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<h3>CHAPTER LVI</h3>
<h2><i>I CONSPIRE</i></h2>
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<p>'That's a bad un, he is—oh, Miss, Miss Maud! It's nout that's
good as keeps him an' fayther—(mind, lass, ye promised you
would not tell no one)—as keeps them two a-talkin' and a-smokin'
secret-like together in the mill. An' fayther don't know I
found him out. They don't let me into the town, but Brice tells
me, and he knows it's Dudley; and it's nout that's good, but
summat very bad. An' I reckon, Miss, it's all about you. Be ye
frightened, Miss Maud?'</p>
<p>I felt on the point of fainting, but I rallied.</p>
<p>'Not much, Meg. Go on, for Heaven's sake. Does Uncle Silas
know he is here?'</p>
<p>'Well, Miss, they were with him, Brice told me, from eleven
o'clock to nigh one o' Tuesday night, an' went in and come out
like thieves, 'feard ye'd see 'em.'</p>
<p>'And how does Brice know anything bad?' I asked, with a
strange freezing sensation creeping from my heels to my head
and down again—I am sure deadly pale, but speaking very collectedly.</p>
<p>'Brice said, Miss, he saw Dudley a-cryin' and lookin' awful
black, and says he to fayther, "'Tisn't in my line nohow, an' I
can't;" and says fayther to he, "No one likes they soart o'
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things, but how can ye help it? The old boy's behind ye wi'
his pitchfork, and ye canna stop." An' wi' that he bethought
him o' Brice, and says he, "What be ye a-doin' there? Get
ye down wi' the nags to blacksmith, do ye." An' oop gits Dudley,
pullin' his hat ower his brows, an' says he, "I wish I was in the
<i>Seamew</i>. I'm good for nout wi' this thing a-hangin' ower me."
An' that's all as Brice heard. An' he's afeard o' fayther and
Dudley awful. Dudley could lick him to pot if he crossed him,
and he and fayther 'ud think nout o' havin' him afore the
justices for poachin', and swearin' him into gaol.'</p>
<p>'But why does he think it's about <i>me</i>?'</p>
<p>'Hish!' said Meg, who fancied she heard a sound, but all was
quiet. 'I can't say—we're in danger, lass. I don't know why—but
<i>he</i> does, an' so do I, an', for that matter, so do <i>ye</i>.'</p>
<p>'Meg, I'll leave Bartram.'</p>
<p>'Ye can't.'</p>
<p>'Can't. What do you mean, girl?'</p>
<p>'They won't let ye oot. The gates is all locked. They've dogs—they've
bloodhounds, Brice says. Ye <i>can't</i> git oot, mind; put
that oot o' your head.</p>
<p>'I tell ye what ye'll do. Write a bit o' a note to the lady
yonder at Elverston; an' though Brice be a wild fellah, and
'appen not ower good sometimes, he likes me, an' I'll make him
take it. Fayther will be grindin' at mill to-morrow. Coom ye
here about one o'clock—that's if ye see the mill-sails a-turnin'—and
me and Brice will meet ye here. Bring that old lass wi' ye.
There's an old French un, though, that talks wi' Dudley. Mind
ye, that un knows nout o' the matter. Brice be a kind lad to me,
whatsoe'er he be wi' others, and I think he won't split. Now,
lass, I must go. God help ye; God bless ye; an', for the world's
wealth, don't ye let one o' them see ye've got ought in your head,
not even that un.'</p>
<p>Before I could say another word, the girl had glided from me,
with a wild gesture of silence, and a shake of her head.</p>
<p>I can't at all account for the state in which I was. There are
resources both of energy and endurance in human nature which
we never suspect until the tremendous voice of necessity summons
them into play. Petrified with a totally new horror, but
with something of the coldness and impassiveness of the transformation,
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I stood, spoke, and acted—a wonder, almost a terror,
to myself.</p>
<p>I met Madame on my return as if nothing had happened. I
heard her ugly gabble, and looked at the fruits of her hour's
shopping, as I might hear, and see, and talk, and smile,
in a dream.</p>
<p>But the night was dreadful. When Mary Quince and I were
alone, I locked the door. I continued walking up and down the
room, with my hands clasped, looking at the inexorable floor,
the walls, the ceiling, with a sort of imploring despair. I was
afraid to tell my dear old Mary. The least indiscretion would be
failure, and failure destruction.</p>
<p>I answered her perplexed solicitudes by telling her that I was
not very well—that I was uneasy; but I did not fail to extract
from her a promise that she would not hint to mortal, either
my suspicions about Dudley, or our rencontre with Meg Hawkes.</p>
<p>I remember how, when, after we had got, late at night, into
bed, I sat up, shivering with horror, in mine, while honest Mary's
tranquil breathing told how soundly she slept. I got up, and looked from
the window, expecting to see some of those
wolfish dogs which they had brought to the place prowling
about the court-yard. Sometimes I prayed, and felt tranquillised,
and fancied that I was perhaps to have a short interval of sleep. But the
serenity was delusive, and all the time my
nerves were strung hysterically. Sometimes I felt quite wild, and
on the point of screaming. At length that dreadful night passed
away. Morning came, and a less morbid, though hardly a less
terrible state of mind. Madame paid me an early visit. A thought
struck me. I knew that she loved shopping, and I said, quite
carelessly—</p>
<p>'Your yesterday's shopping tempts me, Madame, and I must
get a few things before we leave for France. Suppose we go into
Feltram to-day, and make my purchases, you and I?'</p>
<p>She looked from the corner of her cunning eye in my face
without answering. I did not blench, and she said—</p>
<p>'Vary good. I would be vary 'appy,' and again she looked
oddly at me.</p>
<p>'Wat hour, my dear Maud? One o'clock? I think that weel
de very well, eh?'</p>
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<p>I assented, and she grew silent.</p>
<p>I wonder whether I did look as careless as I tried. I do not
know. Through the whole of this awful period I was, I think,
supernatural; and I even now look back with wonder upon my
strange self-command.</p>
<p>Madame, I hoped, had heard nothing of the order which prohibited
my exit from the place. She would herself conduct me to
Feltram, and secure, by accompanying me, my free egress.</p>
<p>Once in Feltram, I would assert my freedom, and manage to
reach my dear cousin Knollys. Back to Bartram no power should
convey me. My heart swelled and fluttered in the awful suspense
of that hour.</p>
<p>Oh, Bartram-Haugh! how came you by those lofty walls?
Which of my ancestors had begirt me with an impassable barrier
in this horrible strait?</p>
<p>Suddenly I remembered my letter to Lady Knollys. If I were
disappointed in effecting my escape through Feltram, all would
depend upon it.</p>
<p>Having locked my door, I wrote as follows:—</p>
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<p>'Oh, my beloved cousin, as you hope for comfort in <i>your</i>
hour of fear, aid me now. Dudley has returned, and is secreted
somewhere about the grounds. It is a <i>fraud</i>. They all pretend
to me that he is gone away in the <i>Seamew</i>; and he or they had
his name published as one of the passengers. Madame de la
Rougierre has appeared! She is here, and my uncle insists on
making her my close companion. I am at my wits' ends. I cannot
escape—the walls are a prison; and I believe the eyes of
my gaolers are always upon me. Dogs are kept for pursuit—yes,
<i>dogs</i>! and the gates are locked against my escape. God help me!
I don't know where to look, or whom to trust. I fear my uncle
more than all. I think I could bear this better if I knew what
their plans are, even the worst. If ever you loved or pitied me,
dear cousin, I conjure you, help me in this extremity. Take me
away from this. Oh, darling, for God's sake take me away!</p>
<p class="closer">'Your distracted and terrified cousin,</p>
<p class="signature">M<small>AUD</small>'</p>
<p><span class="smalltext">'Bartram-Haugh</span>.'</p>
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<p>I sealed this letter jealously, as if the inanimate missive would
burst its cerements, and proclaim my desperate appeal through
all the chambers and passages of silent Bartram.</p>
<p>Old Quince, greatly to cousin Monica's amusement, persisted
in furnishing me with those capacious pockets which belonged
to a former generation. I was glad of this old-world eccentricity
now, and placed my guilty letter, that, amidst all my hypocrisies,
spoke out with terrible frankness, deep in this receptacle, and
having hid away the pen and ink, my accomplices, I opened the
door, and resumed my careless looks, awaiting Madame's return.</p>
<p>'I was to demand to Mr. Ruthyn the permission to go to
Feltram, and I think he will allow. He want to speak to you.'</p>
<p>With Madame I entered my uncle's room. He was reclining on
a sofa, his back towards us, and his long white hair, as fine as
spun glass, hung over the back of the couch.</p>
<p>'I was going to ask you, dear Maud, to execute two or three
little commissions for me in Feltram.'</p>
<p>My dreadful letter felt lighter in my pocket, and my heart
beat violently.</p>
<p>'But I have just recollected that this is a market-day, and
Feltram will be full of doubtful characters and tipsy persons,
so we must wait till to-morrow; and Madame says, very kindly,
that she will, as she does not so much mind, make any little
purchases to-day which cannot conveniently wait.'</p>
<p>Madame assented with a courtesy to Uncle Silas, and a great
hollow smile to me.</p>
<p>By this time Uncle Silas had raised himself from his reclining
posture, and was sitting, gaunt and white, upon the sofa.</p>
<p>'News of my prodigal to-day,' he said, with a peevish smile,
drawing the newspaper towards him. 'The vessel has been
spoken again. How many miles away, do you suppose?'</p>
<p>He spoke in a plaintive key, looking at me, with hungry eyes,
and a horribly smiling countenance.</p>
<p>'How far do you suppose Dudley is to-day?' and he laid the
palm of his hand on the paragraph as he spoke. <i>Guess</i>!'</p>
<p>For a moment I fancied this was a theatric preparation to give
point to the disclosure of Dudley's real whereabouts.</p>
<p>'It was a very long way. Guess!' he repeated.</p>
<p>So, stammering a little and pale, I performed the required
hypocrisy, after which my uncle read aloud for my benefit the
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line or two in which were recorded the event, and the latitude
and longitude of the vessel at the time, of which Madame made
a note in her memory, for the purpose of making her usual
tracing in poor Milly's Atlas.</p>
<p>I cannot say how it really was, but I fancied that Uncle Silas
was all the time reading my countenance, with a grim and practised
scrutiny; but nothing came of it, and we were dismissed.</p>
<p>Madame loved shopping, even for its own sake, but shopping
with opportunities of peculation still more. She she had had her
luncheon, and was dressed for the excursion, she did precisely
what I now most desired—she proposed to take charge of my
commissions and my money; and thus entrusted, left me at
liberty to keep tryst at the Chestnut Hollow.</p>
<p>So soon as I had seen Madame fairly off, I hurried Mary
Quince, and got my things on quickly. We left the house by
the side entrance, which I knew my uncle's windows did not
command. Glad was I to feel a slight breeze, enough to make
the mill-sails revolve; and as we got further into the grounds,
and obtained a distant view of the picturesque old windmill,
I felt inexpressibly relieved on seeing that it was actually working.</p>
<p>We were now in the Chestnut Hollow, and I sent Mary
Quince to her old point of observation, which commanded a
view of the path in the direction of the Windmill Wood, with
her former order to call 'I've found it,' as loudly as she could,
in case she should see anyone approaching.</p>
<p>I stopped at the point of our yesterday's meeting. I peered
under the branches, and my heart beat fast as I saw Meg
Hawkes awaiting me.</p>
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