<h2>CHAPTER VI</h2>
<p>By the following morning the storm had blown itself quite out
and the <i>Ghost</i> was rolling slightly on a calm sea without a
breath of wind. Occasional light airs were felt, however,
and Wolf Larsen patrolled the poop constantly, his eyes ever
searching the sea to the north-eastward, from which direction the
great trade-wind must blow.</p>
<p>The men were all on deck and busy preparing their various
boats for the season’s hunting. There are seven boats
aboard, the captain’s dingey, and the six which the hunters
will use. Three, a hunter, a boat-puller, and a
boat-steerer, compose a boat’s crew. On board the
schooner the boat-pullers and steerers are the crew. The
hunters, too, are supposed to be in command of the watches,
subject, always, to the orders of Wolf Larsen.</p>
<p>All this, and more, I have learned. The <i>Ghost</i> is
considered the fastest schooner in both the San Francisco and
Victoria fleets. In fact, she was once a private yacht, and
was built for speed. Her lines and fittings—though I
know nothing about such things—speak for themselves.
Johnson was telling me about her in a short chat I had with him
during yesterday’s second dog-watch. He spoke
enthusiastically, with the love for a fine craft such as some men
feel for horses. He is greatly disgusted with the outlook,
and I am given to understand that Wolf Larsen bears a very
unsavoury reputation among the sealing captains. It was the
<i>Ghost</i> herself that lured Johnson into signing for the
voyage, but he is already beginning to repent.</p>
<p>As he told me, the <i>Ghost</i> is an eighty-ton schooner of a
remarkably fine model. Her beam, or width, is twenty-three
feet, and her length a little over ninety feet. A lead keel
of fabulous but unknown weight makes her very stable, while she
carries an immense spread of canvas. From the deck to the
truck of the maintopmast is something over a hundred feet, while
the foremast with its topmast is eight or ten feet shorter.
I am giving these details so that the size of this little
floating world which holds twenty-two men may be
appreciated. It is a very little world, a mote, a speck,
and I marvel that men should dare to venture the sea on a
contrivance so small and fragile.</p>
<p>Wolf Larsen has, also, a reputation for reckless carrying on
of sail. I overheard Henderson and another of the hunters,
Standish, a Californian, talking about it. Two years ago he
dismasted the <i>Ghost</i> in a gale on Bering Sea, whereupon the
present masts were put in, which are stronger and heavier in
every way. He is said to have remarked, when he put them
in, that he preferred turning her over to losing the sticks.</p>
<p>Every man aboard, with the exception of Johansen, who is
rather overcome by his promotion, seems to have an excuse for
having sailed on the <i>Ghost</i>. Half the men forward are
deep-water sailors, and their excuse is that they did not know
anything about her or her captain. And those who do know,
whisper that the hunters, while excellent shots, were so
notorious for their quarrelsome and rascally proclivities that
they could not sign on any decent schooner.</p>
<p>I have made the acquaintance of another one of the
crew,—Louis he is called, a rotund and jovial-faced Nova
Scotia Irishman, and a very sociable fellow, prone to talk as
long as he can find a listener. In the afternoon, while the
cook was below asleep and I was peeling the everlasting potatoes,
Louis dropped into the galley for a “yarn.” His
excuse for being aboard was that he was drunk when he
signed. He assured me again and again that it was the last
thing in the world he would dream of doing in a sober
moment. It seems that he has been seal-hunting regularly
each season for a dozen years, and is accounted one of the two or
three very best boat-steerers in both fleets.</p>
<p>“Ah, my boy,” he shook his head ominously at me,
“’tis the worst schooner ye could iv selected, nor
were ye drunk at the time as was I. ’Tis
sealin’ is the sailor’s paradise—on other ships
than this. The mate was the first, but mark me words,
there’ll be more dead men before the trip is done
with. Hist, now, between you an’ meself and the
stanchion there, this Wolf Larsen is a regular devil, an’
the <i>Ghost’ll</i> be a hell-ship like she’s always
ben since he had hold iv her. Don’t I know?
Don’t I know? Don’t I remember him in Hakodate
two years gone, when he had a row an’ shot four iv his
men? Wasn’t I a-layin’ on the <i>Emma L.</i>,
not three hundred yards away? An’ there was a man the
same year he killed with a blow iv his fist. Yes, sir,
killed ’im dead-oh. His head must iv smashed like an
eggshell. An’ wasn’t there the Governor of Kura
Island, an’ the Chief iv Police, Japanese gentlemen, sir,
an’ didn’t they come aboard the <i>Ghost</i> as his
guests, a-bringin’ their wives along—wee an’
pretty little bits of things like you see ’em painted on
fans. An’ as he was a-gettin’ under way,
didn’t the fond husbands get left astern-like in their
sampan, as it might be by accident? An’ wasn’t
it a week later that the poor little ladies was put ashore on the
other side of the island, with nothin’ before ’em but
to walk home acrost the mountains on their weeny-teeny little
straw sandals which wouldn’t hang together a mile?
Don’t I know? ’Tis the beast he is, this Wolf
Larsen—the great big beast mentioned iv in Revelation;
an’ no good end will he ever come to. But I’ve
said nothin’ to ye, mind ye. I’ve whispered
never a word; for old fat Louis’ll live the voyage out if
the last mother’s son of yez go to the fishes.”</p>
<p>“Wolf Larsen!” he snorted a moment later.
“Listen to the word, will ye! Wolf—’tis
what he is. He’s not black-hearted like some
men. ’Tis no heart he has at all. Wolf, just
wolf, ’tis what he is. D’ye wonder he’s
well named?”</p>
<p>“But if he is so well-known for what he is,” I
queried, “how is it that he can get men to ship with
him?”</p>
<p>“An’ how is it ye can get men to do anything on
God’s earth an’ sea?” Louis demanded with
Celtic fire. “How d’ye find me aboard if
’twasn’t that I was drunk as a pig when I put me name
down? There’s them that can’t sail with better
men, like the hunters, and them that don’t know, like the
poor devils of wind-jammers for’ard there. But
they’ll come to it, they’ll come to it, an’ be
sorry the day they was born. I could weep for the poor
creatures, did I but forget poor old fat Louis and the troubles
before him. But ’tis not a whisper I’ve
dropped, mind ye, not a whisper.”</p>
<p>“Them hunters is the wicked boys,” he broke forth
again, for he suffered from a constitutional plethora of
speech. “But wait till they get to cutting up iv
jinks and rowin’ ’round. He’s the
boy’ll fix ’em. ’Tis him that’ll
put the fear of God in their rotten black hearts. Look at
that hunter iv mine, Horner. ‘Jock’ Horner they
call him, so quiet-like an’ easy-goin’, soft-spoken
as a girl, till ye’d think butter wouldn’t melt in
the mouth iv him. Didn’t he kill his boat-steerer
last year? ’Twas called a sad accident, but I met the
boat-puller in Yokohama an’ the straight iv it was given
me. An’ there’s Smoke, the black little
devil—didn’t the Roosians have him for three years in
the salt mines of Siberia, for poachin’ on Copper Island,
which is a Roosian preserve? Shackled he was, hand
an’ foot, with his mate. An’ didn’t they
have words or a ruction of some kind?—for ’twas the
other fellow Smoke sent up in the buckets to the top of the mine;
an’ a piece at a time he went up, a leg to-day, an’
to-morrow an arm, the next day the head, an’ so
on.”</p>
<p>“But you can’t mean it!” I cried out,
overcome with the horror of it.</p>
<p>“Mean what!” he demanded, quick as a flash.
“’Tis nothin’ I’ve said. Deef I am,
and dumb, as ye should be for the sake iv your mother; an’
never once have I opened me lips but to say fine things iv them
an’ him, God curse his soul, an’ may he rot in
purgatory ten thousand years, and then go down to the last
an’ deepest hell iv all!”</p>
<p>Johnson, the man who had chafed me raw when I first came
aboard, seemed the least equivocal of the men forward or
aft. In fact, there was nothing equivocal about him.
One was struck at once by his straightforwardness and manliness,
which, in turn, were tempered by a modesty which might be
mistaken for timidity. But timid he was not. He
seemed, rather, to have the courage of his convictions, the
certainty of his manhood. It was this that made him
protest, at the commencement of our acquaintance, against being
called Yonson. And upon this, and him, Louis passed
judgment and prophecy.</p>
<p>“’Tis a fine chap, that squarehead Johnson
we’ve for’ard with us,” he said.
“The best sailorman in the fo’c’sle.
He’s my boat-puller. But it’s to trouble
he’ll come with Wolf Larsen, as the sparks fly
upward. It’s meself that knows. I can see it
brewin’ an’ comin’ up like a storm in the
sky. I’ve talked to him like a brother, but
it’s little he sees in takin’ in his lights or
flyin’ false signals. He grumbles out when things
don’t go to suit him, and there’ll be always some
tell-tale carryin’ word iv it aft to the Wolf. The
Wolf is strong, and it’s the way of a wolf to hate
strength, an’ strength it is he’ll see in
Johnson—no knucklin’ under, and a ‘Yes, sir,
thank ye kindly, sir,’ for a curse or a blow. Oh,
she’s a-comin’! She’s
a-comin’! An’ God knows where I’ll get
another boat-puller! What does the fool up an’ say,
when the old man calls him Yonson, but ‘Me name is Johnson,
sir,’ an’ then spells it out, letter for
letter. Ye should iv seen the old man’s face! I
thought he’d let drive at him on the spot. He
didn’t, but he will, an’ he’ll break that
squarehead’s heart, or it’s little I know iv the ways
iv men on the ships iv the sea.”</p>
<p>Thomas Mugridge is becoming unendurable. I am compelled
to Mister him and to Sir him with every speech. One reason
for this is that Wolf Larsen seems to have taken a fancy to
him. It is an unprecedented thing, I take it, for a captain
to be chummy with the cook; but this is certainly what Wolf
Larsen is doing. Two or three times he put his head into
the galley and chaffed Mugridge good-naturedly, and once, this
afternoon, he stood by the break of the poop and chatted with him
for fully fifteen minutes. When it was over, and Mugridge
was back in the galley, he became greasily radiant, and went
about his work, humming coster songs in a nerve-racking and
discordant falsetto.</p>
<p>“I always get along with the officers,” he
remarked to me in a confidential tone. “I know the
w’y, I do, to myke myself uppreci-yted. There was my
last skipper—w’y I thought nothin’ of
droppin’ down in the cabin for a little chat and a friendly
glass. ‘Mugridge,’ sez ’e to me,
‘Mugridge,’ sez ’e, ‘you’ve missed
yer vokytion.’ ‘An’ ’ow’s
that?’ sez I. ‘Yer should ’a been born a
gentleman, an’ never ’ad to work for yer
livin’.’ God strike me dead, ’Ump, if
that ayn’t wot ’e sez, an’ me a-sittin’
there in ’is own cabin, jolly-like an’ comfortable,
a-smokin’ ’is cigars an’ drinkin’
’is rum.”</p>
<p>This chitter-chatter drove me to distraction. I never
heard a voice I hated so. His oily, insinuating tones, his
greasy smile and his monstrous self-conceit grated on my nerves
till sometimes I was all in a tremble. Positively, he was
the most disgusting and loathsome person I have ever met.
The filth of his cooking was indescribable; and, as he cooked
everything that was eaten aboard, I was compelled to select what
I ate with great circumspection, choosing from the least dirty of
his concoctions.</p>
<p>My hands bothered me a great deal, unused as they were to
work. The nails were discoloured and black, while the skin
was already grained with dirt which even a scrubbing-brush could
not remove. Then blisters came, in a painful and
never-ending procession, and I had a great burn on my forearm,
acquired by losing my balance in a roll of the ship and pitching
against the galley stove. Nor was my knee any better.
The swelling had not gone down, and the cap was still up on
edge. Hobbling about on it from morning till night was not
helping it any. What I needed was rest, if it were ever to
get well.</p>
<p>Rest! I never before knew the meaning of the word.
I had been resting all my life and did not know it. But
now, could I sit still for one half-hour and do nothing, not even
think, it would be the most pleasurable thing in the world.
But it is a revelation, on the other hand. I shall be able
to appreciate the lives of the working people hereafter. I
did not dream that work was so terrible a thing. From
half-past five in the morning till ten o’clock at night I
am everybody’s slave, with not one moment to myself, except
such as I can steal near the end of the second dog-watch.
Let me pause for a minute to look out over the sea sparkling in
the sun, or to gaze at a sailor going aloft to the gaff-topsails,
or running out the bowsprit, and I am sure to hear the hateful
voice, “’Ere, you, ’Ump, no
sodgerin’. I’ve got my peepers on
yer.”</p>
<p>There are signs of rampant bad temper in the steerage, and the
gossip is going around that Smoke and Henderson have had a
fight. Henderson seems the best of the hunters, a
slow-going fellow, and hard to rouse; but roused he must have
been, for Smoke had a bruised and discoloured eye, and looked
particularly vicious when he came into the cabin for supper.</p>
<p>A cruel thing happened just before supper, indicative of the
callousness and brutishness of these men. There is one
green hand in the crew, Harrison by name, a clumsy-looking
country boy, mastered, I imagine, by the spirit of adventure, and
making his first voyage. In the light baffling airs the
schooner had been tacking about a great deal, at which times the
sails pass from one side to the other and a man is sent aloft to
shift over the fore-gaff-topsail. In some way, when
Harrison was aloft, the sheet jammed in the block through which
it runs at the end of the gaff. As I understood it, there
were two ways of getting it cleared,—first, by lowering the
foresail, which was comparatively easy and without danger; and
second, by climbing out the peak-halyards to the end of the gaff
itself, an exceedingly hazardous performance.</p>
<p>Johansen called out to Harrison to go out the halyards.
It was patent to everybody that the boy was afraid. And
well he might be, eighty feet above the deck, to trust himself on
those thin and jerking ropes. Had there been a steady
breeze it would not have been so bad, but the <i>Ghost</i> was
rolling emptily in a long sea, and with each roll the canvas
flapped and boomed and the halyards slacked and jerked
taut. They were capable of snapping a man off like a fly
from a whip-lash.</p>
<p>Harrison heard the order and understood what was demanded of
him, but hesitated. It was probably the first time he had
been aloft in his life. Johansen, who had caught the
contagion of Wolf Larsen’s masterfulness, burst out with a
volley of abuse and curses.</p>
<p>“That’ll do, Johansen,” Wolf Larsen said
brusquely. “I’ll have you know that I do the
swearing on this ship. If I need your assistance,
I’ll call you in.”</p>
<p>“Yes, sir,” the mate acknowledged
submissively.</p>
<p>In the meantime Harrison had started out on the
halyards. I was looking up from the galley door, and I
could see him trembling, as if with ague, in every limb. He
proceeded very slowly and cautiously, an inch at a time.
Outlined against the clear blue of the sky, he had the appearance
of an enormous spider crawling along the tracery of its web.</p>
<p>It was a slight uphill climb, for the foresail peaked high;
and the halyards, running through various blocks on the gaff and
mast, gave him separate holds for hands and feet. But the
trouble lay in that the wind was not strong enough nor steady
enough to keep the sail full. When he was half-way out, the
<i>Ghost</i> took a long roll to windward and back again into the
hollow between two seas. Harrison ceased his progress and
held on tightly. Eighty feet beneath, I could see the
agonized strain of his muscles as he gripped for very life.
The sail emptied and the gaff swung amid-ships. The
halyards slackened, and, though it all happened very quickly, I
could see them sag beneath the weight of his body. Then the
gag swung to the side with an abrupt swiftness, the great sail
boomed like a cannon, and the three rows of reef-points slatted
against the canvas like a volley of rifles. Harrison,
clinging on, made the giddy rush through the air. This rush
ceased abruptly. The halyards became instantly taut.
It was the snap of the whip. His clutch was broken.
One hand was torn loose from its hold. The other lingered
desperately for a moment, and followed. His body pitched
out and down, but in some way he managed to save himself with his
legs. He was hanging by them, head downward. A quick
effort brought his hands up to the halyards again; but he was a
long time regaining his former position, where he hung, a
pitiable object.</p>
<p>“I’ll bet he has no appetite for supper,” I
heard Wolf Larsen’s voice, which came to me from around the
corner of the galley. “Stand from under, you,
Johansen! Watch out! Here she comes!”</p>
<p>In truth, Harrison was very sick, as a person is sea-sick; and
for a long time he clung to his precarious perch without
attempting to move. Johansen, however, continued violently
to urge him on to the completion of his task.</p>
<p>“It is a shame,” I heard Johnson growling in
painfully slow and correct English. He was standing by the
main rigging, a few feet away from me. “The boy is
willing enough. He will learn if he has a chance. But
this is—” He paused awhile, for the word
“murder” was his final judgment.</p>
<p>“Hist, will ye!” Louis whispered to him,
“For the love iv your mother hold your mouth!”</p>
<p>But Johnson, looking on, still continued his grumbling.</p>
<p>“Look here,” the hunter Standish spoke to Wolf
Larsen, “that’s my boat-puller, and I don’t
want to lose him.”</p>
<p>“That’s all right, Standish,” was the
reply. “He’s your boat-puller when you’ve
got him in the boat; but he’s my sailor when I have him
aboard, and I’ll do what I damn well please with
him.”</p>
<p>“But that’s no reason—” Standish began
in a torrent of speech.</p>
<p>“That’ll do, easy as she goes,” Wolf Larsen
counselled back. “I’ve told you what’s
what, and let it stop at that. The man’s mine, and
I’ll make soup of him and eat it if I want to.”</p>
<p>There was an angry gleam in the hunter’s eye, but he
turned on his heel and entered the steerage companion-way, where
he remained, looking upward. All hands were on deck now,
and all eyes were aloft, where a human life was at grapples with
death. The callousness of these men, to whom industrial
organization gave control of the lives of other men, was
appalling. I, who had lived out of the whirl of the world,
had never dreamed that its work was carried on in such
fashion. Life had always seemed a peculiarly sacred thing,
but here it counted for nothing, was a cipher in the arithmetic
of commerce. I must say, however, that the sailors
themselves were sympathetic, as instance the case of Johnson; but
the masters (the hunters and the captain) were heartlessly
indifferent. Even the protest of Standish arose out of the
fact that he did not wish to lose his boat-puller. Had it
been some other hunter’s boat-puller, he, like them, would
have been no more than amused.</p>
<p>But to return to Harrison. It took Johansen, insulting
and reviling the poor wretch, fully ten minutes to get him
started again. A little later he made the end of the gaff,
where, astride the spar itself, he had a better chance for
holding on. He cleared the sheet, and was free to return,
slightly downhill now, along the halyards to the mast. But
he had lost his nerve. Unsafe as was his present position,
he was loath to forsake it for the more unsafe position on the
halyards.</p>
<p>He looked along the airy path he must traverse, and then down
to the deck. His eyes were wide and staring, and he was
trembling violently. I had never seen fear so strongly
stamped upon a human face. Johansen called vainly for him
to come down. At any moment he was liable to be snapped off
the gaff, but he was helpless with fright. Wolf Larsen,
walking up and down with Smoke and in conversation, took no more
notice of him, though he cried sharply, once, to the man at the
wheel:</p>
<p>“You’re off your course, my man! Be careful,
unless you’re looking for trouble!”</p>
<p>“Ay, ay, sir,” the helmsman responded, putting a
couple of spokes down.</p>
<p>He had been guilty of running the <i>Ghost</i> several points
off her course in order that what little wind there was should
fill the foresail and hold it steady. He had striven to
help the unfortunate Harrison at the risk of incurring Wolf
Larsen’s anger.</p>
<p>The time went by, and the suspense, to me, was terrible.
Thomas Mugridge, on the other hand, considered it a laughable
affair, and was continually bobbing his head out the galley door
to make jocose remarks. How I hated him! And how my
hatred for him grew and grew, during that fearful time, to
cyclopean dimensions. For the first time in my life I
experienced the desire to murder—“saw red,” as
some of our picturesque writers phrase it. Life in general
might still be sacred, but life in the particular case of Thomas
Mugridge had become very profane indeed. I was frightened
when I became conscious that I was seeing red, and the thought
flashed through my mind: was I, too, becoming tainted by the
brutality of my environment?—I, who even in the most
flagrant crimes had denied the justice and righteousness of
capital punishment?</p>
<p>Fully half-an-hour went by, and then I saw Johnson and Louis
in some sort of altercation. It ended with Johnson flinging
off Louis’s detaining arm and starting forward. He
crossed the deck, sprang into the fore rigging, and began to
climb. But the quick eye of Wolf Larsen caught him.</p>
<p>“Here, you, what are you up to?” he cried.</p>
<p>Johnson’s ascent was arrested. He looked his
captain in the eyes and replied slowly:</p>
<p>“I am going to get that boy down.”</p>
<p>“You’ll get down out of that rigging, and damn
lively about it! D’ye hear? Get
down!”</p>
<p>Johnson hesitated, but the long years of obedience to the
masters of ships overpowered him, and he dropped sullenly to the
deck and went on forward.</p>
<p>At half after five I went below to set the cabin table, but I
hardly knew what I did, for my eyes and my brain were filled with
the vision of a man, white-faced and trembling, comically like a
bug, clinging to the thrashing gaff. At six o’clock,
when I served supper, going on deck to get the food from the
galley, I saw Harrison, still in the same position. The
conversation at the table was of other things. Nobody
seemed interested in the wantonly imperilled life. But
making an extra trip to the galley a little later, I was
gladdened by the sight of Harrison staggering weakly from the
rigging to the forecastle scuttle. He had finally summoned
the courage to descend.</p>
<p>Before closing this incident, I must give a scrap of
conversation I had with Wolf Larsen in the cabin, while I was
washing the dishes.</p>
<p>“You were looking squeamish this afternoon,” he
began. “What was the matter?”</p>
<p>I could see that he knew what had made me possibly as sick as
Harrison, that he was trying to draw me, and I answered,
“It was because of the brutal treatment of that
boy.”</p>
<p>He gave a short laugh. “Like sea-sickness, I
suppose. Some men are subject to it, and others are
not.”</p>
<p>“Not so,” I objected.</p>
<p>“Just so,” he went on. “The earth is
as full of brutality as the sea is full of motion. And some
men are made sick by the one, and some by the other.
That’s the only reason.”</p>
<p>“But you, who make a mock of human life, don’t you
place any value upon it whatever?” I demanded.</p>
<p>“Value? What value?” He looked at me,
and though his eyes were steady and motionless, there seemed a
cynical smile in them. “What kind of value? How
do you measure it? Who values it?”</p>
<p>“I do,” I made answer.</p>
<p>“Then what is it worth to you? Another man’s
life, I mean. Come now, what is it worth?”</p>
<p>The value of life? How could I put a tangible value upon
it? Somehow, I, who have always had expression, lacked
expression when with Wolf Larsen. I have since determined
that a part of it was due to the man’s personality, but
that the greater part was due to his totally different
outlook. Unlike other materialists I had met and with whom
I had something in common to start on, I had nothing in common
with him. Perhaps, also, it was the elemental simplicity of
his mind that baffled me. He drove so directly to the core
of the matter, divesting a question always of all superfluous
details, and with such an air of finality, that I seemed to find
myself struggling in deep water, with no footing under me.
Value of life? How could I answer the question on the spur
of the moment? The sacredness of life I had accepted as
axiomatic. That it was intrinsically valuable was a truism
I had never questioned. But when he challenged the truism I
was speechless.</p>
<p>“We were talking about this yesterday,” he
said. “I held that life was a ferment, a yeasty
something which devoured life that it might live, and that living
was merely successful piggishness. Why, if there is
anything in supply and demand, life is the cheapest thing in the
world. There is only so much water, so much earth, so much
air; but the life that is demanding to be born is
limitless. Nature is a spendthrift. Look at the fish
and their millions of eggs. For that matter, look at you
and me. In our loins are the possibilities of millions of
lives. Could we but find time and opportunity and utilize
the last bit and every bit of the unborn life that is in us, we
could become the fathers of nations and populate
continents. Life? Bah! It has no value.
Of cheap things it is the cheapest. Everywhere it goes
begging. Nature spills it out with a lavish hand.
Where there is room for one life, she sows a thousand lives, and
it’s life eats life till the strongest and most piggish
life is left.”</p>
<p>“You have read Darwin,” I said. “But
you read him misunderstandingly when you conclude that the
struggle for existence sanctions your wanton destruction of
life.”</p>
<p>He shrugged his shoulders. “You know you only mean
that in relation to human life, for of the flesh and the fowl and
the fish you destroy as much as I or any other man. And
human life is in no wise different, though you feel it is and
think that you reason why it is. Why should I be
parsimonious with this life which is cheap and without
value? There are more sailors than there are ships on the
sea for them, more workers than there are factories or machines
for them. Why, you who live on the land know that you house
your poor people in the slums of cities and loose famine and
pestilence upon them, and that there still remain more poor
people, dying for want of a crust of bread and a bit of meat
(which is life destroyed), than you know what to do with.
Have you ever seen the London dockers fighting like wild beasts
for a chance to work?”</p>
<p>He started for the companion stairs, but turned his head for a
final word. “Do you know the only value life has is
what life puts upon itself? And it is of course
over-estimated since it is of necessity prejudiced in its own
favour. Take that man I had aloft. He held on as if
he were a precious thing, a treasure beyond diamonds or
rubies. To you? No. To me? Not at
all. To himself? Yes. But I do not accept his
estimate. He sadly overrates himself. There is plenty
more life demanding to be born. Had he fallen and dripped
his brains upon the deck like honey from the comb, there would
have been no loss to the world. He was worth nothing to the
world. The supply is too large. To himself only was
he of value, and to show how fictitious even this value was,
being dead he is unconscious that he has lost himself. He
alone rated himself beyond diamonds and rubies. Diamonds
and rubies are gone, spread out on the deck to be washed away by
a bucket of sea-water, and he does not even know that the
diamonds and rubies are gone. He does not lose anything,
for with the loss of himself he loses the knowledge of
loss. Don’t you see? And what have you to
say?”</p>
<p>“That you are at least consistent,” was all I
could say, and I went on washing the dishes.</p>
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