<h2><SPAN name="chap51"></SPAN>Chapter LI</h2>
<p>Monday came and with it his final departure. All that could be done had been
done. Cowperwood said his farewells to his mother and father, his brothers and
sister. He had a rather distant but sensible and matter-of-fact talk with his
wife. He made no special point of saying good-by to his son or his daughter;
when he came in on Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday evenings, after he
had learned that he was to depart Monday, it was with the thought of talking to
them a little in an especially affectionate way. He realized that his general
moral or unmoral attitude was perhaps working them a temporary injustice. Still
he was not sure. Most people did fairly well with their lives, whether coddled
or deprived of opportunity. These children would probably do as well as most
children, whatever happened—and then, anyhow, he had no intention of
forsaking them financially, if he could help it. He did not want to separate
his wife from her children, nor them from her. She should keep them. He wanted
them to be comfortable with her. He would like to see them, wherever they were
with her, occasionally. Only he wanted his own personal freedom, in so far as
she and they were concerned, to go off and set up a new world and a new home
with Aileen. So now on these last days, and particularly this last Sunday
night, he was rather noticeably considerate of his boy and girl, without being
too openly indicative of his approaching separation from them.</p>
<p>“Frank,” he said to his notably lackadaisical son on this occasion,
“aren’t you going to straighten up and be a big, strong, healthy
fellow? You don’t play enough. You ought to get in with a gang of boys
and be a leader. Why don’t you fit yourself up a gymnasium somewhere and
see how strong you can get?”</p>
<p>They were in the senior Cowperwood’s sitting-room, where they had all
rather consciously gathered on this occasion.</p>
<p>Lillian, second, who was on the other side of the big library table from her
father, paused to survey him and her brother with interest. Both had been
carefully guarded against any real knowledge of their father’s affairs or
his present predicament. He was going away on a journey for about a month or so
they understood. Lillian was reading in a Chatterbox book which had been given
her the previous Christmas.</p>
<p>“He won’t do anything,” she volunteered, looking up from her
reading in a peculiarly critical way for her. “Why, he won’t ever
run races with me when I want him to.”</p>
<p>“Aw, who wants to run races with you, anyhow?” returned Frank,
junior, sourly. “You couldn’t run if I did want to run with
you.”</p>
<p>“Couldn’t I?” she replied. “I could beat you, all
right.”</p>
<p>“Lillian!” pleaded her mother, with a warning sound in her voice.</p>
<p>Cowperwood smiled, and laid his hand affectionately on his son’s head.
“You’ll be all right, Frank,” he volunteered, pinching his
ear lightly. “Don’t worry—just make an effort.”</p>
<p>The boy did not respond as warmly as he hoped. Later in the evening Mrs.
Cowperwood noticed that her husband squeezed his daughter’s slim little
waist and pulled her curly hair gently. For the moment she was jealous of her
daughter.</p>
<p>“Going to be the best kind of a girl while I’m away?” he said
to her, privately.</p>
<p>“Yes, papa,” she replied, brightly.</p>
<p>“That’s right,” he returned, and leaned over and kissed her
mouth tenderly. “Button Eyes,” he said.</p>
<p>Mrs. Cowperwood sighed after he had gone. “Everything for the children,
nothing for me,” she thought, though the children had not got so vastly
much either in the past.</p>
<p>Cowperwood’s attitude toward his mother in this final hour was about as
tender and sympathetic as any he could maintain in this world. He understood
quite clearly the ramifications of her interests, and how she was suffering for
him and all the others concerned. He had not forgotten her sympathetic care of
him in his youth; and if he could have done anything to have spared her this
unhappy breakdown of her fortunes in her old age, he would have done so. There
was no use crying over spilled milk. It was impossible at times for him not to
feel intensely in moments of success or failure; but the proper thing to do was
to bear up, not to show it, to talk little and go your way with an air not so
much of resignation as of self-sufficiency, to whatever was awaiting you. That
was his attitude on this morning, and that was what he expected from those
around him—almost compelled, in fact, by his own attitude.</p>
<p>“Well, mother,” he said, genially, at the last moment—he
would not let her nor his wife nor his sister come to court, maintaining that
it would make not the least difference to him and would only harrow their own
feelings uselessly—“I’m going now. Don’t worry. Keep up
your spirits.”</p>
<p>He slipped his arm around his mother’s waist, and she gave him a long,
unrestrained, despairing embrace and kiss.</p>
<p>“Go on, Frank,” she said, choking, when she let him go. “God
bless you. I’ll pray for you.” He paid no further attention to her.
He didn’t dare.</p>
<p>“Good-by, Lillian,” he said to his wife, pleasantly, kindly.
“I’ll be back in a few days, I think. I’ll be coming out to
attend some of these court proceedings.”</p>
<p>To his sister he said: “Good-by, Anna. Don’t let the others get too
down-hearted.”</p>
<p>“I’ll see you three afterward,” he said to his father and
brothers; and so, dressed in the very best fashion of the time, he hurried down
into the reception-hall, where Steger was waiting, and was off. His family,
hearing the door close on him, suffered a poignant sense of desolation. They
stood there for a moment, his mother crying, his father looking as though he
had lost his last friend but making a great effort to seem self-contained and
equal to his troubles, Anna telling Lillian not to mind, and the latter staring
dumbly into the future, not knowing what to think. Surely a brilliant sun had
set on their local scene, and in a very pathetic way.</p>
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