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<h3> XII. COVERDALE'S HERMITAGE </h3>
<p>Long since, in this part of our circumjacent wood, I had found out for
myself a little hermitage. It was a kind of leafy cave, high upward
into the air, among the midmost branches of a white-pine tree. A wild
grapevine, of unusual size and luxuriance, had twined and twisted
itself up into the tree, and, after wreathing the entanglement of its
tendrils around almost every bough, had caught hold of three or four
neighboring trees, and married the whole clump with a perfectly
inextricable knot of polygamy. Once, while sheltering myself from a
summer shower, the fancy had taken me to clamber up into this seemingly
impervious mass of foliage. The branches yielded me a passage, and
closed again beneath, as if only a squirrel or a bird had passed. Far
aloft, around the stem of the central pine, behold a perfect nest for
Robinson Crusoe or King Charles! A hollow chamber of rare seclusion
had been formed by the decay of some of the pine branches, which the
vine had lovingly strangled with its embrace, burying them from the
light of day in an aerial sepulchre of its own leaves. It cost me but
little ingenuity to enlarge the interior, and open loopholes through
the verdant walls. Had it ever been my fortune to spend a honeymoon, I
should have thought seriously of inviting my bride up thither, where
our next neighbors would have been two orioles in another part of the
clump.</p>
<p>It was an admirable place to make verses, tuning the rhythm to the
breezy symphony that so often stirred among the vine leaves; or to
meditate an essay for "The Dial," in which the many tongues of Nature
whispered mysteries, and seemed to ask only a little stronger puff of
wind to speak out the solution of its riddle. Being so pervious to
air-currents, it was just the nook, too, for the enjoyment of a cigar.
This hermitage was my one exclusive possession while I counted myself a
brother of the socialists. It symbolized my individuality, and aided
me in keeping it inviolate. None ever found me out in it, except,
once, a squirrel. I brought thither no guest, because, after
Hollingsworth failed me, there was no longer the man alive with whom I
could think of sharing all. So there I used to sit, owl-like, yet not
without liberal and hospitable thoughts. I counted the innumerable
clusters of my vine, and fore-reckoned the abundance of my vintage. It
gladdened me to anticipate the surprise of the Community, when, like an
allegorical figure of rich October, I should make my appearance, with
shoulders bent beneath the burden of ripe grapes, and some of the
crushed ones crimsoning my brow as with a bloodstain.</p>
<p>Ascending into this natural turret, I peeped in turn out of several of
its small windows. The pine-tree, being ancient, rose high above the
rest of the wood, which was of comparatively recent growth. Even where
I sat, about midway between the root and the topmost bough, my position
was lofty enough to serve as an observatory, not for starry
investigations, but for those sublunary matters in which lay a lore as
infinite as that of the planets. Through one loophole I saw the river
lapsing calmly onward, while in the meadow, near its brink, a few of
the brethren were digging peat for our winter's fuel. On the interior
cart-road of our farm I discerned Hollingsworth, with a yoke of oxen
hitched to a drag of stones, that were to be piled into a fence, on
which we employed ourselves at the odd intervals of other labor. The
harsh tones of his voice, shouting to the sluggish steers, made me
sensible, even at such a distance, that he was ill at ease, and that
the balked philanthropist had the battle-spirit in his heart.</p>
<p>"Haw, Buck!" quoth he. "Come along there, ye lazy ones! What are ye
about, now? Gee!"</p>
<p>"Mankind, in Hollingsworth's opinion," thought I, "is but another yoke
of oxen, as stubborn, stupid, and sluggish as our old Brown and Bright.
He vituperates us aloud, and curses us in his heart, and will begin to
prick us with the goad-stick, by and by. But are we his oxen? And
what right has he to be the driver? And why, when there is enough else
to do, should we waste our strength in dragging home the ponderous load
of his philanthropic absurdities? At my height above the earth, the
whole matter looks ridiculous!"</p>
<p>Turning towards the farmhouse, I saw Priscilla (for, though a great way
off, the eye of faith assured me that it was she) sitting at Zenobia's
window, and making little purses, I suppose; or, perhaps, mending the
Community's old linen. A bird flew past my tree; and, as it clove its
way onward into the sunny atmosphere, I flung it a message for
Priscilla.</p>
<p>"Tell her," said I, "that her fragile thread of life has inextricably
knotted itself with other and tougher threads, and most likely it will
be broken. Tell her that Zenobia will not be long her friend. Say that
Hollingsworth's heart is on fire with his own purpose, but icy for all
human affection; and that, if she has given him her love, it is like
casting a flower into a sepulchre. And say that if any mortal really
cares for her, it is myself; and not even I for her realities,—poor
little seamstress, as Zenobia rightly called her!—but for the
fancy-work with which I have idly decked her out!"</p>
<p>The pleasant scent of the wood, evolved by the hot sun, stole up to my
nostrils, as if I had been an idol in its niche. Many trees mingled
their fragrance into a thousand-fold odor. Possibly there was a
sensual influence in the broad light of noon that lay beneath me. It
may have been the cause, in part, that I suddenly found myself
possessed by a mood of disbelief in moral beauty or heroism, and a
conviction of the folly of attempting to benefit the world. Our
especial scheme of reform, which, from my observatory, I could take in
with the bodily eye, looked so ridiculous that it was impossible not to
laugh aloud.</p>
<p>"But the joke is a little too heavy," thought I. "If I were wise, I
should get out of the scrape with all diligence, and then laugh at my
companions for remaining in it."</p>
<p>While thus musing, I heard with perfect distinctness, somewhere in the
wood beneath, the peculiar laugh which I have described as one of the
disagreeable characteristics of Professor Westervelt. It brought my
thoughts back to our recent interview. I recognized as chiefly due to
this man's influence the sceptical and sneering view which just now had
filled my mental vision in regard to all life's better purposes. And
it was through his eyes, more than my own, that I was looking at
Hollingsworth, with his glorious if impracticable dream, and at the
noble earthliness of Zenobia's character, and even at Priscilla, whose
impalpable grace lay so singularly between disease and beauty. The
essential charm of each had vanished. There are some spheres the
contact with which inevitably degrades the high, debases the pure,
deforms the beautiful. It must be a mind of uncommon strength, and
little impressibility, that can permit itself the habit of such
intercourse, and not be permanently deteriorated; and yet the
Professor's tone represented that of worldly society at large, where a
cold scepticism smothers what it can of our spiritual aspirations, and
makes the rest ridiculous. I detested this kind of man; and all the
more because a part of my own nature showed itself responsive to him.</p>
<p>Voices were now approaching through the region of the wood which lay in
the vicinity of my tree. Soon I caught glimpses of two figures—a
woman and a man—Zenobia and the stranger—earnestly talking together
as they advanced.</p>
<p>Zenobia had a rich though varying color. It was, most of the while, a
flame, and anon a sudden paleness. Her eyes glowed, so that their
light sometimes flashed upward to me, as when the sun throws a dazzle
from some bright object on the ground. Her gestures were free, and
strikingly impressive. The whole woman was alive with a passionate
intensity, which I now perceived to be the phase in which her beauty
culminated. Any passion would have become her well; and passionate
love, perhaps, the best of all. This was not love, but anger, largely
intermixed with scorn. Yet the idea strangely forced itself upon me,
that there was a sort of familiarity between these two companions,
necessarily the result of an intimate love,—on Zenobia's part, at
least,—in days gone by, but which had prolonged itself into as
intimate a hatred, for all futurity. As they passed among the trees,
reckless as her movement was, she took good heed that even the hem of
her garment should not brush against the stranger's person. I wondered
whether there had always been a chasm, guarded so religiously, betwixt
these two.</p>
<p>As for Westervelt, he was not a whit more warmed by Zenobia's passion
than a salamander by the heat of its native furnace. He would have
been absolutely statuesque, save for a look of slight perplexity,
tinctured strongly with derision. It was a crisis in which his
intellectual perceptions could not altogether help him out. He failed
to comprehend, and cared but little for comprehending, why Zenobia
should put herself into such a fume; but satisfied his mind that it was
all folly, and only another shape of a woman's manifold absurdity,
which men can never understand. How many a woman's evil fate has yoked
her with a man like this! Nature thrusts some of us into the world
miserably incomplete on the emotional side, with hardly any
sensibilities except what pertain to us as animals. No passion, save
of the senses; no holy tenderness, nor the delicacy that results from
this. Externally they bear a close resemblance to other men, and have
perhaps all save the finest grace; but when a woman wrecks herself on
such a being, she ultimately finds that the real womanhood within her
has no corresponding part in him. Her deepest voice lacks a response;
the deeper her cry, the more dead his silence. The fault may be none
of his; he cannot give her what never lived within his soul. But the
wretchedness on her side, and the moral deterioration attendant on a
false and shallow life, without strength enough to keep itself sweet,
are among the most pitiable wrongs that mortals suffer.</p>
<p>Now, as I looked down from my upper region at this man and
woman,—outwardly so fair a sight, and wandering like two lovers in the
wood,—I imagined that Zenobia, at an earlier period of youth, might
have fallen into the misfortune above indicated. And when her
passionate womanhood, as was inevitable, had discovered its mistake,
here had ensued the character of eccentricity and defiance which
distinguished the more public portion of her life.</p>
<p>Seeing how aptly matters had chanced thus far, I began to think it the
design of fate to let me into all Zenobia's secrets, and that therefore
the couple would sit down beneath my tree, and carry on a conversation
which would leave me nothing to inquire. No doubt, however, had it so
happened, I should have deemed myself honorably bound to warn them of a
listener's presence by flinging down a handful of unripe grapes, or by
sending an unearthly groan out of my hiding-place, as if this were one
of the trees of Dante's ghostly forest. But real life never arranges
itself exactly like a romance. In the first place, they did not sit
down at all. Secondly, even while they passed beneath the tree,
Zenobia's utterance was so hasty and broken, and Westervelt's so cool
and low, that I hardly could make out an intelligible sentence on
either side. What I seem to remember, I yet suspect, may have been
patched together by my fancy, in brooding over the matter afterwards.</p>
<p>"Why not fling the girl off," said Westervelt, "and let her go?"</p>
<p>"She clung to me from the first," replied Zenobia. "I neither know nor
care what it is in me that so attaches her. But she loves me, and I
will not fail her."</p>
<p>"She will plague you, then," said he, "in more ways than one."</p>
<p>"The poor child!" exclaimed Zenobia. "She can do me neither good nor
harm. How should she?"</p>
<p>I know not what reply Westervelt whispered; nor did Zenobia's
subsequent exclamation give me any clew, except that it evidently
inspired her with horror and disgust.</p>
<p>"With what kind of a being am I linked?" cried she. "If my Creator
cares aught for my soul, let him release me from this miserable bond!"</p>
<p>"I did not think it weighed so heavily," said her companion..</p>
<p>"Nevertheless," answered Zenobia, "it will strangle me at last!"</p>
<p>And then I heard her utter a helpless sort of moan; a sound which,
struggling out of the heart of a person of her pride and strength,
affected me more than if she had made the wood dolorously vocal with a
thousand shrieks and wails.</p>
<p>Other mysterious words, besides what are above written, they spoke
together; but I understood no more, and even question whether I fairly
understood so much as this. By long brooding over our recollections,
we subtilize them into something akin to imaginary stuff, and hardly
capable of being distinguished from it. In a few moments they were
completely beyond ear-shot. A breeze stirred after them, and awoke the
leafy tongues of the surrounding trees, which forthwith began to
babble, as if innumerable gossips had all at once got wind of Zenobia's
secret. But, as the breeze grew stronger, its voice among the branches
was as if it said, "Hush! Hush!" and I resolved that to no mortal
would I disclose what I had heard. And, though there might be room for
casuistry, such, I conceive, is the most equitable rule in all similar
conjunctures.</p>
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