<h2><SPAN name="CHAPTER_XVIII" id="CHAPTER_XVIII"></SPAN>CHAPTER XVIII</h2>
<div class="blockquot"><p>"An excellent way to get a fayrie—and when you have her,
bind her!"—<span class="smcap">Ancient Alchemist's Recipe.</span></p>
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<p>In the darkness Time crept along like a crippled
thing, slow-moving, hideous. Outside fell the
monotonous drip, drip from trees and bushes, likened
by Phillida to a horrid clock. The fog was a sounding-board
for furtive noises that grew up like fungi
in the moist atmosphere. The thought of Phillida
and Vere down in the pleasant living room tempted
me almost beyond resistance. I wanted to spring
up, to rush out of the room; to fling myself into my
car and drive full speed until strength failed and
gasoline gave out.</p>
<p>Was that the lake which stirred in the windless
night? The lake, under which lay the fire-blackened
ruins of the house where the first Desire Michell
flung open an awful door that her vengeance might
stride through!</p>
<p>Was it too late for my Desire to come, and time
for the coming of that Other?</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_250" id="Page_250"></SPAN></span>The step of Vere sounded on the gravel path
where he walked beneath the window. He was
making a trip of inspection, and would find no light
shining from the room. I was about to rise and
call down a word of reassurance to him, when a
current of spiced air passed by me. I sat arrested
in hope and expectancy.</p>
<p>"Here, after my warning, after last night?"
her soft voice panted across the dark. "Will you
die, then? Cruel to me, and wicked to come here
again! Oh, must I wish you were a coward!"</p>
<p>Every vestige of her calmness gone, she was sobbing
as she spoke. I could imagine she was wringing
the little hands that once had left a betraying print
upon my table's surface.</p>
<p>"I was cruel to you last night, Desire; yet afterward
you saved my life by sending Ethan Vere to
wake me. Would you have had me leave without
meeting you again, neither thanking you nor asking
your forgiveness?"</p>
<p>I thought she came nearer.</p>
<p>"For so little, you would brave the Dread One
in Its time of triumph? O steadfast soldier, who
faces the Breach even in the hour of death, in all
that you have done you have remembered me.<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_251" id="Page_251"></SPAN></span>
Why speak of anger or forgiveness? Have I not
injured you?"</p>
<p>"Never. I love you."</p>
<p>"Is not that an injury? Even though I hid
my ill-omened face from you, reared as I was to sad
knowledge of the wrath upon me, the wrong has
been done. Weak as water in the test, I kept the
letter of my promise and broke the intent. Yet go;
keep life at least."</p>
<p>"Desire, I do not understand you," I answered.
"No matter for that, now! I am content to share
whatever you bring. Not roughly or in challenge
as I asked you last night, but earnestly and with
humility I ask you to come away with me now. If
trouble comes to my wife and me, I do not doubt
we can bear it. Let us not be frightened from the
attempt. Come."</p>
<p>"I, to take happiness like that?" she marveled
in desolate amazement. "No. At least I will go
to my own place, if tardily. Roger, be kind to me.
Give me a last gift. Let me know that somewhere
you are living. Out of my sight, out of my knowledge,
but living in the same world with me. Each
moment you stay here is a risk."</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_252" id="Page_252"></SPAN></span>In that warning she had reason. I rose. It was
time to act, but action must be certain. If my groping
movements missed her in the dark there might
be no second chance.</p>
<p>"Desire, if all is as you say and we are not to
meet again as we have done, you shall let me touch
you before I go," I said firmly.</p>
<p>"No!"</p>
<p>"Yes. Why, would you have me live all the
years to come in doubt whether you were a woman or
a dream? Perhaps you might seem at last a phantom
of my own sick brain to which faithfulness
would be folly? Here across the table I stretch
my arm. Lay your palm in my palm. I may
die tonight."</p>
<p>Whether she wished it also, or whether my resolve
drew obedience, I do not know. But a vague
figure moved through the dark toward me. A hand
settled in mine with the brushing touch of an alighting
bird. I closed my hand hotly upon that one. I
sprang a step aside from the table between us, found
her, and drew her to me.</p>
<p>What did I hold in my arms? Softness, fragrance,
draperies beneath which beat life and<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_253" id="Page_253"></SPAN></span>
warmth. As I stooped to reassure her, her breath
curled against my cheek. So with that guide I turned
my head, and set my lips on the lips I had never seen.</p>
<p>Did Something uprear Itself out there in the
black fog? A cold air rushed across the summer heat
of the fog; air foul as if issued from the opened
door of a vault. As once before, a tremor quivered
through the house. The hanging chains of the
lamps swung with a faint tinkling sound.</p>
<p>I snatched Desire Michell off her feet and sprang
for the door. Somehow I found and opened it at
the first essay. We were out into the hall. With
one hand I dragged the door shut behind us, then
carried her on to the head of the stairs. There I
set her down, but stood before her as a bar against
any attempt at escape.</p>
<p>A lamp shed a subdued light above us. I looked
at my captive. Never again after that kiss could
she deny her womanhood or pose as a phantom.
So far my victory was complete. The lady might
be angry, but it must be woman's anger. I knew
she had not suspected my intention until I lifted
her in my arms. She had struggled then, after her
defenses had fallen.</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_254" id="Page_254"></SPAN></span>She was quiet now, as though the light had
quelled her resistance. She stood drooped and
trembling; not the old-time witch, not the dazzling
adventuress, only a small fragile girl wound and
wrapped in some gray stuff that even covered the
brightness of her hair. Her face was held down
and showed no more color than a water-lily.</p>
<p>"I thought," she whispered, just audibly. "I
thought you—would say, good-bye!"</p>
<p>"I know," I stammered. "But I could not.
That way was impossible for us."</p>
<p>She did not contradict me. She was so very
small, I saw, that her head would reach no higher
than where the bright spot had rested above my heart
when I had last stood at the Barrier. One hand
gripped the veils beneath her chin, and seemed the
clenched fist of a child.</p>
<p>The crash of my door had startled the household.
I had heard Phillida cry out, and Vere's running
steps upon the gravel path. Now he came springing
up the stairs. At the head of the flight he stopped,
staring at us.</p>
<p>"Desire," I spoke as naturally as I could manage,<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_255" id="Page_255"></SPAN></span>
"this is Mr. Vere. Vere, my fiancée, Miss Michell.
Shall we go down to Phillida?"</p>
<p>And Desire Michell did not deny my claim.</p>
<p>I am not very sure of how we found ourselves
downstairs. Nor do I remember in what words
we made the two girls known to one another. Presently
we were all in the living room, and Phillida had
possession of Desire Michell while Vere and I looked
on stupidly at the proceedings.</p>
<p>Phil had placed her in a chair beside a tall floor-lamp
and gently drew off the draperies that hooded
her. With little murmurs of compassion, she unbound
and shook free her guest's hair.</p>
<p>"My dear, you are all damp! This awful fog!
You must have been out a long time? You shall
drink some tea before we start. Drawls, will you
light the alcohol lamp on the tea-table? The kettle
is filled."</p>
<p>Now I could understand how Desire had
appeared amid a drift of fireshot smoke in the beam
of my electric torch, the night before. Her hair
was a garment of flame-bright silk flowing around
her, curling and eddying in rich abundance. Over
this she had worn the gray veils to smother all that<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_256" id="Page_256"></SPAN></span>
color and sheen into neutral sameness with night and
shadows. No wonder her face had seemed wraith-like
when her startled shrinking away from the light
had set all that drapery billowing about her.</p>
<p>She was the voice that had been my intimate
comrade through weeks of strange adventure. She
was the woman of the faded, yellow book, and the
painted beauty at the Metropolitan. She was all
the Desires of whom I had ever dreamed; and she
was none of them, for she was herself. Her long
dark eyes, suddenly lifted to me, were individual by
that ancestral blending of drowsiness with watchfulness;
yet were akin to the eyes of youth in all
times by their innocence. Her mouth, too, was the
soft mouth of a young girl kept apart from sordid
life. But her forehead, the noble breadth between
the black tracery of her eyebrows, expressed the student
whose weird, lofty knowledge had so often
abashed my ignorance.</p>
<p>Only my ignorance? Now as she looked at me
across the room, all self-confidence trickled away
from me. What distinguished me from a thousand
men she might meet on any city street? What had
I ever said worth note in the hours we had spent<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_257" id="Page_257"></SPAN></span>
together? Now she saw me in the light, plainly
commonplace; and remembering myself lame, I stood
amazed at the audacity with which I had laid
claim to her.</p>
<p>She was rising from the chair, gently putting
aside Phillida's detaining hands. She had not spoken
one word since her faltered speech to me, upstairs.
Neither Vere nor Phillida had heard her voice. She
had given her hand to each of them and submitted
to Phil's care with a docility I failed to recognize in
my companion of the dark. Her decisive movement
now was more like the Desire Michell I knew. Only,
what was she about to do? Repudiate my violence
and me—perhaps go back to her hiding-place?</p>
<p>She came straight to where I stood, not daring
even to advance toward her. We might have been
alone in the room. I rather think we were, to
her preoccupation.</p>
<p>"You must go away," she said. "If there is any
hope, it is in that. Nothing else matters, now; nothing!
If you wish, take me with you. It would be
wiser to leave me. But nothing really matters except
that you should not stay here. I will obey you in<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_258" id="Page_258"></SPAN></span>
everything if you will only go. Take your car and
drive—drive fast—anywhere!"</p>
<p>It is impossible to convey the desperate urgency
and fervor of her low voice. Phillida uttered an
exclamation of fear. Vere wheeled about and left
the room. The front door closed behind him. The
gravel crunched under his tread on the path to the
garage, and the rate at which the light he carried
moved through the fog showed that he was running.
He obviously accepted the warning exactly as it was
given. After the briefest indecision, Phillida hurried
out into the hall.</p>
<p>For my part, I did nothing worth recording. I
had made discovery of two places where I was not
the "lame feller." And if the first place was the
dreary Frontier, the second country was that rich
Land of Promise in Desire Michell's eyes.</p>
<p>What we said in our brief moment of solitude
is not part of this account.</p>
<p>Phillida was back promptly, her arms full of
garments. With little murmurs of explanation by
way of accompaniment, she proceeded to invest
Desire in a motor coat and a dark-blue velvet hat
rather like an artist's tam-o'shanter. I noticed then<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_259" id="Page_259"></SPAN></span>
that the girl wore a plain frock of gray stuff, long
of sleeve and skirt, fastened at the base of her throat
with severe intent to cover from sight all loveliness
of tint and contour. Nothing farther from the
fashion of the day or the figure of my cousin could
be imagined.</p>
<p>"You must wear the coat because it is always
cool motoring at night," Phillida was murmuring.
"And of course you will want it at a hotel; until
you can do some shopping. I will just tie back your
gorgeous, scrumptious hair with this ribbon, now. I
know I haven't enough hairpins to put it up without
wasting an awful lot of time, but we will buy them in
the morning. We are going to take the very best care
of you every minute, so you must not worry."</p>
<p>"You are so kind to me," Desire began tremulously.
"No one was ever so kind! It does not
matter about me, or what people think of me, if he
will only go from here quickly."</p>
<p>"Right away," Phillida soothed. "My husband
has gone for the car. I hear him coming now!"</p>
<p>In fact, Vere was coming up the veranda steps.
His hand was on the knob of the outer door, fum<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_260" id="Page_260"></SPAN></span>bling
with it in a manner not usual to him, then the
knob yielded and he was inside.</p>
<p>"But how slow you are, Drawls," his wife called,
with an accent of wonder.</p>
<p>Vere crossed the threshold of the room, his gaze
seeking mine. He was pale, and drops of fog moisture
pearled his dark face like sweat.</p>
<p>"I am sorry, Mr. Locke," he addressed me,
ignoring the others. "Perhaps you felt that
shake-up, a quarter-hour ago? Like a kind of earthquake,
or the kick from a big explosion a long ways
off? It didn't seem very strong to me. It was too
strong for that old tree by the garage, though! Must
have been decayed clear through inside. Willows
are like that, tricky when they get old."</p>
<p>"Ethan, what <i>are</i> you talking about?" cried
Phillida, aghast.</p>
<p>He continued to look at me.</p>
<p>"I guess it must have fallen just about when you
slammed your door upstairs. Seems I do remember
a sort of second crash following the noise you made.
I was too keen on finding out what was happening
up there to pay much heed."</p>
<p>"Well, Vere?"</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_261" id="Page_261"></SPAN></span>"Tree smashed down through the roof of the
garage," he reluctantly gave his report. "Everything
under the hood of the automobile is wrecked.
There is no motor left, and no radiator. Just junk,
mixed up with broken wood and leaves and pieces of
the stucco and tiles of the garage."</p>
<p>So there was to be no going tonight from the
house beside the lake. A frustrated group, we stood
amid our preparations; the two girls wearing cloaks
and hats for the drive that would never be taken.
Had we ever really expected to go? Already the
project was fading into the realm of fantastic ideas,
futile as the pretended journeys of children who
are kept in their nursery. Desire lifted her hands
and took off the blue velvet cap with a resignation
more expressive than words. Only my practical
little cousin charged valiantly at all obstacles.</p>
<p>"We aren't ever going to give up?" she cried
protest. "Cousin Roger? Ethan? <i>You</i> cannot
mean to give up. Why—'phone to the nearest
garage to send us another car. If we pay them
enough they will drive anywhere. Or if they cannot
take us to New York, they will take us to the<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_262" id="Page_262"></SPAN></span>
railroad station where we can get a train for some
place. Can't we, Drawls?"</p>
<p>"We could," Vere admitted. "I'd admire to
try it, anyhow. But the telephone wire came across
the place right past the garage, you know——"</p>
<p>"The tree tore the wire down, too?"</p>
<p>"I'm afraid it snapped right in two, Phil."</p>
<p>"We—we might walk," she essayed.</p>
<p>But even her brave voice trailed into silence as
she glanced toward the black, dripping night beyond
the windows.</p>
<p>"Or if we found a horse and wagon," she murmured
a final suggestion.</p>
<p>Vere shook his head.</p>
<p>"Come!" I assumed charge with a cheerfulness
not quite sincere. "None of us are ready for such
desperate efforts to leave our cozy quarters here.
Especially as I fancy Vere's 'earthquake' was the
tremor of an approaching thunderstorm. I felt it,
myself. Let us light all the lamps and draw the
curtains to shut out the fog which has got on everyone's
nerves by its long continuance. We are overwrought
beyond reason. Suppose we sit here<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_263" id="Page_263"></SPAN></span>
together, strong in numbers, for the few hours until
daylight? I think that should be safeguard enough.
Tomorrow we will do all we had planned for tonight.
Come in, Vere, and close the door."</p>
<p>He obeyed me at once. Desire Michell passively
suffered me to unfasten and take off the coat she
wore, too heavy for such a night. She had uttered
no word since Vere announced the destruction of the
car. She did not speak now, when I put her in the
low chair beneath the lamp. I had a greed of light
for her, as a protection and because darkness had
held her so long.</p>
<p>"It seems as if we should do something!"
Phillida yielded unwillingly.</p>
<p>Vere's eyes met mine as he turned from drawing
the last curtain. We were both thinking of
the force that had driven the frail old willow tree
through tile and cement of the new building to flatten
the metal of motor and car into uselessness. The
mere weight of the tree would not have carried it
through the roof. To "do something" by way of
physical escape from that——</p>
<p>The ribbon had glided from Desire's hair, almost<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_264" id="Page_264"></SPAN></span>
as if the vital, resilient mass resentfully freed itself
from restraint by the bit of satin. Now she put up
her hands with a slow movement and drew two broad
strands of the glittering tresses across her shoulders,
veiling her face.</p>
<p>"Wait," she answered Phillida, most unexpectedly.
"I must be sure—quite sure! I must think.
If you will—wait."</p>
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