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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Cat hadn’t got me into anymore cellars, but I
can’t honestly say he’d been sitting home tending
his knitting—not him.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">One hot morning I went to pick up the milk
outside our door, and Cat was sleeping there on
the mat. He didn’t even look up at me. After I
scratched his ears and talked to him some, he
got up and hobbled into the house.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I put him up on my bed, under the light, for
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inspection. One front claw was torn off, which
is why he was limping, his left ear was ripped,
and there was quite a bit of fur missing here and
there. He curled up on my bed and didn’t move
all day.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I came and looked at him every few hours and
wondered if I ought to take him to a vet. But
he seemed to be breathing all right, so I went
away and thought about it some more. Come
night, I pushed him gently to one side, wondering
what I better do in the morning.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Well, in the morning Cat wakes up, stretches,
yawns, and drops easily down off the bed and
walks away. He still limps a little, but otherwise
he acts like nothing had happened. He just
wants to know what’s for breakfast.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“You better watch out. One day you’ll run
into a cat that’s bigger and meaner than you,”
I tell him.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Cat continues to wait for breakfast. He is not
impressed.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">But I’m worried. Suppose some big old cat
chews him up and he’s hurt too bad to get home?
After breakfast I take him out in the backyard
for a bit, and then I shut him in my room and
go over to consult Aunt Kate.</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">She sets me up with the usual iced tea and
dish of cottage cheese.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“I had breakfast already. What do I need with
cottage cheese?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Eat it. It’s good for you.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">So I eat it, and then I start telling her about
Cat. “He came home all chewed up night before
last. I’m afraid some night he’s not going
to make it.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Right,” says Kate. She’s not very talky, but
I’m sort of surprised. I expected she’d tell me
to quit worrying, Cat can take care of himself.
She starts pulling Susan’s latest kittens out from
under the sofa and sorting them out as if they
were ribbons: one gray, two tiger, one yellow,
one calico.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“So what you going to do?” she shoots at me,
shoveling the kittens back to Susan.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“I—uh—I dunno. I thought maybe I ought to
try to keep him in nights.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Huh. Don’t know much, do you?” she says.
“Well, so I’ll tell you. Your Cat has probably
fathered a few dozen kittens by now, and once
a cat’s been out and mated, you can’t keep him
in. You got to get him altered. Then he won’t
want to go out so much.”</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Altered?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Fixed. Castrated is the technical word. It’s
a two-minute operation. Cost you three dollars.
Take him to Speyer Hospital—big new building
up on First Avenue.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“You mean get him fixed so he’s not a real
tomcat any more? The heck with that! I don’t
want him turned into a fat old cushion cat!”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“He won’t be,” she says. “But if it makes you
happier, let him get killed in a cat fight. He’s
tough. He’ll last a year or two. Suit yourself.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Ah, you’re screwy! You and your cottage
cheese!” Even as I say it I feel a little guilty.
But I feel mad and mixed up, and I fling out
the door. It’s the first time I ever left Kate’s mad.
Usually I leave <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">our</span></span> house mad and go to Kate.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Now I got nowhere to go. I walk along, cussing
and fuming and kicking pebbles. I come to
an air-conditioned movie and go up to the
window.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">The phony blonde in the booth looks at me
and sneers, “You’re not sixteen. We don’t have
a children’s section in this theater.” She doesn’t
even ask. She just says it. It’s a great world. I go
home. There’s no one there but Cat, so I turn
the record player up full blast.</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Pop comes home in one of his unexpected
fits of generosity that night and takes us to the
movies. Cat behaves himself and stays around
home and our cellar for a while, so I stop worrying.
But it doesn’t last long.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">As soon as his claw heals, he starts sashaying
off again. One night I hear cats yowling out back
and I go out with a bucket of water and douse
them and bring Cat in. There’s a pretty little
tiger cat, hardly more than a kitten, sitting on
the fence licking herself, dry and unconcerned.
Cat doesn’t speak to me for a couple of days.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">One morning Butch, the janitor, comes up
and knocks on our door. “You better come down
and look at your cat. He got himself mighty
chewed up. Most near dead.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I hurry down, and there is Cat sprawled in a
corner on the cool cement floor. His mouth is
half open, and his breath comes in wheezes, like
he has asthma. I don’t know whether to pick him
up or not.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Butch says, “Best let him lie.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I sit down beside him. After a bit his breath
comes easier and he puts his head down. Then
I see he’s got a long, deep claw gouge going from
his shoulder down one leg. It’s half an inch
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open, and anyone can see it won’t heal by itself.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Butch shakes his head. “You gotta take him
to the veteran, sure. That’s the cat doctor.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Yeah,” I say, not correcting him. It’s not just
the gash that’s worrying me. I remember what
Aunt Kate said, and it gives me a cold feeling in
the stomach: In the back-alley jungle he’d last
a year, maybe two.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Looking at Cat, right now, I know she’s right.
But Cat’s such a—well, such a <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">cat</span></span>. How can I
take him to be whittled down?</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I tell Butch I’ll be back down in a few
minutes, and I go upstairs. Mom’s humming and
cleaning in the kitchen. I wander around and
stare out the window awhile. Finally I go in the
kitchen and stare into the icebox, and then I tell
Mom about the gash in Cat’s leg.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">She asks if I know a vet to take him to.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Yeah, there’s Speyer. It’s a big, new hospital—good
enough for people, even—with a view of
the East River. The thing is, Mom, Cat keeps
going off and fighting and getting hurt, and
people tell me I ought to get him altered.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Mom wets the sponge and squeezes it out and
polishes at the sink, and I wonder if she knows
what I’m talking about because I don’t really
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know how to explain it any better.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">She wrings the sponge out, finally, and sits
down at the kitchen table.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">She says, “Cat’s not a free wild animal now,
and he wouldn’t be even if you turned him
loose. He belongs to <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">you</span></span>, so you have to do whatever
is best for <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">him</span></span>, whether it’s what you’d like
or not. Ask the doctor and do what he says.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Mom puts it on the line, all right. It doesn’t
make me feel any better about Cat. She takes
five dollars out of her pocketbook and gives it
to me.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I get out the wicker hamper and go down to
the cellar and load Cat in. He meows, a low
resentful rumble, but he doesn’t try to get away.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Cat in the hamper is no powder puff, and
I get pretty hot walking to the bus, and then
from the bus stop to the animal hospital. I get
there and wait, and dogs sniff at me, and I fill
in forms. The lady asks me if I can afford to
pay, and with Mom’s five bucks and four of my
own, I say Yes.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">The doctor is a youngish guy, but bald, in a
white shirt like a dentist’s. I put Cat on the table
in front of him. He says, “So why don’t you stay
out of fights, like your mommy told you?”</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I relax a bit and smile, and he says, “That’s
better. Don’t worry. We’ll take care of tomcat.
I suppose he got this gash in a fight?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Yeah.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“He been altered?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“No.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“How old is he?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“I don’t know. He was a stray. I’ve had him
almost a year.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">All the time he’s talking, the doctor is soothing
Cat and looking him over. He goes on
stroking him and looks up at me. “Well, son,
one of these days he’s going to get in one fight
too many. Shall we alter him the same time we
sew up his leg?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">So there it is. I can’t seem to answer right
away. If the doctor had argued with me, I might
have said No. But he just goes on humming and
stroking. Finally he says, “It’s tough, I know.
Maybe he’s got a right to be a tiger. But you
can’t keep a tiger for a pet.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I say, “O.K.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">An attendant takes Cat away, and I go sit in
the waiting room, feeling sweaty and cold all
over. They tell me it’ll be a couple of hours, so
I go out and wander around a lot of blocks I
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never saw before and drink some cokes and
sit and look up at the Fifty-ninth Street Bridge
to Queens.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">When I go back for him, Cat looks the same
as ever, except for a bandage all up his right
front leg. The doctor tells me to come back
Friday and he’ll take out the stitches.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Mom sees me come in the door, and I guess
I look pretty grim, because she says, “Cat will
be all right, won’t he, dear?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Yes.” I go past her and down into my room
and let Cat out of the basket and then bury my
head under the pillow. I’m not exactly ashamed
of crying, but I don’t want Mom to hear.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">After a while I pull my head out. Cat is lying
there beside me, his eyes half open, the tip end
of his tail twitching very slowly. I rub my eyes
on the back of his neck and whisper to him,
“I’m sorry. Be tough, Cat, anyway, will you?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Cat stretches and hops off the bed on his three
good legs.</p>
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