<h1>THE STARS,<br/> MY BROTHERS</h1>
<h2>By<br/> EDMOND<br/> HAMILTON</h2>
<div class="tease"><p>He was afraid—not of the present or the future,
but of the past. He was afraid of the thing
tagged Reed Kieran, that stiff blind voiceless
thing wheeling its slow orbit around the Moon,
companion to dead worlds and silent space.</p>
</div>
<h3>1.</h3>
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">Something</span> tiny went wrong,
but no one ever knew whether
it was in an electric relay or in
the brain of the pilot.</p>
<p>The pilot was Lieutenant
Charles Wandek, UNRC, home
address: 1677 Anstey Avenue, Detroit.
He did not survive the
crash of his ferry into Wheel
Five. Neither did his three passengers,
a young French astrophysicist,
an East Indian expert
on magnetic fields, and a forty-year-old
man from Philadelphia
who was coming out to replace a
pump technician.</p>
<p>Someone else who did not survive
was Reed Kieran, the only
man in Wheel Five itself to lose
his life. Kieran, who was thirty-six
years old, was an accredited
scientist-employee of UNRC.
Home address: 815 Elm Street,
Midland Springs, Ohio.</p>
<p>Kieran, despite the fact that he
was a confirmed bachelor, was in
Wheel Five because of a woman.
But the woman who had sent him
there was no beautiful lost love.
Her name was Gertrude Lemmiken;
she was nineteen years old
and overweight, with a fat, stupid
face. She suffered from head-colds,
and sniffed constantly in
the Ohio college classroom where
Kieran taught Physics Two.</p>
<p>One March morning, Kieran
could bear it no longer. He told
himself, "If she sniffs this morning,
I'm through. I'll resign and
join the UNRC."</p>
<p>Gertrude sniffed. Six months
later, having finished his training
for the United Nations Reconnaissance
Corps, Kieran
shipped out for a term of duty in
UNRC Space Laboratory Number
5, known more familiarly as
Wheel Five.</p>
<p>Wheel Five circled the Moon.
There was an elaborate base on
the surface of the Moon in this
year 1981. There were laboratories
and observatories there, too.
But it had been found that the
alternating fortnights of boiling
heat and near-absolute-zero cold
on the lunar surface could play
havoc with the delicate instruments
used in certain researches.
Hence Wheel Five had been built
and was staffed by research men
who were rotated at regular
eight-month intervals.</p>
<hr />
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">Kieran</span> loved it, from the
first. He thought that that
was because of the sheer beauty
of it, the gaunt, silver deaths-head
of the Moon forever turning
beneath, the still and solemn
glory of the undimmed stars, the
filamentaries stretched across the
distant star-clusters like shining
veils, the quietness, the peace.</p>
<p>But Kieran had a certain intellectual
honesty, and after a while
he admitted to himself that
neither the beauty nor the romance
of it was what made this
life so attractive to him. It was
the fact that he was far away
from Earth. He did not even have
to look at Earth, for nearly all
geophysical research was taken
care of by Wheels Two and Three
that circled the mother planet.
He was almost completely divorced
from all Earth's problems
and people.</p>
<p>Kieran liked people, but had
never felt that he understood
them. What seemed important to
them, all the drives of ordinary
day-to-day existence, had never
seemed very important to him.
He had felt that there must be
something wrong with him,
something lacking, for it seemed
to him that people everywhere
committed the most outlandish
follies, believed in the most incredible
things, were swayed by
pure herd-instinct into the most
harmful courses of behavior.
They could not all be wrong, he
thought, so he must be wrong—and
it had worried him. He had
taken partial refuge in pure science,
but the study and then the
teaching of astrophysics had not
been the refuge that Wheel Five
was. He would be sorry to leave
the Wheel when his time was up.</p>
<p>And he was sorry, when the
day came. The others of the staff
were already out in the docking
lock in the rim, waiting to greet
the replacements from the ferry.
Kieran, hating to leave, lagged
behind. Then, realizing it would
be churlish not to meet this
young Frenchman who was replacing
him, he hurried along the
corridor in the big spoke when he
saw the ferry coming in.</p>
<p>He was two-thirds of the way
along the spoke to the rim when
it happened. There was a tremendous
crash that flung him violently
from his feet. He felt a
coldness, instant and terrible.</p>
<p>He was dying.</p>
<p>He was dead.</p>
<p>The ferry had been coming in
on a perfectly normal approach
when the tiny something went
wrong, in the ship or in the judgment
of the pilot. Its drive-rockets
suddenly blasted on full,
it heeled over sharply, it smashed
through the big starboard spoke
like a knife through butter.</p>
<p>Wheel Five staggered, rocked,
and floundered. The automatic
safety bulkheads had all closed,
and the big spoke—Section T2—was
the only section to blow its
air, and Kieran was the only man
caught in it. The alarms went off,
and while the wreckage of the
ferry, with three dead men in it,
was still drifting close by, everyone
in the Wheel was in his pressure-suit
and emergency measures
were in full force.</p>
<hr />
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">Within</span> thirty minutes it became
evident that the Wheel
was going to survive this accident.
It was edging slowly out of
orbit from the impetus of the
blow, and in the present weakened
state of the construction its
small corrective rockets could not
be used to stop the drift. But Meloni,
the UNRC captain commanding,
had got first reports
from his damage-control teams,
and it did not look too bad. He
fired off peremptory demands for
the repair materials he would
need, and was assured by UNRC
headquarters at Mexico City that
the ferries would be loaded and
on their way as soon as possible.</p>
<p>Meloni was just beginning to
relax a little when a young officer
brought up a minor but
vexing problem. Lieutenant Vinson
had headed the small party
sent out to recover the bodies of
the four dead men. In their pressure-suits
they had been pawing
through the tangled wreckage
for some time, and young Vinson
was tired when he made his report.</p>
<p>"We have all four alongside,
sir. The three men in the ferry
were pretty badly mangled in the
crash. Kieran wasn't physically
wounded, but died from space-asphyxiation."</p>
<p>The captain stared at him.
"Alongside? Why didn't you
bring them in? They'll go back in
one of the ferries to Earth for
burial."</p>
<p>"But—" Vinson started to protest.</p>
<p>Meloni interrupted sharply.
"You need to learn a few things
about morale, Lieutenant. You
think it's going to do morale here
any good to have four dead men
floating alongside where everyone
can see them? Fetch them in
and store them in one of the
holds."</p>
<p>Vinson, sweating and unhappy
now, had visions of a black mark
on his record, and determined to
make his point.</p>
<p>"But about Kieran, sir—he
was only frozen. Suppose there
was a chance to bring him back?"</p>
<p>"Bring him back? What the
devil are you talking about?"</p>
<p>Vinson said, "I read they're
trying to find some way of restoring
a man that gets space-frozen.
Some scientists down at
Delhi University. If they succeeded,
and if we had Kieran still
intact in space—"</p>
<p>"Oh, hell, that's just a scientific
pipe-dream, they'll never
find a way to do that," Meloni
said. "It's all just theory."</p>
<p>"Yes, sir," said Vinson, hanging
his head.</p>
<p>"We've got trouble enough
here without you bringing up
ideas like this," the captain continued
angrily. "Get out of here."</p>
<p>Vinson was now completely
crushed. "Yes, sir. I'll bring the
bodies in."</p>
<hr />
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">He</span> went out. Meloni stared at
the door, and began to think.
A commanding officer had to be
careful, or he could get skinned
alive. If, by some remote chance,
this Delhi idea ever succeeded,
he, Meloni, would be in for it for
having Kieran buried. He strode
to the door and flung it open,
mentally cursing the young snotty
who had had to bring this up.</p>
<p>"Vinson!" he shouted.</p>
<p>The lieutenant turned back,
startled. "Yes, sir?"</p>
<p>"Hold Kieran's body outside.
I'll check on this with Mexico
City."</p>
<p>"Yes, sir."</p>
<p>Still angry, Meloni shot a message
to Personnel at Mexico City.
That done, he forgot about it.
The buck had been passed, let the
boys sitting on their backsides
down on Earth handle it.</p>
<p>Colonel Hausman, second in
command of Personnel Division
of UNRC, was the man to whom
Meloni's message went. He snorted
loudly when he read it. And
later, when he went in to report
to Garces, the brigadier commanding
the Division, he took
the message with him.</p>
<p>"Meloni must be pretty badly
rattled by the crash," he said.
"Look at this."</p>
<p>Garces read the message, then
looked up. "Anything to this?
The Delhi experiments, I mean?"</p>
<p>Hausman had taken care to
brief himself on that point and
was able to answer emphatically.</p>
<p>"Damned little. Those chaps in
Delhi have been playing around
freezing insects and thawing
them out, and they think the
process might be developed someday
to where it could revive frozen
spacemen. It's an iffy idea. I'll
burn Meloni's backside off for
bringing it up at a time like
this."</p>
<p>Garces, after a moment, shook
his head. "No, wait. Let me think
about this."</p>
<p>He looked speculatively out of
the window for a few moments.
Then he said,</p>
<p>"Message Meloni that this one
chap's body—what's his name,
Kieran?—is to be preserved in
space against a chance of future
revival."</p>
<p>Hausman nearly blotted his
copybook by exclaiming, "For
God's sake—" He choked that
down in time and said, "But it
could be centuries before a revival
process is perfected, if it
ever is."</p>
<p>Garces nodded. "I know. But
you're missing a psychological
point that could be valuable to
UNRC. This Kieran has relatives,
doesn't he?"</p>
<p>Hausman nodded. "A widowed
mother and a sister. His father's
been dead a long time. No wife
or children."</p>
<p>Garces said, "If we tell them
he's dead, frozen in space and
then buried, it's all over with.
Won't those people feel a lot better
if we tell them that he's <i>apparently</i>
dead, but might be
brought back when a revival-technique
is perfected in the future?"</p>
<p>"I suppose they'd feel better
about it," Hausman conceded.
"But I don't see—"</p>
<p>Garces shrugged. "Simple.
We're only really beginning in
space, you know. As we go on,
UNRC is going to lose a number
of men, space-struck just like
Kieran. A howl will go up about
our casualty lists, it always does.
But if we can say that they're
only frozen until such time as revival
technique is achieved, everyone
will feel better about it."</p>
<p>"I suppose public relations are
important—" Hausman began to
say, and Garces nodded quickly.</p>
<p>"They are. See that this is
done, when you go up to confer
with Meloni. Make sure that it
gets onto the video networks, I
want everyone to see it."</p>
<p>Later, with many cameras and
millions of people watching,
Kieran's body, in a pressure-suit,
was ceremoniously taken to a selected
position where it would
orbit the Moon. All suggestions
of the funerary were carefully
avoided. The space-struck man—nobody
at all referred to him as
"dead"—would remain in this
position until a revival process
was perfected.</p>
<p>"Until forever," thought Hausman,
watching sourly. "I suppose
Garces is right. But they'll have a
whole graveyard here, as time
goes on."</p>
<p>As time went on, they did.</p>
<h3>2.</h3>
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">In his</span> dreams, a soft voice
whispered.</p>
<p>He did not know what it was
telling him, except that it was
important. He was hardly aware
of its coming, the times it came.
There would be the quiet murmuring,
and something in him
seemed to hear and understand,
and then the murmur faded away
and there was nothing but the
dreams again.</p>
<p>But were they dreams? Nothing
had form or meaning. Light,
darkness, sound, pain and not-pain,
flowed over him. Flowed
over—who? Who was he? He did
not even know that. He did not
care.</p>
<p>But he came to care, the question
vaguely nagged him. He
should try to remember. There
was more than dreams and the
whispering voice. There was—what?
If he had one real thing to
cling to, to put his feet on and
climb back from— One thing like
his name.</p>
<p>He had no name. He was no
one. Sleep and forget it. Sleep
and dream and listen—</p>
<p>"Kieran."</p>
<p>It went across his brain like a
shattering bolt of lightning, that
word. He did not know what the
word was or what it meant but it
found an echo somewhere and his
brain screamed it.</p>
<p>"Kieran!"</p>
<p>Not his brain alone, his voice
was gasping it, harshly and
croakingly, his lungs seeming on
fire as they expelled the word.</p>
<p>He was shaking. He had a
body that could shake, that could
feel pain, that was feeling pain
now. He tried to move, to break
the nightmare, to get back again
to the vague dreams, and the
soothing whisper.</p>
<p>He moved. His limbs thrashed
leadenly, his chest heaved and
panted, his eyes opened.</p>
<p>He lay in a narrow bunk in a
very small metal room.</p>
<p>He looked slowly around. He
did not know this place. The
gleaming white metal of walls
and ceiling was unfamiliar.
There was a slight, persistent
tingling vibration in everything
that was unfamiliar, too.</p>
<p>He was not in Wheel Five. He
had seen every cell in it and none
of them were like this. Also,
there lacked the persistent susurrant
sound of the ventilation
pumps. Where—</p>
<p><i>You're in a ship, Kieran. A
starship.</i></p>
<hr />
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">Something</span> back in his mind
told him that. But of course
it was ridiculous, a quirk of the
imagination. There weren't any
starships.</p>
<p><i>You're all right, Kieran.
You're in a starship, and you're
all right.</i></p>
<p>The emphatic assurance came
from somewhere back in his
brain and it was comforting. He
didn't feel very good, he felt
dopey and sore, but there was no
use worrying about it when he
knew for sure he was all right—</p>
<p>The hell he was all right! He
was in someplace new, someplace
strange, and he felt half sick and
he was not all right at all. Instead
of lying here on his back
listening to comforting lies from
his imagination, he should get
up, find out what was going on,
what had happened.</p>
<p>Of a sudden, memory began to
clear. What <i>had</i> happened?
Something, a crash, a terrible
coldness—</p>
<p>Kieran began to shiver. He had
been in Section T2, on his way to
the lock, and suddenly the floor
had risen under him and Wheel
Five had seemed to crash into
pieces around him. The cold, the
pain—</p>
<p><i>You're in a starship. You're
all right.</i></p>
<p>For God's sake why did his
mind keep telling him things like
that, things he believed? For if
he did not believe them he would
be in a panic, not knowing where
he was, how he had come here.
There was panic in his mind but
there was a barrier against it,
the barrier of the soothing reassurances
that came from he knew
not where.</p>
<p>He tried to sit up. It was useless,
he was too weak. He lay,
breathing heavily. He felt that
he should be hysterical with fear
but somehow he was not, that
barrier in his mind prevented it.</p>
<p>He had decided to try shouting
when a door in the side of the little
room slid open and a man
came in.</p>
<p>He came over and looked down
at Kieran. He was a young man,
sandy-haired, with a compact,
chunky figure and a flat, hard
face. His eyes were blue and intense,
and they gave Kieran the
feeling that this man was a
wound-up spring. He looked
down and said,</p>
<p>"How do you feel, Kieran?"</p>
<p>Kieran looked up at him. He
asked, "Am I in a starship?"</p>
<p>"Yes."</p>
<p>"But there aren't any starships."</p>
<p>"There are. You're in one."
The sandy-haired man added,
"My name is Vaillant."</p>
<p><i>It's true, what he says</i>, murmured
the something in Kieran's
mind.</p>
<p>"Where—how—" Kieran began.</p>
<p>Vaillant interrupted his stammering
question. "As to where,
we're quite a way from Earth,
heading right now in the general
direction of Altair. As to how—"
He paused, looking keenly down
at Kieran. "Don't you know
how?"</p>
<p><i>Of course I know. I was frozen,
and now I have been awakened
and time has gone by—</i></p>
<p>Vaillant, looking searchingly
down at his face, showed a trace
of relief. "You do know, don't
you? For a moment I was afraid
it hadn't worked."</p>
<p>He sat down on the edge of the
bunk.</p>
<p>"How long?" asked Kieran.</p>
<p>Vaillant answered as casually
as though it was the most ordinary
question in the world. "A
bit over a century."</p>
<hr />
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">It was</span> wonderful, thought
Kieran, how he could take a
statement like that without getting
excited. It was almost as
though he'd known it all the
time.</p>
<p>"How—" he began, when there
was an interruption.</p>
<p>Something buzzed thinly in the
pocket of Vaillant's shirt. He
took out a thin three-inch disk of
metal and said sharply into it,</p>
<p>"Yes?"</p>
<p>A tiny voice squawked from the
disk. It was too far from Kieran
for him to understand what it
was saying but it had a note of
excitement, almost of panic, in it.</p>
<p>Something changed, hardened,
in Vaillant's flat face. He said, "I
expected it. I'll be right there.
You know what to do."</p>
<p>He did something to the disk
and spoke into it again. "Paula,
take over here."</p>
<p>He stood up. Kieran looked up
at him, feeling numb and stupid.
"I'd like to know some things."</p>
<p>"Later," said Vaillant. "We've
got troubles. Stay where you
are."</p>
<p>He went rapidly out of the
room. Kieran looked after him,
wondering. Troubles—troubles
in a starship? And a century had
passed—</p>
<p>He suddenly felt an emotion
that shook his nerves and tightened
his guts. It was beginning
to hit him now. He sat up in the
bunk and swung his legs out of it
and tried to stand but could not,
he was too weak. All he could do
was to sit there, shaking.</p>
<p>His mind could not take it in.
It seemed only minutes ago that
he had been walking along the
corridor in Wheel Five. It seemed
that Wheel Five must exist, that
the Earth, the people, the time he
knew, must still be somewhere
out there. This could be some
kind of a joke, or some kind of
psychological experiment. That
was it—the space-medicine boys
were always making way-out experiments
to find out how men
would bear up in unusual conditions,
and this must be one of
them—</p>
<p>A woman came into the room.
She was a dark woman who
might have been thirty years old,
and who wore a white shirt and
slacks. She would, he thought,
have been good-looking if she
had not looked so tired and so
edgy.</p>
<p>She came over and looked down
at him and said to him,</p>
<p>"Don't try to get up yet.
You'll feel better very soon."</p>
<p>Her voice was a slightly husky
one. It was utterly familiar to
Kieran, and yet he had never
seen this woman before. Then it
came to him.</p>
<p>"You were the one who talked
to me," he said, looking up at her.
"In the dreams, I mean."</p>
<p>She nodded. "I'm Paula Ray
and I'm a psychologist. You had
to be psychologically prepared
for your awakening."</p>
<p>"Prepared?"</p>
<p>The woman explained patiently.
"Hypnopedic technique—establishing
facts in the subconscious
of a sleeping patient. Otherwise,
it would be too terrific a
shock for you when you awakened.
That was proved when they
first tried reviving space-struck
men, forty or fifty years ago."</p>
<hr />
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">The</span> comfortable conviction
that this was all a fake, an experiment
of some kind, began to
drain out of Kieran. But if it was
true—</p>
<p>He asked, with some difficulty,
"You say that they found out
how to revive space-frozen men,
that long ago?"</p>
<p>"Yes."</p>
<p>"Yet it took forty or fifty years
to get around to reviving me?"</p>
<p>The woman sighed. "You have
a misconception. The process of
revival was perfected that long
ago. But it has been used only
immediately after a wreck or disaster.
Men or women in the old
space-cemeteries have not been
revived."</p>
<p>"Why not?" he asked carefully.</p>
<p>"Unsatisfactory results," she
said. "They could not adjust psychologically
to changed conditions.
They usually became unbalanced.
Some suicides and a
number of cases of extreme
schizophrenia resulted. It was
decided that it was no kindness
to the older space-struck cases to
bring them back."</p>
<p>"But you brought me back?"</p>
<p>"Yes."</p>
<p>"Why?"</p>
<p>"There were good reasons."
She was, clearly, evading that
question. She went on quickly.
"The psychological shock of
awakening would have been devastating,
if you were not prepared.
So, while you were still
under sedation, I used the hypnopedic
method on you. Your unconscious
was aware of the main
facts of the situation before you
awoke, and that cushioned the
shock."</p>
<p>Kieran thought of himself, lying
frozen and dead in a graveyard
that was space, bodies drifting
in orbit, circling slowly
around each other as the years
passed, in a macabre sarabande— A
deep shiver shook him.</p>
<p>"Because all space-struck victims
were in pressure-suits, dehydration
was not the problem it
could have been," Paula was saying.
"But it's still a highly delicate
process—"</p>
<p>He looked at her and interrupted
roughly. "What reasons?"
And when she stared
blankly, he added, "You said
there were good reasons why you
picked me for revival. What reasons?"</p>
<p>Her face became tight and
alert. "You were the oldest victim,
in point of date. That was
one of the determining factors—"</p>
<p>"Look," said Kieran. "I'm not
a child, nor yet a savage. You can
drop the patronizing professional
jargon and answer my question."</p>
<p>Her voice became hard and
brittle. "You're new to this environment.
You wouldn't understand
if I told you."</p>
<p>"Try me."</p>
<p>"All right," she answered. "We
need you, as a symbol, in a political
struggle we're waging against
the Sakae."</p>
<p>"The Sakae?"</p>
<p>"I told you that you couldn't
understand yet," she answered
impatiently, turning away. "You
can't expect me to fill you in on a
whole world that's new to you, in
five minutes."</p>
<p>She started toward the door.
"Oh, no," said Kieran. "You're
not going yet."</p>
<p>He slid out of the bunk. He
felt weak and shaky but resentment
energized his flaccid muscles.
He took a step toward her.</p>
<p>The lights suddenly went dim,
and a bull-throated roar sounded
from somewhere, an appalling
sound of raw power. The slight
tingling that Kieran had felt in
the metal fabric around him
abruptly became a vibration so
deep and powerful that it dizzied
him and he had to grab the
stanchion of the bunk to keep
from falling.</p>
<p>Alarm had flashed into the
woman's face. Next moment,
from some hidden speaker in the
wall, a male voice yelled sharply,</p>
<p>"Overtaken—prepare for extreme
evasion—"</p>
<p>"Get back into the bunk," she
told Kieran.</p>
<p>"What is it?"</p>
<p>"It may be," she said with a
certain faint viciousness, "that
you're about to die a second
time."</p>
<h3>3.</h3>
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">The</span> lights dimmed to semi-darkness,
and the deep vibration grew worse.
Kieran clutched the woman's arm.</p>
<p>"What's happening?"</p>
<p>"Damn it, let me go!" she said.</p>
<p>The exclamation was so wholly
familiar in its human angriness
that Kieran almost liked her, for
the first time. But he continued
to hold onto her, although he did
not feel that with his present
weakness he could hold her long.</p>
<p>"I've a right to know," he said.</p>
<p>"All right, perhaps you have,"
said Paula. "We—our group—are
operating against authority.
We've broken laws, in going
to Earth and reviving you. And
now authority is catching up to
us."</p>
<p>"Another ship? Is there going
to be a fight?"</p>
<p>"A fight?" She stared at him,
and shock and then faint repulsion
showed in her face. "But of
course, you come from the old time
of wars, you would think that—"</p>
<p>Kieran got the impression that
what he had said had made her
look at him with the same feelings
he would have had when he
looked at a decent, worthy savage
who happened to be a cannibal.</p>
<p>"I always felt that bringing
you back was a mistake," she
said, with a sharpness in her
voice. "Let me go."</p>
<p>She wrenched away from him
and before he could stop her she
had got to the door and slid it
open. He woke up in time to lurch
after her and he got his shoulder
into the door-opening before she
could slide it shut.</p>
<p>"Oh, very well, since you insist
I'm not going to worry about
you," she said rapidly, and
turned and hurried away.</p>
<p>Kieran wanted to follow her
but his knees were buckling under
him. He hung to the side of
the door-opening. He felt angry,
and anger was all that kept him
from falling over. He would not
faint, he told himself. He was not
a child, and would not be treated
like one—</p>
<p>He got his head outside the
door. There was a long and very
narrow corridor out there, blank
metal with a few closed doors
along it. One door, away down
toward the end of the corridor,
was just sliding shut.</p>
<hr />
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">He</span> started down the corridor,
steadying himself with his
hand against the smooth wall.
Before he had gone more than a
few steps, the anger that pushed
him began to ebb away. Of a sudden,
the mountainous and incredible
fact of his being here, in
this place, this time, this ship,
came down on him like an avalanche
from which the hypnopedic
pre-conditioning would
no longer protect him.</p>
<p><i>I am touching a starship, I am
in a starship, I, Reed Kieran of
Midland Springs, Ohio. I ought
to be back there, teaching my
classes, stopping at Hartnett's
Drug Store for a soft drink on
the way home, but I am here in a
ship fleeing through the stars ...</i></p>
<p>His head was spinning and he
was afraid that he was going to
go out again. He found himself
at the door and slid it open and
fell rather than walked inside.
He heard a startled voice.</p>
<p>This was a bigger room. There
was a table whose top was translucent
and which showed a bewildering
mass of fleeting symbols
in bright light, ever changing.
There was a screen on one
wall of the room and that showed
nothing, a blank, dark surface.</p>
<p>Vaillant and Paula Ray and a
tall, tough-looking man of middle
age were around the table and
had looked up, surprised.</p>
<p>Vaillant's face flashed irritation.
"Paula, you were supposed
to keep him in his cabin!"</p>
<p>"I didn't think he was strong
enough to follow," she said.</p>
<p>"I'm not," said Kieran, and
pitched over.</p>
<p>The tall middle-aged man
reached and caught him before
he hit the floor, and eased him
into a chair.</p>
<p>He heard, as though from a
great distance, Vaillant's voice
saying irritatedly, "Let Paula
take care of him, Webber. Look
at this—we're going to cross another
rift—"</p>
<p>There were a few minutes then
when everything was very jumbled
up in Kieran's mind. The
woman was talking to him. She
was telling him that they had
prepared him physically, as well
as psychologically, for the shock
of revival, and that he would be
quite all right but had to take
things more slowly.</p>
<p>He heard her voice but paid little
attention. He sat in the chair
and blankly watched the two men
who hung over the table and its
flow of brilliant symbols. Vaillant
seemed to tighten up more
and more as the moments passed,
and there was still about him the
look of a coiled spring but now
the spring seemed to be wound to
the breaking-point. Webber, the
tall man with the tough face,
watched the fleeting symbols and
his face was stony.</p>
<p>"Here we go," he muttered,
and both he and Vaillant looked
up at the blank black screen on
the wall.</p>
<p>Kieran looked too. There was
nothing. Then, in an instant, the
blackness vanished from the
screen and it framed a vista of
such cosmic, stunning splendor
that Kieran could not grasp it.</p>
<hr />
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">Stars</span> blazed like high fires
across the screen, loops and
chains and shining clots of them.
This was not too different from
the way they had looked from
Wheel Five. But what was different
was that the starry firmament
was partly blotted out by
vast rifted ramparts of blackness,
ebon cliffs that went up to
infinity. Kieran had seen astronomical
photographs like this
and knew what the blackness
was.</p>
<p>Dust. A dust so fine that its
percentage of particles in space
would be a vacuum, on Earth.
But, here where it extended over
parsecs of space, it formed a barrier
to light. There was a narrow
rift here between the titan cliffs
of darkness and he—the ship he
was in—was fleeing across that
rift.</p>
<hr />
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">The</span> screen abruptly went black
again. Kieran remained sitting
and staring at it. That incredible
fleeting vision had finally
impressed the utter reality of
all this upon his mind. They, this
ship, were far from Earth—very
far, in one of the dust-clouds in
which they were trying to lose
pursuers. This was real.</p>
<p>"—will have got another fix on
us as we crossed, for sure," Vaillant
was saying, in a bitter voice.
"They'll have the net out for us—the
pattern will be shaping
now and we can't slip through
it."</p>
<p>"We can't," said Webber. "The
ship can't. But the flitter can,
with luck."</p>
<p>They both looked at Kieran.
"He's the important one," Webber
said. "If a couple of us could
get him through—"</p>
<p>"No," said Paula. "We couldn't.
As soon as they caught the
ship and found the flitter gone,
they'd be after him."</p>
<p>"Not to Sako," said Webber.
"They'd never figure that we'd
take him to Sako."</p>
<p>"Do I have a word in this?"
asked Kieran, between his teeth.</p>
<p>"What?" asked Vaillant.</p>
<p>"This. The hell with you all.
I'll go no place with you or for
you."</p>
<hr />
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">He</span> got a savage satisfaction
from saying it, he was tired
of sitting there like a booby
while they discussed him, but he
did not get the reaction from
them he had expected. The two
men merely continued to look
thoughtfully at him. The woman
sighed,</p>
<p>"You see? There wasn't time
enough to explain it to him. It's
natural for him to react with
hostility."</p>
<p>"Put him out, and take him
along," said Webber.</p>
<p>"No," said Paula sharply. "If
he goes out right now he's liable
to stay out. I won't answer for
it."</p>
<p>"Meanwhile," said Vaillant
with an edge to his voice, "the
pattern is forming up. Have you
any suggestions, Paula?"</p>
<p>She nodded. "This."</p>
<p>She suddenly squeezed something
under Kieran's nose, a
small thing that she had produced
from her pocket without
his noticing it, in his angry preoccupation
with the two men. He
smelled a sweet, refreshing odor
and he struck her arm away.</p>
<p>"Oh, no, you're not giving me
any more dopes—" Then he
stopped, for suddenly it all
seemed wryly humorous to him.
"A bunch of bloody incompetents,"
he said, and laughed.
"This is the one thing I would
never have dreamed—that a man
could sleep, and wake up in a
starship, and find the starship
manned by blunderers."</p>
<p>"Euphoric," said Paula, to the
two men.</p>
<p>"At that," said Webber sourly,
"there may be something in what
he says about us."</p>
<p>Vaillant turned on him and
said fiercely, "If that's what you
think—" Then he controlled himself
and said tightly, "Quarrelling's
no good. We're in a box
but we can maybe still put it over
if we get this man to Sako. Webber,
you and Paula take him in
the flitter."</p>
<p>Kieran rose to his feet. "Fine,"
he said gaily. "Let us go in the
flitter, whatever that is. I am already
bored with starships."</p>
<p>He felt good, very good. He
felt a little drunk, not enough to
impede his mental processes but
enough to give him a fine devil-may-care
indifference to what
happened next. So it was only the
spray Paula had given him—it
still made his body feel better
and removed his shock and worry
and made everything seem suddenly
rather amusing.</p>
<p>"Let us to Sako in the flitter,"
he said. "After all, I'm living on
velvet, I might as well see the
whole show. I'm sure that Sako,
wherever it is, will be just as full
of human folly as Earth was."</p>
<p>"He's euphoric," Paula said
again, but her face was stricken.</p>
<p>"Of all the people in that space-cemetery,
we had to pick one who
thinks like that," said Vaillant,
with a sort of restrained fury.</p>
<p>"You said yourself that the
oldest one would be the best,"
said Webber. "Sako will change
him."</p>
<p>Kieran walked down the corridor
with Webber and Paula and
he laughed as he walked. They
had brought him back from nothingness
without his consent, violating
the privacy of death or
near-death, and now something
that he had just said had bitterly
disappointed them.</p>
<p>"Come along," he said buoyantly
to the two. "Let us not lag.
Once aboard the flitter and the
girl is mine."</p>
<p>"Oh for God's sake shut up,"
said Webber.</p>
<h3>4.</h3>
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">It was</span> ridiculous to be flying
the stars with a bad hangover,
but Kieran had one. His head
ached dully, he had an unpleasant
metallic taste in his mouth,
and his former ebullience had
given way to a dull depression.
He looked sourly around.</p>
<p>He sat in a confined little metal
coop of a cabin, hardly
enough in which to stand erect.
Paula Ray, in a chair a few feet
away was sleeping, her head on
her breast. Webber sat forward,
in what appeared to be a pilot-chair
with a number of crowded
control banks in front of it. He
was not doing anything to the
controls. He looked as though he
might be sleeping, too.</p>
<p>That was all—a tiny metal
room, blank metal walls, silence.
They were, presumably, flying
between the stars at incredible
speeds but there was nothing to
show it. There were no screens
such as the one he had seen in
the ship, to show by artful scanning
devices what vista of suns
and darknesses lay outside.</p>
<p>"A flitter," Webber had informed
him, "just doesn't have
room for the complicated apparatus
that such scanners require.
Seeing is a luxury you dispense
with in a flitter. We'll see when
we get to Sako."</p>
<p>After a moment he had added,
"If we get to Sako."</p>
<p>Kieran had merely laughed
then, and had promptly gone to
sleep. When he had awakened, it
had been with the euphoria all
gone and with his present hangover.</p>
<p>"At least," he told himself, "I
can truthfully say that this one
wasn't my fault. That blasted
spray—"</p>
<p>He looked resentfully at the
sleeping woman in the chair.
Then he reached and roughly
shook her shoulder.</p>
<p>She opened her eyes and
looked at him, first sleepily and
then with resentment.</p>
<p>"You had no right to wake me
up," she said.</p>
<p>Then, before Kieran could retort,
she seemed to realize the
monumental irony of what she
had just said, and she burst into
laughter.</p>
<p>"I'm sorry," she said. "Go
ahead and say it. I had no right
to wake <i>you</i> up."</p>
<p>"Let's come back to that," said
Kieran after a moment. "Why
did you?"</p>
<p>Paula looked at him ruefully.
"What I need now is a ten-volume
history of the last century,
and time enough for you to read
it. But since we don't have either—"
She broke off, then after a
pause asked, "Your date was
1981, wasn't it? It and your
name were on the tag of your
pressure-suit."</p>
<p>"That's right."</p>
<p>"Well, then. Back in 1981, it
was expected that men would
spread out to the stars, wasn't
it?"</p>
<p>Kieran nodded. "As soon as
they had a workable high-speed
drive. Several drives were being
experimented with even then."</p>
<p>"One of them—the Flournoy
principle—was finally made
workable," she said. She
frowned. "I'm trying to give you
this briefly and I keep straying
into details."</p>
<p>"Just tell me why you woke
me up."</p>
<p>"I'm <i>trying</i> to tell you." She
asked candidly, "Were you always
so damned hateful or did
the revivification process do this
to you?"</p>
<p>Kieran grinned. "All right. Go
ahead."</p>
<hr />
<p><span class="cpq">"T</span><span class="dcap">hings</span> happened pretty
much as people foresaw back
in 1981," she said. "The drive
was perfected. The ships went
out to the nearer stars. They
found worlds. They established
colonies from the overflowing
population of Earth. They found
human indigenous races on a
few worlds, all of them at a rather
low technical level, and they
taught them.</p>
<p>"There was a determination
from the beginning to make it
one universe. No separate nationalistic
groups, no chance of
wars. The governing council was
set up at Altair Two. Every
world was represented. There
are twenty-nine of them, now.
It's expected to go on like that,
till there are twenty-nine hundred
starworlds represented
there, twenty-nine thousand—any
number. But—"</p>
<p>Kieran had been listening
closely. "But what? What upset
this particular utopia?"</p>
<p>"Sako."</p>
<p>"This world we're going to?"</p>
<p>"Yes," she said soberly. "Men
found something different about
this world when they reached it.
It had people—human people—on
it, very low in the scale of
civilization."</p>
<p>"Well, what was the problem?
Couldn't you start teaching them
as you had others?"</p>
<p>She shook her head. "It would
take a long while. But that wasn't
the real problem. It was— You
see, there's another race on
Sako beside the human ones, and
it's a fairly civilized race. The
Sakae. The trouble is—the Sakae
aren't human."</p>
<p>Kieran stared at her. "So
what? If they're intelligent—"</p>
<p>"You talk as though it was the
simplest thing in the world," she
flashed.</p>
<p>"Isn't it? If your Sakae are
intelligent and the humans of
Sako aren't, then the Sakae have
the rights on that world, don't
they?"</p>
<p>She looked at him, not saying
anything, and again she had
that stricken look of one who
has tried and failed. Then from
up forward, without turning,
Webber spoke.</p>
<p>"What do you think now of
Vaillant's fine idea, Paula?"</p>
<p>"It can still work," she said,
but there was no conviction in
her voice.</p>
<p>"If you don't mind," said
Kieran, with an edge to his voice,
"I'd still like to know what this
Sako business has to do with reviving
me."</p>
<hr />
<p><span class="cpq">"T</span><span class="dcap">he</span> Sakae rule the humans on
that world," Paula answered.
"There are some of us who don't
believe they should. In the Council,
we're known as the Humanity
Party, because we believe
that humans should not be ruled
by non-humans."</p>
<p>Again, Kieran was distracted
from his immediate question—this
time by the phrase "Non-human".</p>
<p>"These Sakae—what are they
like?"</p>
<p>"They're not monsters, if
that's what you're thinking of,"
Paula said. "They're bipeds—lizardoid
rather than humanoid—and
are a fairly intelligent and
law-abiding lot."</p>
<p>"If they're all that, and higher
in development than the humans,
why shouldn't they rule
their own world?" demanded
Kieran.</p>
<p>Webber uttered a sardonic
laugh. Without turning he
asked, "Shall I change course
and go to Altair?"</p>
<p>"No!" she said. Her eyes
flashed at Kieran and she spoke
almost breathlessly. "You're
very sure about things you just
heard about, aren't you? You
know what's right and you know
what's wrong, even though you've
only been in this time, this
universe, for a few hours!"</p>
<p>Kieran looked at her closely.
He thought he was beginning to
get a glimmer of the shape of
things now.</p>
<p>"You—all you who woke me
up illegally—you belong to this
Humanity Party, don't you?
You did it for some reason connected
with that?"</p>
<p>"Yes," she answered defiantly.
"We need a symbol in this political
struggle. We thought that
one of the oldtime space pioneers,
one of the humans who
began the conquest of the stars,
would be it. We—"</p>
<p>Kieran interrupted. "I think I
get it. It was really considerate
of you. You drag a man back
from what amounts to death, for
a party rally. 'Oldtime space hero
condemns non-humans'—it
would go something like that,
wouldn't it?"</p>
<p>"Listen—," she began.</p>
<p>"Listen, hell," he said. He was
hot with rage, shaking with it.
"I am glad to say that you could
not possibly have picked a worse
symbol than me. I have no more
use for the idea of the innate
sacred superiority of one species
over another than I had for that
of one kind of man over another."</p>
<p>Her face changed. From an
angry woman, she suddenly became
a professional psychologist,
coolly observing reactions.</p>
<p>"It's not the political question
you really resent," she said.
"You've wakened to a strange
world and you're afraid of it, in
spite of all the pre-awakening
preparation we gave your subconscious.
You're afraid, and so
you're angry."</p>
<p>Kieran got a grip on himself.
He shrugged. "What you say
may be true. But it doesn't
change the way I feel. I will not
help you one damned bit."</p>
<p>Webber got up from his seat
and came back toward them, his
tall form stooping. He looked at
Kieran and then at the woman.</p>
<p>"We have to settle this right
now," he said. "We're getting
near enough to Sako to go out of
drive. Are we going to land or
aren't we?"</p>
<p>"Yes," said Paula steadily.
"We're landing."</p>
<p>Webber glanced again at
Kieran's face. "But if that's the
way he feels—"</p>
<p>"Go ahead and land," she said.</p>
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