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<h2> CHAPTER XII </h2>
<p>The Rostovs remained in Moscow till the first of September, that is, till
the eve of the enemy's entry into the city.</p>
<p>After Petya had joined Obolenski's regiment of Cossacks and left for
Belaya Tserkov where that regiment was forming, the countess was seized
with terror. The thought that both her sons were at the war, had both gone
from under her wing, that today or tomorrow either or both of them might
be killed like the three sons of one of her acquaintances, struck her that
summer for the first time with cruel clearness. She tried to get Nicholas
back and wished to go herself to join Petya, or to get him an appointment
somewhere in Petersburg, but neither of these proved possible. Petya could
not return unless his regiment did so or unless he was transferred to
another regiment on active service. Nicholas was somewhere with the army
and had not sent a word since his last letter, in which he had given a
detailed account of his meeting with Princess Mary. The countess did not
sleep at night, or when she did fall asleep dreamed that she saw her sons
lying dead. After many consultations and conversations, the count at last
devised means to tranquillize her. He got Petya transferred from
Obolenski's regiment to Bezukhov's, which was in training near Moscow.
Though Petya would remain in the service, this transfer would give the
countess the consolation of seeing at least one of her sons under her
wing, and she hoped to arrange matters for her Petya so as not to let him
go again, but always get him appointed to places where he could not
possibly take part in a battle. As long as Nicholas alone was in danger
the countess imagined that she loved her first-born more than all her
other children and even reproached herself for it; but when her youngest:
the scapegrace who had been bad at lessons, was always breaking things in
the house and making himself a nuisance to everybody, that snub-nosed
Petya with his merry black eyes and fresh rosy cheeks where soft down was
just beginning to show—when he was thrown amid those big, dreadful,
cruel men who were fighting somewhere about something and apparently
finding pleasure in it—then his mother thought she loved him more,
much more, than all her other children. The nearer the time came for Petya
to return, the more uneasy grew the countess. She began to think she would
never live to see such happiness. The presence of Sonya, of her beloved
Natasha, or even of her husband irritated her. "What do I want with them?
I want no one but Petya," she thought.</p>
<p>At the end of August the Rostovs received another letter from Nicholas. He
wrote from the province of Voronezh where he had been sent to procure
remounts, but that letter did not set the countess at ease. Knowing that
one son was out of danger she became the more anxious about Petya.</p>
<p>Though by the twentieth of August nearly all the Rostovs' acquaintances
had left Moscow, and though everybody tried to persuade the countess to
get away as quickly as possible, she would not hear of leaving before her
treasure, her adored Petya, returned. On the twenty-eighth of August he
arrived. The passionate tenderness with which his mother received him did
not please the sixteen-year-old officer. Though she concealed from him her
intention of keeping him under her wing, Petya guessed her designs, and
instinctively fearing that he might give way to emotion when with her—might
"become womanish" as he termed it to himself—he treated her coldly,
avoided her, and during his stay in Moscow attached himself exclusively to
Natasha for whom he had always had a particularly brotherly tenderness,
almost lover-like.</p>
<p>Owing to the count's customary carelessness nothing was ready for their
departure by the twenty-eighth of August and the carts that were to come
from their Ryazan and Moscow estates to remove their household belongings
did not arrive till the thirtieth.</p>
<p>From the twenty-eighth till the thirty-first all Moscow was in a bustle
and commotion. Every day thousands of men wounded at Borodino were brought
in by the Dorogomilov gate and taken to various parts of Moscow, and
thousands of carts conveyed the inhabitants and their possessions out by
the other gates. In spite of Rostopchin's broadsheets, or because of them
or independently of them, the strangest and most contradictory rumors were
current in the town. Some said that no one was to be allowed to leave the
city, others on the contrary said that all the icons had been taken out of
the churches and everybody was to be ordered to leave. Some said there had
been another battle after Borodino at which the French had been routed,
while others on the contrary reported that the Russian army had been
destroyed. Some talked about the Moscow militia which, preceded by the
clergy, would go to the Three Hills; others whispered that Augustin had
been forbidden to leave, that traitors had been seized, that the peasants
were rioting and robbing people on their way from Moscow, and so on. But
all this was only talk; in reality (though the Council of Fili, at which
it was decided to abandon Moscow, had not yet been held) both those who
went away and those who remained behind felt, though they did not show it,
that Moscow would certainly be abandoned, and that they ought to get away
as quickly as possible and save their belongings. It was felt that
everything would suddenly break up and change, but up to the first of
September nothing had done so. As a criminal who is being led to execution
knows that he must die immediately, but yet looks about him and
straightens the cap that is awry on his head, so Moscow involuntarily
continued its wonted life, though it knew that the time of its destruction
was near when the conditions of life to which its people were accustomed
to submit would be completely upset.</p>
<p>During the three days preceding the occupation of Moscow the whole Rostov
family was absorbed in various activities. The head of the family, Count
Ilya Rostov, continually drove about the city collecting the current
rumors from all sides and gave superficial and hasty orders at home about
the preparations for their departure.</p>
<p>The countess watched the things being packed, was dissatisfied with
everything, was constantly in pursuit of Petya who was always running away
from her, and was jealous of Natasha with whom he spent all his time.
Sonya alone directed the practical side of matters by getting things
packed. But of late Sonya had been particularly sad and silent. Nicholas'
letter in which he mentioned Princess Mary had elicited, in her presence,
joyous comments from the countess, who saw an intervention of Providence
in this meeting of the princess and Nicholas.</p>
<p>"I was never pleased at Bolkonski's engagement to Natasha," said the
countess, "but I always wanted Nicholas to marry the princess, and had a
presentiment that it would happen. What a good thing it would be!"</p>
<p>Sonya felt that this was true: that the only possibility of retrieving the
Rostovs' affairs was by Nicholas marrying a rich woman, and that the
princess was a good match. It was very bitter for her. But despite her
grief, or perhaps just because of it, she took on herself all the
difficult work of directing the storing and packing of their things and
was busy for whole days. The count and countess turned to her when they
had any orders to give. Petya and Natasha on the contrary, far from
helping their parents, were generally a nuisance and a hindrance to
everyone. Almost all day long the house resounded with their running feet,
their cries, and their spontaneous laughter. They laughed and were gay not
because there was any reason to laugh, but because gaiety and mirth were
in their hearts and so everything that happened was a cause for gaiety and
laughter to them. Petya was in high spirits because having left home a boy
he had returned (as everybody told him) a fine young man, because he was
at home, because he had left Belaya Tserkov where there was no hope of
soon taking part in a battle and had come to Moscow where there was to be
fighting in a few days, and chiefly because Natasha, whose lead he always
followed, was in high spirits. Natasha was gay because she had been sad
too long and now nothing reminded her of the cause of her sadness, and
because she was feeling well. She was also happy because she had someone
to adore her: the adoration of others was a lubricant the wheels of her
machine needed to make them run freely—and Petya adored her. Above
all, they were gay because there was a war near Moscow, there would be
fighting at the town gates, arms were being given out, everybody was
escaping—going away somewhere, and in general something
extraordinary was happening, and that is always exciting, especially to
the young.</p>
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