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<h2> CHAPTER V </h2>
<p>Natasha's wedding to Bezukhov, which took place in 1813, was the last
happy event in the family of the old Rostovs. Count Ilya Rostov died that
same year and, as always happens, after the father's death the family
group broke up.</p>
<p>The events of the previous year: the burning of Moscow and the flight from
it, the death of Prince Andrew, Natasha's despair, Petya's death, and the
old countess' grief fell blow after blow on the old count's head. He
seemed to be unable to understand the meaning of all these events, and
bowed his old head in a spiritual sense as if expecting and inviting
further blows which would finish him. He seemed now frightened and
distraught and now unnaturally animated and enterprising.</p>
<p>The arrangements for Natasha's marriage occupied him for a while. He
ordered dinners and suppers and obviously tried to appear cheerful, but
his cheerfulness was not infectious as it used to be: on the contrary it
evoked the compassion of those who knew and liked him.</p>
<p>When Pierre and his wife had left, he grew very quiet and began to
complain of depression. A few days later he fell ill and took to his bed.
He realized from the first that he would not get up again, despite the
doctor's encouragement. The countess passed a fortnight in an armchair by
his pillow without undressing. Every time she gave him his medicine he
sobbed and silently kissed her hand. On his last day, sobbing, he asked
her and his absent son to forgive him for having dissipated their property—that
being the chief fault of which he was conscious. After receiving communion
and unction he quietly died; and next day a throng of acquaintances who
came to pay their last respects to the deceased filled the house rented by
the Rostovs. All these acquaintances, who had so often dined and danced at
his house and had so often laughed at him, now said, with a common feeling
of self-reproach and emotion, as if justifying themselves: "Well, whatever
he may have been he was a most worthy man. You don't meet such men
nowadays.... And which of us has not weaknesses of his own?"</p>
<p>It was just when the count's affairs had become so involved that it was
impossible to say what would happen if he lived another year that he
unexpectedly died.</p>
<p>Nicholas was with the Russian army in Paris when the news of his father's
death reached him. He at once resigned his commission, and without waiting
for it to be accepted took leave of absence and went to Moscow. The state
of the count's affairs became quite obvious a month after his death,
surprising everyone by the immense total of small debts the existence of
which no one had suspected. The debts amounted to double the value of the
property.</p>
<p>Friends and relations advised Nicholas to decline the inheritance. But he
regarded such a refusal as a slur on his father's memory, which he held
sacred, and therefore would not hear of refusing and accepted the
inheritance together with the obligation to pay the debts.</p>
<p>The creditors who had so long been silent, restrained by a vague but
powerful influence exerted on them while he lived by the count's careless
good nature, all proceeded to enforce their claims at once. As always
happens in such cases rivalry sprang up as to which should get paid first,
and those who like Mitenka held promissory notes given them as presents
now became the most exacting of the creditors. Nicholas was allowed no
respite and no peace, and those who had seemed to pity the old man—the
cause of their losses (if they were losses)—now remorselessly
pursued the young heir who had voluntarily undertaken the debts and was
obviously not guilty of contracting them.</p>
<p>Not one of the plans Nicholas tried succeeded; the estate was sold by
auction for half its value, and half the debts still remained unpaid.
Nicholas accepted thirty thousand rubles offered him by his brother-in-law
Bezukhov to pay off debts he regarded as genuinely due for value received.
And to avoid being imprisoned for the remainder, as the creditors
threatened, he re-entered the government service.</p>
<p>He could not rejoin the army where he would have been made colonel at the
next vacancy, for his mother now clung to him as her one hold on life; and
so despite his reluctance to remain in Moscow among people who had known
him before, and despite his abhorrence of the civil service, he accepted a
post in Moscow in that service, doffed the uniform of which he was so
fond, and moved with his mother and Sonya to a small house on the Sivtsev
Vrazhek.</p>
<p>Natasha and Pierre were living in Petersburg at the time and had no clear
idea of Nicholas' circumstances. Having borrowed money from his
brother-in-law, Nicholas tried to hide his wretched condition from him.
His position was the more difficult because with his salary of twelve
hundred rubles he had not only to keep himself, his mother, and Sonya, but
had to shield his mother from knowledge of their poverty. The countess
could not conceive of life without the luxurious conditions she had been
used to from childhood and, unable to realize how hard it was for her son,
kept demanding now a carriage (which they did not keep) to send for a
friend, now some expensive article of food for herself, or wine for her
son, or money to buy a present as a surprise for Natasha or Sonya, or for
Nicholas himself.</p>
<p>Sonya kept house, attended on her aunt, read to her, put up with her whims
and secret ill-will, and helped Nicholas to conceal their poverty from the
old countess. Nicholas felt himself irredeemably indebted to Sonya for all
she was doing for his mother and greatly admired her patience and
devotion, but tried to keep aloof from her.</p>
<p>He seemed in his heart to reproach her for being too perfect, and because
there was nothing to reproach her with. She had all that people are valued
for, but little that could have made him love her. He felt that the more
he valued her the less he loved her. He had taken her at her word when she
wrote giving him his freedom and now behaved as if all that had passed
between them had been long forgotten and could never in any case be
renewed.</p>
<p>Nicholas' position became worse and worse. The idea of putting something
aside out of his salary proved a dream. Not only did he not save anything,
but to comply with his mother's demands he even incurred some small debts.
He could see no way out of this situation. The idea of marrying some rich
woman, which was suggested to him by his female relations, was repugnant
to him. The other way out—his mother's death—never entered his
head. He wished for nothing and hoped for nothing, and deep in his heart
experienced a gloomy and stern satisfaction in an uncomplaining endurance
of his position. He tried to avoid his old acquaintances with their
commiseration and offensive offers of assistance; he avoided all
distraction and recreation, and even at home did nothing but play cards
with his mother, pace silently up and down the room, and smoke one pipe
after another. He seemed carefully to cherish within himself the gloomy
mood which alone enabled him to endure his position.</p>
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