,” replied another voice.</p>
<p>“It would be a grand thing for one of those girls, wouldn’t it?
Sallie says they are very intimate now, and the old man quite dotes on
them.”</p>
<p>“Mrs. M. has made her plans, I dare say, and will play her cards well,
early as it is. The girl evidently doesn’t think of it yet,” said
Mrs. Moffat.</p>
<p>“She told that fib about her momma, as if she did know, and colored up
when the flowers came quite prettily. Poor thing! She’d be so nice if she
was only got up in style. Do you think she’d be offended if we offered to
lend her a dress for Thursday?” asked another voice.</p>
<p>“She’s proud, but I don’t believe she’d mind, for that
dowdy tarlaton is all she has got. She may tear it tonight, and that will be a
good excuse for offering a decent one.”</p>
<p>Here Meg’s partner appeared, to find her looking much flushed and rather
agitated. She was proud, and her pride was useful just then, for it helped her
hide her mortification, anger, and disgust at what she had just heard. For,
innocent and unsuspicious as she was, she could not help understanding the
gossip of her friends. She tried to forget it, but could not, and kept
repeating to herself, “Mrs. M. has made her plans,” “that fib
about her mamma,” and “dowdy tarlaton,” till she was ready to
cry and rush home to tell her troubles and ask for advice. As that was
impossible, she did her best to seem gay, and being rather excited, she
succeeded so well that no one dreamed what an effort she was making. She was
very glad when it was all over and she was quiet in her bed, where she could
think and wonder and fume till her head ached and her hot cheeks were cooled by
a few natural tears. Those foolish, yet well meant words, had opened a new
world to Meg, and much disturbed the peace of the old one in which till now she
had lived as happily as a child. Her innocent friendship with Laurie was
spoiled by the silly speeches she had overheard. Her faith in her mother was a
little shaken by the worldly plans attributed to her by Mrs. Moffat, who judged
others by herself, and the sensible resolution to be contented with the simple
wardrobe which suited a poor man’s daughter was weakened by the
unnecessary pity of girls who thought a shabby dress one of the greatest
calamities under heaven.</p>
<p>Poor Meg had a restless night, and got up heavy-eyed, unhappy, half resentful
toward her friends, and half ashamed of herself for not speaking out frankly
and setting everything right. Everybody dawdled that morning, and it was noon
before the girls found energy enough even to take up their worsted work.
Something in the manner of her friends struck Meg at once. They treated her
with more respect, she thought, took quite a tender interest in what she said,
and looked at her with eyes that plainly betrayed curiosity. All this surprised
and flattered her, though she did not understand it till Miss Belle looked up
from her writing, and said, with a sentimental air...</p>
<p>“Daisy, dear, I’ve sent an invitation to your friend, Mr. Laurence,
for Thursday. We should like to know him, and it’s only a proper
compliment to you.”</p>
<p>Meg colored, but a mischievous fancy to tease the girls made her reply
demurely, “You are very kind, but I’m afraid he won’t
come.”</p>
<p>“Why not, Cherie?” asked Miss Belle.</p>
<p>“He’s too old.”</p>
<p>“My child, what do you mean? What is his age, I beg to know!” cried
Miss Clara.</p>
<p>“Nearly seventy, I believe,” answered Meg, counting stitches to
hide the merriment in her eyes.</p>
<p>“You sly creature! Of course we meant the young man,” exclaimed
Miss Belle, laughing.</p>
<p>“There isn’t any, Laurie is only a little boy.” And Meg
laughed also at the queer look which the sisters exchanged as she thus
described her supposed lover.</p>
<p>“About your age,” Nan said.</p>
<p>“Nearer my sister Jo’s; I am seventeen in August,” returned
Meg, tossing her head.</p>
<p>“It’s very nice of him to send you flowers, isn’t it?”
said Annie, looking wise about nothing.</p>
<p>“Yes, he often does, to all of us, for their house is full, and we are so
fond of them. My mother and old Mr. Laurence are friends, you know, so it is
quite natural that we children should play together,” and Meg hoped they
would say no more.</p>
<p>“It’s evident Daisy isn’t out yet,” said Miss Clara to
Belle with a nod.</p>
<p>“Quite a pastoral state of innocence all round,” returned Miss
Belle with a shrug.</p>
<p>“I’m going out to get some little matters for my girls. Can I do
anything for you, young ladies?” asked Mrs. Moffat, lumbering in like an
elephant in silk and lace.</p>
<p>“No, thank you, ma’am,” replied Sallie. “I’ve got
my new pink silk for Thursday and don’t want a thing.”</p>
<p>“Nor I...” began Meg, but stopped because it occurred to her that
she did want several things and could not have them.</p>
<p>“What shall you wear?” asked Sallie.</p>
<p>“My old white one again, if I can mend it fit to be seen, it got sadly
torn last night,” said Meg, trying to speak quite easily, but feeling
very uncomfortable.</p>
<p>“Why don’t you send home for another?” said Sallie, who was
not an observing young lady.</p>
<p>“I haven’t got any other.” It cost Meg an effort to say that,
but Sallie did not see it and exclaimed in amiable surprise, “Only that?
How funny...” She did not finish her speech, for Belle shook her head at
her and broke in, saying kindly...</p>
<p>“Not at all. Where is the use of having a lot of dresses when she
isn’t out yet? There’s no need of sending home, Daisy, even if you
had a dozen, for I’ve got a sweet blue silk laid away, which I’ve
outgrown, and you shall wear it to please me, won’t you, dear?”</p>
<p>“You are very kind, but I don’t mind my old dress if you
don’t, it does well enough for a little girl like me,” said Meg.</p>
<p>“Now do let me please myself by dressing you up in style. I admire to do
it, and you’d be a regular little beauty with a touch here and there. I
shan’t let anyone see you till you are done, and then we’ll burst
upon them like Cinderella and her godmother going to the ball,” said
Belle in her persuasive tone.</p>
<p>Meg couldn’t refuse the offer so kindly made, for a desire to see if she
would be ‘a little beauty’ after touching up caused her to accept
and forget all her former uncomfortable feelings toward the Moffats.</p>
<p>On the Thursday evening, Belle shut herself up with her maid, and between them
they turned Meg into a fine lady. They crimped and curled her hair, they
polished her neck and arms with some fragrant powder, touched her lips with
coralline salve to make them redder, and Hortense would have added ‘a
soupcon of rouge’, if Meg had not rebelled. They laced her into a
sky-blue dress, which was so tight she could hardly breathe and so low in the
neck that modest Meg blushed at herself in the mirror. A set of silver filagree
was added, bracelets, necklace, brooch, and even earrings, for Hortense tied
them on with a bit of pink silk which did not show. A cluster of tea-rose buds
at the bosom, and a ruche, reconciled Meg to the display of her pretty, white
shoulders, and a pair of high-heeled silk boots satisfied the last wish of her
heart. A lace handkerchief, a plumy fan, and a bouquet in a shoulder holder
finished her off, and Miss Belle surveyed her with the satisfaction of a little
girl with a newly dressed doll.</p>
<p>“Mademoiselle is charmante, tres jolie, is she not?” cried
Hortense, clasping her hands in an affected rapture.</p>
<p>“Come and show yourself,” said Miss Belle, leading the way to the
room where the others were waiting.</p>
<p>As Meg went rustling after, with her long skirts trailing, her earrings
tinkling, her curls waving, and her heart beating, she felt as if her fun had
really begun at last, for the mirror had plainly told her that she was ‘a
little beauty’. Her friends repeated the pleasing phrase
enthusiastically, and for several minutes she stood, like a jackdaw in the
fable, enjoying her borrowed plumes, while the rest chattered like a party of
magpies.</p>
<p>“While I dress, do you drill her, Nan, in the management of her skirt and
those French heels, or she will trip herself up. Take your silver butterfly,
and catch up that long curl on the left side of her head, Clara, and
don’t any of you disturb the charming work of my hands,” said
Belle, as she hurried away, looking well pleased with her success.</p>
<p>“You don’t look a bit like yourself, but you are very nice.
I’m nowhere beside you, for Belle has heaps of taste, and you’re
quite French, I assure you. Let your flowers hang, don’t be so careful of
them, and be sure you don’t trip,” returned Sallie, trying not to
care that Meg was prettier than herself.</p>
<p>Keeping that warning carefully in mind, Margaret got safely down stairs and
sailed into the drawing rooms where the Moffats and a few early guests were
assembled. She very soon discovered that there is a charm about fine clothes
which attracts a certain class of people and secures their respect. Several
young ladies, who had taken no notice of her before, were very affectionate all
of a sudden. Several young gentlemen, who had only stared at her at the other
party, now not only stared, but asked to be introduced, and said all manner of
foolish but agreeable things to her, and several old ladies, who sat on the
sofas, and criticized the rest of the party, inquired who she was with an air
of interest. She heard Mrs. Moffat reply to one of them...</p>
<p>“Daisy March—father a colonel in the army—one of our first
families, but reverses of fortune, you know; intimate friends of the Laurences;
sweet creature, I assure you; my Ned is quite wild about her.”</p>
<p>“Dear me!” said the old lady, putting up her glass for another
observation of Meg, who tried to look as if she had not heard and been rather
shocked at Mrs. Moffat’s fibs. The ‘queer feeling’ did not
pass away, but she imagined herself acting the new part of fine lady and so got
on pretty well, though the tight dress gave her a side-ache, the train kept
getting under her feet, and she was in constant fear lest her earrings should
fly off and get lost or broken. She was flirting her fan and laughing at the
feeble jokes of a young gentleman who tried to be witty, when she suddenly
stopped laughing and looked confused, for just opposite, she saw Laurie. He was
staring at her with undisguised surprise, and disapproval also, she thought,
for though he bowed and smiled, yet something in his honest eyes made her blush
and wish she had her old dress on. To complete her confusion, she saw Belle
nudge Annie, and both glance from her to Laurie, who, she was happy to see,
looked unusually boyish and shy.</p>
<p>“Silly creatures, to put such thoughts into my head. I won’t care
for it, or let it change me a bit,” thought Meg, and rustled across the
room to shake hands with her friend.</p>
<p>“I’m glad you came, I was afraid you wouldn’t.” she
said, with her most grown-up air.</p>
<p>“Jo wanted me to come, and tell her how you looked, so I did,”
answered Laurie, without turning his eyes upon her, though he half smiled at
her maternal tone.</p>
<p>“What shall you tell her?” asked Meg, full of curiosity to know his
opinion of her, yet feeling ill at ease with him for the first time.</p>
<p>“I shall say I didn’t know you, for you look so grown-up and unlike
yourself, I’m quite afraid of you,” he said, fumbling at his glove
button.</p>
<p>“How absurd of you! The girls dressed me up for fun, and I rather like
it. Wouldn’t Jo stare if she saw me?” said Meg, bent on making him
say whether he thought her improved or not.</p>
<p>“Yes, I think she would,” returned Laurie gravely.</p>
<p>“Don’t you like me so?” asked Meg.</p>
<p>“No, I don’t,” was the blunt reply.</p>
<p>“Why not?” in an anxious tone.</p>
<p>He glanced at her frizzled head, bare shoulders, and fantastically trimmed
dress with an expression that abashed her more than his answer, which had not a
particle of his usual politeness in it.</p>
<p>“I don’t like fuss and feathers.”</p>
<p>That was altogether too much from a lad younger than herself, and Meg walked
away, saying petulantly, “You are the rudest boy I ever saw.”</p>
<p>Feeling very much ruffled, she went and stood at a quiet window to cool her
cheeks, for the tight dress gave her an uncomfortably brilliant color. As she
stood there, Major Lincoln passed by, and a minute after she heard him saying
to his mother...</p>
<p>“They are making a fool of that little girl. I wanted you to see her, but
they have spoiled her entirely. She’s nothing but a doll tonight.”</p>
<p>“Oh, dear!” sighed Meg. “I wish I’d been sensible and
worn my own things, then I should not have disgusted other people, or felt so
uncomfortable and ashamed of myself.”</p>
<p>She leaned her forehead on the cool pane, and stood half hidden by the
curtains, never minding that her favorite waltz had begun, till some one
touched her, and turning, she saw Laurie, looking penitent, as he said, with
his very best bow and his hand out...</p>
<p>“Please forgive my rudeness, and come and dance with me.”</p>
<p>“I’m afraid it will be too disagreeable to you,” said Meg,
trying to look offended and failing entirely.</p>
<p>“Not a bit of it, I’m dying to do it. Come, I’ll be good. I
don’t like your gown, but I do think you are just splendid.” And he
waved his hands, as if words failed to express his admiration.</p>
<p>Meg smiled and relented, and whispered as they stood waiting to catch the time,
“Take care my skirt doesn’t trip you up. It’s the plague of
my life and I was a goose to wear it.”</p>
<p>“Pin it round your neck, and then it will be useful,” said Laurie,
looking down at the little blue boots, which he evidently approved of.</p>
<p>Away they went fleetly and gracefully, for having practiced at home, they were
well matched, and the blithe young couple were a pleasant sight to see, as they
twirled merrily round and round, feeling more friendly than ever after their
small tiff.</p>
<p>“Laurie, I want you to do me a favor, will you?” said Meg, as he
stood fanning her when her breath gave out, which it did very soon though she
would not own why.</p>
<p>“Won’t I!” said Laurie, with alacrity.</p>
<p>“Please don’t tell them at home about my dress tonight. They
won’t understand the joke, and it will worry Mother.”</p>
<p>“Then why did you do it?” said Laurie’s eyes, so plainly that
Meg hastily added...</p>
<p>“I shall tell them myself all about it, and ‘fess’ to Mother
how silly I’ve been. But I’d rather do it myself. So you’ll
not tell, will you?”</p>
<p>“I give you my word I won’t, only what shall I say when they ask
me?”</p>
<p>“Just say I looked pretty well and was having a good time.”</p>
<p>“I’ll say the first with all my heart, but how about the other? You
don’t look as if you were having a good time. Are you?” And Laurie
looked at her with an expression which made her answer in a whisper...</p>
<p>“No, not just now. Don’t think I’m horrid. I only wanted a
little fun, but this sort doesn’t pay, I find, and I’m getting
tired of it.”</p>
<p>“Here comes Ned Moffat. What does he want?” said Laurie, knitting
his black brows as if he did not regard his young host in the light of a
pleasant addition to the party.</p>
<p>“He put his name down for three dances, and I suppose he’s coming
for them. What a bore!” said Meg, assuming a languid air which amused
Laurie immensely.</p>
<p>He did not speak to her again till suppertime, when he saw her drinking
champagne with Ned and his friend Fisher, who were behaving ‘like a pair
of fools’, as Laurie said to himself, for he felt a brotherly sort of
right to watch over the Marches and fight their battles whenever a defender was
needed.</p>
<p>“You’ll have a splitting headache tomorrow, if you drink much of
that. I wouldn’t, Meg, your mother doesn’t like it, you
know,” he whispered, leaning over her chair, as Ned turned to refill her
glass and Fisher stooped to pick up her fan.</p>
<p>“I’m not Meg tonight, I’m ‘a doll’ who does all
sorts of crazy things. Tomorrow I shall put away my ‘fuss and
feathers’ and be desperately good again,” she answered with an
affected little laugh.</p>
<p>“Wish tomorrow was here, then,” muttered Laurie, walking off,
ill-pleased at the change he saw in her.</p>
<p>Meg danced and flirted, chattered and giggled, as the other girls did. After
supper she undertook the German, and blundered through it, nearly upsetting her
partner with her long skirt, and romping in a way that scandalized Laurie, who
looked on and meditated a lecture. But he got no chance to deliver it, for Meg
kept away from him till he came to say good night.</p>
<p>“Remember!” she said, trying to smile, for the splitting headache
had already begun.</p>
<p>“Silence a la mort,” replied Laurie, with a melodramatic flourish,
as he went away.</p>
<p>This little bit of byplay excited Annie’s curiosity, but Meg was too
tired for gossip and went to bed, feeling as if she had been to a masquerade
and hadn’t enjoyed herself as much as she expected. She was sick all the
next day, and on Saturday went home, quite used up with her fortnight’s
fun and feeling that she had ‘sat in the lap of luxury’ long
enough.</p>
<p>“It does seem pleasant to be quiet, and not have company manners on all
the time. Home is a nice place, though it isn’t splendid,” said
Meg, looking about her with a restful expression, as she sat with her mother
and Jo on the Sunday evening.</p>
<p>“I’m glad to hear you say so, dear, for I was afraid home would
seem dull and poor to you after your fine quarters,” replied her mother,
who had given her many anxious looks that day. For motherly eyes are quick to
see any change in children’s faces.</p>
<p>Meg had told her adventures gayly and said over and over what a charming time
she had had, but something still seemed to weigh upon her spirits, and when the
younger girls were gone to bed, she sat thoughtfully staring at the fire,
saying little and looking worried. As the clock struck nine and Jo proposed
bed, Meg suddenly left her chair and, taking Beth’s stool, leaned her
elbows on her mother’s knee, saying bravely...</p>
<p>“Marmee, I want to ‘fess’.”</p>
<p>“I thought so. What is it, dear?”</p>
<p>“Shall I go away?” asked Jo discreetly.</p>
<p>“Of course not. Don’t I always tell you everything? I was ashamed
to speak of it before the younger children, but I want you to know all the
dreadful things I did at the Moffats’.”</p>
<p>“We are prepared,” said Mrs. March, smiling but looking a little
anxious.</p>
<p>“I told you they dressed me up, but I didn’t tell you that they
powdered and squeezed and frizzled, and made me look like a fashion-plate.
Laurie thought I wasn’t proper. I know he did, though he didn’t say
so, and one man called me ‘a doll’. I knew it was silly, but they
flattered me and said I was a beauty, and quantities of nonsense, so I let them
make a fool of me.”</p>
<p>“Is that all?” asked Jo, as Mrs. March looked silently at the
downcast face of her pretty daughter, and could not find it in her heart to
blame her little follies.</p>
<p>“No, I drank champagne and romped and tried to flirt, and was altogether
abominable,” said Meg self-reproachfully.</p>
<p>“There is something more, I think.” And Mrs. March smoothed the
soft cheek, which suddenly grew rosy as Meg answered slowly...</p>
<p>“Yes. It’s very silly, but I want to tell it, because I hate to
have people say and think such things about us and Laurie.”</p>
<p>Then she told the various bits of gossip she had heard at the Moffats’,
and as she spoke, Jo saw her mother fold her lips tightly, as if ill pleased
that such ideas should be put into Meg’s innocent mind.</p>
<p>“Well, if that isn’t the greatest rubbish I ever heard,”
cried Jo indignantly. “Why didn’t you pop out and tell them so on
the spot?”</p>
<p>“I couldn’t, it was so embarrassing for me. I couldn’t help
hearing at first, and then I was so angry and ashamed, I didn’t remember
that I ought to go away.”</p>
<p>“Just wait till I see Annie Moffat, and I’ll show you how to settle
such ridiculous stuff. The idea of having ‘plans’ and being kind to
Laurie because he’s rich and may marry us by-and-by! Won’t he shout
when I tell him what those silly things say about us poor children?” And
Jo laughed, as if on second thoughts the thing struck her as a good joke.</p>
<p>“If you tell Laurie, I’ll never forgive you! She mustn’t,
must she, Mother?” said Meg, looking distressed.</p>
<p>“No, never repeat that foolish gossip, and forget it as soon as you
can,” said Mrs. March gravely. “I was very unwise to let you go
among people of whom I know so little, kind, I dare say, but worldly, ill-bred,
and full of these vulgar ideas about young people. I am more sorry than I can
express for the mischief this visit may have done you, Meg.”</p>
<p>“Don’t be sorry, I won’t let it hurt me. I’ll forget
all the bad and remember only the good, for I did enjoy a great deal, and thank
you very much for letting me go. I’ll not be sentimental or dissatisfied,
Mother. I know I’m a silly little girl, and I’ll stay with you till
I’m fit to take care of myself. But it is nice to be praised and admired,
and I can’t help saying I like it,” said Meg, looking half ashamed
of the confession.</p>
<p>“That is perfectly natural, and quite harmless, if the liking does not
become a passion and lead one to do foolish or unmaidenly things. Learn to know
and value the praise which is worth having, and to excite the admiration of
excellent people by being modest as well as pretty, Meg.”</p>
<p>Margaret sat thinking a moment, while Jo stood with her hands behind her,
looking both interested and a little perplexed, for it was a new thing to see
Meg blushing and talking about admiration, lovers, and things of that sort. And
Jo felt as if during that fortnight her sister had grown up amazingly, and was
drifting away from her into a world where she could not follow.</p>
<p>“Mother, do you have ‘plans’, as Mrs. Moffat said?”
asked Meg bashfully.</p>
<p>“Yes, my dear, I have a great many, all mothers do, but mine differ
somewhat from Mrs. Moffat’s, I suspect. I will tell you some of them, for
the time has come when a word may set this romantic little head and heart of
yours right, on a very serious subject. You are young, Meg, but not too young
to understand me, and mothers’ lips are the fittest to speak of such
things to girls like you. Jo, your turn will come in time, perhaps, so listen
to my ‘plans’ and help me carry them out, if they are good.”</p>
<p>Jo went and sat on one arm of the chair, looking as if she thought they were
about to join in some very solemn affair. Holding a hand of each, and watching
the two young faces wistfully, Mrs. March said, in her serious yet cheery
way...</p>
<p>“I want my daughters to be beautiful, accomplished, and good. To be
admired, loved, and respected. To have a happy youth, to be well and wisely
married, and to lead useful, pleasant lives, with as little care and sorrow to
try them as God sees fit to send. To be loved and chosen by a good man is the
best and sweetest thing which can happen to a woman, and I sincerely hope my
girls may know this beautiful experience. It is natural to think of it, Meg,
right to hope and wait for it, and wise to prepare for it, so that when the
happy time comes, you may feel ready for the duties and worthy of the joy. My
dear girls, I am ambitious for you, but not to have you make a dash in the
world, marry rich men merely because they are rich, or have splendid houses,
which are not homes because love is wanting. Money is a needful and precious
thing, and when well used, a noble thing, but I never want you to think it is
the first or only prize to strive for. I’d rather see you poor
men’s wives, if you were happy, beloved, contented, than queens on
thrones, without self-respect and peace.”</p>
<p>“Poor girls don’t stand any chance, Belle says, unless they put
themselves forward,” sighed Meg.</p>
<p>“Then we’ll be old maids,” said Jo stoutly.</p>
<p>“Right, Jo. Better be happy old maids than unhappy wives, or unmaidenly
girls, running about to find husbands,” said Mrs. March decidedly.
“Don’t be troubled, Meg, poverty seldom daunts a sincere lover.
Some of the best and most honored women I know were poor girls, but so
love-worthy that they were not allowed to be old maids. Leave these things to
time. Make this home happy, so that you may be fit for homes of your own, if
they are offered you, and contented here if they are not. One thing remember,
my girls. Mother is always ready to be your confidant, Father to be your
friend, and both of us hope and trust that our daughters, whether married or
single, will be the pride and comfort of our lives.”</p>
<p>“We will, Marmee, we will!” cried both, with all their hearts, as
she bade them good night.</p>
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