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<h2><b>THE FIRST FIRE</b></h2>
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<p><i>Because it is raining and an October wind
chases wet leaves through the air, She has
lit the first fire of the season in the great
chimney-place</i>. KIKI-THE-DEMURE <i>and</i>
TOBY-DOG, <i>in ecstasy, side by side on a
corner of the warm hearth-stone, contemplate
the flame with dazzled eyes and address
their meditations to it</i>.</p>
<p class="center">KIKI-THE-DEMURE, (<i>looking very like a cushion;
no paws visible</i>)</p>
<p>Oh Fire, how splendid you are! You
have come back more beautiful than my
memory of you! You are hotter and nearer
than the sun! The pupils of my eyes contract
in your light, their lids half close,
modestly hiding the joy I feel at seeing you
again, and my inscrutable countenance shows
but the semblance of a thought painted there
in fawn color and black.... Your crackling
drowns the soft sound of my purr. Don't
snap too much. Be merciful, O inconstant
Fire! Don't sputter sparks on my fur.
Allow me to adore you without fear ...</p>
<p class="center">TOBY-DOG (<i>half baked; eyes blood-shot;
tongue pendant</i>)</p>
<p>Fire! Divine Fire! Here you are again!
I am still very young, but I remember how
awe-struck I was the first time Her hand
woke you in this same chimney-place. The
sight of a god as mysterious as you are
was most impressive to a baby-dog just out
of the maternal stable. Oh Fire, I've not
quite gotten over my fear! Hiii!... You
spit at me, something red that smarts ...
I'm afraid ... Well, it's gone now.</p>
<p>How beautiful you are, Fire! Out from
your ruddy center shoot tatters and shreds
of gold, sudden spurts of blue, and smoke
that twists upwards and draws queer shapes
of beasts ... Oh, but I'm hot! Gently,
gently, sovereign Fire, see how my truffle
of a nose is drying up and cracking, and
my ears—are they not ablaze? I adjure
thee with suppliant paw. I groan ... ah
... I can endure it no longer! ... (<i>He
turns away</i>.) Nothing is ever perfect. The
east wind coming under the door nips my
hind-legs. Well, it can't be helped! I'll
freeze behind if I must, provided I can adore
you face to face.</p>
<p class="center">KIKI-THE-DEMURE</p>
<p>I am a Cat and therefore aware of all
that you bring in your train, O Fire! I
foresee winter; its coming both troubles and
pleases me. I've already begun to thicken
and embellish my fur-coat in its honor, the
darker stripes are becoming black, my white
tippet swells into a dazzling boa, and the fur
on my belly surpasses in beauty anything
that has ever been seen. What shall I say
of my tail, broad as a club, with alternate
rings of fawn-color and black, or of the sensitive,
priceless aigrettes which spring from
my ears? My ear-rings She calls them....
What cat could resist me! Ah! the January
nights, the serenades under a frosty
moon, the dignified wait on the pinnacle
of a roof, the encounter with a rival cat on
the narrow top of a wall!... But I feel
quite sure of my superior strength. I'll
swish my tail, put back my ears, sniff tragically
as one does before vomiting, and then lift
up my voice—its modulations are infinite.
I'll make it strong enough to waken all the
sleeping Two-Paws. I'll vociferate, I'll
whimper, pacing up and down the garden,
my body distended, my legs bent outward,
feigning madness to terrify the tom-cats!</p>
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<p class="center">TOBY-DOG</p>
<p>I know something of the changes and
pleasures you foretell, Fire—for I'm a Dog.
Already, it is raining in the garden. I suppose
it's raining on the road too, and in
the woods. The falling drops are not warm,
as they were in the summer storms when my
truffle, gray with dust, delighted in the
damp smell that came from the west. The
sky is troubled and the wind has grown
strong enough to blow my ears out straight,
like little flags. A sharp cry, such as I
make when I beg, comes under the door.
You'll be shining here every day, Fire; but
I'll have to suffer for the right to worship
you. For She'll continue to wander about,
her head covered with the pointed hood which
changes her so, that it frightens me. She'll
put on wooden shoes too, and carelessly
crush the puddles, the little heaps of mud,
and the weeping mosses. I'll follow her,
since I've promised to do so my life long
(and also because I can't help it), I'll follow
her, a forlorn and piteous object, shining
wet, my belly covered with mud, until,
through very excess of misery I'll forget,
and ramble in the coppice, interested in
every undulation of the grass, eager to revive
the drowned scents in it.... She'll become
communicative when she sees me hurrying
along and we'll talk: "Ha, Toby-Dog,"
she'll say, "ha! ha! a bird! There on
the branch! Look! you booby! Now he's
gone." She'll condole with me then, until
I'm on the verge of tears. "Oh, my little
black boy, my sympathetic cylinder, my
batrachian love, how cold you are, how wet,
how sad, how you suffer, oooo!" And before
I'm able to judge of the sincerity of her
pity, the tears will overflow, my throat contract,
and we'll wail in unison....</p>
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<p>Ah, but what delirious joy when the capricious
wooden shoes turn again toward the
house, hurrying to rejoin Him whom we've
left scratching paper! They don't go half
fast enough for me then! I jump 'round
her, barking with delight to see the hill diminishing,
our climb at an end, to smell the
good stable smell and that of burning wood
as we near the house. At last you shine
forth, O Fire, O Sun, through the misty window
pane!... I shall hardly have crossed
the threshold when an overpowering sleepiness
will dash me to the floor in front of
you—you, who will reduce the mud on my
belly to fine powder and change the water of
the roads to smoky vapor.</p>
<p class="center">KIKI-THE-DEMURE</p>
<p>A delightful glow penetrates my coat to
the silky down, the impalpable colorless
threads which protect my delicate skin. I
feel myself swelling like a cloud. I must
quite fill the room. My whiskers seem
charged with electricity—a sign that I will
sleep—but for the time being, the contemplation
of your splendor and thoughts of the
coming season keep me awake. It's raining.
I shall not go out. I'll wait for the sun, or
the dry wind, or better still, the frost. Ah,
how the biting cold stimulates me! It lashes
my lungs with handfuls of needles, and makes
a <i>bonbon glacé</i> of my charming nose. The
rollicking frost-sprite will blow his madness
into me. She'll laugh and He too,
leaving his scratching-paper, to see me vie
with the leaves in bounds, leaps and wild
whirlings, resembling a floating flurry of
gray smoke rather than a Cat. To the top
of a tree! Down again! Then seven turns
after my tail! A perilous backward leap!
A vertical jump, with aerial <i>danse du ventre</i>!
Girations, sneezes, careering from the real
to the dream, until in terror of myself, I
come to a sudden stop.... Everything
turns before my eyes. I'm the center of a
strange, spinning world ... In my bewilderment
(half-feigned) I'll make a little moo,
like a cow, which will bring them both running
to me,—She laughing, and He fearing
something wrong. That will suffice to sober
me, and with a bold front and noble mien, I'll
regain this cushion near your altar, O Fire!</p>
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<p class="center">TOBY-DOG</p>
<p>This hearth-stone burns the horny pads of
my feet. What shall I do? Move away?
never! I'll toast to death rather than give
up this redoubtable bliss. Heaven prevent
Her coming, now! I've reason to fear the lash
of the whip, and the magic words which mean
exile: "Toby! that's stupid! I forbid you
to roast yourself. You'll have sore eyes,
and catch cold when you go out." That's
what She says, while I regard her with a
stupid look of utter devotion. But She's
never duped by it. I hear noises upstairs,
her step coming and going ... I wonder is
her vagabond fancy wearied at last?
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This
morning She whistled to me and in my haste
to obey her, I rolled to the bottom of the
stairs—being low and thick-set, with short
legs, no nose, and almost no tail to balance
me. Well, we set off. The last apples were
rocking to-and-fro on swaying branches.
My happy voice, a joyful shout from her now
and then, the vain crowing of the cocks, the
creaking of wagons on the road—all these
sounds floated on a bluish, cottony, suffocating
fog. She took me far, and many
marvelous things happened on our way. We
met terrible giant dogs. My proud bearing
seemed to exasperate them, but I kept
them back with a single look (besides, a
closed iron gate rendered them powerless).
I chased a rabbit into the thicket, though
She cried loudly: "I forbid you to touch
the little animal!" ... My mother certainly
gave me swift legs but they're short,
and the white end of the little beast kept far
ahead. A bush covered with red berries detained
us a very long time. She sees no objection
to eating strange things and I can
truthfully say that I always taste everything
She offers me, for I've great faith in her.
But this morning—"Eat, Toby, nice berries.
Eat! here are some rose-hips. Oh
stupid! how can you not dote upon their
delicious flavor? I assure you these are
comfits of Mother Nature's making." In
deference to her, I chewed a reddish ball;
there were some rough hairs on it—put
there doubtless by her teasing hand—and
what was bound to happen, did happen ... Khaha!
My throat rejected the nasty "rosehip."...</p>
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<p>But listen, Fire, what I saw after that,
passes <i>my</i> understanding. It was in a wood
where stiff leaves rustled. Had She carried
you under her cloak, or do gods like
you come at her bidding? I saw her hands
pile up the wood, arrange flat stones in some
mysterious fashion, and then, Fire, I saw
the sparks flash and your joyous soul palpitate,
grow big, soar naked and rose-colored,
veil itself in smoke, snap noisily (for
yours is a belligerent soul), agonize—and
disappear.... The world is full of incomprehensible
things....</p>
<p>Last of all, on our way back, I discovered
near the park gate—saw it before She
did—one of those invincible beasts called
hedge-hogs, the mere sight of which brings
us dogs to bay. What madness to realize
that an animal is hiding under that pin-cushion
and laughing at me, and that I can
do nothing, <i>nothing</i>! I implored her—She
can do nearly everything—to pluck
him for me. She began by turning him
over with a little stick, as if he were a horse
chestnut. "Astonishing," said She, "I
can't find the top of him!" Then She took
one of his spines between two fingers and
carried him home that way—I dancing behind
her—and put him in her work basket.
After a while the horrid beast unrolled himself,
stuck out a pig-like nose, opened two
shiny rat's eyes and raised himself, holding
fast by his little paws, which were exactly
like a mole's. "How pretty he is,"
She cried, "a real little black pig." I
stood near the table groaning with covetousness,
but She didn't pluck him for me,
not then, or ever, and perhaps the cook ate
him.... This cat's a dissembler. Maybe
<i>he</i>... But away with care! I'm too excitable!
I mustn't let myself think of these
things. Life is beautiful, O Fire, since you
illumine it ... I'm going to sleep ... Watch
over my unconscious body ... I'm
going ... to sleep....</p>
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<p class="center">KIKI-THE-DEMURE</p>
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<p>One would think me asleep because the
narrow slit made by my parted eyelids,
seems but the continuation of that velvety
line, that bold crayon-stroke, a sort of
Oriental make-up, uniting my eyelids and my
ears. But I'm awake, keeping watch like
a yogi, in a state of blissful ankylosis, conscious
of all that's going on around me....
My privileged eyes, Fire, do but behold you
better when they're closed and I can count
the various essences you mingle in a sparkling
bouquet. Here in a flame of mauve-color
and blue, glows the soul of a branch
of arbor-vitae. Yesterday it waved a
plume-like shadow on the garden walk ... To-day,
with its delicate twigs, it is but a
writhing skeleton. She cut it with one stroke
of the pruning scissors. Why? That it
might breathe out its fervent blue and
mauve-colored soul? For like me, She delights
in your dance, Fire, and chastises
you when you're quiet, with a stern pair of
tongs. Sitting there with her head bent
and her arms hanging along her sides, what
does She read, I wonder, in that fiery rose
which is the labyrinthian heart of you?...
She knows a great deal certainly, but not as
much as a Cat.</p>
<p>That thick tear on the log represents the
anguish of a very old fir-tree, killed by the
assiduous ivy. Just a short time ago I saw
it struck down, lying on the grass, its foliage
looking like a beautiful head of reddish
hair. I saw the axe that felled it, too.
Its trunk weeps tears of resin, which trail
along in drivel, then change to heavy, creeping
flame. But the dry red locks break into
lines of living fire, whistle and shoot innumerable
jets of many colors underneath a
broad gold wave that rolls voluptuously....</p>
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<p>Ah, love ... hunting ... fighting.... It's
your light, Fire, that discovers these passions
in the depths of my being. It's time
the little winged creatures searching withered
berries came near. I'll have them
soon! I'll watch, motionless in the brushwood,
wildly wishing that the earth itself
might hide me, the muscles of my legs twitching
with desire to make the spring, my chin
trembling.... Then, if I don't betray my
hiding-place by an irrepressible quavering,
frightening them away in one great commotion
of wings and rustling branches!...
But no, I'm master of myself. One bound at
exactly the right moment and my feeble
prey is panting under me. Oh, the ridiculous
effort of a weak animal—its tiny ineffectual
claws and pointed wings beating
against my face! My jaws will open to the
splitting point and my perfect nose wrinkle
ferociously, for the joy of holding a living,
terrified body. I'll know the intoxication of
battle! I'll prance victoriously, shaking my
head to torment the bird a little, for it
faints away too soon between my teeth!
Terrible to see I'll gallop towards the house,
singing in a strangled voice, without loosening
my grip, for He must stop his scratching
to admire me, and She must give chase with
distracted cries: "Wicked, savage cat!
Drop that bird! drop that bird!! Oh, I beg
of you! It hurts me so...." Ha! She
never can have hunted....</p>
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<p>I intend to astonish the world, Fire, during
Winter's reign. The Cat that lives at
the farm (She says the farmer's cat,
while we say the Cat's farmer), the fellow
that's so badly dressed, disfigured by the
nose of a weasel, and seems to walk on
stilts, his legs are so long—well, he sharpens
his claws and regards me the while.
Patience! He's strong, brutal, irresolute,
and utterly lacks distinction. The slamming
of a door terrifies him; he puts back
his ears and flies, panic-stricken. Still, I've
seen him kill a good-sized hen, without making
any fuss about it. For a glance of the
young cat's deceitful eyes, or right of precedence
on the garden wall, for a word of
double meaning, for nothing, but the fun
of the thing—I'll take my chances with
him! He'll learn that a mysterious silence
can demoralize the enemy quite as effectively
as murderous cries. The low garden wall
seems to me a convenient place. Let him
try his hoarse miauling in all possible keys!
May his unsightly face, and more hideous
body dislocate itself in a deceitful ataxia
(for they're still at these old tricks)! I'll
be proof against it all, and merely flash
the green magnetism of my magnificent eyes
upon him. His brows will fall under
their persistent insult, a shudder will run
along his spine, he'll do a few steps of
our ancient war dance—forward, back, forward
again. But I'll stand—motionless
as the statue of a Cat. The green witchcraft
of my gaze will strike terror and madness
into my rival and soon I'll see him
writhe, utter false cries, and, as a last resource,
try to balance himself on the nape
of his neck, like a forked pear tree, only to
roll over shamefully into the potato field....</p>
<p>All that will come to pass, Fire, exactly
as I've told it. To-day the future dawns in
your new flame.... I'm growing drowsy....
My purr and your crackling are ceasing
together.... I see you still and already
I catch glimpses of my dreams.... The
silky sound of the rain against the window
is soft as a caress, and the water-pipe on the
roof sobs low like a pigeon....</p>
<p>Don't go out during my nap, Fire. Remember,
you're the guardian of my august
repose—that delicate death, known as a
Cat's sleep....</p>
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