<h2>CHAPTER III.</h2>
<p>I was frankly, at the end of three days, a very prejudiced
critic, so that one morning when, in the garden, my great man had
offered to read me something I quite held my breath as I
listened. It was the written scheme of another
book—something put aside long ago, before his illness, but
that he had lately taken out again to reconsider. He had
been turning it round when I came down on him, and it had grown
magnificently under this second hand. Loose liberal
confident, it might have passed for a great gossiping eloquent
letter—the overflow into talk of an artist’s amorous
plan. The theme I thought singularly rich, quite the
strongest he had yet treated; and this familiar statement of it,
full too of fine maturities, was really, in summarised splendour,
a mine of gold, a precious independent work. I remember
rather profanely wondering whether the ultimate production could
possibly keep at the pitch. His reading of the fond
epistle, at any rate, made me feel as if I were, for the
advantage of posterity, in close correspondence with
him—were the distinguished person to whom it had been
affectionately addressed. It was a high distinction simply
to be told such things. The idea he now communicated had
all the freshness, the flushed fairness, of the conception
untouched and untried: it was Venus rising from the sea and
before the airs had blown upon her. I had never been so
throbbingly present at such an unveiling. But when he had
tossed the last bright word after the others, as I had seen
cashiers in banks, weighing mounds of coin, drop a final
sovereign into the tray, I knew a sudden prudent alarm.</p>
<p>“My dear master, how, after all, are you going to do
it? It’s infinitely noble, but what time it will
take, what patience and independence, what assured, what perfect
conditions! Oh for a lone isle in a tepid sea!”</p>
<p>“Isn’t this practically a lone isle, and
aren’t you, as an encircling medium, tepid enough?”
he asked, alluding with a laugh to the wonder of my young
admiration and the narrow limits of his little provincial
home. “Time isn’t what I’ve lacked
hitherto: the question hasn’t been to find it, but to use
it. Of course my illness made, while it lasted, a great
hole—but I dare say there would have been a hole at any
rate. The earth we tread has more pockets than a
billiard-table. The great thing is now to keep on my
feet.”</p>
<p>“That’s exactly what I mean.”</p>
<p>Neil Paraday looked at me with eyes—such pleasant eyes
as he had—in which, as I now recall their expression, I
seem to have seen a dim imagination of his fate. He was
fifty years old, and his illness had been cruel, his
convalescence slow. “It isn’t as if I
weren’t all right.”</p>
<p>“Oh if you weren’t all right I wouldn’t look
at you!” I tenderly said.</p>
<p>We had both got up, quickened as by this clearer air, and he
had lighted a cigarette. I had taken a fresh one, which
with an intenser smile, by way of answer to my exclamation, he
applied to the flame of his match. “If I
weren’t better I shouldn’t have thought of
<i>that</i>!” He flourished his script in his
hand.</p>
<p>“I don’t want to be discouraging, but that’s
not true,” I returned. “I’m sure that
during the months you lay here in pain you had visitations
sublime. You thought of a thousand things. You think
of more and more all the while. That’s what makes
you, if you’ll pardon my familiarity, so respectable.
At a time when so many people are spent you come into your second
wind. But, thank God, all the same, you’re
better! Thank God, too, you’re not, as you were
telling me yesterday, ‘successful.’ If
<i>you</i> weren’t a failure what would be the use of
trying? That’s my one reserve on the subject of your
recovery—that it makes you ‘score,’ as the
newspapers say. It looks well in the newspapers, and almost
anything that does that’s horrible. ‘We are
happy to announce that Mr. Paraday, the celebrated author, is
again in the enjoyment of excellent health.’ Somehow
I shouldn’t like to see it.”</p>
<p>“You won’t see it; I’m not in the least
celebrated—my obscurity protects me. But
couldn’t you bear even to see I was dying or dead?”
my host enquired.</p>
<p>“Dead—passe encore; there’s nothing so
safe. One never knows what a living artist may do—one
has mourned so many. However, one must make the worst of
it. You must be as dead as you can.”</p>
<p>“Don’t I meet that condition in having just
published a book?”</p>
<p>“Adequately, let us hope; for the book’s verily a
masterpiece.”</p>
<p>At this moment the parlour-maid appeared in the door that
opened from the garden: Paraday lived at no great cost, and the
frisk of petticoats, with a timorous “Sherry, sir?”
was about his modest mahogany. He allowed half his income
to his wife, from whom he had succeeded in separating without
redundancy of legend. I had a general faith in his having
behaved well, and I had once, in London, taken Mrs. Paraday down
to dinner. He now turned to speak to the maid, who offered
him, on a tray, some card or note, while, agitated, excited, I
wandered to the end of the precinct. The idea of his
security became supremely dear to me, and I asked myself if I
were the same young man who had come down a few days before to
scatter him to the four winds. When I retraced my steps he
had gone into the house, and the woman—the second London
post had come in—had placed my letters and a newspaper on a
bench. I sat down there to the letters, which were a brief
business, and then, without heeding the address, took the paper
from its envelope. It was the journal of highest renown,
<i>The Empire</i> of that morning. It regularly came to
Paraday, but I remembered that neither of us had yet looked at
the copy already delivered. This one had a great mark on
the “editorial” page, and, uncrumpling the wrapper, I
saw it to be directed to my host and stamped with the name of his
publishers. I instantly divined that <i>The Empire</i> had
spoken of him, and I’ve not forgotten the odd little shock
of the circumstance. It checked all eagerness and made me
drop the paper a moment. As I sat there conscious of a
palpitation I think I had a vision of what was to be. I had
also a vision of the letter I would presently address to Mr.
Pinhorn, breaking, as it were, with Mr. Pinhorn. Of course,
however, the next minute the voice of <i>The Empire</i> was in my
ears.</p>
<p>The article wasn’t, I thanked heaven, a review; it was a
“leader,” the last of three, presenting Neil Paraday
to the human race. His new book, the fifth from his hand,
had been but a day or two out, and <i>The Empire</i>, already
aware of it, fired, as if on the birth of a prince, a salute of a
whole column. The guns had been booming these three hours
in the house without our suspecting them. The big
blundering newspaper had discovered him, and now he was
proclaimed and anointed and crowned. His place was assigned
him as publicly as if a fat usher with a wand had pointed to the
topmost chair; he was to pass up and still up, higher and higher,
between the watching faces and the envious sounds—away up
to the dais and the throne. The article was
“epoch-making,” a landmark in his life; he had taken
rank at a bound, waked up a national glory. A national
glory was needed, and it was an immense convenience he was
there. What all this meant rolled over me, and I fear I
grew a little faint—it meant so much more than I could say
“yea” to on the spot. In a flash, somehow, all
was different; the tremendous wave I speak of had swept something
away. It had knocked down, I suppose, my little customary
altar, my twinkling tapers and my flowers, and had reared itself
into the likeness of a temple vast and bare. When Neil
Paraday should come out of the house he would come out a
contemporary. That was what had happened: the poor man was
to be squeezed into his horrible age. I felt as if he had
been overtaken on the crest of the hill and brought back to the
city. A little more and he would have dipped down the short
cut to posterity and escaped.</p>
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