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<h2> CHAPTER VIII </h2>
<h3> A DOUBTFUL LOSS </h3>
<p>When I tried to look out of my window in the morning, I was quite
astonished at the state of things. To look out fairly was impossible; for
not only was all the lower part of the frame hillocked up like a
sandglass, and the sides filled in with dusky plaits, but even in the
middle, where some outlook was, it led to very little. All the air seemed
choked with snow, and the ground coming up in piles to meet it; all sounds
were deadened in the thick gray hush, and nothing had its own proportion.
Never having seen such a thing before, I was frightened, and longed to
know more of it.</p>
<p>Mr. Gundry had a good laugh at me, in which even Suan Isco joined, when I
proposed to sweep a path to the mill, and keep it open through the winter.</p>
<p>"It can be done—I am sure it can," I exclaimed, with vigorous
ignorance. "May I do it if I can? It only requires perseverance. If you
keep on sweeping as fast as it falls, you must overcome it. Don't you see,
Uncle Sam?"</p>
<p>"To be sure I do, Miss Rema, as plain as any pikestaff. Suan, fetch a
double bundle of new brooms from top loft, and don't forget while you be
up there to give special orders—no snow is to fall at night or when
missy is at dinner."</p>
<p>"You may laugh as much as you please, Uncle Sam, but I intend to try it. I
must try to keep my path to—somewhere."</p>
<p>"What a fool I am, to be sure!" said Mr. Gundry, softly. "There, now, I
beg your pardon, my dear, for never giving a thought to it. Firm and I
will do it for you, as long as the Lord allows of it. Why, the snow is two
foot deep a'ready, and twenty foot in places. I wonder whether that rogue
of a Goad got home to Sylvester's ranch last night? No fault of mine if he
never did, for go he would in spite of me."</p>
<p>I had not been thinking of Mr. Goad, and indeed I did not know his name
until it was told in this way. My mind was dwelling on my father's grave,
where I used to love to sit and think; and I could not bear the idea of
the cold snow lying over it, with nobody coming to care for him. Kind
hands had borne him down the mountains (while I lay between life and
death) and buried him in the soft peach orchard, in the soothing sound of
the mill-wheel. Here had been planted above his head a cross of white
un-painted wood, bearing only his initials, and a small "Amen" below them.</p>
<p>With this I was quite content, believing that he would have wished no
better, being a very independent man, and desirous of no kind of pomp.
There was no "consecrated ground" within miles and miles of traveling; but
I hoped that he might rest as well with simple tears to hallow it. For
often and often, even now, I could not help giving way and sobbing, when I
thought how sad it was that a strong, commanding, mighty man, of great
will and large experience, should drop in a corner of the world and die,
and finally be thought lucky—when he could think for himself no
longer—to obtain a tranquil, unknown grave, and end with his
initials, and have a water-wheel to sing to him. Many a time it set me
crying, and made me long to lie down with him, until I thought of
earth-worms.</p>
<p>All that could be done was done by Sampson and Firm Gundry, to let me have
my clear path, and a clear bourne at the end of it. But even with a steam
snow-shovel they could not have kept the way unstopped, such solid masses
of the mountain clouds now descended over us. And never had I been so
humored in my foolish wishes: I was quite ashamed to see the trouble great
men took to please me.</p>
<p>"Well, I am sorry to hear it, Firm," said the Sawyer, coming in one day,
with clouts of snow in his snowy curls. "Not that I care a cent for the
fellow—and an impudenter fellow never sucked a pipe. Still, he might
have had time to mend, if his time had been as good as the room for it.
However, no blame rests on us. I told him to bed down to saw-mill. They
Englishmen never know when they are well off. But the horse got home, they
tell me?"</p>
<p>"The horse got home all right, grandfather, and so did the other horse and
man. But Sylvester thinks that a pile of dollars must have died out in the
snow-drift. It is a queer story. We shall never know the rights."</p>
<p>"How many times did I tell him," the Sawyer replied, without much
discontent, "that it were a risky thing to try the gulches, such a night
as that? His own way he would have, however; and finer liars than he could
ever stick up to be for a score of years have gone, time upon time, to the
land of truth by means of that same view of things. They take every body
else for a liar."</p>
<p>"Oh, Uncle Sam, who is it?" I cried. "Is it that dreadful—that poor
man who wanted to carry me away from you?"</p>
<p>"Now you go in, missy; you go to the fire-hearth," Mr. Gundry answered,
more roughly than usual. "Leave you all such points to the Lord. They are
not for young ladies to talk about."</p>
<p>"Grandfather, don't you be too hard," said Firm, as he saw me hurrying
away. "Miss Rema has asked nothing unbecoming, but only concerning her own
affairs. If we refuse to tell her, others will."</p>
<p>"Very well, then, so be it," the Sawyer replied; for he yielded more to
his grandson than to the rest of the world put together. "Turn the log up,
Firm, and put the pan on. You boys can go on without victuals all day, but
an old man must feed regular. And, bad as he was, I thank God for sending
him on his way home with his belly full. If ever he turneth up in the
snow, that much can be proved to my account."</p>
<p>Young as I was, and little practiced in the ways of settlers, I could not
help perceiving that Uncle Sam was very much put out—not at the
death of the man so sadly, as at the worry of his dying so in going from a
hospitable house. Mr. Gundry cared little what any body said concerning
his honor, or courage, or such like; but the thought of a whisper against
his hospitality would rouse him.</p>
<p>"Find him, Firm, find him," he said, in his deep sad voice, as he sat down
on the antlered stump and gazed at the fire gloomily. "And when he is
found, call a public postmortem, and prove that we gave him his bellyful."</p>
<p>Ephraim, knowing the old man's ways, and the manners, perhaps, of the
neighborhood, beckoned to Suan to be quick with something hot, that he
might hurry out again. Then he took his dinner standing, and without a
word went forth to seek.</p>
<p>"Take the snow-harrow, and take Jowler," the old man shouted after him,
and the youth turned round at the gate and waved his cap to show that he
heard him. The snow was again falling heavily, and the afternoon was
waning; and the last thing we saw was the brush of the mighty tail of the
great dog Jowler.</p>
<p>"Oh, uncle, Firm will be lost himself!" I cried, in dismay at the great
white waste. "And the poor man, whoever he is, must be dead. Do call him
back, or let me run."</p>
<p>Mr. Gundry's only answer was to lead me back to the fireside, where he
made me sit down, and examined me, while Suan was frying the butter-beans.</p>
<p>"Who was it spied you on the mountains, missy, the whole of the way from
the redwood-tree, although you lay senseless on the ground, and he was
hard at work with the loppings?"</p>
<p>"Why, Ephraim, of course, Uncle Sam; every body says that nobody else
could have noticed such a thing at such a distance."</p>
<p>"Very well, my dear; and who was it carried you all the way to this house,
without stopping, or even letting your head droop down, although it was a
burning hot May morn?"</p>
<p>"Mr. Gundry, as if you did not know a great deal better than I do! It was
weeks before I could thank him, even. But you must have seen him do it
all."</p>
<p>The Sawyer rubbed his chin, which was large enough for a great deal of
rubbing; and when he did that, I was always sure that an argument went to
his liking. He said nothing more for the present, but had his dinner, and
enjoyed it.</p>
<p>"Supposing now that he did all that," he resumed, about an hour afterward,
"is Firm the sort of boy you would look to to lose his own self in a
snow-drift? He has three men with him, and he is worth all three, let
alone the big dog Jowler, who has dug out forty feet of snow ere now. If
that rogue of an Englishman, Goad, has had the luck to cheat the hangman,
and the honor to die in a Californy snow-drift, you may take my experience
for it, missy, Firm and Jowler will find him, and clear Uncle Sam's
reputation."</p>
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