<p>Canon O’Hanlon put the Blessed Sacrament back into the tabernacle and
genuflected and the choir sang <i>Laudate Dominum omnes gentes</i> and then he
locked the tabernacle door because the benediction was over and Father Conroy
handed him his hat to put on and crosscat Edy asked wasn’t she coming but Jacky
Caffrey called out:</p>
<p>—O, look, Cissy!</p>
<p>And they all looked was it sheet lightning but Tommy saw it too over the trees
beside the church, blue and then green and purple.</p>
<p>—It’s fireworks, Cissy Caffrey said.</p>
<p>And they all ran down the strand to see over the houses and the church,
helterskelter, Edy with the pushcar with baby Boardman in it and Cissy holding
Tommy and Jacky by the hand so they wouldn’t fall running.</p>
<p>—Come on, Gerty, Cissy called. It’s the bazaar fireworks.</p>
<p>But Gerty was adamant. She had no intention of being at their beck and call. If
they could run like rossies she could sit so she said she could see from where
she was. The eyes that were fastened upon her set her pulses tingling. She
looked at him a moment, meeting his glance, and a light broke in upon her.
Whitehot passion was in that face, passion silent as the grave, and it had made
her his. At last they were left alone without the others to pry and pass
remarks and she knew he could be trusted to the death, steadfast, a sterling
man, a man of inflexible honour to his fingertips. His hands and face were
working and a tremour went over her. She leaned back far to look up where the
fireworks were and she caught her knee in her hands so as not to fall back
looking up and there was no-one to see only him and her when she revealed all
her graceful beautifully shaped legs like that, supply soft and delicately
rounded, and she seemed to hear the panting of his heart, his hoarse breathing,
because she knew too about the passion of men like that, hotblooded, because
Bertha Supple told her once in dead secret and made her swear she’d never about
the gentleman lodger that was staying with them out of the Congested Districts
Board that had pictures cut out of papers of those skirtdancers and highkickers
and she said he used to do something not very nice that you could imagine
sometimes in the bed. But this was altogether different from a thing like that
because there was all the difference because she could almost feel him draw her
face to his and the first quick hot touch of his handsome lips. Besides there
was absolution so long as you didn’t do the other thing before being married
and there ought to be women priests that would understand without your telling
out and Cissy Caffrey too sometimes had that dreamy kind of dreamy look in her
eyes so that she too, my dear, and Winny Rippingham so mad about actors’
photographs and besides it was on account of that other thing coming on the way
it did.</p>
<p>And Jacky Caffrey shouted to look, there was another and she leaned back and
the garters were blue to match on account of the transparent and they all saw
it and they all shouted to look, look, there it was and she leaned back ever so
far to see the fireworks and something queer was flying through the air, a soft
thing, to and fro, dark. And she saw a long Roman candle going up over the
trees, up, up, and, in the tense hush, they were all breathless with excitement
as it went higher and higher and she had to lean back more and more to look up
after it, high, high, almost out of sight, and her face was suffused with a
divine, an entrancing blush from straining back and he could see her other
things too, nainsook knickers, the fabric that caresses the skin, better than
those other pettiwidth, the green, four and eleven, on account of being white
and she let him and she saw that he saw and then it went so high it went out of
sight a moment and she was trembling in every limb from being bent so far back
that he had a full view high up above her knee where no-one ever not even on
the swing or wading and she wasn’t ashamed and he wasn’t either to look in that
immodest way like that because he couldn’t resist the sight of the wondrous
revealment half offered like those skirtdancers behaving so immodest before
gentlemen looking and he kept on looking, looking. She would fain have cried to
him chokingly, held out her snowy slender arms to him to come, to feel his lips
laid on her white brow, the cry of a young girl’s love, a little strangled cry,
wrung from her, that cry that has rung through the ages. And then a rocket
sprang and bang shot blind blank and O! then the Roman candle burst and it was
like a sigh of O! and everyone cried O! O! in raptures and it gushed out of it
a stream of rain gold hair threads and they shed and ah! they were all greeny
dewy stars falling with golden, O so lovely, O, soft, sweet, soft!</p>
<p>Then all melted away dewily in the grey air: all was silent. Ah! She glanced at
him as she bent forward quickly, a pathetic little glance of piteous protest,
of shy reproach under which he coloured like a girl. He was leaning back
against the rock behind. Leopold Bloom (for it is he) stands silent, with bowed
head before those young guileless eyes. What a brute he had been! At it again?
A fair unsullied soul had called to him and, wretch that he was, how had he
answered? An utter cad he had been! He of all men! But there was an infinite
store of mercy in those eyes, for him too a word of pardon even though he had
erred and sinned and wandered. Should a girl tell? No, a thousand times no.
That was their secret, only theirs, alone in the hiding twilight and there was
none to know or tell save the little bat that flew so softly through the
evening to and fro and little bats don’t tell.</p>
<p>Cissy Caffrey whistled, imitating the boys in the football field to show what a
great person she was: and then she cried:</p>
<p>—Gerty! Gerty! We’re going. Come on. We can see from farther up.</p>
<p>Gerty had an idea, one of love’s little ruses. She slipped a hand into her
kerchief pocket and took out the wadding and waved in reply of course without
letting him and then slipped it back. Wonder if he’s too far to. She rose. Was
it goodbye? No. She had to go but they would meet again, there, and she would
dream of that till then, tomorrow, of her dream of yester eve. She drew herself
up to her full height. Their souls met in a last lingering glance and the eyes
that reached her heart, full of a strange shining, hung enraptured on her sweet
flowerlike face. She half smiled at him wanly, a sweet forgiving smile, a smile
that verged on tears, and then they parted.</p>
<p>Slowly, without looking back she went down the uneven strand to Cissy, to Edy
to Jacky and Tommy Caffrey, to little baby Boardman. It was darker now and
there were stones and bits of wood on the strand and slippy seaweed. She walked
with a certain quiet dignity characteristic of her but with care and very
slowly because—because Gerty MacDowell was...</p>
<p>Tight boots? No. She’s lame! O!</p>
<p>Mr Bloom watched her as she limped away. Poor girl! That’s why she’s left on
the shelf and the others did a sprint. Thought something was wrong by the cut
of her jib. Jilted beauty. A defect is ten times worse in a woman. But makes
them polite. Glad I didn’t know it when she was on show. Hot little devil all
the same. I wouldn’t mind. Curiosity like a nun or a negress or a girl with
glasses. That squinty one is delicate. Near her monthlies, I expect, makes them
feel ticklish. I have such a bad headache today. Where did I put the letter?
Yes, all right. All kinds of crazy longings. Licking pennies. Girl in
Tranquilla convent that nun told me liked to smell rock oil. Virgins go mad in
the end I suppose. Sister? How many women in Dublin have it today? Martha, she.
Something in the air. That’s the moon. But then why don’t all women menstruate
at the same time with the same moon, I mean? Depends on the time they were born
I suppose. Or all start scratch then get out of step. Sometimes Molly and Milly
together. Anyhow I got the best of that. Damned glad I didn’t do it in the bath
this morning over her silly I will punish you letter. Made up for that
tramdriver this morning. That gouger M’Coy stopping me to say nothing. And his
wife engagement in the country valise, voice like a pickaxe. Thankful for small
mercies. Cheap too. Yours for the asking. Because they want it themselves.
Their natural craving. Shoals of them every evening poured out of offices.
Reserve better. Don’t want it they throw it at you. Catch em alive, O. Pity
they can’t see themselves. A dream of wellfilled hose. Where was that? Ah, yes.
Mutoscope pictures in Capel street: for men only. Peeping Tom. Willy’s hat and
what the girls did with it. Do they snapshot those girls or is it all a fake?
<i>Lingerie</i> does it. Felt for the curves inside her <i>déshabillé.</i>
Excites them also when they’re. I’m all clean come and dirty me. And they like
dressing one another for the sacrifice. Milly delighted with Molly’s new
blouse. At first. Put them all on to take them all off. Molly. Why I bought her
the violet garters. Us too: the tie he wore, his lovely socks and turnedup
trousers. He wore a pair of gaiters the night that first we met. His lovely
shirt was shining beneath his what? of jet. Say a woman loses a charm with
every pin she takes out. Pinned together. O, Mairy lost the pin of her. Dressed
up to the nines for somebody. Fashion part of their charm. Just changes when
you’re on the track of the secret. Except the east: Mary, Martha: now as then.
No reasonable offer refused. She wasn’t in a hurry either. Always off to a
fellow when they are. They never forget an appointment. Out on spec probably.
They believe in chance because like themselves. And the others inclined to give
her an odd dig. Girl friends at school, arms round each other’s necks or with
ten fingers locked, kissing and whispering secrets about nothing in the convent
garden. Nuns with whitewashed faces, cool coifs and their rosaries going up and
down, vindictive too for what they can’t get. Barbed wire. Be sure now and
write to me. And I’ll write to you. Now won’t you? Molly and Josie Powell. Till
Mr Right comes along, then meet once in a blue moon. <i>Tableau!</i> O, look
who it is for the love of God! How are you at all? What have you been doing
with yourself? Kiss and delighted to, kiss, to see you. Picking holes in each
other’s appearance. You’re looking splendid. Sister souls. Showing their teeth
at one another. How many have you left? Wouldn’t lend each other a pinch of
salt.</p>
<p>Ah!</p>
<p>Devils they are when that’s coming on them. Dark devilish appearance. Molly
often told me feel things a ton weight. Scratch the sole of my foot. O that
way! O, that’s exquisite! Feel it myself too. Good to rest once in a way.
Wonder if it’s bad to go with them then. Safe in one way. Turns milk, makes
fiddlestrings snap. Something about withering plants I read in a garden.
Besides they say if the flower withers she wears she’s a flirt. All are.
Daresay she felt I. When you feel like that you often meet what you feel. Liked
me or what? Dress they look at. Always know a fellow courting: collars and
cuffs. Well cocks and lions do the same and stags. Same time might prefer a tie
undone or something. Trousers? Suppose I when I was? No. Gently does it.
Dislike rough and tumble. Kiss in the dark and never tell. Saw something in me.
Wonder what. Sooner have me as I am than some poet chap with bearsgrease
plastery hair, lovelock over his dexter optic. To aid gentleman in literary.
Ought to attend to my appearance my age. Didn’t let her see me in profile.
Still, you never know. Pretty girls and ugly men marrying. Beauty and the
beast. Besides I can’t be so if Molly. Took off her hat to show her hair. Wide
brim. Bought to hide her face, meeting someone might know her, bend down or
carry a bunch of flowers to smell. Hair strong in rut. Ten bob I got for
Molly’s combings when we were on the rocks in Holles street. Why not? Suppose
he gave her money. Why not? All a prejudice. She’s worth ten, fifteen, more, a
pound. What? I think so. All that for nothing. Bold hand: Mrs Marion. Did I
forget to write address on that letter like the postcard I sent to Flynn? And
the day I went to Drimmie’s without a necktie. Wrangle with Molly it was put me
off. No, I remember. Richie Goulding: he’s another. Weighs on his mind. Funny
my watch stopped at half past four. Dust. Shark liver oil they use to clean.
Could do it myself. Save. Was that just when he, she?</p>
<p>O, he did. Into her. She did. Done.</p>
<p>Ah!</p>
<p>Mr Bloom with careful hand recomposed his wet shirt. O Lord, that little
limping devil. Begins to feel cold and clammy. Aftereffect not pleasant. Still
you have to get rid of it someway. They don’t care. Complimented perhaps. Go
home to nicey bread and milky and say night prayers with the kiddies. Well,
aren’t they? See her as she is spoil all. Must have the stage setting, the
rouge, costume, position, music. The name too. <i>Amours</i> of actresses. Nell
Gwynn, Mrs Bracegirdle, Maud Branscombe. Curtain up. Moonlight silver
effulgence. Maiden discovered with pensive bosom. Little sweetheart come and
kiss me. Still, I feel. The strength it gives a man. That’s the secret of it.
Good job I let off there behind the wall coming out of Dignam’s. Cider that
was. Otherwise I couldn’t have. Makes you want to sing after. <i>Lacaus esant
taratara</i>. Suppose I spoke to her. What about? Bad plan however if you don’t
know how to end the conversation. Ask them a question they ask you another.
Good idea if you’re stuck. Gain time. But then you’re in a cart. Wonderful of
course if you say: good evening, and you see she’s on for it: good evening. O
but the dark evening in the Appian way I nearly spoke to Mrs Clinch O thinking
she was. Whew! Girl in Meath street that night. All the dirty things I made her
say. All wrong of course. My arks she called it. It’s so hard to find one who.
Aho! If you don’t answer when they solicit must be horrible for them till they
harden. And kissed my hand when I gave her the extra two shillings. Parrots.
Press the button and the bird will squeak. Wish she hadn’t called me sir. O,
her mouth in the dark! And you a married man with a single girl! That’s what
they enjoy. Taking a man from another woman. Or even hear of it. Different with
me. Glad to get away from other chap’s wife. Eating off his cold plate. Chap in
the Burton today spitting back gumchewed gristle. French letter still in my
pocketbook. Cause of half the trouble. But might happen sometime, I don’t
think. Come in, all is prepared. I dreamt. What? Worst is beginning. How they
change the venue when it’s not what they like. Ask you do you like mushrooms
because she once knew a gentleman who. Or ask you what someone was going to say
when he changed his mind and stopped. Yet if I went the whole hog, say: I want
to, something like that. Because I did. She too. Offend her. Then make it up.
Pretend to want something awfully, then cry off for her sake. Flatters them.
She must have been thinking of someone else all the time. What harm? Must since
she came to the use of reason, he, he and he. First kiss does the trick. The
propitious moment. Something inside them goes pop. Mushy like, tell by their
eye, on the sly. First thoughts are best. Remember that till their dying day.
Molly, lieutenant Mulvey that kissed her under the Moorish wall beside the
gardens. Fifteen she told me. But her breasts were developed. Fell asleep then.
After Glencree dinner that was when we drove home. Featherbed mountain.
Gnashing her teeth in sleep. Lord mayor had his eye on her too. Val Dillon.
Apoplectic.</p>
<p>There she is with them down there for the fireworks. My fireworks. Up like a
rocket, down like a stick. And the children, twins they must be, waiting for
something to happen. Want to be grownups. Dressing in mother’s clothes. Time
enough, understand all the ways of the world. And the dark one with the mop
head and the nigger mouth. I knew she could whistle. Mouth made for that. Like
Molly. Why that highclass whore in Jammet’s wore her veil only to her nose.
Would you mind, please, telling me the right time? I’ll tell you the right time
up a dark lane. Say prunes and prisms forty times every morning, cure for fat
lips. Caressing the little boy too. Onlookers see most of the game. Of course
they understand birds, animals, babies. In their line.</p>
<p>Didn’t look back when she was going down the strand. Wouldn’t give that
satisfaction. Those girls, those girls, those lovely seaside girls. Fine eyes
she had, clear. It’s the white of the eye brings that out not so much the
pupil. Did she know what I? Course. Like a cat sitting beyond a dog’s jump.
Women never meet one like that Wilkins in the high school drawing a picture of
Venus with all his belongings on show. Call that innocence? Poor idiot! His
wife has her work cut out for her. Never see them sit on a bench marked <i>Wet
Paint</i>. Eyes all over them. Look under the bed for what’s not there. Longing
to get the fright of their lives. Sharp as needles they are. When I said to
Molly the man at the corner of Cuffe street was goodlooking, thought she might
like, twigged at once he had a false arm. Had, too. Where do they get that?
Typist going up Roger Greene’s stairs two at a time to show her understandings.
Handed down from father to, mother to daughter, I mean. Bred in the bone. Milly
for example drying her handkerchief on the mirror to save the ironing. Best
place for an ad to catch a woman’s eye on a mirror. And when I sent her for
Molly’s Paisley shawl to Prescott’s by the way that ad I must, carrying home
the change in her stocking! Clever little minx. I never told her. Neat way she
carries parcels too. Attract men, small thing like that. Holding up her hand,
shaking it, to let the blood flow back when it was red. Who did you learn that
from? Nobody. Something the nurse taught me. O, don’t they know! Three years
old she was in front of Molly’s dressingtable, just before we left Lombard
street west. Me have a nice pace. Mullingar. Who knows? Ways of the world.
Young student. Straight on her pins anyway not like the other. Still she was
game. Lord, I am wet. Devil you are. Swell of her calf. Transparent stockings,
stretched to breaking point. Not like that frump today. A. E. Rumpled
stockings. Or the one in Grafton street. White. Wow! Beef to the heel.</p>
<p>A monkey puzzle rocket burst, spluttering in darting crackles. Zrads and zrads,
zrads, zrads. And Cissy and Tommy and Jacky ran out to see and Edy after with
the pushcar and then Gerty beyond the curve of the rocks. Will she? Watch!
Watch! See! Looked round. She smelt an onion. Darling, I saw, your. I saw all.</p>
<p>Lord!</p>
<p>Did me good all the same. Off colour after Kiernan’s, Dignam’s. For this relief
much thanks. In <i>Hamlet,</i> that is. Lord! It was all things combined.
Excitement. When she leaned back, felt an ache at the butt of my tongue. Your
head it simply swirls. He’s right. Might have made a worse fool of myself
however. Instead of talking about nothing. Then I will tell you all. Still it
was a kind of language between us. It couldn’t be? No, Gerty they called her.
Might be false name however like my name and the address Dolphin’s barn a
blind.</p>
<p class="poem">
Her maiden name was Jemina Brown<br/>
And she lived with her mother in Irishtown.</p>
<p>Place made me think of that I suppose. All tarred with the same brush. Wiping
pens in their stockings. But the ball rolled down to her as if it understood.
Every bullet has its billet. Course I never could throw anything straight at
school. Crooked as a ram’s horn. Sad however because it lasts only a few years
till they settle down to potwalloping and papa’s pants will soon fit Willy and
fuller’s earth for the baby when they hold him out to do ah ah. No soft job.
Saves them. Keeps them out of harm’s way. Nature. Washing child, washing
corpse. Dignam. Children’s hands always round them. Cocoanut skulls, monkeys,
not even closed at first, sour milk in their swaddles and tainted curds.
Oughtn’t to have given that child an empty teat to suck. Fill it up with wind.
Mrs Beaufoy, Purefoy. Must call to the hospital. Wonder is nurse Callan there
still. She used to look over some nights when Molly was in the Coffee Palace.
That young doctor O’Hare I noticed her brushing his coat. And Mrs Breen and Mrs
Dignam once like that too, marriageable. Worst of all at night Mrs Duggan told
me in the City Arms. Husband rolling in drunk, stink of pub off him like a
polecat. Have that in your nose in the dark, whiff of stale boose. Then ask in
the morning: was I drunk last night? Bad policy however to fault the husband.
Chickens come home to roost. They stick by one another like glue. Maybe the
women’s fault also. That’s where Molly can knock spots off them. It’s the blood
of the south. Moorish. Also the form, the figure. Hands felt for the opulent.
Just compare for instance those others. Wife locked up at home, skeleton in the
cupboard. Allow me to introduce my. Then they trot you out some kind of a
nondescript, wouldn’t know what to call her. Always see a fellow’s weak point
in his wife. Still there’s destiny in it, falling in love. Have their own
secrets between them. Chaps that would go to the dogs if some woman didn’t take
them in hand. Then little chits of girls, height of a shilling in coppers, with
little hubbies. As God made them he matched them. Sometimes children turn out
well enough. Twice nought makes one. Or old rich chap of seventy and blushing
bride. Marry in May and repent in December. This wet is very unpleasant. Stuck.
Well the foreskin is not back. Better detach.</p>
<p>Ow!</p>
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