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<h3>CHAPTER XXXIX</h3>
<h2><i>COUSIN MONICA AND UNCLE SILAS MEET</i></h2>
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<p>Cousin Monica, with her hands upon Milly's shoulders, looked
amusedly and kindly in her face. 'And,' said she, 'we must be
very good friends—you funny creature, you and I. I'm allowed
to be the most saucy old woman in Derbyshire—quite incorrigibly
privileged; and nobody is ever affronted with me, so I
say the most shocking things constantly.'</p>
<p>'I'm a bit that way, myself; and I think,' said poor Milly,
making an effort, and growing very red; she quite lost her head
at that point, and was incompetent to finish the sentiment she
had prefaced.</p>
<p>'You think? Now, take my advice, and never wait to think my
dear; talk first, and think afterwards, that is my way; though,
indeed, I can't say I ever think at all. It is a very cowardly
habit. Our cold-blooded cousin Maud, there, thinks sometimes;
but it is always such a failure that I forgive her. I wonder when
your little pre-Adamite butler will return. He speaks the language
of the Picts and Ancient Britons, I dare say, and your
father requires a little time to translate him. And, Milly dear, I
am very hungry, so I won't wait for your butler, who would give
me, I suppose, one of the cakes baked by King Alfred, and some
Danish beer in a skull; but I'll ask you for a little of that nice
bread and butter.'</p>
<p>With which accordingly Lady Knollys was quickly supplied;
but it did not at all impede her utterance.</p>
<p>'Do you think, girls, you could be ready to come away with
me, if Silas gives leave, in an hour or two? I should so like to
take you both home with me to Elverston.'</p>
<p>'How delightful! you darling,' cried I, embracing and kissing
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her; 'for my part, I should be ready in five minutes; what do
you say, Milly?'</p>
<p>Poor Milly's wardrobe, I am afraid, was more portable than
handsome; and she looked horribly affrighted, and whispered in
my ear—</p>
<p>'My best petticoat is away at the laundress; say in a week,
Maud.'</p>
<p>'What does she say?' asked Lady Knollys.</p>
<p>'She fears she can't be ready,' I answered, dejectedly.</p>
<p>'There's a deal of my slops in the wash,' blurted out poor
Milly, staring straight at Lady Knollys.</p>
<p>'In the name of wonder, what does my cousin mean?' asked
Lady Knollys.</p>
<p>'Her things have not come home yet from the laundress,' I
replied; and at this moment our wondrous old butler entered to
announce to Lady Knollys that his master was ready to receive
her, whenever she was disposed to favour him; and also to make
polite apologies for his being compelled, by his state of health,
to give her the trouble of ascending to his room.</p>
<p>So Cousin Monica was at the door in a moment, over her
shoulder calling to us, 'Come, girls.'</p>
<p>'Please, not yet, my lady—you alone; and he requests the
young ladies will be in the way, as he will send for them presently.'</p>
<p>I began to admire poor 'Giblets' as the wreck of a tolerably
respectable servant.</p>
<p>'Very good; perhaps it is better we should kiss and be friends
in private first,' said Cousin Knollys, laughing; and away she
went under the guidance of the mummy.</p>
<p>I had an account of this <i>t�te-�-t�te</i> afterwards from Lady
Knollys.</p>
<p>'When I saw him, my dear,' she said, 'I could hardly believe
my eyes; such white hair—such a white face—such mad eyes—such
a death-like smile. When I saw him last, his hair was dark;
he dressed himself like a modern Englishman; and he really preserved
a likeness to the full-length portrait at Knowl, that you
fell in love with, you know; but, angels and ministers of grace!
such a spectre! I asked myself, is it necromancy, or is it delirium
tremens that has reduced him to this? And said he, with that
odious smile, that made me fancy myself half insane—</p>
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<p>'"You see a change, Monica."</p>
<p>'What a sweet, gentle, insufferable voice he has! Somebody
once told me about the tone of a glass flute that made some
people hysterical to listen to, and I was thinking of it all the
time. There was always a peculiar quality in his voice.</p>
<p>'"I do see a change, Silas," I said at last; "and, no doubt,
so do you in me—a great change."</p>
<p>'"There has been time enough to work a greater than I observe
in you since you last honoured me with a visit," said he.</p>
<p>'I think he was at his old sarcasms, and meant that I was
the same impertinent minx he remembered long ago, uncorrected
by time; and so I am, and he must not expect compliments
from old Monica Knollys.</p>
<p>'"It is a long time, Silas; but that, you know, is not my
fault," said I.</p>
<p>'"Not your fault, my dear—your instinct. We are all imitative
creatures: the great people ostracised me, and the small
ones followed. We are very like turkeys, we have so much good
sense and so much generosity. Fortune, in a freak, wounded
my head, and the whole brood were upon me, pecking and gobbling,
gobbling and pecking, and you among them, dear Monica.
It wasn't your fault, only your instinct, so I quite forgive
you; but no wonder the peckers wear better than the pecked.
You are robust; and I, what I am."</p>
<p>'"Now, Silas, I have not come here to quarrel. If we quarrel
now, mind, we can never make it up—we are too old, so let us
forget all we can, and try to forgive something; and if we can
do neither, at all events let there be truce between us while I
am here."</p>
<p>'"My personal wrongs I can quite forgive, and I do, Heaven
knows, from my heart; but there are things which ought not to
be forgiven. My children have been ruined by it. I may, by the
mercy of Providence, be yet set right in the world, and so soon
as that time comes, I will remember, and I will act; but my
children—you will see that wretched girl, my daughter—education,
society, all would come too late—my children have been
ruined by it."</p>
<p>'"I have not done it; but I know what you mean," I said.
"You menace litigation whenever you have the means; but you
forget that Austin placed you under promise, when he gave you
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the use of this house and place, never to disturb my title to
Elverston. So there is my answer, if you mean that."</p>
<p>'"I mean what I mean," he replied, with his old smile.</p>
<p>'"You mean then," said I, "that for the pleasure of vexing me
with litigation, you are willing to forfeit your tenure of this
house and place."</p>
<p>'"Suppose I <i>did</i> mean precisely that, why should I forfeit
anything? My beloved brother, by his will, has given me a right
to the use of Bartram-Haugh for my life, and attached no absurd
condition of the kind you fancy to his gift."</p>
<p>'Silas was in one of his vicious old moods, and liked to menace
me. His vindictiveness got the better of his craft; but he
knows as well as I do that he never could succeed in disturbing
the title of my poor dear Harry Knollys; and I was not at all
alarmed by his threats; and I told him so, as coolly as I speak
to you now.</p>
<p>'"Well, Monica," he said, "I have weighed you in the balance,
and you are not found wanting. For a moment the old
man possessed me: the thought of my children, of past unkindness,
and present affliction and disgrace, exasperated me, and I
was mad. It was but for a moment—the galvanic spasm of a
corpse. Never was breast more dead than mine to the passions
and ambitions of the world. They are not for white locks like
these, nor for a man who, for a week in every month, lies in the
gate of death. Will you shake hands? <i>Here</i>—I <i>do</i> strike a
truce;
and I <i>do</i> forget and forgive <i>everything</i>."</p>
<p>'I don't know what he meant by this scene. I have no idea
whether he was acting, or lost his head, or, in fact, why or how
it occurred; but I am glad, darling, that, unlike myself, I was
calm, and that a quarrel has not been forced upon me.'</p>
<p>When our turn came and we were summoned to the presence,
Uncle Silas was quite as usual; but Cousin Monica's
heightened colour, and the flash of her eyes, showed plainly
that something exciting and angry had occurred.</p>
<p>Uncle Silas commented in his own vein upon the effect of
Bartram air and liberty, all he had to offer; and called on me
to say how I liked them. And then he called Milly to him, kissed
her tenderly, smiled sadly upon her, and turning to Cousin
Monica, said—</p>
<p>'This is my daughter Milly—oh! she has been presented to
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you down-stairs, has she? You have, no doubt, been interested
by her. As I told her cousin Maud, though I am not yet quite
a Sir Tunbelly Clumsy, she is a very finished Miss Hoyden. Are
not you, my poor Milly? You owe your distinction, my dear, to
that line of circumvallation which has, ever since your birth, intercepted
all civilisation on its way to Bartram. You are much obliged,
Milly, to everybody who, whether naturally or <i>un</i>-naturally,
turned a sod in that invisible, but impenetrable, work. For
your accomplishments—rather singular than fashionable—you
are indebted, in part, to your cousin, Lady Knollys. Is not she,
Monica? <i>Thank</i> her, Milly.'</p>
<p>'This is your <i>truce</i>, Silas,' said Lady Knollys, with a quiet
sharpness. 'I think, Silas Ruthyn, you want to provoke me to
speak in a way before these young creatures which we should all
regret.'</p>
<p>'So my badinage excites your temper, Monnie. Think how
you <i>would</i> feel, then, if I had found you by the highway side,
mangled by robbers, and set my foot upon your throat, and spat
in your face. But—stop this. Why have I said this? simply to
emphasize my forgiveness. See, girls, Lady Knollys and I, cousins
long estranged, forget and forgive the past, and join hands over
its buried injuries.'</p>
<p>'Well, <i>be</i> it so; only let us have done with ironies and covert
taunts.'</p>
<p>And with these words their hands were joined; and Uncle
Silas, after he had released hers, patted and fondled it with
his, laughing icily and very low all the time.</p>
<p>'I wish so much, dear Monica,' he said, when this piece of
silent by-play was over, 'that I could ask you to stay to-night;
but absolutely I have not a bed to offer, and even if I had, I
fear my suit would hardly prevail.'</p>
<p>Then came Lady Knollys' invitation for Milly and me. He
was very much obliged; he smiled over it a great deal, meditating.
I thought he was puzzled; and amid his smiles, his wild
eyes scanned Cousin Monica's frank face once or twice suspiciously.</p>
<p>There was a difficulty—an <i>undefined</i> difficulty—about letting
us go that day; but on a future one—soon—<i>very</i> soon—he would
be most happy.</p>
<p>Well, there was an end of that little project, for to-day at
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least; and Cousin Monica was too well-bred to urge it beyond
a certain point.</p>
<p>'Milly, my dear, will you put on your hat and show me
the grounds about the house? May she, Silas? I should like to
renew my acquaintance.'</p>
<p>'You'll see them sadly neglected, Monnie. A poor man's pleasure
grounds must rely on Nature, and trust to her for effects.
Where there is fine timber, however, and abundance of slope,
and rock, and hollow, we sometimes gain in picturesqueness
what we lose by neglect in luxury.'</p>
<p>Then, as Cousin Monica said she would cross the grounds by
a path, and meet her carriage at a point to which we would accompany
her, and so make her way home, she took leave of
Uncle Silas; a ceremony whereat—without, I thought, much zeal
at either side—a kiss took place.</p>
<p>'Now, girls!' said Cousin Knollys, when we were fairly in
motion over the grass, 'what do you say—will he let you come—yes
or no? I can't say, but I think, dear,'—this to Milly—' he
ought to let you see a little more of the world than appears
among the glens and bushes of Bartram. Very pretty they are,
like yourself; but very wild, and very little seen. Where is your
brother, Milly; is not he older than you?'</p>
<p>'I don't know where; and he is older by six years and a bit.'</p>
<p>By-and-by, when Milly was gesticulating to frighten some
herons by the river's brink into the air, Cousin Monica said
confidentially to me—</p>
<p>'He has run away, I'm told—I wish I could believe it—and
enlisted in a regiment going to India, perhaps the best thing
for him. Did you see him here before his judicious self-banishment?'</p>
<p>'No.'</p>
<p>'Well, I suppose you have had no loss. Doctor Bryerly says
from all he can learn he is a very bad young man. And now tell
me, dear, <i>is</i> Silas kind to you?'</p>
<p>'Yes, always gentle, just as you saw him to-day; but we don't
see a great deal of him—very little, in fact.'</p>
<p>'And how do you like your life and the people?' she asked.</p>
<p>'My life, very well; and the people, <i>pretty</i> well. There's an
old women we don't like, old Wyat, she is cross and mysterious
and tells untruths; but I don't think she is dishonest—so Mary
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Quince says—and that, you know, is a point; and there is a
family, father and daughter, called Hawkes, who live in the
Windmill Wood, who are perfect savages, though my uncle says
they don't mean it; but they are very disagreeable, rude people;
and except them we see very little of the servants or other
people. But there has been a mysterious visit; some one came
late at night, and remained for some days, though Milly and I
never saw them, and Mary Quince saw a chaise at the side-door
at two o'clock at night.'</p>
<p>Cousin Monica was so highly interested at this that she arrested
her walk and stood facing me, with her hand on my arm,
questioning and listening, and lost, as it seemed, in dismal conjecture.</p>
<p>'It is not pleasant, you know,' I said.</p>
<p>'No, it is not pleasant,' said Lady Knollys, very gloomily.</p>
<p>And just then Milly joined us, shouting to us to look at the
herons flying; so Cousin Monica did, and smiled and nodded
in thanks to Milly, and was again silent and thoughtful as we
walked on.</p>
<p>'You are to come to me, mind, both of you girls,' she said,
abruptly;' you <i>shall</i>. I'll manage it.'</p>
<p>When silence returned, and Milly ran away once more to try
whether the old gray trout was visible in the still water under
the bridge, Cousin Monica said to me in a low tone, looking
hard at me—</p>
<p>'You've not seen anything to frighten you, Maud? Don't look
so alarmed, dear,' she added with a little laugh, which was not
very merry, however. 'I don't mean frighten in any awful sense—in
fact, I did not mean frighten at all. I meant—I can't exactly
express it—anything to vex, or make you uncomfortable; have
you?'</p>
<p>'No, I can't say I have, except that room in which Mr. Charke
was found dead.'</p>
<p>'Oh! you saw that, did you?—I should like to see it so much.
Your bedroom is not near it?'</p>
<p>'Oh, no; on the floor beneath, and looking to the front. And
Doctor Bryerly talked a little to me, and there seemed to be
something on his mind more than he chose to tell me; so that
for some time after I saw him I really was, as you say, frightened;
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but, except that, I really have had no cause. And what was
in your mind when you asked me?'</p>
<p>'Well, you know, Maud, you are afraid of ghosts, banditti,
and <i>every</i>thing; and I wished to know whether you were uncomfortable,
and what your particular bogle was just now—that, I
assure you, was all; and I know,' she continued, suddenly changing
her light tone and manner for one of pointed entreaty,
'what Doctor Bryerly said; and I <i>implore</i> of you, Maud, to
think of it seriously; and when you come to me, you shall do so
with the intention of remaining at Elverston.'</p>
<p>'Now, Cousin Monica, is this fair? You and Doctor Bryerly
both talk in the same awful way to me; and I assure you, you
don't know how nervous I am sometimes, and yet you won't,
either of you, say what you mean. Now, Monica, dear cousin,
won't you tell me?'</p>
<p>'You see, dear, it is so lonely; it's a strange place, and he
so odd. I don't like the place, and I don't like him. I've tried,
but I can't, and I think I never shall. He may be a very—what
was it that good little silly curate at Knowl used to call him?—a
very advanced Christian—that is it, and I hope he is; but if
he is only what he used to be, his utter seclusion from society
removes the only check, except personal fear—and he never had
much of that—upon a very bad man. And you must know, my
dear Maud, what a prize you are, and what an immense trust
it is.'</p>
<p>Suddenly Cousin Monica stopped short, and looked at me as if
she had gone too far.</p>
<p>'But, you know, Silas may be very good <i>now</i>, although he was
wild and selfish in his young days. Indeed I don't know what
to make of him; but I am sure when you have thought it over,
you will agree with me and Doctor Bryerly, that you must not
stay here.'</p>
<p>It was vain trying to induce my cousin to be more explicit.</p>
<p>'I hope to see you at Elverston in a very few days. I will
<i>shame</i> Silas into letting you come. I don't like his reluctance.'</p>
<p>'But don't you think he must know that Milly would require
some little outfit before her visit?'</p>
<p>'Well, I can't say. I hope that is all; but be it what it may,
I'll <i>make</i> him let you come, and <i>immediately</i>, too.'</p>
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<p>After she had gone, I experienced a repetition of those undefined
doubts which had tortured me for some time after my
conversation with Dr. Bryerly. I had truly said, however, I was
well enough contented with my mode of life here, for I had been
trained at Knowl to a solitude very nearly as profound.</p>
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