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<h2> CHAPTER XXXIII </h2>
<p>The conference was neither so short nor so conclusive as the lady had
designed. The gentleman was not so easily satisfied. He had all the
disposition to persevere that Sir Thomas could wish him. He had vanity,
which strongly inclined him in the first place to think she did love him,
though she might not know it herself; and which, secondly, when
constrained at last to admit that she did know her own present feelings,
convinced him that he should be able in time to make those feelings what
he wished.</p>
<p>He was in love, very much in love; and it was a love which, operating on
an active, sanguine spirit, of more warmth than delicacy, made her
affection appear of greater consequence because it was withheld, and
determined him to have the glory, as well as the felicity, of forcing her
to love him.</p>
<p>He would not despair: he would not desist. He had every well-grounded
reason for solid attachment; he knew her to have all the worth that could
justify the warmest hopes of lasting happiness with her; her conduct at
this very time, by speaking the disinterestedness and delicacy of her
character (qualities which he believed most rare indeed), was of a sort to
heighten all his wishes, and confirm all his resolutions. He knew not that
he had a pre-engaged heart to attack. Of <i>that</i> he had no suspicion.
He considered her rather as one who had never thought on the subject
enough to be in danger; who had been guarded by youth, a youth of mind as
lovely as of person; whose modesty had prevented her from understanding
his attentions, and who was still overpowered by the suddenness of
addresses so wholly unexpected, and the novelty of a situation which her
fancy had never taken into account.</p>
<p>Must it not follow of course, that, when he was understood, he should
succeed? He believed it fully. Love such as his, in a man like himself,
must with perseverance secure a return, and at no great distance; and he
had so much delight in the idea of obliging her to love him in a very
short time, that her not loving him now was scarcely regretted. A little
difficulty to be overcome was no evil to Henry Crawford. He rather derived
spirits from it. He had been apt to gain hearts too easily. His situation
was new and animating.</p>
<p>To Fanny, however, who had known too much opposition all her life to find
any charm in it, all this was unintelligible. She found that he did mean
to persevere; but how he could, after such language from her as she felt
herself obliged to use, was not to be understood. She told him that she
did not love him, could not love him, was sure she never should love him;
that such a change was quite impossible; that the subject was most painful
to her; that she must entreat him never to mention it again, to allow her
to leave him at once, and let it be considered as concluded for ever. And
when farther pressed, had added, that in her opinion their dispositions
were so totally dissimilar as to make mutual affection incompatible; and
that they were unfitted for each other by nature, education, and habit.
All this she had said, and with the earnestness of sincerity; yet this was
not enough, for he immediately denied there being anything uncongenial in
their characters, or anything unfriendly in their situations; and
positively declared, that he would still love, and still hope!</p>
<p>Fanny knew her own meaning, but was no judge of her own manner. Her manner
was incurably gentle; and she was not aware how much it concealed the
sternness of her purpose. Her diffidence, gratitude, and softness made
every expression of indifference seem almost an effort of self-denial;
seem, at least, to be giving nearly as much pain to herself as to him. Mr.
Crawford was no longer the Mr. Crawford who, as the clandestine,
insidious, treacherous admirer of Maria Bertram, had been her abhorrence,
whom she had hated to see or to speak to, in whom she could believe no
good quality to exist, and whose power, even of being agreeable, she had
barely acknowledged. He was now the Mr. Crawford who was addressing
herself with ardent, disinterested love; whose feelings were apparently
become all that was honourable and upright, whose views of happiness were
all fixed on a marriage of attachment; who was pouring out his sense of
her merits, describing and describing again his affection, proving as far
as words could prove it, and in the language, tone, and spirit of a man of
talent too, that he sought her for her gentleness and her goodness; and to
complete the whole, he was now the Mr. Crawford who had procured William's
promotion!</p>
<p>Here was a change, and here were claims which could not but operate! She
might have disdained him in all the dignity of angry virtue, in the
grounds of Sotherton, or the theatre at Mansfield Park; but he approached
her now with rights that demanded different treatment. She must be
courteous, and she must be compassionate. She must have a sensation of
being honoured, and whether thinking of herself or her brother, she must
have a strong feeling of gratitude. The effect of the whole was a manner
so pitying and agitated, and words intermingled with her refusal so
expressive of obligation and concern, that to a temper of vanity and hope
like Crawford's, the truth, or at least the strength of her indifference,
might well be questionable; and he was not so irrational as Fanny
considered him, in the professions of persevering, assiduous, and not
desponding attachment which closed the interview.</p>
<p>It was with reluctance that he suffered her to go; but there was no look
of despair in parting to belie his words, or give her hopes of his being
less unreasonable than he professed himself.</p>
<p>Now she was angry. Some resentment did arise at a perseverance so selfish
and ungenerous. Here was again a want of delicacy and regard for others
which had formerly so struck and disgusted her. Here was again a something
of the same Mr. Crawford whom she had so reprobated before. How evidently
was there a gross want of feeling and humanity where his own pleasure was
concerned; and alas! how always known no principle to supply as a duty
what the heart was deficient in! Had her own affections been as free as
perhaps they ought to have been, he never could have engaged them.</p>
<p>So thought Fanny, in good truth and sober sadness, as she sat musing over
that too great indulgence and luxury of a fire upstairs: wondering at the
past and present; wondering at what was yet to come, and in a nervous
agitation which made nothing clear to her but the persuasion of her being
never under any circumstances able to love Mr. Crawford, and the felicity
of having a fire to sit over and think of it.</p>
<p>Sir Thomas was obliged, or obliged himself, to wait till the morrow for a
knowledge of what had passed between the young people. He then saw Mr.
Crawford, and received his account. The first feeling was disappointment:
he had hoped better things; he had thought that an hour's entreaty from a
young man like Crawford could not have worked so little change on a
gentle-tempered girl like Fanny; but there was speedy comfort in the
determined views and sanguine perseverance of the lover; and when seeing
such confidence of success in the principal, Sir Thomas was soon able to
depend on it himself.</p>
<p>Nothing was omitted, on his side, of civility, compliment, or kindness,
that might assist the plan. Mr. Crawford's steadiness was honoured, and
Fanny was praised, and the connexion was still the most desirable in the
world. At Mansfield Park Mr. Crawford would always be welcome; he had only
to consult his own judgment and feelings as to the frequency of his
visits, at present or in future. In all his niece's family and friends,
there could be but one opinion, one wish on the subject; the influence of
all who loved her must incline one way.</p>
<p>Everything was said that could encourage, every encouragement received
with grateful joy, and the gentlemen parted the best of friends.</p>
<p>Satisfied that the cause was now on a footing the most proper and hopeful,
Sir Thomas resolved to abstain from all farther importunity with his
niece, and to shew no open interference. Upon her disposition he believed
kindness might be the best way of working. Entreaty should be from one
quarter only. The forbearance of her family on a point, respecting which
she could be in no doubt of their wishes, might be their surest means of
forwarding it. Accordingly, on this principle, Sir Thomas took the first
opportunity of saying to her, with a mild gravity, intended to be
overcoming, "Well, Fanny, I have seen Mr. Crawford again, and learn from
him exactly how matters stand between you. He is a most extraordinary
young man, and whatever be the event, you must feel that you have created
an attachment of no common character; though, young as you are, and little
acquainted with the transient, varying, unsteady nature of love, as it
generally exists, you cannot be struck as I am with all that is wonderful
in a perseverance of this sort against discouragement. With him it is
entirely a matter of feeling: he claims no merit in it; perhaps is
entitled to none. Yet, having chosen so well, his constancy has a
respectable stamp. Had his choice been less unexceptionable, I should have
condemned his persevering."</p>
<p>"Indeed, sir," said Fanny, "I am very sorry that Mr. Crawford should
continue to know that it is paying me a very great compliment, and I feel
most undeservedly honoured; but I am so perfectly convinced, and I have
told him so, that it never will be in my power—"</p>
<p>"My dear," interrupted Sir Thomas, "there is no occasion for this. Your
feelings are as well known to me as my wishes and regrets must be to you.
There is nothing more to be said or done. From this hour the subject is
never to be revived between us. You will have nothing to fear, or to be
agitated about. You cannot suppose me capable of trying to persuade you to
marry against your inclinations. Your happiness and advantage are all that
I have in view, and nothing is required of you but to bear with Mr.
Crawford's endeavours to convince you that they may not be incompatible
with his. He proceeds at his own risk. You are on safe ground. I have
engaged for your seeing him whenever he calls, as you might have done had
nothing of this sort occurred. You will see him with the rest of us, in
the same manner, and, as much as you can, dismissing the recollection of
everything unpleasant. He leaves Northamptonshire so soon, that even this
slight sacrifice cannot be often demanded. The future must be very
uncertain. And now, my dear Fanny, this subject is closed between us."</p>
<p>The promised departure was all that Fanny could think of with much
satisfaction. Her uncle's kind expressions, however, and forbearing
manner, were sensibly felt; and when she considered how much of the truth
was unknown to him, she believed she had no right to wonder at the line of
conduct he pursued. He, who had married a daughter to Mr. Rushworth:
romantic delicacy was certainly not to be expected from him. She must do
her duty, and trust that time might make her duty easier than it now was.</p>
<p>She could not, though only eighteen, suppose Mr. Crawford's attachment
would hold out for ever; she could not but imagine that steady, unceasing
discouragement from herself would put an end to it in time. How much time
she might, in her own fancy, allot for its dominion, is another concern.
It would not be fair to inquire into a young lady's exact estimate of her
own perfections.</p>
<p>In spite of his intended silence, Sir Thomas found himself once more
obliged to mention the subject to his niece, to prepare her briefly for
its being imparted to her aunts; a measure which he would still have
avoided, if possible, but which became necessary from the totally opposite
feelings of Mr. Crawford as to any secrecy of proceeding. He had no idea
of concealment. It was all known at the Parsonage, where he loved to talk
over the future with both his sisters, and it would be rather gratifying
to him to have enlightened witnesses of the progress of his success. When
Sir Thomas understood this, he felt the necessity of making his own wife
and sister-in-law acquainted with the business without delay; though, on
Fanny's account, he almost dreaded the effect of the communication to Mrs.
Norris as much as Fanny herself. He deprecated her mistaken but
well-meaning zeal. Sir Thomas, indeed, was, by this time, not very far
from classing Mrs. Norris as one of those well-meaning people who are
always doing mistaken and very disagreeable things.</p>
<p>Mrs. Norris, however, relieved him. He pressed for the strictest
forbearance and silence towards their niece; she not only promised, but
did observe it. She only looked her increased ill-will. Angry she was:
bitterly angry; but she was more angry with Fanny for having received such
an offer than for refusing it. It was an injury and affront to Julia, who
ought to have been Mr. Crawford's choice; and, independently of that, she
disliked Fanny, because she had neglected her; and she would have grudged
such an elevation to one whom she had been always trying to depress.</p>
<p>Sir Thomas gave her more credit for discretion on the occasion than she
deserved; and Fanny could have blessed her for allowing her only to see
her displeasure, and not to hear it.</p>
<p>Lady Bertram took it differently. She had been a beauty, and a prosperous
beauty, all her life; and beauty and wealth were all that excited her
respect. To know Fanny to be sought in marriage by a man of fortune,
raised her, therefore, very much in her opinion. By convincing her that
Fanny <i>was</i> very pretty, which she had been doubting about before,
and that she would be advantageously married, it made her feel a sort of
credit in calling her niece.</p>
<p>"Well, Fanny," said she, as soon as they were alone together afterwards,
and she really had known something like impatience to be alone with her,
and her countenance, as she spoke, had extraordinary animation; "Well,
Fanny, I have had a very agreeable surprise this morning. I must just
speak of it <i>once</i>, I told Sir Thomas I must <i>once</i>, and then I
shall have done. I give you joy, my dear niece." And looking at her
complacently, she added, "Humph, we certainly are a handsome family!"</p>
<p>Fanny coloured, and doubted at first what to say; when, hoping to assail
her on her vulnerable side, she presently answered—</p>
<p>"My dear aunt, <i>you</i> cannot wish me to do differently from what I
have done, I am sure. <i>You</i> cannot wish me to marry; for you would
miss me, should not you? Yes, I am sure you would miss me too much for
that."</p>
<p>"No, my dear, I should not think of missing you, when such an offer as
this comes in your way. I could do very well without you, if you were
married to a man of such good estate as Mr. Crawford. And you must be
aware, Fanny, that it is every young woman's duty to accept such a very
unexceptionable offer as this."</p>
<p>This was almost the only rule of conduct, the only piece of advice, which
Fanny had ever received from her aunt in the course of eight years and a
half. It silenced her. She felt how unprofitable contention would be. If
her aunt's feelings were against her, nothing could be hoped from
attacking her understanding. Lady Bertram was quite talkative.</p>
<p>"I will tell you what, Fanny," said she, "I am sure he fell in love with
you at the ball; I am sure the mischief was done that evening. You did
look remarkably well. Everybody said so. Sir Thomas said so. And you know
you had Chapman to help you to dress. I am very glad I sent Chapman to
you. I shall tell Sir Thomas that I am sure it was done that evening." And
still pursuing the same cheerful thoughts, she soon afterwards added, "And
will tell you what, Fanny, which is more than I did for Maria: the next
time Pug has a litter you shall have a puppy."</p>
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