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<h2> Chapter 40 </h2>
<p>Elizabeth's impatience to acquaint Jane with what had happened could no
longer be overcome; and at length, resolving to suppress every particular
in which her sister was concerned, and preparing her to be surprised, she
related to her the next morning the chief of the scene between Mr. Darcy
and herself.</p>
<p>Miss Bennet's astonishment was soon lessened by the strong sisterly
partiality which made any admiration of Elizabeth appear perfectly
natural; and all surprise was shortly lost in other feelings. She was
sorry that Mr. Darcy should have delivered his sentiments in a manner so
little suited to recommend them; but still more was she grieved for the
unhappiness which her sister's refusal must have given him.</p>
<p>"His being so sure of succeeding was wrong," said she, "and certainly
ought not to have appeared; but consider how much it must increase his
disappointment!"</p>
<p>"Indeed," replied Elizabeth, "I am heartily sorry for him; but he has
other feelings, which will probably soon drive away his regard for me. You
do not blame me, however, for refusing him?"</p>
<p>"Blame you! Oh, no."</p>
<p>"But you blame me for having spoken so warmly of Wickham?"</p>
<p>"No—I do not know that you were wrong in saying what you did."</p>
<p>"But you <i>will</i> know it, when I tell you what happened the very next
day."</p>
<p>She then spoke of the letter, repeating the whole of its contents as far
as they concerned George Wickham. What a stroke was this for poor Jane!
who would willingly have gone through the world without believing that so
much wickedness existed in the whole race of mankind, as was here
collected in one individual. Nor was Darcy's vindication, though grateful
to her feelings, capable of consoling her for such discovery. Most
earnestly did she labour to prove the probability of error, and seek to
clear the one without involving the other.</p>
<p>"This will not do," said Elizabeth; "you never will be able to make both
of them good for anything. Take your choice, but you must be satisfied
with only one. There is but such a quantity of merit between them; just
enough to make one good sort of man; and of late it has been shifting
about pretty much. For my part, I am inclined to believe it all Darcy's;
but you shall do as you choose."</p>
<p>It was some time, however, before a smile could be extorted from Jane.</p>
<p>"I do not know when I have been more shocked," said she. "Wickham so very
bad! It is almost past belief. And poor Mr. Darcy! Dear Lizzy, only
consider what he must have suffered. Such a disappointment! and with the
knowledge of your ill opinion, too! and having to relate such a thing of
his sister! It is really too distressing. I am sure you must feel it so."</p>
<p>"Oh! no, my regret and compassion are all done away by seeing you so full
of both. I know you will do him such ample justice, that I am growing
every moment more unconcerned and indifferent. Your profusion makes me
saving; and if you lament over him much longer, my heart will be as light
as a feather."</p>
<p>"Poor Wickham! there is such an expression of goodness in his countenance!
such an openness and gentleness in his manner!"</p>
<p>"There certainly was some great mismanagement in the education of those
two young men. One has got all the goodness, and the other all the
appearance of it."</p>
<p>"I never thought Mr. Darcy so deficient in the <i>appearance</i> of it as
you used to do."</p>
<p>"And yet I meant to be uncommonly clever in taking so decided a dislike to
him, without any reason. It is such a spur to one's genius, such an
opening for wit, to have a dislike of that kind. One may be continually
abusive without saying anything just; but one cannot always be laughing at
a man without now and then stumbling on something witty."</p>
<p>"Lizzy, when you first read that letter, I am sure you could not treat the
matter as you do now."</p>
<p>"Indeed, I could not. I was uncomfortable enough, I may say unhappy. And
with no one to speak to about what I felt, no Jane to comfort me and say
that I had not been so very weak and vain and nonsensical as I knew I had!
Oh! how I wanted you!"</p>
<p>"How unfortunate that you should have used such very strong expressions in
speaking of Wickham to Mr. Darcy, for now they <i>do</i> appear wholly
undeserved."</p>
<p>"Certainly. But the misfortune of speaking with bitterness is a most
natural consequence of the prejudices I had been encouraging. There is one
point on which I want your advice. I want to be told whether I ought, or
ought not, to make our acquaintances in general understand Wickham's
character."</p>
<p>Miss Bennet paused a little, and then replied, "Surely there can be no
occasion for exposing him so dreadfully. What is your opinion?"</p>
<p>"That it ought not to be attempted. Mr. Darcy has not authorised me to
make his communication public. On the contrary, every particular relative
to his sister was meant to be kept as much as possible to myself; and if I
endeavour to undeceive people as to the rest of his conduct, who will
believe me? The general prejudice against Mr. Darcy is so violent, that it
would be the death of half the good people in Meryton to attempt to place
him in an amiable light. I am not equal to it. Wickham will soon be gone;
and therefore it will not signify to anyone here what he really is. Some
time hence it will be all found out, and then we may laugh at their
stupidity in not knowing it before. At present I will say nothing about
it."</p>
<p>"You are quite right. To have his errors made public might ruin him for
ever. He is now, perhaps, sorry for what he has done, and anxious to
re-establish a character. We must not make him desperate."</p>
<p>The tumult of Elizabeth's mind was allayed by this conversation. She had
got rid of two of the secrets which had weighed on her for a fortnight,
and was certain of a willing listener in Jane, whenever she might wish to
talk again of either. But there was still something lurking behind, of
which prudence forbade the disclosure. She dared not relate the other half
of Mr. Darcy's letter, nor explain to her sister how sincerely she had
been valued by her friend. Here was knowledge in which no one could
partake; and she was sensible that nothing less than a perfect
understanding between the parties could justify her in throwing off this
last encumbrance of mystery. "And then," said she, "if that very
improbable event should ever take place, I shall merely be able to tell
what Bingley may tell in a much more agreeable manner himself. The liberty
of communication cannot be mine till it has lost all its value!"</p>
<p>She was now, on being settled at home, at leisure to observe the real
state of her sister's spirits. Jane was not happy. She still cherished a
very tender affection for Bingley. Having never even fancied herself in
love before, her regard had all the warmth of first attachment, and, from
her age and disposition, greater steadiness than most first attachments
often boast; and so fervently did she value his remembrance, and prefer
him to every other man, that all her good sense, and all her attention to
the feelings of her friends, were requisite to check the indulgence of
those regrets which must have been injurious to her own health and their
tranquillity.</p>
<p>"Well, Lizzy," said Mrs. Bennet one day, "what is your opinion <i>now</i>
of this sad business of Jane's? For my part, I am determined never to
speak of it again to anybody. I told my sister Phillips so the other day.
But I cannot find out that Jane saw anything of him in London. Well, he is
a very undeserving young man—and I do not suppose there's the least
chance in the world of her ever getting him now. There is no talk of his
coming to Netherfield again in the summer; and I have inquired of
everybody, too, who is likely to know."</p>
<p>"I do not believe he will ever live at Netherfield any more."</p>
<p>"Oh well! it is just as he chooses. Nobody wants him to come. Though I
shall always say he used my daughter extremely ill; and if I was her, I
would not have put up with it. Well, my comfort is, I am sure Jane will
die of a broken heart; and then he will be sorry for what he has done."</p>
<p>But as Elizabeth could not receive comfort from any such expectation, she
made no answer.</p>
<p>"Well, Lizzy," continued her mother, soon afterwards, "and so the
Collinses live very comfortable, do they? Well, well, I only hope it will
last. And what sort of table do they keep? Charlotte is an excellent
manager, I dare say. If she is half as sharp as her mother, she is saving
enough. There is nothing extravagant in <i>their</i> housekeeping, I dare
say."</p>
<p>"No, nothing at all."</p>
<p>"A great deal of good management, depend upon it. Yes, yes. <i>they</i>
will take care not to outrun their income. <i>They</i> will never be
distressed for money. Well, much good may it do them! And so, I suppose,
they often talk of having Longbourn when your father is dead. They look
upon it as quite their own, I dare say, whenever that happens."</p>
<p>"It was a subject which they could not mention before me."</p>
<p>"No; it would have been strange if they had; but I make no doubt they
often talk of it between themselves. Well, if they can be easy with an
estate that is not lawfully their own, so much the better. I should be
ashamed of having one that was only entailed on me."</p>
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<h2> Chapter 41 </h2>
<p>The first week of their return was soon gone. The second began. It was the
last of the regiment's stay in Meryton, and all the young ladies in the
neighbourhood were drooping apace. The dejection was almost universal. The
elder Miss Bennets alone were still able to eat, drink, and sleep, and
pursue the usual course of their employments. Very frequently were they
reproached for this insensibility by Kitty and Lydia, whose own misery was
extreme, and who could not comprehend such hard-heartedness in any of the
family.</p>
<p>"Good Heaven! what is to become of us? What are we to do?" would they
often exclaim in the bitterness of woe. "How can you be smiling so,
Lizzy?"</p>
<p>Their affectionate mother shared all their grief; she remembered what she
had herself endured on a similar occasion, five-and-twenty years ago.</p>
<p>"I am sure," said she, "I cried for two days together when Colonel
Miller's regiment went away. I thought I should have broken my heart."</p>
<p>"I am sure I shall break <i>mine</i>," said Lydia.</p>
<p>"If one could but go to Brighton!" observed Mrs. Bennet.</p>
<p>"Oh, yes!—if one could but go to Brighton! But papa is so
disagreeable."</p>
<p>"A little sea-bathing would set me up forever."</p>
<p>"And my aunt Phillips is sure it would do <i>me</i> a great deal of good,"
added Kitty.</p>
<p>Such were the kind of lamentations resounding perpetually through
Longbourn House. Elizabeth tried to be diverted by them; but all sense of
pleasure was lost in shame. She felt anew the justice of Mr. Darcy's
objections; and never had she been so much disposed to pardon his
interference in the views of his friend.</p>
<p>But the gloom of Lydia's prospect was shortly cleared away; for she
received an invitation from Mrs. Forster, the wife of the colonel of the
regiment, to accompany her to Brighton. This invaluable friend was a very
young woman, and very lately married. A resemblance in good humour and
good spirits had recommended her and Lydia to each other, and out of their
<i>three</i> months' acquaintance they had been intimate <i>two</i>.</p>
<p>The rapture of Lydia on this occasion, her adoration of Mrs. Forster, the
delight of Mrs. Bennet, and the mortification of Kitty, are scarcely to be
described. Wholly inattentive to her sister's feelings, Lydia flew about
the house in restless ecstasy, calling for everyone's congratulations, and
laughing and talking with more violence than ever; whilst the luckless
Kitty continued in the parlour repined at her fate in terms as
unreasonable as her accent was peevish.</p>
<p>"I cannot see why Mrs. Forster should not ask <i>me</i> as well as Lydia,"
said she, "Though I am <i>not</i> her particular friend. I have just as
much right to be asked as she has, and more too, for I am two years
older."</p>
<p>In vain did Elizabeth attempt to make her reasonable, and Jane to make her
resigned. As for Elizabeth herself, this invitation was so far from
exciting in her the same feelings as in her mother and Lydia, that she
considered it as the death warrant of all possibility of common sense for
the latter; and detestable as such a step must make her were it known, she
could not help secretly advising her father not to let her go. She
represented to him all the improprieties of Lydia's general behaviour, the
little advantage she could derive from the friendship of such a woman as
Mrs. Forster, and the probability of her being yet more imprudent with
such a companion at Brighton, where the temptations must be greater than
at home. He heard her attentively, and then said:</p>
<p>"Lydia will never be easy until she has exposed herself in some public
place or other, and we can never expect her to do it with so little
expense or inconvenience to her family as under the present
circumstances."</p>
<p>"If you were aware," said Elizabeth, "of the very great disadvantage to us
all which must arise from the public notice of Lydia's unguarded and
imprudent manner—nay, which has already arisen from it, I am sure
you would judge differently in the affair."</p>
<p>"Already arisen?" repeated Mr. Bennet. "What, has she frightened away some
of your lovers? Poor little Lizzy! But do not be cast down. Such squeamish
youths as cannot bear to be connected with a little absurdity are not
worth a regret. Come, let me see the list of pitiful fellows who have been
kept aloof by Lydia's folly."</p>
<p>"Indeed you are mistaken. I have no such injuries to resent. It is not of
particular, but of general evils, which I am now complaining. Our
importance, our respectability in the world must be affected by the wild
volatility, the assurance and disdain of all restraint which mark Lydia's
character. Excuse me, for I must speak plainly. If you, my dear father,
will not take the trouble of checking her exuberant spirits, and of
teaching her that her present pursuits are not to be the business of her
life, she will soon be beyond the reach of amendment. Her character will
be fixed, and she will, at sixteen, be the most determined flirt that ever
made herself or her family ridiculous; a flirt, too, in the worst and
meanest degree of flirtation; without any attraction beyond youth and a
tolerable person; and, from the ignorance and emptiness of her mind,
wholly unable to ward off any portion of that universal contempt which her
rage for admiration will excite. In this danger Kitty also is
comprehended. She will follow wherever Lydia leads. Vain, ignorant, idle,
and absolutely uncontrolled! Oh! my dear father, can you suppose it
possible that they will not be censured and despised wherever they are
known, and that their sisters will not be often involved in the disgrace?"</p>
<p>Mr. Bennet saw that her whole heart was in the subject, and affectionately
taking her hand said in reply:</p>
<p>"Do not make yourself uneasy, my love. Wherever you and Jane are known you
must be respected and valued; and you will not appear to less advantage
for having a couple of—or I may say, three—very silly sisters.
We shall have no peace at Longbourn if Lydia does not go to Brighton. Let
her go, then. Colonel Forster is a sensible man, and will keep her out of
any real mischief; and she is luckily too poor to be an object of prey to
anybody. At Brighton she will be of less importance even as a common flirt
than she has been here. The officers will find women better worth their
notice. Let us hope, therefore, that her being there may teach her her own
insignificance. At any rate, she cannot grow many degrees worse, without
authorising us to lock her up for the rest of her life."</p>
<p>With this answer Elizabeth was forced to be content; but her own opinion
continued the same, and she left him disappointed and sorry. It was not in
her nature, however, to increase her vexations by dwelling on them. She
was confident of having performed her duty, and to fret over unavoidable
evils, or augment them by anxiety, was no part of her disposition.</p>
<p>Had Lydia and her mother known the substance of her conference with her
father, their indignation would hardly have found expression in their
united volubility. In Lydia's imagination, a visit to Brighton comprised
every possibility of earthly happiness. She saw, with the creative eye of
fancy, the streets of that gay bathing-place covered with officers. She
saw herself the object of attention, to tens and to scores of them at
present unknown. She saw all the glories of the camp—its tents
stretched forth in beauteous uniformity of lines, crowded with the young
and the gay, and dazzling with scarlet; and, to complete the view, she saw
herself seated beneath a tent, tenderly flirting with at least six
officers at once.</p>
<p>Had she known her sister sought to tear her from such prospects and such
realities as these, what would have been her sensations? They could have
been understood only by her mother, who might have felt nearly the same.
Lydia's going to Brighton was all that consoled her for her melancholy
conviction of her husband's never intending to go there himself.</p>
<p>But they were entirely ignorant of what had passed; and their raptures
continued, with little intermission, to the very day of Lydia's leaving
home.</p>
<p>Elizabeth was now to see Mr. Wickham for the last time. Having been
frequently in company with him since her return, agitation was pretty well
over; the agitations of formal partiality entirely so. She had even learnt
to detect, in the very gentleness which had first delighted her, an
affectation and a sameness to disgust and weary. In his present behaviour
to herself, moreover, she had a fresh source of displeasure, for the
inclination he soon testified of renewing those intentions which had
marked the early part of their acquaintance could only serve, after what
had since passed, to provoke her. She lost all concern for him in finding
herself thus selected as the object of such idle and frivolous gallantry;
and while she steadily repressed it, could not but feel the reproof
contained in his believing, that however long, and for whatever cause, his
attentions had been withdrawn, her vanity would be gratified, and her
preference secured at any time by their renewal.</p>
<p>On the very last day of the regiment's remaining at Meryton, he dined,
with other of the officers, at Longbourn; and so little was Elizabeth
disposed to part from him in good humour, that on his making some inquiry
as to the manner in which her time had passed at Hunsford, she mentioned
Colonel Fitzwilliam's and Mr. Darcy's having both spent three weeks at
Rosings, and asked him, if he was acquainted with the former.</p>
<p>He looked surprised, displeased, alarmed; but with a moment's recollection
and a returning smile, replied, that he had formerly seen him often; and,
after observing that he was a very gentlemanlike man, asked her how she
had liked him. Her answer was warmly in his favour. With an air of
indifference he soon afterwards added:</p>
<p>"How long did you say he was at Rosings?"</p>
<p>"Nearly three weeks."</p>
<p>"And you saw him frequently?"</p>
<p>"Yes, almost every day."</p>
<p>"His manners are very different from his cousin's."</p>
<p>"Yes, very different. But I think Mr. Darcy improves upon acquaintance."</p>
<p>"Indeed!" cried Mr. Wickham with a look which did not escape her. "And
pray, may I ask?—" But checking himself, he added, in a gayer tone,
"Is it in address that he improves? Has he deigned to add aught of
civility to his ordinary style?—for I dare not hope," he continued
in a lower and more serious tone, "that he is improved in essentials."</p>
<p>"Oh, no!" said Elizabeth. "In essentials, I believe, he is very much what
he ever was."</p>
<p>While she spoke, Wickham looked as if scarcely knowing whether to rejoice
over her words, or to distrust their meaning. There was a something in her
countenance which made him listen with an apprehensive and anxious
attention, while she added:</p>
<p>"When I said that he improved on acquaintance, I did not mean that his
mind or his manners were in a state of improvement, but that, from knowing
him better, his disposition was better understood."</p>
<p>Wickham's alarm now appeared in a heightened complexion and agitated look;
for a few minutes he was silent, till, shaking off his embarrassment, he
turned to her again, and said in the gentlest of accents:</p>
<p>"You, who so well know my feeling towards Mr. Darcy, will readily
comprehend how sincerely I must rejoice that he is wise enough to assume
even the <i>appearance</i> of what is right. His pride, in that direction,
may be of service, if not to himself, to many others, for it must only
deter him from such foul misconduct as I have suffered by. I only fear
that the sort of cautiousness to which you, I imagine, have been alluding,
is merely adopted on his visits to his aunt, of whose good opinion and
judgement he stands much in awe. His fear of her has always operated, I
know, when they were together; and a good deal is to be imputed to his
wish of forwarding the match with Miss de Bourgh, which I am certain he
has very much at heart."</p>
<p>Elizabeth could not repress a smile at this, but she answered only by a
slight inclination of the head. She saw that he wanted to engage her on
the old subject of his grievances, and she was in no humour to indulge
him. The rest of the evening passed with the <i>appearance</i>, on his
side, of usual cheerfulness, but with no further attempt to distinguish
Elizabeth; and they parted at last with mutual civility, and possibly a
mutual desire of never meeting again.</p>
<p>When the party broke up, Lydia returned with Mrs. Forster to Meryton, from
whence they were to set out early the next morning. The separation between
her and her family was rather noisy than pathetic. Kitty was the only one
who shed tears; but she did weep from vexation and envy. Mrs. Bennet was
diffuse in her good wishes for the felicity of her daughter, and
impressive in her injunctions that she should not miss the opportunity of
enjoying herself as much as possible—advice which there was every
reason to believe would be well attended to; and in the clamorous
happiness of Lydia herself in bidding farewell, the more gentle adieus of
her sisters were uttered without being heard.</p>
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