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<h2> 6—The Two Stand Face to Face </h2>
<p>The room had been arranged with a view to the dancing, the large oak table
having been moved back till it stood as a breastwork to the fireplace. At
each end, behind, and in the chimney-corner were grouped the guests, many
of them being warm-faced and panting, among whom Eustacia cursorily
recognized some well-to-do persons from beyond the heath. Thomasin, as she
had expected, was not visible, and Eustacia recollected that a light had
shone from an upper window when they were outside—the window,
probably, of Thomasin's room. A nose, chin, hands, knees, and toes
projected from the seat within the chimney opening, which members she
found to unite in the person of Grandfer Cantle, Mrs. Yeobright's
occasional assistant in the garden, and therefore one of the invited. The
smoke went up from an Etna of peat in front of him, played round the
notches of the chimney-crook, struck against the salt-box, and got lost
among the flitches.</p>
<p>Another part of the room soon riveted her gaze. At the other side of the
chimney stood the settle, which is the necessary supplement to a fire so
open that nothing less than a strong breeze will carry up the smoke. It
is, to the hearths of old-fashioned cavernous fireplaces, what the east
belt of trees is to the exposed country estate, or the north wall to the
garden. Outside the settle candles gutter, locks of hair wave, young women
shiver, and old men sneeze. Inside is Paradise. Not a symptom of a draught
disturbs the air; the sitters' backs are as warm as their faces, and songs
and old tales are drawn from the occupants by the comfortable heat, like
fruit from melon plants in a frame.</p>
<p>It was, however, not with those who sat in the settle that Eustacia was
concerned. A face showed itself with marked distinctness against the
dark-tanned wood of the upper part. The owner, who was leaning against the
settle's outer end, was Clement Yeobright, or Clym, as he was called here;
she knew it could be nobody else. The spectacle constituted an area of two
feet in Rembrandt's intensest manner. A strange power in the lounger's
appearance lay in the fact that, though his whole figure was visible, the
observer's eye was only aware of his face.</p>
<p>To one of middle age the countenance was that of a young man, though a
youth might hardly have seen any necessity for the term of immaturity. But
it was really one of those faces which convey less the idea of so many
years as its age than of so much experience as its store. The number of
their years may have adequately summed up Jared, Mahalaleel, and the rest
of the antediluvians, but the age of a modern man is to be measured by the
intensity of his history.</p>
<p>The face was well shaped, even excellently. But the mind within was
beginning to use it as a mere waste tablet whereon to trace its
idiosyncrasies as they developed themselves. The beauty here visible would
in no long time be ruthlessly over-run by its parasite, thought, which
might just as well have fed upon a plainer exterior where there was
nothing it could harm. Had Heaven preserved Yeobright from a wearing habit
of meditation, people would have said, "A handsome man." Had his brain
unfolded under sharper contours they would have said, "A thoughtful man."
But an inner strenuousness was preying upon an outer symmetry, and they
rated his look as singular.</p>
<p>Hence people who began by beholding him ended by perusing him. His
countenance was overlaid with legible meanings. Without being thought-worn
he yet had certain marks derived from a perception of his surroundings,
such as are not unfrequently found on men at the end of the four or five
years of endeavour which follow the close of placid pupilage. He already
showed that thought is a disease of flesh, and indirectly bore evidence
that ideal physical beauty is incompatible with emotional development and
a full recognition of the coil of things. Mental luminousness must be fed
with the oil of life, even though there is already a physical need for it;
and the pitiful sight of two demands on one supply was just showing itself
here.</p>
<p>When standing before certain men the philosopher regrets that thinkers are
but perishable tissue, the artist that perishable tissue has to think.
Thus to deplore, each from his point of view, the mutually destructive
interdependence of spirit and flesh would have been instinctive with these
in critically observing Yeobright.</p>
<p>As for his look, it was a natural cheerfulness striving against depression
from without, and not quite succeeding. The look suggested isolation, but
it revealed something more. As is usual with bright natures, the deity
that lies ignominiously chained within an ephemeral human carcase shone
out of him like a ray.</p>
<p>The effect upon Eustacia was palpable. The extraordinary pitch of
excitement that she had reached beforehand would, indeed, have caused her
to be influenced by the most commonplace man. She was troubled at
Yeobright's presence.</p>
<p>The remainder of the play ended—the Saracen's head was cut off, and
Saint George stood as victor. Nobody commented, any more than they would
have commented on the fact of mushrooms coming in autumn or snowdrops in
spring. They took the piece as phlegmatically as did the actors
themselves. It was a phase of cheerfulness which was, as a matter of
course, to be passed through every Christmas; and there was no more to be
said.</p>
<p>They sang the plaintive chant which follows the play, during which all the
dead men rise to their feet in a silent and awful manner, like the ghosts
of Napoleon's soldiers in the Midnight Review. Afterwards the door opened,
and Fairway appeared on the threshold, accompanied by Christian and
another. They had been waiting outside for the conclusion of the play, as
the players had waited for the conclusion of the dance.</p>
<p>"Come in, come in," said Mrs. Yeobright; and Clym went forward to welcome
them. "How is it you are so late? Grandfer Cantle has been here ever so
long, and we thought you'd have come with him, as you live so near one
another."</p>
<p>"Well, I should have come earlier," Mr. Fairway said and paused to look
along the beam of the ceiling for a nail to hang his hat on; but, finding
his accustomed one to be occupied by the mistletoe, and all the nails in
the walls to be burdened with bunches of holly, he at last relieved
himself of the hat by ticklishly balancing it between the candle-box and
the head of the clock-case. "I should have come earlier, ma'am," he
resumed, with a more composed air, "but I know what parties be, and how
there's none too much room in folks' houses at such times, so I thought I
wouldn't come till you'd got settled a bit."</p>
<p>"And I thought so too, Mrs. Yeobright," said Christian earnestly, "but
Father there was so eager that he had no manners at all, and left home
almost afore 'twas dark. I told him 'twas barely decent in a' old man to
come so oversoon; but words be wind."</p>
<p>"Klk! I wasn't going to bide waiting about, till half the game was over!
I'm as light as a kite when anything's going on!" crowed Grandfer Cantle
from the chimneyseat.</p>
<p>Fairway had meanwhile concluded a critical gaze at Yeobright. "Now, you
may not believe it," he said to the rest of the room, "but I should never
have knowed this gentleman if I had met him anywhere off his own he'th—he's
altered so much."</p>
<p>"You too have altered, and for the better, I think Timothy," said
Yeobright, surveying the firm figure of Fairway.</p>
<p>"Master Yeobright, look me over too. I have altered for the better,
haven't I, hey?" said Grandfer Cantle, rising and placing himself
something above half a foot from Clym's eye, to induce the most searching
criticism.</p>
<p>"To be sure we will," said Fairway, taking the candle and moving it over
the surface of the Grandfer's countenance, the subject of his scrutiny
irradiating himself with light and pleasant smiles, and giving himself
jerks of juvenility.</p>
<p>"You haven't changed much," said Yeobright.</p>
<p>"If there's any difference, Grandfer is younger," appended Fairway
decisively.</p>
<p>"And yet not my own doing, and I feel no pride in it," said the pleased
ancient. "But I can't be cured of my vagaries; them I plead guilty to.
Yes, Master Cantle always was that, as we know. But I am nothing by the
side of you, Mister Clym."</p>
<p>"Nor any o' us," said Humphrey, in a low rich tone of admiration, not
intended to reach anybody's ears.</p>
<p>"Really, there would have been nobody here who could have stood as decent
second to him, or even third, if I hadn't been a soldier in the Bang-up
Locals (as we was called for our smartness)," said Grandfer Cantle. "And
even as 'tis we all look a little scammish beside him. But in the year
four 'twas said there wasn't a finer figure in the whole South Wessex than
I, as I looked when dashing past the shop-winders with the rest of our
company on the day we ran out o' Budmouth because it was thoughted that
Boney had landed round the point. There was I, straight as a young poplar,
wi' my firelock, and my bagnet, and my spatterdashes, and my stock sawing
my jaws off, and my accoutrements sheening like the seven stars! Yes,
neighbours, I was a pretty sight in my soldiering days. You ought to have
seen me in four!"</p>
<p>"'Tis his mother's side where Master Clym's figure comes from, bless ye,"
said Timothy. "I know'd her brothers well. Longer coffins were never made
in the whole country of South Wessex, and 'tis said that poor George's
knees were crumpled up a little e'en as 'twas."</p>
<p>"Coffins, where?" inquired Christian, drawing nearer. "Have the ghost of
one appeared to anybody, Master Fairway?"</p>
<p>"No, no. Don't let your mind so mislead your ears, Christian; and be a
man," said Timothy reproachfully.</p>
<p>"I will." said Christian. "But now I think o't my shadder last night
seemed just the shape of a coffin. What is it a sign of when your shade's
like a coffin, neighbours? It can't be nothing to be afeared of, I
suppose?"</p>
<p>"Afeared, no!" said the Grandfer. "Faith, I was never afeard of nothing
except Boney, or I shouldn't ha' been the soldier I was. Yes, 'tis a
thousand pities you didn't see me in four!"</p>
<p>By this time the mummers were preparing to leave; but Mrs. Yeobright
stopped them by asking them to sit down and have a little supper. To this
invitation Father Christmas, in the name of them all, readily agreed.</p>
<p>Eustacia was happy in the opportunity of staying a little longer. The cold
and frosty night without was doubly frigid to her. But the lingering was
not without its difficulties. Mrs. Yeobright, for want of room in the
larger apartment, placed a bench for the mummers halfway through the
pantry door, which opened from the sitting-room. Here they seated
themselves in a row, the door being left open—thus they were still
virtually in the same apartment. Mrs. Yeobright now murmured a few words
to her son, who crossed the room to the pantry door, striking his head
against the mistletoe as he passed, and brought the mummers beef and
bread, cake pastry, mead, and elder-wine, the waiting being done by him
and his mother, that the little maid-servant might sit as guest. The
mummers doffed their helmets, and began to eat and drink.</p>
<p>"But you will surely have some?" said Clym to the Turkish Knight, as he
stood before that warrior, tray in hand. She had refused, and still sat
covered, only the sparkle of her eyes being visible between the ribbons
which covered her face.</p>
<p>"None, thank you," replied Eustacia.</p>
<p>"He's quite a youngster," said the Saracen apologetically, "and you must
excuse him. He's not one of the old set, but have jined us because t'other
couldn't come."</p>
<p>"But he will take something?" persisted Yeobright. "Try a glass of mead or
elder-wine."</p>
<p>"Yes, you had better try that," said the Saracen. "It will keep the cold
out going home-along."</p>
<p>Though Eustacia could not eat without uncovering her face she could drink
easily enough beneath her disguise. The elder-wine was accordingly
accepted, and the glass vanished inside the ribbons.</p>
<p>At moments during this performance Eustacia was half in doubt about the
security of her position; yet it had a fearful joy. A series of attentions
paid to her, and yet not to her but to some imaginary person, by the first
man she had ever been inclined to adore, complicated her emotions
indescribably. She had loved him partly because he was exceptional in this
scene, partly because she had determined to love him, chiefly because she
was in desperate need of loving somebody after wearying of Wildeve.
Believing that she must love him in spite of herself, she had been
influenced after the fashion of the second Lord Lyttleton and other
persons, who have dreamed that they were to die on a certain day, and by
stress of a morbid imagination have actually brought about that event.
Once let a maiden admit the possibility of her being stricken with love
for someone at a certain hour and place, and the thing is as good as done.</p>
<p>Did anything at this moment suggest to Yeobright the sex of the creature
whom that fantastic guise inclosed, how extended was her scope both in
feeling and in making others feel, and how far her compass transcended
that of her companions in the band? When the disguised Queen of Love
appeared before Aeneas a preternatural perfume accompanied her presence
and betrayed her quality. If such a mysterious emanation ever was
projected by the emotions of an earthly woman upon their object, it must
have signified Eustacia's presence to Yeobright now. He looked at her
wistfully, then seemed to fall into a reverie, as if he were forgetting
what he observed. The momentary situation ended, he passed on, and
Eustacia sipped her wine without knowing what she drank. The man for whom
she had pre-determined to nourish a passion went into the small room, and
across it to the further extremity.</p>
<p>The mummers, as has been stated, were seated on a bench, one end of which
extended into the small apartment, or pantry, for want of space in the
outer room. Eustacia, partly from shyness, had chosen the midmost seat,
which thus commanded a view of the interior of the pantry as well as the
room containing the guests. When Clym passed down the pantry her eyes
followed him in the gloom which prevailed there. At the remote end was a
door which, just as he was about to open it for himself, was opened by
somebody within; and light streamed forth.</p>
<p>The person was Thomasin, with a candle, looking anxious, pale, and
interesting. Yeobright appeared glad to see her, and pressed her hand.
"That's right, Tamsie," he said heartily, as though recalled to himself by
the sight of her, "you have decided to come down. I am glad of it."</p>
<p>"Hush—no, no," she said quickly. "I only came to speak to you."</p>
<p>"But why not join us?"</p>
<p>"I cannot. At least I would rather not. I am not well enough, and we shall
have plenty of time together now you are going to be home a good long
holiday."</p>
<p>"It isn't nearly so pleasant without you. Are you really ill?"</p>
<p>"Just a little, my old cousin—here," she said, playfully sweeping
her hand across her heart.</p>
<p>"Ah, Mother should have asked somebody else to be present tonight,
perhaps?"</p>
<p>"O no, indeed. I merely stepped down, Clym, to ask you—" Here he
followed her through the doorway into the private room beyond, and, the
door closing, Eustacia and the mummer who sat next to her, the only other
witness of the performance, saw and heard no more.</p>
<p>The heat flew to Eustacia's head and cheeks. She instantly guessed that
Clym, having been home only these two or three days, had not as yet been
made acquainted with Thomasin's painful situation with regard to Wildeve;
and seeing her living there just as she had been living before he left
home, he naturally suspected nothing. Eustacia felt a wild jealousy of
Thomasin on the instant. Though Thomasin might possibly have tender
sentiments towards another man as yet, how long could they be expected to
last when she was shut up here with this interesting and travelled cousin
of hers? There was no knowing what affection might not soon break out
between the two, so constantly in each other's society, and not a
distracting object near. Clym's boyish love for her might have languished,
but it might easily be revived again.</p>
<p>Eustacia was nettled by her own contrivances. What a sheer waste of
herself to be dressed thus while another was shining to advantage! Had she
known the full effect of the encounter she would have moved heaven and
earth to get here in a natural manner. The power of her face all lost, the
charm of her emotions all disguised, the fascinations of her coquetry
denied existence, nothing but a voice left to her; she had a sense of the
doom of Echo. "Nobody here respects me," she said. She had overlooked the
fact that, in coming as a boy among other boys, she would be treated as a
boy. The slight, though of her own causing, and self-explanatory, she was
unable to dismiss as unwittingly shown, so sensitive had the situation
made her.</p>
<p>Women have done much for themselves in histrionic dress. To look far below
those who, like a certain fair personator of Polly Peachum early in the
last century, and another of Lydia Languish early in this, (1) have won
not only love but ducal coronets into the bargain, whole shoals of them
have reached to the initial satisfaction of getting love almost whence
they would. But the Turkish Knight was denied even the chance of achieving
this by the fluttering ribbons which she dared not brush aside.</p>
<p>(1) Written in 1877.<br/></p>
<p>Yeobright returned to the room without his cousin. When within two or
three feet of Eustacia he stopped, as if again arrested by a thought. He
was gazing at her. She looked another way, disconcerted, and wondered how
long this purgatory was to last. After lingering a few seconds he passed
on again.</p>
<p>To court their own discomfiture by love is a common instinct with certain
perfervid women. Conflicting sensations of love, fear, and shame reduced
Eustacia to a state of the utmost uneasiness. To escape was her great and
immediate desire. The other mummers appeared to be in no hurry to leave;
and murmuring to the lad who sat next to her that she preferred waiting
for them outside the house, she moved to the door as imperceptibly as
possible, opened it, and slipped out.</p>
<p>The calm, lone scene reassured her. She went forward to the palings and
leant over them, looking at the moon. She had stood thus but a little time
when the door again opened. Expecting to see the remainder of the band
Eustacia turned; but no—Clym Yeobright came out as softly as she had
done, and closed the door behind him.</p>
<p>He advanced and stood beside her. "I have an odd opinion," he said, "and
should like to ask you a question. Are you a woman—or am I wrong?"</p>
<p>"I am a woman."</p>
<p>His eyes lingered on her with great interest. "Do girls often play as
mummers now? They never used to."</p>
<p>"They don't now."</p>
<p>"Why did you?"</p>
<p>"To get excitement and shake off depression," she said in low tones.</p>
<p>"What depressed you?"</p>
<p>"Life."</p>
<p>"That's a cause of depression a good many have to put up with."</p>
<p>"Yes."</p>
<p>A long silence. "And do you find excitement?" asked Clym at last.</p>
<p>"At this moment, perhaps."</p>
<p>"Then you are vexed at being discovered?"</p>
<p>"Yes; though I thought I might be."</p>
<p>"I would gladly have asked you to our party had I known you wished to
come. Have I ever been acquainted with you in my youth?"</p>
<p>"Never."</p>
<p>"Won't you come in again, and stay as long as you like?"</p>
<p>"No. I wish not to be further recognized."</p>
<p>"Well, you are safe with me." After remaining in thought a minute he added
gently, "I will not intrude upon you longer. It is a strange way of
meeting, and I will not ask why I find a cultivated woman playing such a
part as this." She did not volunteer the reason which he seemed to hope
for, and he wished her good night, going thence round to the back of the
house, where he walked up and down by himself for some time before
re-entering.</p>
<p>Eustacia, warmed with an inner fire, could not wait for her companions
after this. She flung back the ribbons from her face, opened the gate, and
at once struck into the heath. She did not hasten along. Her grandfather
was in bed at this hour, for she so frequently walked upon the hills on
moonlight nights that he took no notice of her comings and goings, and,
enjoying himself in his own way, left her to do likewise. A more important
subject than that of getting indoors now engrossed her. Yeobright, if he
had the least curiosity, would infallibly discover her name. What then?
She first felt a sort of exultation at the way in which the adventure had
terminated, even though at moments between her exultations she was abashed
and blushful. Then this consideration recurred to chill her: What was the
use of her exploit? She was at present a total stranger to the Yeobright
family. The unreasonable nimbus of romance with which she had encircled
that man might be her misery. How could she allow herself to become so
infatuated with a stranger? And to fill the cup of her sorrow there would
be Thomasin, living day after day in inflammable proximity to him; for she
had just learnt that, contrary to her first belief, he was going to stay
at home some considerable time.</p>
<p>She reached the wicket at Mistover Knap, but before opening it she turned
and faced the heath once more. The form of Rainbarrow stood above the
hills, and the moon stood above Rainbarrow. The air was charged with
silence and frost. The scene reminded Eustacia of a circumstance which
till that moment she had totally forgotten. She had promised to meet
Wildeve by the Barrow this very night at eight, to give a final answer to
his pleading for an elopement.</p>
<p>She herself had fixed the evening and the hour. He had probably come to
the spot, waited there in the cold, and been greatly disappointed.</p>
<p>"Well, so much the better—it did not hurt him," she said serenely.
Wildeve had at present the rayless outline of the sun through smoked
glass, and she could say such things as that with the greatest facility.</p>
<p>She remained deeply pondering; and Thomasin's winning manner towards her
cousin arose again upon Eustacia's mind.</p>
<p>"O that she had been married to Damon before this!" she said. "And she
would if it hadn't been for me! If I had only known—if I had only
known!"</p>
<p>Eustacia once more lifted her deep stormy eyes to the moonlight, and,
sighing that tragic sigh of hers which was so much like a shudder, entered
the shadow of the roof. She threw off her trappings in the outhouse,
rolled them up, and went indoors to her chamber.</p>
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