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<h2> Chapter 6 </h2>
<h3> CUT ADRIFT </h3>
<p>The Six Jolly Fellowship Porters, already mentioned as a tavern of a
dropsical appearance, had long settled down into a state of hale
infirmity. In its whole constitution it had not a straight floor, and
hardly a straight line; but it had outlasted, and clearly would yet
outlast, many a better-trimmed building, many a sprucer public-house.
Externally, it was a narrow lopsided wooden jumble of corpulent windows
heaped one upon another as you might heap as many toppling oranges, with a
crazy wooden verandah impending over the water; indeed the whole house,
inclusive of the complaining flag-staff on the roof, impended over the
water, but seemed to have got into the condition of a faint-hearted diver
who has paused so long on the brink that he will never go in at all.</p>
<p>This description applies to the river-frontage of the Six Jolly Fellowship
Porters. The back of the establishment, though the chief entrance was
there, so contracted that it merely represented in its connexion with the
front, the handle of a flat iron set upright on its broadest end. This
handle stood at the bottom of a wilderness of court and alley: which
wilderness pressed so hard and close upon the Six Jolly Fellowship Porters
as to leave the hostelry not an inch of ground beyond its door. For this
reason, in combination with the fact that the house was all but afloat at
high water, when the Porters had a family wash the linen subjected to that
operation might usually be seen drying on lines stretched across the
reception-rooms and bed-chambers.</p>
<p>The wood forming the chimney-pieces, beams, partitions, floors and doors,
of the Six Jolly Fellowship Porters, seemed in its old age fraught with
confused memories of its youth. In many places it had become gnarled and
riven, according to the manner of old trees; knots started out of it; and
here and there it seemed to twist itself into some likeness of boughs. In
this state of second childhood, it had an air of being in its own way
garrulous about its early life. Not without reason was it often asserted
by the regular frequenters of the Porters, that when the light shone full
upon the grain of certain panels, and particularly upon an old corner
cupboard of walnut-wood in the bar, you might trace little forests there,
and tiny trees like the parent tree, in full umbrageous leaf.</p>
<p>The bar of the Six Jolly Fellowship Porters was a bar to soften the human
breast. The available space in it was not much larger than a
hackney-coach; but no one could have wished the bar bigger, that space was
so girt in by corpulent little casks, and by cordial-bottles radiant with
fictitious grapes in bunches, and by lemons in nets, and by biscuits in
baskets, and by the polite beer-pulls that made low bows when customers
were served with beer, and by the cheese in a snug corner, and by the
landlady's own small table in a snugger corner near the fire, with the
cloth everlastingly laid. This haven was divided from the rough world by a
glass partition and a half-door, with a leaden sill upon it for the
convenience of resting your liquor; but, over this half-door the bar's
snugness so gushed forth that, albeit customers drank there standing, in a
dark and draughty passage where they were shouldered by other customers
passing in and out, they always appeared to drink under an enchanting
delusion that they were in the bar itself.</p>
<p>For the rest, both the tap and parlour of the Six Jolly Fellowship Porters
gave upon the river, and had red curtains matching the noses of the
regular customers, and were provided with comfortable fireside tin
utensils, like models of sugar-loaf hats, made in that shape that they
might, with their pointed ends, seek out for themselves glowing nooks in
the depths of the red coals, when they mulled your ale, or heated for you
those delectable drinks, Purl, Flip, and Dog's Nose. The first of these
humming compounds was a speciality of the Porters, which, through an
inscription on its door-posts, gently appealed to your feelings as, 'The
Early Purl House'. For, it would seem that Purl must always be taken
early; though whether for any more distinctly stomachic reason than that,
as the early bird catches the worm, so the early purl catches the
customer, cannot here be resolved. It only remains to add that in the
handle of the flat iron, and opposite the bar, was a very little room like
a three-cornered hat, into which no direct ray of sun, moon, or star, ever
penetrated, but which was superstitiously regarded as a sanctuary replete
with comfort and retirement by gaslight, and on the door of which was
therefore painted its alluring name: Cosy.</p>
<p>Miss Potterson, sole proprietor and manager of the Fellowship Porters,
reigned supreme on her throne, the Bar, and a man must have drunk himself
mad drunk indeed if he thought he could contest a point with her. Being
known on her own authority as Miss Abbey Potterson, some water-side heads,
which (like the water) were none of the clearest, harboured muddled
notions that, because of her dignity and firmness, she was named after, or
in some sort related to, the Abbey at Westminster. But, Abbey was only
short for Abigail, by which name Miss Potterson had been christened at
Limehouse Church, some sixty and odd years before.</p>
<p>'Now, you mind, you Riderhood,' said Miss Abbey Potterson, with emphatic
forefinger over the half-door, 'the Fellowship don't want you at all, and
would rather by far have your room than your company; but if you were as
welcome here as you are not, you shouldn't even then have another drop of
drink here this night, after this present pint of beer. So make the most
of it.'</p>
<p>'But you know, Miss Potterson,' this was suggested very meekly though, 'if
I behave myself, you can't help serving me, miss.'</p>
<p>'CAN'T I!' said Abbey, with infinite expression.</p>
<p>'No, Miss Potterson; because, you see, the law—'</p>
<p>'I am the law here, my man,' returned Miss Abbey, 'and I'll soon convince
you of that, if you doubt it at all.'</p>
<p>'I never said I did doubt it at all, Miss Abbey.'</p>
<p>'So much the better for you.'</p>
<p>Abbey the supreme threw the customer's halfpence into the till, and,
seating herself in her fireside-chair, resumed the newspaper she had been
reading. She was a tall, upright, well-favoured woman, though severe of
countenance, and had more of the air of a schoolmistress than mistress of
the Six Jolly Fellowship Porters. The man on the other side of the
half-door, was a waterside-man with a squinting leer, and he eyed her as
if he were one of her pupils in disgrace.</p>
<p>'You're cruel hard upon me, Miss Potterson.'</p>
<p>Miss Potterson read her newspaper with contracted brows, and took no
notice until he whispered:</p>
<p>'Miss Potterson! Ma'am! Might I have half a word with you?'</p>
<p>Deigning then to turn her eyes sideways towards the suppliant, Miss
Potterson beheld him knuckling his low forehead, and ducking at her with
his head, as if he were asking leave to fling himself head foremost over
the half-door and alight on his feet in the bar.</p>
<p>'Well?' said Miss Potterson, with a manner as short as she herself was
long, 'say your half word. Bring it out.'</p>
<p>'Miss Potterson! Ma'am! Would you 'sxcuse me taking the liberty of asking,
is it my character that you take objections to?'</p>
<p>'Certainly,' said Miss Potterson.</p>
<p>'Is it that you're afraid of—'</p>
<p>'I am not afraid OF YOU,' interposed Miss Potterson, 'if you mean that.'</p>
<p>'But I humbly don't mean that, Miss Abbey.'</p>
<p>'Then what do you mean?'</p>
<p>'You really are so cruel hard upon me! What I was going to make inquiries
was no more than, might you have any apprehensions—leastways beliefs
or suppositions—that the company's property mightn't be altogether
to be considered safe, if I used the house too regular?'</p>
<p>'What do you want to know for?'</p>
<p>'Well, Miss Abbey, respectfully meaning no offence to you, it would be
some satisfaction to a man's mind, to understand why the Fellowship
Porters is not to be free to such as me, and is to be free to such as
Gaffer.'</p>
<p>The face of the hostess darkened with some shadow of perplexity, as she
replied: 'Gaffer has never been where you have been.'</p>
<p>'Signifying in Quod, Miss? Perhaps not. But he may have merited it. He may
be suspected of far worse than ever I was.'</p>
<p>'Who suspects him?'</p>
<p>'Many, perhaps. One, beyond all doubts. I do.'</p>
<p>'YOU are not much,' said Miss Abbey Potterson, knitting her brows again
with disdain.</p>
<p>'But I was his pardner. Mind you, Miss Abbey, I was his pardner. As such I
know more of the ins and outs of him than any person living does. Notice
this! I am the man that was his pardner, and I am the man that suspects
him.'</p>
<p>'Then,' suggested Miss Abbey, though with a deeper shade of perplexity
than before, 'you criminate yourself.'</p>
<p>'No I don't, Miss Abbey. For how does it stand? It stands this way. When I
was his pardner, I couldn't never give him satisfaction. Why couldn't I
never give him satisfaction? Because my luck was bad; because I couldn't
find many enough of 'em. How was his luck? Always good. Notice this!
Always good! Ah! There's a many games, Miss Abbey, in which there's
chance, but there's a many others in which there's skill too, mixed along
with it.'</p>
<p>'That Gaffer has a skill in finding what he finds, who doubts, man?' asked
Miss Abbey.</p>
<p>'A skill in purwiding what he finds, perhaps,' said Riderhood, shaking his
evil head.</p>
<p>Miss Abbey knitted her brow at him, as he darkly leered at her. 'If you're
out upon the river pretty nigh every tide, and if you want to find a man
or woman in the river, you'll greatly help your luck, Miss Abbey, by
knocking a man or woman on the head aforehand and pitching 'em in.'</p>
<p>'Gracious Lud!' was the involuntary exclamation of Miss Potterson.</p>
<p>'Mind you!' returned the other, stretching forward over the half door to
throw his words into the bar; for his voice was as if the head of his
boat's mop were down his throat; 'I say so, Miss Abbey! And mind you! I'll
follow him up, Miss Abbey! And mind you! I'll bring him to hook at last,
if it's twenty year hence, I will! Who's he, to be favoured along of his
daughter? Ain't I got a daughter of my own!'</p>
<p>With that flourish, and seeming to have talked himself rather more drunk
and much more ferocious than he had begun by being, Mr Riderhood took up
his pint pot and swaggered off to the taproom.</p>
<p>Gaffer was not there, but a pretty strong muster of Miss Abbey's pupils
were, who exhibited, when occasion required, the greatest docility. On the
clock's striking ten, and Miss Abbey's appearing at the door, and
addressing a certain person in a faded scarlet jacket, with 'George Jones,
your time's up! I told your wife you should be punctual,' Jones
submissively rose, gave the company good-night, and retired. At half-past
ten, on Miss Abbey's looking in again, and saying, 'William Williams, Bob
Glamour, and Jonathan, you are all due,' Williams, Bob, and Jonathan with
similar meekness took their leave and evaporated. Greater wonder than
these, when a bottle-nosed person in a glazed hat had after some
considerable hesitation ordered another glass of gin and water of the
attendant potboy, and when Miss Abbey, instead of sending it, appeared in
person, saying, 'Captain Joey, you have had as much as will do you good,'
not only did the captain feebly rub his knees and contemplate the fire
without offering a word of protest, but the rest of the company murmured,
'Ay, ay, Captain! Miss Abbey's right; you be guided by Miss Abbey,
Captain.' Nor, was Miss Abbey's vigilance in anywise abated by this
submission, but rather sharpened; for, looking round on the deferential
faces of her school, and descrying two other young persons in need of
admonition, she thus bestowed it: 'Tom Tootle, it's time for a young
fellow who's going to be married next month, to be at home and asleep. And
you needn't nudge him, Mr Jack Mullins, for I know your work begins early
tomorrow, and I say the same to you. So come! Good-night, like good lads!'
Upon which, the blushing Tootle looked to Mullins, and the blushing
Mullins looked to Tootle, on the question who should rise first, and
finally both rose together and went out on the broad grin, followed by
Miss Abbey; in whose presence the company did not take the liberty of
grinning likewise.</p>
<p>In such an establishment, the white-aproned pot-boy with his shirt-sleeves
arranged in a tight roll on each bare shoulder, was a mere hint of the
possibility of physical force, thrown out as a matter of state and form.
Exactly at the closing hour, all the guests who were left, filed out in
the best order: Miss Abbey standing at the half door of the bar, to hold a
ceremony of review and dismissal. All wished Miss Abbey good-night and
Miss Abbey wished good-night to all, except Riderhood. The sapient
pot-boy, looking on officially, then had the conviction borne in upon his
soul, that the man was evermore outcast and excommunicate from the Six
Jolly Fellowship Porters.</p>
<p>'You Bob Gliddery,' said Miss Abbey to this pot-boy, 'run round to Hexam's
and tell his daughter Lizzie that I want to speak to her.'</p>
<p>With exemplary swiftness Bob Gliddery departed, and returned. Lizzie,
following him, arrived as one of the two female domestics of the
Fellowship Porters arranged on the snug little table by the bar fire, Miss
Potterson's supper of hot sausages and mashed potatoes.</p>
<p>'Come in and sit ye down, girl,' said Miss Abbey. 'Can you eat a bit?'</p>
<p>'No thank you, Miss. I have had my supper.'</p>
<p>'I have had mine too, I think,' said Miss Abbey, pushing away the untasted
dish, 'and more than enough of it. I am put out, Lizzie.'</p>
<p>'I am very sorry for it, Miss.'</p>
<p>'Then why, in the name of Goodness,' quoth Miss Abbey, sharply, 'do you do
it?'</p>
<p>'I do it, Miss!'</p>
<p>'There, there. Don't look astonished. I ought to have begun with a word of
explanation, but it's my way to make short cuts at things. I always was a
pepperer. You Bob Gliddery there, put the chain upon the door and get ye
down to your supper.'</p>
<p>With an alacrity that seemed no less referable to the pepperer fact than
to the supper fact, Bob obeyed, and his boots were heard descending
towards the bed of the river.</p>
<p>'Lizzie Hexam, Lizzie Hexam,' then began Miss Potterson, 'how often have I
held out to you the opportunity of getting clear of your father, and doing
well?'</p>
<p>'Very often, Miss.'</p>
<p>'Very often? Yes! And I might as well have spoken to the iron funnel of
the strongest sea-going steamer that passes the Fellowship Porters.'</p>
<p>'No, Miss,' Lizzie pleaded; 'because that would not be thankful, and I
am.'</p>
<p>'I vow and declare I am half ashamed of myself for taking such an interest
in you,' said Miss Abbey, pettishly, 'for I don't believe I should do it
if you were not good-looking. Why ain't you ugly?'</p>
<p>Lizzie merely answered this difficult question with an apologetic glance.</p>
<p>'However, you ain't,' resumed Miss Potterson, 'so it's no use going into
that. I must take you as I find you. Which indeed is what I've done. And
you mean to say you are still obstinate?'</p>
<p>'Not obstinate, Miss, I hope.'</p>
<p>'Firm (I suppose you call it) then?'</p>
<p>'Yes, Miss. Fixed like.'</p>
<p>'Never was an obstinate person yet, who would own to the word!' remarked
Miss Potterson, rubbing her vexed nose; 'I'm sure I would, if I was
obstinate; but I am a pepperer, which is different. Lizzie Hexam, Lizzie
Hexam, think again. Do you know the worst of your father?'</p>
<p>'Do I know the worst of father!' she repeated, opening her eyes.</p>
<p> 'Do you
know the suspicions to which your father makes himself liable? Do you know
the suspicions that are actually about, against him?'</p>
<p>The consciousness of what he habitually did, oppressed the girl heavily,
and she slowly cast down her eyes.</p>
<p>'Say, Lizzie. Do you know?' urged Miss Abbey.</p>
<p>'Please to tell me what the suspicions are, Miss,' she asked after a
silence, with her eyes upon the ground.</p>
<p>'It's not an easy thing to tell a daughter, but it must be told. It is
thought by some, then, that your father helps to their death a few of
those that he finds dead.'</p>
<p>The relief of hearing what she felt sure was a false suspicion, in place
of the expected real and true one, so lightened Lizzie's breast for the
moment, that Miss Abbey was amazed at her demeanour. She raised her eyes
quickly, shook her head, and, in a kind of triumph, almost laughed.</p>
<p>'They little know father who talk like that!'</p>
<p>('She takes it,' thought Miss Abbey, 'very quietly. She takes it with
extraordinary quietness!')</p>
<p>'And perhaps,' said Lizzie, as a recollection flashed upon her, 'it is
some one who has a grudge against father; some one who has threatened
father! Is it Riderhood, Miss?'</p>
<p>'Well; yes it is.'</p>
<p>'Yes! He was father's partner, and father broke with him, and now he
revenges himself. Father broke with him when I was by, and he was very
angry at it. And besides, Miss Abbey!—Will you never, without strong
reason, let pass your lips what I am going to say?'</p>
<p>She bent forward to say it in a whisper.</p>
<p>'I promise,' said Miss Abbey.</p>
<p>'It was on the night when the Harmon murder was found out, through father,
just above bridge. And just below bridge, as we were sculling home,
Riderhood crept out of the dark in his boat. And many and many times
afterwards, when such great pains were taken to come to the bottom of the
crime, and it never could be come near, I thought in my own thoughts,
could Riderhood himself have done the murder, and did he purposely let
father find the body? It seemed a'most wicked and cruel to so much as
think such a thing; but now that he tries to throw it upon father, I go
back to it as if it was a truth. Can it be a truth? That was put into my
mind by the dead?'</p>
<p>She asked this question, rather of the fire than of the hostess of the
Fellowship Porters, and looked round the little bar with troubled eyes.</p>
<p>But, Miss Potterson, as a ready schoolmistress accustomed to bring her
pupils to book, set the matter in a light that was essentially of this
world.</p>
<p>'You poor deluded girl,' she said, 'don't you see that you can't open your
mind to particular suspicions of one of the two, without opening your mind
to general suspicions of the other? They had worked together. Their
goings-on had been going on for some time. Even granting that it was as
you have had in your thoughts, what the two had done together would come
familiar to the mind of one.'</p>
<p>'You don't know father, Miss, when you talk like that. Indeed, indeed, you
don't know father.'</p>
<p>'Lizzie, Lizzie,' said Miss Potterson. 'Leave him. You needn't break with
him altogether, but leave him. Do well away from him; not because of what
I have told you to-night—we'll pass no judgment upon that, and we'll
hope it may not be—but because of what I have urged on you before.
No matter whether it's owing to your good looks or not, I like you and I
want to serve you. Lizzie, come under my direction. Don't fling yourself
away, my girl, but be persuaded into being respectable and happy.'</p>
<p>In the sound good feeling and good sense of her entreaty, Miss Abbey had
softened into a soothing tone, and had even drawn her arm round the girl's
waist. But, she only replied, 'Thank you, thank you! I can't. I won't. I
must not think of it. The harder father is borne upon, the more he needs
me to lean on.'</p>
<p>And then Miss Abbey, who, like all hard people when they do soften, felt
that there was considerable compensation owing to her, underwent reaction
and became frigid.</p>
<p>'I have done what I can,' she said, 'and you must go your way. You make
your bed, and you must lie on it. But tell your father one thing: he must
not come here any more.'</p>
<p>'Oh, Miss, will you forbid him the house where I know he's safe?'</p>
<p>'The Fellowships,' returned Miss Abbey, 'has itself to look to, as well as
others. It has been hard work to establish order here, and make the
Fellowships what it is, and it is daily and nightly hard work to keep it
so. The Fellowships must not have a taint upon it that may give it a bad
name. I forbid the house to Riderhood, and I forbid the house to Gaffer. I
forbid both, equally. I find from Riderhood and you together, that there
are suspicions against both men, and I'm not going to take upon myself to
decide betwixt them. They are both tarred with a dirty brush, and I can't
have the Fellowships tarred with the same brush. That's all I know.'</p>
<p>'Good-night, Miss!' said Lizzie Hexam, sorrowfully.</p>
<p>'Hah!—Good-night!' returned Miss Abbey with a shake of her head.</p>
<p>'Believe me, Miss Abbey, I am truly grateful all the same.'</p>
<p>'I can believe a good deal,' returned the stately Abbey, 'so I'll try to
believe that too, Lizzie.'</p>
<p>No supper did Miss Potterson take that night, and only half her usual
tumbler of hot Port Negus. And the female domestics—two robust
sisters, with staring black eyes, shining flat red faces, blunt noses, and
strong black curls, like dolls—interchanged the sentiment that
Missis had had her hair combed the wrong way by somebody. And the pot-boy
afterwards remarked, that he hadn't been 'so rattled to bed', since his
late mother had systematically accelerated his retirement to rest with a
poker.</p>
<p>The chaining of the door behind her, as she went forth, disenchanted
Lizzie Hexam of that first relief she had felt. The night was black and
shrill, the river-side wilderness was melancholy, and there was a sound of
casting-out, in the rattling of the iron-links, and the grating of the
bolts and staples under Miss Abbey's hand. As she came beneath the
lowering sky, a sense of being involved in a murky shade of Murder dropped
upon her; and, as the tidal swell of the river broke at her feet without
her seeing how it gathered, so, her thoughts startled her by rushing out
of an unseen void and striking at her heart.</p>
<p>Of her father's being groundlessly suspected, she felt sure. Sure. Sure.
And yet, repeat the word inwardly as often as she would, the attempt to
reason out and prove that she was sure, always came after it and failed.
Riderhood had done the deed, and entrapped her father. Riderhood had not
done the deed, but had resolved in his malice to turn against her father,
the appearances that were ready to his hand to distort. Equally and
swiftly upon either putting of the case, followed the frightful
possibility that her father, being innocent, yet might come to be believed
guilty. She had heard of people suffering Death for bloodshed of which
they were afterwards proved pure, and those ill-fated persons were not,
first, in that dangerous wrong in which her father stood. Then at the
best, the beginning of his being set apart, whispered against, and
avoided, was a certain fact. It dated from that very night. And as the
great black river with its dreary shores was soon lost to her view in the
gloom, so, she stood on the river's brink unable to see into the vast
blank misery of a life suspected, and fallen away from by good and bad,
but knowing that it lay there dim before her, stretching away to the great
ocean, Death.</p>
<p>One thing only, was clear to the girl's mind. Accustomed from her very
babyhood promptly to do the thing that could be done—whether to keep
out weather, to ward off cold, to postpone hunger, or what not—she
started out of her meditation, and ran home.</p>
<p>The room was quiet, and the lamp burnt on the table. In the bunk in the
corner, her brother lay asleep. She bent over him softly, kissed him, and
came to the table.</p>
<p>'By the time of Miss Abbey's closing, and by the run of the tide, it must
be one. Tide's running up. Father at Chiswick, wouldn't think of coming
down, till after the turn, and that's at half after four. I'll call
Charley at six. I shall hear the church-clocks strike, as I sit here.'</p>
<p>Very quietly, she placed a chair before the scanty fire, and sat down in
it, drawing her shawl about her.</p>
<p>'Charley's hollow down by the flare is not there now. Poor Charley!'</p>
<p>The clock struck two, and the clock struck three, and the clock struck
four, and she remained there, with a woman's patience and her own purpose.
When the morning was well on between four and five, she slipped off her
shoes (that her going about might not wake Charley), trimmed the fire
sparingly, put water on to boil, and set the table for breakfast. Then she
went up the ladder, lamp in hand, and came down again, and glided about
and about, making a little bundle. Lastly, from her pocket, and from the
chimney-piece, and from an inverted basin on the highest shelf she brought
halfpence, a few sixpences, fewer shillings, and fell to laboriously and
noiselessly counting them, and setting aside one little heap. She was
still so engaged, when she was startled by:</p>
<p>'Hal-loa!' From her brother, sitting up in bed.</p>
<p>'You made me jump, Charley.'</p>
<p>'Jump! Didn't you make ME jump, when I opened my eyes a moment ago, and
saw you sitting there, like the ghost of a girl miser, in the dead of the
night.'</p>
<p>'It's not the dead of the night, Charley. It's nigh six in the morning.'</p>
<p>'Is it though? But what are you up to, Liz?'</p>
<p>'Still telling your fortune, Charley.'</p>
<p>'It seems to be a precious small one, if that's it,' said the boy. 'What
are you putting that little pile of money by itself for?'</p>
<p>'For you, Charley.'</p>
<p>'What do you mean?'</p>
<p>'Get out of bed, Charley, and get washed and dressed, and then I'll tell
you.'</p>
<p>Her composed manner, and her low distinct voice, always had an influence
over him. His head was soon in a basin of water, and out of it again, and
staring at her through a storm of towelling.</p>
<p>'I never,' towelling at himself as if he were his bitterest enemy, 'saw
such a girl as you are. What IS the move, Liz?'</p>
<p>'Are you almost ready for breakfast, Charley?'</p>
<p>'You can pour it out. Hal-loa! I say? And a bundle?'</p>
<p>'And a bundle, Charley.'</p>
<p>'You don't mean it's for me, too?'</p>
<p>'Yes, Charley; I do; indeed.'</p>
<p>More serious of face, and more slow of action, than he had been, the boy
completed his dressing, and came and sat down at the little
breakfast-table, with his eyes amazedly directed to her face.</p>
<p>'You see, Charley dear, I have made up my mind that this is the right time
for your going away from us. Over and above all the blessed change of
by-and-bye, you'll be much happier, and do much better, even so soon as
next month. Even so soon as next week.'</p>
<p>'How do you know I shall?'</p>
<p>'I don't quite know how, Charley, but I do.' In spite of her unchanged
manner of speaking, and her unchanged appearance of composure, she
scarcely trusted herself to look at him, but kept her eyes employed on the
cutting and buttering of his bread, and on the mixing of his tea, and
other such little preparations. 'You must leave father to me, Charley—I
will do what I can with him—but you must go.'</p>
<p>'You don't stand upon ceremony, I think,' grumbled the boy, throwing his
bread and butter about, in an ill-humour.</p>
<p>She made him no answer.</p>
<p>'I tell you what,' said the boy, then, bursting out into an angry
whimpering, 'you're a selfish jade, and you think there's not enough for
three of us, and you want to get rid of me.'</p>
<p>'If you believe so, Charley,—yes, then I believe too, that I am a
selfish jade, and that I think there's not enough for three of us, and
that I want to get rid of you.'</p>
<p>It was only when the boy rushed at her, and threw his arms round her neck,
that she lost her self-restraint. But she lost it then, and wept over him.</p>
<p>'Don't cry, don't cry! I am satisfied to go, Liz; I am satisfied to go. I
know you send me away for my good.'</p>
<p>'O, Charley, Charley, Heaven above us knows I do!'</p>
<p>'Yes yes. Don't mind what I said. Don't remember it. Kiss me.'</p>
<p>After a silence, she loosed him, to dry her eyes and regain her strong
quiet influence.</p>
<p>'Now listen, Charley dear. We both know it must be done, and I alone know
there is good reason for its being done at once. Go straight to the
school, and say that you and I agreed upon it—that we can't overcome
father's opposition—that father will never trouble them, but will
never take you back. You are a credit to the school, and you will be a
greater credit to it yet, and they will help you to get a living. Show
what clothes you have brought, and what money, and say that I will send
some more money. If I can get some in no other way, I will ask a little
help of those two gentlemen who came here that night.'</p>
<p>'I say!' cried her brother, quickly. 'Don't you have it of that chap that
took hold of me by the chin! Don't you have it of that Wrayburn one!'</p>
<p>Perhaps a slight additional tinge of red flushed up into her face and
brow, as with a nod she laid a hand upon his lips to keep him silently
attentive.</p>
<p>'And above all things mind this, Charley! Be sure you always speak well of
father. Be sure you always give father his full due. You can't deny that
because father has no learning himself he is set against it in you; but
favour nothing else against him, and be sure you say—as you know—that
your sister is devoted to him. And if you should ever happen to hear
anything said against father that is new to you, it will not be true.
Remember, Charley! It will not be true.'</p>
<p>The boy looked at her with some doubt and surprise, but she went on again
without heeding it.</p>
<p>'Above all things remember! It will not be true. I have nothing more to
say, Charley dear, except, be good, and get learning, and only think of
some things in the old life here, as if you had dreamed them in a dream
last night. Good-bye, my Darling!'</p>
<p>Though so young, she infused in these parting words a love that was far
more like a mother's than a sister's, and before which the boy was quite
bowed down. After holding her to his breast with a passionate cry, he took
up his bundle and darted out at the door, with an arm across his eyes.</p>
<p>The white face of the winter day came sluggishly on, veiled in a frosty
mist; and the shadowy ships in the river slowly changed to black
substances; and the sun, blood-red on the eastern marshes behind dark
masts and yards, seemed filled with the ruins of a forest it had set on
fire. Lizzie, looking for her father, saw him coming, and stood upon the
causeway that he might see her.</p>
<p>He had nothing with him but his boat, and came on apace. A knot of those
amphibious human-creatures who appear to have some mysterious power of
extracting a subsistence out of tidal water by looking at it, were
gathered together about the causeway. As her father's boat grounded, they
became contemplative of the mud, and dispersed themselves. She saw that
the mute avoidance had begun.</p>
<p>Gaffer saw it, too, in so far as that he was moved when he set foot on
shore, to stare around him. But, he promptly set to work to haul up his
boat, and make her fast, and take the sculls and rudder and rope out of
her. Carrying these with Lizzie's aid, he passed up to his dwelling.</p>
<p>'Sit close to the fire, father, dear, while I cook your breakfast. It's
all ready for cooking, and only been waiting for you. You must be frozen.'</p>
<p>'Well, Lizzie, I ain't of a glow; that's certain. And my hands seem nailed
through to the sculls. See how dead they are!' Something suggestive in
their colour, and perhaps in her face, struck him as he held them up; he
turned his shoulder and held them down to the fire.</p>
<p>'You were not out in the perishing night, I hope, father?'</p>
<p>'No, my dear. Lay aboard a barge, by a blazing coal-fire.—Where's
that boy?'</p>
<p>'There's a drop of brandy for your tea, father, if you'll put it in while
I turn this bit of meat. If the river was to get frozen, there would be a
deal of distress; wouldn't there, father?'</p>
<p>'Ah! there's always enough of that,' said Gaffer, dropping the liquor into
his cup from a squat black bottle, and dropping it slowly that it might
seem more; 'distress is for ever a going about, like sut in the air—Ain't
that boy up yet?'</p>
<p>'The meat's ready now, father. Eat it while it's hot and comfortable.
After you have finished, we'll turn round to the fire and talk.'</p>
<p>But, he perceived that he was evaded, and, having thrown a hasty angry
glance towards the bunk, plucked at a corner of her apron and asked:</p>
<p>'What's gone with that boy?'</p>
<p>'Father, if you'll begin your breakfast, I'll sit by and tell you.' He
looked at her, stirred his tea and took two or three gulps, then cut at
his piece of hot steak with his case-knife, and said, eating:</p>
<p>'Now then. What's gone with that boy?'</p>
<p>'Don't be angry, dear. It seems, father, that he has quite a gift of
learning.'</p>
<p>'Unnat'ral young beggar!' said the parent, shaking his knife in the air.</p>
<p>'And that having this gift, and not being equally good at other things, he
has made shift to get some schooling.'</p>
<p>'Unnat'ral young beggar!' said the parent again, with his former action.</p>
<p>'—And that knowing you have nothing to spare, father, and not
wishing to be a burden on you, he gradually made up his mind to go seek
his fortune out of learning. He went away this morning, father, and he
cried very much at going, and he hoped you would forgive him.'</p>
<p>'Let him never come a nigh me to ask me my forgiveness,' said the father,
again emphasizing his words with the knife. 'Let him never come within
sight of my eyes, nor yet within reach of my arm. His own father ain't
good enough for him. He's disowned his own father. His own father
therefore, disowns him for ever and ever, as a unnat'ral young beggar.'</p>
<p>He had pushed away his plate. With the natural need of a strong rough man
in anger, to do something forcible, he now clutched his knife overhand,
and struck downward with it at the end of every succeeding sentence. As he
would have struck with his own clenched fist if there had chanced to be
nothing in it.</p>
<p>'He's welcome to go. He's more welcome to go than to stay. But let him
never come back. Let him never put his head inside that door. And let you
never speak a word more in his favour, or you'll disown your own father,
likewise, and what your father says of him he'll have to come to say of
you. Now I see why them men yonder held aloof from me. They says to one
another, "Here comes the man as ain't good enough for his own son!" Lizzie—!'</p>
<p>But, she stopped him with a cry. Looking at her he saw her, with a face
quite strange to him, shrinking back against the wall, with her hands
before her eyes.</p>
<p>'Father, don't! I can't bear to see you striking with it. Put it down!'</p>
<p>He looked at the knife; but in his astonishment still held it.</p>
<p>'Father, it's too horrible. O put it down, put it down!'</p>
<p>Confounded by her appearance and exclamation, he tossed it away, and stood
up with his open hands held out before him.</p>
<p>'What's come to you, Liz? Can you think I would strike at you with a
knife?'</p>
<p>'No, father, no; you would never hurt me.'</p>
<p>'What should I hurt?'</p>
<p>'Nothing, dear father. On my knees, I am certain, in my heart and soul I
am certain, nothing! But it was too dreadful to bear; for it looked—'
her hands covering her face again, 'O it looked—'</p>
<p>'What did it look like?'</p>
<p>The recollection of his murderous figure, combining with her trial of last
night, and her trial of the morning, caused her to drop at his feet,
without having answered.</p>
<p>He had never seen her so before. He raised her with the utmost tenderness,
calling her the best of daughters, and 'my poor pretty creetur', and laid
her head upon his knee, and tried to restore her. But failing, he laid her
head gently down again, got a pillow and placed it under her dark hair,
and sought on the table for a spoonful of brandy. There being none left,
he hurriedly caught up the empty bottle, and ran out at the door.</p>
<p>He returned as hurriedly as he had gone, with the bottle still empty. He
kneeled down by her, took her head on his arm, and moistened her lips with
a little water into which he dipped his fingers: saying, fiercely, as he
looked around, now over this shoulder, now over that:</p>
<p>'Have we got a pest in the house? Is there summ'at deadly sticking to my
clothes? What's let loose upon us? Who loosed it?'</p>
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