<h2><SPAN name="XXXVIII" id="XXXVIII"></SPAN>XXXVIII</h2>
<p><span class="smcap">At</span> half-past six that afternoon, just as Amherst,
on his return from the mills, put the key into his
door at Hanaford, Mrs. Ansell, in New York, was
being shown into Mr. Langhope's library.</p>
<p>As she entered, her friend rose from his chair by the
fire, and turned on her a face so disordered by emotion
that she stopped short with an exclamation of alarm.</p>
<p>"Henry—what has happened? Why did you send
for me?"</p>
<p>"Because I couldn't go to you. I couldn't trust
myself in the streets—in the light of day."</p>
<p>"But why? What is it?—Not Cicely——?"</p>
<p>He struck both hands upward with a comprehensive
gesture. "Cicely—everyone—the whole world!" His
clenched fist came down on the table against which he
was leaning. "Maria, my girl might have been saved!"</p>
<p>Mrs. Ansell looked at him with growing perturbation.
"Saved—Bessy's life? But how? By whom?"</p>
<p>"She might have been allowed to live, I mean—to
recover. She was killed, Maria; that woman killed
her!"<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_546" id="Page_546"></SPAN></span></p>
<p>Mrs. Ansell, with another cry of bewilderment, let
herself drop helplessly into the nearest chair. "In
heaven's name, Henry—what woman?"</p>
<p>He seated himself opposite to her, clutching at his
stick, and leaning his weight heavily on it—a white
dishevelled old man. "I wonder why you ask—just to
spare me?"</p>
<p>Their eyes met in a piercing exchange of question
and answer, and Mrs. Ansell tried to bring out reasonably:
"I ask in order to understand what you are
saying."</p>
<p>"Well, then, if you insist on keeping up appearances—my
daughter-in-law killed my daughter. There you
have it." He laughed silently, with a tear on his reddened
eye-lids.</p>
<p>Mrs. Ansell groaned. "Henry, you are raving—I
understand less and less."</p>
<p>"I don't see how I can speak more plainly. She
told me so herself, in this room, not an hour ago."</p>
<p>"She told you? Who told you?"</p>
<p>"John Amherst's wife. Told me she'd killed my
child. It's as easy as breathing—if you know how to
use a morphia-needle."</p>
<p>Light seemed at last to break on his hearer. "Oh,
my poor Henry—you mean—she gave too much?
There was some dreadful accident?"</p>
<p>"There was no accident. She killed my child<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_547" id="Page_547"></SPAN></span>—killed
her deliberately. Don't look at me as if I were
a madman. She sat in that chair you're in when she
told me."</p>
<p>"Justine? Has she been here today?" Mrs. Ansell
paused in a painful effort to readjust her thoughts.
"But <i>why</i> did she tell you?"</p>
<p>"That's simple enough. To prevent Wyant's doing
it."</p>
<p>"Oh——" broke from his hearer, in a long sigh of
fear and intelligence. Mr. Langhope looked at her
with a smile of miserable exultation.</p>
<p>"You knew—you suspected all along?—But now
you must speak out!" he exclaimed with a sudden note
of command.</p>
<p>She sat motionless, as if trying to collect herself.
"I know nothing—I only meant—why was this never
known before?"</p>
<p>He was upon her at once. "You think—because
they understood each other? And now there's been
a break between them? He wanted too big a share of
the spoils? Oh, it's all so abysmally vile!"</p>
<p>He covered his face with a shaking hand, and Mrs.
Ansell remained silent, plunged in a speechless misery
of conjecture. At length she regained some measure of
her habitual composure, and leaning forward, with her
eyes on his face, said in a quiet tone: "If I am to help
you, you must try to tell me just what has happened."<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_548" id="Page_548"></SPAN></span></p>
<p>He made an impatient gesture. "Haven't I told you?
She found that her accomplice meant to speak, and
rushed to town to forestall him."</p>
<p>Mrs. Ansell reflected. "But why—with his place
at Saint Christopher's secured—did Dr. Wyant choose
this time to threaten her—if, as you imagine, he's an
accomplice?"</p>
<p>"Because he's a drug-taker, and she didn't wish him
to have the place."</p>
<p>"She didn't wish it? But that does not look as if
she were afraid. She had only to hold her tongue!"</p>
<p>Mr. Langhope laughed sardonically. "It's not quite
so simple. Amherst was coming to town to tell me."</p>
<p>"Ah—<i>he</i> knows?"</p>
<p>"Yes—and she preferred that I should have her
version first."</p>
<p>"And what is her version?"</p>
<p>The furrows of misery deepened in Mr. Langhope's
face. "Maria—don't ask too much of me! I can't
go over it again. She says she wanted to spare my child—she
says the doctors were keeping her alive, torturing
her uselessly, as a...a sort of scientific experiment....
She forced on me the hideous details...."</p>
<p>Mrs. Ansell waited a moment.</p>
<p>"Well! May it not be true?"</p>
<p>"Wyant's version is different. <i>He</i> says Bessy would
have recovered—he says Garford thought so too."<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_549" id="Page_549"></SPAN></span></p>
<p>"And what does she answer? She denies it?"</p>
<p>"No. She admits that Garford was in doubt. But
she says the chance was too remote—the pain too bad...that's
her cue, naturally!"</p>
<p>Mrs. Ansell, leaning back in her chair, with hands
meditatively stretched along its arms, gave herself up
to silent consideration of the fragmentary statements
cast before her. The long habit of ministering to her
friends in moments of perplexity and distress had given
her an almost judicial keenness in disentangling and
coordinating facts incoherently presented, and in seizing
on the thread of motive that connected them; but she
had never before been confronted with a situation so
poignant in itself, and bearing so intimately on her personal
feelings; and she needed time to free her thoughts
from the impending rush of emotion.</p>
<p>At last she raised her head and said: "Why did Mr.
Amherst let her come to you, instead of coming himself?"</p>
<p>"He knows nothing of her being here. She persuaded
him to wait a day, and as soon as he had gone
to the mills this morning she took the first train to
town."</p>
<p>"Ah——" Mrs. Ansell murmured thoughtfully; and
Mr. Langhope rejoined, with a conclusive gesture:
"Do you want more proofs of panic-stricken guilt?"</p>
<p>"Oh, guilt—" His friend revolved her large soft<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_550" id="Page_550"></SPAN></span>
muff about a drooping hand. "There's so much still
to understand."</p>
<p>"Your mind does not, as a rule, work so slowly!"
he said with some asperity; but she paid no heed to his
tone.</p>
<p>"Amherst, for instance—how long has he known
of this?" she continued.</p>
<p>"A week or two only—she made that clear."</p>
<p>"And what is his attitude?"</p>
<p>"Ah—that, I conjecture, is just what she means to
keep us from knowing!"</p>
<p>"You mean she's afraid——?"</p>
<p>Mr. Langhope gathered his haggard brows in a
frown. "She's afraid, of course—mortally—I never
saw a woman more afraid. I only wonder she had the
courage to face me."</p>
<p>"Ah—that's it! Why <i>did</i> she face you? To extenuate
her act—to give you her version, because she
feared his might be worse? Do you gather that that
was her motive?"</p>
<p>It was Mr. Langhope's turn to hesitate. He furrowed
the thick Turkey rug with the point of his ebony
stick, pausing once or twice to revolve it gimlet-like in
a gap of the pile.</p>
<p>"Not her avowed motive, naturally."</p>
<p>"Well—at least, then, let me have that."</p>
<p>"Her avowed motive? Oh, she'd prepared one, of<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_551" id="Page_551"></SPAN></span>
course—trust her to have a dozen ready! The one she
produced was—simply the desire to protect her husband."</p>
<p>"Her husband? Does <i>he</i> too need protection?"</p>
<p>"My God, if he takes her side——! At any rate,
her fear seemed to be that what she had done might
ruin him; might cause him to feel—as well he may!—that
the mere fact of being her husband makes his situation
as Cicely's step-father, as my son-in-law, intolerable.
And she came to clear him, as it were—to find
out, in short, on what terms I should be willing to continue
my present relations with him as though this hideous
thing had not been known to me."</p>
<p>Mrs. Ansell raised her head quickly. "Well—and
what were your terms?"</p>
<p>He hesitated. "She spared me the pain of proposing
any—I had only to accept hers."</p>
<p>"Hers?"</p>
<p>"That she should disappear altogether from my
sight—and from the child's, naturally. Good heaven,
I should like to include Amherst in that! But I'm
tied hand and foot, as you see, by Cicely's interests;
and I'm bound to say she exonerated him completely—completely!"</p>
<p>Mrs. Ansell was again silent, but a swift flight of
thoughts traversed her drooping face. "But if you are
to remain on the old terms with her husband, how is<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_552" id="Page_552"></SPAN></span>
she to disappear out of your life without also disappearing
out of his?"</p>
<p>Mr. Langhope gave a slight laugh. "I leave her
to work out that problem."</p>
<p>"And you think Amherst will consent to such conditions?"</p>
<p>"He's not to know of them."</p>
<p>The unexpectedness of the reply reduced Mrs. Ansell
to a sound of inarticulate interrogation; and Mr.
Langhope continued: "Not at first, that is. She had
thought it all out—foreseen everything; and she wrung
from me—I don't yet know how!—a promise that when
I saw him I would make it appear that I cleared him
completely, not only of any possible complicity, or
whatever you choose to call it, but of any sort of connection
with the matter in my thoughts of him. I am,
in short, to let him feel that he and I are to continue
on the old footing—and I agreed, on the condition of
her effacing herself somehow—of course on some other
pretext."</p>
<p>"Some other pretext? But what conceivable pretext?
My poor friend, he adores her!"</p>
<p>Mr. Langhope raised his eyebrows slightly. "We
haven't seen him since this became known to him.
<i>She</i> has; and she let slip that he was horror-struck."</p>
<p>Mrs. Ansell looked up with a quick exclamation.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_553" id="Page_553"></SPAN></span>
"Let slip? Isn't it much more likely that she forced
it on you—emphasized it to the last limit of credulity?"
She sank her hands to the arms of the chair,
and exclaimed, looking him straight in the eyes:
"You say she was frightened? It strikes me she was
dauntless!"</p>
<p>Mr. Langhope stared a moment; then he said, with
an ironic shrug: "No doubt, then, she counted on its
striking me too."</p>
<p>Mrs. Ansell breathed a shuddering sigh. "Oh, I
understand your feeling as you do—I'm deep in the
horror of it myself. But I can't help seeing that this
woman might have saved herself—and that she's chosen
to save her husband instead. What I don't see, from
what I know of him," she musingly proceeded, "is
how, on any imaginable pretext, she will induce him
to accept the sacrifice."</p>
<p>Mr. Langhope made a resentful movement. "If
that's the only point your mind dwells on——!"</p>
<p>Mrs. Ansell looked up. "It doesn't dwell anywhere
as yet—except, my poor Henry," she murmured, rising
to move toward him, and softly laying her hand on his
bent shoulder—"except on your distress and misery—on
the very part I can't yet talk of, can't question you
about...."</p>
<p>He let her hand rest there a moment; then he turned,
and drawing it into his own tremulous fingers, pressed<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_554" id="Page_554"></SPAN></span>
it silently, with a clinging helpless grasp that drew the
tears to her eyes.</p>
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<p>Justine Brent, in her earliest girlhood, had gone
through one of those emotional experiences that are the
infantile diseases of the heart. She had fancied herself
beloved of a youth of her own age; had secretly returned
his devotion, and had seen it reft from her by
another. Such an incident, as inevitable as the measles,
sometimes, like that mild malady, leaves traces out of
all proportion to its actual virulence. The blow fell on
Justine with tragic suddenness, and she reeled under it,
thinking darkly of death, and renouncing all hopes of
future happiness. Her ready pen often beguiled her
into recording her impressions, and she now found
an escape from despair in writing the history of a
damsel similarly wronged. In her tale, the heroine
killed herself; but the author, saved by this vicarious
sacrifice, lived, and in time even smiled over her
manuscript.</p>
<p>It was many years since Justine Amherst had recalled
this youthful incident; but the memory of it recurred
to her as she turned from Mr. Langhope's door. For
a moment death seemed the easiest escape from what
confronted her; but though she could no longer medicine
her despair by turning it into fiction, she knew at
once that she must somehow transpose it into terms of<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_555" id="Page_555"></SPAN></span>
action, that she must always escape from life into more
life, and not into its negation.</p>
<p>She had been carried into Mr. Langhope's presence
by that expiatory passion which still burns so high, and
draws its sustenance from so deep down, in the unsleeping
hearts of women. Though she had never wavered
in her conviction that her act had been justified
her ideas staggered under the sudden comprehension of
its consequences. Not till that morning had she seen
those consequences in their terrible, unsuspected extent,
had she understood how one stone rashly loosened
from the laboriously erected structure of human society
may produce remote fissures in that clumsy fabric.
She saw that, having hazarded the loosening of the
stone, she should have held herself apart from ordinary
human ties, like some priestess set apart for the service
of the temple. And instead, she had seized happiness
with both hands, taken it as the gift of the very fate she
had herself precipitated! She remembered some old
Greek saying to the effect that the gods never forgive
the mortal who presumes to love and suffer like a god.
She had dared to do both, and the gods were bringing
ruin on that deeper self which had its life in those about
her.</p>
<p>So much had become clear to her when she heard
Amherst declare his intention of laying the facts before
Mr. Langhope. His few broken words lit up the<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_556" id="Page_556"></SPAN></span>
farthest verge of their lives. She saw that his retrospective
reverence for his wife's memory, which was far as
possible removed from the strong passion of the mind
and senses that bound him to herself, was indelibly
stained and desecrated by the discovery that all he had
received from the one woman had been won for him
by the deliberate act of the other. This was what no
reasoning, no appeal to the calmer judgment, could ever,
in his inmost thoughts, undo or extenuate. It could
find appeasement only in the renunciation of all that
had come to him from Bessy; and this renunciation, so
different from the mere sacrifice of material well-being,
was bound up with consequences so far-reaching, so
destructive to the cause which had inspired his whole
life, that Justine felt the helpless terror of the mortal
who has launched one of the heavenly bolts.</p>
<p>She could think of no way of diverting it but the way
she had chosen. She must see Mr. Langhope first,
must clear Amherst of the least faint association with
her act or her intention. And to do this she must exaggerate,
not her own compunction—for she could not
depart from the exact truth in reporting her feelings
and convictions—but her husband's first instinctive
movement of horror, the revulsion of feeling her confession
had really produced in him. This was the most
painful part of her task, and for this reason her excited
imagination clothed it with a special expiatory value.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_557" id="Page_557"></SPAN></span>
If she could purchase Amherst's peace of mind, and the
security of his future, by confessing, and even over-emphasizing,
the momentary estrangement between them
there would be a bitter joy in such payment!</p>
<p>Her hour with Mr. Langhope proved the correctness
of her intuition. She could save Amherst only by
effacing herself from his life: those about him would be
only too ready to let her bear the full burden of obloquy.
She could see that, for a dozen reasons, Mr. Langhope,
even in the first shock of his dismay, unconsciously
craved a way of exonerating Amherst, of preserving
intact the relation on which so much of his comfort had
come to depend. And she had the courage to make
the most of his desire, to fortify it by isolating Amherst's
point of view from hers; so that, when the hour
was over, she had the solace of feeling that she had
completely freed him from any conceivable consequence
of her act.</p>
<p>So far, the impetus of self-sacrifice had carried her
straight to her goal; but, as frequently happens with such
atoning impulses, it left her stranded just short of any
subsequent plan of conduct. Her next step, indeed,
was clear enough: she must return to Hanaford, explain
to her husband that she had felt impelled to tell
her own story to Mr. Langhope, and then take up her
ordinary life till chance offered her a pretext for fulfilling
her promise. But what pretext was likely to pre<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_558" id="Page_558"></SPAN></span>sent
itself? No symbolic horn would sound the hour
of fulfillment; she must be her own judge, and hear the
call in the depths of her own conscience.</p>
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