<h2><SPAN name="CHAPTER_V" id="CHAPTER_V"></SPAN>CHAPTER V.</h2>
<h3>I SIGHT A WHITE COAST.</h3>
<p>Four days did I pass in that little open boat.</p>
<p>The first day was fine, till sunset; it then blew fresh from the
north-west, and I was obliged to keep the boat before the wind. The next
day was dark and turbulent, with heavy falls of snow and a high swell
from the north, and the wind a small gale. On the third day the sun
shone, and it was a fair day, but horribly cold, and I saw two icebergs
like clouds upon the far western sea-line. There followed a cruel night
of clouded skies, sleet, and snow, and a very troubled sea; and then
broke the fourth day, as softly brilliant as an English May day, but
cold—great God, how cold!</p>
<p>Thus might I epitomize this passage; and I do so to spare you the
weariness of a relation of uneventful suffering.</p>
<p>In those four days I mainly ran before the wind, and in this way drove
many leagues south, though whenever a chance offered I hauled my sheet
for the east. I know not, I am sure, how the boat lived. I might pretend
it was due to my clever management—I do not say I had no share in my
own preservation, but to God belongs all the praise.</p>
<p>In the blackness of the first night the sea boiled all about me. The
boat leapt into hollows in which the sail slapped the mast. One look
behind me at the high dark curl of the oncoming surge had so affrighted
me that I never durst turn my head again lest the sight should deprive
me of the nerve to hold the oar with which I steered. I sat as squarely
as the task of steering would suffer, trusting that if a sea should
tumble over the stern my back would serve as a breakwater, and save the
boat from being swamped. The whole sail was on her, and I could not help
myself; for it would have been certain death to quit the steering oar
for an instant. It was this that saved me, perhaps; for the boat blew
along with such prodigious speed, running to the height of a sea as
though she meant to dart from that eminence into the air, that the slope
of each following surge swung like a pendulum under her, and though her
sail was becalmed in the trough, her momentum was so great that she was
speeding up the acclivity and catching the whole weight of the wind
afresh before there was time for her to lose way.</p>
<p>I was nearly dead with cold and misery when the morning came, but the
sparkling sun and the blue sky cheered me, and as wind and sea fell with
the soaring of the orb, I was enabled to flatten aft the sheet and let
the boat steer herself whilst I beat my arms about for warmth and broke
my fast. When I look back I wonder that I should have taken any pains to
live. That it is possible for the human mind at any period of its
existence to be absolutely hopeless I do not believe; but I can very
honestly say that when I gazed round upon the enormous sea I was in, and
considered the size of my boat, the quantity of my provisions, and my
distance (even if I was heading that way) from the nearest point of
land, I was not sensible of the faintest stirring of hope, and viewed
myself as a dead man.</p>
<p>No bird came near me. Once I spied the back of a great black fish about
a quarter of a mile off. The wetness of it caught the sunshine and
reflected it like a mirror of polished steel, and the flash was so
brilliant it might have passed for a bed of white fire floating on the
blue heavings. But nothing more that was living did I meet, and such was
the vastness of the sea over which my little keel glided, in the midst
of which I sat abandoned by the angels, that for utter loneliness I
might have been the very last of the human race.</p>
<p>When the third night came down with sullen blasts sweeping into a steady
storming of wind, that swung a strong melancholy howl through the
gloom, it found me so weak with cold, watching, and anxiety, and the
want of space wherein to rid my limbs of the painful cramp which
weighted them with an insupportable leaden sensation, that I had barely
power to control the boat with the oar. I pined for sleep; one hour of
slumber would, I felt, give me new life, but I durst not close my eyes.
The boat was sweeping through the dark and seething seas, and her course
had to be that of an arrow, or she would capsize and be smothered in a
breath.</p>
<p>Maybe I fell something delirious, for I had many strange and frightful
fancies. Indeed I doubt not it was the spirit of madness—that is
certainly tonical when small—which furnished strength enough to my arm
to steer with. It was like the action of a powerful cordial in my blood,
and the very horrors it fed my brain with were an animation to my
physical qualities. The gale became a voice; it cried out my name, and
every shout of it past my ear had the sound of the word 'Despair!' I
witnessed the forms of huge phantoms flying over the boat; I watched the
beating of their giant wings of shadow and heard the thunder of their
laughter as they fled ahead, leaving scores of like monstrous shapes to
follow. There was a faint lightning of phosphor in the creaming heads of
the ebon surges, and my sick imagination twisted that pallid complexion
into the dim reflection of the lamps of illuminated pavilions at the
bottom of the sea; mystic palaces of green marble, radiant cities in the
measureless kingdoms of the ocean gods. I had a fancy of roofs of pearl
below, turrets of milk-white coral, pavements of rainbow lustre like to
the shootings and dartings of the hues of shells inclined and trembled
to the sun. I thought I could behold the movements of shapes as
indeterminable as the forms which swarm in dreams, human brows crowned
with gold, the cold round emerald eyes of fish, the creamy breasts of
women, large outlines slowly floating upwards, making a deeper blackness
upon the blackness like the dye of the electric storm upon the velvet
bosom of midnight. Often would I shrink from side to side, starting from
a fancied apparition leaping into terrible being out of some hurling
block of liquid obscurity.</p>
<p>Once a light shone upon the masthead. At any other time I should have
known this to be a St. Elmo's fire, a corposant, the ignis fatuus of the
deep, and hailed it with a seaman's faith in its promise of gentle
weather. But to my distempered fancy it was a lanthorn hung up by a
spirit hand; I traced the dusky curve of an arm and observed the busy
twitching of visionary fingers by the rays of the ghostly light; the
outline of a large face of a bland and sorrowful expression, pallid as
any foam-flake whirling past, came into the sphere of those graveyard
rays. I shrieked and shut my eyes, and when I looked again the light was
gone.</p>
<p>Long before daybreak I was exhausted. Mercifully, the wind was scant;
the stars shone very gloriously; on high sparkled the Cross of the
southern world. A benign influence seemed to steal into me out of its
silver shining; the craze fell from me, and I wept.</p>
<p>Shortly afterwards, worn out by three days and nights of suffering, I
fell into a deep sleep, and when I awoke my eyes opened right upon the
blinding sun.</p>
<p>This was the morning of the fourth day. I was without a watch. By the
height of the sun I reckoned the hour to be ten. I threw a languid
glance at the compass and found the boat's head pointing north-west; she
fell off and came to, being without governance, and was scarcely sailing
therefore. The wind was west, a very light breeze, just enough to put a
bright twinkling into the long, smooth folds of the wide and weighty
swell that was rolling up from the north-east. I tried to stand, but was
so benumbed that many minutes passed before I had the use of my legs.
Brightly as the sun shone there was no more warmth in his light than you
find in a moon-beam on a frosty night, and the bite in the air was like
the pang of ice itself pressed against the cheek. My right hand suffered
most; I had fallen asleep clasping the loom of the steering oar, and
when I awoke my fingers still gripped it, so that, on withdrawing them,
they remained curved like talons, and I believed I had lost their use,
and even reckoned they would snap off and so set up a mortification,
till by much diligent rubbing I grew sensible of a small glow which,
increasing, ended in rendering the joints supple.</p>
<p>I stood up to take a view of the horizon, and the first sight that met
my eye forced a cry from me. Extending the whole length of the
south-west seaboard lay what I took to be a line of white coast melting
at either extremity into the blue airy distance. Even at the low
elevation of the boat my eye seemed to measure thirty miles of it. It
was not white as chalk is; there was something of a crystalline
complexion upon the face of its solidity. It was too far off to enable
me to remark its outline; yet on straining my sight—the atmosphere
being very exquisitely clear—I thought I could distinguish the
projections of peaks, of rounded slopes, and aerial angularities in
places which, in the refractive lens of the air, looked, with their hue
of glassy azure, like the loom of high land behind the coastal line.</p>
<p>The notion that it was ice came into my head after the first prospect of
it; and then I returned to my earlier belief that it was land. Methought
if it were ice, it must be the borderland of the Antarctic circle, the
limits of the unfrozen ocean, for it was incredible that so mighty a
body could signify less than the capes and terraces of a continent of
ice glazing the circumference of the pole for leagues and leagues; but
then I also knew that, though first the brig and then my boat had been
for days steadily blown south, I was still to the north of the South
Shetland parallels, and many degrees therefore removed from the polar
barrier. Hence I concluded that what I saw was land, and that the
peculiar crystal shining of it was caused by the snow that covered it.</p>
<p>But what land? Some large island that had been missed by the explorers
and left uncharted? I put a picture of the map of this part of the world
before my mind's eye, and fell to an earnest consideration of it, but
could recollect of no land hereabouts, unless indeed we had been wildly
wrong in our reckoning aboard the brig, and I in the boat had been
driven four or five times the distance I had calculated—things not to
be entertained.</p>
<p>Yet even as a mere break in the frightful and enduring continuity of the
sea-line—even as something that was not sea nor sky nor the cold silent
and mocking illusion of clouds—it took a character of blessedness in my
eyes; my gaze hung upon it joyously, and my heart swelled with a new
impulse of life in my breast. It would be strange, I thought, if on
approaching it something to promise me deliverance from this dreadful
situation did not offer itself—some whaler or trader at anchor, signs
of habitation and of the presence of men, nay, even a single hut to
serve as a refuge from the pitiless cold, the stormy waters, the black,
lonely, delirious watches of the night, till help should heave into view
with the white canvas of a ship.</p>
<p>I put the boat's head before the wind, and steered with one hand whilst
I got some breakfast with the other. I thanked God for the brightness of
the day and for the sight of that strange white line of land, that went
in glimmering blobs of faintness to the trembling horizon where the
southern end of it died out. The swell rose full and brimming ahead,
rolling in sapphire hills out of the north-east, as I have said, whence
I inferred that that extremity of the land did not extend very much
further than I could see it, otherwise there could not have been so much
weight of water as I found in the heaving.</p>
<p>The breeze blew lightly and was the weaker for my running before it; but
the little line of froth that slipped past either side the boat gave me
to know that the speed would not be less than four miles in the hour;
and as I reckoned the land to be but a few leagues distant, I calculated
upon being ashore some little while before sundown.</p>
<p>In this way two hours passed. By this time the features of the coast
were tolerably distinct. Yet I was puzzled. There was a peculiar sheen
all about the irregular sky-line; a kind of pearly whitening, as it
were, of the heavens beyond, like to the effect produced by the rising
of a very delicate soft mist melting from a mountain's brow into the
air. This dismayed me. Still I cried to myself, 'It must be land! All
that whiteness is snow, and the luminous tinge above it is the
reflection of the glaring sunshine thrown upwards from the dazzle. It
cannot be ice! 'tis too mighty a barrier. Surely no single iceberg ever
reached to the prodigious proportions of that coast. And it cannot be an
assemblage of bergs, for there is no break—it is leagues of solid
conformation. Oh yes, it is land, sure enough! some island whose tops
and seaboard are covered with snow. But what of that? It may be
populated all the same. Are the northern kingdoms of Europe bare of life
because of the winter rigours?' And then thought to myself, if that
island have natives, I would rather encounter them as the savages of an
ice-bound country than as the inhabitants of a land of sunshine and
spices and radiant vegetation; for it is the denizens of the most
gloriously fair ocean seats in the world who are man-eaters; not the
Patagonian, giant though he be, nor the blubber-fed anatomies of the
ice-climes.</p>
<p>Thus I sought to reassure and comfort myself. Meanwhile my boat sailed
quietly along, running up and down the smooth and foamless hills of
water very buoyantly, and the sun slided into the north-west sky and
darted a reddening beam upon the coast towards which I steered.</p>
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