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<h2> CHAPTER V—DISTRACTIONS </h2>
<p>Above the door of the refectory this prayer, which was called the white
Paternoster, and which possessed the property of bearing people straight
to paradise, was inscribed in large black letters:—</p>
<p>"Little white Paternoster, which God made, which God said, which God
placed in paradise. In the evening, when I went to bed, I found three
angels sitting on my bed, one at the foot, two at the head, the good
Virgin Mary in the middle, who told me to lie down without hesitation. The
good God is my father, the good Virgin is my mother, the three apostles
are my brothers, the three virgins are my sisters. The shirt in which God
was born envelopes my body; Saint Margaret's cross is written on my
breast. Madame the Virgin was walking through the meadows, weeping for
God, when she met M. Saint John. 'Monsieur Saint John, whence come you?'
'I come from Ave Salus.' 'You have not seen the good God; where is he?'
'He is on the tree of the Cross, his feet hanging, his hands nailed, a
little cap of white thorns on his head.' Whoever shall say this thrice at
eventide, thrice in the morning, shall win paradise at the last."</p>
<p>In 1827 this characteristic orison had disappeared from the wall under a
triple coating of daubing paint. At the present time it is finally
disappearing from the memories of several who were young girls then, and
who are old women now.</p>
<p>A large crucifix fastened to the wall completed the decoration of this
refectory, whose only door, as we think we have mentioned, opened on the
garden. Two narrow tables, each flanked by two wooden benches, formed two
long parallel lines from one end to the other of the refectory. The walls
were white, the tables were black; these two mourning colors constitute
the only variety in convents. The meals were plain, and the food of the
children themselves severe. A single dish of meat and vegetables combined,
or salt fish—such was their luxury. This meagre fare, which was
reserved for the pupils alone, was, nevertheless, an exception. The
children ate in silence, under the eye of the mother whose turn it was,
who, if a fly took a notion to fly or to hum against the rule, opened and
shut a wooden book from time to time. This silence was seasoned with the
lives of the saints, read aloud from a little pulpit with a desk, which
was situated at the foot of the crucifix. The reader was one of the big
girls, in weekly turn. At regular distances, on the bare tables, there
were large, varnished bowls in which the pupils washed their own silver
cups and knives and forks, and into which they sometimes threw some scrap
of tough meat or spoiled fish; this was punished. These bowls were called
ronds d'eau. The child who broke the silence "made a cross with her
tongue." Where? On the ground. She licked the pavement. The dust, that end
of all joys, was charged with the chastisement of those poor little
rose-leaves which had been guilty of chirping.</p>
<p>There was in the convent a book which has never been printed except as a
unique copy, and which it is forbidden to read. It is the rule of
Saint-Benoit. An arcanum which no profane eye must penetrate. Nemo
regulas, seu constitutiones nostras, externis communicabit.</p>
<p>The pupils one day succeeded in getting possession of this book, and set
to reading it with avidity, a reading which was often interrupted by the
fear of being caught, which caused them to close the volume precipitately.</p>
<p>From the great danger thus incurred they derived but a very moderate
amount of pleasure. The most "interesting thing" they found were some
unintelligible pages about the sins of young boys.</p>
<p>They played in an alley of the garden bordered with a few shabby
fruit-trees. In spite of the extreme surveillance and the severity of the
punishments administered, when the wind had shaken the trees, they
sometimes succeeded in picking up a green apple or a spoiled apricot or an
inhabited pear on the sly. I will now cede the privilege of speech to a
letter which lies before me, a letter written five and twenty years ago by
an old pupil, now Madame la Duchesse de——one of the most
elegant women in Paris. I quote literally: "One hides one's pear or one's
apple as best one may. When one goes up stairs to put the veil on the bed
before supper, one stuffs them under one's pillow and at night one eats
them in bed, and when one cannot do that, one eats them in the closet."
That was one of their greatest luxuries.</p>
<p>Once—it was at the epoch of the visit from the archbishop to the
convent—one of the young girls, Mademoiselle Bouchard, who was
connected with the Montmorency family, laid a wager that she would ask for
a day's leave of absence—an enormity in so austere a community. The
wager was accepted, but not one of those who bet believed that she would
do it. When the moment came, as the archbishop was passing in front of the
pupils, Mademoiselle Bouchard, to the indescribable terror of her
companions, stepped out of the ranks, and said, "Monseigneur, a day's
leave of absence." Mademoiselle Bouchard was tall, blooming, with the
prettiest little rosy face in the world. M. de Quelen smiled and said,
"What, my dear child, a day's leave of absence! Three days if you like. I
grant you three days." The prioress could do nothing; the archbishop had
spoken. Horror of the convent, but joy of the pupil. The effect may be
imagined.</p>
<p>This stern cloister was not so well walled off, however, but that the life
of the passions of the outside world, drama, and even romance, did not
make their way in. To prove this, we will confine ourselves to recording
here and to briefly mentioning a real and incontestable fact, which,
however, bears no reference in itself to, and is not connected by any
thread whatever with the story which we are relating. We mention the fact
for the sake of completing the physiognomy of the convent in the reader's
mind.</p>
<p>About this time there was in the convent a mysterious person who was not a
nun, who was treated with great respect, and who was addressed as Madame
Albertine. Nothing was known about her, save that she was mad, and that in
the world she passed for dead. Beneath this history it was said there lay
the arrangements of fortune necessary for a great marriage.</p>
<p>This woman, hardly thirty years of age, of dark complexion and tolerably
pretty, had a vague look in her large black eyes. Could she see? There was
some doubt about this. She glided rather than walked, she never spoke; it
was not quite known whether she breathed. Her nostrils were livid and
pinched as after yielding up their last sigh. To touch her hand was like
touching snow. She possessed a strange spectral grace. Wherever she
entered, people felt cold. One day a sister, on seeing her pass, said to
another sister, "She passes for a dead woman." "Perhaps she is one,"
replied the other.</p>
<p>A hundred tales were told of Madame Albertine. This arose from the eternal
curiosity of the pupils. In the chapel there was a gallery called L'Œil
de Bœuf. It was in this gallery, which had only a circular bay, an
œil de bœuf, that Madame Albertine listened to the offices.
She always occupied it alone because this gallery, being on the level of
the first story, the preacher or the officiating priest could be seen,
which was interdicted to the nuns. One day the pulpit was occupied by a
young priest of high rank, M. Le Duc de Rohan, peer of France, officer of
the Red Musketeers in 1815 when he was Prince de Leon, and who died
afterward, in 1830, as cardinal and Archbishop of Besancon. It was the
first time that M. de Rohan had preached at the Petit-Picpus convent.
Madame Albertine usually preserved perfect calmness and complete
immobility during the sermons and services. That day, as soon as she
caught sight of M. de Rohan, she half rose, and said, in a loud voice,
amid the silence of the chapel, "Ah! Auguste!" The whole community turned
their heads in amazement, the preacher raised his eyes, but Madame
Albertine had relapsed into her immobility. A breath from the outer world,
a flash of life, had passed for an instant across that cold and lifeless
face and had then vanished, and the mad woman had become a corpse again.</p>
<p>Those two words, however, had set every one in the convent who had the
privilege of speech to chattering. How many things were contained in that
"Ah! Auguste!" what revelations! M. de Rohan's name really was Auguste. It
was evident that Madame Albertine belonged to the very highest society,
since she knew M. de Rohan, and that her own rank there was of the
highest, since she spoke thus familiarly of so great a lord, and that
there existed between them some connection, of relationship, perhaps, but
a very close one in any case, since she knew his "pet name."</p>
<p>Two very severe duchesses, Mesdames de Choiseul and de Serent, often
visited the community, whither they penetrated, no doubt, in virtue of the
privilege Magnates mulieres, and caused great consternation in the
boarding-school. When these two old ladies passed by, all the poor young
girls trembled and dropped their eyes.</p>
<p>Moreover, M. de Rohan, quite unknown to himself, was an object of
attention to the school-girls. At that epoch he had just been made, while
waiting for the episcopate, vicar-general of the Archbishop of Paris. It
was one of his habits to come tolerably often to celebrate the offices in
the chapel of the nuns of the Petit-Picpus. Not one of the young recluses
could see him, because of the serge curtain, but he had a sweet and rather
shrill voice, which they had come to know and to distinguish. He had been
a mousquetaire, and then, he was said to be very coquettish, that his
handsome brown hair was very well dressed in a roll around his head, and
that he had a broad girdle of magnificent moire, and that his black
cassock was of the most elegant cut in the world. He held a great place in
all these imaginations of sixteen years.</p>
<p>Not a sound from without made its way into the convent. But there was one
year when the sound of a flute penetrated thither. This was an event, and
the girls who were at school there at the time still recall it.</p>
<p>It was a flute which was played in the neighborhood. This flute always
played the same air, an air which is very far away nowadays,—"My
Zetulbe, come reign o'er my soul,"—and it was heard two or three
times a day. The young girls passed hours in listening to it, the vocal
mothers were upset by it, brains were busy, punishments descended in
showers. This lasted for several months. The girls were all more or less
in love with the unknown musician. Each one dreamed that she was Zetulbe.
The sound of the flute proceeded from the direction of the Rue Droit-Mur;
and they would have given anything, compromised everything, attempted
anything for the sake of seeing, of catching a glance, if only for a
second, of the "young man" who played that flute so deliciously, and who,
no doubt, played on all these souls at the same time. There were some who
made their escape by a back door, and ascended to the third story on the
Rue Droit-Mur side, in order to attempt to catch a glimpse through the
gaps. Impossible! One even went so far as to thrust her arm through the
grating, and to wave her white handkerchief. Two were still bolder. They
found means to climb on a roof, and risked their lives there, and
succeeded at last in seeing "the young man." He was an old emigre
gentleman, blind and penniless, who was playing his flute in his attic, in
order to pass the time.</p>
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