<h3>CLARICE OF THE AUTUMN CONCERTS</h3>
<h4>I</h4>
<p>'What did you say your name was?' asked Otto, the famous concert
manager.</p>
<p>'Clara Toft.'</p>
<p>'That won't do,' he said roughly.</p>
<p>'My real proper name is Clarice,' she added, blushing.
'But——'</p>
<p>'That's better, that's better.' His large, dark face smiled
carelessly. 'Clarice—and stick an "e" on to
Toft—Clarice Tofte. Looks like either French or German then.
I'll send you the date. It'll be the second week in September. And
you can come round to the theatre and try the
piano—Bechstein.'</p>
<p>'And what do you think I had better play, Mr. Otto?'</p>
<p>'You must play what you have just played, <SPAN name='Page296' id="Page296"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">296</span> of course.
Tschaikowsky's all the rage just now. Your left hand's very weak,
especially in the last movement. You've got to make more
noise—at my concerts. And see here, Miss Toft, don't you go
and make a fool of me. I believe you have a great future, and I'm
backing my opinion. Don't you go and make a fool of me.'</p>
<p>'I shall play my very best,' she smiled nervously. 'I'm awfully
obliged to you, Mr. Otto.'</p>
<p>'Well,' he said, 'you ought to be.'</p>
<p>At the age of fifteen her father, an earthenware manufacturer,
and the flamboyant Alderman of Turnhill, in the Five Towns, had let
her depart to London to the Royal College of Music. Thence, at
nineteen, she had proceeded to the Conservatoire of Liége.
At twenty-two she could play the great concert pieces—Liszt's
'Rhapsodies Hongroises,' Chopin's Ballade, Op. 47, Beethoven's Op.
111, etc.—in concert style, and she was the wonder of the
Five Towns when she visited Turnhill. But in London she had
obtained neither engagements nor pupils: she had never believed in
herself. She knew of dozens of <SPAN name='Page297' id="Page297"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">297</span> pianists whom she
deemed more brilliant than little, pretty, modest Clara Toft; and
after her father's death and the not surprising revelation of his
true financial condition, she settled with her faded, captious
mother in Turnhill as a teacher of the pianoforte, and did
nicely.</p>
<p>Then, when she was twenty-six, and content in provincialism, she
had met during an August holiday at Llandudno her old fellow pupil,
Albert Barbellion, who was conducting the Pier concerts. Barbellion
had asked her to play at a 'soirée musicale' which he gave
one night in the ball-room of his hotel, and she had performed
Tschaikowsky's immense and lurid Slavonic Sonata; and the
unparalleled Otto, renowned throughout the British Empire for
Otto's Bohemian Autumn Nightly Concerts at Covent Garden Theatre,
had happened to hear her and that seldom played sonata for the
first time. It was a wondrous chance. Otto's large, picturesque,
extempore way of inviting her to appear at his promenade concerts
reminded her of her father.</p>
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<h4>II</h4>
<p>In the bleak three-cornered artists'-room she could faintly hear
the descending impetuous velocities of the Ride of the Walkyries.
She was waiting in her new yellow dress, waiting painfully. Otto
rushed in, a glass in his hand.</p>
<p>'You all right?' he questioned sharply.</p>
<p>'Oh, yes,' she said, getting up from the cane-chair.</p>
<p>'Let me see you stand on one leg,' he said; and then, because
she hesitated: 'Go on, quick! Stand on one leg. It's a good test.'
So she stood on one leg, foolishly smiling. 'Here, drink this,' he
ordered, and she had to drink brandy-and-soda out of the glass.
'You're better now,' he remarked; and decidedly, though her throat
tingled and she coughed, she felt equal to anything at that
moment.</p>
<p>A stout, middle-aged woman, in a rather shabby opera cloak,
entered the room.</p>
<p>'Ah, Cornelia!' exclaimed Otto grandly.</p>
<p>'My dear Otto!' the woman responded, wrinkling her wonderfully
enamelled cheeks.</p>
<p>'Miss Toft, let me introduce you to <SPAN name='Page299' id="Page299"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">299</span> Madame Lopez.' He
turned to the newcomer. 'Keep her calm for me, bright star, will
you?'</p>
<p>Then Otto went, and Clarice was left alone with the world-famous
operatic soprano, who was advertised to sing that night the Shadow
Song from 'Dinorah.'</p>
<p>'Where did he pick you up, my dear?' the decayed diva inquired
maternally.</p>
<p>Clarice briefly explained.</p>
<p>'You aren't paying him anything, are you?'</p>
<p>'Oh, no!' said Clarice, shocked. 'But I get no fee this
time——'</p>
<p>'Of course not, my dear,' the Lopez cut her short. 'It's all
right so long as you aren't paying him anything to let you go on.
Now run along.'</p>
<p>Clarice's heart stopped. The call-boy, with his cockney twang,
had pronounced her name.</p>
<p>She moved forward, and, by dint of following the call-boy, at
length reached the stage. Applause—good-natured
applause—seemed to roll towards her from the uttermost parts
of the vast auditorium. She realized with a start that this
applause was exclusively for her. She sat down to the piano, and
there ensued a <SPAN name='Page300' id="Page300"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">300</span> death-like silence—a silence broken only
by the striking of matches and the tinkle of the embowered fountain
in front of the stage. She had a consciousness, rather than a
vision, of a floor of thousands of upturned faces below her, and
tier upon tier of faces rising above her and receding to the
illimitable dark distances of the gallery. She heard a door bang,
and perceived that some members of the orchestra were creeping
quietly out at the back. Then she plunged, dizzy, into the sonata,
as into a heaving and profound sea. The huge concert piano
resounded under the onslaught of her broad hands. When she had
played ten bars she knew with an absolute conviction that she would
do justice to her talent. She could see, as it were, the entire
sonata stretched out in detail before her like a road over which
she had to travel....</p>
<p>At the end of the first movement the clapping enheartened her;
she smiled confidently at the conductor, who, unemployed during her
number, sat on a chair under his desk. Before recommencing she
gazed boldly at the house, and certain placards—'Smoking
permitted,' 'Emergency exit,' 'Ices,' and 'Fancy Dress <SPAN name=
'Page301' id="Page301"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">301</span>
Balls'—were fixed for ever on the retina of her eye. At the
end of the second movement there was more applause, and the
conductor tapped appreciation with his stick against the pillar of
his desk; the leader of the listless orchestra also tapped with his
fiddle-bow and nodded. It seemed to her now that she more and more
dominated the piano, and that she rendered the great finale with
masterful and fierce assurance....</p>
<p>She was pleased with herself as she banged the last massive
chord. And the applause, the clapping, the hammering of sticks,
astounded her, staggered her. She might have died of happiness
while she bowed and bowed again. She ran off the stage triumphant,
and the applause seemed to assail her little figure from all
quarters and overwhelm it. As she stood waiting, concealed behind a
group of palms, it suddenly occurred to her that, after all, she
had underestimated herself. She saw her rosy future as the spoiled
darling of continental capitals. The hail of clapping persisted,
and the apparition of Otto violently waved her to return to the
stage. She returned, bowed her passionate exultation with burning
face and <SPAN name='Page302' id="Page302"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">302</span> trembling knees, and retired. The clapping
continued. Yes, she would be compelled to grant an encore—to
<i>grant</i> one. She would grant it like a honeyed but imperious
queen.</p>
<p>Suddenly she heard the warning tap of the conductor's baton; the
applause was hushed as though by a charm, and the orchestra broke
into the overture to 'Zampa.' She could not understand, she could
not think. As she tripped tragically to the artists'-room in her
new yellow dress she said to herself that the conductor must have
made some mistake, and that——</p>
<p>'Very nice, my dear,' said the Lopez kindly to her. 'You got
quite a call—quite a call.'</p>
<p>She waited for Otto to come and talk to her.</p>
<p>At length the Lopez was summoned, and Clarice followed to listen
to her. And when the Lopez had soared with strong practised flight
through the brilliant intricacy of the Shadow Song, Clarice became
aware what real applause sounded like from the stage. It shook the
stage as the old favourite of two generations, wearing her set
smile, waddled back to the debutante. Scores of voices <SPAN name=
'Page303' id="Page303"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">303</span>
hoarsely shouted 'Encore!' and 'Last Rose of Summer,' and with a
proud sigh the Lopez went on again, bowing.</p>
<p>Clarice saw nothing more of Otto, who doubtless had other birds
to snare. The next day only three daily papers mentioned the
concert at all. In fact, Otto expected press notices but once a
week. All three papers praised the matchless Lopez in her Shadow
Song. One referred to Clarice as talented; another called her
well-intentioned; the third merely said that she had played. The
short dream of artistic ascendancy lay in fragments around her. She
was a sensible girl, and stamped those iridescent fragments into
dust.</p>
<h4>III</h4>
<p>The <i>Staffordshire Signal</i> contained the following
advertisement: 'Miss Clara Toft, solo pianist, of the Otto Autumn
Concerts, London, will resume lessons on the 1st proximo at Liszt
House, Turnhill. Terms on application.' At thirty Clarice married
James Sillitoe, the pianoforte dealer in Market Square, Turnhill,
and captious old Mrs. Toft formed part of the new <SPAN name='Page304' id="Page304"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">304</span> household. At
thirty-four Clarice possessed a little girl and two little boys,
twins. Sillitoe was a money-maker, and she no longer gave
lessons.</p>
<p>Happy? Perhaps not unhappy.</p>
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