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<h2> CHAPTER XXVIII. IN THE DARK. </h2>
<p>WITH such a man as Miserrimus Dexter, and with such a purpose as I had in
view, no half-confidences were possible. I must either risk the most
unreserved acknowledgment of the interests that I really had at stake, or
I must make the best excuse that occurred to me for abandoning my
contemplated experiment at the last moment. In my present critical
situation, no such refuge as a middle course lay before me—even if I
had been inclined to take it. As things were, I ran risks, and plunged
headlong into my own affairs at starting.</p>
<p>"Thus far, you know little or nothing about me, Mr. Dexter," I said. "You
are, as I believe, quite unaware that my husband and I are not living
together at the present time."</p>
<p>"Is it necessary to mention your husband?" he asked, coldly, without
looking up from his embroidery, and without pausing in his work.</p>
<p>"It is absolutely necessary," I answered. "I can explain myself to you in
no other way."</p>
<p>He bent his head, and sighed resignedly.</p>
<p>"You and your husband are not living together at the present time," he
resumed. "Does that mean that Eustace has left you?"</p>
<p>"He has left me, and has gone abroad."</p>
<p>"Without any necessity for it?"</p>
<p>"Without the least necessity."</p>
<p>"Has he appointed no time for his return to you?"</p>
<p>"If he persevere in his present resolution, Mr. Dexter, Eustace will never
return to me."</p>
<p>For the first time he raised his head from his embroidery—with a
sudden appearance of interest.</p>
<p>"Is the quarrel so serious as that?" he asked. "Are you free of each
other, pretty Mrs. Valeria, by common consent of both parties?"</p>
<p>The tone in which he put the question was not at all to my liking. The
look he fixed on me was a look which unpleasantly suggested that I had
trusted myself alone with him, and that he might end in taking advantage
of it. I reminded him quietly, by my manner more than by my words, of the
respect which he owed to me.</p>
<p>"You are entirely mistaken," I said. "There is no anger—there is not
even a misunderstanding between us. Our parting has cost bitter sorrow,
Mr. Dexter, to him and to me."</p>
<p>He submitted to be set right with ironical resignation. "I am all
attention," he said, threading his needle. "Pray go on; I won't interrupt
you again." Acting on this invitation, I told him the truth about my
husband and myself quite unreservedly, taking care, however, at the same
time, to put Eustace's motives in the best light that they would bear.
Miserrimus Dexter dropped his embroidery on his lap, and laughed softly to
himself, with an impish enjoyment of my poor little narrative, which set
every nerve in me on edge as I looked at him.</p>
<p>"I see nothing to laugh at," I said, sharply.</p>
<p>His beautiful blue eyes rested on me with a look of innocent surprise.</p>
<p>"Nothing to laugh at," he repeated, "in such an exhibition of human folly
as you have just described?" His expression suddenly changed his face
darkened and hardened very strangely. "Stop!" he cried, before I could
answer him. "There can be only one reason for you're taking it as
seriously as you do. Mrs. Valeria! you are fond of your husband."</p>
<p>"Fond of him isn't strong enough to express it," I retorted. "I love him
with my whole heart."</p>
<p>Miserrimus Dexter stroked his magnificent beard, and contemplatively
repeated my words. "You love him with your whole heart? Do you know why?"</p>
<p>"Because I can't help it," I answered, doggedly.</p>
<p>He smiled satirically, and went on with his embroidery. "Curious!" he said
to himself; "Eustace's first wife loved him too. There are some men whom
the women all like, and there are other men whom the women never care for.
Without the least reason for it in either case. The one man is just as
good as the other; just as handsome, as agreeable, as honorable, and as
high in rank as the other. And yet for Number One they will go through
fire and water, and for Number Two they won't so much as turn their heads
to look at him. Why? They don't know themselves—as Mrs. Valeria has
just said! Is there a physical reason for it? Is there some potent
magnetic emanation from Number One which Number Two doesn't possess? I
must investigate this when I have the time, and when I find myself in the
humor." Having so far settled the question to his own entire satisfaction,
he looked up at me again. "I am still in the dark about you and your
motives," he said. "I am still as far as ever from understanding what your
interest is in investigating that hideous tragedy at Gleninch. Clever Mrs.
Valeria, please take me by the hand, and lead me into the light. You're
not offended with me are you? Make it up; and I will give you this pretty
piece of embroidery when I have done it. I am only a poor, solitary,
deformed wretch, with a quaint turn of mind; I mean no harm. Forgive me!
indulge me! enlighten me!"</p>
<p>He resumed his childish ways; he recovered his innocent smile, with the
odd little puckers and wrinkles accompanying it at the corners of his
eyes. I began to doubt whether I might not have been unreasonably hard on
him. I penitently resolved to be more considerate toward his infirmities
of mind and body during the remainder of my visit.</p>
<p>"Let me go back for a moment, Mr. Dexter, to past times at Gleninch," I
said. "You agree with me in believing Eustace to be absolutely innocent of
the crime for which he was tried. Your evidence at the Trial tells me
that."</p>
<p>He paused over his work, and looked at me with a grave and stern attention
which presented his face in quite a new light.</p>
<p>"That is <i>our</i> opinion," I resumed. "But it was not the opinion of
the Jury. Their verdict, you remember, was Not Proven. In plain English,
the Jury who tried my husband declined to express their opinion,
positively and publicly, that he was innocent. Am I right?"</p>
<p>Instead of answering, he suddenly put his embroidery back in the basket,
and moved the machinery of his chair, so as to bring it close by mine.</p>
<p>"Who told you this?" he asked.</p>
<p>"I found it for myself in a book."</p>
<p>Thus far his face had expressed steady attention—and no more. Now,
for the first time, I thought I saw something darkly passing over him
which betrayed itself to my mind as rising distrust.</p>
<p>"Ladies are not generally in the habit of troubling their heads about dry
questions of law," he said. "Mrs. Eustace Macallan the Second, you must
have some very powerful motive for turning your studies that way."</p>
<p>"I have a very powerful motive, Mr. Dexter My husband is resigned to the
Scotch Verdict His mother is resigned to it. His friends (so far as I
know) are resigned to it—"</p>
<p>"Well?"</p>
<p>"Well! I don't agree with my husband, or his mother, or his friends. I
refuse to submit to the Scotch Verdict."</p>
<p>The instant I said those words, the madness in him which I had hitherto
denied, seemed to break out. He suddenly stretched himself over his chair:
he pounced on me, with a hand on each of my shoulders; his wild eyes
questioned me fiercely, frantically, within a few inches of my face.</p>
<p>"What do you mean?" he shouted, at the utmost pitch of his ringing and
resonant voice.</p>
<p>A deadly fear of him shook me. I did my best to hide the outward betrayal
of it. By look and word, I showed him, as firmly as I could, that I
resented the liberty he had taken with me.</p>
<p>"Remove your hands, sir," I said, "and retire to your proper place."</p>
<p>He obeyed me mechanically. He apologized to me mechanically. His whole
mind was evidently still filled with the words that I had spoken to him,
and still bent on discovering what those words meant.</p>
<p>"I beg your pardon," he said; "I humbly beg your pardon. The subject
excites me, frightens me, maddens me. You don't know what a difficulty I
have in controlling myself. Never mind. Don't take me seriously. Don't be
frightened at me. I am so ashamed of myself—I feel so small and so
miserable at having offended you. Make me suffer for it. Take a stick and
beat me. Tie me down in my chair. Call up Ariel, who is as strong as a
horse, and tell her to hold me. Dear Mrs. Valeria! Injured Mrs. Valeria!
I'll endure anything in the way of punishment, if you will only tell me
what you mean by not submitting to the Scotch Verdict." He backed his
chair penitently as he made that entreaty. "Am I far enough away yet?" he
asked, with a rueful look. "Do I still frighten you? I'll drop out of
sight, if you prefer it, in the bottom of the chair."</p>
<p>He lifted the sea-green coverlet. In another moment he would have
disappeared like a puppet in a show if I had not stopped him.</p>
<p>"Say nothing more, and do nothing more; I accept your apologies," I said.
"When I tell you that I refuse to submit to the opinion of the Scotch
Jury, I mean exactly what my words express. That verdict has left a stain
on my husband's character. He feels the stain bitterly. How bitterly no
one knows so well as I do. His sense of his degradation is the sense that
has parted him from me. It is not enough for <i>him</i> that I am
persuaded of his innocence. Nothing will bring him back to me—nothing
will persuade Eustace that I think him worthy to be the guide and
companion of my life—but the proof of his innocence, set before the
Jury which doubts it, and the public which doubts it, to this day. He and
his friends and his lawyers all despair of ever finding that proof now.
But I am his wife; and none of you love him as I love him. I alone refuse
to despair; I alone refuse to listen to reason. If God spare me, Mr.
Dexter, I dedicate my life to the vindication of my husband's innocence.
You are his old friend—I am here to ask you to help me."</p>
<p>It appeared to be now my turn to frighten <i>him.</i> The color left his
face. He passed his hand restlessly over his forehead, as if he were
trying to brush some delusion out of his brain.</p>
<p>"Is this one of my dreams?" he asked, faintly. "Are you a Vision of the
night?"</p>
<p>"I am only a friendless woman," I said, "who has lost all that she loved
and prized, and who is trying to win it back again."</p>
<p>He began to move his chair nearer to me once more. I lifted my hand. He
stopped the chair directly. There was a moment of silence. We sat watching
one another. I saw his hands tremble as he laid them on the coverlet; I
saw his face grow paler and paler, and his under lip drop. What dead and
buried remembrances had I brought to life in him, in all their olden
horror?</p>
<p>He was the first to speak again.</p>
<p>"So this is your interest," he said, "in clearing up the mystery of Mrs.
Eustace Macallan's death?"</p>
<p>"Yes."</p>
<p>"And you believe that I can help you?"</p>
<p>"I do."</p>
<p>He slowly lifted one of his hands, and pointed at me with his long
forefinger.</p>
<p>"You suspect somebody," he said.</p>
<p>The tone in which he spoke was low and threatening; it warned me to be
careful. At the same time, if I now shut him out of my confidence, I
should lose the reward that might yet be to come, for all that I had
suffered and risked at that perilous interview.</p>
<p>"You suspect somebody," he repeated.</p>
<p>"Perhaps!" was all that I said in return.</p>
<p>"Is the person within your reach?"</p>
<p>"Not yet."</p>
<p>"Do you know where the person is?"</p>
<p>"No."</p>
<p>He laid his head languidly on the back of his chair, with a trembling
long-drawn sigh. Was he disappointed? Or was he relieved? Or was he simply
exhausted in mind and body alike? Who could fathom him? Who could say?</p>
<p>"Will you give me five minutes?" he asked, feebly and wearily, without
raising his head. "You know already how any reference to events at
Gleninch excites and shakes me. I shall be fit for it again, if you will
kindly give me a few minutes to myself. There are books in the next room.
Please excuse me."</p>
<p>I at once retired to the circular antechamber. He followed me in his
chair, and closed the door between us.</p>
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