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<h2> Chapter XXIX </h2>
<p>'Care, thou canker.'<br/></p>
<p>It is an evening at the beginning of October, and the mellowest of autumn
sunsets irradiates London, even to its uttermost eastern end. Between the
eye and the flaming West, columns of smoke stand up in the still air like
tall trees. Everything in the shade is rich and misty blue.</p>
<p>Mr. and Mrs. Swancourt and Elfride are looking at these lustrous and lurid
contrasts from the window of a large hotel near London Bridge. The visit
to their friends at St. Leonards is over, and they are staying a day or
two in the metropolis on their way home.</p>
<p>Knight spent the same interval of time in crossing over to Brittany by way
of Jersey and St. Malo. He then passed through Normandy, and returned to
London also, his arrival there having been two days later than that of
Elfride and her parents.</p>
<p>So the evening of this October day saw them all meeting at the
above-mentioned hotel, where they had previously engaged apartments.
During the afternoon Knight had been to his lodgings at Richmond to make a
little change in the nature of his baggage; and on coming up again there
was never ushered by a bland waiter into a comfortable room a happier man
than Knight when shown to where Elfride and her step-mother were sitting
after a fatiguing day of shopping.</p>
<p>Elfride looked none the better for her change: Knight was as brown as a
nut. They were soon engaged by themselves in a corner of the room. Now
that the precious words of promise had been spoken, the young girl had no
idea of keeping up her price by the system of reserve which other more
accomplished maidens use. Her lover was with her again, and it was enough:
she made her heart over to him entirely.</p>
<p>Dinner was soon despatched. And when a preliminary round of conversation
concerning their doings since the last parting had been concluded, they
reverted to the subject of to-morrow's journey home.</p>
<p>'That enervating ride through the myrtle climate of South Devon—how
I dread it to-morrow!' Mrs. Swancourt was saying. 'I had hoped the weather
would have been cooler by this time.'</p>
<p>'Did you ever go by water?' said Knight.</p>
<p>'Never—by never, I mean not since the time of railways.'</p>
<p>'Then if you can afford an additional day, I propose that we do it,' said
Knight. 'The Channel is like a lake just now. We should reach Plymouth in
about forty hours, I think, and the boats start from just below the bridge
here' (pointing over his shoulder eastward).</p>
<p>'Hear, hear!' said the vicar.</p>
<p>'It's an idea, certainly,' said his wife.</p>
<p>'Of course these coasters are rather tubby,' said Knight. 'But you
wouldn't mind that?'</p>
<p>'No: we wouldn't mind.'</p>
<p>'And the saloon is a place like the fishmarket of a ninth-rate country
town, but that wouldn't matter?'</p>
<p>'Oh dear, no. If we had only thought of it soon enough, we might have had
the use of Lord Luxellian's yacht. But never mind, we'll go. We shall
escape the worrying rattle through the whole length of London to-morrow
morning—not to mention the risk of being killed by excursion trains,
which is not a little one at this time of the year, if the papers are
true.'</p>
<p>Elfride, too, thought the arrangement delightful; and accordingly, ten
o'clock the following morning saw two cabs crawling round by the Mint, and
between the preternaturally high walls of Nightingale Lane towards the
river side.</p>
<p>The first vehicle was occupied by the travellers in person, and the second
brought up the luggage, under the supervision of Mrs. Snewson, Mrs.
Swancourt's maid—and for the last fortnight Elfride's also; for
although the younger lady had never been accustomed to any such attendant
at robing times, her stepmother forced her into a semblance of familiarity
with one when they were away from home.</p>
<p>Presently waggons, bales, and smells of all descriptions increased to such
an extent that the advance of the cabs was at the slowest possible rate.
At intervals it was necessary to halt entirely, that the heavy vehicles
unloading in front might be moved aside, a feat which was not accomplished
without a deal of swearing and noise. The vicar put his head out of the
window.</p>
<p>'Surely there must be some mistake in the way,' he said with great
concern, drawing in his head again. 'There's not a respectable conveyance
to be seen here except ours. I've heard that there are strange dens in
this part of London, into which people have been entrapped and murdered—surely
there is no conspiracy on the part of the cabman?'</p>
<p>'Oh no, no. It is all right,' said Mr. Knight, who was as placid as dewy
eve by the side of Elfride.</p>
<p>'But what I argue from,' said the vicar, with a greater emphasis of
uneasiness, 'are plain appearances. This can't be the highway from London
to Plymouth by water, because it is no way at all to any place. We shall
miss our steamer and our train too—that's what I think.'</p>
<p>'Depend upon it we are right. In fact, here we are.'</p>
<p>'Trimmer's Wharf,' said the cabman, opening the door.</p>
<p>No sooner had they alighted than they perceived a tussle going on between
the hindmost cabman and a crowd of light porters who had charged him in
column, to obtain possession of the bags and boxes, Mrs. Snewson's hands
being seen stretched towards heaven in the midst of the melee. Knight
advanced gallantly, and after a hard struggle reduced the crowd to two,
upon whose shoulders and trucks the goods vanished away in the direction
of the water's edge with startling rapidity.</p>
<p>Then more of the same tribe, who had run on ahead, were heard shouting to
boatmen, three of whom pulled alongside, and two being vanquished, the
luggage went tumbling into the remaining one.</p>
<p>'Never saw such a dreadful scene in my life—never!' said Mr.
Swancourt, floundering into the boat. 'Worse than Famine and Sword upon
one. I thought such customs were confined to continental ports. Aren't you
astonished, Elfride?'</p>
<p>'Oh no,' said Elfride, appearing amid the dingy scene like a rainbow in a
murky sky. 'It is a pleasant novelty, I think.'</p>
<p>'Where in the wide ocean is our steamer?' the vicar inquired. 'I can see
nothing but old hulks, for the life of me.'</p>
<p>'Just behind that one,' said Knight; 'we shall soon be round under her.'</p>
<p>The object of their search was soon after disclosed to view—a great
lumbering form of inky blackness, which looked as if it had never known
the touch of a paint-brush for fifty years. It was lying beside just such
another, and the way on board was down a narrow lane of water between the
two, about a yard and a half wide at one end, and gradually converging to
a point. At the moment of their entry into this narrow passage, a
brilliantly painted rival paddled down the river like a trotting steed,
creating such a series of waves and splashes that their frail wherry was
tossed like a teacup, and the vicar and his wife slanted this way and
that, inclining their heads into contact with a Punch-and-Judy air and
countenance, the wavelets striking the sides of the two hulls, and
flapping back into their laps.</p>
<p>'Dreadful! horrible!' Mr. Swancourt murmured privately; and said aloud, I
thought we walked on board. I don't think really I should have come, if I
had known this trouble was attached to it.'</p>
<p>'If they must splash, I wish they would splash us with clean water,' said
the old lady, wiping her dress with her handkerchief.</p>
<p>'I hope it is perfectly safe,' continued the vicar.</p>
<p>'O papa! you are not very brave,' cried Elfride merrily.</p>
<p>'Bravery is only obtuseness to the perception of contingencies,' Mr.
Swancourt severely answered.</p>
<p>Mrs. Swancourt laughed, and Elfride laughed, and Knight laughed, in the
midst of which pleasantness a man shouted to them from some position
between their heads and the sky, and they found they were close to the
Juliet, into which they quiveringly ascended.</p>
<p>It having been found that the lowness of the tide would prevent their
getting off for an hour, the Swancourts, having nothing else to do,
allowed their eyes to idle upon men in blue jerseys performing mysterious
mending operations with tar-twine; they turned to look at the dashes of
lurid sunlight, like burnished copper stars afloat on the ripples, which
danced into and tantalized their vision; or listened to the loud music of
a steam-crane at work close by; or to sighing sounds from the funnels of
passing steamers, getting dead as they grew more distant; or to shouts
from the decks of different craft in their vicinity, all of them assuming
the form of 'Ah-he-hay!'</p>
<p>Half-past ten: not yet off. Mr. Swancourt breathed a breath of weariness,
and looked at his fellow-travellers in general. Their faces were certainly
not worth looking at. The expression 'Waiting' was written upon them so
absolutely that nothing more could be discerned there. All animation was
suspended till Providence should raise the water and let them go.</p>
<p>'I have been thinking,' said Knight, 'that we have come amongst the rarest
class of people in the kingdom. Of all human characteristics, a low
opinion of the value of his own time by an individual must be among the
strangest to find. Here we see numbers of that patient and happy species.
Rovers, as distinct from travellers.'</p>
<p>'But they are pleasure-seekers, to whom time is of no importance.'</p>
<p>'Oh no. The pleasure-seekers we meet on the grand routes are more anxious
than commercial travellers to rush on. And added to the loss of time in
getting to their journey's end, these exceptional people take their chance
of sea-sickness by coming this way.'</p>
<p>'Can it be?' inquired the vicar with apprehension. 'Surely not, Mr.
Knight, just here in our English Channel—close at our doors, as I
may say.'</p>
<p>'Entrance passages are very draughty places, and the Channel is like the
rest. It ruins the temper of sailors. It has been calculated by
philosophers that more damns go up to heaven from the Channel, in the
course of a year, than from all the five oceans put together.'</p>
<p>They really start now, and the dead looks of all the throng come to life
immediately. The man who has been frantically hauling in a rope that bade
fair to have no end ceases his labours, and they glide down the serpentine
bends of the Thames.</p>
<p>Anything anywhere was a mine of interest to Elfride, and so was this.</p>
<p>'It is well enough now,' said Mrs. Swancourt, after they had passed the
Nore, 'but I can't say I have cared for my voyage hitherto.' For being now
in the open sea a slight breeze had sprung up, which cheered her as well
as her two younger companions. But unfortunately it had a reverse effect
upon the vicar, who, after turning a sort of apricot jam colour,
interspersed with dashes of raspberry, pleaded indisposition, and vanished
from their sight.</p>
<p>The afternoon wore on. Mrs. Swancourt kindly sat apart by herself reading,
and the betrothed pair were left to themselves. Elfride clung trustingly
to Knight's arm, and proud was she to walk with him up and down the deck,
or to go forward, and leaning with him against the forecastle rails, watch
the setting sun gradually withdrawing itself over their stern into a huge
bank of livid cloud with golden edges that rose to meet it.</p>
<p>She was childishly full of life and spirits, though in walking up and down
with him before the other passengers, and getting noticed by them, she was
at starting rather confused, it being the first time she had shown herself
so openly under that kind of protection. 'I expect they are envious and
saying things about us, don't you?' she would whisper to Knight with a
stealthy smile.</p>
<p>'Oh no,' he would answer unconcernedly. 'Why should they envy us, and what
can they say?'</p>
<p>'Not any harm, of course,' Elfride replied, 'except such as this: "How
happy those two are! she is proud enough now." What makes it worse,' she
continued in the extremity of confidence, 'I heard those two cricketing
men say just now, "She's the nobbiest girl on the boat." But I don't mind
it, you know, Harry.'</p>
<p>'I should hardly have supposed you did, even if you had not told me,' said
Knight with great blandness.</p>
<p>She was never tired of asking her lover questions and admiring his
answers, good, bad, or indifferent as they might be. The evening grew dark
and night came on, and lights shone upon them from the horizon and from
the sky.</p>
<p>'Now look there ahead of us, at that halo in the air, of silvery
brightness. Watch it, and you will see what it comes to.'</p>
<p>She watched for a few minutes, when two white lights emerged from the side
of a hill, and showed themselves to be the origin of the halo.</p>
<p>'What a dazzling brilliance! What do they mark?'</p>
<p>'The South Foreland: they were previously covered by the cliff.'</p>
<p>'What is that level line of little sparkles—a town, I suppose?'</p>
<p>'That's Dover.'</p>
<p>All this time, and later, soft sheet lightning expanded from a cloud in
their path, enkindling their faces as they paced up and down, shining over
the water, and, for a moment, showing the horizon as a keen line.</p>
<p>Elfride slept soundly that night. Her first thought the next morning was
the thrilling one that Knight was as close at hand as when they were at
home at Endelstow, and her first sight, on looking out of the cabin
window, was the perpendicular face of Beachy Head, gleaming white in a
brilliant six-o'clock-in-the-morning sun. This fair daybreak, however,
soon changed its aspect. A cold wind and a pale mist descended upon the
sea, and seemed to threaten a dreary day.</p>
<p>When they were nearing Southampton, Mrs. Swancourt came to say that her
husband was so ill that he wished to be put on shore here, and left to do
the remainder of the journey by land. 'He will be perfectly well directly
he treads firm ground again. Which shall we do—go with him, or
finish our voyage as we intended?'</p>
<p>Elfride was comfortably housed under an umbrella which Knight was holding
over her to keep off the wind. 'Oh, don't let us go on shore!' she said
with dismay. 'It would be such a pity!'</p>
<p>'That's very fine,' said Mrs. Swancourt archly, as to a child. 'See, the
wind has increased her colour, the sea her appetite and spirits, and
somebody her happiness. Yes, it would be a pity, certainly.'</p>
<p>''Tis my misfortune to be always spoken to from a pedestal,' sighed
Elfride.</p>
<p>'Well, we will do as you like, Mrs. Swancourt,' said Knight, 'but——'</p>
<p>'I myself would rather remain on board,' interrupted the elder lady. 'And
Mr. Swancourt particularly wishes to go by himself. So that shall settle
the matter.'</p>
<p>The vicar, now a drab colour, was put ashore, and became as well as ever
forthwith.</p>
<p>Elfride, sitting alone in a retired part of the vessel, saw a veiled woman
walk aboard among the very latest arrivals at this port. She was clothed
in black silk, and carried a dark shawl upon her arm. The woman, without
looking around her, turned to the quarter allotted to the second-cabin
passengers. All the carnation Mrs. Swancourt had complimented her
step-daughter upon possessing left Elfride's cheeks, and she trembled
visibly.</p>
<p>She ran to the other side of the boat, where Mrs. Swancourt was standing.</p>
<p>'Let us go home by railway with papa, after all,' she pleaded earnestly.
'I would rather go with him—shall we?'</p>
<p>Mrs. Swancourt looked around for a moment, as if unable to decide. 'Ah,'
she exclaimed, 'it is too late now. Why did not you say so before, when we
had plenty of time?'</p>
<p>The Juliet had at that minute let go, the engines had started, and they
were gliding slowly away from the quay. There was no help for it but to
remain, unless the Juliet could be made to put back, and that would create
a great disturbance. Elfride gave up the idea and submitted quietly. Her
happiness was sadly mutilated now.</p>
<p>The woman whose presence had so disturbed her was exactly like Mrs.
Jethway. She seemed to haunt Elfride like a shadow. After several minutes'
vain endeavour to account for any design Mrs. Jethway could have in
watching her, Elfride decided to think that, if it were the widow, the
encounter was accidental. She remembered that the widow in her
restlessness was often visiting the village near Southampton, which was
her original home, and it was possible that she chose water-transit with
the idea of saving expense.</p>
<p>'What is the matter, Elfride?' Knight inquired, standing before her.</p>
<p>'Nothing more than that I am rather depressed.'</p>
<p>'I don't much wonder at it; that wharf was depressing. We seemed
underneath and inferior to everything around us. But we shall be in the
sea breeze again soon, and that will freshen you, dear.'</p>
<p>The evening closed in and dusk increased as they made way down Southampton
Water and through the Solent. Elfride's disturbance of mind was such that
her light spirits of the foregoing four and twenty hours had entirely
deserted her. The weather too had grown more gloomy, for though the
showers of the morning had ceased, the sky was covered more closely than
ever with dense leaden clouds. How beautiful was the sunset when they
rounded the North Foreland the previous evening! now it was impossible to
tell within half an hour the time of the luminary's going down. Knight led
her about, and being by this time accustomed to her sudden changes of
mood, overlooked the necessity of a cause in regarding the conditions—impressionableness
and elasticity.</p>
<p>Elfride looked stealthily to the other end of the vessel. Mrs. Jethway, or
her double, was sitting at the stern—her eye steadily regarding
Elfride.</p>
<p>'Let us go to the forepart,' she said quickly to Knight. 'See there—the
man is fixing the lights for the night.'</p>
<p>Knight assented, and after watching the operation of fixing the red and
the green lights on the port and starboard bows, and the hoisting of the
white light to the masthead, he walked up and down with her till the
increase of wind rendered promenading difficult. Elfride's eyes were
occasionally to be found furtively gazing abaft, to learn if her enemy
were really there. Nobody was visible now.</p>
<p>'Shall we go below?' said Knight, seeing that the deck was nearly
deserted.</p>
<p>'No,' she said. 'If you will kindly get me a rug from Mrs. Swancourt, I
should like, if you don't mind, to stay here.' She had recently fancied
the assumed Mrs. Jethway might be a first-class passenger, and dreaded
meeting her by accident.</p>
<p>Knight appeared with the rug, and they sat down behind a weather-cloth on
the windward side, just as the two red eyes of the Needles glared upon
them from the gloom, their pointed summits rising like shadowy phantom
figures against the sky. It became necessary to go below to an
eight-o'clock meal of nondescript kind, and Elfride was immensely relieved
at finding no sign of Mrs. Jethway there. They again ascended, and
remained above till Mrs. Snewson staggered up to them with the message
that Mrs. Swancourt thought it was time for Elfride to come below. Knight
accompanied her down, and returned again to pass a little more time on
deck.</p>
<p>Elfride partly undressed herself and lay down, and soon became
unconscious, though her sleep was light. How long she had lain, she knew
not, when by slow degrees she became cognizant of a whispering in her ear.</p>
<p>'You are well on with him, I can see. Well, provoke me now, but my day
will come, you will find.' That seemed to be the utterance, or words to
that effect.</p>
<p>Elfride became broad awake and terrified. She knew the words, if real,
could be only those of one person, and that person the widow Jethway.</p>
<p>The lamp had gone out and the place was in darkness. In the next berth she
could hear her stepmother breathing heavily, further on Snewson breathing
more heavily still. These were the only other legitimate occupants of the
cabin, and Mrs. Jethway must have stealthily come in by some means and
retreated again, or else she had entered an empty berth next Snewson's.
The fear that this was the case increased Elfride's perturbation, till it
assumed the dimensions of a certainty, for how could a stranger from the
other end of the ship possibly contrive to get in? Could it have been a
dream?</p>
<p>Elfride raised herself higher and looked out of the window. There was the
sea, floundering and rushing against the ship's side just by her head, and
thence stretching away, dim and moaning, into an expanse of
indistinctness; and far beyond all this two placid lights like rayless
stars. Now almost fearing to turn her face inwards again, lest Mrs.
Jethway should appear at her elbow, Elfride meditated upon whether to call
Snewson to keep her company. 'Four bells' sounded, and she heard voices,
which gave her a little courage. It was not worth while to call Snewson.</p>
<p>At any rate Elfride could not stay there panting longer, at the risk of
being again disturbed by that dreadful whispering. So wrapping herself up
hurriedly she emerged into the passage, and by the aid of a faint light
burning at the entrance to the saloon found the foot of the stairs, and
ascended to the deck. Dreary the place was in the extreme. It seemed a new
spot altogether in contrast with its daytime self. She could see the
glowworm light from the binnacle, and the dim outline of the man at the
wheel; also a form at the bows. Not another soul was apparent from stem to
stern.</p>
<p>Yes, there were two more—by the bulwarks. One proved to be her
Harry, the other the mate. She was glad indeed, and on drawing closer
found they were holding a low slow chat about nautical affairs. She ran up
and slipped her hand through Knight's arm, partly for love, partly for
stability.</p>
<p>'Elfie! not asleep?' said Knight, after moving a few steps aside with her.</p>
<p>'No: I cannot sleep. May I stay here? It is so dismal down there, and—and
I was afraid. Where are we now?'</p>
<p>'Due south of Portland Bill. Those are the lights abeam of us: look. A
terrible spot, that, on a stormy night. And do you see a very small light
that dips and rises to the right? That's a light-ship on the dangerous
shoal called the Shambles, where many a good vessel has gone to pieces.
Between it and ourselves is the Race—a place where antagonistic
currents meet and form whirlpools—a spot which is rough in the
smoothest weather, and terrific in a wind. That dark, dreary horizon we
just discern to the left is the West Bay, terminated landwards by the
Chesil Beach.'</p>
<p>'What time is it, Harry?'</p>
<p>'Just past two.'</p>
<p>'Are you going below?'</p>
<p>'Oh no; not to-night. I prefer pure air.'</p>
<p>She fancied he might be displeased with her for coming to him at this
unearthly hour. 'I should like to stay here too, if you will allow me,'
she said timidly.</p>
<p>'I want to ask you things.'</p>
<p>'Allow you, Elfie!' said Knight, putting his arm round her and drawing her
closer. 'I am twice as happy with you by my side. Yes: we will stay, and
watch the approach of day.'</p>
<p>So they again sought out the sheltered nook, and sitting down wrapped
themselves in the rug as before.</p>
<p>'What were you going to ask me?' he inquired, as they undulated up and
down.</p>
<p>'Oh, it was not much—perhaps a thing I ought not to ask,' she said
hesitatingly. Her sudden wish had really been to discover at once whether
he had ever before been engaged to be married. If he had, she would make
that a ground for telling him a little of her conduct with Stephen. Mrs.
Jethway's seeming words had so depressed the girl that she herself now
painted her flight in the darkest colours, and longed to ease her burdened
mind by an instant confession. If Knight had ever been imprudent himself,
he might, she hoped, forgive all.</p>
<p>'I wanted to ask you,' she went on, 'if—you had ever been engaged
before.' She added tremulously, 'I hope you have—I mean, I don't
mind at all if you have.'</p>
<p>'No, I never was,' Knight instantly and heartily replied. 'Elfride'—and
there was a certain happy pride in his tone—'I am twelve years older
than you, and I have been about the world, and, in a way, into society,
and you have not. And yet I am not so unfit for you as strict-thinking
people might imagine, who would assume the difference in age to signify
most surely an equal addition to my practice in love-making.'</p>
<p>Elfride shivered.</p>
<p>'You are cold—is the wind too much for you?'</p>
<p>'No,' she said gloomily. The belief which had been her sheet-anchor in
hoping for forgiveness had proved false. This account of the exceptional
nature of his experience, a matter which would have set her rejoicing two
years ago, chilled her now like a frost.</p>
<p>'You don't mind my asking you?' she continued.</p>
<p>'Oh no—not at all.'</p>
<p>'And have you never kissed many ladies?' she whispered, hoping he would
say a hundred at the least.</p>
<p>The time, the circumstances, and the scene were such as to draw
confidences from the most reserved. 'Elfride,' whispered Knight in reply,
'it is strange you should have asked that question. But I'll answer it,
though I have never told such a thing before. I have been rather absurd in
my avoidance of women. I have never given a woman a kiss in my life,
except yourself and my mother.' The man of two and thirty with the
experienced mind warmed all over with a boy's ingenuous shame as he made
the confession.</p>
<p>'What, not one?' she faltered.</p>
<p>'No; not one.'</p>
<p>'How very strange!'</p>
<p>'Yes, the reverse experience may be commoner. And yet, to those who have
observed their own sex, as I have, my case is not remarkable. Men about
town are women's favourites—that's the postulate—and
superficial people don't think far enough to see that there may be
reserved, lonely exceptions.'</p>
<p>'Are you proud of it, Harry?'</p>
<p>'No, indeed. Of late years I have wished I had gone my ways and trod out
my measure like lighter-hearted men. I have thought of how many happy
experiences I may have lost through never going to woo.'</p>
<p>'Then why did you hold aloof?'</p>
<p>'I cannot say. I don't think it was my nature to: circumstance hindered
me, perhaps. I have regretted it for another reason. This great remissness
of mine has had its effect upon me. The older I have grown, the more
distinctly have I perceived that it was absolutely preventing me from
liking any woman who was not as unpractised as I; and I gave up the
expectation of finding a nineteenth-century young lady in my own raw
state. Then I found you, Elfride, and I felt for the first time that my
fastidiousness was a blessing. And it helped to make me worthy of you. I
felt at once that, differing as we did in other experiences, in this
matter I resembled you. Well, aren't you glad to hear it, Elfride?'</p>
<p>'Yes, I am,' she answered in a forced voice. 'But I always had thought
that men made lots of engagements before they married—especially if
they don't marry very young.'</p>
<p>'So all women think, I suppose—and rightly, indeed, of the majority
of bachelors, as I said before. But an appreciable minority of slow-coach
men do not—and it makes them very awkward when they do come to the
point. However, it didn't matter in my case.'</p>
<p>'Why?' she asked uneasily.</p>
<p>'Because you know even less of love-making and matrimonial prearrangement
than I, and so you can't draw invidious comparisons if I do my engaging
improperly.'</p>
<p>'I think you do it beautifully!'</p>
<p>'Thank you, dear. But,' continued Knight laughingly, 'your opinion is not
that of an expert, which alone is of value.'</p>
<p>Had she answered, 'Yes, it is,' half as strongly as she felt it, Knight
might have been a little astonished.</p>
<p>'If you had ever been engaged to be married before,' he went on, 'I expect
your opinion of my addresses would be different. But then, I should not——'</p>
<p>'Should not what, Harry?'</p>
<p>'Oh, I was merely going to say that in that case I should never have given
myself the pleasure of proposing to you, since your freedom from that
experience was your attraction, darling.'</p>
<p>'You are severe on women, are you not?'</p>
<p>'No, I think not. I had a right to please my taste, and that was for
untried lips. Other men than those of my sort acquire the taste as they
get older—but don't find an Elfride——'</p>
<p>'What horrid sound is that we hear when we pitch forward?'</p>
<p>'Only the screw—don't find an Elfride as I did. To think that I
should have discovered such an unseen flower down there in the West—to
whom a man is as much as a multitude to some women, and a trip down the
English Channel like a voyage round the world!'</p>
<p>'And would you,' she said, and her voice was tremulous, 'have given up a
lady—if you had become engaged to her—and then found she had
had ONE kiss before yours—and would you have—gone away and
left her?'</p>
<p>'One kiss,—no, hardly for that.'</p>
<p>'Two?'</p>
<p>'Well—I could hardly say inventorially like that. Too much of that
sort of thing certainly would make me dislike a woman. But let us confine
our attention to ourselves, not go thinking of might have beens.'</p>
<p>So Elfride had allowed her thoughts to 'dally with false surmise,' and
every one of Knight's words fell upon her like a weight. After this they
were silent for a long time, gazing upon the black mysterious sea, and
hearing the strange voice of the restless wind. A rocking to and fro on
the waves, when the breeze is not too violent and cold, produces a
soothing effect even upon the most highly-wrought mind. Elfride slowly
sank against Knight, and looking down, he found by her soft regular
breathing that she had fallen asleep. Not wishing to disturb her, he
continued still, and took an intense pleasure in supporting her warm young
form as it rose and fell with her every breath.</p>
<p>Knight fell to dreaming too, though he continued wide awake. It was
pleasant to realize the implicit trust she placed in him, and to think of
the charming innocence of one who could sink to sleep in so simple and
unceremonious a manner. More than all, the musing unpractical student felt
the immense responsibility he was taking upon himself by becoming the
protector and guide of such a trusting creature. The quiet slumber of her
soul lent a quietness to his own. Then she moaned, and turned herself
restlessly. Presently her mutterings became distinct:</p>
<p>'Don't tell him—he will not love me....I did not mean any disgrace—indeed
I did not, so don't tell Harry. We were going to be married—that was
why I ran away....And he says he will not have a kissed woman....And if
you tell him he will go away, and I shall die. I pray have mercy—Oh!'</p>
<p>Elfride started up wildly.</p>
<p>The previous moment a musical ding-dong had spread into the air from their
right hand, and awakened her.</p>
<p>'What is it?' she exclaimed in terror.</p>
<p>'Only "eight bells,"' said Knight soothingly. 'Don't be frightened, little
bird, you are safe. What have you been dreaming about?'</p>
<p>'I can't tell, I can't tell!' she said with a shudder. 'Oh, I don't know
what to do!'</p>
<p>'Stay quietly with me. We shall soon see the dawn now. Look, the morning
star is lovely over there. The clouds have completely cleared off whilst
you have been sleeping. What have you been dreaming of?'</p>
<p>'A woman in our parish.'</p>
<p>'Don't you like her?'</p>
<p>'I don't. She doesn't like me. Where are we?'</p>
<p>'About south of the Exe.'</p>
<p>Knight said no more on the words of her dream. They watched the sky till
Elfride grew calm, and the dawn appeared. It was mere wan lightness first.
Then the wind blew in a changed spirit, and died away to a zephyr. The
star dissolved into the day.</p>
<p>'That's how I should like to die,' said Elfride, rising from her seat and
leaning over the bulwark to watch the star's last expiring gleam.</p>
<p>'As the lines say,' Knight replied——</p>
<p>'"To set as sets the morning star, which goes<br/>
Not down behind the darken'd west, nor hides<br/>
Obscured among the tempests of the sky,<br/>
But melts away into the light of heaven."'<br/></p>
<p>'Oh, other people have thought the same thing, have they? That's always
the case with my originalities—they are original to nobody but
myself.'</p>
<p>'Not only the case with yours. When I was a young hand at reviewing I used
to find that a frightful pitfall—dilating upon subjects I met with,
which were novelties to me, and finding afterwards they had been exhausted
by the thinking world when I was in pinafores.'</p>
<p>'That is delightful. Whenever I find you have done a foolish thing I am
glad, because it seems to bring you a little nearer to me, who have done
many.' And Elfride thought again of her enemy asleep under the deck they
trod.</p>
<p>All up the coast, prominences singled themselves out from recesses. Then a
rosy sky spread over the eastern sea and behind the low line of land,
flinging its livery in dashes upon the thin airy clouds in that direction.
Every projection on the land seemed now so many fingers anxious to catch a
little of the liquid light thrown so prodigally over the sky, and after a
fantastic time of lustrous yellows in the east, the higher elevations
along the shore were flooded with the same hues. The bluff and bare
contours of Start Point caught the brightest, earliest glow of all, and so
also did the sides of its white lighthouse, perched upon a shelf in its
precipitous front like a mediaeval saint in a niche. Their lofty neighbour
Bolt Head on the left remained as yet ungilded, and retained its gray.</p>
<p>Then up came the sun, as it were in jerks, just to seaward of the
easternmost point of land, flinging out a Jacob's-ladder path of light
from itself to Elfride and Knight, and coating them with rays in a few
minutes. The inferior dignitaries of the shore—Froward Point, Berry
Head, and Prawle—all had acquired their share of the illumination
ere this, and at length the very smallest protuberance of wave, cliff, or
inlet, even to the innermost recesses of the lovely valley of the Dart,
had its portion; and sunlight, now the common possession of all, ceased to
be the wonderful and coveted thing it had been a short half hour before.</p>
<p>After breakfast, Plymouth arose into view, and grew distincter to their
nearing vision, the Breakwater appearing like a streak of phosphoric light
upon the surface of the sea. Elfride looked furtively around for Mrs.
Jethway, but could discern no shape like hers. Afterwards, in the bustle
of landing, she looked again with the same result, by which time the woman
had probably glided upon the quay unobserved. Expanding with a sense of
relief, Elfride waited whilst Knight looked to their luggage, and then saw
her father approaching through the crowd, twirling his walking-stick to
catch their attention. Elbowing their way to him they all entered the
town, which smiled as sunny a smile upon Elfride as it had done between
one and two years earlier, when she had entered it at precisely the same
hour as the bride-elect of Stephen Smith.</p>
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