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<h2> CHAPTER X. THE SEARCH. </h2>
<p>THE fire burning in the grate was not a very large one; and the outer air
(as I had noticed on my way to the house) had something of a wintry
sharpness in it that day.</p>
<p>Still, my first feeling, when Major Fitz-David left me, was a feeling of
heat and oppression, with its natural result, a difficulty in breathing
freely. The nervous agitation of the time was, I suppose, answerable for
these sensations. I took off my bonnet and mantle and gloves, and opened
the window for a little while. Nothing was to be seen outside but a paved
courtyard, with a skylight in the middle, closed at the further end by the
wall of the Major's stables. A few minutes at the window cooled and
refreshed me. I shut it down again, and took my first step on the way of
discovery. In other words, I began my first examination of the four walls
around me, and of all that they inclosed.</p>
<p>I was amazed at my own calmness. My interview with Major Fitz-David had,
perhaps, exhausted my capacity for feeling any strong emotion, for the
time at least. It was a relief to me to be alone; it was a relief to me to
begin the search. Those were my only sensations so far.</p>
<p>The shape of the room was oblong. Of the two shorter walls, one contained
the door in grooves which I have already mentioned as communicating with
the front room; the other was almost entirely occupied by the broad window
which looked out on the courtyard.</p>
<p>Taking the doorway wall first, what was there, in the shape of furniture,
on either side of it? There was a card-table on either side. Above each
card-table stood a magnificent china bowl placed on a gilt and carved
bracket fixed to the wall.</p>
<p>I opened the card-tables. The drawers beneath contained nothing but cards,
and the usual counters and markers. With the exception of one pack, the
cards in both tables were still wrapped in their paper covers exactly as
they had come from the shop. I examined the loose pack, card by card. No
writing, no mark of any kind, was visible on any one of them. Assisted by
a library ladder which stood against the book-case, I looked next into the
two china bowls. Both were perfectly empty. Was there anything more to
examine on that side of the room? In the two corners there were two little
chairs of inlaid wood, with red silk cushions. I turned them up and looked
under the cushions, and still I made no discoveries. When I had put the
chairs back in their places my search on one side of the room was
complete. So far I had found nothing.</p>
<p>I crossed to the opposite wall, the wall which contained the window.</p>
<p>The window (occupying, as I have said, almost the entire length and height
of the wall) was divided into three compartments, and was adorned at their
extremity by handsome curtains of dark red velvet. The ample heavy folds
of the velvet left just room at the two corners of the wall for two little
upright cabinets in buhl, containing rows of drawers, and supporting two
fine bronze productions (reduced in size) of the Venus Milo and the Venus
Callipyge. I had Major Fitz-David's permission to do just what I pleased.
I opened the six drawers in each cabinet, and examined their contents
without hesitation.</p>
<p>Beginning with the cabinet in the right-hand corner, my investigations
were soon completed. All the six drawers were alike occupied by a
collection of fossils, which (judging by the curious paper inscriptions
fixed on some of them) were associated with a past period of the Major's
life when he had speculated, not very successfully in mines. After
satisfying myself that the drawers contained nothing but the fossils and
their inscriptions, I turned to the cabinet in the left-hand corner next.</p>
<p>Here a variety of objects was revealed to view, and the examination
accordingly occupied a much longer time.</p>
<p>The top drawer contained a complete collection of carpenter's tools in
miniature, relics probably of the far-distant time when the Major was a
boy, and when parents or friends had made him a present of a set of toy
tools. The second drawer was filled with toys of another sort—presents
made to Major Fitz-David by his fair friends. Embroidered braces, smart
smoking-caps, quaint pincushions, gorgeous slippers, glittering purses,
all bore witness to the popularity of the friend of the women. The
contents of the third drawer were of a less interesting sort: the entire
space was filled with old account-books, ranging over a period of many
years. After looking into each book, and opening and shaking it uselessly,
in search of any loose papers which might be hidden between the leaves, I
came to the fourth drawer, and found more relics of past pecuniary
transactions in the shape of receipted bills, neatly tied together, and
each inscribed at the back. Among the bills I found nearly a dozen loose
papers, all equally unimportant. The fifth drawer was in sad confusion. I
took out first a loose bundle of ornamental cards, each containing the
list of dishes at past banquets given or attended by the Major in London
or Paris; next, a box full of delicately tinted quill pens (evidently a
lady's gift); next, a quantity of old invitation cards; next, some
dog's-eared French plays and books of the opera; next, a pocket-corkscrew,
a bundle of cigarettes, and a bunch of rusty keys; lastly, a passport, a
set of luggage labels, a broken silver snuff-box, two cigar-cases, and a
torn map of Rome. "Nothing anywhere to interest me," I thought, as I
closed the fifth, and opened the sixth and last drawer.</p>
<p>The sixth drawer was at once a surprise and a disappointment. It literally
contained nothing but the fragments of a broken vase.</p>
<p>I was sitting, at the time, opposite to the cabinet, in a low chair. In
the momentary irritation caused by my discovery of the emptiness of the
last drawer, I had just lifted my foot to push it back into its place,
when the door communicating with the hall opened, and Major Fitz-David
stood before me.</p>
<p>His eyes, after first meeting mine, traveled downward to my foot. The
instant he noticed the open drawer I saw a change in his face. It was only
for a moment; but in that moment he looked at me with a sudden suspicion
and surprise—looked as if he had caught me with my hand on the clew.</p>
<p>"Pray don't let me disturb you," said Major Fitz-David. "I have only come
here to ask you a question."</p>
<p>"What is it, Major?"</p>
<p>"Have you met with any letters of mine in the course of your
investigations?"</p>
<p>"I have found none yet," I answered. "If I do discover any letters, I
shall, of course, not take the liberty of examining them."</p>
<p>"I wanted to speak to you about that," he rejoined. "It only struck me a
moment since, upstairs, that my letters might embarrass you. In your place
I should feel some distrust of anything which I was not at liberty to
examine. I think I can set this matter right, however, with very little
trouble to either of us. It is no violation of any promises or pledges on
my part if I simply tell you that my letters will not assist the discovery
which you are trying to make. You can safely pass them over as objects
that are not worth examining from your point of view. You understand me, I
am sure?"</p>
<p>"I am much obliged to you, Major—I quite understand."</p>
<p>"Are you feeling any fatigue?"</p>
<p>"None whatever, thank you."</p>
<p>"And you still hope to succeed? You are not beginning to be discouraged
already?"</p>
<p>"I am not in the least discouraged. With your kind leave, I mean to
persevere for some time yet."</p>
<p>I had not closed the drawer of the cabinet while we were talking, and I
glanced carelessly, as I answered him, at the fragments of the broken
vase. By this time he had got his feelings under perfect command. He, too,
glanced at the fragments of the vase with an appearance of perfect
indifference. I remembered the look of suspicion and surprise that had
escaped him on entering the room, and I thought his indifference a little
overacted.</p>
<p>"<i>That</i> doesn't look very encouraging," he said, with a smile,
pointing to the shattered pieces of china in the drawer.</p>
<p>"Appearances are not always to be trusted," I replied. "The wisest thing I
can do in my present situation is to suspect everything, even down to a
broken vase."</p>
<p>I looked hard at him as I spoke. He changed the subject.</p>
<p>"Does the music upstairs annoy you?" he asked.</p>
<p>"Not in the least, Major."</p>
<p>"It will soon be over now. The singing-master is going, and the Italian
master has just arrived. I am sparing no pains to make my young prima
donna a most accomplished person. In learning to sing she must also learn
the language which is especially the language of music. I shall perfect
her in the accent when I take her to Italy. It is the height of my
ambition to have her mistaken for an Italian when she sings in public. Is
there anything I can do before I leave you again? May I send you some more
champagne? Please say yes!"</p>
<p>"A thousand thanks, Major. No more champagne for the present."</p>
<p>He turned at the door to kiss his hand to me at parting. At the same
moment I saw his eyes wander slyly toward the book-case. It was only for
an instant. I had barely detected him before he was out of the room.</p>
<p>Left by myself again, I looked at the book-case—looked at it
attentively for the first time.</p>
<p>It was a handsome piece of furniture in ancient carved oak, and it stood
against the wall which ran parallel with the hall of the house. Excepting
the space occupied in the upper corner of the room by the second door,
which opened into the hall, the book-case filled the whole length of the
wall down to the window. The top was ornamented by vases, candelabra, and
statuettes, in pairs, placed in a row. Looking along the row, I noticed a
vacant space on the top of the bookcase at the extremity of it which was
nearest to the window. The opposite extremity, nearest to the door, was
occupied by a handsome painted vase of a very peculiar pattern. Where was
the corresponding vase, which ought to have been placed at the
corresponding extremity of the book-case? I returned to the open sixth
drawer of the cabinet, and looked in again. There was no mistaking the
pattern on the fragments when I examined them now. The vase which had been
broken was the vase which had stood in the place now vacant on the top of
the book-case at the end nearest to the window.</p>
<p>Making this discovery, I took out the fragments, down to the smallest
morsel of the shattered china, and examined them carefully one after
another.</p>
<p>I was too ignorant of the subject to be able to estimate the value of the
vase or the antiquity of the vase, or even to know whether it were of
British or of foreign manufacture. The ground was of a delicate
cream-color. The ornaments traced on this were wreaths of flowers and
Cupids surrounding a medallion on either side of the vase. Upon the space
within one of the medallions was painted with exquisite delicacy a woman's
head, representing a nymph or a goddess, or perhaps a portrait of some
celebrated person—I was not learned enough to say which. The other
medallion inclosed the head of a man, also treated in the classical style.
Reclining shepherds and shepherdesses in Watteau costume, with their dogs
and their sheep, formed the adornments of the pedestal. Such had the vase
been in the days of its prosperity, when it stood on the top of the
book-case. By what accident had it become broken? And why had Major
Fitz-David's face changed when he found that I had discovered the remains
of his shattered work of art in the cabinet drawer?</p>
<p>The remains left those serious questions unanswered—the remains told
me absolutely nothing. And yet, if my own observation of the Major were to
be trusted, the way to the clew of which I was in search lay, directly or
indirectly, through the broken vase.</p>
<p>It was useless to pursue the question, knowing no more than I knew now. I
returned to the book-case.</p>
<p>Thus far I had assumed (without any sufficient reason) that the clew of
which I was in search must necessarily reveal itself through a written
paper of some sort. It now occurred to me—after the movement which I
had detected on the part of the Major—that the clew might quite as
probably present itself in the form of a book.</p>
<p>I looked along the lower rows of shelves, standing just near enough to
them to read the titles on the backs of the volumes. I saw Voltaire in red
morocco, Shakespeare in blue, Walter Scott in green, the "History of
England" in brown, the "Annual Register" in yellow calf. There I paused,
wearied and discouraged already by the long rows of volumes. How (I
thought to myself) am I to examine all these books? And what am I to look
for, even if I do examine them all?</p>
<p>Major Fitz-David had spoken of a terrible misfortune which had darkened my
husband's past life. In what possible way could any trace of that
misfortune, or any suggestive hint of something resembling it, exist in
the archives of the "Annual Register" or in the pages of Voltaire? The
bare idea of such a thing seemed absurd The mere attempt to make a serious
examination in this direction was surely a wanton waste of time.</p>
<p>And yet the Major had certainly stolen a look at the book-case. And again,
the broken vase had once stood on the book-case. Did these circumstances
justify me in connecting the vase and the book-case as twin landmarks on
the way that led to discovery? The question was not an easy one to decide
on the spur of the moment.</p>
<p>I looked up at the higher shelves.</p>
<p>Here the collection of books exhibited a greater variety. The volumes were
smaller, and were not so carefully arranged as on the lower shelves. Some
were bound in cloth, some were only protected by paper covers; one or two
had fallen, and lay flat on the shelves. Here and there I saw empty spaces
from which books had been removed and not replaced. In short, there was no
discouraging uniformity in these higher regions of the book-case. The
untidy top shelves looked suggestive of some lucky accident which might
unexpectedly lead the way to success. I decided, if I did examine the
book-case at all, to begin at the top.</p>
<p>Where was the library ladder?</p>
<p>I had left it against the partition wall which divided the back room from
the room in front. Looking that way, I necessarily looked also toward the
door that ran in grooves—the imperfectly closed door through which I
heard Major Fitz-David question his servant on the subject of my personal
appearance when I first entered the house. No one had moved this door
during the time of my visit. Everybody entering or leaving the room had
used the other door, which led into the hall.</p>
<p>At the moment when I looked round something stirred in the front room. The
movement let the light in suddenly through the small open space left by
the partially closed door. Had somebody been watching me through the
chink? I stepped softly to the door, and pushed it back until it was wide
open. There was the Major, discovered in the front room! I saw it in his
face—he had been watching me at the book-case!</p>
<p>His hat was in his hand. He was evidently going out; and he dexterously
took advantage of that circumstance to give a plausible reason for being
so near the door.</p>
<p>"I hope I didn't frighten you," he said.</p>
<p>"You startled me a little, Major."</p>
<p>"I am so sorry, and so ashamed! I was just going to open the door, and
tell you that I am obliged to go out. I have received a pressing message
from a lady. A charming person—I should so like you to know her. She
is in sad trouble, poor thing. Little bills, you know, and nasty
tradespeople who want their money, and a husband—oh, dear me, a
husband who is quite unworthy of her! A most interesting creature. You
remind me of her a little; you both have the same carriage of the head. I
shall not be more than half an hour gone. Can I do anything for you? You
are looking fatigued. Pray let me send for some more champagne. No?
Promise to ring when you want it. That's right! <i>Au revoir</i>, my
charming friend—<i>au revoir!</i>"</p>
<p>I pulled the door to again the moment his back was turned, and sat down
for a while to compose myself.</p>
<p>He had been watching me at the book-case! The man who was in my husband's
confidence, the man who knew where the clew was to be found, had been
watching me at the book-case! There was no doubt of it now. Major
Fitz-David had shown me the hiding-place of the secret in spite of
himself!</p>
<p>I looked with indifference at the other pieces of furniture, ranged
against the fourth wall, which I had not examined yet. I surveyed, without
the slightest feeling of curiosity, all the little elegant trifles
scattered on the tables and on the chimney-piece, each one of which might
have been an object of suspicion to me under other circumstances. Even the
water-color drawings failed to interest me in my present frame of mind. I
observed languidly that they were most of them portraits of ladies—fair
idols, no doubt, of the Major's facile adoration—and I cared to
notice no more. <i>My</i> business in that room (I was certain of it now!)
began and ended with the book-case. I left my seat to fetch the library
ladder, determining to begin the work of investigation on the top shelves.</p>
<p>On my way to the ladder I passed one of the tables, and saw the keys lying
on it which Major Fitz-David had left at my disposal.</p>
<p>The smaller of the two keys instantly reminded me of the cupboards under
the bookcase. I had strangely overlooked these. A vague distrust of the
locked doors a vague doubt of what they might be hiding from me, stole
into my mind. I left the ladder in its place against the wall, and set
myself to examine the contents of the cupboards first.</p>
<p>The cupboards were three in number. As I opened the first of them the
singing upstairs ceased. For a moment there was something almost
oppressive in the sudden change from noise to silence. I suppose my nerves
must have been overwrought. The next sound in the house—nothing more
remarkable than the creaking of a man's boots descending the stairs—made
me shudder all over. The man was no doubt the singing-master, going away
after giving his lesson. I heard the house door close on him, and started
at the familiar sound as if it were something terrible which I had never
heard before. Then there was silence again. I roused myself as well as I
could, and began my examination of the first cupboard.</p>
<p>It was divided into two compartments.</p>
<p>The top compartment contained nothing but boxes of cigars, ranged in rows,
one on another. The under compartment was devoted to a collection of
shells. They were all huddled together anyhow, the Major evidently setting
a far higher value on his cigars than on his shells. I searched this lower
compartment carefully for any object interesting to me which might be
hidden in it. Nothing was to be found in any part of it besides the
shells.</p>
<p>As I opened the second cupboard it struck me that the light was beginning
to fail.</p>
<p>I looked at the window: it was hardly evening yet. The darkening of the
light was produced by gathering clouds. Rain-drops pattered against the
glass; the autumn wind whistled mournfully in the corners of the
courtyard. I mended the fire before I renewed my search. My nerves were in
fault again, I suppose. I shivered when I went back to the book-case. My
hands trembled: I wondered what was the matter with me.</p>
<p>The second cupboard revealed (in the upper division of it) some really
beautiful cameos—not mounted, but laid on cotton-wool in neat
cardboard trays. In one corner, half hidden under one of the trays, there
peeped out the whit e leaves of a little manuscript. I pounced on it
eagerly, only to meet with a new disappointment: the manuscript proved to
be a descriptive catalogue of the cameos—nothing more!</p>
<p>Turning to the lower division of the cupboard, I found more costly
curiosities in the shape of ivory carvings from Japan and specimens of
rare silk from China. I began to feel weary of disinterring the Major's
treasures. The longer I searched, the farther I seemed to remove myself
from the one object that I had it at heart to attain. After closing the
door of the second cupboard, I almost doubted whether it would be worth my
while to proceed farther and open the third and last door.</p>
<p>A little reflection convinced me that it would be as well, now that I had
begun my examination of the lower regions of the book-case, to go on with
it to the end. I opened the last cupboard.</p>
<p>On the upper shelf there appeared, in solitary grandeur, one object only—a
gorgeously bound book.</p>
<p>It was of a larger size than usual, judging of it by comparison with the
dimensions of modern volumes. The binding was of blue velvet, with clasps
of silver worked in beautiful arabesque patterns, and with a lock of the
same precious metal to protect the book from prying eyes. When I took it
up, I found that the lock was not closed.</p>
<p>Had I any right to take advantage of this accident, and open the book? I
have put the question since to some of my friends of both sexes. The women
all agree that I was perfectly justified, considering the serious
interests that I had at stake, in taking any advantage of any book in the
Major's house. The men differ from this view, and declare that I ought to
have put back the volume in blue velvet unopened, carefully guarding
myself from any after-temptation to look at it again by locking the
cupboard door. I dare say the men are right.</p>
<p>Being a woman, however, I opened the book without a moment's hesitation.</p>
<p>The leaves were of the finest vellum, with tastefully designed
illuminations all round them. And what did these highly ornamental pages
contain? To my unutterable amazement and disgust, they contained locks of
hair, let neatly into the center of each page, with inscriptions beneath,
which proved them to be love-tokens from various ladies who had touched
the Major's susceptible heart at different periods of his life. The
inscriptions were written in other languages besides English, but they
appeared to be all equally devoted to the same curious purpose, namely, to
reminding the Major of the dates at which his various attachments had come
to an untimely end. Thus the first page exhibited a lock of the lightest
flaxen hair, with these lines beneath: "My adored Madeline. Eternal
constancy. Alas, July 22, 1839!" The next page was adorned by a darker
shade of hair, with a French inscription under it: "Clemence. Idole de mon
�me. Toujours fidele. Helas, 2me Avril, 1840." A lock of red hair
followed, with a lamentation in Latin under it, a note being attached to
the date of dissolution of partnership in this case, stating that the lady
was descended from the ancient Romans, and was therefore mourned
appropriately in Latin by her devoted Fitz-David. More shades of hair and
more inscriptions followed, until I was weary of looking at them. I put
down the book, disgusted with the creatures who had assisted in filling
it, and then took it up again, by an afterthought. Thus far I had
thoroughly searched everything that had presented itself to my notice.
Agreeable or not agreeable, it was plainly of serious importance to my own
interests to go on as I had begun, and thoroughly to search the book.</p>
<p>I turned over the pages until I came to the first blank leaf. Seeing that
they were all blank leaves from this place to the end, I lifted the volume
by the back, and, as a last measure of precaution, shook it so as to
dislodge any loose papers or cards which might have escaped my notice
between the leaves.</p>
<p>This time my patience was rewarded by a discovery which indescribably
irritated and distressed me.</p>
<p>A small photograph, mounted on a card, fell out of the book. A first
glance showed me that it represented the portraits of two persons.</p>
<p>One of the persons I recognized as my husband.</p>
<p>The other person was a woman.</p>
<p>Her face was entirely unknown to me. She was not young. The picture
represented her seated on a chair, with my husband standing behind, and
bending over her, holding one of her hands in his. The woman's face was
hard-featured and ugly, with the marking lines of strong passions and
resolute self-will plainly written on it. Still, ugly as she was, I felt a
pang of jealousy as I noticed the familiarly affectionate action by which
the artist (with the permission of his sitters, of course) had connected
the two figures in a group. Eustace had briefly told me, in the days of
our courtship, that he had more than once fancied himself to be in love
before he met with me. Could this very unattractive woman have been one of
the early objects of his admiration? Had she been near enough and dear
enough to him to be photographed with her hand in his? I looked and looked
at the portraits until I could endure them no longer. Women are strange
creatures—mysteries even to themselves. I threw the photograph from
me into a corner of the cupboard. I was savagely angry with my husband; I
hated—yes, hated with all my heart and soul!—the woman who had
got his hand in hers—the unknown woman with the self-willed,
hard-featured face.</p>
<p>All this time the lower shelf of the cupboard was still waiting to be
looked over.</p>
<p>I knelt down to examine it, eager to clear my mind, if I could, of the
degrading jealousy that had got possession of me.</p>
<p>Unfortunately, the lower shelf contained nothing but relics of the Major's
military life, comprising his sword and pistols, his epaulets, his sash,
and other minor accouterments. None of these objects excited the slightest
interest in me. My eyes wandered back to the upper shelf; and, like the
fool I was (there is no milder word that can fitly describe me at that
moment), I took the photograph out again, and enraged myself uselessly by
another look at it. This time I observed, what I had not noticed before,
that there were some lines of writing (in a woman's hand) at the back of
the portraits. The lines ran thus:</p>
<p>"To Major Fitz-David, with two vases. From his friends, S. and E. M."</p>
<p>Was one of those two vases the vase that had been broken? And was the
change that I had noticed in Major Fitz-David's face produced by some past
association in connection with it, which in some way affected me? It might
or might not be so. I was little disposed to indulge in speculation on
this topic while the far more serious question of the initials confronted
me on the back of the photograph.</p>
<p>"S. and E. M.?" Those last two letters might stand for the initials of my
husband's name—his true name—Eustace Macallan. In this case
the first letter ("S.") in all probability indicated <i>her</i> name. What
right had she to associate herself with him in that manner? I considered a
little—my memory exerted itself—I suddenly called to mind that
Eustace had sisters. He had spoken of them more than once in the time
before our marriage. Had I been mad enough to torture myself with jealousy
of my husband's sister? It might well be so; "S." might stand for his
sister's Christian name. I felt heartily ashamed of myself as this new
view of the matter dawned on me. What a wrong I had done to them both in
my thoughts! I turned the photograph, sadly and penitently, to examine the
portraits again with a kinder and truer appreciation of them.</p>
<p>I naturally looked now for a family likeness between the two faces. There
was no family likeness; on the contrary, they were as unlike each other in
form and expression as faces could be. <i>Was</i> she his sister, after
all? I looked at her hands, as represented in the portrait. Her right hand
was clasped by Eustace; her left hand lay on her lap. On the third finger,
distinctly visible, there was a wedding-ring. Were any of my husband's
sisters married? I had myself asked him the question when he mentioned
them to me, and I perfectly remembered that he had replied in the
negative.</p>
<p>Was it possible that my first jealous instinct had led me to the right
conclusion after all? If it had, what did the association of the three
initial letters mean? What did the wedding-ring mean? Good Heavens! was I
looking at the portrait of a rival in my husband's affections—and
was that rival his Wife?</p>
<p>I threw the photograph from me with a cry of horror. For one terrible
moment I felt as if my reason was giving way. I don't know what would have
happened, or what I should have done next, if my love for Eustace had not
taken the uppermost place among the contending emotions that tortured me.
That faithful love steadied my brain. That faithful love roused the
reviving influences of my better and nobler sense. Was the man whom I had
enshrined in my heart of hearts capable of such base wickedness as the
bare idea of his marriage to another woman implied? No! Mine was the
baseness, mine the wickedness, in having even for a moment thought it of
him!</p>
<p>I picked up the detestable photograph from the floor, and put it back in
the book. I hastily closed the cupboard door, fetched the library ladder,
and set it against the book-case. My one idea now was the idea of taking
refuge in employment of any sort from my own thoughts. I felt the hateful
suspicion that had degraded me coming back again in spite of my efforts to
repel it. The books! the books! my only hope was to absorb myself, body
and soul, in the books.</p>
<p>I had one foot on the ladder, when I heard the door of the room open—the
door which communicated with the hall.</p>
<p>I looked around, expecting to see the Major. I saw instead the Major's
future prima donna standing just inside the door, with her round eyes
steadily fixed on me.</p>
<p>"I can stand a good deal," the girl began, coolly, "but I can't stand <i>this</i>
any longer?"</p>
<p>"What is it that you can't stand any longer?" I asked.</p>
<p>"If you have been here a minute, you have been here two good hours," she
went on. "All by yourself in the Major's study. I am of a jealous
disposition—I am. And I want to know what it means." She advanced a
few steps nearer to me, with a heightening color and a threatening look.
"Is he going to bring <i>you</i> out on the stage?" she asked, sharply.</p>
<p>"Certainly not."</p>
<p>"He ain't in love with you, is he?"</p>
<p>Under other circumstances I might have told her to leave the room. In my
position at that critical moment the mere presence of a human creature was
a positive relief to me. Even this girl, with her coarse questions and her
uncultivated manners, was a welcome intruder on my solitude: she offered
me a refuge from myself.</p>
<p>"Your question is not very civilly put," I said. "However, I excuse you.
You are probably not aware that I am a married woman."</p>
<p>"What has that got to do with it?" she retorted. "Married or single, it's
all one to the Major. That brazen-faced hussy who calls herself Lady
Clarinda is married, and she sends him nosegays three times a week! Not
that I care, mind you, about the old fool. But I've lost my situation at
the railway, and I've got my own interests to look after, and I don't know
what may happen if I let other women come between him and me. That's where
the shoe pinches, don't you see? I'm not easy in my mind when I see him
leaving you mistress here to do just what you like. No offense! I speak
out—I do. I want to know what you are about all by yourself in this
room? How did you pick up with the Major? I never heard him speak of you
before to-day."</p>
<p>Under all the surface selfishness and coarseness of this strange girl
there was a certain frankness and freedom which pleaded in her favor—to
my mind, at any rate. I answered frankly and freely on my side.</p>
<p>"Major Fitz-David is an old friend of my husband's," I said, "and he is
kind to me for my husband's sake. He has given me permission to look in
this room—"</p>
<p>I stopped, at a loss how to describe my employment in terms which should
tell her nothing, and which should at the same time successfully set her
distrust of me at rest.</p>
<p>"To look about in this room—for what?" she asked. Her eye fell on
the library ladder, beside which I was still standing. "For a book?" she
resumed.</p>
<p>"Yes," I said, taking the hint. "For a book."</p>
<p>"Haven't you found it yet?"</p>
<p>"No."</p>
<p>She looked hard at me, undisguisedly considering with herself whether I
were or were not speaking the truth.</p>
<p>"You seem to be a good sort," she said, making up her mind at last.
"There's nothing stuck-up about you. I'll help you if I can. I have
rummaged among the books here over and over again, and I know more about
them than you do. What book do you want?"</p>
<p>As she put that awkward question she noticed for the first time Lady
Clarinda's nosegay lying on the side-table where the Major had left it.
Instantly forgetting me and my book, this curious girl pounced like a fury
on the flowers, and actually trampled them under her feet!</p>
<p>"There!" she cried. "If I had Lady Clarinda here I'd serve her in the same
way."</p>
<p>"What will the Major say?" I asked.</p>
<p>"What do I care? Do you suppose I'm afraid of <i>him?</i> Only last week I
broke one of his fine gimcracks up there, and all through Lady Clarinda
and her flowers!"</p>
<p>She pointed to the top of the book-case—to the empty space on it
close by the window. My heart gave a sudden bound as my eyes took the
direction indicated by her finger. <i>She</i> had broken the vase! Was the
way to discovery about to reveal itself to me through this girl? Not a
word would pass my lips; I could only look at her.</p>
<p>"Yes!" she said. "The thing stood there. He knows how I hate her flowers,
and he put her nosegay in the vase out of my way. There was a woman's face
painted on the china, and he told me it was the living image of <i>her</i>
face. It was no more like her than I am. I was in such a rage that I up
with the book I was reading at the time and shied it at the painted face.
Over the vase went, bless your heart, crash to the floor. Stop a bit! I
wonder whether <i>that's</i> the book you have been looking after? Are you
like me? Do you like reading Trials?"</p>
<p>Trials? Had I heard her aright? Yes: she had said Trials.</p>
<p>I answered by an affirmative motion of my head. I was still speechless.
The girl sauntered in her cool way to the fire-place, and, taking up the
tongs, returned with them to the book-case.</p>
<p>"Here's where the book fell," she said—"in the space between the
book-case and the wall. I'll have it out in no time."</p>
<p>I waited without moving a muscle, without uttering a word.</p>
<p>She approached me with the tongs in one hand and with a plainly bound
volume in the other.</p>
<p>"Is that the book?" she said. "Open it, and see."</p>
<p>I took the book from her.</p>
<p>"It is tremendously interesting," she went on. "I've read it twice over—I
have. Mind you, <i>I</i> believe he did it, after all."</p>
<p>Did it? Did what? What was she talking about? I tried to put the question
to her. I struggled—quite vainly—to say only these words:
"What are you talking about?"</p>
<p>She seemed to lose all patience with me. She snatched the book out of my
hand, and opened it before me on the table by which we were standing side
by side.</p>
<p>"I declare, you're as helpless as a baby!" she said, contemptuously.
"There! <i>Is</i> that the book?"</p>
<p>I read the first lines on the title-page—</p>
<p>A COMPLETE REPORT OF THE TRIAL OF EUSTACE MACALLAN.</p>
<p>I stopped and looked up at her. She started back from me with a scream of
terror. I looked down again at the title-page, and read the next lines—</p>
<p>FOR THE ALLEGED POISONING OF HIS WIFE.</p>
<p>There, God's mercy remembered me. There the black blank of a swoon
swallowed me up.</p>
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