<h2><SPAN name="link2HCH0028" id="link2HCH0028"></SPAN>CHAPTER XXVIII</h2>
<p>Her uncle and both her aunts were in the drawing-room when Fanny went down. To
the former she was an interesting object, and he saw with pleasure the general
elegance of her appearance, and her being in remarkably good looks. The
neatness and propriety of her dress was all that he would allow himself to
commend in her presence, but upon her leaving the room again soon afterwards,
he spoke of her beauty with very decided praise.</p>
<p>“Yes,” said Lady Bertram, “she looks very well. I sent
Chapman to her.”</p>
<p>“Look well! Oh, yes!” cried Mrs. Norris, “she has good reason
to look well with all her advantages: brought up in this family as she has
been, with all the benefit of her cousins’ manners before her. Only
think, my dear Sir Thomas, what extraordinary advantages you and I have been
the means of giving her. The very gown you have been taking notice of is your
own generous present to her when dear Mrs. Rushworth married. What would she
have been if we had not taken her by the hand?”</p>
<p>Sir Thomas said no more; but when they sat down to table the eyes of the two
young men assured him that the subject might be gently touched again, when the
ladies withdrew, with more success. Fanny saw that she was approved; and the
consciousness of looking well made her look still better. From a variety of
causes she was happy, and she was soon made still happier; for in following her
aunts out of the room, Edmund, who was holding open the door, said, as she
passed him, “You must dance with me, Fanny; you must keep two dances for
me; any two that you like, except the first.” She had nothing more to
wish for. She had hardly ever been in a state so nearly approaching high
spirits in her life. Her cousins’ former gaiety on the day of a ball was
no longer surprising to her; she felt it to be indeed very charming, and was
actually practising her steps about the drawing-room as long as she could be
safe from the notice of her aunt Norris, who was entirely taken up at first in
fresh arranging and injuring the noble fire which the butler had prepared.</p>
<p>Half an hour followed that would have been at least languid under any other
circumstances, but Fanny’s happiness still prevailed. It was but to think
of her conversation with Edmund, and what was the restlessness of Mrs. Norris?
What were the yawns of Lady Bertram?</p>
<p>The gentlemen joined them; and soon after began the sweet expectation of a
carriage, when a general spirit of ease and enjoyment seemed diffused, and they
all stood about and talked and laughed, and every moment had its pleasure and
its hope. Fanny felt that there must be a struggle in Edmund’s
cheerfulness, but it was delightful to see the effort so successfully made.</p>
<p>When the carriages were really heard, when the guests began really to assemble,
her own gaiety of heart was much subdued: the sight of so many strangers threw
her back into herself; and besides the gravity and formality of the first great
circle, which the manners of neither Sir Thomas nor Lady Bertram were of a kind
to do away, she found herself occasionally called on to endure something worse.
She was introduced here and there by her uncle, and forced to be spoken to, and
to curtsey, and speak again. This was a hard duty, and she was never summoned
to it without looking at William, as he walked about at his ease in the
background of the scene, and longing to be with him.</p>
<p>The entrance of the Grants and Crawfords was a favourable epoch. The stiffness
of the meeting soon gave way before their popular manners and more diffused
intimacies: little groups were formed, and everybody grew comfortable. Fanny
felt the advantage; and, drawing back from the toils of civility, would have
been again most happy, could she have kept her eyes from wandering between
Edmund and Mary Crawford. <i>She</i> looked all loveliness—and what might
not be the end of it? Her own musings were brought to an end on perceiving Mr.
Crawford before her, and her thoughts were put into another channel by his
engaging her almost instantly for the first two dances. Her happiness on this
occasion was very much <i>à la mortal</i>, finely chequered. To be secure of a
partner at first was a most essential good—for the moment of beginning
was now growing seriously near; and she so little understood her own claims as
to think that if Mr. Crawford had not asked her, she must have been the last to
be sought after, and should have received a partner only through a series of
inquiry, and bustle, and interference, which would have been terrible; but at
the same time there was a pointedness in his manner of asking her which she did
not like, and she saw his eye glancing for a moment at her necklace, with a
smile—she thought there was a smile—which made her blush and feel
wretched. And though there was no second glance to disturb her, though his
object seemed then to be only quietly agreeable, she could not get the better
of her embarrassment, heightened as it was by the idea of his perceiving it,
and had no composure till he turned away to some one else. Then she could
gradually rise up to the genuine satisfaction of having a partner, a voluntary
partner, secured against the dancing began.</p>
<p>When the company were moving into the ballroom, she found herself for the first
time near Miss Crawford, whose eyes and smiles were immediately and more
unequivocally directed as her brother’s had been, and who was beginning
to speak on the subject, when Fanny, anxious to get the story over, hastened to
give the explanation of the second necklace: the real chain. Miss Crawford
listened; and all her intended compliments and insinuations to Fanny were
forgotten: she felt only one thing; and her eyes, bright as they had been
before, shewing they could yet be brighter, she exclaimed with eager pleasure,
“Did he? Did Edmund? That was like himself. No other man would have
thought of it. I honour him beyond expression.” And she looked around as
if longing to tell him so. He was not near, he was attending a party of ladies
out of the room; and Mrs. Grant coming up to the two girls, and taking an arm
of each, they followed with the rest.</p>
<p>Fanny’s heart sunk, but there was no leisure for thinking long even of
Miss Crawford’s feelings. They were in the ballroom, the violins were
playing, and her mind was in a flutter that forbade its fixing on anything
serious. She must watch the general arrangements, and see how everything was
done.</p>
<p>In a few minutes Sir Thomas came to her, and asked if she were engaged; and the
“Yes, sir; to Mr. Crawford,” was exactly what he had intended to
hear. Mr. Crawford was not far off; Sir Thomas brought him to her, saying
something which discovered to Fanny, that <i>she</i> was to lead the way and
open the ball; an idea that had never occurred to her before. Whenever she had
thought of the minutiae of the evening, it had been as a matter of course that
Edmund would begin with Miss Crawford; and the impression was so strong, that
though <i>her</i> <i>uncle</i> spoke the contrary, she could not help an
exclamation of surprise, a hint of her unfitness, an entreaty even to be
excused. To be urging her opinion against Sir Thomas’s was a proof of the
extremity of the case; but such was her horror at the first suggestion, that
she could actually look him in the face and say that she hoped it might be
settled otherwise; in vain, however: Sir Thomas smiled, tried to encourage her,
and then looked too serious, and said too decidedly, “It must be so, my
dear,” for her to hazard another word; and she found herself the next
moment conducted by Mr. Crawford to the top of the room, and standing there to
be joined by the rest of the dancers, couple after couple, as they were formed.</p>
<p>She could hardly believe it. To be placed above so many elegant young women!
The distinction was too great. It was treating her like her cousins! And her
thoughts flew to those absent cousins with most unfeigned and truly tender
regret, that they were not at home to take their own place in the room, and
have their share of a pleasure which would have been so very delightful to
them. So often as she had heard them wish for a ball at home as the greatest of
all felicities! And to have them away when it was given—and for
<i>her</i> to be opening the ball—and with Mr. Crawford too! She hoped
they would not envy her that distinction <i>now</i>; but when she looked back
to the state of things in the autumn, to what they had all been to each other
when once dancing in that house before, the present arrangement was almost more
than she could understand herself.</p>
<p>The ball began. It was rather honour than happiness to Fanny, for the first
dance at least: her partner was in excellent spirits, and tried to impart them
to her; but she was a great deal too much frightened to have any enjoyment till
she could suppose herself no longer looked at. Young, pretty, and gentle,
however, she had no awkwardnesses that were not as good as graces, and there
were few persons present that were not disposed to praise her. She was
attractive, she was modest, she was Sir Thomas’s niece, and she was soon
said to be admired by Mr. Crawford. It was enough to give her general favour.
Sir Thomas himself was watching her progress down the dance with much
complacency; he was proud of his niece; and without attributing all her
personal beauty, as Mrs. Norris seemed to do, to her transplantation to
Mansfield, he was pleased with himself for having supplied everything else:
education and manners she owed to him.</p>
<p>Miss Crawford saw much of Sir Thomas’s thoughts as he stood, and having,
in spite of all his wrongs towards her, a general prevailing desire of
recommending herself to him, took an opportunity of stepping aside to say
something agreeable of Fanny. Her praise was warm, and he received it as she
could wish, joining in it as far as discretion, and politeness, and slowness of
speech would allow, and certainly appearing to greater advantage on the subject
than his lady did soon afterwards, when Mary, perceiving her on a sofa very
near, turned round before she began to dance, to compliment her on Miss
Price’s looks.</p>
<p>“Yes, she does look very well,” was Lady Bertram’s placid
reply. “Chapman helped her to dress. I sent Chapman to her.” Not
but that she was really pleased to have Fanny admired; but she was so much more
struck with her own kindness in sending Chapman to her, that she could not get
it out of her head.</p>
<p>Miss Crawford knew Mrs. Norris too well to think of gratifying <i>her</i> by
commendation of Fanny; to her, it was as the occasion offered—“Ah!
ma’am, how much we want dear Mrs. Rushworth and Julia to-night!”
and Mrs. Norris paid her with as many smiles and courteous words as she had
time for, amid so much occupation as she found for herself in making up
card-tables, giving hints to Sir Thomas, and trying to move all the chaperons
to a better part of the room.</p>
<p>Miss Crawford blundered most towards Fanny herself in her intentions to please.
She meant to be giving her little heart a happy flutter, and filling her with
sensations of delightful self-consequence; and, misinterpreting Fanny’s
blushes, still thought she must be doing so when she went to her after the two
first dances, and said, with a significant look, “Perhaps <i>you</i> can
tell me why my brother goes to town to-morrow? He says he has business there,
but will not tell me what. The first time he ever denied me his confidence! But
this is what we all come to. All are supplanted sooner or later. Now, I must
apply to you for information. Pray, what is Henry going for?”</p>
<p>Fanny protested her ignorance as steadily as her embarrassment allowed.</p>
<p>“Well, then,” replied Miss Crawford, laughing, “I must
suppose it to be purely for the pleasure of conveying your brother, and of
talking of you by the way.”</p>
<p>Fanny was confused, but it was the confusion of discontent; while Miss Crawford
wondered she did not smile, and thought her over-anxious, or thought her odd,
or thought her anything rather than insensible of pleasure in Henry’s
attentions. Fanny had a good deal of enjoyment in the course of the evening;
but Henry’s attentions had very little to do with it. She would much
rather <i>not</i> have been asked by him again so very soon, and she wished she
had not been obliged to suspect that his previous inquiries of Mrs. Norris,
about the supper hour, were all for the sake of securing her at that part of
the evening. But it was not to be avoided: he made her feel that she was the
object of all; though she could not say that it was unpleasantly done, that
there was indelicacy or ostentation in his manner; and sometimes, when he
talked of William, he was really not unagreeable, and shewed even a warmth of
heart which did him credit. But still his attentions made no part of her
satisfaction. She was happy whenever she looked at William, and saw how
perfectly he was enjoying himself, in every five minutes that she could walk
about with him and hear his account of his partners; she was happy in knowing
herself admired; and she was happy in having the two dances with Edmund still
to look forward to, during the greatest part of the evening, her hand being so
eagerly sought after that her indefinite engagement with <i>him</i> was in
continual perspective. She was happy even when they did take place; but not
from any flow of spirits on his side, or any such expressions of tender
gallantry as had blessed the morning. His mind was fagged, and her happiness
sprung from being the friend with whom it could find repose. “I am worn
out with civility,” said he. “I have been talking incessantly all
night, and with nothing to say. But with <i>you</i>, Fanny, there may be peace.
You will not want to be talked to. Let us have the luxury of silence.”
Fanny would hardly even speak her agreement. A weariness, arising probably, in
great measure, from the same feelings which he had acknowledged in the morning,
was peculiarly to be respected, and they went down their two dances together
with such sober tranquillity as might satisfy any looker-on that Sir Thomas had
been bringing up no wife for his younger son.</p>
<p>The evening had afforded Edmund little pleasure. Miss Crawford had been in gay
spirits when they first danced together, but it was not her gaiety that could
do him good: it rather sank than raised his comfort; and afterwards, for he
found himself still impelled to seek her again, she had absolutely pained him
by her manner of speaking of the profession to which he was now on the point of
belonging. They had talked, and they had been silent; he had reasoned, she had
ridiculed; and they had parted at last with mutual vexation. Fanny, not able to
refrain entirely from observing them, had seen enough to be tolerably
satisfied. It was barbarous to be happy when Edmund was suffering. Yet some
happiness must and would arise from the very conviction that he did suffer.</p>
<p>When her two dances with him were over, her inclination and strength for more
were pretty well at an end; and Sir Thomas, having seen her walk rather than
dance down the shortening set, breathless, and with her hand at her side, gave
his orders for her sitting down entirely. From that time Mr. Crawford sat down
likewise.</p>
<p>“Poor Fanny!” cried William, coming for a moment to visit her, and
working away his partner’s fan as if for life, “how soon she is
knocked up! Why, the sport is but just begun. I hope we shall keep it up these
two hours. How can you be tired so soon?”</p>
<p>“So soon! my good friend,” said Sir Thomas, producing his watch
with all necessary caution; “it is three o’clock, and your sister
is not used to these sort of hours.”</p>
<p>“Well, then, Fanny, you shall not get up to-morrow before I go. Sleep as
long as you can, and never mind me.”</p>
<p>“Oh! William.”</p>
<p>“What! Did she think of being up before you set off?”</p>
<p>“Oh! yes, sir,” cried Fanny, rising eagerly from her seat to be
nearer her uncle; “I must get up and breakfast with him. It will be the
last time, you know; the last morning.”</p>
<p>“You had better not. He is to have breakfasted and be gone by half-past
nine. Mr. Crawford, I think you call for him at half-past nine?”</p>
<p>Fanny was too urgent, however, and had too many tears in her eyes for denial;
and it ended in a gracious “Well, well!” which was permission.</p>
<p>“Yes, half-past nine,” said Crawford to William as the latter was
leaving them, “and I shall be punctual, for there will be no kind sister
to get up for <i>me</i>.” And in a lower tone to Fanny, “I shall
have only a desolate house to hurry from. Your brother will find my ideas of
time and his own very different to-morrow.”</p>
<p>After a short consideration, Sir Thomas asked Crawford to join the early
breakfast party in that house instead of eating alone: he should himself be of
it; and the readiness with which his invitation was accepted convinced him that
the suspicions whence, he must confess to himself, this very ball had in great
measure sprung, were well founded. Mr. Crawford was in love with Fanny. He had
a pleasing anticipation of what would be. His niece, meanwhile, did not thank
him for what he had just done. She had hoped to have William all to herself the
last morning. It would have been an unspeakable indulgence. But though her
wishes were overthrown, there was no spirit of murmuring within her. On the
contrary, she was so totally unused to have her pleasure consulted, or to have
anything take place at all in the way she could desire, that she was more
disposed to wonder and rejoice in having carried her point so far, than to
repine at the counteraction which followed.</p>
<p>Shortly afterward, Sir Thomas was again interfering a little with her
inclination, by advising her to go immediately to bed. “Advise” was
his word, but it was the advice of absolute power, and she had only to rise,
and, with Mr. Crawford’s very cordial adieus, pass quietly away; stopping
at the entrance-door, like the Lady of Branxholm Hall, “one moment and no
more,” to view the happy scene, and take a last look at the five or six
determined couple who were still hard at work; and then, creeping slowly up the
principal staircase, pursued by the ceaseless country-dance, feverish with
hopes and fears, soup and negus, sore-footed and fatigued, restless and
agitated, yet feeling, in spite of everything, that a ball was indeed
delightful.</p>
<p>In thus sending her away, Sir Thomas perhaps might not be thinking merely of
her health. It might occur to him that Mr. Crawford had been sitting by her
long enough, or he might mean to recommend her as a wife by shewing her
persuadableness.</p>
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