<h2><SPAN name="link2HCH0018" id="link2HCH0018"></SPAN>CHAPTER XVIII</h2>
<p>Everything was now in a regular train: theatre, actors, actresses, and dresses,
were all getting forward; but though no other great impediments arose, Fanny
found, before many days were past, that it was not all uninterrupted enjoyment
to the party themselves, and that she had not to witness the continuance of
such unanimity and delight as had been almost too much for her at first.
Everybody began to have their vexation. Edmund had many. Entirely against
<i>his</i> judgment, a scene-painter arrived from town, and was at work, much
to the increase of the expenses, and, what was worse, of the eclat of their
proceedings; and his brother, instead of being really guided by him as to the
privacy of the representation, was giving an invitation to every family who
came in his way. Tom himself began to fret over the scene-painter’s slow
progress, and to feel the miseries of waiting. He had learned his
part—all his parts, for he took every trifling one that could be united
with the Butler, and began to be impatient to be acting; and every day thus
unemployed was tending to increase his sense of the insignificance of all his
parts together, and make him more ready to regret that some other play had not
been chosen.</p>
<p>Fanny, being always a very courteous listener, and often the only listener at
hand, came in for the complaints and the distresses of most of them. <i>She</i>
knew that Mr. Yates was in general thought to rant dreadfully; that Mr. Yates
was disappointed in Henry Crawford; that Tom Bertram spoke so quick he would be
unintelligible; that Mrs. Grant spoiled everything by laughing; that Edmund was
behindhand with his part, and that it was misery to have anything to do with
Mr. Rushworth, who was wanting a prompter through every speech. She knew, also,
that poor Mr. Rushworth could seldom get anybody to rehearse with him:
<i>his</i> complaint came before her as well as the rest; and so decided to her
eye was her cousin Maria’s avoidance of him, and so needlessly often the
rehearsal of the first scene between her and Mr. Crawford, that she had soon
all the terror of other complaints from <i>him</i>. So far from being all
satisfied and all enjoying, she found everybody requiring something they had
not, and giving occasion of discontent to the others. Everybody had a part
either too long or too short; nobody would attend as they ought; nobody would
remember on which side they were to come in; nobody but the complainer would
observe any directions.</p>
<p>Fanny believed herself to derive as much innocent enjoyment from the play as
any of them; Henry Crawford acted well, and it was a pleasure to <i>her</i> to
creep into the theatre, and attend the rehearsal of the first act, in spite of
the feelings it excited in some speeches for Maria. Maria, she also thought,
acted well, too well; and after the first rehearsal or two, Fanny began to be
their only audience; and sometimes as prompter, sometimes as spectator, was
often very useful. As far as she could judge, Mr. Crawford was considerably the
best actor of all: he had more confidence than Edmund, more judgment than Tom,
more talent and taste than Mr. Yates. She did not like him as a man, but she
must admit him to be the best actor, and on this point there were not many who
differed from her. Mr. Yates, indeed, exclaimed against his tameness and
insipidity; and the day came at last, when Mr. Rushworth turned to her with a
black look, and said, “Do you think there is anything so very fine in all
this? For the life and soul of me, I cannot admire him; and, between ourselves,
to see such an undersized, little, mean-looking man, set up for a fine actor,
is very ridiculous in my opinion.”</p>
<p>From this moment there was a return of his former jealousy, which Maria, from
increasing hopes of Crawford, was at little pains to remove; and the chances of
Mr. Rushworth’s ever attaining to the knowledge of his two-and-forty
speeches became much less. As to his ever making anything <i>tolerable</i> of
them, nobody had the smallest idea of that except his mother; <i>she</i>,
indeed, regretted that his part was not more considerable, and deferred coming
over to Mansfield till they were forward enough in their rehearsal to
comprehend all his scenes; but the others aspired at nothing beyond his
remembering the catchword, and the first line of his speech, and being able to
follow the prompter through the rest. Fanny, in her pity and kindheartedness,
was at great pains to teach him how to learn, giving him all the helps and
directions in her power, trying to make an artificial memory for him, and
learning every word of his part herself, but without his being much the
forwarder.</p>
<p>Many uncomfortable, anxious, apprehensive feelings she certainly had; but with
all these, and other claims on her time and attention, she was as far from
finding herself without employment or utility amongst them, as without a
companion in uneasiness; quite as far from having no demand on her leisure as
on her compassion. The gloom of her first anticipations was proved to have been
unfounded. She was occasionally useful to all; she was perhaps as much at peace
as any.</p>
<p>There was a great deal of needlework to be done, moreover, in which her help
was wanted; and that Mrs. Norris thought her quite as well off as the rest, was
evident by the manner in which she claimed it—“Come, Fanny,”
she cried, “these are fine times for you, but you must not be always
walking from one room to the other, and doing the lookings-on at your ease, in
this way; I want you here. I have been slaving myself till I can hardly stand,
to contrive Mr. Rushworth’s cloak without sending for any more satin; and
now I think you may give me your help in putting it together. There are but
three seams; you may do them in a trice. It would be lucky for me if I had
nothing but the executive part to do. <i>You</i> are best off, I can tell you:
but if nobody did more than <i>you</i>, we should not get on very fast.”</p>
<p>Fanny took the work very quietly, without attempting any defence; but her
kinder aunt Bertram observed on her behalf—</p>
<p>“One cannot wonder, sister, that Fanny <i>should</i> be delighted: it is
all new to her, you know; you and I used to be very fond of a play ourselves,
and so am I still; and as soon as I am a little more at leisure, <i>I</i> mean
to look in at their rehearsals too. What is the play about, Fanny? you have
never told me.”</p>
<p>“Oh! sister, pray do not ask her now; for Fanny is not one of those who
can talk and work at the same time. It is about Lovers’ Vows.”</p>
<p>“I believe,” said Fanny to her aunt Bertram, “there will be
three acts rehearsed to-morrow evening, and that will give you an opportunity
of seeing all the actors at once.”</p>
<p>“You had better stay till the curtain is hung,” interposed Mrs.
Norris; “the curtain will be hung in a day or two—there is very
little sense in a play without a curtain—and I am much mistaken if you do
not find it draw up into very handsome festoons.”</p>
<p>Lady Bertram seemed quite resigned to waiting. Fanny did not share her
aunt’s composure: she thought of the morrow a great deal, for if the
three acts were rehearsed, Edmund and Miss Crawford would then be acting
together for the first time; the third act would bring a scene between them
which interested her most particularly, and which she was longing and dreading
to see how they would perform. The whole subject of it was love—a
marriage of love was to be described by the gentleman, and very little short of
a declaration of love be made by the lady.</p>
<p>She had read and read the scene again with many painful, many wondering
emotions, and looked forward to their representation of it as a circumstance
almost too interesting. She did not <i>believe</i> they had yet rehearsed it,
even in private.</p>
<p>The morrow came, the plan for the evening continued, and Fanny’s
consideration of it did not become less agitated. She worked very diligently
under her aunt’s directions, but her diligence and her silence concealed
a very absent, anxious mind; and about noon she made her escape with her work
to the East room, that she might have no concern in another, and, as she deemed
it, most unnecessary rehearsal of the first act, which Henry Crawford was just
proposing, desirous at once of having her time to herself, and of avoiding the
sight of Mr. Rushworth. A glimpse, as she passed through the hall, of the two
ladies walking up from the Parsonage made no change in her wish of retreat, and
she worked and meditated in the East room, undisturbed, for a quarter of an
hour, when a gentle tap at the door was followed by the entrance of Miss
Crawford.</p>
<p>“Am I right? Yes; this is the East room. My dear Miss Price, I beg your
pardon, but I have made my way to you on purpose to entreat your help.”</p>
<p>Fanny, quite surprised, endeavoured to shew herself mistress of the room by her
civilities, and looked at the bright bars of her empty grate with concern.</p>
<p>“Thank you; I am quite warm, very warm. Allow me to stay here a little
while, and do have the goodness to hear me my third act. I have brought my
book, and if you would but rehearse it with me, I should be <i>so</i> obliged!
I came here to-day intending to rehearse it with Edmund—by
ourselves—against the evening, but he is not in the way; and if he
<i>were</i>, I do not think I could go through it with <i>him</i>, till I have
hardened myself a little; for really there is a speech or two. You will be so
good, won’t you?”</p>
<p>Fanny was most civil in her assurances, though she could not give them in a
very steady voice.</p>
<p>“Have you ever happened to look at the part I mean?” continued Miss
Crawford, opening her book. “Here it is. I did not think much of it at
first—but, upon my word. There, look at <i>that</i> speech, and
<i>that</i>, and <i>that</i>. How am I ever to look him in the face and say
such things? Could you do it? But then he is your cousin, which makes all the
difference. You must rehearse it with me, that I may fancy <i>you</i> him, and
get on by degrees. You <i>have</i> a look of <i>his</i> sometimes.”</p>
<p>“Have I? I will do my best with the greatest readiness; but I must
<i>read</i> the part, for I can say very little of it.”</p>
<p>“<i>None</i> of it, I suppose. You are to have the book, of course. Now
for it. We must have two chairs at hand for you to bring forward to the front
of the stage. There—very good school-room chairs, not made for a theatre,
I dare say; much more fitted for little girls to sit and kick their feet
against when they are learning a lesson. What would your governess and your
uncle say to see them used for such a purpose? Could Sir Thomas look in upon us
just now, he would bless himself, for we are rehearsing all over the house.
Yates is storming away in the dining-room. I heard him as I came upstairs, and
the theatre is engaged of course by those indefatigable rehearsers, Agatha and
Frederick. If <i>they</i> are not perfect, I <i>shall</i> be surprised. By the
bye, I looked in upon them five minutes ago, and it happened to be exactly at
one of the times when they were trying <i>not</i> to embrace, and Mr. Rushworth
was with me. I thought he began to look a little queer, so I turned it off as
well as I could, by whispering to him, ‘We shall have an excellent
Agatha; there is something so <i>maternal</i> in her manner, so completely
<i>maternal</i> in her voice and countenance.’ Was not that well done of
me? He brightened up directly. Now for my soliloquy.”</p>
<p>She began, and Fanny joined in with all the modest feeling which the idea of
representing Edmund was so strongly calculated to inspire; but with looks and
voice so truly feminine as to be no very good picture of a man. With such an
Anhalt, however, Miss Crawford had courage enough; and they had got through
half the scene, when a tap at the door brought a pause, and the entrance of
Edmund, the next moment, suspended it all.</p>
<p>Surprise, consciousness, and pleasure appeared in each of the three on this
unexpected meeting; and as Edmund was come on the very same business that had
brought Miss Crawford, consciousness and pleasure were likely to be more than
momentary in <i>them</i>. He too had his book, and was seeking Fanny, to ask
her to rehearse with him, and help him to prepare for the evening, without
knowing Miss Crawford to be in the house; and great was the joy and animation
of being thus thrown together, of comparing schemes, and sympathising in praise
of Fanny’s kind offices.</p>
<p><i>She</i> could not equal them in their warmth. <i>Her</i> spirits sank under
the glow of theirs, and she felt herself becoming too nearly nothing to both to
have any comfort in having been sought by either. They must now rehearse
together. Edmund proposed, urged, entreated it, till the lady, not very
unwilling at first, could refuse no longer, and Fanny was wanted only to prompt
and observe them. She was invested, indeed, with the office of judge and
critic, and earnestly desired to exercise it and tell them all their faults;
but from doing so every feeling within her shrank—she could not, would
not, dared not attempt it: had she been otherwise qualified for criticism, her
conscience must have restrained her from venturing at disapprobation. She
believed herself to feel too much of it in the aggregate for honesty or safety
in particulars. To prompt them must be enough for her; and it was sometimes
<i>more</i> than enough; for she could not always pay attention to the book. In
watching them she forgot herself; and, agitated by the increasing spirit of
Edmund’s manner, had once closed the page and turned away exactly as he
wanted help. It was imputed to very reasonable weariness, and she was thanked
and pitied; but she deserved their pity more than she hoped they would ever
surmise. At last the scene was over, and Fanny forced herself to add her praise
to the compliments each was giving the other; and when again alone and able to
recall the whole, she was inclined to believe their performance would, indeed,
have such nature and feeling in it as must ensure their credit, and make it a
very suffering exhibition to herself. Whatever might be its effect, however,
she must stand the brunt of it again that very day.</p>
<p>The first regular rehearsal of the three first acts was certainly to take place
in the evening: Mrs. Grant and the Crawfords were engaged to return for that
purpose as soon as they could after dinner; and every one concerned was looking
forward with eagerness. There seemed a general diffusion of cheerfulness on the
occasion. Tom was enjoying such an advance towards the end; Edmund was in
spirits from the morning’s rehearsal, and little vexations seemed
everywhere smoothed away. All were alert and impatient; the ladies moved soon,
the gentlemen soon followed them, and with the exception of Lady Bertram, Mrs.
Norris, and Julia, everybody was in the theatre at an early hour; and having
lighted it up as well as its unfinished state admitted, were waiting only the
arrival of Mrs. Grant and the Crawfords to begin.</p>
<p>They did not wait long for the Crawfords, but there was no Mrs. Grant. She
could not come. Dr. Grant, professing an indisposition, for which he had little
credit with his fair sister-in-law, could not spare his wife.</p>
<p>“Dr. Grant is ill,” said she, with mock solemnity. “He has
been ill ever since he did not eat any of the pheasant today. He fancied it
tough, sent away his plate, and has been suffering ever since”.</p>
<p>Here was disappointment! Mrs. Grant’s non-attendance was sad indeed. Her
pleasant manners and cheerful conformity made her always valuable amongst them;
but <i>now</i> she was absolutely necessary. They could not act, they could not
rehearse with any satisfaction without her. The comfort of the whole evening
was destroyed. What was to be done? Tom, as Cottager, was in despair. After a
pause of perplexity, some eyes began to be turned towards Fanny, and a voice or
two to say, “If Miss Price would be so good as to <i>read</i> the
part.” She was immediately surrounded by supplications; everybody asked
it; even Edmund said, “Do, Fanny, if it is not <i>very</i> disagreeable
to you.”</p>
<p>But Fanny still hung back. She could not endure the idea of it. Why was not
Miss Crawford to be applied to as well? Or why had not she rather gone to her
own room, as she had felt to be safest, instead of attending the rehearsal at
all? She had known it would irritate and distress her; she had known it her
duty to keep away. She was properly punished.</p>
<p>“You have only to <i>read</i> the part,” said Henry Crawford, with
renewed entreaty.</p>
<p>“And I do believe she can say every word of it,” added Maria,
“for she could put Mrs. Grant right the other day in twenty places.
Fanny, I am sure you know the part.”</p>
<p>Fanny could not say she did <i>not</i>; and as they all persevered, as Edmund
repeated his wish, and with a look of even fond dependence on her good-nature,
she must yield. She would do her best. Everybody was satisfied; and she was
left to the tremors of a most palpitating heart, while the others prepared to
begin.</p>
<p>They <i>did</i> begin; and being too much engaged in their own noise to be
struck by an unusual noise in the other part of the house, had proceeded some
way when the door of the room was thrown open, and Julia, appearing at it, with
a face all aghast, exclaimed, “My father is come! He is in the hall at
this moment.”</p>
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