<h2><SPAN name="link2HCH0047" id="link2HCH0047"></SPAN>CHAPTER XLVII</h2>
<p>It had been a miserable party, each of the three believing themselves most
miserable. Mrs. Norris, however, as most attached to Maria, was really the
greatest sufferer. Maria was her first favourite, the dearest of all; the match
had been her own contriving, as she had been wont with such pride of heart to
feel and say, and this conclusion of it almost overpowered her.</p>
<p>She was an altered creature, quieted, stupefied, indifferent to everything that
passed. The being left with her sister and nephew, and all the house under her
care, had been an advantage entirely thrown away; she had been unable to direct
or dictate, or even fancy herself useful. When really touched by affliction,
her active powers had been all benumbed; and neither Lady Bertram nor Tom had
received from her the smallest support or attempt at support. She had done no
more for them than they had done for each other. They had been all solitary,
helpless, and forlorn alike; and now the arrival of the others only established
her superiority in wretchedness. Her companions were relieved, but there was no
good for <i>her</i>. Edmund was almost as welcome to his brother as Fanny to
her aunt; but Mrs. Norris, instead of having comfort from either, was but the
more irritated by the sight of the person whom, in the blindness of her anger,
she could have charged as the daemon of the piece. Had Fanny accepted Mr.
Crawford this could not have happened.</p>
<p>Susan too was a grievance. She had not spirits to notice her in more than a few
repulsive looks, but she felt her as a spy, and an intruder, and an indigent
niece, and everything most odious. By her other aunt, Susan was received with
quiet kindness. Lady Bertram could not give her much time, or many words, but
she felt her, as Fanny’s sister, to have a claim at Mansfield, and was
ready to kiss and like her; and Susan was more than satisfied, for she came
perfectly aware that nothing but ill-humour was to be expected from aunt
Norris; and was so provided with happiness, so strong in that best of
blessings, an escape from many certain evils, that she could have stood against
a great deal more indifference than she met with from the others.</p>
<p>She was now left a good deal to herself, to get acquainted with the house and
grounds as she could, and spent her days very happily in so doing, while those
who might otherwise have attended to her were shut up, or wholly occupied each
with the person quite dependent on them, at this time, for everything like
comfort; Edmund trying to bury his own feelings in exertions for the relief of
his brother’s, and Fanny devoted to her aunt Bertram, returning to every
former office with more than former zeal, and thinking she could never do
enough for one who seemed so much to want her.</p>
<p>To talk over the dreadful business with Fanny, talk and lament, was all Lady
Bertram’s consolation. To be listened to and borne with, and hear the
voice of kindness and sympathy in return, was everything that could be done for
her. To be otherwise comforted was out of the question. The case admitted of no
comfort. Lady Bertram did not think deeply, but, guided by Sir Thomas, she
thought justly on all important points; and she saw, therefore, in all its
enormity, what had happened, and neither endeavoured herself, nor required
Fanny to advise her, to think little of guilt and infamy.</p>
<p>Her affections were not acute, nor was her mind tenacious. After a time, Fanny
found it not impossible to direct her thoughts to other subjects, and revive
some interest in the usual occupations; but whenever Lady Bertram <i>was</i>
fixed on the event, she could see it only in one light, as comprehending the
loss of a daughter, and a disgrace never to be wiped off.</p>
<p>Fanny learnt from her all the particulars which had yet transpired. Her aunt
was no very methodical narrator, but with the help of some letters to and from
Sir Thomas, and what she already knew herself, and could reasonably combine,
she was soon able to understand quite as much as she wished of the
circumstances attending the story.</p>
<p>Mrs. Rushworth had gone, for the Easter holidays, to Twickenham, with a family
whom she had just grown intimate with: a family of lively, agreeable manners,
and probably of morals and discretion to suit, for to <i>their</i> house Mr.
Crawford had constant access at all times. His having been in the same
neighbourhood Fanny already knew. Mr. Rushworth had been gone at this time to
Bath, to pass a few days with his mother, and bring her back to town, and Maria
was with these friends without any restraint, without even Julia; for Julia had
removed from Wimpole Street two or three weeks before, on a visit to some
relations of Sir Thomas; a removal which her father and mother were now
disposed to attribute to some view of convenience on Mr. Yates’s account.
Very soon after the Rushworths’ return to Wimpole Street, Sir Thomas had
received a letter from an old and most particular friend in London, who hearing
and witnessing a good deal to alarm him in that quarter, wrote to recommend Sir
Thomas’s coming to London himself, and using his influence with his
daughter to put an end to the intimacy which was already exposing her to
unpleasant remarks, and evidently making Mr. Rushworth uneasy.</p>
<p>Sir Thomas was preparing to act upon this letter, without communicating its
contents to any creature at Mansfield, when it was followed by another, sent
express from the same friend, to break to him the almost desperate situation in
which affairs then stood with the young people. Mrs. Rushworth had left her
husband’s house: Mr. Rushworth had been in great anger and distress to
<i>him</i> (Mr. Harding) for his advice; Mr. Harding feared there had been
<i>at</i> <i>least</i> very flagrant indiscretion. The maidservant of Mrs.
Rushworth, senior, threatened alarmingly. He was doing all in his power to
quiet everything, with the hope of Mrs. Rushworth’s return, but was so
much counteracted in Wimpole Street by the influence of Mr. Rushworth’s
mother, that the worst consequences might be apprehended.</p>
<p>This dreadful communication could not be kept from the rest of the family. Sir
Thomas set off, Edmund would go with him, and the others had been left in a
state of wretchedness, inferior only to what followed the receipt of the next
letters from London. Everything was by that time public beyond a hope. The
servant of Mrs. Rushworth, the mother, had exposure in her power, and supported
by her mistress, was not to be silenced. The two ladies, even in the short time
they had been together, had disagreed; and the bitterness of the elder against
her daughter-in-law might perhaps arise almost as much from the personal
disrespect with which she had herself been treated as from sensibility for her
son.</p>
<p>However that might be, she was unmanageable. But had she been less obstinate,
or of less weight with her son, who was always guided by the last speaker, by
the person who could get hold of and shut him up, the case would still have
been hopeless, for Mrs. Rushworth did not appear again, and there was every
reason to conclude her to be concealed somewhere with Mr. Crawford, who had
quitted his uncle’s house, as for a journey, on the very day of her
absenting herself.</p>
<p>Sir Thomas, however, remained yet a little longer in town, in the hope of
discovering and snatching her from farther vice, though all was lost on the
side of character.</p>
<p><i>His</i> present state Fanny could hardly bear to think of. There was but one
of his children who was not at this time a source of misery to him. Tom’s
complaints had been greatly heightened by the shock of his sister’s
conduct, and his recovery so much thrown back by it, that even Lady Bertram had
been struck by the difference, and all her alarms were regularly sent off to
her husband; and Julia’s elopement, the additional blow which had met him
on his arrival in London, though its force had been deadened at the moment,
must, she knew, be sorely felt. She saw that it was. His letters expressed how
much he deplored it. Under any circumstances it would have been an unwelcome
alliance; but to have it so clandestinely formed, and such a period chosen for
its completion, placed Julia’s feelings in a most unfavourable light, and
severely aggravated the folly of her choice. He called it a bad thing, done in
the worst manner, and at the worst time; and though Julia was yet as more
pardonable than Maria as folly than vice, he could not but regard the step she
had taken as opening the worst probabilities of a conclusion hereafter like her
sister’s. Such was his opinion of the set into which she had thrown
herself.</p>
<p>Fanny felt for him most acutely. He could have no comfort but in Edmund. Every
other child must be racking his heart. His displeasure against herself she
trusted, reasoning differently from Mrs. Norris, would now be done away.
<i>She</i> should be justified. Mr. Crawford would have fully acquitted her
conduct in refusing him; but this, though most material to herself, would be
poor consolation to Sir Thomas. Her uncle’s displeasure was terrible to
her; but what could her justification or her gratitude and attachment do for
him? His stay must be on Edmund alone.</p>
<p>She was mistaken, however, in supposing that Edmund gave his father no present
pain. It was of a much less poignant nature than what the others excited; but
Sir Thomas was considering his happiness as very deeply involved in the offence
of his sister and friend; cut off by it, as he must be, from the woman whom he
had been pursuing with undoubted attachment and strong probability of success;
and who, in everything but this despicable brother, would have been so eligible
a connexion. He was aware of what Edmund must be suffering on his own behalf,
in addition to all the rest, when they were in town: he had seen or conjectured
his feelings; and, having reason to think that one interview with Miss Crawford
had taken place, from which Edmund derived only increased distress, had been as
anxious on that account as on others to get him out of town, and had engaged
him in taking Fanny home to her aunt, with a view to his relief and benefit, no
less than theirs. Fanny was not in the secret of her uncle’s feelings,
Sir Thomas not in the secret of Miss Crawford’s character. Had he been
privy to her conversation with his son, he would not have wished her to belong
to him, though her twenty thousand pounds had been forty.</p>
<p>That Edmund must be for ever divided from Miss Crawford did not admit of a
doubt with Fanny; and yet, till she knew that he felt the same, her own
conviction was insufficient. She thought he did, but she wanted to be assured
of it. If he would now speak to her with the unreserve which had sometimes been
too much for her before, it would be most consoling; but <i>that</i> she found
was not to be. She seldom saw him: never alone. He probably avoided being alone
with her. What was to be inferred? That his judgment submitted to all his own
peculiar and bitter share of this family affliction, but that it was too keenly
felt to be a subject of the slightest communication. This must be his state. He
yielded, but it was with agonies which did not admit of speech. Long, long
would it be ere Miss Crawford’s name passed his lips again, or she could
hope for a renewal of such confidential intercourse as had been.</p>
<p>It <i>was</i> long. They reached Mansfield on Thursday, and it was not till
Sunday evening that Edmund began to talk to her on the subject. Sitting with
her on Sunday evening—a wet Sunday evening—the very time of all
others when, if a friend is at hand, the heart must be opened, and everything
told; no one else in the room, except his mother, who, after hearing an
affecting sermon, had cried herself to sleep, it was impossible not to speak;
and so, with the usual beginnings, hardly to be traced as to what came first,
and the usual declaration that if she would listen to him for a few minutes, he
should be very brief, and certainly never tax her kindness in the same way
again; she need not fear a repetition; it would be a subject prohibited
entirely: he entered upon the luxury of relating circumstances and sensations
of the first interest to himself, to one of whose affectionate sympathy he was
quite convinced.</p>
<p>How Fanny listened, with what curiosity and concern, what pain and what
delight, how the agitation of his voice was watched, and how carefully her own
eyes were fixed on any object but himself, may be imagined. The opening was
alarming. He had seen Miss Crawford. He had been invited to see her. He had
received a note from Lady Stornaway to beg him to call; and regarding it as
what was meant to be the last, last interview of friendship, and investing her
with all the feelings of shame and wretchedness which Crawford’s sister
ought to have known, he had gone to her in such a state of mind, so softened,
so devoted, as made it for a few moments impossible to Fanny’s fears that
it should be the last. But as he proceeded in his story, these fears were over.
She had met him, he said, with a serious—certainly a serious—even
an agitated air; but before he had been able to speak one intelligible
sentence, she had introduced the subject in a manner which he owned had shocked
him. “‘I heard you were in town,’ said she; ‘I wanted
to see you. Let us talk over this sad business. What can equal the folly of our
two relations?’ I could not answer, but I believe my looks spoke. She
felt reproved. Sometimes how quick to feel! With a graver look and voice she
then added, ‘I do not mean to defend Henry at your sister’s
expense.’ So she began, but how she went on, Fanny, is not fit, is hardly
fit to be repeated to you. I cannot recall all her words. I would not dwell
upon them if I could. Their substance was great anger at the <i>folly</i> of
each. She reprobated her brother’s folly in being drawn on by a woman
whom he had never cared for, to do what must lose him the woman he adored; but
still more the folly of poor Maria, in sacrificing such a situation, plunging
into such difficulties, under the idea of being really loved by a man who had
long ago made his indifference clear. Guess what I must have felt. To hear the
woman whom—no harsher name than folly given! So voluntarily, so freely,
so coolly to canvass it! No reluctance, no horror, no feminine, shall I say, no
modest loathings? This is what the world does. For where, Fanny, shall we find
a woman whom nature had so richly endowed? Spoilt, spoilt!”</p>
<p>After a little reflection, he went on with a sort of desperate calmness.
“I will tell you everything, and then have done for ever. She saw it only
as folly, and that folly stamped only by exposure. The want of common
discretion, of caution: his going down to Richmond for the whole time of her
being at Twickenham; her putting herself in the power of a servant; it was the
detection, in short—oh, Fanny! it was the detection, not the offence,
which she reprobated. It was the imprudence which had brought things to
extremity, and obliged her brother to give up every dearer plan in order to fly
with her.”</p>
<p>He stopt. “And what,” said Fanny (believing herself required to
speak), “what could you say?”</p>
<p>“Nothing, nothing to be understood. I was like a man stunned. She went
on, began to talk of you; yes, then she began to talk of you, regretting, as
well she might, the loss of such a—. There she spoke very rationally. But
she has always done justice to you. ‘He has thrown away,’ said she,
‘such a woman as he will never see again. She would have fixed him; she
would have made him happy for ever.’ My dearest Fanny, I am giving you, I
hope, more pleasure than pain by this retrospect of what might have
been—but what never can be now. You do not wish me to be silent? If you
do, give me but a look, a word, and I have done.”</p>
<p>No look or word was given.</p>
<p>“Thank God,” said he. “We were all disposed to wonder, but it
seems to have been the merciful appointment of Providence that the heart which
knew no guile should not suffer. She spoke of you with high praise and warm
affection; yet, even here, there was alloy, a dash of evil; for in the midst of
it she could exclaim, ‘Why would not she have him? It is all her fault.
Simple girl! I shall never forgive her. Had she accepted him as she ought, they
might now have been on the point of marriage, and Henry would have been too
happy and too busy to want any other object. He would have taken no pains to be
on terms with Mrs. Rushworth again. It would have all ended in a regular
standing flirtation, in yearly meetings at Sotherton and Everingham.’
Could you have believed it possible? But the charm is broken. My eyes are
opened.”</p>
<p>“Cruel!” said Fanny, “quite cruel. At such a moment to give
way to gaiety, to speak with lightness, and to you! Absolute cruelty.”</p>
<p>“Cruelty, do you call it? We differ there. No, hers is not a cruel
nature. I do not consider her as meaning to wound my feelings. The evil lies
yet deeper: in her total ignorance, unsuspiciousness of there being such
feelings; in a perversion of mind which made it natural to her to treat the
subject as she did. She was speaking only as she had been used to hear others
speak, as she imagined everybody else would speak. Hers are not faults of
temper. She would not voluntarily give unnecessary pain to any one, and though
I may deceive myself, I cannot but think that for me, for my feelings, she
would—. Hers are faults of principle, Fanny; of blunted delicacy and a
corrupted, vitiated mind. Perhaps it is best for me, since it leaves me so
little to regret. Not so, however. Gladly would I submit to all the increased
pain of losing her, rather than have to think of her as I do. I told her
so.”</p>
<p>“Did you?”</p>
<p>“Yes; when I left her I told her so.”</p>
<p>“How long were you together?”</p>
<p>“Five-and-twenty minutes. Well, she went on to say that what remained now
to be done was to bring about a marriage between them. She spoke of it, Fanny,
with a steadier voice than I can.” He was obliged to pause more than once
as he continued. “‘We must persuade Henry to marry her,’ said
she; ‘and what with honour, and the certainty of having shut himself out
for ever from Fanny, I do not despair of it. Fanny he must give up. I do not
think that even <i>he</i> could now hope to succeed with one of her stamp, and
therefore I hope we may find no insuperable difficulty. My influence, which is
not small shall all go that way; and when once married, and properly supported
by her own family, people of respectability as they are, she may recover her
footing in society to a certain degree. In some circles, we know, she would
never be admitted, but with good dinners, and large parties, there will always
be those who will be glad of her acquaintance; and there is, undoubtedly, more
liberality and candour on those points than formerly. What I advise is, that
your father be quiet. Do not let him injure his own cause by interference.
Persuade him to let things take their course. If by any officious exertions of
his, she is induced to leave Henry’s protection, there will be much less
chance of his marrying her than if she remain with him. I know how he is likely
to be influenced. Let Sir Thomas trust to his honour and compassion, and it may
all end well; but if he get his daughter away, it will be destroying the chief
hold.’”</p>
<p>After repeating this, Edmund was so much affected that Fanny, watching him with
silent, but most tender concern, was almost sorry that the subject had been
entered on at all. It was long before he could speak again. At last,
“Now, Fanny,” said he, “I shall soon have done. I have told
you the substance of all that she said. As soon as I could speak, I replied
that I had not supposed it possible, coming in such a state of mind into that
house as I had done, that anything could occur to make me suffer more, but that
she had been inflicting deeper wounds in almost every sentence. That though I
had, in the course of our acquaintance, been often sensible of some difference
in our opinions, on points, too, of some moment, it had not entered my
imagination to conceive the difference could be such as she had now proved it.
That the manner in which she treated the dreadful crime committed by her
brother and my sister (with whom lay the greater seduction I pretended not to
say), but the manner in which she spoke of the crime itself, giving it every
reproach but the right; considering its ill consequences only as they were to
be braved or overborne by a defiance of decency and impudence in wrong; and
last of all, and above all, recommending to us a compliance, a compromise, an
acquiescence in the continuance of the sin, on the chance of a marriage which,
thinking as I now thought of her brother, should rather be prevented than
sought; all this together most grievously convinced me that I had never
understood her before, and that, as far as related to mind, it had been the
creature of my own imagination, not Miss Crawford, that I had been too apt to
dwell on for many months past. That, perhaps, it was best for me; I had less to
regret in sacrificing a friendship, feelings, hopes which must, at any rate,
have been torn from me now. And yet, that I must and would confess that, could
I have restored her to what she had appeared to me before, I would infinitely
prefer any increase of the pain of parting, for the sake of carrying with me
the right of tenderness and esteem. This is what I said, the purport of it;
but, as you may imagine, not spoken so collectedly or methodically as I have
repeated it to you. She was astonished, exceedingly astonished—more than
astonished. I saw her change countenance. She turned extremely red. I imagined
I saw a mixture of many feelings: a great, though short struggle; half a wish
of yielding to truths, half a sense of shame, but habit, habit carried it. She
would have laughed if she could. It was a sort of laugh, as she answered,
‘A pretty good lecture, upon my word. Was it part of your last sermon? At
this rate you will soon reform everybody at Mansfield and Thornton Lacey; and
when I hear of you next, it may be as a celebrated preacher in some great
society of Methodists, or as a missionary into foreign parts.’ She tried
to speak carelessly, but she was not so careless as she wanted to appear. I
only said in reply, that from my heart I wished her well, and earnestly hoped
that she might soon learn to think more justly, and not owe the most valuable
knowledge we could any of us acquire, the knowledge of ourselves and of our
duty, to the lessons of affliction, and immediately left the room. I had gone a
few steps, Fanny, when I heard the door open behind me. ‘Mr.
Bertram,’ said she. I looked back. ‘Mr. Bertram,’ said she,
with a smile; but it was a smile ill-suited to the conversation that had
passed, a saucy playful smile, seeming to invite in order to subdue me; at
least it appeared so to me. I resisted; it was the impulse of the moment to
resist, and still walked on. I have since, sometimes, for a moment, regretted
that I did not go back, but I know I was right, and such has been the end of
our acquaintance. And what an acquaintance has it been! How have I been
deceived! Equally in brother and sister deceived! I thank you for your
patience, Fanny. This has been the greatest relief, and now we will have
done.”</p>
<p>And such was Fanny’s dependence on his words, that for five minutes she
thought they <i>had</i> done. Then, however, it all came on again, or something
very like it, and nothing less than Lady Bertram’s rousing thoroughly up
could really close such a conversation. Till that happened, they continued to
talk of Miss Crawford alone, and how she had attached him, and how delightful
nature had made her, and how excellent she would have been, had she fallen into
good hands earlier. Fanny, now at liberty to speak openly, felt more than
justified in adding to his knowledge of her real character, by some hint of
what share his brother’s state of health might be supposed to have in her
wish for a complete reconciliation. This was not an agreeable intimation.
Nature resisted it for a while. It would have been a vast deal pleasanter to
have had her more disinterested in her attachment; but his vanity was not of a
strength to fight long against reason. He submitted to believe that Tom’s
illness had influenced her, only reserving for himself this consoling thought,
that considering the many counteractions of opposing habits, she had certainly
been <i>more</i> attached to him than could have been expected, and for his
sake been more near doing right. Fanny thought exactly the same; and they were
also quite agreed in their opinion of the lasting effect, the indelible
impression, which such a disappointment must make on his mind. Time would
undoubtedly abate somewhat of his sufferings, but still it was a sort of thing
which he never could get entirely the better of; and as to his ever meeting
with any other woman who could—it was too impossible to be named but with
indignation. Fanny’s friendship was all that he had to cling to.</p>
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